worthy

Have you ever stopped to think about why you really want to lose weight?

And I’m not talking about the obvious reasons of,
“I want to feel better” or “I want to look good”.

Every time you come up with a reason, ask yourself why.

Eventually you’ll come down to the REAL reason of why you want to lose weight.

I’ve mentioned it in previous posts about how weight is just a symptom of a deeper pain.

Here’s my weight cycle:

Feeling unworthy of love and acceptance.

Then going on a diet to achieve a certain body that I thought would get people to love and accept me.

I would fail at that and feel worse.

Even more unworthy than when I started.

So what would I do?

Try again.

Go on a diet, fail, feel like shit, hate myself and repeat.

If this you, it’s time to take a different approach. Contact me me and let’s work to find the root issue of your weight struggle and unhappiness.

You must learn her.

You must know the reason why she is silent. You must trace her weakest spots. You must write to her. You must remind her that you are there. You must know how long it takes for her to give up. You must be there to hold her when she is about to.

You must love her because many have tried and failed. And she wants to know that she is worthy to be loved, that she is worthy to be kept.

And, this is how you keep her.

—  –Junot Diaz, This Is How You Lose Her

There is a time and a season for everything. Life is all about change.

Jan. 2016
August. 2016
March. 2017

One of the most valuable lessons I have learned through out my journey is that our bodies go through seasons.

Seasons of growth
Seasons of resiliency
Seasons of strength
Seasons of weakness
Seasons of pain

Our bodies endure it all.

I’ve also learned all seasons are valuable in their own way.
That one is not superior to the other.

Just the way that life changes day after day, so do our physical, mental & emotional states.

And the best thing I could tell you & myself is to embrace these seasons of change with love & compassion.

You are doing the best that you can at any given moment. Give yourself credit for that.

Black Woman, yuh value more than gold.
Enjoy yourself but don’t lose control.
Don’t make dem tek yuh for no piece a meat, look how yuh sweet!
Tell dem certain things yuh just nah go dweet
—  Queen Ifrica“Black Woman” (2016)

Imagine you were invited to a private drinking party with Thor, Loki, the warriors three and Lady Sif. After a while everyone started to feel dizzy. You ask Thor if you can try to lift his hammer to see if you are worthy. He agrees with a smile and put Mjölnir in the table. When you reach the handle of the hammer, it pops out when you pull up. The shocked look in Thor’s face makes you and Loki burst in a laugh. Loki shakes his hand, revealing it was just an illusion.

This is a post for all those ADHDers out there who weren’t diagnosed as a kid, were diagnosed later in life (ie.: teen/adult), or who have yet to be diagnosed for whatever reason: 

You are valid.

You are valid.  

You are valid.

It isn’t up for debate and you don’t have to prove yourself to anyone. 
You deserve support and representation, and I believe in you.