worth my weight

When I started losing weight I noticed people started talking to me or being nicer to me and that my husband started being more affectionate towards me.

I would lay in bed and think “fuck man, people didn’t like me before because I was fat” and I would feel bad. The kind of bad that you feel in your bones, it makes your body ache. I didn’t like to think my worth was directly tied to my weight.

What I’ve come to realize is that it’s me. I’m nicer, im more approachable,I’m in better moods, I smile. People want to talk to me because I want to talk to people. My husband is more affectionate with me because I’m more affectionate with him.

They weren’t measuring my worth by my weight. I was :/

*calls research institute that only deals with rarest of endocrine cases and wonders if case is rare enough*

‘hi i have a genetic disease called the SDHD fault help me’ (heavily paraphrased)

‘oh that is very rare’

‘yes can you help me’

‘yes i think so can you get your doctor to give you an indefinite referral’

‘wait indefinite? oh, that’s right, it’s incurable’

‘yes, it is’

‘so my case is rare enough?’

‘yes, it is’

‘so i’ll probably see [desirable professor who has been recommended to me by desirable professor in Sydney but is extremely hard to see who only holds a clinic for two hours once a week and like at this point i’m pretty sure i’ll see Santa before i see him]?’

‘indeed it is his area and yes he is rarer than a unicorn but i think he’ll make an exception for your case.’

‘hey cool, i hope you have an awesome day thank you for helping me’

‘remember the referral needs to be indefinite.’

*hangs up*

my life is really weird at the moment.

Went to the doctor. Got weighed. I’m 263– an extra 3 pounds than usual!


Seriously, I used to be upset when I gained but now I know my worth isn’t in my weight. It’s me and my awesomeness that defines me.

Still kind. Still cute. And still hella happy.

Be mighty my friends.

- Mod Dom

Never Stop Fighting for Yourself

…Because in the end I have to live with myself for the rest of my life. I am willing to grow and change, and will happily accept it, if I know it will make me a better person. However, I will not allow myself to sink to levels that I have worked so hard to overcome within. Call me crazy. Call me a bitch. Call me whatever you want. I would rather live my life saying exactly how I feel and what I think, than hide behind insecurities and animosity. I find it enduring, for knowing when to walk away if I don’t feel like I am being treated how I know I could be. There’s people in my life that love that about my presence and it is those people I will happily fight for and give my time to.

If we are not helping each other bring out the best in ourselves, what is the point?

When we wake in the morning, we are met with the weight of errands and to-dos. This causes us to forget that from our lips falls poetry. We forget that our fingertips are paintbrushes. We forget that our hearts have the capacity to give love, and let love in. I spend my days trying to remember that, more than skin and bones, I’m worth more than my weight in gold, and so are you.

((OOC: I have had the MOST lovely day with my beautiful Cheesecake, being spoiled rotten, eating my weights worth in pancakes, and managing to spend all my money on a lot of coconut related things somehow. 

We spent so much time heart-eyes-ing each other that we took 0 selfies (????!!!) but I just managed to take this one picture of Jess and food…

(fight me TT).

Waking up this morning to the video from my loves was such a wonderful way to start the day. I am so, so grateful to have such loving, hilarious, sassy little shits in my life and I love you all so incredibly much.

Thank you so much TT for putting it together and editing what I suspect was a mid-length movie from Andy and KP XD

Thank you so much my darlings! Ima go eat some more <3 <3 <3

……I will have my revenge for the song…)

We Make the Kingdom - Pt.6

Pairing: Yongguk x OC
Genre: Fantasy, with Angst and Smut to come
Summary:  After a vampire attack leaves you almost dead, you are rescued by a group of werelions, powers long thought to be extinct. Upon discovering the same power flows in your blood, you join their fight against encroaching vampires and another, very human monster, to save the kingdom.
Previous parts: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5

Despite your accelerated healing, your body continues to ache at the end of each day of the following weeks. Jongup is a patient but persistent instructor, working you through drill after drill and never losing his temper when you make a mistake. They occur less and less frequently as the memory of the movements become embedded in your muscles, muscles that continue to  grow stronger.

The extra hours you practice, recruiting the lions who stay behind with you nightly as partners, aid your advancing abilities as well. It is obvious they hold back when they let you attempt to fight them, but hopefully soon they will have to put in some effort to hold you off. You are determined to match Jongup’s efforts with your own.

Yongguk’s teachings arms you with a mental arsenal of information. He continues giving you material limited to your vampiric foes, letting you evaluate it by yourself before reporting your conclusions to him. He listens, offering corrections as needed and prodding you to defend your positions with questions. Your discussions become spirited and enjoyable and variedas Yongguk opens to you. Beneath his almost placid exterior thrives an active, incredibly intelligent mind.

This discovery leads you to be even more intrigued with the alpha. Not only does he posses book knowledge of science and art and literature, but the often more difficult subjects of human nature and philosophy as well. Talking with Yongguk rekindles a insatiable thirst for learning in your heart, one he readily helps you try to fill.

He seems to enjoy your mental sparring as much as you, but you can sense he still holds some part of himself aloof from you. As many smiles as you’re able to coax from his lips, Yongguk never smiles with you the way he does the other lions. Sometimes you envy them and the obvious affection he holds for them, the ease and intimacy of their all belonging to each other. They are a pride and you are still an outlier: accepted but not yet into the inner circle. Whenever the feeling creeps into your skin, you brush it aside and throw yourself into your studies with renewed vigor. You will earn your place among them. Something so precious is not easily given.

Unfortunately, despite how well you are progressing in your other areas of study, fully shifting into your were-form still eludes you. You practice in secret with Junhong and in the privacy of one of the upper rooms when he hunts, wanting to surprise the others.

It was only a number of days before you could find it the instant you concentrate. The heartbeat of the lioness nestles in your chest like the steady purr of a well fed cat beside a fire. Waking your power proves another matter entirely.

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Fool's Silver - sparrow30 - Yuri!!! on Ice (Anime) [Archive of Our Own]
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
By Organization for Transformative Works

Yuri pauses outside the cafe where he’s meeting Victor and Katsudon for lunch, taking a moment to check his reflection in the glass window next to the door. The hickeys that Otabek spent such care and attention peppering across his skin yesterday have darkened overnight, coming up purple and vibrant against his usually pale skin. He looks thoroughly debauched, completely unfit for polite society. He’s going to give Victor and Katsudon an absolute heart attack.

He can’t wait.

In which Victor is a menace, Yuuri is an enabler, and Yuri really needs to learn not to start things he can’t finish.

anonymous asked:

hi, im not sure if im on the right blog to ask, but recently i have been wanting ti read good sakura-centric fanfics. do you know any quality fics where she is a total bamf? preferably femslash, gen or ot3 ship, but i could settle for narusaku if the fic is worth it.


Pulling my Weight

Dirt and Ashes, or: The One-and-a-Half Body Problem

How To Save The World With No One Even Realizing

Battle Hymn of Trees

survival of the fittest

Sasuke is a Moron

It’s Just That Any One of Us Is Half Without Another One Is You

anonymous asked:

Ok, so quick question. Out of the all the team captains who do you think lucked out the most with the GoM? Like who's job is the easiest where their GoM member is concerned? Apart from Hyuuga and Riko because obviously Kuroko is a delight.

whose job is the easiest??  well obviously that award goes to Imayoshi bc his philosophy is “let Aomine do whatever he wants lmao” AND he got Momoi too as part of that two-for-one deal they have going on, so like, he definitely scored

I know it’s not “Transformation Tuesday,” but I’ve recently hit a bit of a plateau with my weight loss and have been getting discouraged. I was looking through old photos and realized how far I’ve come. There’s about a 45-pound difference between these photos. I’ve gone from a size 14 to a size 8. I just needed to remind myself that this change doesn’t happen overnight. It’s a lifestyle change, and it’s a process. I’ve still got some work to do, but I’m proud of how far I’ve come. I’m finally starting to be comfortable in my own skin, and that’s an amazing feeling.