A volte mi sento incredibilmente fuori posto. Addirittura a disagio nella mia stessa pelle, come se non fossi, non so, adatta al mondo che mi circonda. Come se fossi nata nel momento e nel luogo sbagliato.
Ever watched a show you used to love when you were younger and you start to fall in love all over again with the same characters but then have to question all your morals and life choices because you are 30 now but they are still 16 in the show you’re watching? Like is it OK because in real life they’re actually older than me so even though I’m twice the age of the person I am watching, the space time continuum allows me to still fangirl over this person who aged at the same speed I have? Or am I just a creepy weirdo?
Girl Meets One Tree Hill AU ↳ Riley Matthews as Brooke Davis
“She was fiercely independent. Brooke Davis. Brilliant, and beautiful, and brave. In 2 years she had grown more than anyone I had ever known. Brooke Davis is going to change the world someday. And I’m not sure she even knows it.”
I wish I’d gone back in that game. State championship. When I look back at my life and see where it all went wrong, that’s where I always end up. Fourth quarter, time running down and sitting on the bench at the state championship and refusing to play. At night in my dreams I do go back in, and in my dreams I take it back, all of it, and then I wake up. I’m sorry. I’m sorry for that day and every day since.
One Tree Hill; season 7: It all just seems so fake. This idea that good things happen to good people and there’s magic in the world, and that the meek and righteous will inherit it. There’s too many good people who suffer for something like that to be true. There are too many prayers that go unanswered. Every day we ignore how completely broken this world is, and we tell ourselves that it’s all going to be okay, “You’re going to be okay.” But it’s not okay. And once you know that, there’s no going back. There’s no magic in the world. At least today there isn’t.
to the girl who thinks she loves him now,
i don’t know if you actually love him. i don’t know if how you feel will ever compare to the way i felt, to the way i still do. but please love him. please love him in the best way that you know how. memorize his voice and the way he smiles like he just discovered gold when he talks about his favorite movie. let him listen to the soundtracks he loves that don’t have any words even if it makes you antsy, and don’t wonder if i was the one who bought them for him, because i’m telling you now that i did. let him teach you to fall in love with brooke davis if he has the courage to watch one tree hill with you. recognize that he is not lucas, but instead nathan. i know you didn’t get to truly meet the nathan in him, but trust me, it’s there. fall in love with the way he can’t sleep in any normal position, and let him kiss you in the morning despite your morning breath. look around his room and memorize everything. you see all of those funko pops? ask him about them, ask him which ones are his favorite. memorize them because he loves them so much, and maybe buy him some. ask him about the director’s clapper, encourage him to follow his dream. did you see his hollywood star before it was taken down? his face lit up brighter than ever when he saw that for the first time. the number 13 jerseys? don’t be jealous that that was our number, because he’s in your arms now. and when you ask him about all of these things he has held onto, don’t get angry when he tries to brush it all off like it doesn’t mean anything to him anymore even though you know deep down that those memories will never go away. i was his first everything, but i will not be his last. hold onto him. love him. miss him. let him miss you. reunions are always the best with him, and he’ll treat you like a princess. but above all, please be worthy of him. i cannot bear to see that boy’s heart break one more time, even if it’s from afar. he is the most wonderful guy i know and i don’t think i’ll ever stop loving him. but he’s yours now and i have to live with that. so please, just take care of him. because i can’t be there anymore to catch him when he falls.