world's greatest lover

“I Am Not The Worlds Greatest Lover .”

This is a note I found from my ex boyfriend in one of my journals. We use to leave notes for each other to find when we got home from work or woke up. It took me awhile to find this because I was in such a dark place when we were together. I couldn’t write or make art. I didn’t have the courage to pick up a pencil or pen. I felt like all my energy was devoted into trying to bring “us” up as a couple. I wanted for us to grow so badly. I stopped focusing on my own growth. I gave up on my art and I just forgot myself completely. I’ve found so many notes he left behind and this one really hit me. We weren’t right for each other, but we tried.