working on one's self

Something I’ve realised working in retail is that………..ppl just don’t fucking read……

Love Square Week Day 6: Kisses

I know I’m late (im still in finals) but i really wanted to do something for this one. The Ladynoir one wasnt working tho xD. Also self indulgent Marichat because i can.

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i’ve always wondered what it would be like to live inside the self titled album. how does color seep into a world that’s so devoid of it? sometimes i feel like the only color in my whole world is the hurricane of color raging behind by eyes.

if i find a way to calm the storm, i can paint a world of black and white.

but a hurricane is so easy to drown in.

Yandere!Kara x Ichimatsu Comic

This is that “angsty” comic that I spent way too long on i dont know why, it’s not even that angsty anyway.. under the cut for yandere and abuse. It’s not crazy or anything, but still there.

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a contronym is a word which is the opposite of itself, having two meanings which defy each other, two reverse Janus faces. for example, when you look at her she is both your whole world and why you are massively and horrifically empty. for example, kissing her on a sunday both feels like prayer and hellfire. 

for example, you are your own contronym. someone who is solely intent on self-destructing while somehow also the only one working to save you. it is the mornings you can’t get up contrasted with the nights you can’t fall asleep. it is the way you feel everything at once like a meteor is reflecting off the solar panels of your bones while also feeling nothing at all. it’s that you want to be in love and you’re also not good enough. it’s that you’re terrified that tomorrow won’t come and you’re also terrified of what happens if it does. 

for example. one shaking hand dusts to remove dirt, white gloves around a white throat, or one can dust dirt over a grave to replace it. a contronym. you are alive and yet completely unsure if this is living.

Twenty One Pilots asks

Self - titled

  • Why won’t you let us use your name?:    What is your name?
  • And I die as I wait as I wait on my crime:     What are you most guilty of?
  • You should never trust the Pantaloon:    What three words describe you?
  • So wash me with your water:     Is there anyone you miss?
  • Friend, please don’t take your life away from me:    Who is someone you can’t live without?
  • There’s miles of land in front of us:    If you could go anywhere where would you go?
  • The man deserves a medal:    What are you most proud of?
  • Your twisted mind is like snow on the road:    What is you favorite season?
  • I don’t fall slow like I used to:    What are you most afraid of?
  • He thinks that faith might be dead:    Are you religious?
  •  And I begin to envy the headlights driving south:    What do you listen to when you drive?
  • Sometimes we will die and sometimes we will fly away:    If you could have any superpower what would you have?
  • I’m singing:    What is your favorite song at the moment?
  • Now is the climax to the story:    What is your favorite book?

Regional At Best

  • If we could just lay down and wake up in Slowtown:    What is your favorite childhood memory?
  • There’s a stomach inside my brain:    What is your dream job?
  • Culture forbids:    What languages can you speak?
  • Is not a kitchen sink to me, OK friend?:    What is your kitchen sink
  • Won’t you go to someone else’s dreams?:    What is your favorite dream?
  • I hear a second voice behind your tongue somehow:    What language would you like to learn?
  • Ruby take my hand, please lead me to the Promised Land:    Do you believe in aliens?
  • Inside my bird’s eye theories:    What conspiracy theory do you believe in?
  • I’m the son of all I’ve done:    How many people are in your family?

Vessel

  • Cause the dark’s not taking prisoners tonight:    What is your favorite quote?
  • Twisting the kaleidoscope behind both of my eyes:    Are you artistic?
  • Me for yelling, I’m telling you green gardens:    If you were a plant what would you be?
  • And turned our future upside down:    What is the wildest thing you’ve ever done?
  • And now I just sit in silence:    What was the first song you remember really liking?
  • Night falls with gravity:    Are you a morning or night person?
  • Cause there’s a screen on my chest:    What is your favorite television series?
  • Don’t wanna give you all my pieces:    Is there anyone you trust completely?
  • You say that you are close, is close the closest star?:    If you could time travel where and when would you go to?
  • But there’s hope out the window:    What gives you hope?
  • Silent in the trees    Where is your favorite place to be?
  • Stay alive, stay alive, for me:    Who is your role model?

Blurryface

  • One time to think and I say we start now:    What is one thing you want to do in the future?
  • Sometimes a certain smell will take me back to when I was young:    What is your favorite smell?
  • I know it’s hard sometimes:    How are you feeling today?
  • Yo, this song will never be on the radio:    Favorite song that is not on the radio?
  • But it takes someone to come around to show you how:    What is your sexual orientation?
  • But we go where we want to:     What is something you firmly believe in?
  • But I’m not good with directions and I hide behind my mouth:    What is your worst trait?
  • I want the markings made on my skin:    Do you have any tattoos? If not do you want one and of what?
  • I wanted to be a better brother, better son:    If you could go back in time to fix something would you?
  • But because of you I might think twice:     Is there special someone that you are falling for right now?
  • It’s just poetry divided:    What is your favorite poem/poet?
  • Our hometown’s in the dark:    What reminds you of home?
  • Don’t you test me though, just because I play the piano:    Do you play any instruments?
  • I want to be known by you:    If you could meet any famous person who would you meet?

BONUS

  • You’ll never know the psychopath sitting next to you:    What is something you take for granted?
  • It’s time to say goodbye:    Who was your hardest goodbye?

Stay street my friends!

Motivation can be a bitch.

Life has up’s and downs. Your motivation will do the same.
When you lose motivation sometimes you just gotta get real with yourself and accept the facts. You need to get determined instead, you need to be ready to grind it out even on those lazy days.
When your motivation returns in a couple weeks you’ll be happy you stuck it out because you maintained momentum and your progress is what will continue to motivate you to keep pushing. I call it the “reaping the benefits phase”, it varies for everyone but it can mean you got your “newbie gains” or dropped a pant size, maybe you hit a PR or finally feel properly nourished and it’s all making your whole day better.
Motivation comes and goes but you can make it through. The more you progress the more you’ll realize that your not reaching for a goal anymore but relaxing into a whole new lifestyle. One that you’ve created for your self, your true self. Self love, fitness, health. All that is benefiting you body, mind and soul.
Maybe that’s cliché but I feel more in touch with the self now that I’m taking control of my lifestyle. This process has been long but it’s been the best decision I’ve ever made. That alone keeps me motivated. I’m better now. I’m stronger now.

And I will become my best.

i feel like I’ve seen so many posts talking about dva needing a support-figure in her life (and I’ve done a lot, like w/Ana and pharah and a few others scattered here and there) but like honestly what about lucio?

who’s the older, wiser character keeping an eye on him and giving him advice for dealing? Who’s the one who pulls him aside after a rough mission and gives him a tight hug when it gets to be too much, and is okay with lucio waking them up before the sun’s up because of a nightmare?

let me argue, against the skeptics for a minute: Reinhardt

Listen. Dva has the amaris, in my opinion, who watch out for her emotional well being and are ready for any breakdowns. 76 is hella caught up in his own shit, I don’t think mercy could ever, eveeeer be a good mentor b/c she’s a prodigy and can only connect w/other extreme geniuses, and mccree seems like a #HotMess in the last comic

So I argue Reinhardt

Reinhardt thinks it’s great to have such sprightly, energetic young adults in overwatch. Lena, Hana, and lucio are joyful and friendly, and while Reinhardt imagines that will mellow out with experience (he remembers jack’s easygoing laugh and Ana’s bright smiles, gabe’s snarky but kind demeanor, after all) it’s refreshing and keeps spirits higher than they’d be if it was just the old crowd

it takes awhile for him to notice. at least four or five missions past when someone /needed/ to notice.

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Inspired by @werewolfmcwolfy ‘s post 

AU where Sirius is a former child star just trying to go to college and “live a normal life” and Remus keeps posting memes of Sirius from his glory days in their class Facebook page.

This started as tags on the post, but then the tags got too long (this is super long - so sorry). And this is also sort of for @lala-lady-elena because you said you enjoy my tags and this is basically tags in not tag form - and I saw the post when you reblogged it <3. 

  • The amount of messages that Sirius probably sent THIS KID
  • THAT JUST WON’T LET HIS DEMONS REST IN PIECE
  • and telling him that he needs to FOR THE LOVE OF GOD
  • just stOP
  • because he is RUINING his reputation as cool and suave
  • Sirius has put a lot of effort into making people forget about his very unfortunate childhood
  • (not that he was a bad actor)
  • (in fact, he actually won some award)
  • not that THE KID can ever know this
    • (warning: the kid definitely already knows this and is simply waiting for the best time to use this information to his advantage)
  • because if Sirius has to do something
  • he might as well excel
  • but that doesn’t mean he enJOYED it
    • how DARE you insinuate that Prongs?
    • I would never be so materialistic
    • ‘just yesterday you cried because the crop top you wanted was $40′
    • IT IS A PIECE OF FABRIC
    • IT SHOULD NOT COST THAT MUCH
    • IT IS AN OUTRAGE
    • I JUST WANT TO LOOK PRETTY
    • anyways
    • I got distracted by my own personal outrage at the price of clothing and decided to let Sirius be dramatic for me
  • but back to THIS KID
  • who won’t let Sirius be super cool and fly at uni
  • as he studies art???
    • economy????
    • how to be a pe teacher???
    • law????
  • idk let’s go with law
  • and THIS KID only responds to Sirius’s messages with memes of Sirius
  • and Sirius has no idea who this kid is
  • he’s never seen him on campus before
  • he doesn’t know what his major is
  • does he even go to the school???
  • so now one of tho things occurs
  • either one
    • Sirius starts posting flyers around the school
    • obviously they’re memed
    • asking for information on the Sirius Black memester
    • he probably offers massages (from James) or something like that - maybe authentic Indian food? 
    • well Lily sees it, and she’s Remus’s bff
      • and to be frank, she is sick and tired of Remus Lupin going on and on about wonder child Sirius Black and how amazing he is
      • honeslty, the amount of information that Remus has amassed on Sirius would make both the CIA and the FBI proud 
      • Remus probably knew things about Sirius that Sirius didn’t know
      • Lily was creeped out
      • and in desperate need of a massage 
    • so she gives Sirius Remus’s contact info, and she gets her massage from James and then everything is happily ever after
  • or TWO
    • the next semester starts
    • and Sirius is taking this ancient civilizations course 
    • and he sees this super dorky adorable guy sitting in the front/middle of the room
    • and Sirius positions himself so that he’d be able to see a clear view of this adorables guys’ face
    • and it’s a relatively small class
    • so the prof calls out names (I don’t know if this is a thing that happens in uni’s if it isn’t, call it poetic license)
    • and the prof calls out remus lupin
    • and Sirius makes a mental note that THE KID is in the class
      • because he was too busy staring at the adorable guys face to pay attention to who responded 
    • and after class
    • Sirius runs out after the adorable guy (he didn’t pay attention and didn’t realize class was dismissed)
    • and he yells out before he can stop himself
    • and adorable guy turns around
    • and Sirius doesn’t know what to say
    • so he goes, “do you know who Remus Lupin is? I need to talk to him”
    • and Remus has sort of been planning this since he first saw Sirius walk into the class
    • goes, “yeah sure, let me give you his number” 
    • AND JUST GIVES SIRIUS HIS NUMBER
    • AND THEN TURNS AROUND AND JUST WALKS AWAY
    • Sirius is dumfounded
      • he did not see Remus turn the corner and jump in happiness at his success like the little dork that is 
    • and slowly makes his way back to his apartment/dorm with james 
    • where he texts remus and then they live happily ever after 
    • because I really need to stop typing and do homework
2017 New Years Resolutions
  • Violin: Lock yourself in a practice room until a random passerby hears you begging to be let out. Have fewer distractions while in the practice room.
  • Viola: Continue to keep yourself composed every time someone mistakes your instrument for the other one. Maybe just learn to play a different instrument.
  • Cello: Become a more social and successful version of yourself. Also you need to floss more.
  • Bass: Invent a robot that carries the bass around for you. Wear more sunscreen.
  • Piccolo: continue the never-ending pursuit to not going deaf, and start going to the gym, which you might (will) get to busy to keep doing by February.
  • Flute: become first chair. If already first chair, beat down all the other flutes trying to become first chair. There can only be one.
  • Oboe: cry less, make more friends
  • Bassoon: practice more & work on crippling self image issues
  • Clarinet: Try not to murder that one guy in your section who doesn't have a clue what intonation or practicing is. Actually, maybe murder him.
  • Bass Clarinet: Do more with your life and become more involved in activities. You sit at home too much. If anxiety plagues you and you can't, go for more walks alone.
  • Saxophones: Eat healthi- oh look, pizza.
  • French Horn: Drink more water
  • Trumpet: *didn't have a resolution*
  • Trombone: Become a better musician, work on improving that one character flaw that keeps you awake at night.
  • Baritone/Euph: Try new things, don't start online dating.
  • Tuba: call your grandparents more, rediscover the will to live
  • Percussion: learn to tie a bowtie for realsies, instead of just using a clip on.