Do you know the uncomfortable feeling when you meet that person who’s about to mess up your life? It’s kind of funny and not everyone would believe it actually exists but I had it when I first met him. I love pasta so much and it was lunch but at that moment, I couldn’t eat. I ended up trying to stuff the food all in because it would be rude not to but that uneasy feeling inside me didn’t give me a rest. I never told anybody that, even to him.
Well, truth be told, he did mess up my life. I was fine alone. A routine that I try not to miss, classes that can actually classify me as a nerd and poems I write about the love that hasn’t come to exist. I had friends. Just enough so I could hang out with people when I want to and have plenty of alone time. It was kind of lonely but I was fine.
I didn’t look at him as someone I would fall in love with. I mean, he’s cute but he slouches even while walking. He doesn’t dress that well. I never had a “type” but I was pretty sure it wasn’t someone like him. He doesn’t talk to me a lot and maybe if it weren’t for my roommate, he wouldn’t know I exist. He loves these video games I kind of know because I have a couple of brothers who love them. I think I’m kind of all-over-the-place while he was this straight-laced boy. It wasn’t a likely combination.
But I used the word “mess” twice and I think by now it’s pretty clear why I did. I never thought of kissing someone at 16. But you know, life hits you when you least expect it. And that was him. He made me do things I thought I would never do. He also made me cry a lot but damn, that boy made so mad in love that it felt like I was possessed. I think Cupid really was there and that arrow he shot right through me, it made me jump off a cliff even though I don’t have wings.
It was a mess. It was pretty, yes, it was. And like all things pretty, it had to hurt. Nevertheless, I love every inch of it. Even the parts I used to hate. Even the moments I wish that never happened. Even the times when it was pure ugly. I loved every inch of it but it all went away. I don’t know where he is now or what he does or who he is with but I promised myself I would save him in my midnight skies. And I did. We are a star now. Dead and faraway but still glowing in the darkest of times. I don’t know if I will get to experience that kind of hit in the face once again. Maybe my heart won’t beat as ferociously as it did for anyone else other than him. I don’t know for sure but I know I will never forget my first love. I hope he doesn’t forget about me.
Aromatherapy relaxes the mind, body, and spirit. Studies have shown that it can even relieve physical pain. Simply buy yourself some essential oils and an oil diffuser. Use it whenever you’d like to ease pain or calm down.
ASMR Videos -
Listening to ASMR, as many should be aware, gives listeners a pleasant tingling sensation throughout their bodies. It can also help people with things such as anxiety and/or depression. Apparently, not everyone can experience it. (Most can.) But even if you’re someone that can’t, ASMR can still be a relaxing and enjoyable little hobby.
Squishy Toys -
(Before you think “I’m too old for toys,” you are NEVER too old! Seriously!) Squishy toys are both aesthetically pleasing and fun to play with, unlike boring, dense stress balls. Most squishies have an unimaginable soft and satisfying consistency that many people are absolutely obsessed with.
Bath & Beauty Products -
Self-care is a wonderful way to make yourself feel good both psychologically and physically. Similar to “aromatherapy,” soothing scents contribute to a sense of calm. On top of that, many products are healthy for your body and are sometimes fun to use! Things like bath bombs, soaps, lotions, candles, or air fresheners are a few examples of items.
Day Dreaming -
Daydreaming can cheer you up and give you satisfying ‘fuzzy’ feelings. I think it especially adds to the fuzzy, dream-like sensation if your eyes are closed or if you’re in a soft, warm, and comfy spot; such as in bed or on a sofa.
Hopefully you’ll consider trying out something from this list or got inspired in order to think of your own relaxing activities!
Taking notes 📝 watching and listening to Key Speakers that will be at 10X Growth Conference @grantcardone @thesharkdaymond and @jarrodglandt in the background! Priceless information. The ironic thing was that a young lady from his office called me at 5:39 pm. I’m on the right vibration with this 10X team! __________________________________