words in a book

stop waiting for him
to give you the world
when he hasn’t even
loaned you his heart.
—  by shelby leigh
After meeting you I just don’t think there will be any other. A part of me will never be whole again. I picked up your habits, good and bad. Phrases you said became a part of me and I find myself using them in sentences. I memorized the lyrics of all your favorite songs and I catch myself singing them randomly. I smell of your scent every once in a while and I cannot help but wonder where you are, and if you are thinking of me as well. I close my eyes and all I see is you. You are in every part of me, consuming me.
Everything
seems so goddamn untrue
but how could I ever
stop loving you
when there’s this
itch in my chest
and this
hitch in my breath
caused
by whatever you do.
—  // poetry
j.d.m.
There’s an EXO book. So to write in it, what do we need? We need a pen right? That pen is EXO-L. It’s only when we meet with you we are able to write history. Without you, we are unable to continue writing history. And if EXO book disappears, the pen will become obsolete right? In order to prevent that from happening, let’s run forward together!
—  Byun Baekhyun || 170528 Exordium’dot

I am tired of being ashamed of my body. I feel like my arms are as thick as tree trunks, and when I look at my stomach, I see unwanted rolling hills. I am so exhausted, constantly pinching and pulling at my body. Fat shouldn’t be the characterizing factor of a human being. Kindness should be. I want to be someone with a good heart. Intelligence should be. I want to inspire people with my thirst for knowledge. Love should be. Because what is life without love? Nothing. So if I am fat but I’m kind, intelligent, and loving, is that really so bad? There is so much more to humans than their physicality. Remember that being a good person is so much more important than forcing your body to conform to societal standards.

Beauty is internal. And you are so beautiful.

—  Excerpt from a book I’ll never write
You’re not a stupid or a failure, you’re learning. It’s okay to fail, but you have to fail forward. You will feel tired all the time, you must learn when to rest and how to live a healthy life. Master the art of time management. Guard your heart. Never blame others for your mistakes. And lastly, if you feel you’re not growing anymore, it’s okay to let go and be ready for your next adventure.
—  E.J. Cenita
I wanted to grab my phone and call him.” she stared at the photo she’s been holding for hours. She’s talking to her best friend, telling her about all the things she had been feeling these past few days. It had been a silent week for her. A week of gloomy days and drizzles from the grayish skies. A week of starless night and moonless sleep. A week of feelings she can’t truly describe.“ I don’t know the exact reason why I’m saying this to you. But I really wanted to talk to him. I need to hear his voice. I need to know that he’s doing fine. I need him to tell me that everything is going to be all right. I don’t know but now I feel that maybe, I need to hear it directly from him. Maybe he should tell me that he’s not coming back. That he’s going to avoid me forever even if we happen to cross each other’s path again in the future. Maybe he should tell me that everything is going to change and I can’t do anything about it. That I can’t make the impossible things happen, the way I wanted them to. I know he said it already, but maybe I need to hear it again and again, until it knocked me back to my senses. Until I believed that it was real. Until I believed that it was not just the scariest nightmare I’ve been through. Maybe someone needs to remind me that I need to finally loosen my grip to this photograph of him. That he’s no longer happy to be with me. That I need to finally let him go. For real.
—  ma.c.a // Tell me, You’re no longer mine
on the hottest of days we pray for rain but as soon as it begins to fall we run for shelter. so it’s no surprise when we fall everyone who has always promised to be there suddenly disappears.
—  overcast// r.g.
The alarm will ring at 6am, i’ll open the curtains, make breakfast, drink coffee. The sun will rise and we can try again
—  L.S.
I didn’t expect you to wait for me. I didn’t expect you to be mine, when I couldn’t be yours back. I expected you to move on, I was waiting for it. I just didn’t expect it to hurt so much when you did…
—  You can’t prepare for that feeling
If you could say that one thing, to that one person, what would it be?
—  do you even dare to say it? | a.m

There are somethings in this world that only cause you pain,

And while holding onto them causes you pain, letting go of them causes just as much pain.

Personally, if I’m going to suffer either way, I’d rather suffer protecting something I care about.

—  Excerpt from a book I’ll never write