words can not explain how happy I am

Albert Camus for the Signs
  • Aries: "Deep feelings always mean more than they are capable of saying."
  • Taurus: "There is so much stubborn hope in the human heart."
  • Gemini: "That’s why I like you so much. Your heart isn’t dead."
  • Cancer: "Yes, be patient with me. My heart is heavy."
  • Leo: "Man is the only creature who refuses to be what he is."
  • Virgo: "I am on your side. But you have no way of knowing it, because your heart is blind."
  • Libra: "I am strangely tired, not from having talked so much but at the mere thought of what I still have to say."
  • Scorpio: "I didn’t like having to explain to them, so I just shut up, smoked a cigarette, and looked at the sea."
  • Sagittarius: "How can it be that, linked to such suffering, her face is still the face of happiness for me?"
  • Capricorn: "Words that come from the heart are always simple."
  • Aquarius: "Every act of rebellion expresses a nostalgia for innocence and an appeal to the essence of being."
  • Pisces: "I opened myself to the gentle indifference of the world."
The Love She Felt

Originally posted by kpopidolaegyooo

Pairing: Jimin x Reader

Genre: Angst

Word Count: 324

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Jimin just didn’t know how to love, but he wants to learn how.

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Finally I saw my favorite band in concert not just one but TWO times in a three days and it was fucking amazing. I can’t believe Matty took the flag I made for Loving Someone and he danced with it in his head, it was so emotional, and at the end of the show he took it and left the stage with it in his hands. As you can see it’s broken because the security guy ripped it out of my hands because it wasn’t allowed to have flags so I throw it to the stage and then Matty took it and I lost my shit for the rest of the song. I cried so much because that was a part of me and my group. We met because of this band and we were waiting for that moment for 3 (almost 4) years. We were in first row and the crowd was MENTAL, the band was so happy to hear us singing every word of everysong like crazy. And two days after we saw them live AGAIN. I can not explain how grateful and how happy I am. It’s a dream come true. My life is complete.

How can I explain to you, my happiness, my golden, wonderful happiness, how much I am all yours – with all my memories, poems, outbursts, inner whirlwinds? Or explain that I cannot write a word without hearing how you will pronounce it – and can’t recall a single trifle I’ve lived through without regret – so sharp! – that we haven’t lived through it together – whether it’s the most, the most personal, intransmissible – or only some sunset or other at the bend of a road – you see what I mean, my happiness?
And I know: I can’t tell you anything in words – and when I do on the phone then it comes out completely wrong. Because with you one needs to talk wonderfully, the way we talk with people long gone, do you know what I mean, in terms of purity and lightness and spiritual precision – but I – je patauge terribly. Yet you can be bruised by an ugly diminutive – because you are so absolutely resonant – like seawater, my lovely.
—  Vladimir Nabokov, from Letters to Vera (Penguin Classics, 2014)

I HIT 900 FOLLOWERS!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

thank you all so much! I literally love you all so much and I can’t believe this is true! how can I have 900 followers ?? you guys are so amazing and I can’t help but feel so surprised I would have never thought I would get this many followers and in such a small time!  you guys are so crazy and I love you so so so much!! I'm like having a heart attack right now and this is still so crazy to me!! the next milestone is 1,000 and that's when I start to die! you guys are just so freaking crazy and I love you so so so much!!! thank you, all for 900 and I know this is short but I can’t even explain in words how happy I am!! also want to say thank you to a lot of people for helping me get here but I don’t want this to be too long so ill list a few! @batfamily-imagines @crazyfangirl1810 @soepicsokim @alfred-the-cat-writes @angstytodd @tim-help and so many more of you! thank you all so many guys for keeping me motivated and just being my friend! I love you all so much! thank you!

p.s if your wondering I’m talking to te’a again! or @alfred-the-cat-writes  

Prompt Information

I am so happy to see all of the positive responses to Ignoct week! I am going to kick it off by explaining how some of this is going to go!

1) Prompts

Prompt suggestions will be taken until June 21st, 23:59 JST

Prompt suggestions will then be sorted and a vote will be taken (I am thinking there will be 3-4 options allowed) for which prompts will be used!

Prompts will be available in three categories. You can choose to do one, two, or all three for each day!

Prompt 1 will be a singular word or open-ended idea (I.E. Noctis Cooks)

Prompt 2 will be a more structured idea or theme (I.E. Noctis breaks Ignis’s glasses… how did it happen? And how does Ignis respond?)

These two prompts will be available in list format on July 1st, so that everyone has 1 month to prepare. You can post all of your content starting on July 31st.

Now, there will be something else added… WILD CARDS! After all, everyone here is wanting to write Ignoct, and maybe you don’t like the prompts. That is fine; the prompts are here to guide you to some cute ideas, but you aren’t obligated to follow them. Remember that this is all about creating content and having fun. No one should be forced to make stuff they don’t like just because it is the prompt!

There will also be a “Timed Quest” available every day of Ignoct week, where a surprise!prompt will be posted at 0:00JST that can be filled for the day. These are purely for you level-grinders who are up for the challenge!

Later we will talk about… Prizes?!?!

{Reaction} EXO finding you with your voice lost.

Can you do an EXO reaction to you losing your voice? ❤️

Note: Thank you for your patience and waiting! Fighting~!

Disclaimer: I don’t own the gifs/ images used.

Main Masterlist - EXO Masterlist

Park Chanyeol

Originally posted by jungkooktouchbutts

Chanyeol smirked, finally he had got his revenge. For the past few days you had been relentlessly texting Kihyun of Monsta X, and now he could get you back for all the times you’d ignored him to talk to Kihyun. He  looked over at you as you helplessly pointed at towards the high shelf where Chanyeol had “accidentally” put your phone.

Chanyeol: “You want this? Sorry Jagi, I can’t tell what you’re pointing at.” *smirking*

Do Kyungsoo/ D.O.

Originally posted by kaisooshipper

Kyungsoo cared for you as best as he could, stocking up all of the shelves with medicines for colds and making you hot soups to help ease the pain in your throat.

Kyungsoo: “Don’t worry Jagi, you’ll be back to full health in no time.”

Byun Baekhyun

Originally posted by wooyoung

Baekhyun would be trying to make you laugh, that was until he realised that it was hurting your sore throat. Then he’d give you a lot of cuddles and would do anything to make sure you get better soon.

Baekhyun: “Come here, Jagi.”

Oh Sehun

Originally posted by purpleuhan

Sehun would make sure to take care of you, and would go to the store every night after work to pick up a different medicine if the one the night before didn’t seem effective enough. But his man isn’t going to let you off without a little tease as well, laughing at you as you helplessly squeal like a mouse.

Sehun: “Your throat still hurts? The other night must have been a bit too much for you, huh?”

{y/n}: “What do you mean?”

Sehun: “I mean, that pretty little mouth of yours needs more practice” *winks*

{y/n}: “Or I could just have a cold, and you could shut up.”

Zhang Yixing/ Lay

Originally posted by getlayd

Lay treasures your health above pretty much everything, so when he finds out that you’ve lost your voice, he’s going to be worried about you, and will be there for you to make sure that you are feeling better.

Lay: “are you better today baobei?”

Kim Jongdae/ Chen

Originally posted by luedeer

Chen wouldn’t show it, but he does worry about you. Since he doesn’t like it when he shows you that he worried (because he knows if he’s worried then you only worry about him too) he keeps his emotions under control, and allows himself to make sure that you are feeling better and he is doing everything he can to help you regain to your usual health.

Jongdae: “Come on Jagi, get better soon~”

Kim Minseok/ Xiumin

Originally posted by mminseok

Minseok hates it when you’re poorly. Mostly because he doesn’t like it when you are suffering, but also because when you’re ill, you’re not your usual happy self. He finds himself doing everything he can to bring the health and liveliness back to you in any form that he can.

Minseok: “Here comes the aeroplane!~” *Moves the spoon closer to your mouth.*

{y/n}: “I am not a child, get that medicine away from me.”

Minseok: “You don’t like the aeroplane huh? How about a train?”

{y/n}: “Please stop.”

Huang Zitao/ Tao

Originally posted by chenclusive

Tao furrowed his eyebrows ar you as you animatedly swung your arms around trying to explain something to him without words. He found himself laughing as you frustratedly picked up a piece of paper and finally told him the reason you weren’t speaking.

Tao: “Aw baobei. Come here and give me a cuddle, then I’ll make you a hot drink to soothe your throat.”

Kim Junmyeon/ Suho

Originally posted by daenso

Junmyeon wasn’t surprised when he woke up that morning to find you had lost your voice entirely. You had been getting ill for a while now, and as your cold had worsened, it was almost inevitable that your throat would dry up and words would be stopped from being made. Even though he knew it wasn’t serious, he still found himself worrying over you, and made sure to take care of you like the gentleman he is (mostly.)

Suho: “You know why your voice has gone, don’t you?”

{y/n}: *Looks up and shrugs*

Suho: “All that screaming you were doing last night. I’m not surprised your voice has gone, you screamed the whole of South Korea down.”

{y/n}: *blushes*


Originally posted by wooyoung

Luhan threw  blankets over you, making sure that you were wrapped up and war, he decided that the best way to make you feel better was to make sure that he was looking after you the best that he possibly could.

Luhan: “That’s it jagi, and now I’ll go and get you some hot chocolate.”

Kim Jongin/ Kai

Originally posted by kaibility

Kai ran his fingers through your hair as your head lay on his lap, he smiled down at you contently. Even though eh was worried about you, he decided it would be better if he looked after you that sat worrying over you and instead being more practical about what he wanted to do.

Kai: “You’re still beautiful jagi, even when you’re sick.”

Wu Yifan/ Kris

Originally posted by wugalaxy

Kris raised an eyebrow at you as you greeted him good morning that say with a raspy voice. He looked at you, slightly concerned as to why you were speaking in such a way; were you sick? It wasn’t until you blushed that he realised why your throat was in such a state.

Kris: “Rough night?”

{y/n}: “Rough night”

Kris: *smirks, pulling you into a hug.* “Sorry Jagi.”


Originally posted by parkchny

Hidden Feelings

you meant a lot to him, just as he did to you.

Tease (M)

he liked that. that confidence you had to do such a thing to him. he enjoyed every bit of it.

Christmas Tree

he’s thankful for your short height, it made everything you did easier for him to do.


he would never be able to survive a day without holding you in his arms.


his arms were your home, your comfort.

Stupid Plans

he just wanted to make you really feel it in your bones that he loved you.


thankfully, he had the courage to bring you home and take care of you.

Your Monsterteaser, one, two, ?

you and him liked to play games, win and never lose. to truly win, you shall never leave his sight nor his heart.


three men, one lover. who is it?

Happy 24th Birthday

for you are the one i am falling in love with.


there is no definite word that can explain how much i love you.


you fill me with a love that i cannot deny, a love i cannot fathom, a love i cannot forget.

Traveler Chanyeol

with you, there is no place i’d rather be.

Rocker Chanyeol

is there nothing you can’t do that will make me stop falling in love with you?

anonymous asked:

My dad thinks I'm not actually trans and just putting on a false persona to mask my anxiety. Any time I try to explain how medically transitioning would help me he makes some comment like "I'm not happy with how I look either" or "why do you care about how your voice sounds?" How can I explain to him that not being perceived as male adds to my social anxiety and I'm not trying to be someone I'm not?

You have to put that into exact words.

“I am unhappy with how I look, because I don’t look as masculine as I want to. It causes me anxiety. You’re being selfish by refusing to let me medically transition.”

If he doesn’t get that then he may never get it honey. He’s being a selfish prick.

people don't do this enough, so I'm going to do it now . (please read this)

all I see towards the boys now is hate. hate for everything they do and it’s tearing our fandom apart. from people telling Luke to kill himself and people telling calum he isn’t important. it needs to stop. I’m going to go through every boy and say something I love about them.

LUKE: whenever Luke sings a higher note, I’ve noticed how his voice doesn’t really crack but goes really high? I don’t know how to explain it. a song I’ve notice it in is broken home, when he sings “when did you lose your happiness” in the beginning of the word happiness his voice does something beautiful to me and I am in love with it. it’s so beautiful to me. another thing i noticed it in is vapor. I watched a video of vapor live (which if you scroll down on my blog you’ll see it maybe) you can hear it.

CALUM: I love his little eye wrinkles. (crinkles? I don’t know what you guys call them but I call them wrinkles) whenever calum gets happy and starts laughing hard he has little eye wrinkles around his eyes and I think they are beyond beautiful. I feel like sometimes he may feel insecure about them but to me it’s a sign that he is happy in the moment and it’s something I never want to end.

ASHTON: he’s always positive, always has something to say to make you feel better about yourself. he constantly tells us he loves us and that he’s thankful for us. no matter what we’re going through in life he is like a little reminder that it will all be okay. that quality is something I look for in a person and not everyone has it. nowadays everyone is so negative towards everything but he is always bringing the spirits up from what I see.

MICHAEL: Michael is unique to me. some people say he doesn’t have the greatest voice, personally I am in love with his voice, but you can see how passionate he is about what he does. I can see it when he sings certain songs and his voice can’t hit all the notes every time but it doesn’t stop him and he puts his emotions into it.

ALL TOGETHER: we should be more appreciative of them. no matter what they do or say, they’re still our boys that came from a little town in Sydney Australia. they do what they do to help us because they care and love for us. they are my second family. this fandom is my second family. I feel like with all of the girlfriend drama people forget to appreciate what they do for us and let them know we love them. no matter what they do or say I’ll always be here.

let me know what you love about them:)

If I would be given a chance to be with someone, I would choose you without any hesitations. Why? Because you made me feel that I’m worthy of love, care, respect and attention. I’m grateful. You saved me from my one-sided den, you embraced for who I was way back then, you wiped away my tears, you helped me overcome my weaknesses and fears, you accepted my flaws, childish acts and baby talk, you made me stronger, so now I can walk.
Without you, I will just be a fork without a knife and a spoon, I will just be a star without a moon, a blanket without pillows and a stick without mallows; I’m useful, but I’m incomplete. I can do things on my own, but with you, I can do much more things. I can do almost everything. I am completely better when I’m with you.
In this life, I will never replace you, no matter what happens. I feel something strange inside of me when you’re near. And to be honest, I can’t explain the exact feeling that I’m feeling when we are together. It’s beyond happiness. Words aren’t enough to define how happy I am because I have you in this journey. I’m glad you are here. Before, I was watching the sunset alone but now, it’s totally different. I’m with someone who hold my hand while watching the sun fades in front of us.
You, you made me a better person. You made my life more meaningful. You cast out the negativity on me, you shed light on my life that I have never seen before. You made me one step closer to our King, and I know, you deserve my everything. Please, accept this ring. I love you. I’m so grateful you are in my life. And I feel honored to call you my wife.
My friend Amanda who I worked very closely on this record with, she sent me this song by this amazing songwriter MoZella and said, “I want you to listen to this song; it’s one of her personal songs. I don’t know if I can get it for you, but take a listen.” And the minute I heard this song, it was like when it first hit me when Sia played me Cannonball. Sometimes I don’t have the words to explain how grateful I am to be where I am, or how thankful I am to have gotten through what I went through, and to be okay. But not even okay - to be better, to be happy, to be whole. It’s hard to put that into words sometimes. Even just saying that out loud, I was like, ‘OMG, why am I saying this. I sound ridiculous.’ When you hear a song like this and you just go, “OMG, thank you. I could just sit back and play you this song.” It’s a song of appreciation of being where you are, and thankful to the people - so many of whom are here tonight - who helped me to get to this place right now. […] If you guys don’t know MoZella, she’s an incredible songwriter; she wrote Wrecking Ball. This is a gift beyond, beyond. Like, I cry. Because, you know, when people write these songs, it’s a part of them and then they give it to you, and it’s such a blessing. I’m very grateful to have this song; it means the world to me. It really just is exactly how I feel in my life right now. And if you’re going through anything, hopefully it will help you the way that it helped me. Cannonball helped me then, and this is my song now.
BTS reaction (hyung line)

Scenario: You found out that you’re pregnant, but didn’t talk about it to your boyfriend because you were afraid that he’d leave you. Two days ago you took the pregnancy test, just wrapped it into some paper towels, and threw it into the trash can in the bathroom. You were watching a movie together, when he suddenly had to go to the toilet, and spotted the pregnancy test still wrapped in the paper towels in the trash can. He stared at it, hesitating if he should or shouldn’t take it out. His hand grabbed it and wrapped it open, but what he saw wasn’t anything he expected.

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You wondered if he didn’t tolerate the amount of food you were munching while watching the movie, as he took a lot of time in the restroom. “Oppa, are you okay?” you yelled from the living room, getting no response. All of a sudden he came running into the living room, picking you up and spinning you around with him. “I’m going to be a father!” Jin said, gently placing you back to the ground again. You blinked, irritated. “S-so I guess you found out..” “And I am overly happy! How long have you been keeping it a secret?” He couldn’t stop laughing in excitement through his sentence. “I was scared to tell you. I was fearing the worst. But you are happy, right?” You were staring at the ground, still a little confused and shocked. “How can you even ask me something like that? I can’t even express how happy I am right now! You should’ve told me right after, jagi. I’m going to be a father!”

Originally posted by jimineh


The strange way your boyfriend looked at you from the door frame made you frown your eyebrows, before you realized that he was holding something in his hand. “Um, Yoongi, wha-” Before you could finish your sentence he interrupted you by showing you the pregnancy test that was now in his hands. You widened your eyes, and couldn’t utter a word. At this moment you were supposing that your nightmare was coming true. “I-I can explain..” Out of sudden he started laughing while his eyes started to water. He came closer to you and kept staring at the test. “I promise I’ll be the best father and husband.” He said showing his gummy smile. Right after he started jumping around like a little child. “God, I’m going to be a daddy!” He yelled, which made you laugh. “Yoongi, it seems like you’re the pregnant one, you’re having mood swings.” You said and he kept cheering happily, still overwhelmed.

Originally posted by minpuffs


Hoseok came back from the bathroom, taking a seat next to you, and laying his head on your lap. Without looking down to him you started playing with his hair, knowing how much he’d enjoy it. The whole time he was staring at you, waiting for a reaction. He kissed your belly, snapping you back to reality. “You should be proud to have such a beautiful mother.” Hoseok said, stroking your stomach while smiling to himself. “Hobi, what are you talking about?” You got pale, expecting a different reaction. “Yah, don’t hide it! Babe, I know you’re pregnant! How could you hide these news from me?” Sitting up from your lap, he brushed his hair back with his hand winking at you. “Let’s see if our baby gets as beautiful as his mother.” He said, giving you a peck on your lips. You responded with another kiss, but this time longer, and with more passion. “Or maybe as handsome as his father.”

Originally posted by hob-e

Rap Monster:

“OH MY GOD!” You yelled, as your boyfriend ran up to you, and suddenly fell to his knees. He covered his face in his palms. You rushed to him asking him what was wrong. He looked up to you with a smile plastered on his lips, and eyes slightly teary. “I’m having the babies of the most beautiful woman on earth!” He shouted, hugging your waist firmly. “You were seriously scared that I’ll leave you?” Namjoon asked. “Yes, Joonie, I was.” You replied, pouting. He still didn’t let go of you. “Baby, first of all I would never leave you, even if you would give birth to a horse.” He said. “So you wouldn’t leave me even if our child was J-Hope?” You joked. He rolled his eyes. “I would abandon him.” He stated, making you laugh out loud. “But you’ll give birth to the most beautiful child, making me the happiest man with the most gorgeous woman by my side, as my wife.”

Originally posted by baebsaes

anonymous asked:

MC is in town one day when she finds an old man laying on the ground. She helps him and as a token of his gratitude, he gives her a very delicious fruit. He tells her it's special before leaving. Not thinking much of it, MC decides she will share this with the lord. That night she served it to him. Apparently it was so delicious he ended up eating every slice. The next morning MC awakens to find the lord has turned back into a child. What are the lords reaction to this?(a kiss breaks the spell)

This time I didn’t write Saizo either cause I don’t know anything about his childhood, and I didn’t want to make it OOC, so I apologize if you wanted to see him here.

“Huh?! Who are you laughing at, foolish girl?!”
Oh, he’d be so angry. But, at the sight of his frowning face you can’t help but laugh. All those stories you heard from Katsuie and older retainers were now coming to you, and seeing his boyish face pouting and frowning you can perfectly see them playing in your head. You have no idea why is he like this, but you assume is because of the fruit the old man gave you. But, you decide to stay quiet, not wanting Nobunaga to found out this is actually your fault.
“What are you doing there?! You have to fix this, woman!”, but even when his angry shouts fill the room you can only laugh. He looks so cute like that. However, he has been yelling for so long that even his retainers have noticed something is wrong. Katsuie is the first one to go in, worried something might had happened, but he never expected to see Lord baby-naga. Laughter fills the room this time, Katsuie glad to have his little boy back as he begins to tell again childhood stories. Mitsuhide notices the bad mood of the Lord, as Katsuie continues telling more and more stories; he takes him out of the room.
Chibi Nobunaga turns to look at you, frowning even more, and you can’t help but wonder if that’s how your kids would look like. “Just stop looking at me like that and kiss me so I can go back to normal”, he mutters, grumpily, a soft blush on his cheeks.

“What…? What is the meaning of this?”
When you open your eyes and see a cute looking child instead of your lord, you can’t help but gasp. Then, you remember the fruit that strange man had given you and you assume it is because of it. Mitsuhide, however, is still trying to figure out what happened to be looking like that. The distressed look on his boyish face only makes you laugh more, because he looks so cute that way. “I… I can’t work like this”, he says, a worried expression forming in his features. You remember hearing the old man saying something about a kiss, and even when the blush is already on your cheeks, you offer him to try it out. Disappointment fills you, though, at the thought that you will have to say goodbye to Chibi Mitsuhide and his cute boyish blue eyes. Him, noticing the defeated look on your eyes, only smiles. “I have to work, but… if it makes you happy, I can stay like this a little longer”

“What?! Why are you so tall?! Why am I so small?!”
Panic. That’s the only word you could use to describe Yukimura’s face when he realizes his muscular body is gone, leaving behind the child he was once. He is trying desperately to ‘wake up’, pinching his cheeks and arms, convincing himself that it was all a bad dream and when he wakes up everything would be back to normal. You feel kind of guilty. How would you explain to him that this was actually… your fault? Yet, you can’t help but giggle as the cute little Yukimura keeps panicking, pouting and frowning, and the sight of your future children fills your mind for a few seconds. The blush on your cheeks appears, and Yukimura notices. “Why are you blushing? W-what are you thinking, huh?”, he seems to have read your mind, as the pink tinge appears again on his cheeks. He looks so cute and distressed, you only want to hug him and cuddle him, but you hold back. “What am I going to do if something happens?”, he complains, pouting. “I can’t protect you with this body”

His whisper, so low but so full of terror is enough to wake you up. Your breath get caught in your throat, as the sight of the Lord of Oshu make you look twice. The tall and strong man is gone, replaced by a little kid with a distressed and panicked look. Your first impulse is to say how cute he looks, until you remember. His mother. His tiny frame is trembling, the ghosts of his past haunting him now that he is no longer a man, almost like all his strength vanished with his adult body. Immediately, you wrap your arms around him, protectively, trying to make him feel and realize he is no longer alone. You whisper to him that everything will be alright, that he will be back to normal soon enough, that you won’t let anyone harm him again. “It’s… it’s true, right? I’m… I’m not alone anymore”

“Please, tell me this is a joke”
Another laugh escapes your lips as you glance at his frowning tiny frame. He looks so cute. If he wasn’t a child, you’d probably had frozen at the sound of his stern voice and that hard look on his face. This time, however, it was like seeing a little kid trying to be an adult. And it was adorable. He frowns more when you laugh again; you’re enjoying this, he isn’t. He is so used to being the adult, the authority, that looking this way is frustrating him more than he can explain. Yet, even if he looks like a child, you can still notice everything that Lord Masamune and Shigezane used to tell you about their childhood. No matter if he was a child himself, he always protected them and cared for them. You can see that even now, in his green eyes, and his frowning face. “Are you enjoying being the oldest, dear?”, he asks, grumpily, when you burst out laughing again. Oh, you are. Of course you are.

“What the hell happened?!”
He looks quite distressed, and confused. You, on the other hand, are filled by nostalgia as you glance at his tiny frame. It feels like a lifetime, you think, since it had been so long since you were kids. Still, you can’t help but giggle at the familiar grumpy face frowning at you. “Why are you laughing, huh?! Why am I the only one like this?!”, he barks, his boyish face making you laugh again. You can tell him it is your fault, or rather, that old man’s fault… but you decide against it. It is a good punishment. Sweet revenge for all those times he is always picking on you. Who is the kid now, huh, Inuchiyo?

How can I explain to you, my happiness, my golden wonderful happiness, how much I am all yours — with all my memories, poems, outbursts, inner whirlwinds? Or explain that I cannot write a word without hearing how you will pronounce it — and can’t recall a single trifle I’ve lived through without regret — so sharp! — that we haven’t lived through it together — whether it’s the most, the most personal, intransmissible — or only some sunset or other at the bend of a road — you see what I mean, my happiness?

And I know: I can’t tell you anything in words — and when I do on the phone then it comes out completely wrong. Because with you one needs to talk wonderfully, the way we talk with people long gone… in terms of purity and lightness and spiritual precision… You can be bruised by an ugly diminutive — because you are so absolutely resonant — like seawater, my lovely.

I swear — and the inkblot has nothing to do with it — I swear by all that’s dear to me, all I believe in — I swear that I have never loved before as I love you, — with such tenderness — to the point of tears — and with such a sense of radiance

—  Vladimir Nabokov to his beloved, Véra
How can I explain to you, my happiness, my golden wonderful happiness, how much I am all yours — with all my memories, poems, outbursts, inner whirlwinds? Or explain that I cannot write a word without hearing how you will pronounce it — and can’t recall a single trifle I’ve lived through without regret — so sharp! — that we haven’t lived through it together — whether it’s the most, the most personal, intransmissible — or only some sunset or other at the bend of a road — you see what I mean, my happiness?
And I know: I can’t tell you anything in words — and when I do on the phone then it comes out completely wrong. Because with you one needs to talk wonderfully, the way we talk with people long gone… in terms of purity and lightness and spiritual precision… You can be bruised by an ugly diminutive — because you are so absolutely resonant — like seawater, my lovely.
I swear — and the inkblot has nothing to do with it — I swear by all that’s dear to me, all I believe in — I swear that I have never loved before as I love you, — with such tenderness — to the point of tears — and with such a sense of radiance.
—  Vladimir Nabokov, letters to Véra, November 1923
- Finally -

Yoongi dropped his epic mixtape so of course I had to write this :)


Taehyung was on the set of Hwarang when it happened.

Even though it was very late, the scene they were filming had to be shot at night, while it was still dark outside. He was getting his makeup done and wardrobe prepared when a notification went off on his phone. At first he just ignored it and continued to chat with the friendly makeup artist, but when more and more pings sounded he quickly grabbed up the device in case it was an emergency from his manager or one of the members.

“Holy sh–”

“Something happened?” the young makeup artist asked him, noticing the shocked expression on his face.

Taehyung blinked a couple of times, hoping his eyes hadn’t deceived him due to a lack of sleep, but no, there it was.

Yoongi dropped his mixtape.

“No, um…” Taehyung struggled to find the right words as the lady continued to stare at him in concern. “It’s just… something did happen but it’s not… it’s not a bad thing. It’s a very good thing, actually.”

“Oh,” the woman said, relief evident in her voice. “Well then congratulations on… whatever it is.”

“Thanks,” Taehyung weakly mumbled, still unable to believe it. He quickly pulled up the music video, eyes glued to every little detail as the song blared through the speakers of his phone. He didn’t even notice when his make up artist left, informing him that filming would be starting in ten minutes.

As soon as the song was done Taehyung was scrolling through his contacts. He knew he still had to listen to the whole album but he couldn’t wait that long before calling Yoongi. His chest was filled to the brim with a feeling he very rarely experienced. He knew how hard Yoongi worked on that mixtape. He saw the way his hyung dragged his feet after long nights in the studio, sporting dark circles under his eyes and mussed hair from raking his fingers through it.

Taehyung didn’t expect Yoongi to pick up. He knew the older male probably had a million people calling him at that moment to give him their congratulations, but he at least wanted Yoongi to see that he had called. Maybe even leave a thoughtful voice mail while he was at it.

But Yoongi answered.


Taehyung froze. He really didn’t expect Yoongi to answer his call. He was almost a hundred percent sure there were several other people who were more important to Yoongi than he was, who were calling the rapper at the moment.


Taehyung licked his lips and sat back in his seat. He stared at himself in the brightly lit mirror, looking deeply into the eyes of the young man holding a phone to his ear. In that moment, he was supposed to be Hansung, not Taehyung, but Min Yoongi always had a funny way of bringing out the real him.

“You did it, Hyung,” he managed to get out. “You finally did it.”

It was dead silent over the phone, and for a second Taehyung thought the call had dropped, but then Yoongi was letting out a long sigh followed by a tired chuckle.

“Yes, Taehyung-ah… I finally did it.”

“I’m so proud of you,” Taehyung praised, a big smile taking up his face and seeping into his words. “It sounds so amazing! I wouldn’t expect anything less from the incredible Agust D!”

This time Yoongi let out an unrestrained laugh over the line. Taehyung could clearly picture his gummy smile and reddening ears.

“Thanks, Tae. Everyone else seems to like it too.”

Taehyung rolled his eyes even though Yoongi couldn’t see him.

“That’s great and all. Just as long as they know that i’m you’re biggest fan.”

“I’m sure they do.”

They both grew quiet again, and Taehyung knew he had to start filming very soon, but he couldn’t bring himself to hang up. There were so many different emotions swirling around in his chest, and he didn’t know how to express them all to the rapper. He was surprised Yoongi hadn’t kicked him off the phone yet.

“Hey, Hyung?”


“Are you happy?” Taehyung softly asked.

Yoongi didn’t say anything for a while.

But then…

“Yeah, Tae,” he whispered, the hint of a smile in his voice. “I’m happy.”


Today is my happiest day in my entire life.

And thanks for my best friend Mushimako because she brought the signature of one of the favorite KIKASA fan art artist from Japan!!!!!! My godness まめきちさん…!! I can not use any word and language to explain how I am feeling right now ;_; I am happy but I can’t stop crying…!!! So I quickly drew 3 drafts based on the story of  まめきちさん‘s new fanbook (devil Kise X priest Kasamatsu). Again thanks for Mushimako-san for doing everything for me. I love you so so so so much QAQ!!!

まめきちさん’s PIXIV address: http://www.pixiv.net/member.php?id=246226

I really really really love her works and probably my favorite. I hope more and more people will know her and support her.