word lovers

with you i’ve learned that i don’t have to degrade myself so that you can shine.

i’ve learned that i don’t have to hold back when it comes to my passions and interests just because you don’t enjoy them as much as i do.

i’ve learned that i don’t have to be quiet and nice for you to love me. with you i can be loud, crazy, wild and even angry when i need to.

you have shown me what good love is.

and good love makes you blossom.

good love won’t ever make you wilt.

— 

e.s. // a good love.

Sometimes you don’t even notice that your partner is suppressing you. But let me tell you, love is supposed to bring out the best in you and make you become the best person you can be. It won’t ever try to steal your light or turn you into something less.

there’s something spiritual about the way you spill your soul to me.
—  Reyna Biddy
i would not be
who i am today
had i not gotten lost
so long ago
in the spaces between
times new roman font
each letter curled, at its ends
as if to hook me
and hold onto me;
to keep me safe.
beneath dust jackets
and underneath yellowing pages
this is where 
i made myself
at home.
—  happy #WorldBookDay 2017
(cc, 2017)
please, for just once in your life go for the guy who makes you happy and not the one who is a challenge.
go for the one who is cute and sweet, and not for the one who thinks that ignoring you will make things more interesting.
go for the one who will treat you like a queen, and not the one who thinks that you’re just like every other girl.
go for the one who is ready to choose you forever, not the one who can’t choose between you and several others.
go for the one who will make you see your worth and not the one who will make you question it.
—  e.s. // go for ‘that’ guy. please.

It is only in sujood
When your heart
Aches
And your tears
Flow

That you realise
how much your
soul
wants nothing
more

Than
to be with Him
In Paradise.

a message from women:
do you know what it’s like to be left alone in love?
do you know what it’s like to feel stuck in love?
do you know what it’s like to be too depressed?
do you know what it’s like to have to beg for
forever from a person who neglects your history?
do you what it’s like to lose everything?
do you know what it’s like to feel abandoned?
do you know what it’s like to wait?
do you know that i will never be too near or too far away?
honestly, i’m still waiting for closure.
i still question what this is— or what this was?
because i can’t help but hope
our feelings were mutual.
do you know how it feels to constantly chase
a feeling you’re addicted to?
do you know i’ve got the jones for you.
and an appetite. and a sweet tooth.
do you know i prayed for you?
from night ’til day.
regardless of my better judgement or dismay
time after time after promises
that never seemed impossible or too good to be TRUE.
do you know what it’s like to try
convincing yourself that— this was the truth.
like i was the woman created for you.
do you know how much i’ve craved you?
i’ve searched for you everywhere
in people, in prayer, in psalm.
in different lovers, in god.
and god— i, wish you really knew.
that i’d love you till death,
or that i’d kill for you.
or that i feel you, like soul deep, like
deeper than anyone ever will.
do you know what it’s like to feel dead inside
and see you so alive, still?

but these days i feel alive.
i’ve been able to realize
you just weren’t meant for me.
these days i don’t cry over
spilled milk.
or lost love
or things i have no control of.
these days i just love myself more.
i just know there’s a happily ever after.
these days i just — don’t see it with you.
nothing personal i think i just fell too quick for your potential.
i just wanted you to be the one.
i just thought we made sense
but now i love myself enough to know better..

—  Reyna Biddy
She was so absorbed by you,
by your thoughts and your ideas,
so full of you, full of your habits,
that she totally forgot about herself,
you were covering her soul with those clouds of yours,
all gloomy and heavy,
she did not know who she was anymore,
but when you left,
you took back all your clouds,
and then the sun came to her,
everything inside of her flourished,
her thoughts sang her favorite songs,
her mind laughed at her father’s jokes,
her heart danced and danced and danced,
her soul smiled, because she knew,
even the moon has clouds,
but it doesn’t stop her from lighting up the sky every night.
— 

http://writies.tumblr.com/

you go girl, you light up this world

And if one day she leaves you, just know that it probably took everything in her to walk away.
She doesn’t just give up on people like that,
and god that was one of the things I loved about her…
—  a poem by someone who once loved me,
a.a.