The Other Stars - You Looked Better At The Party

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Sometimes I think when I was happy
I had just turned twenty and I met her at a party
I was starting to get all those funny feelings in my chest
and all those feelings in my chest won’t go away
And she said
“Connor, you should watch out because I’m bad news”
I said “I’ve been to hell and back, I think that I can handle you”
I guess that we’re all wrong sometimes
And if I get a cut I’ll bleed for a day
but this pain, it just won’t go away
it might not be a broken heart
but it’s a start
Now Joe got his new car and he’s driving south
Josie’s making stories up with her big mouth
Me, Derek, Matt and Tom are trying to move it all along
and break the audio surface tension with our songs
Dan’s in Milford, Eric’s nowhere to be found
I’m spinning circles, tipping bottles upside down
seems only yesterday we placed our bids on life
seems only yesterday that we were kids, alright
And if I get a cut I’ll bleed for a day
but this pain, it just won’t go away
it might not be a broken heart
but it’s a start
Oh, I am so drunk that it’s funny
but maybe it’s not as funny as we think?
no, it’s ok, cause we’re just joking
just silly kids, we took up smoking
Did I ever tell you just how sick I felt
when you were all fucked up on drugs and screaming in your prison cell?
It isn’t very funny anymore
when we get too fucked up and pass out on the floor
No, it isn’t very funny anymore

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Panic! at the Disco Leads Latest Hot Tours Recap

Panic! at the Disco leads the pack on the latest slate of Hot Tours (see list below), based on $7.8 million in sold ticket revenue recently reported from its 2017 tour that kicked off in late February.

On the road in support of the studio album Death of a Bachelor, released early in 2016, the band launched the tour Feb. 24 with a sold-out concert at Mohegan Sun Arena in Uncasville, Conn. The seven-week run through 36 U.S. markets wrapped April 15 in south Florida.

First-quarter box office counts from the tour, reported by promoter Live Nation, show that 247,447 tickets were sold at arenas in 25 American cities from the beginning of the trek through the end of March, with revenue from those concerts landing at $11.7 million.

The tour continued into April, though, with 11 more performances before the finale. Adding gross estimates from those concerts yet to be reported, the overall box office take was about $17 million when the tour closed. About 350,000 fans saw the Death of a Bachelor Tour during its run.

Following on the Hot Tours tally are three touring artists with ticket sales from shows performed at London’s O2 Arena during their treks through Europe. Bruno Mars, Ed Sheeran and John Mayer each earn a slot on the weekly recap based on box office counts reported by the arena.

With the No. 2 ranking, Mars scored a $6.3 million box office total from four shows at the London venue during his 24K Magic World Tour’s 11-week jaunt through Europe. His concerts on April 18-19 and 21-22 drew a total of 71,135 fans. Also included in this tally is a later show in Switzerland on May 12. Mars performed for a sellout crowd of 13,888 at Hallenstadion in Zurich with sales topping $1.3 million.

Sheeran’s 2017 world tour launched in Italy on March 16 and hit 19 markets in Europe through May 3. The last date on the trek was his three-night stint at the O2 Arena on the first three days of May. He takes the No. 4 Hot Tours ranking based on $5 million in revenue from 55,708 sold seats during the run.

Mayer (No. 7) played the venue on May 11 and 12, the final two nights of his brief swing through six European cities during May. With 30,709 fans in attendance, sales from the two performances reached $1.7 million. The world tour in support of his April release The Search For Everything kicked off in Albany, N.Y., at the end of March and is set to run through early September.

 HOT TOURS - May 23, 2017 Ranked by Gross.  Compiled from Boxscores reported May 16-22  RankACT Total Gross Show Date Range Venue/City (Shows/Sellouts) Total Attendance (Capacity)  1PANIC! AT THE DISCO $7,862,407 March 4-31 DCU Center, Worcester, Mass. (1/0) Schottenstein Center, Columbus, Ohio (1/0) Wolstein Center, Cleveland (1/0) Palace of Auburn Hills (Mich.) (1/0) Allstate Arena, Rosemont, Ill. (1/0) Xcel Energy Center, St. Paul, Minn. (1/0) Wells Fargo Arena, Des Moines, Iowa (1/0) Baxter Arena, Omaha, Neb. (1/0) Pepsi Center, Denver (1/0) UCCU Center, Orem, Utah (1/0) Taco Bell Arena, Boise, Idaho (1/0) WaMu Theater, Seattle (1/0) Moda Center, Portland (1/0) Viejas Arena, San Diego (1/0) The Forum, Inglewood, Calif. (1/1) Talking Stick Resort Arena, Phoenix (1/1) Allen (Texas) Event Center (1/0) 170,806 (180,937)  2BRUNO MARS $7,733,170 April 18-May 12 O2 Arena, London (4/4) Hallenstadion, Zurich (1/1) 85,023 (85,023)  3GAME OF THRONES LIVE CONCERT EXPERIENCE $7,288,971 March 6-31 TD Garden, Boston (1/0) Madison Square Garden, New York (1/0) Spectrum Center, Charlotte (1/0) BB&T Center, Sunrise, Fla. (1/0) Amalie Arena, Tampa (1/0) AT&T Center, San Antonio (1/0) Toyota Center, Houston (1/0) Pepsi Center, Denver (1/0) The Forum, Inglewood, Calif. (1/0) MGM Grand Garden, Las Vegas (1/0) Talking Stick Resort Arena, Phoenix (1/0) SAP Center, San Jose (1/0) KeyArena, Seattle (1/0) 102,049 (156,074)  4ED SHEERAN $5,093,280 May 1-3 O2 Arena, London (3/3) 55,708 (55,708)  5BILLY JOEL $5,046,093 May 13 Dodger Stadium, Los Angeles 48,162 (48,162)  6THE WEEKND $4,744,274 April 29-May 13 The Forum, Inglewood, Calif. (2/2) Philips Arena, Atlanta (1/1) 47,434 (47,434)  7JOHN MAYER $3,566,897 March 31-May 12 Times Union Center, Albany, N.Y. (1/0) The Forum, Inglewood, Calif. (1/1) O2 Arena, London (2/2) 54,567 (56,989)  8RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS $3,111,853 May 14-18 Schottenstein Center, Columbus, Ohio (1/1) KFC Yum! Center, Louisville, Ky. (1/1) Bankers Life Fieldhouse, Indianapolis (1/1) 34,624 (34,624)  9GREEN DAY $3,067,150 March 5-28 Toyota Center, Houston (1/0) Verizon Arena, North Little Rock, Ark. (1/0) DCU Center, Worcester, Mass. (1/0) Petersen Events Center, Pittsburgh (1/0) Joe Louis Arena, Detroit (1/0) State Farm Center, Champaign, Ill. (1/0) 58,792 (63,334)  10ELTON JOHN $2,939,841 March 5-23 Spokane (Wash.) Arena (1/1) Tingley Coliseum, Albuquerque (1/1) Don Haskins Center, El Paso, Texas (1/0) 33,444 (33,720)  
Grand jury indicts man in killing of runner in Massachusetts

WORCESTER, Mass. — A man accused of killing a Google employee who went out for a run near her mother’s Massachusetts home last summer has been indicted.

Worcester (WUS’-tur) County District Attorney Joseph Early Jr. says a grand jury handed down the indictment Friday against Angelo Colon-Ortiz.

The Worcester resident was arrested in connection with the death of 27-year-old Vanessa Marcotte last August in Princeton, a small town 40 miles (64 kilometres ) west of Boston.

Prosecutors say Colon-Ortiz was apprehended in April after his DNA matched samples on Marcotte’s body, which was found in the woods not far from her family home.

Colon-Ortiz faces charges of aggravated assault and battery and assault with attempt to rape. He’s been in custody since his arrest and will be arraigned later. He can’t be reached for comment. It’s unclear if he has a lawyer.

The Associated Press


Nancy Holt, Outdoor Artist, Dies at 75 By RANDY KENNEDY FEB. 12, 2014

Nancy Holt, a pioneer in the land-art movement of the 1960s and ’70s and the creator of one of the era’s most poetic works — “Sun Tunnels,” four huge concrete culverts set in the Utah desert to align with the sun on summer and winter solstices — died on Saturday in Manhattan. She was 75.

The cause was leukemia, representatives of her estate said.

Ms. Holt, who lived and worked for many years in Galisteo, N.M., was one of the few women to pursue monumental sculpture in the American West, a place whose wide-open spaces drew a generation of restless artists like Michael Heizer, Walter De Maria, James Turrell and Robert Smithson, whom Ms. Holt married in 1963.

A child of the Northeast, Ms. Holt described her first exploration of the West, around Las Vegas in 1968 with Smithson and Mr. Heizer, as transformative in her life as an artist; during the visit, she said, she did not sleep for four days.

“It seemed to me that I had this Western space that had been within me,” she said many years later. “That was my inner reality. I was experiencing it on the outside, simultaneously with my spaciousness within. I felt at one.”

She began her career writing concrete poetry and making photographs, films and videos. From the beginning she was interested in how perception is shaped, and she used the mediums of lenses, viewfinders and other structures to alter the way urban space, land and the firmament are experienced over time.

“I wanted to bring the vast space of the desert back down to human scale,” she once wrote about “Sun Tunnels.”

Throughout her career Ms. Holt was underrecognized, in part because her best work — “Dark Star Park,” an installation on a once-blighted site in Arlington, Va.; “Sky Mound,” a partly completed earth sculpture and park made from a landfill in the New Jersey Meadowlands; “Up and Under,” a sinuous tunnel-and-berm construction outside a small city in Finland — could not be shown in museums or galleries. And she held a fairly dim view of the traditional art world anyway.

“If work hangs in a gallery or museum,” she once said, “the art gets made for the spaces that were made to enclose art. They isolate objects, detach them from the world.”

Ms. Holt also devoted considerable time to protecting the legacy of Smithson, who died in a plane crash in Amarillo, Tex., in 1973 while surveying a site for one of his earth works.

In 2008 she helped rally opposition to a plan for exploratory drilling near the site of Smithson’s greatest work, “Spiral Jetty,” a huge counterclockwise curlicue of black basalt rock that juts into the Great Salt Lake in rural Utah. After Smithson’s death, Ms. Holt never remarried. She told one interviewer, “My art was enough for me.”

No immediate family members survive.

Nancy Holt was born on April 5, 1938, in Worcester, Mass. An only child, she was raised in New Jersey, where her father worked as a chemical engineer and her mother was a homemaker.

She studied biology at Tufts University and then moved to New York, where she quickly became involved with a group of prominent Minimalist and post- Minimalist artists including Carl Andre, Sol Lewitt, Eva Hesse, Joan Jonas and Richard Serra. (She collaborated with Mr. Serra in 1974 on “Boomerang,” in which he videotaped her listening to her own voice echoing back into a pair of headphones after a time lag, as she described the disorienting experience.)

She and Smithson had bought a small piece of land in Utah, and in 1974 she bought more: 40 acres for $1,600 in the Great Basin Desert, where she set about building “Sun Tunnels.” As she wrote later, installing the culverts — each weighing 22 tons — and documenting the process, required the help of “2 engineers, 1 astrophysicist, 1 astronomer, 1 surveyor and his assistant, 1 road grader, 2 dump truck operators, 1 carpenter, 3 ditch diggers, 1 concrete mixing truck operator, 1 concrete foreman, 10 concrete pipe company workers, 2 core- drillers, 4 truck drivers, 1 crane operator, 1 rigger, 2 cameramen, 2 soundmen, 1 helicopter pilot, and 4 photography lab workers.”

“In making the arrangements and contracting out the work,” she wrote, “I became more extended into the world than I’ve ever been before.”

Over the years, the work has attracted a variety of pilgrims: art lovers who camp out to see the sunrise perfectly aligned with the tunnels at solstice; latter- day pagans who come for the same reason; Burning Man-type celebrants who used the tunnels as a gathering place; hunters who use them for shooting practice. Occasionally, Ms. Holt would drive back to the site and invite observers to meet her for a free-form talk and viewing experience.

The first retrospective of her work, “Nancy Holt: Sightlines,” opened in 2010 at the Miriam and Ira D. Wallach Art Gallery at Columbia University and traveled to several other venues in the United States and Europe. In a public talk in Santa Fe, N.M., during the run of the retrospective, she described the struggle of pursuing an art career largely out of doors, and decidedly on her own terms.

“It was painful, because I had no product,” she said. “And especially a woman in the art world at that time, you had to have something to show.” She added: “I was just being. I was emphasizing being over becoming. And in the art world it’s a hard stance.”

A version of this article appears in print on February 12, 2014, on page A25 of the New York edition with the headline: Nancy Holt, Outdoor Artist, Dies at 75.

From NYT, source 

(Photos are Sun Tunnels, 1976 (1 & 2); Rock Rings, 1977-78; Holes of Light 1973)   

An Interview with Christian Holden

My first interview was with Christian Holden, 22, who grew up in Charlton, Massachusetts, but now lives in Worcester, Mass. The interview was conducted via Facebook chat, on Sunday, 26 January 2014.

Charlie Stern: Here we go: What is your gender identity?

Christian Holden: cisgender male

Stern: At what age did you identify that way?

Holden: does it matter that i didn’t know the word cisgender until i was 17?


i don’t really know

either 15 or like forever

depends on if we are considering when i realize i had a choice in how identified

Stern: Any direction you choose to answer this in is fine.

Holden: 15


all my life actually

Stern: How does identifying as male make you feel?

Holden: incomplete and confused

Stern: Do you sometimes feel trapped by your identity?

Holden: yes

Stern: What made you decide to dress as your gender?

Holden: external pressure and how i was dressed when i was younger

Stern: How did you realize that you were ready to transition into being a male?

Holden: i don’t know

Stern: Were you pressured by your peers about this decision?

Holden: pass?

Stern: Okay.

Holden: as in i don’t know

how to answer

because i never transitioned

into male i feel

Stern: What about transitioning from boy to man?

Holden: uhm

i was not

Stern: How long did it take you to “pass” as a male?

Holden: i never had a problem with “passing” as a male

Stern: Do you ever feel completely at home with your developed voice?

Holden: yes

Stern: Do you ever have second thoughts about being male?

Holden: yeah. i feel like the way that i relate to and experience my gender is something that is always on my mind

Stern: Can you tell me more about what it is like for you as an individual to function within our society’s gender binary?

Holden: uhm. like the only pressure i have is to present in control


if i act comfortably, I have a slightly feminine presence that I feel like needs to be sharpened or harder in order to stay on guard

or like to make people not question it

which often puts people off because it comes off as distrusting

but like

it boils down to that my issues are building trust with the people around me

i have no trouble with finding people to give support

that’s about as much as i can think to say right now

Stern: That was a really good answer.

When did you learn about the different gender pronouns used?

Holden: i think my senior year of highschool

Stern: Do you feel the need to conform to what society asks of you, in terms of your gender?

Holden: yes

Stern: Please explain.

Holden: i mean

in certain situations i “man up” and would halt myself from presenting in more feminine ways

especially with friends I come out as queer to

because i don’t want people to associate my gender with my sexuality

when people say something i do is “strange” or indicate that it was unexpected of my character that is in relation to my gender expression, i feel really put off and uncomfortable

Stern: Do you think gender is merely a social construction? Why or why not?

Holden: I don’t

but like

i have no real evidence why

except for my basic thought that nothing is only socially constructed

I just feel like gender is too confusing to simplify down to “its just socially constructed

yeah that’s it

Stern: Do you think of gender as a thing you would like to undo? Please explain.

Holden: gender as a concept?

or my own?

to deconstruct?

Stern: Whatever direction you’d like.

Holden: Gender as a concept no. I feel like its a lot more important to a lot of people than it is to me. My own gender, yes. I feel like I want to understand how I work. And my gender was something so deeply engrained in everything i do that i can’t help but deconstruct it

Stern: If gender were not a factor, do you think you would still have the desire to live as a male?

Holden: what do you mean by gender not a factor?

Stern: Like if gender didn’t matter or didn’t exist.

Holden: no

Stern: If you could choose to be transgender, would you?

Holden: i don’t know

Stern: If you were unable to live as a male, what would that mean for you?

Holden: i really don’t know

Stern: Do you have many friends/family who are also male?

Holden: yes

Stern: What is your relationship to the male community?

Holden: i benefit from its privileges, while feeling disconnected and distrustful

Stern: Do you find that your relationships with people in the male community are different from your relationships with people outside the male community?

Holden: yes

i feel far more comfortable in my skin outside of the male community

Stern: Have you ever felt excluded from the male community because you weren’t “male enough”?

Holden: yes








Stern: Have you had any role models influence your gender, "teaching” you how to be male?

Holden: yes many

Stern: Please explain.

Holden: uhm

How to be male in a way that related to me

i was taught how to be strong in who i am


i have many male role models that were really positive for me

in that they didn’t make me completely disenchanted with identifying as male

showing me mostly they right balance of being gentle and strong


i was never taught how to be gentle through men

just how to continually protect myself

Stern: What kind of support for being a male do you have?

Holden: financial in the support of my band, outside of that is protection from violence mostly


i mis read

i read as what support from males do you have

most all of my needs

at least a little

Stern: What do you mean?

Holden: all resources i would need in support of being male is readily available

Stern: Oh, I see.

How does your family feel about you being a male?

Holden: fine

it is expected

Stern: Have you run into any problems with religion, in regards to your gender identity?

Holden: nope

Stern: Did you have any friends/family who thought they could change you to be “normal”?

Holden: nope

Stern: How has being a male affected your romantic relationships?

Holden: barely at all

Stern: How has being a male impacted you negatively?

Holden: only in that it is hard to find people of my gender to connect in deep meaningful ways that challenge gender binarism. but that is also a problem of people living in the current times

usually others of my gender are kind of isolated from social situations

before they learn how to challenge it in open ways

i feel

Stern: How safe do you feel at school/work/public (and why)?

Holden: to add to my answer from before. most people have to actually seek out others that are similar to their experience

as far as gender is concerned

at school i felt really hostile because under the climate its almost like gender expression and violence is heightened. work i feel safer because my work was just to play with kids on bouncy things. Public is fine because i don’t even have to worry about interacting

Stern: Related: Have you faced any hindrances functioning within the system (like school) because of your gender?

Holden: not that aren’t experienced equally or moreso than people of other genders

Stern: Have you ever been a victim of a hate crime?

Holden: no

Stern: Have you ever been forced by friends/family into mental health treatment for your gender identity?

Holden: no

Stern: If your family had to raise you all over again, what advice would you give them so that your life gender experience would have been different?

Holden: “educate yourselves and keep up with gender theory and raise me gender neutral.”

Stern: Now that you’re out as a male, what would you have said to a younger version of yourself?

Holden: nothing that i would have really SAID. more just like, i’d interact with myself in a way that won’t discourage deviating from my assigned gender


to this and the last question

i would have told my parents to unschool me

because i do feel school had a strong effect on how i experience gender

more than anything else

Stern: What was the best advice you received as a young person?

Holden: honestly

“hit’m where it hurts”

Stern: If your own child were to declare themselves male, what advice would you give them to help them survive the world they may have to face?

Holden: don’t accept anybody’s truth that doesn’t resonate with you

Stern: Wow, that’s good.

Holden: thank you

Stern: Do you have any fears about the future and how living as a male could hinder pursuits in the realms of family and children?

Holden: I fear that if I decide to have children, I won’t be able to give helpful advice to my children since as a male i don’t have the best lived experience to share with them in regards to gender

but in the same way

i am who i am and I should have an accurate view of my own experience with gender to be of any help to anyone

Stern: What do you see as the main issue facing male people today and what do you see as a possible solution to this problem?

Holden: their inability to connect to themselves and others. and a possible solution could be normalizing queerness in education

since that is what helped me

and teaching from a feminist perspective

or at least making a feminist perspective more available

Stern: What is the hardest part about being cisgender?

Holden: hahah


not being trusted by default by trans folk

Stern: Do you feel like any health disparities you face are directly related to your gender identity and expression?

Holden: no

Stern: Have you ever felt that you have been denied proper medical treatment or questioned inappropriately while seeking medical treatment?

Holden: not because of my gender no

Stern: What changes would you make in healthcare in order to receive better care oriented towards males?

Holden: no

cisgender males right?

Stern: Yeah.

Holden: uhm

i can’t think of any

Stern: What do you think society could do to better understand people who are male and their needs?

Holden: encourage them to be gentle

Stern: How could society change to be more accepting or emotionally better for you?

Holden: equal representation in positions of power for people of all genders

as in

the problems that men experience as far as acceptance and emotional support could be solved with and environment where power isn’t assigned to you based differently because of your gender

Stern: Thank you! That was the last question. Wow, thank you so much for your time.