wooden triangle

Heart breaker [2]

Originally posted by loszagalesdelvater

Dean Winchester X Reader 

Warnings: Swearing

Part one


      “Which one you want,” Dean said pointing to his jackets that were lazily thrown over a chair in his room. “We got blue, this cool green color.” You looked at him causing him to stop talking.

     “I’ll just take this one.” You said, grabbing the blue jacket from the chair.

       “I wanted to wear that one.” He said, playfulness in his eyes.

       “Yeah, I know that’s why I picked it.” You smiled for what felt like the first time in forever. You gripped the jacket and quickly put your arms through the sleeves. His scent bombarded your nose, causing you take a deep breath, breathing in as much of him as you could. He flung his own jacket onto his body and then looked to you.

         “You ready?” He questioned.

          “Yup.” You said with a quick nod and started towards the bunker door. Dean followed closely behind you and you could practically feel his eyes staring at your back. “So, you the designated driver for tonight?” You questioned looking over your shoulder at him with a smile, knowing full well you were not coming home sober tonight.

         “I suppose so, sweetheart.” You chuckled slightly at his words and went to open the bunker door.

      You were feeling better, the fight that had occurred earlier was practically out of your head, that was until you swung open the door. There he stood, that dick that you once called a friend and one day hoped to call something more. You were unable to move, you just stood there like a deer in headlights, just trying to think of something to say, trying to calm the anger that was coursing through you.

            Before you could even speak you felt a strong hand grip your jacket and pull you backward. Dean had shoved you behind him, not wanting that bastard to be able to hurt you again.  “Didn’t she kick you out once already?” Anger dripped from Dean’s words and you could tell it was taking everything he had for him not to punch the man that stood before him.

       “Yeah, but i..” Dean was not about to let him finish.

        “No out!” He yelled, “And if I ever see you around here again, I will kill you.” oddly a small smile started to form across your lips at how Dean was acting. You knew he cared about you, hell, he never gave you any reason to think he didn’t, but for some reason seeing him like this, protecting you like this, really let you know that he cared. Dean quickly slammed the bunker door shut and turned to face you. His eyes scanned your face looking for any signs of discomfort, but all he saw was a smile. “What..What are you smiling about?” He said confused.

        “Nothing, it’s just..” You rubbed your neck looking for the right words to say. “It kinda sweet when you get all protective like that.” You laughed nervously and he just scoffed and shook his head.

      “Shutup.”


        “you wanna rack?” Dean asked as he rubbed chalk on the end of his pool stick. You nodded and quickly collected all the balls and arranging them into the little wooden triangle. “You can break too if you want.” You cocked an eyebrow at Dean. He always broke, no matter how much you begged to he would never let you and now he was.

       “What are you doing, Winchester?” You questioned with a smile.

         “Trying to help you win at least one game tonight.” He laughed.

         “I just suck at pool, there isn’t really much you can do to help me win.” You stated and took the triangle off of the table.

         “Maybe your forms wrong or something.” He sat the blue cube of chalk on the side of the pool table and made his way over to you. “Break, and ill tell you if you’re doing something wrong.” His large hands rested on the table and the way he was looking at you sent a shiver down your spine.

      You positioned yourself, holding the pool stick the way Dean had thought you all those years ago. It felt right, nothing felt wrong, but when you looked back over to Dean the look on his face told you you were doing something wrong. “I could have sworn I thought you better than this.” He said with a sigh. “Move,” He pushed your body to the side with his hip as he took your place at the table. “Watch my arm.” He started focusing his eyes on the cue ball. As you watched him you noticed that your form was wrong. You had your arm in the wrong place which was causing you to mess up in all different kinds of ways. Dean glanced back at you and with a wink, he shot the cue ball into the others and you watched as the colorful orbs floated around the table, some finding their way into pockets, others finding a new spot on the table.

        “Alright let me try again.” You said sternly, hoping to fix your wrongs and prove to him that you could play pool.

         “But it’s still my turn.”

          “Shutup.” You said as you positioned the pool stick in front of the cue ball once more, this time making sure your arm was in a perfect position and aimed at the balls you wanted to sink. You hit the white ball and sure enough, every ball meets its intended target. You raised your body off the table with a smile.

        “Well look at you, getting better already, it pays to learn from the master,” Dean said with a large grin. “I think that earns you another beer.” He said making his way over to the bar before you stopped him.

       “Make that a whiskey.” You said.

        “Are you sure?” He questioned, knowing that your tolerance for alcohol, in general, was low, but it was even lower for whiskey.  

        “Yes, im sure Dean.”

         “Alright.” He nodded and headed towards the bar once more. While you waited for him to get back you made a couple of more shots, getting better with each one you took. You smiled to yourself realizing that you weren’t even thinking about the events that happened earlier, Dean was helping you forget, he was helping you relax and feel like yourself again.  “Here we go,” Dean said, knocking you from your train of thought. He set the small little shot glass down on the pool table and smiled at you watching how you were looking at the whiskey he brought you.

      You eyed the brown colored liquid and smiled. “Finally.” You wasted no time in quickly downing the shot, savoring the weird burning feeling it left in your throat. Dean watched you and let out a slight chuckle.

       “Am I going to have to bring you another one?” You nodded with a smile.

        “Give me a minute,” you stated, and those words were the last ones you remembered.


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A/N: So I suppose part three is in order. 

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My Waters Below My Hills.

2.5.2017

Give up your waters woman, become but a husk so that you are remade from your dust. 

When I was little, I had a series of spells that would plague me at night. I would choke on my own breathe, until it felt like my body has closed itself up to world around me. Usually happening between the moments when I was just about to wake up from sleep, my body would seize as if I was stuck on the threshold of dreaming and waking. 

Here I would have visions as my eyes welled up with tears and my mouth opened in silent gasps, screaming out for the deaths that are yet to come in my family. Until my parents would come rushing through the doors, and I would gulp down honey water to choke me awake with the sudden sweetness. 

The sensation of losing your breath is as if you are becoming nothing, swimming through nothing, seeing nothing. Slowly.

When I was very little, I almost died. One of my lungs collapsed at night while I was sleeping, and liquid began to fill my throat till I could barely gulp down air. My mother heard me gasping in my cradle beside her bed, and rushed me to the Emergency Room.

Last night, I couldn’t stop drinking water and then expelling my waters until the flow became crystal clear. There came a knowing in my body that it was time for another passage into the world below and back. I filled my copper basin that have collected the ashes of my ceremonies for the past months with cold water from the tap, and sitting it in a triangle of wooden staves, floated a white candle in its depths. 

My body heats, and morphs, and changes as my skin transforms serpentine, grow scales, wings of white feathers sprouting from my back, my breathing becomes none existent and this time I let it. For I know it is the mothers sitting with me.

I fall asleep to the light of my white candle, my fetch swimming through the oceans in my soul, waiting for the dream to come, to incubate as so many of us have done in temples and cells and caves and arbours in all the days before and after us. 

You may see yourself swimming down a lake or well. You will see yourself pass through more layers or doors than you have ever thought possible, usually involving an increasing sense of claustrophobia or pressure as you get deeper and deeper. Eventually you will find yourself very close to the heart of the spiral, the ‘eye of the storm’ where things are weaved and unweaved. You will need to pass through and to do so you will need to be able to let go of everything of you that is mortal. You will also be stripped of the illusion of ‘up’ and ‘down’ and come to realize that in travelling ‘down to the bottom’ you have also reached the height of heights and are now in the stars.

- Lee Morgan’s A Deed Without A Name, page 133, from the chapter “The Water Below The Hills”.

As I woke up in the world of sleeping, I found myself inside the houses of my mothers. First I was in a small cottage by the Bayous of Louisiana, Maria making gumbo and fish head stew with black bread. The scent of her spices fill the tiny house with memories I didn’t know I had. She sprinkles a powder into my bowl of stew and whispers a prayer I can’t hear. “Time to meet your maker”, she says to me, and I think it’s my time to die. 

“Not like that baby”, she responds, “You got more than one maker”.

I take the bowl into my hands, and as I take my first dip and bit, the scenes around me shift. 

Now I am on the banks of a river, the earth yellow with minerals and nutrients rubbing warm dust beneath me. Around me are tents filled with women, they point to the rushing waters crashing against the jagged rocks, and tell me to get closer or I’ll never swim to shore. The bitter waters splash against my face, tasting of green things and ash. I am stripped down into my scales and fins, and dipping into the waters, my vision goes black. 

When I can see again, I am in my middle school classroom in China. Before me is stretched rolls and rolls of paper, and I am spending an eternity writing out line after line. My middle school teacher, stern, manipulative, who in one breath can weep in front our parents for our supposed failures and then scream and hit us with her ruler behind their backs, stood looming over me. I pick up my pen, and begin to write as I always have in the past, never stopping until the alarm clock wakes me up from my slumber.

Time to meet your maker baby.

Is she my maker? I wonder to myself, this woman who was my mother for most days when my own mother left me there in that institution each morning, and came to pick me up late at night. Was she my maker? This stern, cruel woman who’s images blurs with that of my mother’s, with that of the many teachers before her who attempted to drill into my head a mother tongue I was suppose to know but could never quiet get the handle of. I feel my arms and run my hands over the cruel lines left behind by her stings and pinches and slaps and wrenching. 

I look at the rough, thin paper under my hands, my pen scratching out symbols and characters I can no longer remember the meanings of. 

No sun shone through the windows, everything was dark except for that single fluorescent light that shone above our heads. 

Her shadow creeps through every corner of the wall, running against the lines of chalkboards that surround us, imposing their dark shadows against my body.

All those years of repetition, of stolen consent, of silenced voices. I did something I didn’t know I could do, and had never done in previous dreams like the one I am having now, in that claustrophobic classroom with that imposing teacher. 

I put down my pen, I walk up to her, I look her in the eye, and I say, firmly, quietly, “no”.

And I walk away.

She weeps as the alarm sounds and my eyes open to the sun streaming through my window, cascading onto the sea of plants lining my room.

Give up your waters woman. I did. Become but a husk so you can be remade from your dust. Was I ever a mother? Was I ever in past lives a woman with a uterus who didn’t need to hide behind the masculinity she was assigned at birth because of her genitalia? Did I ever feel the sensation of pushing life out from between the lips of my legs, feeling a piece of me slip out of my body, into my arms? Or given away to another? Or take herbs poisonous to this life suckling in my womb so that I wouldn’t need to do this?

I look to the mothers of my line, and they gently move my head to look forward into the future. 

Some things do not need to be carried with you for all the lives you will live love.

The spirit of a child I didn’t know I had been carrying within my belly laughs and gurgles with joy.


Backstory. When I was nine years old my parents told me that we were going back to China for a summer vacation. After packing our bags and taking that arduous fourteen hour plane ride back home, we began looking for elementary schools in my area a week after we landed. We didn’t come back to Canada for five years. I was placed in local elementary schools with a series of abusive homeroom teachers. They were the mothers that my own mother refused to protect me from. They placed their hands without my consent onto my body, their fingers digging into my mind against my will.

Shaping me, gaslighting me, manipulating me into the perfect little brain washed, teacher fearing, government fearing student that the communist regime in China desired from every family at the time.

I could never say no.

These past few nights have been my beginnings and continuations in correcting that mistake of the past. 

Divine intervention

Benarmie lightside au prompt fill for @huxloween I’m behind, no big surprise there have some DAY 3

Originally posted by dsblackmetal

It’s fake.

It’s utter ridiculous nonsense.

All this ancient way of communicating with the dead stuff is utter tripe.

He wants to say as much to the person sitting cross legged on the other side of the board then him but he can’t manage to make his mouth cooperate with his brain.

He doesn’t say, this is stupid, this is fake, this is a waste of time.

Ben takes one of his hands in his, large and warm and Armitage is overwhelmed by the act. They had touched before, grazes, pat’s on shoulders, backs, a knee that one time, but he has trouble thinking back on a time Ben had initiated something so intimate.

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Anonymous said:Dipper being the town witch? Dipper finished drawing the last rune and tied off the end of his cording.  "Pines?“  He glanced up with a smile to Mr, Huffman- his choir teacher.  "Mr. Huffman!  Here for your smudges?  I just finished the last one this morning.” “Thank you so much!  They’ve really been helping my wife.”  The greying man glance down at the rune chain spread out on the deck.  "Who’s that for?“ "Protection runes for Robbie.  He’s convinced that there is a dark spirit hanging around in the graveyard.”  He murmured as he dug through his work box.  "Here we are!  One classic sage, one rosemary and sage, two sweet grass and lavender.“ "How much do I owe you?”  He gratefully too the pouch of smudges, free hand digging into his pocket for his wallet.   “Nothing nothing.”  Dipper shook his head.  "I am just here to help.“ With another thank you Mr, Huffman took his leave.  "You’re such a good little witch.”  DIpper turned with a smirk at the chuckle.  Bill was leaning on the door frame with a grin. “I had a great teacher.”  He grinned back and bent down to gather up the rune chain.  "Now this ‘little witch’ has a delivery to make.“ "Mr. witch, Mr. Witch!”  He looked up to a small gathering of town kids running toward him, little Katie at the head.  "Hi Mr.Cipher!“  They greeted before turning their attention back to Dipper.  "Mr. Witch we have something for you!” “Oh- and what did you bring me?”  He gave a bemused smile as he sat on the edge of the deck.   “You always make great things for the town people so we wanted to make something for you!”  With great flare one of them… James?- produced a hat box from behind his back. With a curious look Dipper took it, opening to revel a wide brimmed witches hat.  It was dark brown, its tip seemed to want to flop to one side.  Instead of a buckle or ribbon it had a thin strip or burlap around its base twisted with skinny twigs- green moss clinging to some of them.  A cluster of dried and book pressed leaves- a few green, some in glorious fall color were stitched onto one side, a couple barely over hanging the brim.  In the midst of the leaves there was a small cluster of acorns and a couple little pine cones.   In the center of it all- looking like they were holding the whole thing together- were two painted wooden pins.  A golden triangle and a blue pine tree side by side. 'As they should be.’ He smiled.  "How did you preserve the leaves?“ "Miss. Mabel helped us with a little potion!  We wanted it to look like the forest cause you know so much about it!”  A pigtailed blonde girl- Sarah- pipped up. “Wear it!”  Katie cheered- the other kids joining her.  He felt his cap pulled off and black gloved hands reached over him for the new hat, putting it carefully atop his head. “Yay!”  The kids cheered. “Looking good Pine Tree.  You really are a good little witch now.”  Bill whispered in his ear.  "You earned your hat.“
You don't understand how much I would like a Wooden-Swan-Fire love triangle.

The two endings would have made sense:

1) She chooses Neal because she always loved him and she can’t forget him.

2) She chooses August because she wants to have a new start and he wants to have a second chance and never abandon her again.

This two men made mistakes in the past. Actually, they did the SAME mistake: abandon her. And both of them want her forgiveness. 

And let me say something more: when August was adult and Neal was already in the show, Wooden Swan and Swanfire were little and pacific ships. IMAGINE A LOVE TRIANGLE WELL-WRITTEN WITHOUT ANY HATE AT ALL.