wont someone love me

I was going to draw cute sexy times to lift spirits but i thought abt namjin and sugamon in this au and i just ended up watering my succulents w my tears again

fixed the ask for u anon, since you made such a silly mistake 😘😘😘😘😘

my mom was saying transphobic things about my friends on facebook during breakfast and since I thought she was more tolerant than that i started tearing up a little and she got angry with me. asking what my problem was…

I had a dream about him ;;o;;

things people submit
  • Aries: I get so frustrated when people waste my time taking their time. Like "let's get a move on people, there's only so many hours the sun is out!!"
  • Taurus: I hate how I love routine to the point where Im not able to leave a toxic relationship. My stubbornness wont let me give up on someone I love even though I know they are no good for me.
  • Gemini: There's a distinctive flaw in my personality - it's ever changing. I can't even decide what style I want to wear. One day I'll wear all black and the next I'll wear flower crowns and floral clothes. My personality changes like my dress sense does.
  • Cancer: It's true that we are very sensitive, but we can keep our emotions for us without showing anyone. It's weird because we always try to show our toughness but yet people say we are sweet and kind but when we are alone we can count on just our strength, yet often I wish people didn't confuse our kindness with weakness.
  • Leo: I am constantly in need of attention. Not only from my boyfriend, but from all of my friends. I crave people falling in love with me. Nothing is more devastating to me than being a second choice.
  • Virgo: I'm really needy I wilt without attention from my close friends but I feel like I'm bothering everyone when I want to talk about my problems because I'm so used to doing the helping. Then I feel selfish for wanting help in return.
  • Libra: A lot of people tell me Im pretty and forget my intelligence. I feel like ppl care more about the physical than whats inside. Ive been told many times that ppl were surprised Im also smart because I look pretty. That depresses me.
  • Scorpio: I find that I like to have control of things, so I often take the place as the leader of the group, and when I am not I have very strong opinions on things and express them without a filter, and often take the place as a co-leader, I also find that it is easy to tell people what to do.
  • Sagittarius: It's true clingy people do annoy me. If you bother to stop me from having fun I will immediately drop my smile and give you the scariest death stare you've ever scene. Stop me from exploring places where adventure lies ahead and you'll be next on my kill list.
  • Capricorn: I come off as aloof, cold and shy when in reality I'm just at peace, observing. I'm afraid this trait of mine will push people away and that they find me boring, arrogant or stuck up. I want love but I'm afraid of vulnerability.
  • Aquarius: I don't like people that don't know how to keep a conversation going it annoys me on a level that is extreme because if ur awkward then I'm gonna get awkward and there's gonna be a uncomfortable silence. No.
  • Pisces: I am constantly torn between everything in life. One day I think I want my life to be stable and become a normal upper middle class citizen then the next I want to run away to a strange place with nothing but a camera. It's this way with everything in my life.

Its been 47 days since you left, Iโ€™m not counting anymore. Sure, my heart still pounds that tiny bit faster when I see you, my eyes linger on your face longer than they should, and thats okay.
You broke down a thousand walls when you walked out, ripped my heart into jigsaw pieces and set my lungs on fire, I donโ€™t know what you expect but I have always been so much more than what you saw in me.

I saw the world in you, but you will never be anything more, than an inkblot on my page, a story only worth reminding myself about when someone better comes along.
You were merely a spec of dust in my galaxy, 222 pages of my life, and thats okay.
I am an entire book, A thousand thunderstorms rolled into one, I am a natural disaster, built to take on more than whiny boys, whose eyes resemble oceans, and freckles resemble constellations.
You, are just a pretty face.

You provided a service, filled with shitty half assed excuses on why I wasnโ€™t worthy of your time.
Maybe you should have worn a watch, taken notice of what you had, realised your time wasnโ€™t so special after all.

I wasted the last 42 days of my life on a cliche, the idea that I needed you around, when I have never needed anyone who does not need me.
I have never needed anyone who doesnโ€™t care enough to stick around after the fallout.
I have never needed you.
You were something I wanted, something I thought I was lucky enough to get, but god, I could never, have been so wrong about someone.
The hopeless romantic side of my brain kicked in, and you became this character, someone I fell in love with, but all you were was a disappointment, a shitty one liner, a half written symphony.

I spent the last 5 days realising you are everything wrong with a breakup, heck, you were wrong with our relationship too. You are promising to be โ€œfriendsโ€ and a โ€œsoonโ€ that never comes. Youโ€™re an โ€œIโ€™ll miss youโ€ but not enough to do anything about it, youโ€™re a promise to โ€œbe thereโ€ despite the fact you donโ€™t know where there ever was.
Youโ€™re a pretty face, a character I can easily erase.
I have spent 42 days wishing you would come back, and maybe all of that time I knew you never would, but in the past 5, hell, maybe even in the past 47, I have learnt more about you, then I ever did, in the 222 days I spent with you.
And I sure as hell, do not like the person that you have become.
If that person is you at all.

—  269 days ago, if they told me it was going to end up like this, I sure as hell would not have invested myself in a storybook character.
When people leave they often take pieces of you with them, and it’s normal to think that you will never feel whole again. But remember, you built yourself from the ground up. Once upon a time, you created those pieces that are now gone. If you’ve done it once you can do it again. Rebuild. Rethink. Move on.
—  On the subject of leaving and being left

anonymous asked:

Are you still looking for a girlfriend?

sadly yes.. I need a typical lesbian girlfriend ASAP! over 18, Long hair with a snap back, someone who will treat me right and not like i’m their property. Someone who is not emotionally abusive or who cheats. Someone who would actually love me and not dump me for some random guy in the middle of prom saying that they never loved me. Someone who wont lead me on and then say that they aren’t looking to be with anyone and then date one of my good friends. I am looking for someone who is serious about having a relationship cause I am ready to start this thing called life. Soooooooo if there is anyone out there that is like this please fucking find me already so we can have this already!

Originally posted by sharmenthelword

There’s already a few Football Yang that was done ; w;
But I really wanted to draw one too, so I did it ’ 3' 

I don't have anyone. But I don't want anyone. Inwanna have nobody because if I have nobody then nobody can miss me

This is exactly what I typed to the guy I love. I was drunk so please excuse the mistakes in it but you get the point. I hate that I told this to him and I hate that I admitted to it at all because him and I have been off and on for the 6 months. I can’t seem to let him make me happy because I don’t know how too. I have such bad commitment issues. I hate that I do because I only want to be with him. But I’ve never loved someone like I do him. I wont let him give me the world he thinks I deserve because I know I don’t deserve it. I don’t deserve him. -L

are any of you like me where you don’t feel any sort of attraction or pull to anyone till you know what their personality is like…… this sounds so corny but I don’t really give anyone a second glance till I know what they’re like as a person