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Season 19 Renewal

As Season 18 went on, and I kept getting disappointed, all I could think was, “do the old writers and the cast also think the quality of the show is declining, or do they think everything is fine?”

Guess we have our answer.

The fact Rick Eid is leaving after just one season tells me that we were right all along. He was a bad fit for this show. Forget the scheduling mess, partly caused by the inability to produce episodes on time. He tried to turn SVU into a generic cop show, which is actually why I think he might be a good fit for Chicago PD. SVU was never generic. It’s an institution, and it was always about the characters, as much as it was about the cases,  as well as teaching the audience some sorely needed lessons.

Season 18 and its Struggles

In Season 18, the show lost track of that message. It’s not enough for Liv to sprout platitudes and give us Hallmark moments every week. A certain sensitivity and nuance is required, if you want to tackle SVU cases. Rick Eid lacked that sensitivity (if some episodes displayed it, it was because of the old SVU writers, in my opinion), and he couldn’t find that nuance. That’s why he effectively rewrote the same episode so many times. Rich white powerful man assaults rich white pretty lady. She is unreliable (or a liar, or a criminal, or it’s somehow her fault), and he is troubled. That’s it. We watched a variation of that, literally 13 times this season (I counted).

The T*rump episode alone perfectly demonstrates why Eid was a bad choice for SVU. The casual way in which Ice-T said it wasn’t one of their best, even though the (then) current showrunner had written it, that said it all. Showing women as liars is not what SVU is about, for me. Nor is it about showing rapists as sympathetic, or troubled figures, or innocent. Both can (and should) be done in moderation, in an individual episode or two, for the sake of a twist (or even realism, sometimes), but not all the time.  

Problem is, Rick Eid clearly didn’t know what else to do. What else to write. He didn’t know how to expand into non-rape cases, he didn’t know how to send the right message (and sometimes he’d even send the wrong message entirely), and (most curious of all) he didn’t know how to properly work the courtroom angle, despite the fact he’s apparently a lawyer, and the trial scenes increased tremendously in screentime. This season, despite its faults, could have given us a strong, take-charge Barba. If nothing else. Instead, he turned Barba into an afterthought who wouldn’t prosecute a single perp unless Liv told him to.

Season 18 and the Characters

This entire season, it felt like neither Rick Eid nor the other new writers ever watched the previous seasons. They totally misused Carisi, Rollins and Barba. They altered long-established portrayals. They changed these characters into generic cardboard cutouts, eliminating everything that made them unique (yet again, that’s another sight Eid might have better luck with Chicago PD). I won’t bore you with the details, but I’ve written about this many times, most recently (and extensively) here.

I mean, I remain baffled by that one interview, when Eid kept saying “the Carisi character” and “the Barba character,” like he had never watched his own show and he had zero emotional connection to his “own” characters. Which was obviously true, as it turns out. He never connected to any of them, except maybe Liv.

Season 18 and Liv

Which brings me to this. To me, it’s clear that another showrunner change would have to be okayed by Mariska (if not demanded by her). This season had some very strong Olivia moments, but overall it was not the best for her, in my view. The focus was on Liv, but what she was actually doing, it wasn’t always something I could root for. I didn’t like that feeling.

It’s one thing if she does something that’s supposed to be questionable (like Season 17’s Black Lives Matter episode, and the way she instinctively wanted to stand by her fellow cops at first) or “flawed,” but it’s another thing to have her badgering witnesses and victims alike into testifying, for an entire season. Or telling Barba how to prosecute his own cases. Or thinking she can’t have a personal life and a child at the same time.

That’s not who Liv is, to me. I hope we can find that Liv again. And I’d like to think Mariska agrees. The fact she wanted (or at least she agreed to) a new showrunner despite the fact this season was “all about her” is a good sign. She’s the star, and she’s the reason most people watch, but she is also self-aware, and she must have known how Liv was coming off, at times. She must still want the best for Liv, like we all do, and I’m happy to know that.

Season 18 and Sonny

Lastly, when it comes to Sonny, I just hope we can find the old Sonny too. The one with the personality, and the whole bunch of sisters, and the niece who drools on him. The Sonny who is fantastic undercover, and has great instincts, and uses his affability to nail perps during interrogations, and thinks outside the box to solve a case (actually that last part is still there, even in S18, thank God). The Sonny who is empathetic and hilarious and quirky and interested in medicine and photography and Möbius strips. The Sonny who came into his own, and turned into a confident and experienced and badass detective. The Sonny who has some darkness inside him, but doesn’t let it turn him into yet another violent cop. The Sonny who is real, and has real relationships with his friends and colleagues, and isn’t just “Cop Number 1”, only there to deliver exposition.

Peter deserves better, much like all the actors. It’s a shame to have this great cast, and this rich history, and fail to utilize either of them properly.

In Conclusion

I’ve said it many times. SVU has had terrible seasons before, but it has always bounced back. So I hope we can all just all pretend Season 18 never happened, even though that may not be eas…

Wait, that’s very easy, actually, because literally not a single thing happened in season 18. All the characters are pretty much where they were at the end of S17, except Fin, who is an almost-Sergeant, and has an offscreen twitter-grandchild.

So let’s just start over, huh?

:)

anonymous asked:

I think it's a shame that you only answer flattery questions, and ignore the good criticism. Hiding behind the "this game costs a lot" excuse won't make your game better. Listening to advice will. You are letting your pride come before judgment, and even if the people who think the game could improve a lot (especially in the writing side) are a minority, as a developer, you should listen to them and consider their opinions, not pack them into the "they're complaining about the AU again" pile.

I think the basic concept here is failure to understand criticism and headcanon complaints. For example, if you feel as if a voice is voiced wrong, or a custom story element/writing aspect you feel does not match UNDERTALE, is more along the lines of headcanon/personal taste complaints, and while you may feel that it’s criticism, it does not help me if it’s provided without actual context.

While they’re totally fine, turning something like that around and saying that I do not listen to criticism or feedback is completely not OK, see HERE for a post explaining this act. I’m aware of the difference. If you honest-to-God feel like there’s something you’re upset about, simply stating “I don’t like how you wrote so-and-so,” is absolutely not helpful in any form. If you were to go into detail, provide your viewpoints and some pointers, it would let me see how YOU see the characters. But, once again, telling me that something is not written in a way you like it, or a design is not they way you like it, is not helpful in any form without detailed context.

Pride does not come before judgement in this case, regardless of what you think, I do listen to all criticisms and a lot of aspects of the game have been changed because of it. I’m not sorry that I unfortunately care about my game. There’s plenty of proof on the update logs on various areas that have been altered because someone pointed something out or provided a detailed example of something WITHOUT simply saying “I don’t like that design! Change it!” Recently, one of the larger concerns has been to add a downloadable version, which will be available on the next update.

Lastly, “the game costing too much” is absolutely an impedement. I hate to say it, but there’s no loans or a constant flow of cash coming in to help me develop this game. When a script is written, it’s reviewed by me and the voice actors to ensure it flows correctly. When a design is created, it’s looked over by the team and posted publicly for feedback. When music is created, it’s posted on YouTube for feedback and criticism. This all costs money, and to alter it at the last second or request an alteration costs money, too.

Furthermore, believe it or not, I don’t get many questions regarding it. I answer just about any ask that isn’t off-topic that comes into my inbox. Most questions people ask are in our Discord, anyway. Any sort of questions about the writing mostly stem from “How come Sans is helping Frisk? How come he didn’t kill them!” which is not the direction I’m taking the story and certainly something I’m not revealing because of spoilers.

Do understand that extreme amount of work and hardships that actually /come/ with developing a full-scale game. My team and I work as hard as we can to ensure that UNDERFELL is developed at a pace that’s satisfying yet how WE and YOU, want it to be developed. If this game were developed completely by the community and with absolutely no leadership, it’d come out as a mish-mash of personal headcanons with no story base other than “kill human.” Unfortunately, developers have to deal with people accusing them of not listening, when they in fact, do.

Criticism and feedback are absolutely, without-a-doubt, welcomed. This is something that most, if not all, know about who follow this blog. However, like I stated, it needs to be something with context that the team can understand. A good way to approach me with criticism or feedback is, “Hey, I was thinking that when Papyrus says <dialog>, he maybe should say <dialog> because <reason> and perhaps because <reason>, here’s the <solution>.”

This was a very passive-aggressive question that lead to something that I could actually explain in-depth to people. I’m not sorry it didn’t turn out the way you wanted, anon. With my ending statement, I’m not Toby Fox and UNDERFELL is NOT UNDERTALE. Things will be different, much different. If you do not like this, there are plenty of other games that heavily follow UNDERTALE’s lore.

For example, you can check out Team Spritedgy’s rendition of the UF AU, here: http://gamejolt.com/games/undertale-underfell/151411

It’s more vanilla than what I’m aiming for.

anonymous asked:

Hi! :) After the no Fitzsimmons nonsense of this season, are they seriously thinking about separate them AGAIN or even break them up?? They have done nothing as a couple, except crying... and let's face it the apartment thing was a prank. I won't lie, I won't take it anymore, if the season begins with them apart, I will shut down the tv... If it is a "forever love" but they only show it the first day and in the very last ep without nothing in-between, following the journey is useless. :/ :(

Hi Anon!

We don’t know what they are going to do with Fitzsimmons when we first come back…there is a very good chance that the writers don’t know what they are going to do either.  I think that they have an endgame in mind…and its a matter of what route they take to get there.   And as they go into Season 5 they stand at a fork in the road as to what direction they want to take.  

Its okay to feel upset and even betrayed right now.  I did, and I still do a bit.  I’m getting better as I re watch and have a few metas under my belt.  But I definitely am going to be a lot more careful with anything they tell us from now on…good and bad.  I do hope the writers and show runners are more careful too.  Seeing the hurt.  IE don’t put things out there you don’t intent on paying off or worse lead us to believe it will be paid off when you very well know you won’t.

The way I’m looking at it is if they were going to break them up we would have seen the break up in the finale.   We saw Philinda take the step back, if Fitzsimmons were going to do the same I think we would have had a heartbreaking scene where Fitz pushed her away and said that he needed time.  But we didn’t.   We got a scene where he point blank said that there his his love for Jemma would never fade and that there was only room in his heart for her.  With the “other woman” who had orchestrated things so that she would be his “whole world” sitting right next to him and she meant NOTHING romantically to him.  Nothing.  He had the same amount of time worth of memories and “transferred feelings” for Ophelia as he did Jemma, and Jemma won hands down.

Originally posted by alfonsosherrera

We saw Jemma go through hell to get him back.  That her feelings hadn’t changed either, that she didn’t blame him for anything.  It wasn’t him.  And she saw that affirmation as well.  

Did we get a chance to see THAT desperately needed conversation.  No.  And not gonna lie or sugar coat it.  That totally sucks and the writers dropped the ball.  Not only did they run out of time, I think they honestly thought that what they did was “enough’ of a pay off.   Don’t get me wrong, that pod scene is now one of my all time favorite scenes.  It was amazing and powerful…and had that been the last thing we saw of Fitzsimmons this season I think most of the fandom would be good right now.  Because there it ended with them holding each other in that silent affirmation that they were there for each other through it all.   They really had no idea how much of a toll the Framework Arc would take on the Fandom.  And in the past we really haven’t been a hard fandom to please.  They are used to giving us epic moments that are spread out and we’re content to gif the heck out of it for a few months.  But we’re expecting more now because Fitzsimmons have grown both as characters and in their relationship and we want to see moments that reflect that.  

We did get some great moments, where they HUGE moments we had all been excited about going into the season?  Again,no.  But in more of Fitzsimmons fashion it was those little moments that spoke to their love and deep connection.

  • Bed cuddles
  • Adorable in the lab with the boxes “Cue Jemma Gasping”
  • Love Nest Shopping
  • Fight
  • “She’s out there all alone and I’m gone”/the ENTIRE team affirming how much they mean to each other.
  • Beautiful Reunion hugs
  • Fitzsimmonsing to stop Eli and double gun shot
  • Tormenting Talbot
  • Comfort Kiss
  • I mean the whole of 12 for me I just love WITH bonus “Your the best” face grab kiss.
  • “Don’t do that” with you didn’t die hugs and working together
  • Comforting Fitz and we’ll fix this together
  • Rip our hearts out but yet look he was thinking about Marriage before this all went to hades.
  • Jemma digging myself out of a grave to get to my man Anne Simmons
  • “If you do this I lose him forever” “I love him”
  • Pain, more pain, but we started to suspect that AIDA had stolen Fitzsimmons relationship for herself. along with Fitz.
  • Uniting behind our collective hate for Papa Fitz and cheering Jemma on as he went after him….after totally sneaking out when Daisy said they had to leave him behind.
  • More pain but Jemma would rather die than say she meant nothing to him.
  • Fitz woke up from a nightmare he was the monster in we need to get to him
  • Confirmation AIDA stole Fitzsimmons relationship for herself
  • Leopold “I”ll only ever love Jemma” James Fitz….with Jemma hearing it.
  • Beautiful reunion crying hugs
  • Tricking the obsessed, crazy android with a fake fight.
  • Jemma getting to unload a ton of bullets into AIDA
  • FItzsimmons getting to watch The Rider and Dad Off Front runner Coulson take care of the contrived roadblock in epic fashion.  
  • Jemma’s “amen” to that they weren’t letting him face whatever alone, didn’t blame him, and were going to help him heal.  

I likely missed some but we had something in nearly every single episode this season.  Again, no not the big sweep us off the feet and make us swoon traditional shipper moments.  But the more quiet Fitzsimmons ones we’ve had all along.  Again, I’m not saying I wouldn’t love me a really nice over the top shipper moment (because really writers would one good proper kiss have killed you, no), but they did give us something in nearly every single episode (which is uncommon for a show like this) and I would be bereft if I didn’t mention that here.  

Yes, they took the Love Nest from us…and now I know why.  Because its not time for Endgame yet…they let us and them get THIS CLOSE.  Not only were they looking to move off base but Shield was back on the up and up, they didn’t have to hide anymore.   Then,they and we lost it.  Jed and Mo constantly talk in interviews about the cost of the job and the toll it can take, how Fitzsimmons is one of the best ways for them to show it, this was a way of showing that.   We started the season so close and now they’ve been pulled deeper into the shadows by whoever took them than they were before.  And I’ll take losing the Love Nest to losing them together…sorry breakfast nook.   

  • The Love Nest is the Seychelles of this Season, that thing we lost because of the crap that happened.
  • This continues to give pull to my theory that eventually Fitzsimmons will say enough is enough and choose each other over the job once and for all.  And they had that decision taken from them in this finale as they were whisked way by who knows who to god knows where.

As ‘betrayed’ as I feel by the writers right now believe it or not I do have faith that they are going somewhere with all this.  That Fitzsimmons with Perthshire, Wedding, and Babies is all in the cards.  But its Endgame and until they are ready to have that happen, they will continue to put roadblocks in the way.   I’m honestly okay with roadblocks to endgame but they do need to give us Hope in between and need to let them face the next ones together as a couple.  

The one that seems to have been set up is now getting Fitz to forgive himself.  They’ve set it up that Jemma is the one who will help him do that.  Real couples face difficult situations all the time and don’t break up because of it.  This is their chance to show a couple dealing with a traumatic event while staying together and helping each other heal.   I don’t think they’ve set up them breaking up and getting back together, that is a traditional trope and if anything AOS doesn’t do traditional tropes in the traditional way.

  • Take the “love triangle” we had this season.  The ‘traditional’ or easy way of doing this would have been for Fitz to fall for AIDA in the real world.  But NOPE in order for it to even happen…he had to be kidnapped, brainwashed, and manipulated while being thrown in to a nightmare hell world designed by a Robot who wanted his mind and his relationship with Jemma.  

I do have concerns they will have them split up physically or make it so even if they are together the situation they’ve been forced into is somehow keeping them apart.  Be it they have physically been taken to separate locations or whoever took them won’t allow them to be together outside the lab kind of thing (though Coulson seemed to have some sort of freedom on there).  

I know none of what I just said will take the pain away or ease that distrust for the writers now.  They made their bed and have to lie in it.   A lot of this comes down to us and them having very different definitions/expectations of words like reward and soon.  Its okay to be tired of being given the run around too, because I’m there too.  They have made it so its more frustrating than fun.  They crossed a line thinking what they had was enough to make up for it, and for most of the battered fandom it wasn’t.  I’m ready to see them be a couple dealing with this stuff, not fighting to get back to each other.  There are plenty of interesting stories to tell there.  

However if you really feel empassioned and want to make your voice heard you can do that. Just like when we were fighting for renewal.  And I can not emphasize this enough that if you choose to send feedback to do it  POLITELY, POSITIVELY, AND RESPECTFULLY! We learned from AIDA that throwing a tantrum doesn’t get what you want.   

  • ABC has a feed back form that you can fill out on its shows.   We busted this out a few months ago to fight for renewal, now you can do it if you want to send in your opinion.  HERE is a post that has the link and instructions…just change from renewal to your thoughts on the story. 
  • Tweet at ABC and Agents of Shield.  Using #fitzsimmons and #agentsofshield
  • DO NOT tweet at Jed, Mo, Colo, Mark, the other writers, or the cast personally with this stuff. 

Going forward I’m going to be incredibly careful with ANYTHING we get from Jed and Mo.  I pretty much already disregard anything from the Jeff’s since they troll us so much.  I don’t want to get burned again.  I will not go into next season expecting kisses, romantic dinners, and heartfelt conversations about recovery, love, and forgiveness.  That is what fan fic is for.  

Rather I’ll watch for and appreciate those small moments while reveling in the big ones.  They like to surprise us with the BIG moments, Sandwich, Maybe there is 2.22, Sunrise/Perthshire 3.7, First Kiss 3.8 (we wouldn’t have seen that one coming a mile away had they not released that pic to EW), Handhold in 3.15,  Kisses 3.17, Undercover and ensuing sexy times 3.18 (again we had the undercover tease and waited MONTHS to see that…and most of you likely though I was downright crazy for that prediction too) Love Nest 4.4, Thinking of proposing 4.15.  So I’m going to sit back and wait for the next one to surprise me!  

And I will hope that the writers see they did hurt us and dial back the trolling, teasing, and pain.  Don’t tease things they have no intention of delivering or be a bit more honest about the timeline of such things (cough engagement cough).   Not only throughout hiatus but into next season.  

  • Aaron: Hiya. Thanks for coming. It's good to see you.
  • Robert: I've hardly slept since Chas told me what I did. I totally messed up.
  • Aaron: Oi, it's fine.
  • Robert: No, it's not. I'm supposed to be helping you out, not causing you more grief. Flipping idiot.
  • Aaron: Well, I can't argue with that.
  • Robert: Maybe I shouldn't have come. I don't want to make things any worse for you and I can see the way these muppets are looking at us.
  • Aaron: Relax. They get a bit mouthy, but that's about it. Anyway, is there any news on the appeal?
  • Robert: The barrister reckons the sentence was way over the top. He thinks he can probably get the sentence reduced.
  • Aaron: Thinks? Probably? There's no point getting my hopes up yet, then, is there?
  • Robert: I'm so sorry, Aaron. That first visit, I was so desperate to see you, I...
  • Aaron: I said it's fine. Robert, none of this is your fault. And anyway, I wouldn't have been able to keep up with the straight act.
  • Robert: All I had to do was keep up the whole cousin routine and I couldn't even manage that. I don't suppose Chas kicking off's made anything any easier.
  • Aaron: Seriously, stop stressing. I can look after myself.
  • Robert: She knows she messed up. She's so scared for you, she won't even go see Sarah.
  • Aaron: Then talk to her and tell her Sarah needs her much more than I do.
  • Robert: Are you sure?
  • Aaron: Yeah, I'm positive. I mean it, she needs to go to Prague, seriously. I can sort myself out.
  • Robert: Right, but if anything happens to you, anything at all, you promise me you're gonna tell me? (Aaron sees Jason blowing him a kiss) Aaron, please.
  • Aaron: Yeah, I promise ya.
  • Robert: Right. If you do get any flak, don't rise to it. If you get in any trouble, it could stuff the appeal.

One thing that drives me nuts in Daredevil, because the show/Matt never acknowledges it:

Matt can’t tell when Elektra is lying.

Not ever! And you would think that he would have caught on by this point, but no, he still says things like ‘your heartbeat is always loud and clear’ and falls for lines like ‘listen to my heartbeat, you know it’s true’* without a blink.

Like, at this point I just admire Elektra for having the chutzpah to pull all this off, but damn Matthew. You never learn.

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Ed Sheeran sentence starters
  • "I saw a shooting star and thought of you."
  • "You were lying next to me, I looked across and fell in love."
  • "If you wanna put this on me, that’s fine, I never blamed you for anything at all."
  • "The world looks better through your eyes."
  • "It's only been one night of love and maybe that is not enough."
  • "If I fall for you, would you fall too?"
  • "It's not a homeless life for me, it's just I'm home less than I'd like to be."
  • "I haven't slept for the past week, two hours ain't enough for me."
  • "I'm drunk off last nights whisky and coke."
  • "You can stay with me forever or you could stay with me for now."
  • "Outside the day is up and calling, but I don't have to be so, please go back to sleep."
  • "Never been better since all the therapy."
  • "And you know, if I let you go, I'll still keep you safe."
  • "You are the one I fall asleep with but never wake up to."
  • "The worst things in life come free to us."
  • "I wanna be drunk when I wake up on the right side of the wrong bed."
  • "What didn't kill me, it never made me stronger at all."
  • "I know I'll never hold you like I used to."
  • "I'll be drunk again to feel a little love."
  • "I know you'll never love me like you used to."
  • "I found your hair band on my bedroom floor, the only evidence that you've been here before."
  • "I don't drink like everybody else, I do it to forget things about myself."
  • "There's no chance that we'll work it out."
  • "I said that's fine, but you're the only one that knows I lied."
  • "Everybody said we'd be together forever."
  • "Everything's great and everything's sure, but you live in your halls and I live in a tour bus."
  • "Pain is only relevant if it still hurts."
  • "If I was gonna go somewhere, I'd be there by now."
  • "I should ink my skin with your name."
  • "I should run you a hot bath and fill it up with bubbles."
  • "You should never cut your hair 'cause I love the way you flick it off your shoulder."
  • "You will never know just how beautiful you are to me."
  • "Maybe you're hoping for a fairy tale, too."
  • "This is the start of something beautiful."
  • "And it's dark in a cold December, but I've got you to keep me warm."
  • "I'm out of touch, I'm out of love."
  • "I think I love you better now."
  • "Playing a different show every night in front of a new crowd."
  • "Let me sing and do my thing and move to greener pastures."
  • "You need me, man, I don’t need you."
  • "Never be anything but a singer-songwriter, yeah."
  • "People think that I’m bound to blow up."
  • "I haven’t got a house, plus I live on a couch."
  • "They say I’m up and coming like I'm fucking in an elevator."
  • "Settle down with me, and I'll be your safety, you'll be my lady."
  • "I'm falling for your eyes, but they don't know me yet."
  • "Give me love like her, 'cause lately I've been waking up alone."
  • "All I want is the taste that your lips allow."
  • "Give me love like never before, 'cause lately I've been craving more."
  • "It's been a while but I still feel the same... maybe I should let you go."
  • "Another love that's gone to waste."
  • "If I kissed you, will your mouth read this truth?"
  • "Darling, how I miss you."
  • "You made me scream, but then I made you cry."
  • "Maybe you should learn to love her like the way you wanna be loved."
  • "I never told her that I liked the way she dances slightly out of time and pretends she knows the words to a song she's never heard."
  • "You’re not her, though I try to see you differently."
  • "I will try to find another one who suited me as well as her."
  • "We never even tried, we never even talked, we never even thought in the long run."
  • "Whenever it was painful, whenever I was away, I’d miss you."
  • "I didn't mean to break your heart."
  • "Everybody falls apart sometimes."
  • "I know you've found another one, but won't you just hold me tonight."
  • "They don't know we don't speak anymore."
  • "I will stop trying to fall in love again... it never works out anyway."
  • "But I am not anything like I was."
  • "I don't wanna lose a lover and friend in one night if that's alright."
  • "I shouldn't have fucked with your mind and your life too many times."
  • "I never meant to sleep around, I was just lonely."
  • "When I see my future, it is with you."
  • "We're not friends, nor have we ever been."
  • "If they find out, will it all go wrong?"
  • "We're not friends, we could be anything."
  • "Friends don't treat me like you do."
  • "Tell me that you turned down the man who asked for your hand 'cause you're waiting for me."
  • "I know, you're gonna be away a while, but I've got no plans at all to leave."
  • "Just promise me, you'll never leave again."
  • "Just promise me, you'll always be a friend."
  • "Everything changes, but we'll be strangers if we see this through."
  • "I've been sat with you for most of the night, ignoring everybody here."
  • "Don't you worry if I disappear."
  • "I'm not really looking for another mistake."
  • "I was never looking for a friend."
  • "Maybe you could swing by my room around ten, baby, bring a lemon and a bottle of gin."
  • "Baby, if you wanted me then you should've just said."
  • "Maybe we'll go together and just figure it out."
  • "Trust and respect is what we do this for."
  • "You didn't need to take him to bed that's all."
  • "I never saw him as a threat until you disappeared with him to have sex of course."
  • "It's not like we were both on tour, we were staying on the same fucking hotel floor."
  • "I wasn't looking for a promise or commitment, but it was never just fun and I thought you were different."
  • "This is not the way you realize what you wanted."
  • "It's a bit too much, too late if I'm honest."
  • "Getting high as two kites when we needed to breathe."
  • "I'd disappear, you'd call me selfish, I understand but I can't help it."
  • "So we can either deal with the pain and wait to get on a plane."
  • "You should go, 'cause I ain't ever coming home."
  • "I've been livin' on the road, but then again you should know."
  • "You won't ever be alone... wait for me to come home."
  • "Loving can heal, loving can mend your soul."
  • "When I'm away, I will remember how you kissed me."
  • "How'd I get so faded?"
  • "I feel the chemicals burn in my bloodstream."
  • "I've been looking for a lover, thought I'd find her in a bottle."
  • "I'll be feeling this tomorrow."
  • "You look so wonderful in your dress, I love your hair like that."
  • "We are surrounded by all of these lies and people who talk too much."
  • "You got the kind of look in your eyes as if no one knows anything but us."
  • "All that you are is all that I'll ever need."
  • "Just don’t expect me back this evening."
  • "I love him from my skin to my bones but I don’t wanna live in his home."
  • "I was raised to keep quiet."
  • "I don't wanna hate you."
  • "I kind of knew you liked the dude from private school."
  • "I knew he had his eyes on you."
  • "He's not the right guy for you."
  • "Don't hate me 'cause I write the truth."
  • "I would never lie to you but it was never fine to lose you."
  • "I'm just disgusted with the skeletons you sleep with in your closet."
  • "Fact is you're mad at me because I backtrack so casually."
  • "You're practically my family, if we married then I'll guess you'd have to be."
  • "Tragically our love just lost the will to live, but would I kill to give it one more shot? I think not."
  • "I don't love you, baby, I don't need you... I don't want you anymore."
  • "I'm not cut out for life on the road 'cause I didn't know I'd miss you this much."
  • "I guess I'm not the man that you need."
  • "Ever since you went to uni, I've been sofa surfing with a rucksack full of less cash and I guess that could get bad."
  • "When I broke the industry, that's when I broke your heart."
  • "I was supposed to chart and celebrate, but good things are over fast."
  • "I tend to turn you off and switch on my professional features, then I turn the music off and all I'm left with is to pick up my personal pieces."
  • "Success is nothing if you have no one left to share it with."
  • "I know you have a day job, but mine is 24/7."
  • "I still love you and I need you by my side if I could."
  • "The irony is if my career and music didn't exist, in 6 years, you'd probably be my wife with a kid."
  • "I'll die from a thrill, go down in history as just a wasted talent."
  • "Eventually I'll be fine, I know that it was never meant to be."
  • "These things happen for a reason and you can't change shit."
  • "Take my apology, I'm sorry for the honesty, but I had to get this off my chest."
  • "I will be loving you 'til we're 70."
  • "People fall in love in mysterious ways."
  • "I fall in love with you every single day."
  • "For four years I never had a place to stay."
  • "At 16 years old, I moved out of my home."
  • "I tattooed the lyrics onto my arm."
  • "I'll hold ya and you'll think of him."
  • "I'll never trust you again, you can just be a friend."
  • "If we should die tonight, then we should all die together."

anonymous asked:

It's Regina and Emma's third date and Regina is freaking out because she's heard all about the third date rule and she's not ready to be intimate yet, but Emma has already realized that reassures Regina that she won't rush her

Thanks for the prompt :) 

Emma frowns as she sees Regina fidgeting in the passenger seat. It’s their third date tonight and ever since Emma picked her up Regina has been antsy and jumpy. 

“Are you okay?” Emma asks worriedly. Their first two dates went…well better than any date Emma has ever had.and she was hoping their third would be just as good. Yet, Regina is a bundle of nerves which is the opposite of what Emma wants. She wants relaxed and happy not stress. 

“Fine,” Regina replies quietly. 

Emma frowns once more before pulling the car over to a stop. She turns to face the brunette looking her in the eyes as she asks, “What’s wrong?” 

Regina sighs, “It’s our third date.” 

“Yeah…are you not happy about that? I thought we were connecting Regina…do you not want to go out anymore?” 

“No…I mean…yes, I still want to date you Emma, I really do…I…I know what a third date typically entails…what’s expected…”

“Oh,” Emma says realisation hitting in an instant. She reaches across to take Regina’s hand in her own as she promises, “I wasn’t expecting anything of tonight, just you, me and some fine Italian dining.”

“Really? You weren’t hoping for…”

“No,” Emma tells her, “We don’t have to do hard and fast rules Regina. Let’s face it when have we ever done anything conventionally? We will have sex when we’re ready to Regina, when we’re both ready to.” 

Regina smiles, “Okay…thank you for being so understanding.” 

“Anytime, you know I’d never force you into anything right?” 

“i know,” Regina promises. They continue to hold hands for a moment before Regina lets out a sigh of relief, “You said something about fine Italian dining?” 

This is bad and long but it made me laugh a little bc Blake definitely wrote filthy fanfiction that just happened to cross dimensions.
  • Ruby, jumping up from her bed: The front door! They're here!!
  • Blake, sleepily sitting up from the big spoon position: Huh? Wha-....?
  • Ruby, grabbing hold of Blake's hand and tugging: C'mon c'mon c'mon!! You HAVE to meet them!!! I've told them so much about you!!
  • Blake, shaking her head in a failed attempt to rid herself of sleepiness: Uhh...yeah, okay okay.
  • Ruby, sprinting out her room and down the stairs with Blake struggling to maintain balance: Uncle Geralt! Aunt Yennefer!
  • Blake, stopping dead in her tracks as Ruby jumps up to hug a grizzly grey haired man: Wh-what were those names again?
  • Ruby, hugging Yennefer and getting a kiss on the cheek: That's my uncle! Geralt of Rivia!
  • Ruby, putting her fists triumphantly to her hips: He's one of the best monster slayers ever! And Yennefer is a super strong sorceress~! She still won't tell me what kind of dust she uses with her semblance though.
  • Yang, opening the side door and walks in, dropping the bag of groceries, and jumps in joy, running into a hug: Uncle! Auntie!
  • Geralt, with a small dry laugh: It's good to see you girls again. My, you've grown since we've seen you last.
  • Yennefer, rolling her eyes: It has been years Geralt. Children don't stay young forever.
  • Taiyang, with a laugh: Yet you two seem to.
  • Weiss, stepping into the house and instantly scrunches up her nose: Eugh, what smells like DEATH?
  • Yennefer, nudging a slightly offended Geralt: Don't you have something for the children?
  • Geralt, looking over: Hmm? Oh, yes I do.
  • Geralt, rummaging through a bag and hands Ruby a sword: Some of the finest steel in all of Valenwood. Found all the material for it myself, had a friend craft it especially for you.
  • Ruby, holding the sword high, and preforming a few practice swings: Wow! Thanks!!
  • Yang, hardly able to maintain her excitement: Oh oh oh! Me next! Me next!
  • Geralt, pulling a large horn out of his bag: And for my future successor, despite your father's protests, an Elder Fiend horn.
  • Weiss, with narrow eyes as Yang grabs hold of it: Is it...still bloody?
  • Geralt, staring down Blake: And you, Ruby has told me a lot about you in letters.
  • Blake, with a small gulp: It's...nice to meet you.
  • Geralt, dropping a bag of gold coins into Blake's outstretched hand: This is for your book. The..."Unicorn riders", I believe it was called?
  • Blake, her eyes wide: O-oh?
  • Geralt, leaning forward, with a snarl: However...names were changed to protect the privacy of certain individuals.
  • Blake, nodding, feeling faint: Ah...of course.
Richard Siken Quote Starters
  • I woke up in the morning and I didn't want anything, didn't do anything, couldn't do it anyway.
  • I say I want you inside me and you hold my head underwater. I say I want you inside me and you split me open with a knife.
  • Vanity makes you say things like "I deserved a better life than this."
  • I sleep. I dream. I make up things that I would never say. I say them very quietly.
  • Your world doesn't make sense.
  • Someone once told me that explaining is an admission of failure. I'm sure you remember, I was on the phone with you, sweetheart.
  • A man takes his sadness and throws it away but then he's still left with his hands.
  • I've been in your body and it was a carnival ride.
  • Tell me about the dream where we pull the bodies out of the lake and dress them in warm clothes again.
  • Love always wakes the dragon and suddenly, flames everywhere.
  • You're in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won't tell you that he loves you, but he loves you.
  • Is that too much to expect? That I would name the stars for you?
  • To them he is a mirror, but to you he is a room.
  • You want a better story. Who wouldn't?
  • Let's admit, without apology, what we do to each other.
  • If you love me, Henry, you don't love me in a way I understand.
  • He was pointing at the moon, but I was looking at his hand.
  • I am more than one thing, and not all of those things are good.
  • Fairy tales have rules. You are a princess or you aren't.
  • You wanted to think of yourself as someone who did these kinds of things. You wanted to be in love and he happened to get in the way.
  • We have not touched the stars, nor are we forgiven.
  • If this isn't a kingdom then I don't know what is.
  • Your body told me in a dream it's never been afraid of anything.
  • You swallow my heart and flee, but I want it back now, baby. I want it back.
  • Sorry about the blood in your mouth. I wish it was mine.
  • Everyone needs a place. It shouldn't be inside of someone else.
  • I'm sorry I came to your party and seduced you and left you bruised and ruined.
  • Everyone could see the way his muscles worked, the way we look like animals, his skin barely keeping him inside.
  • I'm pulling you out of the burning buildings and you say "I'll give you anything" but you never come through.
  • Dear Forgiveness, I saved a plate for you. Quit milling around the yard and come inside.
  • You wanted happiness, I can't blame you for that.
  • I swear, I end up feeling empty, like you've taken something out of me and I have to search my body for scars.
  • Oh, the things we invent when we are scared and want to be rescued.
  • I do believe his mouth is heaven, his kisses falling over me like stars.
  • He had green eyes, so I wanted to sleep with him. Green eyes flecked with yellow, dried leaves on the surface of a pool. You could drown in those eyes, I said.
  • Damn if there isn't anything sexier than a slender boy with a handgun, a fast car, a bottle of pills.
  • The entire history of human desire takes about seventy minutes to tell. Unfortunately, we don't have that kind of time.
  • You play along, because you want to die for love, you always have.
  • You're trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist.
  • Moonlight making crosses on your body, and me putting my mouth on every one.
  • I wouldn't kill your pony. I'd like to believe it, anyway.
  • Imagine a story where everything goes wrong, where everyone has their back against the wall, where everyone is in pain and acting selfishly because if they don't, they'll die.
  • You're a train and I'm a train station and when I try to guess your trajectory I end up telling my own story.
  • The way you slam your body into mine reminds me I'm alive.
  • I'm just a writer. I write things down. I walk through your dreams and invent the future.
  • I couldn't get the boy to kill me, but I wore his jacket for the longest time.
  • Imagine a story, not of good against evil, but of need against need against need, where everyone is at cross-purposes and everyone is to blame.
  • You looked at me long enough to see something mysterious under all the gruff and bluster. Thanks.
  • In the wrong light anyone can look like a darkness.
  • You just wanted to prove there was one safe place, just one safe place where you could love him. You have not found that place yet.
  • This is not harmless. You are not breathing.
  • Lesson number one -- be sneaky and have a plan.
  • I know history. There are many names in history but none of them are ours.
  • You know that a boy who likes boys is a dead boy, unless he keeps his mouth shut, which is what you didn't do, because you are weak and hollow and it doesn't matter anymore.
  • Tell me how all this, and love too, will ruin us.
  • Sometimes you get so close to someone you end up on the other side of them.
  • When someone is trying to ditch you, kill you, never go back.
  • All wars are the same war.
  • We are all going forward. None of us are going back.
  • I'm not suggesting the world is good, that life is easy, or that any of us are entitled to better.
  • I wanted to be wanted and he was very beautiful, kissed with his eyes closed, and only felt good while moving.
  • Okay, so I'm the dragon. Big deal. You still get to be the hero.
  • Actually, you said Love, for you, is larger than the usual romantic love. It's like a religion. It's terrifying.
  • You take her out into the rain and you fall in love with her and she leaves you and you're desolate.
  • Sorry about the scene at the bottom of the stairwell and how I ruined everything by saying it out loud.
  • Someone is digging your grave right now.
  • There's a niche in his chest where a heart would fit perfectly.
  • Your co-workers ask if everything's okay and you tell them you're just tired.
  • Here is the repeated image of the lover destroyed.
  • At this point in the story so many things have gone wrong, so many bad decisions made, that it's a wonder anyone would want to continue reading.
  • Eventually something you love is going to be taken away.
  • I wanted to hurt you but the victory is that I could not stomach it.
  • Tell me we're dead and I'll love you even more.
  • I take the parts that I remember and stitch them back together to make a creature that will do what I say or love me back.
  • I am sad and angry and I want everyone to be alive again.
The Signs and their Lives
  • Aries: Lives an exciting life in danger. They have the scars to prove it. Tough front but always battling an inner issue. They usually do something that scares them to "challenge" themselves and their self consciousness. They're offensively independent and will never lean on anybody.
  • Taurus: Stubborn. They live their life by their rules and they won't let anyone else tell them how to live their life. This can be good and bad. They're hard workers and will do the most just for a little bit of cash. They want their life to be comfortable, so they will never ever leave their comfort zone.
  • Gemini: Their lives are full of laughter and they live everyday like it's their last - doing what they absolutely love to do. They are easily depressed but no one will ever see this side of them, so they feel awfully lonely that no one can see them for who they truly are. They hate sleeping, having someone or something waste their time, and will rest when they're dead. They are always looking for their identity. But Geminis can be everyone they ever met in one person.
  • Cancer: Cancers are constantly going through tough obstacles in life but they get stronger each time. They only come off as emotional because life tests them to the fullest and they look for ways to conquer it. In reality, they are heroes everyday of their life. Pushing through stress and heartache, they are truly tenacious. Home is where their heart is.
  • Leo: They are always trying to over-achieve. They want to be more than what they already are. This is why they come off as egotistical. Leo rules the heart, and they are constantly trying to find themselves and who they are.. what they can become and what they're capable of doing in everyday life. But too often they will hide their souls in fear of being ridiculed.
  • Virgo: Virgos are workaholics.. but they actually love working and keeping busy. Virgos are naturally anxious beings. They need routine and a sense of control over their lives. They feel foreign from everyone around them, constantly in a state of logical thinking, but hardly do they ever acknowledge their feelings. Virgo comes off as a thinker, not a feeler.. though everyone should know they feel deeply, and life may scare them sometimes.
  • Libra: They are generally happy people. They don't understand those who just wallow in their own pity. It's the little tings in life for them. They want to keep moving forward, and show themselves off. They are generally flirty and will charm people for their own advantage. However, they constantly need confirmation and people's approval. They often feel very lonely and will look for love or any type of partner just because they hate to be alone. Life without love is not a life worth living to Libras.
  • Scorpio: Their lives are very black and white to say the least. They find themselves feeling extreme emotions about other people before they even speak to them. They always keep parts of themselves hidden. Truth is, they want someone to open up to without having to worry about it. They will hardly ever show their emotions (they see them as vulnerable) and they need their privacy. They aren't afraid of anything - not even death. (Scorpios rule death and the underworld) so their lives will can be hell and they'll handle it well.
  • Sagittarius: Sagittariuses live by their own rules and their rules require two major things. Fun and freedom. They feel their purpose in life is to travel, experience new things, make friends, find true love, and to take in as much of the world as they possibly can. However, if they don't, they can feel trapped, and they may hurt other people to prevent themselves from getting hurt first. Their happiness is shown off, but their pain is often hidden.
  • Capricorn: Workaholics! However, they don't very much enjoy their jobs or what they do, they just do it to make money and because they are naturally hard workers who want a comfortable, stable life. Although Capricorns may feel like they are collapsing on the inside, on the outside they are completely deadpan. They want everyone to know that nothing bothers them, however, they may worry too much and get embarrassed too easily. Make one mistake with a Capricorn, and you will never be forgiven again (unless they feel like torturing you for fun) They will prove they are the toughest of them all.
  • Aquarius: Their lives are unpredictable. Their friends are the most important part of their life, and they will never live a boring one. Aquariuses seem happy from a distance, but they love hard and feel hard when you get close. You will see they fear rejection or being alone. But they will never, ever express this. They are pretty stubborn about showing their emotions, even if something incredibly sad happens. You won't see them cry. They may seem too focused on their life goals and projects, but they feel they are worth more when they accomplish everything they put their mind on.
  • Pisces: Pisces naturally have hard lives. They are often misunderstood and are distant from their families. No one truly "gets" Pisces, so they feel that they go through life alone. They are the most melancholic sign and their stories could possibly break your heart if you listen. However, they are very vague and it's hard for them to open up. It takes a while for them to trust you because they have been hurt repeatedly. And yet they are still standing. They are not looking for pity, but someone who can love them without deceiving them for once.. and someone who can give them their alone time (which they love). Pisces are seen as rebellious because they walk the opposite way everyone else is walking. However, despite their hard lives, Pisces are not very much afraid of anything (except being alone), considering this sign rules death and the afterlife.
The Last Five Years - Sentence Starters
  • [name] is over and [name] is gone.
  • I'm still hurting.
  • What about things that you swore to be true?
  • Go and hide and run away!
  • Run away, run and find something better.
  • Maybe there's somewhere a lesson to learn.
  • I've been waiting for someone like you.
  • I've been standing for days with the phone in my hand like an idiot, scared to death.
  • My people have suffered for thousands of years and I don't give a shit!
  • I guess I can't believe you really came.
  • See, I'm smiling--That means I'm happy that you're here.
  • I think we're gonna be okay.
  • With all we've had to go through, we'll end up twice as strong.
  • I didn't know you had to go so soon.
  • We'll have tonight.
  • You know what makes me crazy?
  • I'm sorry, can I say this?
  • You could be here with me or be there with them - as usual, guess which you pick.
  • You can't spend a single day that's not about you and you and nothing but you!
  • I swear to God I'll never understand how you can stand there straight and tall and see I'm crying, and not do anything at all.
  • Things are moving too fast.
  • I won't do anything just half-assed.
  • I met my personal Aphrodite.
  • I'm feeling panicked and rushed and hurried.
  • I'm so happy I can't get worried.
  • Next day it's just like it never happened.
  • And then he smiles - his eyes light up and how can I complain?
  • Yes, he's insane, but look what he can do.
  • I tend to follow in his stride instead of side by side.
  • I said I'd stick it out and follow through.
  • I'm a part of that...aren't I?
  • Maybe your heart's completely swayed, but your head can't follow through.
  • Don't you think that now's a good time to be the ambitious freak you are?
  • You get to be happy!
  • Take a breath, take a step, take a chance - take your time.
  • Have I mentioned today how lucky I am to be in love with you?
  • I'm sharing a room with a "former" stripper and her snake: Wayne.
  • I could shove an ice pick in my eye, I could eat some fish from last July, but it wouldn't be as awful as [fill in what you wish].
  • He wants me, he wants me, but he ain't gonna get me.
  • Son of a bitch, I guess I'm doing something right!
  • 'Cause the torture is just exquisite while I'm waiting for you to visit.
  • We should go meet the dinosaurs.
  • Will you share your life with me for the next ten minutes?
  • There are so many lives I want to share with you.
  • But if you can just wait I will make it eventually.
  • Not like I'm proud of the fact.
  • I want to be your wife, I want to bear your child, I want to die knowing I had a long, full life in your arms.
  • Will you share your life with me for the next ten lifetimes?
  • There are so many dreams I need to see with you.
  • There are so many years I need to be with you.
  • Everyone tells you that the minute you get married every other woman in the world suddenly finds you attractive.
  • And all of a sudden, this pair of breasts walks by and smiles at you and you're like - "That's not fair!"
  • In a perfect world a miracle would happen.
  • I shouldn't care what she thinks since I can't fuck her anyway!
  • Don't despair, I'll be there.
  • I am a good person!
  • Stop looking at that, look at me.
  • Jesus Christ, I suck, I suck, I suck, I suck.
  • I will not be the girl who requires a man to get by.
  • Can we please for a minute stop blaming and say what you feel?
  • Did you think this would all be much easier than it's turned out to be?
  • If I didn't believe in you, we'd never have gotten this far.
  • Don't we get to be happy at some point down the line?
  • If I'm cheering on your side, why can't you support mine?
  • No one can give you courage.
  • I will not lose because you can't win.
  • He wouldn't leave me alone 'less I went with him to dinner.
  • I guess he was good in bed.
  • He blew me off with a heartfelt letter.
  • I can do better than that.
  • You don't have to change a thing, just stay with me.
  • I want you and you and nothing but you.
  • I don't want to throw up your walls and defenses.
  • It feels like my life led right to your side and will keep me there from now on.
  • Think of what's past, because we can do better.
  • Hey, kid - good morning. You look like an angel.
  • I don't remember when we fell asleep.
  • Nobody needs to know.
  • Come back to bed, kid.
  • Hold on, don't cry yet.
  • I won't let you go.
  • Maybe I could be in love with someone like you.
  • Goodbye until tomorrow.
  • I have been waiting for you.
  • I'm not the only one who's hurting here.
  • I don't know what the hell is left to do.
  • I could never rescue you.
  • All I could do was love you hard and let you go.
  • So we could fight, or we could wait, or I could go...
  • I didn't see a way we both could win.
  • Goodbye.
The Venus Signs Kissing
  • **Requested by anonymous. Overdone and my opinion**
  • Aries: An Aries Venus kisses in a blur. It's exciting and quick and powerful. All bumping teeth and urgency. They'll try and dominate no matter how much you push back and by the end you're out of breath and wondering how the fuck you even survived that.
  • Taurus: A Taurus Venus' kisses are all about possessiveness. They claim you, letting you know exactly where home is. They can be slow and dazzling yet their kisses leave bruises and your lips tingling well after it's over.
  • Gemini: No one leaves you more breathless than a Gemini Venus after a make out session. You never know what's coming, each time it's a whole new experience and maddeningly addicting. They're breezy, light and refreshing to the extreme.
  • Cancer: A Cancer Venus' kisses are soft and filled with emotion. Their lips are light but linger and send shock waves through your body. You can never quite tell if they're teasing you on purpose or if they're really that innocent. (Probably the first)
  • Leo: For those with their Venus in Leo, kisses are fiery and claiming. Everything about the moment burns you both up in a blaze of passion and love. They let their heart and deepest desires show when they're kissing and leave you physically and mentally spent.
  • Virgo: A Virgo Venus is a calculating kisser. They're not just making out with you, they're studying you. They pick up on the tiny things you like and use them against you until you're a wreck. They somehow manage to be both beautifully fragile and powerfully in control all at the same time. It'll probably be the best and well thought out kiss of your life.
  • Libra: A Libra Venus is all about the build up. They crave the romance of the setting and the atmosphere around them. They'll have you on edge, the build up consuming you and making your heart pound. Their kisses are simple but powerful and sweet and intoxicating.
  • Scorpio: Dominance and submission. That's what a Scorpio Venus craves, no matter what side they're on. They like it hard and full of grabbing hands. Nothing turns them on more than messy bites and sloppy moans, preferably in a dark and secluded place where they can really lose control.
  • Sagittarius: Those with a Venus in Sagittarius are arrogant kissers almost. They're good at what they do and they know it. Don't even attempt to be in control when kissing them, you're out of your depth. Their skill has been long worked on and they'll leave you crazed and wanting more.
  • Capricorn: A Capricorn Venus is another calculating kisser. They know you and they know what you like. Often emotion is kept out of this and its a solid A* performance. You can't fault them, can't improve on them. Their kisses are cold and business like and yet again addicting, but if you're lucky they'll take it easier on you and leave you a gooey mess.
  • Aquarius: An Aquarius Venus' kisses are brisk and detached. They make you get lost in the moment, their mouths fresh and new. They're an adventure almost, someone you could get lost in. You won't feel much of an emotional connection and something about them makes you want to cling to their shirt to keep them with you.
  • Pisces: A Pisces Venus is a quirky kisser. They're a little different and unique, their rhythm going from jumpy and eccentric to slow and meaningful in seconds. Their kisses are full of emotion and attachment and can be quite frankly adorable.

mousewitchy said: Derek/Stiles, obscure werewolf customs, accidentally werewolf married; bonus points if Derek doesn’t say anything about it at first

I’m avoiding working on my second book so you get this bit of ridiculousness. Like, it’s so super ridiculous, I’m sorry.


It’s not that Derek doesn’t want to tell him. Derek really has no problem telling him, but it’s not a big deal. On the next full moon he just has to give Stiles back the little obsidian wolf figurine and it’ll be like nothing happened, poof, so, really—does Derek have to tell Stiles? It seems a little unnecessary, in the grand scheme of things.

The little wolf stares at him from his dresser, and it’s got an awfully judgy little face for not actually having, like, eyes.

Derek sighs. Yeah, okay.

Damn it.

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anonymous asked:

Sorry if this has been asked before, but is writers block ever a problem for you? I have admired how prolific you are, and appreciate how you've discussed the negative aspects of writing too much. But what about when you've been staring at a blank document for what feels like years? Tell me there's a magical cure!

It is a problem for me, though I often don’t call it writer’s block (though sometimes I do, I’m fickle).

I’ve written about it in the past. This is probably the best post I’ve written about it. :D

Okay, but also yes, YES writer’s block is a problem for me. See:

- Taking two years to get started on The Ice Plague. Definitely insecurity related writer’s block.

- Taking a billion years to publish a book. See an absolute fear of failure.

- Me using the old technique of ‘I’m writing therefore you can’t see what I have writer’s block with’ (i.e. trading original works for fanfiction because it’s less pressure).

I can generally get words down. Most of the time. I’ve also had a solid writer’s block of years in the past - like literally years - where I wrote nothing. Nothing at all. But…I trained myself as a visual artist to work even when I didn’t feel like working, and as a result, I can also write when I don’t feel like writing. It’s a work ethic thing, and it means my job isn’t always fun (like all jobs), though I do think inspiration likes a willing partner, and is more likely to come if I just start and try something, than if I wait for inspiration to lead the dance.

So I’m very fortunate, because I know writers who can’t write like this. Idk why I can function this way. But then there’s things like yeah, I really did kind of spend ages hanging on The Ice Plague and staring at documents or blank pages, and feeling like…awash with terror and no movement happening.

As for how I solved that. I made myself sit down and write a line. I knew my writer’s block with The Ice Plague was - and still is - in part that I feel like no one will want to read it, and that it will be bad. I feel this in my bones. It’s a horrible feeling. I also had it with Game Theory and The Court of Five Thrones, but to a much lesser extent (god if I’d known that feeling could get worse), but it’s very bad now because I’m working with characters I don’t know anyone will ever love. Gwyn and Augus light a pretty bright torch. People might not want to look at candles after that, even if they’ll become torches later.

And so… I just… I told myself that 2017 was the year I had to start, and I needed a chapter by the end of February, and that all I had to do for the first two months was like, try writing a line. Or a paragraph. Or a snippet of dialogue.

I sort of jettisoned the idea of ‘completing a chapter’ like I normally do, and just…gently forged on. As a result, I’m five chapters in, and I’ve made the most progress I’ve made since I came up with the idea years ago.

I wish there was a magical cure! There’s not. Writer’s block is so uniquely personal to each of us, and everything from health and fatigue, to mental illness, to grave insecurities, to the story not being ‘right’ or us not being ready to write it yet, etc. can be behind it. It can be all or none of those things!

I think there are some things to remember:

- You can be nice to yourself or you can be good to yourself. Sometimes if you’re lucky, these are the same thing. But sometimes they’re not. For example:

Nice: I will treat myself to a thousand burgers (dis me)
Good: I love burgers, but I want to be good to my body to be healthy so I’m going to eat some salad and lean meat.
Nice & Good: Man I love spinach I’m so glad it’s good for me too. OR;
Nice & Good: I’m going to have a burger today, I love them so much, but I’ll keep being disciplined in the day to day re: what I eat.

In writing, it can look like this:

Nice: I’m going to be gentle to myself and not work on this project until I’m feeling it more. (this can last a lifetime!)
Good: Provided it won’t harm me in any way to do so, I’m going to cultivate some writing discipline and try writing a sentence of this thing I’m blanking on today.
Nice & Good: Because this project intimidates me, I’m not going to look at it tomorrow or the next day, but today I have to write a line. And on X day, I will write a paragraph. And then I’ll rest some more with this idea.

- You need to learn how to write in a way that works for you, and sometimes overcoming writer’s block is a matter of turfing a lot of things you’ve learned - that you need to put down words regularly (you don’t), that you need to achieve a wordcount (you don’t), that you need to never rewrite (you don’t), that you can’t edit as you go (you can), that you need to write a lot at once (you don’t), that you need to ‘finish’ something when you start it (you don’t), that it has to be perfect (it doesn’t), that you need to be nice or good (you don’t, lol) etc. 

Like it was very freeing for me to be like ‘okay, even if everyone hates The Ice Plague, I need to write this for me. It ties up a lot of loose ends in the universe, and Mosk and Eran’s stories are important to me and need to be told. If I don’t tell them now, their stories won’t fade. So I’m going to tell them.’ But I also have to remind myself of this all the time, because I also want to give the people who read Fae Tales something they want to read, and I am terrified of not delivering. Emotional journeys, am I right??

But still, that moment of ‘I’m doing this because of X’ - clarifying your motivations - can help a lot. It can help you to realise or remember why you wanted to write on that blank page in the first place.

- Sometimes writer’s block just lingers. Be honest with yourself about your mental state, do you have the energy to be writing right now? Are you too mentally fatigued? Is it not the right time to be cultivating writing discipline? That kind of stuff matters a ton. I regularly blast past my own limits and then crash, and I don’t recommend that to anyone. Sometimes writer’s block protects you from yourself. And you know, that’s a thing too.

Won't let go (Simon Request)

~~~Simon’s POV~~~
‘It was strange to have a girlfriend at first. For the boys as well as me. It all started at-’
I stopped and threw the piece of paper into the basket bin that I had now moved to beside the desk.
This was fucking difficult. Who ever came up with the idea of saying vows? The problem was, I bet she knew exactly what to say. Within the simplest words or the longest explanations, she could do it perfectly.
There was already a pile of scrunched paper balls in the bin now and my hair had become a shocking mess from how much my hands had ran through it.
“So how’s the life of a groom to be going?” JJ, aka one of my six best men, questions.
“Absolutely shit” I groan, “Why is this so difficult?”
“Can’t you just say what you think and all that shit?” He shrugs, leaning his shoulder against the wall to face me.
“Its more difficult than that. Everyone’s gonna expect something good and cute”
“Who gives a fuck?” He comments.
“I do! (Y/n) will! I want this to be something she’ll remember. To prove that no matter how many times I tell her I love her, this is exactly how I feel,” I explain.
“Simon, my man” He walks over and clasps my shoulder, “Take a deep breath and say whatever the fuck comes from that heart of yours. You love that girl more than anything and that’s enough to her. Say whatever you want and she’ll love it. Believe me”
I sigh and he heads out before I can even thank him
For once, I’m gonna say that Jide was right.
It was just a question of where to begin?
~~~Flashback~~~
“Come on (y/n) let’s go this way!” I laughed as she stumbled against my side.
“Sshh someone might hear us” She giggled, both of us now slurring and loud with the alcohol intake.
I tripped and fell up the stairs and it made her laugh hysterically, much to the annoyance of the rest of the tower residents on this floor at 5:30am.
She eventually got us to her apartment and unlocked the door with fumbling hands.
“Oooh” She starts, holding the wall to keep her up.
“What is it?” I stumble, falling against her arm.
“I’m gonna be-” She starts but before she finishes, she darts across to the bathroom.
“Shit” I mutter and follow her in to only see her throwing up into the bowl.
Upon instinct, I lift her hair from her face and crouch beside her even if I did stumble in my movement.
“Thanks Simon” She looks up, her face pale but the light smile on her lips being all I needed to snap sober.
“Of course beautiful” I replied, tucking a few strands of hair behind her small ears.
“Are you staying here tonight?” She questions.
I chuckle, “No (y/n), like I said before I’ve got editing and filming to do with the guys tomorrow”
“Right, I remember that” She says though I know its evidently not true.
“Get some rest okay? I’ll let you know when in home”
~~~Real Time~~~
“How’s the vows going now?” Josh questions, walking into the room and flopping onto the bed.
“I’ve got the first bit I guess” I nod, looking down at my scrawled handwriting on the page, “There’s so much to write and yet I can’t do any of it right”
“Just think back to the most significant times in your relationship. Don’t think about the things other people want to hear, think about (y/n). On your wedding day that’s all that’s gonna matter” He comments.
“Thanks Josh” I smile.
“You up for recording later?”
“I’ll try my best” I chuckle and he heads out.
~~~Flashback~~~
“Look Simon if you have a problem with me then fucking say it because I’d rather know than spend my time questioning why you act like such a dick around me” She had clicked now.
It wasn’t likely that she could know what was going on inside my head and my actions had hardly shown that. I figured out I loved her when we spent that party next to each other. And it scared me because I shouldn’t do. She was best friends with all of us and now I had fallen for her. And to ‘stop myself’, I had acted like an asshole for the past few weeks.
“I don’t have a problem with you” I sigh.
“Then what’s happened? Because for the past few weeks it seems like I’ve lost one of my best friends” She admits and her voice cracks slightly but enough to absolutely kill me.
“You haven’t lost me” I reassure her.
“Really? Because that’s not the impression I get”
“You wanna know why I’ve barely spoken to you?” I question, “Its because every single time I see you I realise that there’s nothing stopping me from falling more and more in love with you and I shouldn’t because all of the boys look at you like a sister and I should too but-”
Before I even knew what was happening, her lips were on mine. Our first kiss. Breaking the annoyance in our words. Stopping the conflict. We’d never argued since then. We never found a reason to.
~~~Real Time~~~
I hadn’t realised that I’d been working in the spare room for hours now and (y/n) would probably be waking up. I’d been doing this through the night.
I opted to make some toast and tea for her before heading upstairs.
“Morning babygirl” I smiled when I saw her stretch to a wake.
“Morning gorgeous” She yawns, “Where were you last night?”
“I realised writing vows takes longer than I thought” I admit and sit on the edge of the bed.
“Babe you don’t need to worry about them so much” She chuckles and props herself up in bed.
“I’m almost there now” I reassure, “Tea and toast for the princess?”
“Thanks babe!” She grins, “Treating me like your wife already I see”
“I figured I’d get a head start” I chuckle and kiss her forehead.
In that moment, I could imagine our future. Exactly like this but with a pair of waddling feet to disrupt the serenity. A child. Ready for school with a rucksack too big and those crazy light up shoes. A big grin that replicated that of their mums. Hopefully they’d look more like her than me. Just as long as they’re as funny as their dad.
I could imagine even past that. Me and her old and grey. The children off to cease the day. They’d go and do whatever they wanted. And we’d forget that we were old because we’d remember exactly how we met. A combination of too much alcohol and way too much dancing. And we’d continue to trend. Forgetting our age for those moments when it was just us.
And as for the moment when our lungs did give out, I still won’t let go…
(Different style of imagine today but enjoy)

Its amazing how I’m considered problematic to this person yet I lit made a post on here on how it was okay to ship what you want and now a klance shipper (of course) is telling me I’m a pedophile. Mhm, keep telling yourself that, kid. Look, I’ll be honest with everyone… I haven’t outright said what ships I dislike but I never knew that defined me as a person. Everyone, this is supposed to be a fandom that respects the creators and produces good content, if this keeps up then the creators might just fucking cancel the show until all the 3 year olds stop trying to tell me what an “abusive and pedophilic” relationship is. Can ya’ll just chill for a goddamn second? You’re not protecting your followers from anything, you’re only teaching them how to harrass and bully people because of a stupid ship! Stop?!!!

How Snape should have acted to make Snape haters like him (let's just ignore the inconsistencies, shall we?)
  • Snape on the train in his first year: I want to be in Gryffindor! I definitely don't want to be sorted into the house my mum was sorted into, and that I've only heard good things about in my childhood!
  • Snape after being sorted into Slytherin: Hm, these other eleven-year-olds that were sorted into Slytherin will probably turn out to be horrible people! I shall not befriend them.
  • Snape in his fourth or fifth year: Okay, Lily, so we've been drifting apart for years because you were sorted into the same house as my bullies, but now you want me to ask one of my friends, one who still regularly hangs out with me, to stop bully a Gryffindor? And you also want me to stop hanging out with him, as well as all my other friends in Slytherin? Of course I will! That's a completely reasonable request!
  • Snape in his fifth year: I'm sixteen years old, I'm terribly insecure, I was just sexually harassed, but of course I keep a cool head and thank Lily cordially for rescuing me in front of half the school. Thank you, Lily.
  • Snape at some point in his later Hogwarts years: Thank you, James, for saving my life! Oh, and of course I don't blame Sirius for this. I'm sure it was just a big mistake on his part, sending me down to a bloodthirsty werewolf. Yeah, of course giving him a detention is punishment enough, it was only a mistake, I understand that.
  • Snape throughout his school years: Four people bully me at every given opportunity for no real reason? Of course I won't get back at them when I can! Honestly, what do you take me for? No, no, no. I'll just take the bullying silently for seven years, as a good boy.
  • Snape after graduating: Hm, what should I do now? Join the handsome, charismatic Slytherin that all my friends are going to join, and whom I've heard good things about for the last seven years? And who also promises me power, influence and resources beyond my imagination? Or should I join Dumbledore, a Gryffindor who basically only recruits Gryffindors and the odd Hufflepuff and Ravenclaw, and who a couple of years back threatened me with expulsion if I told anyone that one of his Gryffindors had tried to kill me? And who also thinks that people like my father and Lily's sister should be treated with respect? Well, obviously I should join Dumbledore! That's really obvious.
  • Snape when overhearing the prophecy: Ok, so I have no idea what this really means, but if I tell Voldemort then maybe he'll give me a better position! Lol, jk, of course I won't do the logical thing and tell him.
  • Snape when hearing that the prophecy is about Lily's baby: My lord, please don't kill Lily! Also, don't kill her husband or child, because ... you know ... it would be awful of me to only ask for the survival of the one in that family I care about.
  • Snape when asking Dumbledore to protect Lily: I'm frightened and desperate, because the only person who I ever really cared about is on Voldemort's death list, but I will make sure to explicitly ask you to save the whole Potter family. It would, again, be awful of me to only ask for the survival of the one I care about, even though I'm so frightened right now I don't even know what I'm saying.
  • Snape when Lily dies: I am an introvert who has a very hard time emotionally bonding with people, but when I do, those bonds are stronger than anything else. The only person I've ever emotionally bonded with is Lily, but as she is now dead, I will completely let her go, because that is definitely something I am capable of. I will keep putting my life on the line for the side of the light, not because I want to honour Lily's momory and protect her son, but because it's simply the right thing to do.
  • Snape when starting to teach: Half my classroom is filled with the children of Death Eaters and Voldemort supporters, and the other half is filled with Gryffindors. I shall, of course, treat all of them fairly! That makes perfect sense!
  • Snape when Harry arrives: Hello, Harry. You look exactly like your father, who used to bully me resentlessly, except that your eyes are hauntingly similar to your mother's. She was the only person I ever cared about, and she died because I overheard a prophecy about you. Also, you're in the house that has handed me one awful thing in life after another. Oh, and you're the arch enemy of the man I'm supposedly loyal to. Come here, and give me a hug!
  • Snape to Neville: I'm teaching a subject in which a single mistake could be fatal, and you haven't managed to brew one potion correctly yet without Miss Granger's help. It's sheer luck that you haven't blown us all up by now. Of course, little Gryffindor, am I going to guide you gently to become better at Potions. I mean, it's obviously my teaching methods that decide whether you can follow the simplest instruction or not. It's not, oh I don't know, the fact that you lack anything and everything reminiscent of talent in this subject. Of course not.
  • Snape in Harry's third year: Lupin! The werewolf who used to ignore that I was bullied throughout school by his friends, who is risking every student in this school by working here, and who's clearly helping Sirius, the man who bullied me and once tried to kill me, before he actually went and killed 13 people. What, you think I'm going to bring you two in? No, of course not! I'll help you out, despite that I'm convinced one of you is a mass murderer, and the other one is willing to help said mass murderer.
  • Snape in the beginning of Harry's sixth year: Nope. I will not take the Unbreakable Vow. Yes, I know this means that one of Voldemort's most trusted Death Eaters will lose all faith in me, and will tell her Master so, but nonetheless, I will not take the Unbreakable Vow.
  • Snape in the end of Harry's sixth year: Okay, Dumbledore, I know that I promised to kill you, I know I've taken an Unbreakable Vow to do so, and I know that if I don't kill you, I will die from breaking the Unbreakable Vow, and you will also die a painful death very, very soon. But of course I won't kill you, that would be awful. Instead I will take out as many Death Eaters as possible, before the Unbreakable Vow takes my life.
  • Snape while being Headmaster: I AM NOW HEADMASTER. NO HALFBLOOD OR MUGGLEBORN SHOULD COME TO HARM. THE CARROWS ARE NOT ALLOWED TO PUNISH ANYBODY. THIS STATEMENT WILL HAVE ME KILLED, BUT I WILL STILL SAY THIS. I SHALL NOT ONLY PROTECT THE STUDENTS AT HOGWARTS AFTER THE BEST OF MY ABILITIES, BUT I WILL DO IT IN AN OPEN AND OBVIOUS WAY. OH, AND WHILE I'M MAKING ALL MY INTENTIONS CLEAR, I WOULD ALSO LIKE TO ADD THAT I'M ON THE SIDE OF THE LIGHT. THAT WAS ALL.
Ways to Cheer Yourself Up (When wanting to be alone) - 50 top things to do
  • 1. Go ON Tumblr, believe it or not, we don't care where you're from, what you do, how you're being you, as long as you are being you, you're pretty much welcomed on here. That's why i love it. Unless of course you are homophobic or judgemental or ignorant - then the people will speak for themselves, we look out for each other here.
  • 2. Read Books; escapism is a wonderful thing
  • 3. Listen to music; and no - not the sad, 'ALL BY MYSELF' type music, but the kickass songs like 'I will Survive' or 'Loser Like Me' just celebrate yourself for being awesome, because we know you are; even if others don't; especially then actually.
  • 4. Become your own superhero. Every single one of you have a talent or a dream. Follow up on that talent/dream. YOU ARE WORTH IT, and you can be whoever you want to be.
  • 5. DISNEY MOVIES. Unless you absolutely hate bursting out into song - better cut of highschool musical and glee while were at this, then Disney is the best pick me up ever.
  • 6. Watch your favourite TV shows. Remind yourself why life can be awesome. Watching your fav characters usually means you can relate to them.
  • 7. Go on walks - it's very pretty outside, and sometimes our heads can be overloaded with information or stress, I advise calming music and a nice walk outside in comfortable clothes.
  • 8. Have a diary. A friend of mine recently bought me one, and it's a godsend because all the anger, or emotions I feel, I try to put in the diary rather than putting it out on others. It also calms you down. I feel better when I write.
  • 9. Speaking of writing...if you enjoy it- WRITE. Writing is a wonderful way to escape. You can put all your emotions into your characters and they just come to life. I tend to do that when I'm stressed.
  • 10. If writing is not your thing then bake. I've actually ironically read in a fan fiction where a character would bake when stressed and try out new recipes, this character tried making butterbeer; maybe be adventurous; have a food blog or something to keep you occupied.
  • 11. Be With Your Pets - Pets are loyal creatures, and they love you, even when you're being a pain in the ass, and I hear they're very good listeners.
  • 12. Now I don't know about you, but I LOVE Musicals. If you are a musical fanatic like me and you're feeling a little down, my dears; listen to those awesome voices, because sometimes we just - need - a break (Also, if you haven't watched RENT, watch it - NODAYBUT TODAY...or Starkid...Starkid make the most funniest musical parodies, even if you don't like musicals I suggest it, and if you're not enjoying their YouTube Channel, then I'll eat my own hat).
  • 13. ASK ME ANYTHING. If you really want to talk to somebody but you don't want to talk to people you know and you just want to get things out, my ASK box is always open.
  • 14. Find a hobby. If you don't really want to talk to anybody, that's okay, sometimes we need to just have some 'me time'. In my me times, I usually deactivate from Facebook, and just focus on things that make me happy. Like; Puzzles, Sudoku, Games, writing, cooking, singing, whatever it is...travelling even. Enjoy yourself.
  • 15. Travel. Maybe being stuck in the same place is the problem, maybe you're head wants to be in a place where it can ACTUALLY THINK.
  • 16. Go Hiking. I suppose Hiking is similar to walking but if you're an outdoor person, this is a great way to clear your head and to feel fresh.
  • 17. Hit The Gym. Or even do your own exercises. I like to walk - do crunches, and I love Zumba. I love dancing. If you love being active, this is also another way to clear your mind from negative things.
  • 18. GO SEE A MOVIE!!! When was the last time you had fun? Even if it's just by yourself. You're allowed to treat yourself. Go, enjoy, be surrounded by people, even if they're strangers.
  • 19. If you like coffee, treat yourself for one at a local cafe. Who knows, you might meet your coffee soulmate in a cafe one day.
  • 20. STOP thinking Negative. Have a Pros/Cons List. Try not to outweight the Pros list with the Cons. Please?
  • You are good enough.
  • 21. Write down a bucket List, and start ticking them off. Having goals and dreams is healthy. If you have dreams, then you have a direction of where you're going.
  • 22. Get help. It's okay, if you're head is in a really bad place to reach out to people. It really is okay.
  • 23. Help others. If you're not sure what to do with yourself at all, be useful to other people less fortunate than you. Volunteer! Work with Charity, Feed the homeless, help the guide dogs association.
  • 24. Smile more. It looks good on you, believe me. Spend time with your guilty pleasures, my guilty pleasure is binge watching glee
  • 25. Please DO NOT go to a pub to drink to ease your mind, if you are going to do that, do it with a friend, or somebody close.
  • 26. Eat Chocolate. Okay yes while society says NO DON'T EAT THE FATTY FOOD. Hey; screw them. If you feel better eating a bit of junk go for it. There's nothing wrong with eating a whole pizza or tub of ben and jerry ice cream when feeling upset - just try not to make TOO much of a habit : p
  • 27. REBLOG YOUR FOLLOWERS POSTS, you might be surprised that you aren't the only one feeling the way you're feeling, you might be surprised by how much you're forgetting that hey - it's gonna be alright.
  • 28. Do something nice for your neighbour. Ah who knows, have you ever actually talked to them? Maybe they might be lonely too.
  • 29. Have a GAMES Night. A very good friend of mine loves Games. If You LOVE Games, then hell have a marathon of them. Play the sims, be in control.
  • 30. Speaking of marathons...dun dun dun - MOVIE MARATHON, I Don't Know About You Guys, But Having A Harry Potter Movie Marathon always cheers me Up. WITH FOOD Of course, and good company, but this is about cheering yourself up, so if you don't want company, that's okay.
  • 31. Draw. I love drawing too. I suppose I'm more of the creative person. There are a lot of different types of people out there, maybe you like solving things - do those fancy cube things Idk what they're called. If you are like my brother and you love Maths, then maybe you can tutor someone. On one hand you're helping someone, and doing something you like doing, just like I'm drawing because I like drawing.
  • 32.Be with kids. believe it or not, kids are the most innocent little munchkins, and they honestly don't care what you look like, if you play hide and seek with them they'll be thrilled, so long as you're nice to them, they're generally nice to you... but be warned, they tell it how it is too. I talk a bit different. The most popular thing they've said to me was "Is that why you talk funny, because of the things in your teeth?" (They've also never really seen braces before) I even had one kid determined to get me to sing 'Everything is awesome' I'll never forget that because this kid clearly didn't care how I sounded, and just wanted me to sing with her. I felt great.
  • 33. If you're into Fairy Tales, Please Please Read Chris Colfer's The Land Of Stories series 1-4. It's an amazing series, and you almost forget what world you're in once you start reading. Plus, there's more coming (I'm a little excited)
  • 34. Watch Pixar Movies. You can't go wrong.
  • 35. GO TO HOGWARTS. Harry Potter Fan? Visit - Platform 9 3/4s in London, or go to the Harry Potter World, or if you can't actually visit these sites, go on Pottermore.
  • 36. Read Fan Fiction, you might not be a harry potter fan, but whatever fandom you are in, believe me sometimes Fan Fictfion Cheer me up. I adore Glee *Don't Judge Me* and Dalton is the best thing ever. Or Little Numbers...or Both. They cheer me up big time.
  • 37. Role play. If you like superheroes or characters, go be with the crowd. I believe they have events like Comic Con, and on Facebook they even have Events for such things, go be with strangers! So long as it's safe of course.
  • 38. Write a letter to the person who inspires you most and send it. You might be surprised by an answer.
  • 39. Pick up your instrument. Don't ignore your musical talent if you do have a musical talent. Remember, you're worth it. I don't care what you've done. Pick, It Up.
  • 40. Maybe go visit your family? I know this is about 'quality me time' but if you haven't seen your family in such a long time or are at a distance. Maybe being surrounded by something familiar is what you need.
  • 41. Change Careers. If you're not enjoying what you're doing or studying, change it. I remember in highschool a teacher said you might change your job 10 - 12 times before getting it right. It'okay, you just haven't found where you're meant to be yet.
  • 42. Enter a competition - Who knows what will come from it, take risks.
  • 43. If you're a risk-taker, challenge yourself. IDK how you're going to do that, but google has some pretty good answers. Even ask your tumblr followers, they follow you for a reason after all.
  • 44. Go on a boat. Go Fishing! I don't know, it's not my thing, but if you like fishing, then hell - go out there and fish.
  • 45. Find time for yourself, are you working too much? Maybe you are working too much. You know life doesn't stop for nobody, and if you keep pushing yourself so hard, time will go so fast and you won't realise how much of that time you could have spent on your own self.
  • The world is not going to end if you treat yourself.
  • 46. You ARE Good Enough. Listen to my words. Sometimes encouragement is all we need, when people feel hopeless, or like everything's gone wrong. It's gonna be okay. I promise, just hang in there.
  • 47. Write Down Quotes that Inspire You. I have a wall of these, and of people that inspire me too, and it reminds me of the good things in life when I'm in a crappy mood.
  • 48. Find something to do. If you're not doing anything, go take up a course, research things that interest you, you might be surprised by what comes from it. Join a community that enjoys doing things you do.
  • 49. Go To The Beach - If you live in Australia like me, visiting the beach is actually really calming and me and my best friend always would go on a random drive, and drive up to a beach or a look out, and it was always calming. Enchanting too sometimes. Maybe we forget about the place we live in, and what's exciting about the place. If you're in New York, visit Broadway or The Statue Of Liberty, or if you're in London, go to the London Bridge, or the Eye, visit the Eiffel Tower if you're in Paris...just go Anywhere.
  • 50. Take a random journey. Go on a train to somewhere new, go on a road trip. You never know what's around the corner.
Draco Malfoy x Muggle Girl
  • Draco x Muggle Girl
  • Draco Malfoy walked the streets of London. He was far away from the Malfoy Mansion and his family.
  • The boy had a lot on his mind, he was torn between what is right and wrong. Draco was sure he is a bad person, doing terrible things and that he is just like his father. He didn't realize he couldn't be someone else even if he wanted to. Lucius and Narcissa tried their best to raise him in a proud pureblood wizard, worth of his family name.
  • But Draco Malfoy wasn't a bad guy. No one who doubts in his actions and questions if he did a right thing or not could ever be a terrible person.
  • The truth was, Draco wasn't the saint, not even close, tho he tried his best to be better in the past few weeks.
  • Why? Maybe because he felt this guilt inside him.
  • One can only imagine what Draco went through his years. He couldn't betray his family name, his father and aunt Bellatrix were both Death Eaters and Draco knew long ago, he will be asked to join them once. Not like he had a choice, if he turned them down, he'd not only risk his own life, but his parents too.
  • And now Draco was wondering, he knew the day of him becoming a Death Eater was coming close.
  • He made a few steps down an empty street. The houses were nothing like those of the wizards, muggle's have quite of a strange taste, he thought.
  • It was a beautiful and peaceful day in July, the weather was perfect and it seemed like everything in the world is going just fine. But it didn't.
  • Draco took a deep breath as he sat on the bench in the park. He was looking at his feet, while his hands rested on his knees.
  • Silence was broken by a laughter which made Draco look up from the ground.
  • His eyes searched across the trees until they landed on a girl, not far away from him. The girl was smiling, her eyes were full of happiness, something what Draco's missed for a long time.
  • Everything on the muggle girl spoke she wasn't a witch. She wore short jeans and white Chuck Taylor's and Draco couldn't help but admit the red shirt she was wearing really complimented her long (y/h/c) hair.
  • The girl laughed again, as a dog brought her a tennis ball. She picked it up and threw it in Draco's direction.
  • And then it hit Draco's head. It didn't hurt pretty much, but still Draco rubbed the side of his head while he stood up.
  • The girl's eyes widened.
  • "Oh my gosh, I am so sorry!" She shouted as she rushed to Draco.
  • "Are you okay? I really didn't mean to throw it at you." She spoke softly.
  • As she was closer, Draco noticed her beautiful (y/e/c) eyes and a few freckles spread across her nose and cheeks.
  • She was pretty, he thought.
  • "Um, it's okay." Draco blurred out. He picked up a green ball, turning it around and watching it closely.
  • He saw that for the first time in life, until then he only knew for the Quidditch balls.
  • He went to pass her the ball, but before he could do that the dog jumped on him.
  • "Marley! Stop it, leave him alone." The girl shouted as Marley winged his tail, looking at Draco.
  • Draco smiled and patted his soft fur.
  • "I'm (y/n)." The girl spoke suddenly and Draco looked up from Marley.
  • "..I'm Draco." He smiled.
  • "That's your name?" She questioned and then Draco reminded his name wasn't used in the muggle world.
  • "Yeah, um it's kind of a nickname.."
  • "Oh..cool." The girl said and smiled again.
  • From her eyes to her mouth there was this positivity she had, the kind Draco has never seen before. Like she was smiling all the time and couldn't stop.
  • "Is this your dog?" Draco asked.
  • "Yes, I found him two years ago on Christmas. Someone must have had abandoned him and then I took him home. We're inseparable ever since." (y/n) said.
  • Draco smiled. "Do you live near here?"
  • (Y/n) nodded. "Just around the corner. But I never seen you around here."
  • "Yeah, well I'm from Wiltshire." Draco replied.
  • You nodded. You looked up at him, in his eyes. He was different from you and all others you have met. He smelt of peppermint and warm ocean breeze. Draco, even his name was strange, beautiful, but strange just as him.
  • "Are you visiting someone here, or..."
  • "No, no I just wanted to get away from.."
  • Silence. Draco was out of words, should he tell a total stranger about his family? What he feels? Would she judge him? Think he's a coward and arrogant?
  • As his gaze fell, your lips curled in a slight smile. He wasn't shy, you thought, he was more of a thinker and a loner. The one who keeps their mind for themself and reveals nothing to the world. You suddenly realized he was hurt. In his eyes you could see the sadness and despair.
  • "I understand," you spoke, "I to get away from time to time too."
  • Draco looked up at you and smiled.
  • "Care to join me and Marley on a walk?"
  • Draco nodded "I'd be glad to." He replied and you two continued on walking.
  • Draco told you about his strict parents, about his doubts and fears. You realized all people he told you about had strange names and it felt like Draco lived in another world. Yet, you understood him. You could feel what he felt. Fear or letting other people down, fear of disapproval and not becoming what you want to be. The person who you really are.
  • "Sometimes," Draco said "the greatest fear of mine, is being myself."
  • His eyes were staring up in the sky, like they were looking for something.
  • He then sighed and gave you a broken smile.
  • "You shouldn't be afraid of who you are and what you fear, Draco. Even if you did bad things, that doesn't make you a bad person."
  • The two of you continued on walking, talking about your families, friends and the world around you. Draco was very sweet and nice person and even if he told you he wasn't you truly believed he was.
  • It was getting darker, you and Draco forgot about the time and stars already appeared in the sky.
  • "I'm really glad I met you." Draco said.
  • Marley sat at his legs, looking up and begging for his attention. "Both of you." Draco added and patted your dog.
  • "The pleasure is ours Mr. Malfoy." You said and he chuckled.
  • "I hope I see you around (y/n)."
  • You nodded slightly. You too, hoped on seeing him again. But there was this feeling that you won't.
  • Again Draco's gaze fell, but this time he wasn't silent.
  • "You are the only one that thinks there is something good in me. I appreciate that, (y/n), really. You are the kindest person I have ever met."
  • That gave you chills. It wasn't the typical compliment one gives you when you first meet him. You smiled at him before you spoke "I'm sure I'm not the only one, Draco. And you really are a good person. I feel...I feel like I've known you for years. And I believe there is more good than evil in you."
  • The street lights went on and there was only you, Draco and Marley. It was like a dream, standing there, looking up at Draco who looked like he was made in heaven.
  • You couldn't believe how someone like him felt so bad about himself. Why couldn't he see what you saw.
  • "There should be more people like you. At least there where I come from. But today, here with you, I felt so much better. Like I'm in another world." Draco spoke.
  • His eyes were telling he was being completely honest to you and you were honored.
  • You took his cold hands in your warm ones and your heart was no longer the center of your body, but in that moment every conscious part of you was in the hand that Draco held.
  • "We cast a shadow on something wherever we stand, and it is no good moving from place to place to save things; because the shadow always follows. Choose a place where you won't do harm - yes, choose a place where you won't do very much harm, and stand in it for all you are worth, facing the sunshine." You said, before you let go of his hands, knowing well you will never see him again, even tho every single inch of you hoped that you will.
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Warning: (slight) Jin smut

“How can I help you?”

You look up from your phone. “Uh, one coke, please.”

The bartender looks at you cockily, indicating displeasure for your drink of choice. “Yes, madam.”

Not that you really expected this to go any better.

Your attention gets brought back to the phone in your hand when a message appears on screen. By now, your heart has sunk into your shoes, and every text you get makes it get worse. He’s standing you up, that must be it. You can’t even blame him, really. Who would go out with a girl that wears her working clothes to the most expensive bar in town?

In the darkly lit place, the light of your phone is like a beam of light, which clearly bothers the bartender, which you’ve nicknamed Charles, for he completely fits that name. Charles occasionally lets you know that he’s done with your awkward, ‘youthful’ behaviour, by completely ignoring most of your attempts to grab his attention, and giving you disapproving glances whenever you pull out your phone nervously. You feel unwelcome, yet still you aren’t sure whether you should leave or wait a little longer. Deep down, you still have hope, a voice telling you he could show up any moment now.

Did Jin show up yet?

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