Sometimes when I listen to ‘I Can Hear the Heart Beating as One’ I get a little sad because “Autumn Sweater” is one of the first songs I recommend to you. This was just a few weeks before you asked me out and I thought Yo La Tengo would give you a better sense of who I was. I remember sending you the file from Spotify and, while you listened to it, I kept thinking to myself, “I really hope he likes it, especially those last thirty seconds. That’s my favorite part.” And you did — you liked it.
I don’t know where I’m going with this, but I’ve been thinking about you lately. I had this dream where we bumped into each other. You were running to catch a train and you pushed me out of the way. I didn’t know what to do except shout as loud as I could, “I’m sorry I let you down.” You stopped, turned around, and looked at me… and then I woke up.
I don’t know what to make of it except that it’s been, what, five months and you’re still there, in my thoughts. I guess when a person is truly good, it’s hard to really forget them.
it’s so fucked up when my mood just drops totally, like.. not even slowly or in a transition, it just drops.i’ll never get used to it. it’s like my brain is yelling at me “be unhappy you piece of shit”