Siding With the River

The night started early
As we drove the stretch of road
Poison in one hand
Ready to explode
Familiar faces filled
This city that was new
Sound waves made it to ears
Of a crowd that gradually grew

Sweat mixed with blood
Brains melted to the floor
I stepped outside
Hoping to explore
A man was waiting for me
With a hiccuping grin
He tried his hardest to explain
He’d never seen it more apparent in

Two people that were meant
To spend their lives together
Growing young & old
& taking care of one another
I couldn’t stop questioning
So I went in search of the van
I got in & stole some paper
With a pen in my hand

I started to write a list
Of reasons I wished I were dead
But I couldn’t get the racing thoughts out
As fast as they were in my head
As I finished you unlocked the door
I folded the paper into thirds
You got in & started up the van
I laid back down as we went into reverse

Happily Ever Before

A man walking backwards
Bumped into a woman doing the same
Both trying to retrace their steps
Outlining the blame

The man looked weary
As if to take his last breath
He had spent years searching
For his perfect early death

The woman looked young
Full of joy and life
She had spent years searching
For a man to make her his wife

She thought it could be him
He was once full of charm & kind
So she reminded him of this
Changing the man’s mind

He no longer forced Death
To come knocking at his door
But now he found himself
Always wanting more

She gave and gave
Until she could no longer give
It still wasn’t enough for him
Now she wished to not live

Years had slowly passed
They were all starting to blur
So the man started walking
This time it was forward

A Memory To Forget

I’m finally in love
But she no longer exists
Except for in old photographs
And the tattoo on my wrist

I developed something from nothing
But I’m afraid to see
How the negatives turn out
Meaning everything to me

The glossy branches break
My heart as I remember
Our saline filled kiss
The last week of October

The only way for me
To still connect to her
Is to finally let go
And write her these words