without hope there is nothing

Nothing Without Love: Chapter 4

Gladio x Reader

THE SLOW BURN IS REAL AND THE DRAMA IS CONTINUING YO. I can’t wait for the next chapter hehehehehe. 

I hope this was worth the wait. I swear I rewrote this 1000 times to make sure it was perfect for y’all’s lovely eyes. AH MULTICHAPTER FICS ARE SO FUN. I HAVE SO MANY PLANNED HELP ME. AHHH. 

Anyway, please enjoy <3

Tagging people that I know enjoy this series so far. Lemme know if you wanna be tagged in future updates: @themissimmortal, @neko-otaku13, @stunninglyignis, @itshaejinju, @cupnoodle-queen <3

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“You look so beautiful, Y/N,” Iris beamed as you took your place just outside the double doors of the Citadel throne room.

Your dreaded wedding day had finally arrived. Here you stood, trembling slightly in your ivory wedding gown ready to be presented to your betrothed like a damn pig for slaughter. A single tear sting at your left eye… you felt so useless.

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“The secret of getting ahead is getting started.” – Mark Twain

“Do not wait to strike till the iron is hot; but make it hot by striking.” – William Butler Yeats

“It always seems impossible until it’s done.” – Nelson Mandela

“The best way for you to predict your future is to create it.” – Abraham Lincoln

“It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop.” – Confucius

“Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time.” – Thomas Edison

“Don’t watch the clock; do what it does. Keep going.” – Sam Levenson

“What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals.” – Zig Ziglar

“By failing to prepare, you are preparing to fail.” – Benjamin Franklin

“I am not afraid…I was born to do this.” – Joan of Arc

“The most effective way to do it, is to do it.” – Amelia Earhart

“We aim above the mark to hit the mark.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

“Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence.” – Helen Keller

“The way to get started is to quit talking and begin doing.“ – Walt Disney

“Consult not your fears but your hopes and your dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what it is still possible for you to do.” – Pope John XXIII

“Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.” – Arthur Ashe

“When you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on.” – Franklin D. Roosevelt

“What you do today can improve all your tomorrows.” – Ralph Marston

“Perserverance is failing 19 times and succeeding the 20th.” – Julie Andrews

“The harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph.” – Thomas Paine

“I attribute my success to this–I never gave or took any excuse.” – Florence Nightingale

“Knowing is not enough; we must apply. Willing is not enough; we must do.” – Johann Wolfgang van Goethe

“Who seeks shall find.” – Sophocles

“Change your life today. Don’t gamble on the future, act now, without delay.” – Simone de Beauvoir

See Part 2 for more motivation.

New Year’s Resolutions for the Signs

Originally posted by heartsnmagic

these resolutions are compiled from asks sent by my wonderful followers! I based the post off moon signs, but feel free to check you sun or rising too!

aries: be more open • don’t let people take advantage of you • stop procrastinating on school work • focus more on yourself • find what you are passionate about • make others happy • give yourself permission to make mistakes and not be perfect 

“Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence.” -Helen Keller

taurus: stand up for yourself • be more positive • be less stubborn • be more adaptable • believe in yourself • stop worrying about what others think of you • focus on what you think about yourself

“Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you’ll land among the stars.” -Norman Vincent Peale

gemini: don’t let the little things bother you • stop procrastinating • believe in your dreams • study more • improve organization skills • pave your own road • be yourself

“What you do today can improve all your tomorrows.” -Ralph Marston

cancer: do what makes you happy • live in the moment • don’t let other people’s opinion effect you • be more outgoing • go on more adventures • be braver •  work on your artistic skills • be kinder

“True happiness involves the full use of one’s power and talents.” -John W. Gardner

leo: live in the moment • give back to the community • read more books • put yourself first • take care of yourself • be more independent • stay clean

“Go for it now. The future is promised to no one. “ -Wayne Dyer

virgo: be nicer to people • study more • be more on time • realize you don’t need to be perfect • love yourself • be comfortable in your own skin 

“Follow your inner moonlight; don’t hide the madness.” -Allen Ginsberg

libra:  be more confident around others • work towards success • focus more on studies and family  • be more motivated • be mindful of others 

“If you fell down yesterday, stand up today.” -H. G. Wells

scorpio:  focus on your own happiness • finding coping techniques • focus more on your ambitions • become your best self • surround yourself with great people • work harder • be healthier

“Look up at the stars and not down at your feet. Try to make sense of what you see, and wonder about what makes the universe exist. Be curious.” -Stephen Hawking

sagittarius:  take more risks • take relationships more seriously • focus on your growth • be nicer to others • think more positivity • take care of both physical and mental health • try new things

“You can’t cross the sea merely by standing and staring at the water.” -Rabindranath Tagore

capricorn:  get more done • improve time management • understand more about the world around us • take initiative • take care of yourself and others • relax more • be more organized

“Never give in and never give up.” -Hubert H. Humphrey

aquarius:  learn more about the world and yourself • be more in touch with your emotions • try new things  • being a better person • allow yourself to make mistakes • trust people more • be healthier

“When you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on.” -Franklin D. Roosevelt

pisces: purse your passions • take care of yourself • figure out who you are • take action • be more confident with yourself  • work towards your best self • stop letting people influence you

“Do something wonderful, people may imitate it.” -Albert Schweitzer

Harry Styles - Harry Styles - A lil review

Meet Me in the Hallway: 2, 3, 4… Love the soft, strumming guitar and Harry’s longing and haunting vocals. Just the way his voice breaks on the word “hallway”… So helpless-sounding and heartfelt. Ugh. Love that as the song nears its end, the instruments are stripped away one by one, and in the end there’s just one guitar and Harry’s voice, and then there’s just Harry’s voice holding that last note. Damn good, and a very clever choice. This song could last an hour long and I still would have to press “replay” over and over again.

Stand-out lyrics: “We don’t talk about it, it’s something we don’t do. ‘Cause once you do without it, nothing else will do.”

“Hoping you’ll come around, just let me know, I’ll be on the floor.”

Sign of the Times: Full-on-flush. I’ve talked about my love for this song many a time since it came out, so I’m moving on. (But I think it’s absolutely gorgeous and one of my faves.) 

Carolina: This song feels so old-school and cool. I was immediately struck by that thick bass throughout this song, LOVE it. Love the falsetto parts. Love the oh-yeah parts. Mayyyybe my least fave song on the album, but it’s still SOLID.

Stand-out lyric: “There’s not a drink that could sink her, how would I tell her that she’s all I think about? Well I guess she just found out”

Two Ghosts: Right away, the melody and harmonies… so lush. The acoustic guitar is so lovely, and I love the tone of the electric guitar on top - it almost sounds like it’s crying. This song gives me CNSY and Ryan Adams vibes, which I love, like it just breathes and moves in a really similar and nice way. Cool lil detail: The way he enunciates the ‘t’ in heartbeat at the end.

Stand-out lyric: “We’re just two ghosts swimming in a glass half empty. Trying to remember how it feels to have a heartbeat.”

Sweet Creature: A little Beatles-esque gem of a tune. This is such a soothing and flowy song, and his vocals match the tone perfectly. It’s warm-sounding and simple, and I love that he’s left a little air in this one. It feels organic and just sweeeet. And I love sweet.

Stand-out lyrics: “I always think about you and how we don’t speak enough. “
“Running through the garden, where nothing bothered us.”

Only Angel: Love the calming opening, which drags you into this really eerie and calming musical landscape. You’re ready to set up camp and hang out for a bit, and then Harry’s scream just rips you the fuck out of it. WAY to start a song, haha. Heavy guitar, the screams, the clapping, the background vocals, love it all. Such a colorful song. It’s red and blue at the same time. Tall and short at the same time. It’s pulsing, the beat is sick and his deep timbre gives me shivers..

Stand-out lyrics: “Couldn’t take you home to mother in a skirt that short, but I think that’s what I like about it.” 

“Broke a finger knocking on your bedroom door.”

“I must admit I thought about making you mine.”

Kiwi: I’m so here for these drums, and heavy guitars!! GOD. The attitude he has on this song?? It’s like he’s grabbing you by the collar, bringing you close and going “Nope, it’s just you and me”… *fans self* It’s edgy and very 70′s Brit rock, he’s belting out those notes with fierceness.
Love the “ding” after he sings “I’m gonna pay for it”, those little details are so cool and add so much to the complexity imo. And the gritty guitar solo is tasty as hell. You know when the shower is almost too hot to take? That sweet-spot, that’s what this song feels like.

Stand-out lyrics: “And now she’s all over me, it’s like I paid for it, I’m gonna pay for this.”
“I think she said ‘I’m having your baby, it’s none of your business.’”

Ever Since New York: So magical and soft. A big contrast after Kiwi, but fitting as the album cools down again. Love the drumming, there’s so much going on in this song. It’s intricate and subtle. Love that he matches his vocals to the tone and the sentiment of each track. With this song, he never tries too hard. He’s just singing like it’s the most effortless thing for him. And the stacked vocals on the chorus is a beautiful touch. Loved when he changed up the notes on this on SNL, and I wish he’d done that on the recorded version as well, but that’s a small complaint. 

Stand-out lyrics: “Choose your words, ‘cause there’s no antidote.”
“I understand I’m talking to the walls.”

Woman: Love this. His vocals are just stunning, (AGAIN) just the way he drags out the word “know” in that first line -AH! This song is so funky, so dope. It’s simple, but hella catchy. With this song, I feel like everything comes together. Like the lyrical idea feels good and goes perfectly with the sonic recording which goes great with the melody and groove. And the background vocals that start around 3:03 adds a really alluring element to the song.

Stand-out lyric: “I hope you can see the shape that I am in. While he’s touching your skin, he’s right where I should be”.

From the Dining Table: From the second you hear his lips part in this, you’re drawn in. He’s singing in a conversational way, which makes it sound really earnest and vulnerable. And that moment when the strings entered floored me the first time I heard it, it was so unexpected. A beautiful explosion of sounds. To me, this song feels like this scenario: It’s raining. You’re in bed, half asleep, there’s a candle about to smoke out, and it’s making the dozens of shadows in the room dance around..

Stand-out lyrics: “Comfortable silence is so overrated. Why won’t you ever say what you want to say.”
“Maybe one day you’ll call me and tell me that you’re sorry too,”

That last one just hit you right in the gut, because it feels so damn authentic and sincere, and that’s something that runs through the whole album imo. It feels exactly like what he should be doing. It’s so him. It never feels contrived or fake. There’s so much heart in it and you can tell that there’s a lot of hard work behind it. There’s not one stand-out weak song, I start playing the first song and I just let it run until it’s done, and that’s rare for me. So THANK YOU more than I could ever explain, Harry. I’m obsessed with this record and I needed it. ❤️ 

My favorite thing about the Oresama Teacher fandom is that no matter how many years pass everyone’s still waiting for an anime adaptation

Writing Tip: Hope and Despair

Hello! Today I wanted to share a writing tip I learned in my fiction class because it’s something that really clicked with me.

The Push and Pull of Hope and Despair 

This means always having both hope and despair in a scene. In the moments of hope, the brightest moments, the character should still be experiencing a small sting of despair. In the darkest moments, the moments of despair, there is still a flicker of hope. 

Without despair in the hope, there is lack of tension and conflict. Nothing is at unrest. The story might as well stop now, because the character doesn’t feel that painful twinge of conflict even if it’s small. Without hope in the despair, at those incredibly dark moments we will feel the story is too hopeless to be realistically resolved, there will be nothing to drive the protagonist forward. 

Despair in the hope keeps the reader going–conflict is what makes a story interesting. Hope in the despair keeps the character going–they need to maintain the possibility of resolution, or at least some sense of hope, in order to remain active and try to achieve their goal. 

Think of your story as an interplay of hope and despair. As the protagonist finds moments of hope, the despair fades but never disappears. As they fall into despair, the hope remains a pulse in the background that keeps them moving forward. 

There is despair in the hope, and there is hope in the despair. One without the other isn’t satisfying, since it’s their interaction–their push and pull–that drives the story forward. 

Something wretched about this (so precious about this)

For anyone that missed it on AO3, here is the Klaroline Valentine one shot I wrote for @thetourguidebarbie. Includes Succubus!Caroline. Title from From Eden by Hozier.

Caroline despised being indebted to anyone.

              Being in such debt to a vampire of all creatures was even worse.

              For millennia, the vampires had been a bane to Caroline’s kind.  They became addicted to the touch and taste of a Succubus so easily, and it typically resulted in a shortened lifespan for the succubus in question.

              But Katherine Pierce had once saved Caroline’s life, and so was – begrudgingly – owed a boon.

              “Distraction.” She ran a finger around the edge of her cup.  It was a latte – a rather delicious latte – but the taste was marred by the fact that she was there with a creature that could choose to go for her throat at any moment.  “That’s all?”

              “That’s all?” Katherine raised one perfectly manicured eyebrow.  “Well, I could try and make it more complicated… but I figured that being a distraction to Klaus Mikaelson would be difficult enough.”

              “Is Klaus Mikaelson supposed to mean something to me?”  Caroline took a sip of her latte, watching Katherine over the edge.

              Katherine eyed her in return, a slow smile that Caroline knew better than to trust curving her lips, but… this would get rid of the damn favor.

              “He doesn’t need to mean a thing.  So you’ll help me?”

              “Tell me what you know.”

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anonymous asked:

Alexander, it's your mother! Why haven't you called me?! Do you really think you would've made it out there without my help, you ungrateful little prick? You think you mean anything to anyone besides me? Do you think you're capable of functioning all on your own? I raised you! You're nothing without me! You know what, I hope you rot out there in the real world! God forbid I try and take care of my own child. . I wish you were never fucking born.

I’m sorry for existing

aching [calum hood]

au: zombie apocalypse! 5sos take refuge at a local high school. after stopping at a mall for supplies, they find a fragile girl who retreated in a small book store.(based off school-live) *unedited lol

“Do you think it’s gotten far?” Luke questioned, his icy blue eyes scanning over the dead crowd. The students in the yard, all infected by the disease, mindlessly walking back and forth over and over and–  

“No.” Calum answered, staring down at the garden with a frown. He never wanted it to be this way, he never wanted to feel as though he was trapped. Cornered by creatures, monsters, in their very own high school, the Maori boy could only think of what could’ve been. What should’ve been.

It was nothing like it was depicted in movies: the sun still shined brightly, no one decided to run – they fought, and lost, they only continued to lose without a cure. There was nothing that gave them hope – they just didn’t want to become.. become like them.

Michael glanced at his two friends on the rooftop, sighing as he takes Calum’s shovel over his shoulder and walked back into the safety of the building. There was only a fraction of a smile on his paled face. “Ash?” He called out, craning his head to the right as he looked for his friend. 


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There are millions in the world who have no spiritual light at all. They are without God, without Christ, and without hope. Can we do nothing for them ?—There are thousands around us, in our own land, who are unconverted and dead in sins, seeing nothing and knowing nothing aright? Can we do nothing for them ?—These are questions to which every true Christian ought to find an answer. We should strive, in every way, to spread our religion. The highest form of selfishness is that of the man who is content to go to heaven alone. The truest charity is to endeavour to share with others every spark of religious light we possess ourselves, and so to hold our own candle that it may give light to every one around us. Happy is that soul, which, as soon as it receives light from heaven, begins to think of others as well as itself!
No candle which God lights was ever meant to burn alone.

J.C. Ryle

Hey people it’s Tay again back another with another master post! That’s all I make these days but oh well ;-;;  #boring
Biology is totally logical with a bit of memorizing. It’s also super super super simple and it’s also my favorite subject! So I truly hope these tips help you out. ^^

During class: be attentive, write down notes, write everything the teacher writes on the board, draw side-along diagrams and ask additional questions.

After class: check if your notes are 100% correct, ask whatever question you have ASAP, write down extra information that you left out using sticky notes.

Add-ons which goes without saying: 

1.Do your homework. Maybe it’s some research work, or you have got to practice a diagram again, or maybe some questions, do it. These come in tests for real.

2. Please please practice all the diagrams. I know, it’s really tiring and your hand pains. But please, diagrams are the heart and soul of biology, please practice them. They are a really easy way to score marks Also they are a good way to utilize free time. Take a diagram every day and practise it whenever you are free. The next day, take another and so on. Kind of like “the diagram of the day”.

At home:

1. Detailed notes.  Also if for example you are taught the simplified version of a particular topic, try to research and learn the complete topic by yourself because when you are actually taught the modified and complex version, it will be way easier + you’ll be prepared earlier and much better!

2.  Use reference books. Each name in biology as mANY synonyms! Also reference books help you to clear your understanding and find out your weak points. So, use reference from various books and don’t just rely on your school textbook!

3. Huh-it’s-the-day-before-the-exam-and-im-still-left. Don’t do that! Biology has a lot of memorizing! So you really need to start weeks earlier + practice diagrams at least 3 times (once without seeing) before your finals!

 So that’s all, hope that helped :)  remember that nothing worth having comes without hard work so if you really want that A there’s a lot of hard work. Plus, a lot of people think that biology is easy and they can do it easily. That’s not true! Nothing is “easy” if you don’t understand the concept and you can’t minorise a subject like that + biology is a VAST subject!

+ Here are some references + master posts for biology -

 + check out my other master posts! -

Prompt: There is a glitch in the system and for some reason there is two Komaedas in the NWP, one is from SDR2 and the other is from the SDR2.5. And the two are arguing between each other about talent and hope.

A/N I don’t know who you are anon but I hope you’re prepared for the consequences of your actions. Oh, boy I’m going to have a headache over this.

SDR2 Komaeda vs SDR2.5 Komaeda

This was the showdown nobody asked for.

“Hello, I’m Nagito Komaeda, SHSL Luckster.”

“Hello, I’m Nagito Komaeda, I have the worst luck but it’s no talent.”

Perhaps even worse than the appearance of monokuma was the glitch of having two Nagito Komaeda in the New World Program.

Out of all the possible hurdles to the rehabilitation program, Komaeda’s luck just had to trigger the event with the least likelihood. Even with a program this advanced, it shouldn’t have made such a basic error in creating a double. What’s worse was that the double just had to be an almost polar opposite of the original. And out of all the participants, it just had to be Komaeda.

Both Komaeda’s were unnerved by each other’s presence and in fact, they took it rather calmingly. Contrary to the rest of the class, they took it in stride and resolved at peaceful acquaintances until the matter was resolved. However, that treaty was effectively dissolved once they got to know each other. It wasn’t so much about having a doppleganger but rather the issue that their double had such atrocious values.

“I despise talent. While it’s true that I don’t have any talent, I don’t hate it out of a personal grudge or anything. I just think that the world would be a better place without it.” Komaeda 2.5 discussed with a carefree smile.

“How truly despicable your existence must be to have no talent and therefore, no hope within you. I don’t blame you for having such twisted beliefs. It’s only natural that the worthless would hate those with worth.” Despite the harshness of his words, Komaeda’s smile was light and easy.

“I think that it’s you who is pitiful. Just because you have talent, your ego has inflated so much that you think that that’s all there is to the world. Those who are born with worth are meant to rule over the worthless, is that it? Despite your grand abilities, your worldview is terribly narrow.” Komaeda 2.5’s voice dropped to an ominously low level as he muttered, “I feel so ashamed to share name and face with you.”

“By all means, I’m the one disgusted by your existence!” Komaeda chuckled almost lightheartedly if only his eyes didn’t look so set on killing. “How could worthless trash like you even dare to think outside your unamazing box? Of course, the only reason I can think so highly is because my talent gives me the right to do so.” He narrowed his eyes. “Something you clearly lack. Those born without talent won’t amount to anything, that’s just the way the world works.”

The two engaged in a heated staredown, neither giving way.

“Ordinary untalented people are just stepladders for creating stronger hope. They can be less than that but they can never be anything more. They don’t posess any hope at all and that’s what separates the two of us.” Komaeda almost spat his words in disgust. “You’re hopeless.”

“This is why it’s so bothersome to try and reason with people who have lost reason. Me, hopeless? Take a good look at a mirror. You’re already a lost cause.” Komaeda 2.5 crossed his arms and looked down upon him with pity. “You truly have been blindsided by your talent if you think that that’s all there is to hope. Hey, have you ever heard of that saying? Power corrupts and absolute power corrupts absolutely.”

“I happily accept your acknowledgement of talent as power.” Komaeda laughed for a bit and then paused, expertly holding the conversation in air. “But let me correct you, hope is more than just absolute power.  Hope, in other words, is a proactive will and talent… It’s an absolute “good” that’s brought forth by that!“

"You honestly believe in an "absolute good” how laughable. You place too much faith in this talent of yours. Just because you’re more talented, you think that you’re that better than the rest of us.“ Komaeda 2.5 looked down in contemplation. "Well, I suppose there is some truth in that. Talent is what places people in a hierarchy. The world is unfair because there is an unfair distribution of talent.”

“Hm? It looks like there might be some hope in you after all if you understand that much. But it’s not that remarkable of a hope.” Komaeda leveled a seething glare at him. “Without talent, you’re nothing more than a faceless commoner. The most you can aspire is to become a stepping stone of hope.”

“You’re right. Without talent, I’m at the bottom of the hierarchy. I, along with the rest of the population’s majority, am doomed to become mere stepping stones only. Such a needlessly cruel fate.” Even though Komaeda 2.5 said such despairing words, he hardly looked affected by them. Rather, he even smiled. “From our point of view, doesn’t it make your absolute good look bad?”

The air was thick with tension that neither of them had any plans of cutting, only adding on.

“Without talent, then everyone would be able to lead modest lives and find a modest amount of happiness.” He continued and then in a threatening tone, he added. “Were I able, I would erase all talent from the world.”

“Listen, you are without talent trash. The only reason why I let you talked this much is because I pity you for sharing my face. Well just because I’m hearing you out doesn’t mean I’m actually listening. After all, your words mean nothing without a talent to back you up.” Komaeda loudly proclaimed. “And how do you plan to get rid of talent when you have no talent of your own?”

“I won’t deny that I’m just a regular guy with a bit of bad luck. But even though I don’t have any talent, I don’t see myself losing to you.” Komaeda 2.5 stepped closer, challenging. “I have such terrible luck that I couldn’t possibly hope to defeat you.” He raised his finger and pointed at him with an aim that could kill. “But maybe I can take you out with me.”

“I’d like to see you try. Although I highly doubt that an untalented scum like you could possibly do anything that world-breaking.” Komeada laughed off the threat. “Who knows? Knowing my luck, maybe you’d get lucky instead and achieve your ideal world. That would be absolutely despairing for me.” Komaeda’s smile was twisted at the corners. “Then all I have to do is take all that despair and change it into hope.”

All of this could have been prevented if only Nagito Komaeda’s luck wasn’t so powerful. Now that there were two Komaeda’s, they decided amongst themselves to fight for their own ideals. With talent or without talent. Which one’s beliefs was stronger and would ultimately shape the world after?

This was the showdown nobody asked for but Komaeda was more than willing to fight for.

Nothing Without You {Part Two}

Title; Nothing Without You {Part Two}

Genre; Angst, Fluff (later)

Type; Scenario/Fake Text

Group/Member; BTS - Suga (Yoongi)

Summary;  After helping Suran with her debut single, Yoongi gets closer to her. You, his best friend and an aspiring rapper can only watch from the sidelines as he begins to neglect you and grow closer to Suran. You eventually go on with your life and try to act normal, no longer going to his or seeing him at BigHit studios. Yoongi notices your absence and notices that he misses you and that he is nothing without you.side-lines as he begins to neglect you and grow closer to Suran. 

{Scenario Requested}

Author’s Notes; Heya ^_^ Hope you like the 2nd part of Nothing Without You. This is mainly in fake text form but some normal scenario text may be in between. Enjoy 😉

- Chunks in italics are flashbacks 

A loud “ping!” sounded from your phone and you ignored it, slurping up ramen whilst watching some period drama on the tv in front of you. Once you had finished your ramen, you placed the bowl onto the small table just in front of you and sighed. Your phone had sounded exactly 7 “pings!” since the first and you really wanted to check your phone but you knew it wouldn’t be who you wanted it to be. It never was anymore. Throwing your head back and huffing you picked up your phone from beside you and checked the notification;

8 messages – Yoongles 😎

Your heart stopped for a moment. Well, how about that… With a slightly shaky hand, you moved to unlock your phone, the message app opening before you

You stared at the messages before you, letting out a small breath and shaking your head. 

Thinking for a moment, you began to type a response…

You sat your phone down as tears started rolling down your cheeks. This had to be the right thing…Surely it did. Your phone continued to ping from beside you as you pulled your legs to your chest, crying into the soft fabric of your clothing.

“This number is now blocked” your screen read and you sighed. 

“I’m sorry Yoongi. I have to think of myself” You whispered in the quiet of your apartment…

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Unfaithful : Part Five

Summary :
In the Pre-apocalypse , you went to your aunt Lucille ’s house in Virginia to spend the summer there, but you fell in love with her husband Negan .

**drama - romance - angst- smut - betrayal**

Pairing : Negan x Female Reader OC.

Dedicated to @negansmainwife


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Warnings : language

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Sunlight crept into your room through the window, softly rested on your face, you winced and turned your face to the other side trying to sleep, but it was too late already . You groaned as you opened your eyes with difficulty and extended one of your hands towards your phone to check what time is it.
It was 8:30 am, you threw your phone on the bed next to you and huffed annoyed. You squeezed you eyes shut when last night’s events flashed back in your mind! Your aching head and puffed up eyes almost exploded from all the crying last night after Negan had left your room.
His scent was still on your body , you felt tears stinging the back of your eyes. What have you done? You slept with your aunt’s husband and what was worse, you have feelings for him, you were so damn sure of that.
You wiped your tears and sniffled, then got up on your feet, you noticed a small fabric fell on the ground, you looked down and it was your panties, the ones Negan used to clean his sperm off your thigh. You grabbed your panties , you couldn’t hold your tears anymore, they rolled down your cheeks like falls.
You carefully opened your door and peeked to make sure that neither Negan or Lucille were around, you didn’t want to meet anyone especially Negan. Once you made sure the hallway was clear you headed towards the bathroom and locked the door behind you.
First thing you did was throwing your panties in the trash, then you let the warm water of the shower flow, you took off your nightgown and threw it across the bathroom then got under the water.
At that moment, you wanted not only to wash your body but also to wash off your guilt , your sin , your shame and Negan’s scent.

Tears flowed along with the water , you covered your face with your palms sobbing, then you slid down the wall to sit on the floor with your knees pressed against your heaving chest. you wished the ground would open and swallow you. It was the first time you felt ashamed of yourself .
You remained in your place half an hour , then you stood up , turned the water off and stepped out of the shower. You squeezed your hair then wrapped your body with a towel.
As you were heading to your room , you were busy fixing your towel , you didn’t pay attention to Negan who was coming your way , he whistled. You lifted your eyes up and you saw him stopping by your door.
“Good morning doll!! What a fucking shame I missed the shower, you could ask for help ya know! ” He winked as he poked his tongue out, his eyes scanning your body.
You ignored his comment, and continued walking then just when you wanted to get inside your room he blocked your way with his arm .
“Woah! What’s the matter doll?! Can’t a man fucking tease his girl!” He huskly whispered.
“I’m not your girl Negan, keep away or Lucille would..!” You hissed.
“She’s not here, she went to the store, that’d give us like 10 or 15 minutes to fuck!” He grinned at you showing them sexy dimples , standing tall while your smaller form trembled at his words.
“We’re not!! I told you last night! That’d be the first and the LAST time!”
You pushed his arm away and entered your room , you tried to close the door but he pushed it open easily making you stumble back.
“I know you still fucking want me!!! Hell, I know I want you too!! Let me taste that sweet pussy of yours again, please!”
Negan pulled you to his chest, he snatched the towel off your body, breathing heavily while peppering hungry wet kisses all over your face, your lips and your kneck.
You moaned in his arms and arched your head back, his hands roughly tracing across your smooth skin. Then he grabbed your ass and bucked his crotch into you.
You felt his hard cock underneath his jean pants, you palmed his bulge . Negan groaned as a result of your marvelous touch.
“Baby …oh , fuck!!!”
Suddenly, you pushed at him really hard and grabbed the towel to wrap your shaking naked body.
“No! I said no! No means NO Negan!” You shouted as your vision went blurry because of the tears. Negan froze in his spot for a while then he turned around and left your room without saying a word.
You threw yourself on your bed and cried till your tears dried up on their own.
An hour later, you heard Lucille calling for your name.
“Y/N breakfast is ready, come down please!”

You immediately got dressed, you put on your black undies and a gray thin dress, then you wore makeup to hide the black ugly little bags under your eyes and to make your pale face bright and normal.
Once you finished getting ready, you headed downstairs in heavy slow steps as if you were walking towards hell.
You acted normal as you stepped inside the kitchen, where Lucille was sitting alone to the table.

Negan wasn’t there though, you felt relieved that you’re not gonna face him again, at least for the moment.
“Hey Lucille! ” you blurted and took a seat.
“Morning hun!” She smiled at you before adding “ we have a big day today, it’s Jack’s birthday and we’re making a little private party for him here!“
“Jack?” You looked at her wondering as you you took a sip from your coffee.
“Yeah! Negan’s cousin, and boss at the samr time. He’s got the used cars shop , we’re making him a birthday party, we do it every year! I went to the store this morning and bought everything we need for the party! I’m afraid I’m gonna ask you to help me dear! ”

“Sure thing Lucille! ” you nodded.
Lucille smiled then continued eating, you in the contrary were deep in thought, thinking of what happened last night and this morning. Many what ifs went through your mind, what if you didn’t show him your half naked body by the window two weeks ago? What if you didn’t give in last night? You’d be enjoying your summer with your aunt! You’d probably be best friends with Negan. You ruined everything! !!! You played with your scrambled eggs, your fork making a little ticking sounds. Lucille glanced at you confused.

“Is everything ok y/n? You seem a little distracted! ”

“N-no ..I’m just.. uh.. thinking of next year , med school you know! ” you murmured and placed the fork on the table, you avoided looking at her, you were always a terrible liar, you also were too ashamed of yourself .

“Oh it’ll be ok! Come on , don’t think about it much!! Hate seeing grumpy faces in the morning, first Negan then you!”

“Negan? !” Your chest clenched and breathing ecelerated at the mention of his name.
“Yeah, he was upset , when I got back from the store I found him smoking in the porch, he doesn’t smoke in the mornings unless something is bothering him, I asked him and he said nothing, he even went out without having his breakfast, ugh, hope that bitch has nothing to do with this , or so help me God!… ah.. I’m sorry sweetie, I’m such a talker!”
You shook your head , faintly smiling at her . You tugged a strand of your hair behind your ear and cleared your throat .
“Uh..L-Lucille, .. who, who… I don’t mean to pry but.. who’s the um …’ bitch ’..you talked about just now?” You literally stuttered.

She huffed, raising her eyebrows then she took a deep breath and sighed.
“Tabitha, his colleague, she teaches English at the same school he works in, a year ago he came to me and admitted he’s having an affair with her!” Her voice vibrated and her eyes watered but she didn’t let her tears drop .
So this is the ‘whore’ she mentioned weeks ago! You thought.
“Last year was the most difficult year for me, for both of us, ten years ago when I met him and came here with him, everyone knew about our love, we were the Romeo and Juliette of our time, we dated four years then when he proposed I thought I was hallucinating! My friends envied me. I was living a fairytale, and the sex… phew. .. the sex with Negan was great!!!” She smiled, and you couldn’t look at her , you just played with your mug and your subconscious was screaming ‘tell me about it Lucille! ’
“But then after like more than three years of marriage, it became a little dull for both of us, we went to a marriage consultant and we tried a lot! Till one day he confessed his affair with Tabitha, he said he ended it , I wanted to divorce him but I couldn’t, I don’t know, . ..!”
Lucille sighed again then her tone changed .

“Enough with talking about the past, we gotta prepare for Jack’s party, we’re gonna have fun! one thinks Negan is funny and adorable , wait till you meet Jack! I’m so excited for you to meet him. Oh you’re so gonna like him, I guarantee you that!!! ”

The rest of the day, you occupied yourself helping Lucille in making the birthday cake and decorating the house with balloons .
It took you two hours before setting everything in place, Lucille made sure to check on every, the champagne, the cake , and the plates etc… you couldn’t help but to think what a good dedicated hostess she is.
You sat on the couch checking your phone till you heard a set of knocks on the door, Lucille walked fast to answer it, once the door was open, she clapped cheerfully.
“Ah Jack!!! Happy birthday to you darling! ”
Lucille pulled him into a warm hug, Negan walked past them and looked at your direction, you got nervous and your lips trembled for a while so you opted to look down.

“Sorry baby, I forgot my fucking keys , that’s why I knocked! ” Negan placed a quick kiss on her forehead, you felt blood boiling in your veins and your fists tightened. Wait, are you for real? You didn’t just feel jealous , did you? You thought .
“Oh it’s ok Negan, come on in Jack, there’s someone I want you to meet! ”
Lucille held Jack’s hand and led him to the living room where you were sitting, you stood up and smiled at the birthday boy who was holding a bouquet of red roses in his hand . “This is my niece, y/n ! ! Y/n , this is Jack, Negan’s cousin, the brother I never had!”.
Jack was younger than Negan and bulker, you could see his abs through his shirt , he has blue eyes and dark hair, his lips were a little puffed , in another word, he was a hunk, purdy and very sexy. You extended your hand to shake his but he held it and placed a soft kiss on it. You raised your brows in disbelief.

“Enchanté mademoiselle! ” Jack charmingly smiled as he handed you the bouquet ,his blue beautiful eyes locked into yours, then he moved them scanning your tight short dress that showed a little of your cleavage and thighs.
Negan swallowed hard, his eyes moved between you and his cousin. Jack was a pussy magnet, wherever he goes , girls follow him like flies. Negan could see a slight spark in your eyes, you were taken by Jack’s charm and his sweet gesture.
Negan felt more annoyed when he saw that his cousin showed interest in you, he couldn’t blame him though , you were a special sexy beautiful thing. He watched you interacting with Jack, smiling once in a while, responding to his flirts and compliments with flattered soft laughs.
For a moment, you’d swear you forgot Negan’s presence. Jack ’s influence and charisma were so overwhelming. But then you felt Negan’s burning gaze on you, you shot a fast glance at his direction , he already took a beer out of the fridge and sat on the sofa watching you, while Jack and Lucille exchanged few jokes and sometimes each other’s news.
Negan’s jaws clenched when he saw Jack placing a hand on your lower back leading you to the dining room.

“Hey! Negan! I said go to the dining room, didn’t you hear me!?” Lucille said as she grabbed the beer out of Negan’s grasp before adding “what’s the matter with you today?”
Lucille went to the kitchen to grab the birthday cake, and Negan followed you and Jack . After a while, Lucille came holding the cake with 30 lit candles on them, she placed it on the table and chanted “Happy Birthday to you , Jack!”
Jack gently scratched his nose and smiled then he blew the candles off , you and Lucille clapped your hands while Negan rolled his eyes.
“Thanks y'all, every year, you guys make me feel special you know! ”
“Happy 30th Birthday, cus!” Negan said as he tapped at Jack’s shoulder.
“Thanks bro!”

The four of you had few glasses of champagne, and peices of the cake.
“Mmmmm, this is so delicious! as usual Lucille! ” Jack praised .
“Oh this time Y/ n helped me making it!” Lucille looked at you winking.
“Oh , it’s nothing! ” you smiled .
Jack took few steps towards you and extended his hand to you , there was a small splash of the cake on the corner of your lip, he wiped it with his fingertip, then he sucked at it.
You felt your cheeks heating up, your jaw dropped and goosebumps run across your spine, you definitely didn’t see that coming. Negan knitted his brows and gritted his teeth, he was getting more annoyed every second.
Lucille broke the awkward silence.
“Ah ok I’ll collect these plates, then we will open the gifts , why don’t you guys go to the living room! y/n would you please give me a hand!”
Her voice brought you out of your freezing state, you collected the plates with her and followed her to the kitchen as the two guys headed back to the living room.
Jack turned to Negan and smirked.
“Hot damn! Lucille ’s niece is so beautiful, I didn’t expect her to be this beautiful! ”
Negan shot poisonous looks at his direction, then he inhaled to calm himself down, before interpreting what his cousin just said.
“What the fuck do you mean by you didn’t expect her to be this beautiful ?!”

“I met Lucille days ago, and she told me she has a surprise for me, I was so curious and I insisted to know what it was, she told me that she’ll make me meet someone in my birthday party and that it’s time for me to settle down and stuff!”

“What?? What are you talking about? Lucille didn’t tell me a shit, YOU didn’t tell me she’s trying to set you up with y/n !” Negan looked so shocked, he almost dropped the glass from his hand.

“Hush, they’ll hear you! I didn’t take it seriously at the beginning, It’s like a blind date you know, I’m single, she’s single and Lucille wanted me to meet her! But to be honest, I’m liking what I’m seeing now! ” Jack winked at Negan who struggled to keep his temper under control, Negan’s body was vibrating in anger.
“She’s not one of the fucking whores you’ve been fucking, Jack! !!!” Negan hissed.

“Woah! Negan, I’m being serious when I said I’m liking what I’m seeing, I really did like her!!! I wouldn’t do something to harm her! She’s Lucille ’s niece, I wouldn’t do that to HER! ”

Negan sat on the couch, he swallowed all the champagne in his glass in one gulp.
“I think I fucking need another drink!”
“Woah , easy honey!” Lucille chuckled as she stepped inside the living room with you.
“Ok let’s open those gifts shall we?” She cheered than handed him a nicely wrapped box. Jack took it from her, he looked excited, he unwrapped it fast then opened it, in the buttom of the box laid an MVMT watch ,he made an awe sound and smiled.

“Thanks Lucille! I loved it!”
Lucille winked at him, and turned to Negan who was busy drinking another glass of champagne. She poked him with her elbow.
“Oh, fuck me! I almost forgot, here fucker!” Negan handed him a box.
“Negan , darling! You couldn’t wrap it!!” Lucille faked a smile before she added
“What’s that on your arm!?”
Negan looked at his arm where Lucille pointed, it was the scratch you caused to him last night during the hot sex you had with him, you blushed and looked away while Negan glanced at you quickly than to his wife.
“It was a pussy!”
“A what?”
“A kitten!” Negan chuckled , your face nearly exploded because of all the heat.
“A kitten did that to you?” Lucille sounded doubtful!
“Yeah, a kitten, I found her in the street, I petted her, but I assume I fucking went a little rough on her so she scratched me!”
Your heart beats raced, and your mouth dried up when you saw Lucille squinting her eyes on him. Jack laughed nervously, after all he didn’t buy the kitten story either and he knows that Negan is a player , so he interfered.
“Yeah , Lucille, I was with him, she scratched him and run away!”. You looked at Jack, you knew he was lying, perhaps to protect his cousin but you were grateful after all.
“Oh!!! Negan You should check on that then!!! She could be carrying diseases! ” Lucille said as she held his arm, Negan pulled his arm away and went back to his seat.
“Ok! Let’s see what cousin Negan got me!!!”
Jack opened the box and he found a framed picture of him with his parents when he was a baby. Jack held his tears, he seemed really emotional.
“Where… where did you find it?” He muttered.
“I have my ways Jacky boy, happy fucking birthday! ”

You really admired this sweet genuine gesture of Negan especially that you noticed how much it meant to Jack! You took a step forward and said.
“I’m sorry I didn’t get you anything Jack! I didn’t know before!”
“It’s ok ! Meeting you is the best gift I had this birthday! ”
Your eyes widened, you didn’t expect someone you met a couple of hours ago to be so nice and cute, his gentle words made you feel special and warm, and Negan could see that in your eyes, and at that moment he knew he was jealous as fuck! He knew he wanted you for ONLY him! He knew can’t lose you!!!