You know that overwhelming feeling of beautiful awe? Like how you look at the vast ocean,or when you stare at a constellation of stars. How your heart sinks in a wonderful ache. That’s how I felt when I fell so in love with you.
With you, my life can still be adventurous even when we remain stationary. I can still have the best time in my living days, as long as I am spending them with you doing little nothings. With you to stay, the whole world can just forgets itself.
I want the feeling of waking up next to you, the person who I’m going to spend the rest of my life with.
I want the feeling of knowing that you’re waiting for me back home, ready with hugs and kisses to give me the moment I step in.
I want the feeling of having memorized the constellations your freckles have marked on your skin.
I want the feeling of reassurance that you don’t have to say I love you for me to know that you do.
I want to feel all that.
I want to feel all of it with you.
When i am with you, I act different. In a good way. I smile more and laugh more. I don’t have to pretend everything is okay when it really not. With you, I can drop the fake smile and put a real one on. I don’t feel hurt and alone when I’m with you. Instead, I feel safe and loved. You’re easy to talk to and you listen to me. I don’t have to worry about holding back with you. I don’t feel self conscious. I don’t ever feel insecure or sad/ you show me that you really do care, and you’re not just pretending. I really appreciate your company, became with you, I’m different. With you, I’m happy.