Hello. I hope this is not a rude question to ask. What is your pronouns? I just want to know how to properly address you while talking. I hope you'll get better soon! Keep on being a fighter. Cheers!
Not rude at all, anon!
I haven’t really decided on ‘official’ pronouns yet or anything, though right now I prefer they/them, and cringe a bit when I hear she/her (but I’m still at a point where I’ll accidentally mis-pronoun myself, so I’m definitely not at a point where I’m like…asking people for something different - though I suspect that will change in the next year or two; er basically if people are still using she/her, that’s okay, just don’t expect it to be that way for the rest of my life lol).
I haven’t identified as a woman for quite some time though. I keep having to list myself as ‘F’ on all the health forms at the moment and it’s like ‘ugh, no, that’s not right.’ But ah well. <3
And thanks so much anon, I will definitely keep being a fighter! Sometimes that’s all I know how to do. :) I hope you’re taking care!
Things from musicals that are so perfect they are borderline erotic
When Jonathan Groff first comes in in The Bitch of Living. Timothy Omundson’s voice in Goodnight My Friend. Also in Finally. The third and fourth “burn"s in Burn and like Phillipa Soo’s voice all the time. Shoutout to the final "mine” too; that’s gorgeous. Pia Douwes’s voice, and how it is somehow simultaneously smooth and pure and beautifully rough. The harmonies at the end of Make Up Your Mind/Catch Me I’m Falling. “Would you think so badly of me” in Sonya and Natasha. That thing in The Bitch of Living when they are all jumping around chaotically and then suddenly are frozen singing “oh, who knoooooowwwwws?” (start at 2:40 for the full effect) That thing Karen David does in like every song in Galavant where her voice changes pitch slightly and damn. The way “sadness” is sung in Don’t Do Sadness. The harmonies in Boote in Der Nacht. Magaldi’s verse in On This Night of a Thousand Stars. When Eva starts singing in High Flying Adored. Natasha singing both “nothing, it was nothing, I didn’t lead him on at all” and “back in the theatre full of light” in Natasha Lost. How syrupy and rich Jasmine Cephas Jones’ voice is in Say No to This. That part of Seventeen when JD and Veronica are singing “seventeen” together and he’s singing higher than her. The end of My Eyes. Vocally, and the choreography. Everything about Sophie McShera’s voice, especially when she’s singing her parts of A Happy Ending for Us. The slight roughness in John Gallagher Jr.’s voice. How drowsy and sexy Idina Menzel’s voice is in As Long As You’re Mine. Also when she sings “it well may be” in For Good. (It’s nice for different reasons of course.) Chris Jackson’s voice in One Last Time. And in every other song.
I'm really grateful you keep us informed of your condition and how the operation schedule is coming along, etc. I worry so much about you (as I'm sure most ppl here do) and I'm sending all my positive energy your way!! May the anxiety be low, the optimism high and the surgery fast and successful! Love you!! *gives you some more hugs*
Thank you for the positive energy, it’s definitely appreciated!
As for progress on the tumour front, I have an appointment with the Head of Vascular Surgery at one of the hospitals here, on March 8th. I’m also currently off one of my meds to get an accurate Chromogranin-A reading on a blood test (one of my meds gives a false positive). It means I’m dealing with Reflux Disease woes and will be for the next two weeks, and it’s a little frustrating to think I’ll need to do this every year for two weeks for the rest of my life, but I’m four days into fourteen of being off the medication and gastritis hasn’t struck yet. :)
Will definitely keep posting updates as well. It’s pretty stressful. I’m distracting myself with writing and art and stuff. Though the writing is going slow! Omg lowest wordcounts of the year so far. Though the latest chapter of What If is sitting at 6500~ words which isn’t bad. :)
You just keep showering us with quality fics and I honestly don't know how to deal. Amazing start and although I would not mind Bucky nuzzling up against me, I can see why I would also scream bloody murder. :D
Pia, you are too kind. Thank you. I’m so excited for this fic ahhh.
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