with all this motherfucking hate

i just saw a tweet comparing kavinsky to riko/drake and i need to RantTM bc how Wrong can u get lmao. tw suicide and mentall illness lets go

first of all!!! motherfuckers!!!!!!! why do u hate mentally ill people??? secondly!!!! are you aware of this insane notion!!!! that people can make Mistakes? and you dont even gotta forgive them!! you just gotta Understand!! Listen, YOU GOTTA

i know, i know you dont want to!! its easy to write off violent people as abusive, its easy to go against people displaying negative symptoms of mental illness! it’s easier to hate someone but LISTEN its toxic as fuck and you’re feeding a toxic and disturbing ideology. 

kavinsky was a fucking KID, he was a teenager!! do you realize how self destructive he was, do you realize!!! he committed!!! fucking public suicide!! yall singing support for suicidal ppl but villainize the kid who literally had a mental breakdown and set himself on fi r e

i know its fucking hard 4 u to comprehend that ur faves aren’t The Greatest and Purest but guys what!! all ur fucking protagonists, all ur “good guys” were judgemental Assholes to kavinsky :))) gansey literally called him soulless :)) does that remind you of a description of someone else from the aftg series?? ya no it wasn’t drake or riko. it was actually ur precious andrew :)) remember when nicky called him soulless also???? ahahah but naaaah kavinsky is most like riko and drake bc??? hes the antagonist and yall cant grasp nuance and dubious morality ok!!!! idk why yall are under the impression that kavinsky was treated well as a mentally ill character or even that he was written well. i dont even understand how u can compare trc and aftg when literally the only characters who would fit in the atfg world are kavinsky and ronan and adam and trust me, none of them would be the antagonists or compared to riko and drake.

heres the thing. kavinsky never canonically raped anyone so dont compare him to a fucking rapist who preyed on kids. i know i know!!! he said that consent is overrated!!!! guess what!!!!!!!!!!! it makes him a dick but it doesnt make him a rapist. 

kavinsky is manipulative, hes self destructive, god knows he lashes out violently but hey!! HEY!!!! those are symptoms! of! more! than! one! mental! illness!!!! im sorry but you can’t!! you fucking cant cast kavinsky as ur psychotic antagonist if you fail to understand that psychosis is a real life thing. destroy ur idea of the soft cushy mentally ill aesthetic. mentally ill people lash out violently. mentally ill people are irrational, we can be manipulative. i know yall love ignoring the more uncomfortable symptoms of mental illness and you love your “not all mentally ill people are violent!!” rhetoric but guess what!!! some of us are!!!! don’t cast us aside bc its easier to embrace the parts of mental illness that u can grasp

kavinsky was a queer, mentally ill, suicidal teenage boy who lashed out and finally killed himself because the person he was in love with said he wasn’t enough and never would be. you realize that right? that kavinsky killed himself. he took his own life purposely. and when he died, everyone forgot him, he was barely mentioned again, what a great moral to that story

yall keep pulling out made up assumptions out of ur asses but forget that kavinsky put himself out there for ronan, who knows how long he spent teaching ronan how to be a dream thief and he hoped and he wanted ronan to stay with him but ronan said no, ronan said this was never going to happen, after using kavinsky to learn how to control his dreams, he said “it was never going to be you and me.” i love ronan but god that was a dick move

kavinsky was so obviously in love with ronan and yes, his love manifested in manipulative and manic ways but please for the love of GOD stop demonizing this kid. LISTEN if you’re chill with andrew drugging neil without his consent bc andrew’s trauma has made him paranoid but you drag kavinsky, ur a fucking hypocrite. was kavinsky Moral and Good?? god no. does he deserve suicide and being called abusive and a rapist? no!!!! people change, people grow up, people go to rehab!!!!! the fact that kavinsky never even had a fucking chance is the most tragic thing in this entire god forsaken series

in conclusion, fuck all of you who conveniently forget kavinsky saved ronan from the night horror and taught him how to control his dreams and all he got was a fuck you and a dismissal. dont fucking come near me if you’re okay with andrew from atfg but demonize kavinsky bc ur fuckign trash 

I fucking grew up in the shadow of oppression and pain and hatred and if you don’t think I’ll pick myself up from the fucking ground again you’re dead wrong.

I’ll get up as many times as I have to.

I’m stronger than you - I have to be.

We’re stronger.

We’re so strong. Our existence by itself is a proof of strength. We are here and we can fight and we are stronger than all the motherfuckers that hate us.

I love you.

You are strong.

I was there. A private Jewish guest going to a private reception when set upon by the Creating Change mob. I have been an activist with a decades-long pedigree of working in large and small ways working for social justice. I have faced down Jerry Falwell, debated on TV with top spokespeople from Family Research Council and Focus on the Family. I have sat on a plane surrounded by fundamentalist anti-gay PromiseKeepers. I have NEVER faced such a mob of indiscriminate hate. ALL of us were called “motherfucking racists”, compared to the Ku Klux Klan and when in the room, several of them broke in and were screaming that we weren’t really queer and queer activists, that we were killing babies in Israel.

It was assault in that we were surrounded, denied passage, verbally abused and we saw what happened if someone shouted back. The gentleman who is described as “grabbing a Palestinian flag” was in fact attacked by that protester. He was wearing a Yarmulke, and the protester wrapped the flag over his face, covering his eyes, nose and face and jerked his head back.

I personally know many of the attendees, who have given much of their lives and treasure to multiple social justice causes, including that of people of color and to supporting organizations like Jerusalem Open House. We were all tarred with this brush of hate, indiscriminately. Jerusalem Open House was founded about 20 years ago as a community center for Israeli Jews, Israeli Arabs and Palestinians. These were brave LGBT activists in the middle east who have created real, true, positive change. Yet this event to welcome and help raise money for them to continue their activities was shut down hatefully not by the religious right, not by ISIS, but by other LGBT activists.

Respectfully I ask:
How many protests were there against LGBT Muslims – as clearly they must represent the totalitarian regimes in Saudi Arabia and other Muslim countries where the laws prescribe execution for LGBT people? Oh, they don’t represent those governments any more than we did? Why did we catch double-barreled verbal violence?

How many protests were there against LGBT Russian Orthodox? That church in Russia supports more yet more vile oppressive anti-gay legislation currently in there parliament?

How many protests were there against LGBT Nigerians, Ugandans and other African nations that now have laws on the books that imprison LGBT people?

How many “Pinkwashing” protests were there against every American city that solicits LGBT tourism while maintaining police forces and neighborhoods that oppress people of color?

How would any of the mob (not protesters) feel if every conference they went to people would equate them as representative partners of the Chicago Police Department and run them out of town?

No, in fact, there was only one of this scale. We were not allowed to pass to our “safe space” – and in fact one of the protesters inside our reception screamed in my face that we did not deserve safe space. A website called the Electronic Intifada posted video of the event with the note “No peace! No justice!” Featured in the video was a leading Rabbi of Chicago - an incredibly gentle, yet strong consistent voice for kindness and justice in our community, including justice for people of color, for workers, for interfaith respect and dialogue. He has been a force of humanity and care at our congregation for people in crisis.

Doesn’t matter. You see, the protesters had no interest in our decades of fight here and Israel for inclusion and justice. They had no interest in what we thought about the situation and whether we had any views in common with them or how we could fight together to improve the situation.

In fact, Israel is the only country in that area with a working free press, a rule of law judiciary, with government funding for art that criticizes the government, a true multiparty system. It has an equivalent of the ACLU, the Gay and Lesbian Task Force, feminist and environmental organizations and those that work for peace.

Had they really wanted dialogue, they might actually have engaged the activists on the front lines of serving both Israeli Jews and Palestinians. I bet they don’t agree with the government either. However, they might have shared what actually works in that complicated area of the world to actually “create change.”

They could have joined with them and us to support a stronger, better Israel and celebrate the works of LGBT activists who risked a lot to build a true safe space for Israelis and Palestinians.

But no indeed…

I have been violated and my friends and co-religionists have been attacked and libelled. I am physically sick from the violence and anti-semitism that clearly singled us out and turned every one of us from Jews with long accomplished records of commitment to justice into demons worthy of their verbal and physical violence. And how they crow on their websites about how wonderful they were!

The National Gay and Lesbian Task Force should be called to account for this violent, aggressive action – for the failure to provide us safe passage and peace within our own event – for the failure to meet their own purposes of using dialogue, safe space and respect for others to build bridges and “create change.”

I have no illusions that the self-righteous mob will ever look in the mirror and see the very hate that they detest in others. But the leaders of this event must.


Alan Amberg

It makes me sick. Radicals.

  • nt, having to pay 2 extra dollars for drink at movies: what . the . fuck. this is such *kicks chair* BULLSHIT! *slams coins down on table* this is fucking ridiculous * reddening in face* this stupidFUCKINT government! taking all my goddamn earnigs. money doesnt grow on motherfucking trees. *throws infant* i hate. you all.
  • someone: i know!!!
  • me, being forced to function daily when i have migraines, anxiety and constant stress and contemplate suicide every day: i really fucking wish i didnt have to do this project alone, its really painful and its so fucking hard i just want to end it all.
  • someone: jheez... complain much? get some help maybe? sheesh . get over yourself. not that big a deal....
Kanou the Sadistic Liar

This chapter is already making me think about one of the elephants in the room which is the fact that Kanou seems to believe that ghoulification shortens the recipients lifespan. However, with the history of Kanou’s experiments he has either killed them too early too tell and his current “successes” haven’t been ghouls long enough to tell either. So, how would Kanou have this brilliant break though that half-ghouls have shorter lifespans. Well, for the longest time I have thought that Kanou must have been someone who worked in garden. I mean so much shit about his motivations bug me with him just being a CCG coroner. Like how would someone get the idea to rip out the Kakahou and put it in a human from dissecting ghouls. I mean look at Dr. Shiba, who has a similar job as Kanou, who only made the quinx because of the existence of Kaneki. I honestly believe that Kanou got that scientific god complex of his from working in the Garden. I mean in many ways he was he was creating a whole new species with the Half- Humans, Half-Ghouls. It’s that complex which could have inspired him to leave the CCG/Garden so he can make something better then they were something that would survive longer. Maybe he came to the conclusion that by not fully mixing ghoul DNA into someone it would work better. Then there is the fact that if Rize really is this missing link that Kanou would leave the CCG for a higher chance of acquiring her, as he would be able to use more shadier means. Also, it would explain how Furuta and him came into contact with Kanou even though Garden kids don’t leave the garden until they become investigators. It would also explain why Kanou believes that his experiments will all have shortened lifespans, because he knows nothing else, he has only been able to study half humans, so in reality he has no clue what he is doing. I mean his whole torture on Seidou was based on the assumption that immense physical damage will make a half-ghoul and look at how many times he fucked that up it’s in the 1000′s.  I just think it’s wild that were trusting one of the most shadiest characters with something as ground breaking as this. I’m calling his bluff.


I am perfectly aware that the overall editing is not the best quality and that this is fucking long and that there are a couple empty portions of the thing cuz I have no bass at the moment, but here y’all go, and if you wanna waste away over 9 minutes of your life, knock yourself out

ps: yes I am aware it’s in 3 parts, I couldn’t figure out how to change the tempo in the middle of the fucking song any other way, live with it, deal with it


Oh right that can’t happen because there’s too much fucking hate going around.


God it is not that fucking hard. Why hate? It’s just not necessary.

Maybe you can’t love every group like I do, but for god’s sake just shut up if you don’t like something. People like different things. 

This was complete bullshit. They didn’t have to lock me up in isolation for 5 fucking days. SERIOUSLY? Fuck off. I hate everyone who thinks they’re staff in this shit hole. You don’t know ANYTHING. My clock was stolen. Instead of locking me up, why don’t you find the motherfucker who stole it??? I fucking hate all of you. 

ok so all you motherfuckers know how much I fucking hate drawing backgrounds, right?

I mean it’s not surprising since I never did the effort to learn how to draw them but that’s not the point. The fact is I’m fucking terrible at drawing backgrounds and trying to do so makes me ackin’ all cray cray.

So. Guess what I just decided to draw fanart of.

That’s right! Steven Universe! That show with SO MANY FUCKING ROCKS