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I call you unicorn boy for a reason.

You’re a guy like no other, you’re rare and pure hearted and that’s what makes you a lil unicorn :^) You’re such a dork. You have a lopsided grin that reveals perfectly crooked teeth and eyes that I could stare into forever if I could hold eye contact for that long. You love everything I hate about myself and it’s so, so amazing to me that a guy like you would feel like this about someone like me. You’re not afraid to hold my hand in French for half the period, or walk me to class when I’m lost and you’re in a rush. You went through shit and came out stronger and for that, you are my unicorn boy.

Thanks for being the best first love I could ask for

- Jae

anonymous asked:

Hi! Sorry to load this on you. Re: that anon's ask about reducing comments. I know I used to gush over every single chapter of the fics I read. But it reached a point where I think I kind of overwhelmed/annoyed one of my fav authors and now they're avoiding me. Nowadays I only leave short comments or not at all because I'm starting to think I'm being too freaky :( I can speak for everyone but I'm sure some feels this way as well. Maybe anon can mention that they love comments on their fic? (1/2)

(2/2) Also, in reader’s head: !@#$ “who cares about my unworthy opinion” and “omg that other reader leaves such constructive feedback and my vocab is limited to I love this” and “why does he/she reply everyone except me every time? I think annoyed the author I deserve to burn in hell” So not commenting becomes a self protective mechanism to not get hurt. TBH I think chapter kudos would be the best thing ever (/;A;)/

listen… never in my life… have i ever told myself “wow i wish this person didnt comment”

ok wait thats a lie HAHAHAA okokok wait back up 

the only times in my life… that i have ever told myself “wow i wish this person didnt comment” was when all the comment said was ‘OMG WHEN ARE U GONNA UPDATE’ or something along those lines like… ;-; nothing breaks my spirit more… pero!!! i still kinda (???) appreciate the sentiment behind it because obviously the person likes the fic enough 2 be rude about it (i GUES? ? ? lmao) but like im still gonna reply to those people and thank them for reading etc you know. honestly though i think i’ve only ever actually deleted a comment juan (1) time and it was because that person said something SUPER out of pocket about like racism or something which, to me, didnt make sense at all my fic was about marble busts and ice skating i was like uhhhhh what are u doing here U Are Lost and so bam i deleted 

anyway 

my point is. i know some authors dont respond to comments and that can seem like they dont care about responses/feedback but that is a total lie hunnie. we get emails every time someone writes a comment and i’ll always be reading them whenever i’m waiting for a ride or while i’m brushing my teeth or whatever and it always makes me!!! so happy!!! i do make an effort to respond but sometimes i don’t get to do it right away, but just know!!! that i do read it!!! right away!!! even if i dont respond in that moment. 

every writer has their own style of interacting w readers but lemme tell u a short comment like “omg love this dkfjdkfj” feels GREAT. yeah it feels amazing when people take the time to like paste quotes and point out things they noticed or liked in the writing or whatever but not everyone has that time or can make that sort of effort. i only get to write long-ass comments sometimes OK like i know how it is; fic is supposed to be a relaxing break from Real Life and it can be rlly tiring to write up those long comments and ur def not entitled to comment at all. but it’s still a nice gesture because kudos are so easy to give. ppl been asking me why i look at bookmarks/comments more than kudos and its because kudos are literally just a button that u click. (and hits too!! like??? hits just tell me u opened my fic???? i dont rlly care about hits thats why i have that turned off) so i rlly lov when readers give that effort u know. it feels like “hello u spent 3943894 hours writing this thing let me sacrifice 5 seconds to make a comment about it ily hunnnie xoxoxox.” 

the disparity between X time it took writer to write VS. X time it took reader to read is so big. it throws me outta whack. when i publish something and someone comments in MINUTES on something that took me HOURS/DAYS/WEEKS to write it always shooks me. and thats why any comment makes me so happy, even if its just a bunch of keyboard smashes, one time someone just sent me a link to an image of kermit on fire, liKE THATS GREAT. THAT WAS AWESOME. one time someone told me my fic made me drop their phone into their rice and that was enough.

ur small comments are enough

thank u for coming 2 my ted talk 

“I was under the impression that the objective was to be terrifying-”

“You like the butterfly, you’re keeping it Spock! The point is to have fun, dress up, be somebody else for a while! We can be cute instead! We don’t have to be-”

“You could not look threatening in any capacity right now regardless, Captain.”

“Whatever you say, Spock.”

aka Jim and Spock dress up like cute clowns cause Jim got face paint out and Spock keeps insisting on cute critters and plants and shapes and Jim ends up changing their costume plans cause at least Spock is Cooperating with this (he loves it).

Thinking about my life this time last year -staying in a farm & apple orchard in rural Pennsylvania living & working with my aunts & their 20 dogs, before leaving & briefly working for the Democratic Party. Then moving back to Miami and getting a bougie job on a yacht as an art fair coordinator, overseeing 3 art fairs in Miami and the palm beaches, deciding suddenly I need to leave in April, getting a job offer in May & moving to Japan in July where I’ve been spending the last two months teaching English to adults

//OMG MY HOMIES TYSM I LOAF YOU GUYS❤💖💕👏

TYSM FOR THIS LOVE I FEEL SO HAPPY TO KNOW YALL LOVE MY SON AND BLOGS SO FOR BEING AWESOME PEEPS I HAVE MADE MY OWN SERVER!❤ https://discord.gg/U8gyqa 

//when you Join plz go to rules! first then introduce yourself! thank you.

Everyone Is welcome to join!❤💖

Btw all fandoms are welcome! 

Anxiety
  • Me: I can't wait to write more fanfiction. I love writing. I love my readers.
  • Me: This story fucking sucks.
  • Me: I'm so bad at writing.
  • Someone I made read it: Wow! I like this!
  • Me: OMG I'M GOOD AT WRITING? I CAN'T WAIT TO POST THIS.
  • Me: -about to post it- No fuck this. This is shit.
  • Me: -posts it anyway-
  • Readers: -great reaction-
  • Me: OMG THEY LOVE ME AND I LOVE THEM EVERYTHING'S GREAT.
  • Me: -two days later- Are those too little notes? Or maybe they were my usual readers taking pity? Am I even good at this? I'm a bad writer.
  • Me: I can't wait to write more fanfiction. I love writing. I love my readers.
  • Me: This story fucking sucks.

I found out today that for the first time in like 12 years, I truly and fully want to be alive.

Holy shit.

yikes don’t look down on new fans/people who have been fans shorter than you

Last post

Im…gonna go into a short hiatus…i just cant seem to catch up with school and the blogs and hhh stress is getting to me…ill try and be back before spook-tober…but for now i have to finish some projects i have in hands right now… This goes for all my blogs… Ill try and come back now and then… Ill go lay down for a bit before my next class.

things janie cannot/will never ever do again: bow/curtsey or bend the knee. 

My tiny mind is not working at this very second and I cannot for the life of me visualise how American cars and roads work. 

If I was driving a car in America, and I wanted to hold hands with my passenger, which hand of mine would they be holding?

LIKE I LITERALLY HAVE DRAWN MYSELF DIAGRAMS AND THEY DO NOT APPEAR TO WORK AND I NEED HELP GUYS.

Edit: Normally I wouldn’t care, but someone has a broken arm in this ficlet and I’m trying to figure out if they can hold hands in the car or not.