wishful thinking to the extreme

The dark side of The Signs
  • Aries: Reckless to the point of disaster. By the time they figure out they've done or said too much, it's too late and the damage is already done.
  • Taurus: Unkind and unforgiving to those who once held their trust. They can be so blind to reason and to explanation. They will throw away people they love just to prove a point.
  • Gemini: You never know what you're going to get out of them. One day they'll be ready to help you and love you, they next they'll tell you never to speak to them again.
  • Cancer: They love blaming every problem they encounter on others. Because someone hated them so much, they had to have wished this on them. At least, that's what they're thinking.
  • Leo: They become extremely frustrated and hostile when they don't get what they want. They are convinced they deserve to have it, so if it means they need to break out the fangs, they will.
  • Virgo: They think they know better than you; and they'll tell you all about it. Did you really think you did something well? Virgo will explain just how to perfect it, and how they "could've done it better."
  • Libra: They aren't as harmless as they appear. The worst of them will try to eliminate whatever gets into their way. They don't care how "good" your intentions are- you're wasting their time, and they will most likely find a way to get you out of their way.
  • Scorpio: They don't forget. If you come back around years later trying to be close again, they will guilt trip you and then send you back. You don't want to fuck with these guys.
  • Sagittarius: They don't care about your feelings. If they have something to say, they're going to say it. And if you scream and cry, they're ultimately convinced it's not on them.
  • Capricorn: They will watch, and judge, every single thing you do. If they hate you a little extra, they'll fuck it up and get you in trouble for your accidents, too.
  • Aquarius: They will completely shut you out when they're bored of you. Don't expect an explanation (or any kind of friendly one,) or any sort of "mercy." They'll just sneer at you and walk away.
  • Pisces: They will lie right through their teeth to spare your feelings, and then go and do something they know would break your heart. Only for the pleasure of the moment.
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And when we’re trying to move on, the moments we always go back to aren’t the mundane ones. They are the moments you saw sparks that weren’t really there, felt stars aligning without having any proof, saw your future before it happened, and then saw it slip away without any warning. These are moments of newfound hope, extreme joy, intense passion, wishful thinking, and in some cases, the unthinkable letdown. And in my mind, every one of these memories looks the same to me. I see all of these moments in bright, burning, RED

2nd survey statements!

Took awhile, but…here are the statements! Once again, they are organized by type for your convenience. Enjoy!

*Also, I just wanted to say thanks to everyone who participated in the survey. I was really happy with everyone’s responses, and it just goes to show how annoying MBTI stereotypes can be.

INFP

~Having intense emotions does not make us irrational crybabies. It does, however, make us highly analytical of everyone around us. Also, Fi is not necessarily selfish! Stop assuming we only care about our own feelings, because that is just so not true. In fact, Fi actually allows us to understand and analyze the emotions of others on a deep level since we’ve done it so many times to ourselves. We are not selfish - we just internalize our emotions!

~INFPs are always represented as really open minded and kind, but a lot of most of my INFP friends (and I have a lot) are some of the most judgemental people I know (I’m so sorry for being salty!!)

~We’re not really as soft and fluffy as many think we are

~I’m an INFP, and we’re often types as pathetic, whiney sad sacks. That may be true for some, but not all. I am a cheerful person, and people often say I’m quite funny! Enough with the puddle of tears already!

~INFPs are represented as creative types, but many INFPs find their strengths in the art of academics.

~I Ann an INFP and I wish people wouldn’t think we’re just selfish. Yes, staying true to our values is extremely important to us and we must frequently check in with ourselves but I also love to give and encourage self honesty and introspection with others. Also the weak stereotype thing upsets me sometimes don’t get me wrong I don’t enjoy fighting one bit but if it’s out of defense whether it’s someone I love or a barrier I have I’ll fight til the end.

~INFP-good at planning; can be pretty outgoing

~Infps don’t cry all the time! We are often consider weak but we are not. What makes infps so strong is their ability to be idealistic, focus on the brightside, no matter what traumatic things they have been through or selfish people they have seen. Also they have the ability to make logical decisions based off of moral codes.

~We aren’t doormats nor unable to be organised

~This emo/crybaby trope is getting old. Yes, we have emotions. No, we don’t cry every time we see a dead ladybug, nor do we moan about how lonely we are 24/7. 

ENFP

~I like making people happy because I can’t seem to make myself happy. I figure the best I can do is make others feel good so they don’t ever feel the emptiness I feel sometimes.

~I like making people happy because I can’t seem to make myself happy. I figure the best I can do is make others feel good so they don’t ever feel the emptiness I feel sometimes.

~Just because we act ‘childish’ doesn’t mean we’re 'stupid’ or 'naive’

~I think that enfp is often misrepresented as 'dumb but sweet’. I have many enfp friends who are very smart, and quick thinkers. The intp stereotype of being a robot is pretty easy to recognize as false, but we (and entps) aren’t ALWAYS making puns or ALWAYS forgetful and disorganized. Yes it is true we can be oftentimes but pretty much all types are just generalized.

~ENFP (my type): often displayed as lovey dovey cuddly types that are very scatterbrained and directionless. However, while we’re enthusiastic, vibrant, and have great people skills, we struggle revealing our own emotions and can be very private about things. In addition, we’re not always cheery- many can appear a little more cold and aloof but still retain that “magnetic” quality ENFPs have.

~I’m an ENFP and what I’d like others to understand about our type is that when we put out minds to something we are the most driven people you’ve ever seen! Also, were not dumb… that’s a common one, we just learn a little differently.

~I think ENFP are extremely empathetic to a fault, in danger often because of it, way more introverted then they are that to be obviously still extroverted though, and vastly more intuitive and intelligent, and absolute at inauthenticity of any kind

INFJ

~Every type has their own unique set of strengths and weaknesses, but INFJs tend to be broadcast as perfect.

~just because an infj doesn’t always easily let people in doesn’t mean they don’t want to with all their might

~I’m an infj, I think often my type is misrepresented as very openly emotional. While that can be on occasion, it is more characteristic of, say, the infp. Most infjs aren’t in tune with their own emotions and we can be emotionally immature because of this. Thanks for reading!

~In terms of INFJ I feel like people think we care so much and on some level we do but often I’m just exhausted and being nice for the sake of it/because I don’t know anything else, not because I enjoy it.

~I think infjs are given a bad wrap. Theyre talked about as if they are all unhealthy or completely negative and stuck in their ways and are portrayed to be unable to hold down a friendship. This is of course completely off and many/most infjs are some of the most kindhearted understanding people around.

~INFJ. I want people to understand that I just can’t live just for my self cause I care more about other people.

~I am an infj, and everything that I read and see about my type always mentions how much we care about other people and their feelings/problems. We are seen as one of the more empathetic types probably because of higher Fe. While this conclusion might make sense in theory, I think that Ni gets in the way of that pretty often. People need to remember that the cognitive functions work with each other, not independently meaning my Fe might not work the same way as someone with dominant Fe (enfj or esfj). Even if their Fe is auxiliary like mine, their dominant function might cause its manifestation to be quite different. Naturally, I have not met many other infjs in person, but I do have one really close friend who shares my type. He agrees with this statement that we are not all that overtly caring individuals. Rather, we have come to a conclusion that Fe tends to give our Ni some data to work with. It’s funny, the definition of empathy is that you can easily understand and feel what others are feeling, but this somehow happens in an extremely detatched manor. For example, I find it exceedingly easy to read people and know what they are feeling, how they will react, what’s bothering them, etc. However, I don’t actually care all that often. It’s a phenomenon that my infj friend and I constantly kind of joke about. I realize of course that this could simply be an isolated case where two infjs just happen to use their functions in this way, but I thought it was worth mentioning. What I said earlier about functions working together is very important though. Everything is relative, there is no isolation, there are no coincidences.

ENFJ

~I am an enfj and isrespect of myself and others is just something that poses my buttons as well as other enfjs i know. I would also like people o know that enfjs are cabab l e if being manipulative but at least for me in terrified of being manipulative as it would hurt people and be selfish. Which i think is an interesting contrast between the dark and light of an enfj

~my type is enfj, and the biggest stereotype for us is that we just don’t get nervous about publicly speaking or socializing at all. We’re just care free and social, which is true, but people don’t realize that we do in fact get nervous. Its human.

~This may just be me but as an ENFJ, I see a lot of 'motherly instinct’ posts despite having no interest in children or really any such instincts??

~ENFJ-usually only represented as a mom friend always trying to take care of people. ENFJs have huge dreams and personalities. No one seems to talk about that side of us. Maybe because if you’re not close enough to an ENFJ you may not realize this, but it seems like it should be represented more.

INTJ

~we are fun and we have emotions and we’re not just sarcastic little hermits! :)

~I’m an INTJ, and people always associate coldness and sassiness on this type. In fact, INTJs can be in touch with their feelings, since Fi is third in their cognitive functions stack. If an INTJ believe that it’s okay to be nice to other people (due to Fi) they can act as an INFJ in the eyes of others. I just want to conclude that not all INTJs are acting stereotypically, sometimes they just have another well-developed functions that makes them act differently based on their stereotypes.

~Please don’t think all INTJs are cringy ass edgelords who talk like Marvel villains.

~INTJs are said to be extreme neat-freaks, but most of the INTJs I know are actually pretty messy (but I don’t mind!)

~INTJs are extremely loyal, caring and committed towards those they love and respect. They don´t always know how to show it but their love runs deep and if you violate that love it hurts them like hell.

~INTJ - I’m not always shut off and reserved. i have my social and loud moments, even with strangers (just not on a deep level)

~Hey ! First of all, English isn’t my native language, so I apologize if I make some mistakes. So, let’s start. I’m an INTJ woman, and I praise everyday people to understand that before being an INTJ, I’m human… I have emotions ! I can cry, scream, love people around me… There is so many clichés about MBTI types, not only mine (cause ENTJ aren’t dictators, ESFp aren’t labradors, IFP aren’t crying babies…). Please, stop clichés ! (Preach!)

~INTJ-We actually have feelings! We’re not on a Vulcan level or even Spock, even though we don’t always show it (or choose to show it) we do actually feel very deeply.

~As an INTJ, I think people often forget our sensitive, creative side. INTJs are not cold robots! We love our friends and family, and often times are very interested in the arts.

ENTJ

~I’m an ENTJ,and most of the times people find me extremely arrogant and rude. They feel scared of talking to me and feel like I’m an asshole. I’m just as good as any other person.ENTJ people are not always rude and arrogant unless and until you irritate them with your lethargy

~ENTJs are often represented as emotionless. This is untrue. Everyone has emotions; it’s the way we handle them that matters. As an ENTJ, it is most important to me to be able to discern when revealing my emotion works to my advantage or disadvantage. So yes, if I see it as useful, I do reveal what I’m feeling.

~Not all ENTJs are overly aggressive, inconsiderate of others’ feelings, and immoral.

~Everyone assumes we are cold hearted, money-making-maniacs, with no feelings. On the contrary we do have feelings, lots of the, we just are bad at showing them! We also are very bad at taking emotional clues and can be very upfront. Sorry if we offend you!!

INTP

~I feel like most people think INTP’s enjoy math and science. It’s a common pattern with our type, but quite honestly, I’m awful at math.

~I’m an INTP and I want people to understand that an important part of an INTPs personality is creativity. We’re always represented as academic, logical people with no room for creative self-expression, but this stereotype just isn’t true!

~INTP here. Much of my “intelligence” is falsified, in the sense that sometimes I’m making projected leaps without having even considered the conclusion.

~INTP: I have fairly developed Fe even though I’m an INTP. I can read people and situations and decrease stress within a group of people with a joke. I just don’t know how to respond in normal conversation or if someone needs to be comforted.

~That we are not always cold and that even though we sometimes hate people we do like to be around people we consider likeable ~INTP

~I am an INTP. I have this weird theory in my head that INTPs feel emotion as strongly as other types, if not more strongly, but we don’t know what to do with all of that non-logic business. So we do the classic INTP “bottle it up, robot” sorta thing. So then we just feel everything inwardly and don’t express it to anyone, and that’s why we give off the impression that we’re cold and impassive robots.

~INTPs so are definitely not always passive-aggressive. I get revenge swiftly.

ENTP

~I think ENTPs are misrepresented when people say they have no empathy skills, all the ENTPs I know have a very good capability of understanding others’ feelings, they just often choose to ignore this ability slightly.

~ENTP is my type. One of the only problems I have with the stereotypes of it is that we can be super great in making friends. I make maybe future friends but they are never fully my friends though it could be depending on my enneagram (6w5) but my Fe is weak and so is my Fi and Si/Se.

~ENTPs aren´t necessarily loud, annoying or always out to get people. They can be intensive when it comes to their dearest interest but in general most ENTPs are more easygoing and calm than people give them credit for.

~ENTP female : I have write this with a very heart that the dynamics of entps set tardiness responsibility organisational skills are exhausting to us; the inferior si fucks us up; and our ne might make us look chaotic but you can trust us 1000% ;we might not set in your box now and probably ever dont expect us to act maturely or be responsible and as whole dont lose hope on us

~I’m an ENTP, and I feel like Fe is either not shown at all or shown to much when describing our type.

~ENTPs are often perceived as inconsiderate and cunning. Let me tell you that they are the sweetest shits ever (wow that came out weird). They would sit by you all day as you rant about whatever and they just say some deep stuff off the top of their heads that somehow actually calms you down. it’s great :)

ISFJ

~there’s a sort of misconception that we’re pushovers/weak since we like to make decisions that will benefit others but my isfj grandmother (and me too I guess!) was one of the stubbornest, most headstrong people I’ve ever known when it came to her morals and her loved ones.

ESFJ

~ESFJ are often represented as shallow and petty. As an ESFJ, I say that this is far from the truth.

ISFP

~ISFP seems to be a type that is often very heavily stereotyped. As with every stereotype, there are always some cases in which they hold true, however there are a few key stereotypes that I’d like to point out that aren’t universal. 

1) Not all ISFPs are artists. Due to their dominant Fi and auxiliary Se functions, they often express a strong appreciations for aesthetics as well as emotional depth. Because of this it’s true that art can be a great medium of self-expression for this type, allowing an aesthetic emotional outlet. However it is not the only career/hobby that can be enjoyable to this type. Feeling a strong connection to nature, they can often be found doing outdoor- or animal-related work. Surprisingly enough to some, many science-related jobs are often taken up by this type as well, such as various type of therapy, medical work, and more. It all depends on the individual and their unique interests. 

2) Not all ISFPs are rebellious. Being an introverted type, it’s not uncommon for them to be seen as lone wolves. Additionally, they are often seen as “different” and ones to separate themselves from the crowd due to an often-high sense of individualism. However, a very common trait demonstrated by this type that may contradict said stereotype is a strong desire to avoid conflict. If the desire to rebel against “the system” or someone important to them creates too much upset, it may be overridden by their will to keep the peace. Again, it depends on the individual. 

3) Not all ISFPs are obsessed with their appearance. Referring back to their aesthetic appreciation, looking their best can be an appealing and/or satisfying means of self-expression for this type. Being perceivers, however, they tend to live in the moment and prefer to do what “feels right” at the time, so if they don’t feel like putting in the extra effort to give their appearance that refined edge, they simply won’t do it. Not feeling the need to blend in with the crowd, they may not place a whole lot of emphasis on what others think of them and their appearance, knowing their opinion of themselves matters more, as does their rich inner life (which is not simply exclusive to intuitives, another common stereotype/misunderstanding). *These are solely my own observations and opinions, and are not by any means fact. Additionally, they are all variable and dependent on the individual, NOT universal to all ISFPs. That’s all, and sorry this was so long!

~I feel ISFPs are grossly misrepresented and confined to a more limited stereotypes than the other types. Too often they are confused with ISFJs or INFPs. For example, the typical “artist” trope got old a long time ago, I wish people would expand their perspective of what art really is and how an ISFP expresses it. Also, there is a common generalized notion that ISFPs are some hopeless romantics which I believe is false. The idea of spending our time dreaming of an “other half” to find is so counter intuitive to how fiercely independent ISFPs are. I could go on more but this submission format is weird on my phone.

~I’m an ISFP, and just because I have Fi as my dominant function, that doesn’t mean I go wild everytime someone supposedly tramples on my morals. It depends on the individual, since no Fi user probably thinks the same. (Fi, right?!) We actually are capable of sympathizing with what others have to say, to take time and listen to other’s point of view, and not impose ours on them. Meanwhile in the case of an ISFP’s emotional intensity, the very term doesn’t necessarily mean that all we do is make art and cry. We actually use them to be in tune with the world. It is a function we are very comfortable with, just like how an INTP uses his Ti to form theories and an INTJ uses her Ni to plan ahead.

ESFP

~Im an esfp and i cant tolerate the bad words to me.I could be rly shy in some situation or some groups.Im very sensitive.

~Se-heavy types aren’t the brawn to intuitives’ brains - it’s a really harmful stereotype. Most people drawn to MBTI are academic types and to imply that sensors’ value does not lie in their intellect isn’t just harmful but stupid. Se and Si are both important parts of cognition.

~I’m an ENFP and while I’m incredibly independent I really do need help sometimes. Just don’t push us. But we do love help, just not when it’s being implied as 'We can’t do it’

ISTJ

~An ISTJ I know is one of the most goofy and easygoing person I´ve ever met. They´re a pleasure to be around, they can maintain an intelligent conversation about any subject and they´re extremely handy too.

ESTJ

~as an ESTJ I understand that I an close minded and very sensible but I don’t like it when people expect me to be that way. I like to have fun and talk about weird situations too but there is a time and a place

ESTP

~ESTPs are probably the most street smart people but there are also ESTPs who are extremely smart and knowledgable academically speaking. They seem to know how to succeed and get ahead, and most importantly, how to do so while living life to the fullest.

~ESTPs are much more intelligent than stereotypes imply

~Se-heavy types aren’t the brawn to intuitives’ brains - it’s a really harmful stereotype. Most people drawn to MBTI are academic types and to imply that sensors’ value does not lie in their intellect isn’t just harmful but stupid. Se and Si are both important parts of cognition.

Bonus: Enneagram Type 7

~Enneagram 7 is not a permanently happy dumb party animal who wouldn’t know what to do with a book. Firstly, 7 is a thinking type (567). Although 7s are undeniably the least stereotypically intellectual head type, we’re still thinkers! Some 7s (784s in particular) are often negative and introspective, competing with 584s for the darkest type (7s have a dark inner world). I think Naranjo was close: the 7 is a bullshit artist, not a party animal (more sx/so 8w7-6w7-2w3). 7s are very strong extroverts, but theoretical and often ENxP, rather than ESxP (more often 8w7).

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There’s an old poem by Neruda that I’ve always been captivated by, and one of the lines in it has stuck with me ever since the first time I read it. It says “love is so short, forgetting is so long.” It’s a line I’ve related to in my saddest moments, when I needed to know someone else had felt the exact same way. And when we’re trying to move on, the moments we always go back to aren’t the mundane ones. They are the moments you saw sparks that weren’t really there, felt stars aligning without having any proof, saw your future before it happened, and then saw it slip away without any warning. These are the moments of newfound hope, extreme joy, intense passion, wishful thinking, and in some cases, the unthinkable letdown.  

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“There’s an old poem by Neruda that I’ve always been captivated by, and one of the lines in it has stuck with me ever since the first time I read it. It says “love is so short, forgetting is so long.” It’s a line I’ve related to in my saddest moments, when I needed to know someone else had felt that exact same way. And when we’re trying to move on, the moments we always go back to aren’t the mundane ones. They are the moments you saw sparks that weren’t really there, felt stars aligning without having any proof, saw your future before it happened, and then saw it slip away without any warning. These are moments of newfound hope extreme joy, intense passion, wishful thinking, and in some cases, the unthinkable letdown. And in my mind, every one of these memories looks the same to me. I see all of these moments in bright, burning, red.”

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There’s an old poem by Neruda that I’ve always been captivated by, and one of the lines in it has stuck with me ever since the first time I read it. It says “love is so short, forgetting is so long.” It’s a line I’ve related to in my saddest moments, when I needed to know someone else had felt that exact same way. And when we’re trying to move on, the moments we always go back to aren’t the mundane ones. They are the moments you saw sparks that weren’t really there, felt stars aligning without having any proof, saw your future before it happened, and then saw it slip away without any warning. These are moments of newfound hope extreme joy, intense passion, wishful thinking, and in some cases, the unthinkable letdown.

Tobias better not meet fans after the shows anymore. I’m actually afraid for his safety.

I’m sick and broken hearted over all of this. I’m glad Simon shared this with us. He knows it directly affects us fans.

Simon doesn’t sound mad; he sounds betrayed and extremely disappointed, which is absolutely fair. Tobias was someone they all trusted with their lives. Can you imagine not getting paid anything for your hard work all while your “best friend” is pocketing all the profit??
Please find some room in your heart for our ghouls. I know Papa is the lead but this time he has royally fucked up. The ghouls deserve our support. They are the ones who have suffered. And in turn, we are suffering too.

I’m not saying that Tobias is a greedy bastard, I still support him. But it will take me a while to forgive him. Even longer for our ghouls to forgive him. I’m just saying that I do not blame them for being this upset. This is something that has happened for years. Not just one. But multiple. Think about that. Put yourself in their shoes. What would you do?

I hope for our ghouls sake and our Papa’s sake and our own sake, that this can somehow in hell be resolved. I want more than anything for this to be a nightmare I will wake up from. But this is 100% real life. These guys’ lives were tampered with. They were stripped of their accomplishments. I’m just so sick to my stomach. I don’t want to believe this, but I need to. It needs to be out in the open so that there can be justice.

I hope Tobias will do the right thing. There is no way that Ghost can be a solo project. We are already in love with the new ghouls. That should show you all that we should not support that idea. You do not want to get attached to hired musicians and constantly have them replaced. That is absurd. The band cannot perform well unless there is a history and a brotherhood amongst them. This is why we all fell in love with the ghouls in the first place. Their bond was genuine. Ghost will never be the same without a solid band.

I want my original ghouls back. If there is anyway they can resolve this, I hope they do. That’s just wishful thinking though, because what happened is not something to be taken lightly. It’s extremely unfair and just plain sad.
That’s all I have to say about this.

“There’s an old poem by Neruda that I’ve always been captivated by, and one of the lines in it has stuck with me ever since the first time I read it. It says “love is so short, forgetting is so long.” It’s a line I’ve related to in my saddest moments, when I needed to know someone else had felt that exact same way. And when we’re trying to move on, the moments we always go back to aren’t the mundane ones. They are the moments you saw sparks that weren’t really there, felt stars aligning without having any proof, saw your future before it happened, and then saw it slip away without any warning. These are moments of newfound hope, extreme joy, intense passion, wishful thinking, and in some cases, the unthinkable letdown. And in my mind, every one of these memories looks the same to me. I see all of these moments in bright, burning, red.”

aviewfrommercury  asked:

Hey, I've been trying to research progesterone and I'm still not even sure if it's a single chemical or a name for a group of similar ones and it feels like it gets used so interchangeably that I'm getting lost a bit. May I ask what brand of progesterone you're taking?

Ok so I’ve gotten multiple asks about Progesterone since I started going on it and talking abt it. So like, obviously I’m not a doctor or whatever, but I can definitely talk abt what I know and my experiences w it! Sorry that this is gonna be a kinda long response.

So first of all, progesterone is a ‘sex hormone’/steroid hormone that everyone produces in different amounts. In that way, it’s similar to Estrogen and Testosterone. There are ways to take progesterone (creams, pills) but what I’m on is called Prometrium, which is considered ‘bioidentical’ (that is, of the same chemical structure as what the body makes). There are things called “Progestins” that not chemically identical to progesterone, but at used to have similar effects to progesterone. From what I understand, the depression that lots of people have w progestins doesn’t usually occur w bioidentical progresterone.

Progestins (and progresterone) are used for lots of things, like as a part of birth control, or like to avoid endomitriosis if you are on synthetic estrogen (and have a vagina you were born w). It’s also used for HRT for cis women after they hit menopause sometimes; that’s what my mom used it for.

Progesterone as a pretty big range in the hormonal menstrual cycle. Some trans women want to mimic that by taking progesterone only for like a week out of the month, or going on for two weeks and off for two weeks. Having gone through the emotionality that I did from just going on it, that sounds hellish to me, but like that’s not the form that my dysphoria takes, so I’m not gonna come down on anyone for what they do.

Lots of medical practitioners for trans women don’t want to prescribe progesterone for a variety of seeming contradictory reasons: it doesn’t do anything, it has a bunch of negative effects, the changes it causes are only temporary, whatever.

The site that I looked at with my NP was this one: http://transhealth.ucsf.edu/trans?page=guidelines-feminizing-therapy . The way that he talked to me about it was that if you brought a group of trans women who took progesterone into a room, 3 would say that it didn’t do anything for them noticeably, another 3 would say that it was terrible and they were moody and emotional all the time and it was generally unpleasant, and 3 would say that it was calming and really helped with their bodies and dysphoria.

As for my personal experience w it, I would say that I’m in the last group: I’ve really had good experiences w progesterone, although there have been some issues as well.

So, as for body changes, I have had a *lot* of change of my general shape and esp my breasts. like to the extent that I may have grown more from being on it for a couple of months than my years of just estrogen. Like, the shape is more round, and I’ve basically gained a cup I would say; it’s been kinda crazy because I’m not used to hrt doing changes quickly, and progesterone has definitely worked fast for me. I’ve gained a lot of weight, which has positive effects (like body shape) even tho it is also kicking up my ED shit.

As for emotional changes, this has actually been a mixed bag for me, like hrt has been generally. I mean, i think people are always oversimplifying when they talk abt how hormones effect things, because we’re complex and dynamic beings. But the way I can talk abt it is to say that like… I cry a lot more than i used to. I didn’t cry for several years, and now I sometimes cry on the train when I think abt wishing I could have children (extremely bad for the movement, but #whatever). And like, when I get really emotional, it is like… much *more* than it was previously and like I feel a bit foolish and stereotypical at how much I can feel those things. But at the same time, I feel like at the stable point I am now, I am in some sense relatively calmer, and can like get thru difficult conversations better and more calmly than I could before. This is not the case when you are first starting: the first week for me was like such a mood swing city that I felt like every annoying Tina Fey depiction of a hormonal woman I had ever seen.

Other things to note: I’m hungry all the god damn time. But, I feel cold less! When I wake up now, it is much harder for me to go back to sleep (this was the first thing I noticed abt it actually). I actually felt like my libido was somewhat negatively affected by it at first as I got used to it, but there are a lot of third variables going on there. At this point in a stable dose, I feel like my libido is maybe a little bit more, but mostly in the same ballpark. It’s changed how my sexuality functions a little bit (I feel like I’m less into men, I feel maybe more masochistic) but that’s totally just me and who knows why.

anyhow, I hope this helps anyone who has been interested in my general experience here.

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ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ“love is so short, forgetting is so long.
It’s a line I’ve related to in my saddest moments, when I needed to know someone else had felt that exact same way. And when we’re trying to move on, the moments we always go back to aren’t the mundane ones. They are the moments you saw sparks that weren’t really there, felt stars aligning without having any proof, saw your future before it happened, and then saw it slip away without any warning. These are moments of newfound hope extreme joy, intense passion, wishful thinking, and in some cases, the unthinkable letdown. And in my mind, every one of these memories looks the same to me.
ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤI see all of these moments in bright, burning, red.

anonymous asked:

idk how people can compare niall and harry's promotion to say niall isn't relatable enough when harry isn't saying anything at all, actually. not even his own fans can relate to him anymore or find him approachable. they've managed to hook harry up with the biggest ad spaces only to sell a contrived and disingenuous product that lowered lls's ratings and has failed to add a significant heartbeat to his sinking sales. pardon me for finding the niall/harry comparison laughable.

I’m going to assume that you’re referring to Emmie’s post about Niall’s promo that I reblogged? Although I’m not sure because her post had nothing to do with comparing his promo to Harry’s except this one sentence:

“People were amazed (positively) that he was barely asked who Slow Hands was about while Harry was asked constantly about the inspiration behind all his songs”

She mentions Harry (and the other guys) a couple of times and compares Harry & Niall at the end of her post when she says that neither one of them released their singles without part of the purpose being to want it to be successful. 

Pls, don’t tell me that ‘he doesn’t care about charts and numbers’ because he wants you to believe that but that’s just… not true. All artists do, to some degree. If anyone tells you that Harry released SotT and didn’t care at all about it and he just wanted to be a True ArtistTM they’re also lying to you. Even if it’s not their actual motivation (and I do believe that it’s not in Niall and Harry’s cases), it’s still important to them because they know it’s what will keep them afloat, and it’s definitely important for their labels, especially if they only have a distribution deal.

I’m not seeing anywhere that she said anything about Harry being “relatable” in comparison to Niall or anyone else. So, either I’m missing something in her post, or you’re not referring to it Because if you were, maybe you would point out where she compared them and offer some rebuttal. So perhaps you’re someone who hates Harry’s perceived image and his team’s promo campaign. Thus, it seems as though the point of your ask is actually to vent the anger you have towards Harry and to list as many things about his solo launch that you deem failures or disingenuous or laughable. 

Pardon me for finding that something I don’t agree with at all. I don’t think everything has been handled perfectly. There are aspects I wish had been done differently. But I think the bigger issue is the extreme entitlement of this fandom when it comes to these men - and especially when it comes to Harry. 1D was built on extreme access to fans. We got almost 24/7 access to them and knew everything about them. Harry himself said that he doesn’t like that and that he’s “clawing back” some privacy. Why his supposed fans begrudge that and twist that into him being ungrateful and not relatable and a failure is very confusing to me.

I’m super proud of all four of them. I’m super frustrated for all four of them. All four of them deserve the world. And all four of them are still stuck (to varying degrees) with incompetent people around them. But I don’t understand why fans of the band, which is made up of four men who love each other, have decided that now that they’re going solo that there needs to be 4 separate fandoms with each one criticizing the other three. Niall’s success (or failure) is not a direct competition or in direct relation to Harry’s. And that goes for all the boys. If you love Niall’s promo, that’s awesome. Go hard! If you think it could be handled better, talk about it. But why make it a competition? There’s literally no reason. 

A little rant about Zbychiał, because I freaking miss them so much

they are were very close for a friendship (phisically) imo, like really, i don’t  want to go for an actual nonfanfictional gay love they might’ve been sharing, because i don’t think they’ve ever been close with each other in this way (come on, they’re both in steady relationships and Michał’s having a baby and the whole situation is our wishful thinking) but boy, they are were extremely passionate and liked to express their emotions/feelings phisically (especially Zibi, have you ever seen him play?).

It’s gotten me wondering every single time, because I’ve never experienced a male friendship like that in the real life. I mean, there are so many great volleyball frienships and this one is still unique. You don’t see Karol and Andrzej act that way, you don’t see Mariusz and Winiar act that way, you don’t see Bartek and Pit act that way. There’s only one fictional bromance that came to my mind when I think about Zbychiał and acting that exact way and it’s Cook and Freddie from Skins.

Besides I’ve always thought that Zibi was more into this frienship/relationship than Michał, idk, like Zibi was always so happy around Michał, always so proud of him, always defending him, always fighting for his attention…

mean

i

really

miss

those

two

“little”

assholes

just

look

at

them

i

can’t

We miss you guys

please, come back

My town has been neglected, and despite feeling really awful about it, I’m not sure I’ll ever finish it. Forever procrastinating; that’s me…but I lack the motivation to build. 

I’ve been spending a considerable amount of time playing around with poses, but I guess it’s simply my way of keeping entertained in ts3. I’ve also been busy trying to figure out various tips and tricks in PS. There’s just so much to learn and so, so much I want to achieve, but it’s quite difficult for a simpleton like me. My edits are pretty basic so they end up looking the same. As if that wasn’t enough, I have zero patience and get sidetracked easily, which often results in abandoned WIPs (like my town…). Man, I need to obtain PS wizardry, and pronto!  

Wishful thinking aside, this extremely bog standard montage (but edited just ever so slightly differently) of Levi is my latest experiment and I think it’s acceptable, only, don’t ask me what it’s supposed to be because I haven’t a clue. 


兵長好き ( ˘ ³˘)♥

anonymous asked:

Gif reactions to their gf ( u ) getting cuddly and shy all of a sudden? :3

Awe, so cute and fluffy! :)

hope you enjoy!!

Jin:

No matter how spontaneous it is, i could see him getting cuddly right along with you! Smiling and giggling, and giving you kisses, because he likes when you get all cutesy with him.

Originally posted by vminv

Suga:

He’d be confused by how sudden it was. He’s probably ask you why you’re being so shy and even tease you a little bit. In the end he’d just chuckle a bit and let you cuddle up to him.

Originally posted by leuhanies

J-Hope:

He’d be like suga. Confused for a little bit, and then teasing you. He’d more than likely cuddle back though. I don’t know I see him as a cuddler. (maybe it’s just wishful thinking)

Originally posted by fyeahbangtaned

Rap Monster:

He’d probably get shy because you got shy. He’d find it extremely cute that you cuddled up against him and got nervous and he’d end up being slightly nervous too. He could just ignore it and continue with whatever he was doing before, but he’d probably blush and smile when he thinks about it and remembers that you’re still cuddled up to him

Originally posted by hongshiyoung

Jimin:

“Oh, you’re so cute! Don’t be nervous jagi! I like to cuddle too!” *hugs you and showers you in affection.*

Originally posted by forjimin

V:

Like a mix between Suga and Rapmon. He’ be confused but he’d end up getting shy and all blushy about it. He’d find it extremely cute, but wouldn’t mention it since he could tell that you were shy about you spontaneous bout of cuddles.

Originally posted by sonyondan

Jungkook:

He’d laugh out of awkwardness but your cuddling would definitely make him smile. He’d find it very cute that you were shy about it and smile at you the entire time. He might return to what he was doing before and sneak glances at you occasionally or he could turn around and cuddle with you. It really just depends.

Originally posted by ofzico

hope you enjoyed!! <3

- admin aj

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#CountdownToOOTW
DAY FOUR: RED Era

“There’s an old poem by Neruda that I’ve always been captivated by, and one of the lines in it has stuck with me ever since the first time I read it. It says “love is so short, forgetting is so long.” It’s a line I’ve related to in my saddest moments, when I needed to know someone else had felt that exact same way. And when we’re trying to move on, the moments we always go back to aren’t the mundane ones. They are the moments you saw sparks that weren’t really there, felt stars aligning without having any proof, saw your future before it happened, and then saw it slip away without any warning. These are moments of newfound hope extreme joy, intense passion, wishful thinking, and in some cases, the unthinkable letdown. And in my mind, every one of these memories looks the same to me. I see all of these moments in bright, burning, red.

anonymous asked:

Ah so you're not a fan of the Kori/Dick/Barbara poly ship?

barbara gordon has just always struck me as extremely gay, which may have been wishful thinking on my part because she is a bespectacled ginger librarian, but so it goes

Fun fact: Derek hardly gets kidnapped anymore.

You’d have to be the newest kid on the block, not to mention in the possession of an extremely advanced death wish, to even think about taking the last remaining Hale son hostage.

It isn’t that the Beacon Hills pack is now one of the most powerful and revered packs in the country. It isn’t that the pack’s land is hallowed ground, a veritable refuge for supernatural creatures great and small, as long as they promise to coexist peacefully with the town’s human population. It isn’t even the rumor that the local law enforcement is in on the big furry secret, and even have some of the local weres on payroll.

No, the reason every hunter group in America knows to leave the Hale kid alone is simple. Fuck with Derek Hale, and the pack’s skinny human Second with the smart mouth and strange bright eyes will go through you like a freight train, and the damage will be…

Prodigious.

He won’t even get angry. That’s what they say, anyway, over cheap drinks in seamy bars all over the country. He won’t scream, or rage, or cry. He will simply come for you in the night– implacable, calm, eyes devoid of anything but a singleminded determination and the threat of sudden violence. If the hunters are smart, they hand the Hale whelp over and break every local speeding law on their way out of town. If the hunters are stupid, well.

The old hunters only shake their heads when they hear the death toll.

“Amateur hour,” they say. “Bush league.” And to a man, they swear to never set foot in Beacon Hills.

Derek Hale is protected.