of course :) I loved this one!! x
was the hardest thing (Y/N) ever had to do, but the reasons behind it
didn’t give her any choice. She didn’t believe she was enough for Reid,
her insecurities daunted her and made her do the one thing she never
thought she would have to do: break up with him.
Upon hearing those words, the blood drained from Reid’s face and he
stood still. He tried to understand it but he couldn’t, perhaps because
she didn’t give him a valid reason. He gulped down a sob and tried to
keep my composure as she walked away. Her heart broke into little tiny
pieces; her tears were not quiet and controlled, they fell as fast as the fall rain but she only wanted the best for
Reid wasn’t gonna let her go that easily, though. He had known that to love deeply meant to risk great pain, but it was worth it with her, he had never looked at another, wanted another. The intensity of this heartache proved the strength of their bond and he could not bare to feel less.
The air seemed to be as heavy as the agonizingly long as days drew on, neither of them really knowing how to act around each other. They were trying to be friends and act professional during work, but everyone could see through their act.
Reid stared at her more than he ever used to, every moment they spent together flashing back with every glance. He needed those memories to stay with him, he needed them to soothe him when
the realisation that they were now just memories threatened to erase all the traces he still felt of her.
He started smiling at her again, sparking up conversation, leaning into her touch. He was determined to get her back and deep down she knew it, but couldn’t stop him from doing so. He began writing her letters, leaving them at her desk every morning, pretending not to know anything about it and keeping his head down every time she opened them.
Reid wrote to her as if they hadn’t ever broken up in the first place, letting her know how loved she was, that he missed her, talking about interesting parts of his day which always contained something about her.
After one particular case which left (Y/N) doubtful of her abilities as an agent — no matter how much the team reassured her of her potential — Reid decided to write her a letter with the intent of reminding her about all the great things about her, and how he hated to see her insecurities get the best of her.
He didn’t, however, expect her to stand up abruptly from her seat and rush to the bathroom after reading it. Everyone’s worried gaze towards Reid was unnoticed though as he chased (Y/N) to the bathroom. Locking it behind him, he gently turned her to face him, noticing tears streaming down her face.
“Hey, hey. What’s wrong?” he carefully studied her face and felt his heart tug at how sad she looked.
“That letter.” (Y/N) said, her voice cracking. “It just reminded of our break up. And how I let my stupid insecurities get in the way of the best thing that’s ever happened to me.”
“What are you talking about?” Reid shook his head, not understanding what she was talking about. She looked up momentarily and took a deep breath.
“I didn’t tell you the real reason I broke up with you. I did it because… because you deserve so much better, Spence. You deserve more than an insecure, not good enough, fool like me. And the thought of anyone else beside you kills me, but if she made you happy that would be all I cared about.” she admitted and looked down, trying to hide the new flow of tears that threatened to fall down and not wanting to hear Reid’s agreement.
Silence lay on the air like poison. Her words seemed to run through his mind and a frown fell upon his features before he spoke.
“You know, the worst part is at night. I put off going to bed as long as I can, but
eventually I have to end up in bed all alone. When I reach my arm out
for you in the night, there’s nobody there. I only feel a cold sheet.
Although I thought I might like being able to have all of the blankets, I
would give them up in a heartbeat if you were just next to me again. I
have no one to say goodnight to, no one to kiss before turning out the
(Y/N) bit her lip — a nervous habit, before looking up and locking eyes with the man still holding her.
“I don’t want the best, I don’t want perfection. Whether it exists, I don’t want it because it’s not you. You have flaws, you make mistakes. But they don’t define you and they sure don’t define my love for you. Every day your love binds me more deeply than I knew the day before: so
that no day is the same now, but each one a little happier than the
last. You don’t need to be the best, you just need to be yourself because I love and accept all there is to you.”
For the first time in a long time, he saw the twinkle in her eyes return. Although both of them wanted to kiss, Reid chose to pull her against his chest and simply hold her. Because she needed that, the reassurance that she was enough, more than that actually. The embrace was warm and the world around them melted away as (Y/N) squeezed him back, not wanting the moment to end. In each other’s embrace the world stopped still on its axis.
“Would you like to have dinner with me tonight?” Reid asked quietly, kissing the top of her head. She simply nodded and hugged him tightly. She couldn’t help but thank him. A love like this was to be cherished for life. Finally, she was home again.