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I don’t think I can tolerate this…
It’s too painful.
I feel like I’m betraying him if I leave, is it even about him anymore?
He’d want me to leave. He’d put the people he loves first.

Ellie Williams in The Last of Us Part II

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NOORA: It’s… It’s just like… Okay. Because I feel like we’ve… Just talked about everything. That… That we just… He just opened up completely. Do you understand? I don’t know what I was doing before, but I understand how he thinks now. Sana Bakkoush, this is the best thing you’ve done. Thank you. 

Honestly this scene just gets me so much. William has no idea what is going on with Noora, but he knows that she’s struggling and she needs him. He literally doesn’t pause for a second when she wants to speak with him and the look he gives Chris and the way he looks at her when he shuts the door behind him and the way he’s just such a supportive and loving boyfriend, not pushing her to open up to him, just makes me cry every time I see this. Their whole dynamic is so beautiful- the way they communicate without words and Noora just throws herself in his arms the minute she thinks everything’s okay- because the one person she wants to share that relief with is William. 

How could anyone hate noorhelm?

things Sana had to deal with in the course of minutes:
  • noora blaming her for not telling her about william when all of the girls knew, not just sana
  • having to physically pull her brother off of mahdi so neither would get hurt
  • seeing that someone hurt isak which meant that the fight between the balloon squad and the boys was probably over what happened with mikael and even, a long-time friend of hers
  • having to deal with that plus knowing even’s history and realizing the implications of that friend for even’s mental health and isak’s physical health
  • knowing that whatever happened, happened due to a misunderstanding that she was busy with social stuff to help mediate and feeling overwhelmingly guilty for something she had no control over and for just having a life outside of what her family expects
  • washing isak’s blood off of her hands knowing that either her brother, her crush, or her long-time family friends caused, no matter who started the fight
  • hearing people assume that all muslim boys are homophobic and anti-norwegian culture to the point that they would start throwing punches
  • hearing people call her brother crazy and using how elias tried to save sana from her parents for the party she agreed to as evidence against elias’ sanity and feeling overwhelmingly guilty for that
  • hearing people say she was a bad representative for her religion for events that are out of her control when she is a seventeen year old girl who is true to her faith in every way possible and is just trying to have friends and be “normal” while being herself and being seen as different by everyone
  • feeling guilty for misrepresenting her religion when she hasn’t
  • dealing with the guilt from the text from her mother when she said she should have trusted sana and ten minutes later, elias is in a fistfight and she’s washing blood off her hands while hearing people say that she will never fit into a culture she tries so hard to hold onto while not losing her faith and her roots
  • hearing the girls say that she was off the bus that her friends put her in charge of initially by asking her to fix all their problems and realizing that everyone lied to her including her friends
  • hearing her friends spread untrue rumors about her and her family
  • realizing that vilde has been going behind her back time and time again when sana has given her nothing but chances
  • being called insane by association to her brother
  • and after all of that seeing one of her closest friends and her crush going at it just a week after yousef and sana’s Moment
  • seeing one of her closest friends kiss her crush just after sana had come to accept yousef’s way of faith and after she believed she had a chance with him, even after all the back and forth with her feelings
  • all of this only moment after everyone was happy and singing together under the umbrella of even’s struggle turned to joy
  • thinking all of the happiness was too good to last, yousef, 
  • thinking all of this was her fault for inviting the balloon squad to syng 

i will defend sana bakkoush with my life. she has been through ENOUGH.