wild ambition

Oscar Wilde said that if you know what you want to be, then you inevitably become it - that is your punishment, but if you never know, then you can be anything. There is a truth to that. We are not nouns, we are verbs. I am not a thing - an actor, a writer - I am a person who does things - I write, I act - and I never know what I am going to do next. I think you can be imprisoned if you think of yourself as a noun.
—  Stephen Fry

anonymous asked:

"Bad boy. I thought we talked about not doing this." Older Dom Hanzo with young sub Mccree

Hanzo had humored the young man out of his own self interests, and now he was glad he had.

The Deadlock boy had only been meant to serve as a mediator, a messenger between the Shimada clan and the Deadlock gang to work out a trade deal. Though sending a 19 year old with piercings down his ears and greasy shaggy hair in a cheap suit had done little more than prove to Hanzo the immaturity of the American Gang as a whole. Especially when the man started flirting with him from the get go, checking him out and saying thinly veiled innuendos that made the Shimada smirk. Still, he had humored them none the less, had hosted meetings with the young man and showed him around Hanamura, the normal routine the Yakuza Leader did with his higher clientele, and offered a room to stay in his manor for the time the mediation was taking place. He had seen the boy try to act level and unimpressed and fail miserably, clearly in awe of the power and influence that Hanzo held in his grasp. It was inciting, more than Hanzo had been expecting. The youthful ambition and wild attitude that the Deadlock messenger Jesse McCree brought was more arousing than he thought. And he could tell from the looks the by gave him that the feeling was mutual.

So when the young man had first requested his company in the middle of the night only his third day there, Hanzo knew exactly what to expect. So it was no surprise to him when thirty minutes later the man was on his knees between Hanzo’s legs, sloppily mouthing his cock while Hanzo finished up paper work and smoked his pipe. From then on it was routine, every time they were alone in the car, whenever Jesse had to call back to the states to give a status report, every night, the Deadlock gangster would fall into his arms trying to earn his praise and his skillful hands.

Jesse was absolutely hooked, hooked on the power and sexiness Hanzo had, how nonchalant he was about their affair, and how fucking GOOD he was. The skill with which he worked him when he was on the phone with his boss back in New Mexico, the way he fucked him then walked out like he didn’t matter, or answered the phone while he was balls deep in Jesse with a handful of his hair. It was too much for him to take, and drove him absolutely wild. He would shut him down all the time too, push him away when Jesse tried to start something. “Bad boy,” he would sneer, grabbing Jesse’s package roughly. “I thought we talked about not doing this,” before shoving him away and returning to his work.

McCree couldn’t get enough, was absolutely driven mad by the Shimada leader. And though Hanzo would never let him know, he was fond of the boy himself. Fond enough to call the Deadlock gang himself to say he agreed to their terms with one added stipulation: that they leave the cowboy in Hanamura.

For Teenage Girls with Wild Ambition and Trembling Hearts

by Clementine von Radics

When you are 13 years old,
the heat will be turned up too high
and the stars will not be in your favor.
You will hide behind a bookcase
with your family and everything left behind.
You will pour an ocean into a diary.
When they find you, you will be nothing
but a spark above a burning bush,
still, tell them
Despite everything, I really believe people are good at heart.

When you are 14,
a voice will call you to greatness.
When the doubters call you crazy, do not listen.
They don’t know the sound
of their own God’s whisper. Use your armor,
use your sword, use your two good hands.
Do not let their doubting
drown out the sound of your own heartbeat.
You are the Maid of Untamed Patriotism.
Born to lead armies into victory and unite a nation
like a broken heart.

When you are 15, you will be punished
for learning too proudly. A man
will climb onto your school bus and insist
your sisters name you enemy.
When you do not hide,
he will point his gun at your temple
and fire three times. Three years later,
in an ocean of words, with no apologies,
you will stand before the leaders of the world
and tell them your country is burning.

When you are 16 years old,
you will invent science fiction.
The story of a man named Frankenstein
and his creation. Soon after you will learn
that little girls with big ideas are more terrifying
than monsters, but don’t worry.
You will be remembered long after
they have put down their torches.

When you are 17 years old,
you will strike out Babe Ruth and Lou Gehrig
one right after the other.
Men will be afraid of the lightening
in your fingertips. A few days later
you will be fired from the major leagues
because “Girls are too delicate to play baseball”

You will turn 18 with a baby on your back
leading Lewis and Clark
across North America.

You will turn 18 
and become queen of the Nile.

You will turn 18 
and bring justice to journalism.

You are now 18, standing on the precipice,
trembling before your own greatness.

This is your call to leap.

There will always being those
who say you are too young and delicate
to make anything happen for yourself.
They don’t see the part of you that smolders.
Don’t let their doubting drown out the sound
of your own heartbeat.

You are the first drop of a hurricane.
Your bravery builds beyond you. You are needed
by all the little girls still living in secret,
writing oceans made of monsters and
throwing like lightening.

You don’t need to grow up to find greatness.
You are stronger than the world has ever believed you to be.
The world laid out before you to set on fire.
All you have to do
is burn.

Shtpost #1

[some content pasted from a hangouts message] 


You know what my aesthetic is? Chanyeol laughing so hard his right eye twitches and squints a little bit and he does that seal clap and his teeth just look like they’re about to fly off his face and he kinda sounds like a dying goose and then when he can’t control himself anymore he hits the person beside him like really hard and I literally won’t be surprised if he pulls a Dan one day and falls off his chair-

And also, do you know that feeling when you’re hanging out with someone you usually are pretty comfortable around but then on that specific day you just get really awkward and can’t make eye contact? Well, this:

I’m digging up all this treasure of CB in the past please just UNDERSTAND. Tomorrow I’m going snow tubing with my family and I was watching a video of EXO’rDIUM where Baekhyun and Chanyeol were derping off to Run with e/o and I just thought of how lucky they both are to have each other and be able to know each other because THEY’RE WILDTING SOULMATES DON’T ARGUE WITH ME.


UGH and the friendly thigh support there? Absolutely. Friendly. mhm yes some BEST FRIEND crap right there my bois being supportive of each other and each other’s wild ambitions yes yes. 

AND Another thing is how… aeSThetic they both are??? I just can’t believe I’m in the same era as them because I’m blessed. None of these gifs really have any other connection besides the fact that their appreciation and unconditional love (and unspoken respect) for each other is so beautiful and I love them so much I’m so glad I ranted I feel like a deflated balloon but like a really happy deflated balloon ya know what I mean? They’re real people. They’re physically there. I can see them and I can see their emotions and their actions and they definitely have thoughts that we might not see and that’s what’s so nice about stanning EXO in general UGH I’m going on forever about them because they’re just so precious and I love all of them so much it hurts me


Anyways, if you’re having a bad day and want to destress:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=spdTvSvCCcg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sPLxhnBVRjU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cIvSdI7iZjc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y2cN1GFvY2M

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7QP5TcbI5nY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mmkpcL5HpU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6wmX5h4V_Rs


Have a great day, everyone! 🔥💛

Scandal -Mercy Review

This episode, I’m telling you. Scandal is so damn good right now, everything about it, is just perfectly played. The characters foiling one another, the disillusionment of power. Wonderful. I literally can’t get enough of scandal right now.

We start the episode with Olivia waking up, slightly disoriented and confused as to how she has found herself back at the White House but then she turns over and she sees him sleeping beside her. And suddenly it all makes senses. It wasn’t a dream, for one moment Olivia was granted this moment of bliss. The soft music playing in the background as Olivia watches Fitz sleep, this uninterrupted view of him, though it only lasted a minute it was everything gentle and warm that Olivia needed to feel and you can see that Olivia missed sleeping next to him. Can we imagine Olivia chocking back the tears as Fitz hands her the shirt that is only reserved for her. This symbolic moment of wearing something that belongs to him, it’s as though sleeping next to him wasn’t enough, and Fitz too has removed the physical barriers (his shirt) leaving himself open to Olivia so that she knows the sincerity of his heart and his truth. 

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The moment was simple but it was every bit meaningful. You see, I’m happy they didn’t dive into Olivia and Fitz’s reunion because it’s not really one just yet. They have much to talk about, and Olivia has yet to find herself in the amidst of chaos but these brief moments with Fitz have changed Olivia and no one can see it clearer than Rowan.

After waking up to Fitz, Olivia putt on her same clothes but just placed her hair up to see good ole ‘dad’, but it appears to be the next day as evidenced by the breakfast platter scattered throughout the small room. Olivia spent all day and night with Fitz even though the world was crumbling down around them. Immediately Fitz comes into the bunker where Rowan sighs heavily annoyed at Fitz’s presences and Fitz picks up on that moment, and makes sure to kiss Olivia with Rowan watching them. 

Fitz was flexing his muscle but it’s more than just a petty moment. It was a obvious and intentional FU to Rowan. You see, Rowan has made it his life mission to destroy the possibility of Olivia and Fitz. He has purposely moved himself to be in the center of the relationship and he has been successful but every time Rowan thinks they are done, Fitz comes back and so does his influence over Olivia. Kissing Olivia was an obvious point that he is around and this time he’s not going anywhere.

In 4x08, Olivia rejected Fitz touching her or kissing her because she was worried about being disloyal to Jake for wanting Fitz, but we know Olivia couldn’t resist the moment to have Fitz to herself and she kissed him with wild ambition. The fact that Olivia let Fitz kiss her in front of her father, knowing that he despises Fitz and remembering what Fitz told him (the way she taste  ), shows growth and accepts from Olivia’s part. She once used to deny Fitz’s touch in fear but while she was surprised by the action she did not refute but kissed him back much to Rowan’s disgust.  Anybody watching knows that Rowan will retaliate and punish Olivia for choosing ‘him’. I loved this scene yet I hated it for so many reasons. Rowan is visibly shaking his head with disapproval and such venom in his eyes and it’s all directed at Olivia because she didn’t obey, because for one second she decided to do something for herself without worrying about the consequences. Rowan brings Paris and Zanzibar as a obvious dig at Olivia and her past with her mom and the island where Rowan placed Olivia after he had FItz’s son killed. Rowan is a despicable person. Fitz decided to make it clear to Rowan that he is still a prisoner though he is able to walk, but throughout this moment it needs to be noted that the only one in control was Olivia. Olivia was also flexing her muscle when Rowan tried to leave and the guards blocked his exit, but every time Olivia opened her mouth to speak, Rowan would cut her off yet Fitz never did. The difference between a man who loves and values her versus a man who feels ownership and possession. Olivia already said that between her father and Fitz, that Fitz would lose but now i’m wonderfully if she still believes this to be true. 

  After meeting Peus for the first time, he makes it clear that Jake is no longer a suitable candidate as vice president , but my question though is when has he ever been? Olivia and Jake are at her apartment and it’s dark in the room quite a contrast is it not. Jake begins talking about how they can get through this, and frequently uses ‘we’ when talking about the future of them teaming up and taking down Peus especially ‘this being their chance’ since Rowan is gone. Olivia never said a word when Jake was talking up until she mentioned Rowan not being gone, and guess what he’s not. Rowan’s influence over Olivia is still heavily embedded in her DNA and it is something Olivia must deal with soon. When Olivia told Jake in so many words that Fitz has Rowan, he immediately started laughing at the actions and Olivia just mumbled that they would get through this while nursing her glass of wine and Jake taking a sip of his beer. Olivia and Jake are drinking their respective drink preference but let’s not forget that Olivia has openly disdained the taste of beer yet we have seen numerous times Olivia sipping scotch and to add this moment we find out later on that Fitz built a wine cellar in the White House filled with the most luxurious wines known to man and we all know who the wine cellar was really for. *deep breathes* *don’t cry* With Jake laughing at Fitz having Rowan emprisioned, you can see Olivia’s awkwardness regarding that topic all together. Olivia wasn’t going to bring up Fitz and she shouldn’t have to, what Olivia does in her personal life should be her business not every Tom, Dick, and harry’s.

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Chile, this is going to be bad. Olivia’s sister brother going to cry and shame her and we already know Rowan is in the bunker practicing his monologue that doesn’t make sense so let’s just skip to the good part and forgo any huckleberry charlie quinn because I could take less of them on my screen, but how cute of Quinn to pick Charlie, maybe Olivia too will make her decision once in for all.

Olivia managed to pull off a fake bomb threat and clear Mellie from real bitch. DAMN. This moment when everyone is around and working to fix the situation is amazing. This is scandal at it’s best all the players circling around trying to find a solution to their problems, smells like defiance all over again, which Marcus doesn’t know anything about…meanwhile why is Marcus actually there?  Olivia brings Rowan to help and the minute he set foot in the residence his eyes land on Fitz and never left. Rowan wants to humiliate Fitz by making him beg for his help which is futile because he’s worse off then any of the others but Fitz swallows his pride and asked for help all while looking at Olivia. This is not a moment of weakness though Rowan was trying to prove it to be so, Fitz is man enough to swallow his pride for the sake of others something Rowan is not capable of doing. 

So Rowan just came up there with the sole intention of shaming and demeaning   Olivia and Fitz. Mellie is crying about how her and Olivia should have never ran for office of course placing the blame on Olivia as if she doesn’t have enough guilt, but Cyrus cuts her off and was like yo ole betty crocker ass was just for it a minute ago when Olivia advised you not too. Everyone is talking over one another but every time Jake speaks up he is automatically voiced out because he has no voice, but it isn’t until Fitz commands everyone to stop that Rowan brings up everyone in the room as being ‘worthless’ including his daughter but not him because he is the king of all kings. Rowan’s patriarchal bull shit is for the birds. Rowan is the coward trying to run but it’s really about how powerless Rowan truly feels that causes him to attack the one person truly showing his power and worth.

This mofo still believes he is running something when his ass is literally confined to a freaking room, attempting to run away like a coward because he is “smart prey”

Rowan’s problem is that Fitz is physical and emotional threat to the hold he has over Olivia, and the power he once had like Cyrus said. Rowan ruled the underworld and now Fitz is ruling the upper world and has him a prisoner without his dinosaurs. Jake, Russel, they were all appendages of Rowan used to seek and control Olivia in the one place he can’t. Rowan has brought men in Olivia’s life as means of seeking to rule every aspect of her life even one as personal as her sexual life. But it’s not about sex. In a matter of minutes Rowan was capable of diminishing  Fitz’s unselfish act of love by reducing it to a ‘wrinkled dollar bill.’

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Fitz saved Rowan’s life because Olivia’s life is worth more than anything else this world could possess, what Fitz did was an unselfish act of love. Fitz just witnessed Olivia’s willingness to sacrifice herself for Rowan and this is how he shows his appreciation to his daughter, by reducing her to a whore, a stripper who is selling her body to the highest bidder. As Fitz is yelling at Rowan that Olivia begged him to spare his life, Olivia’s eyes fall on Rowan and you can see this longing to be appreciated by her father, but he will never appreciate her because he doesn’t respect Olivia. Which Fitz calls Rowan out on by demanding that he shows his daughter some damn respect.

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Let’s us go back to the start shall we? Olivia was going to go to jail for her father for many stupid reasons but Olivia loves him that much that his worthless miserable life is worth more than hers but Fitz, only Fitz stopped Olivia from making the worst mistake of her life. And it was only Fitz who stood up for Olivia when her father shamed her once again for sleeping with Fitz and this wasn’t just them by themselves but in a room filled with all of her peers and coworkers; THAT is how much RESPECT Rowan has for Olivia and guess what, it was only Fitz that had enough of this verbal abuse. I am so tired of everyone shaming Olivia for loving who she loves, regardless of Fitz being married or single no one will ever approve of their coupling just like the AU. When Rowan told the room that Fitz chose to spare him as a way of getting into Olivia’s bed once again, no one was upset about how their personal relationship was once again outed, but all they cared about was themselves. The camera pans on Mellie who looks confused and slightly hurt and of course Choke who looks at Olivia with his judgmental stare, as though he is just now putting the pieces of the puzzle together. As a finale dig Rowan once again refers to Fitz as his father Big Jerry throwing cash at a stripper. Everyone is upset and Olivia calls for a five minute break to regroup but as everyone scatters to take their leave, Jake and Mellie stay as Fitz moves to comfort Olivia who now denies his affection. At first I was put off with Olivia but it is obvious to see that much has happened in a short period of time and to add to the chaos, her entanglement with Fitz has been risen without them actually having a moment to figure out what it all means. Rowan will never approve of Fitz because he is someone that he is unable to control, Fitz is reminder of the power he has just lost, this has nothing to do with love and I hope and pray that Olivia sees this for what it is. No matter how much she loves him and wants him to love her back, Rowan will never approve unless she obeys every command he makes. I need Olivia to open her eyes and remove the blinders that is her father, he is not weak, or old but still the same ruthless monster he’s always been. Again Rowan had a moment of happiness with Sandra but for some reason whenever Olivia chose Fitz she is weak, stupid, a whore. I’m so tired of Rowan and Jake projecting their thoughts onto Olivia as a means of being ‘honest.’

Thank you Shonda, for the beautiful juxtaposition between Fitz and Jake. After Olivia shrugged him off understandably  after the horrifying moment, Fitz shares a drink with David who wonders why he just can’t find a nice women who likes cooking and being supportive, not a domestic terrorist, but Fitz chides David and reminds him that it was those women who made him into the man he is today, he wouldn’t be the Attorney General if it wasn’t for those women just like he wouldn’t be the President. Let us take this moment to appreciate what Fitz is saying, he was just shamed and humiliated in front of everyone for loving Olivia Pope and instead of being angry at the storm heading his way, Fitz is talking it up with ease about how a strong women makes you work for them, i.e. Olivia Pope. Fitz begins to tell David about the ‘headband’ women who are cookie cutter perfect, who likes going to parties and pretending to be happy about being in the shadows but all Fitz wants to do is tell these ladies is to wake up and find themselves. Something Olivia is trying to do right now.

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Fitz tried to turn Olivia into a ‘headband’ gang in 5x09 but he’s since then worked on himself. He’s not trying to turn or make Olivia into something she’s not (i.e Rowan, Jake) Fitz is completely and totally supportive of all of Olivia’s endeavors. Fitz wants Olivia to go out there and find that speckled dream of her’s, whereas Jake wants Olivia to live with him at his craigslist shack and settle on being mediocre or normal as though Olivia Pope is a normal person to begin with. Rowan on the other hand is threatened by Olivia’s power and influence so much that he has to demean her in order to be powerful, yet Fitz is a man completely in touch with his masculinity that he is not threatened by the hell that Olivia will bring but welcomes it. The gentle smile on Fitz’s face as he tells David ‘If she loves you, she can be any tornado she wants.’  Fitz isn’t worried about Olivia loving him, he seems confident and assured that Olivia is in fact still in love with him, he’s not pinning or whining to Olivia for denying his affection unlike Jake, but he’s assured and welcomes the chaos  Olivia will bring to his door step because that’s his tornado and if it helps her conquer what she needs to then he will clear the land just so she can twirl through it. This man is everything and I can’t seem to describe this beautiful specimen enough. 

Excuse me.

While we have Fitz appreciating and valuing Olivia’s worth, we also have jake sulking in a chair, and out of all that happened in that room earlier all he wants to know is when did Olivia and Fitz start sleeping together.

If this boy don’t stop this damn foolishness. Instead of asking how Olivia is doing after being humiliated by Rowan like a normal person would he decides to add to Olivia’s shame by asking Olivia if all of this is because of Fitz, Olivia stumbles on the question and Jake seeing that moment decides to twist the knife even further by telling Olivia she is crazy for doing the same thing over again when she knows how it’s going to end. 

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Let me tell you something about learning my friends. How can you expect to change if you don’t do it over again? How can you say you have learned if the action is not repeated, so screw you Jake. The reason why Rowan approved of Jake is because Jake is an extension of him, knowing just the right words to hurt Olivia and shame her for doing something outside of the book of Rowan. Jake tells Olivia that he isn’t the answer, very clearly alluding to Fitz not being the one to save and fix Olivia. But Jake’s jealously and pettiness is really disgusting because he’s shaming Olivia for picking Fitz instead of picking him like he’s been wanting her to do for the past four years.

Jake has been using this same tactic, never learning, and never changing. Fitz isn’t the answer to Olivia’s problem but you are. Right Jake? Out of all that has happened you are still sitting there and telling Olivia that she doesn’t belong here, and that she should look elsewhere more importantly at him to fix her. 1) Fitz is literally packing them bags to leave the White House so i’m not sure why Jake is bringing Fitz up as in the White House when this has nothing to do with Fitz and everything to do with what Olivia does for him. This false pretense of being concerned for Olivia is utter bullshit because he kept his mouth shut throughout  Rowan’s dicklogue. Jake is so transparent with his disdain for Olivia sleeping with Fitz that Olivia is quick to read Jake for filth once again, reminding him of why he is a poor substitute for Fitzgerald Grant; he’s weak, pathetic, and needy.

How many times does Olivia have to tell you that she doesn’t want you. I thought she made herself clear in 5x18 but she had to remind you once again of why you two would never work out. Jake is married, yet he has found it appropriate to shame Olivia for sleeping with Fitz who is single. Why do these men feel it is their business to know who and what Olivia is doing? Fitz is single and divorced and still Olivia is being belittled and demeaned but if Olivia was sleeping with Jake then it would be okay. 

Jake at his shack waiting for Olivia.


Rowan and Jake only care about what Olivia does and gives to them not how they make her feel. Like father like son. But let us clap for Olivia telling Jake that she doesn’t have time to coddle whatever he is feeling because right now there are more important things to do then pacify Jake and stroke his bruised ego. For instance their is a man who is single handedly trying to take over the country and control Mellie like the puppet she is. So yes, Olivia check his ass.

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Olivia is handling this situation and while she did go back to command in the end with the bad ass comment about not taking Olivia Pope it was effective and beneficial as Mellie called Luna Vargas her VP which is shocking to say the least and highly unpredictable but effective to gain support after Cyrus finally rejected the White House after having a moment with Teddy Roosevelt’s portrait. But Olivia and Abby teaming up and look at Real Bitch and deciding what to do with her is amazing but rest assure that Peus will be coming for them.

I just don’t know what to do with myself with scandal. My wig is scalped, my edges are gone, my throat is hoarse, and my loins are ovulating. Scandal is not letting down but just getting better and better each episode which only reminds me that we are close to being done with season. Which will make me have a panic attack.  This episode was infuriating and as evidence by the promo for next week we are continuing were we left off. 

Grab your seatbelt kids cause it’s going to be a bumpy ride.

Until Next Time, Muse.

When you are 13 years old,
the heat will be turned up too high
and the stars will not be in your favor.
You will hide behind a bookcase
with your family and everything left behind.
You will pour an ocean into a diary.
When they find you, you will be nothing
but a spark above a burning bush,
still, tell them
Despite everything, I really believe people are good at heart.

When you are 14,
a voice will call you to greatness.
When the doubters call you crazy, do not listen.
They don’t know the sound
of their own God’s whisper. Use your armor,
use your sword, use your two good hands.
Do not let their doubting
drown out the sound of your own heartbeat.
You are the Maid of Untamed Patriotism.
Born to lead armies into victory and unite a nation
like a broken heart.

When you are 15, you will be punished
for learning too proudly. A man
will climb onto your school bus and insist
your sisters name you enemy.
When you do not hide,
he will point his gun at your temple
and fire three times. Three years later,
in an ocean of words, with no apologies,
you will stand before the leaders of the world
and tell them your country is burning.

When you are 16 years old,
you will invent science fiction.
The story of a man named Frankenstein
and his creation. Soon after you will learn
that little girls with big ideas are more terrifying
than monsters, but don’t worry.
You will be remembered long after
they have put down their torches.

When you are 17 years old,
you will strike out Babe Ruth and Lou Gehrig
one right after the other.
Men will be afraid of the lightening
in your fingertips. A few days later
you will be fired from the major leagues
because “Girls are too delicate to play baseball”

You will turn 18 with a baby on your back
leading Lewis and Clark
across North America.

You will turn 18
and become queen of the Nile.

You will turn 18
and bring justice to journalism.

You are now 18, standing on the precipice,
trembling before your own greatness.

This is your call to leap.

There will always being those
who say you are too young and delicate
to make anything happen for yourself.
They don’t see the part of you that smolders.
Don’t let their doubting drown out the sound
of your own heartbeat.

You are the first drop of a hurricane.
Your bravery builds beyond you. You are needed
by all the little girls still living in secret,
writing oceans made of monsters and
throwing like lightening.

You don’t need to grow up to find greatness.
You are stronger than the world has ever believed you to be.
The world laid out before you to set on fire.
All you have to do
is burn.

  • fluttering in your veins
  • like kisses in the rain, your brain
  • a thousand swarming bees in the black-and-yellow night as you fall among the wildflowers
  • but she's gone and she took the flowers with her; he's screaming, screaming for solace with no one to comfort him but a boy he can't even see,
  • and the dreaming boy is there, holding hands with the boy who stole his heart and kept it in a jar and he smells like lizard brains pickling in the basement with a bark as strong as
  • her bite, a princess in pink with golden ringlets, curls with rows and rows upon rows of teeth so strong and you trail up above the
  • clouds, a girl she's floating high, held back by the rope only the strongest can hold we love
  • our girl, muddy feet, she is the strongest, dependable, lost her brother and still smiles with all her heart
  • a heart so strong just like our love but burning with passion and when she loves she burns your insides and expects everything you have in return;
  • can you feel it? your name is Jacob. you are sixteen years old and live in Florida in 2016 and you have fallen in love with a beauty named 1940 and she is a bird, she is someone and something and everything you have to protect and 'we miss you, Jacob' is not an option at this point. because you are the only one who can see them, because you love them and they love you and you have become those flowers, those bees, you are their strength and will to succeed, you are their fire and flames and teeth and frills and their sky high ambitions so wild you dream of them every night and even when you feel like your heart is going to burst he is there to read to you, to talk to you with an invisible hand on your shoulder, on your chest, combing through your hair so soft and cupping your cheek tilting your chin-
  • they are beautiful and she is a bird you have loved so dearly since he beginning of your life, years before you were born when your grandfather first felt the waves recede and sprinted up the pebbles (it is not Poland but it is good enough) and he felt the warm embrace of
  • home.
‘Girlboss’ Star Britt Robertson on Playing Sophia Amoruso: ‘She’s Dumb and She’s Smart, She’s Driven and She’s Lazy’
Britt Robertson as Sophia in ‘Girlboss’ (Photo: Netflix)

It wasn’t easy finding the right girl boss to play the title character of the new Netflix series, Girlboss. “We saw hundreds of women,” creator Kay Cannon reveals to Yahoo TV. “I knew the show lived or died by who was cast in that role.” After all, the chosen actress has the difficult task of stepping into the vintage wardrobe worn by Sophia Amoruso, a struggling San Francisco resident who parlayed her thrifty thrift store purchases into a burgeoning eBay empire and, later, the successfully fashion label, Nasty Gal. “I was trying to find someone who could capture the real Sophia,” Cannon says. “Which is to say, beautiful, but also an actress with a lot of depth, who can also be funny and look great in clothes. That was really important because when you meet Sophia, you’re like ‘You look amazing in everything you wear!’ She’s got this great sense of style.”

Cannon eventually found her leading lady in the form of Tomorrowland star Britt Robertson. But the actress’s style was lacking when she initially auditioned for the part. “When she first auditioned, she had a real girl next door quality,” Cannon remembers. “We had her come in again, and told her to rock it up a little bit. And that time, when she left the room I was like, ‘She’s it. She’s everything we want for that character.”

Robertson herself is equally taken with Girlboss‘s boss. “Kay’s point of view is really fascinating; I love the way she sees the world,” the 27-year-old actress remarks in a separate interview. “She has such a fun-loving nature, and would always have this rule of allowing me to get in a ‘fun run’ on every scene, where I could say anything or do anything. That was a huge help, especially in the beginning when I was trying to get comfortable with the character.” We spoke with Robertson about playing a real-world fashion icon, and her own eBay experiences.

How aware were you of Sophia’s story, or Nasty Gal, before you signed on to the series?
I had never even heard of Nasty Gal or Sophia; I looked up a few things before I went to the audition, but I mainly prepared by reading the script. Once I got the role I did a lot of research: I watched her interviews, I went to her store, I spent time with her, I read her book, all of that stuff.

In the time you spent with her, is there one element of her personality you knew you most wanted to capture in your own performance?
I knew it was important to figure out what it was about her that made her so successful. When I got to know her, I realized that it’s her passion and her drive, her ability to cut any corner and to push past any sort of barrier in order to get the things that she wanted and felt passionate about. That could be her greatest flaw in some moments, but it’s also her most wonderful trait as well. She’s dumb and she’s smart, she’s driven and she’s lazy. She’s a big, fat contradiction most of the time.

The show is almost structured like a superhero origin story. We watch as she figures out her own identity over the course of the season.
Exactly, and I think that was the most exciting part for Kay, being able to show the rags to riches portion of Sophia’s story. She talks a lot about that in her book: how she jumped into dumpsters for bagels, and wasn’t able to fix a leak in her wall. All of those things are very true to what she was experiencing at that time, when she became, essentially, successful overnight. I think that’s what makes her more relatable — being able to see how messed up she was, and how much she really pulled it together. In the first season you’ll experience her first two years of Nasty Gal: You’ll see her rise to the top on eBay, until she’s ultimately kicked off of eBay and starts her own site. That all takes place from 2006 to 2008, and by the end of this season you get to see the launch of Nasty Gal.

The real Sophia Amoruso attends the ‘Girlboss’ premiere (Photo by Jordan Strauss/Invision/AP)

It’s funny — 2006 isn’t so long ago, but it feels like a whole different world, one without smartphones and social media.
Yeah, the show really does feel like a period piece in so many ways. People used MySpace rather than Facebook, and while [social media] was a way of communicating with people, it was used more as a business model. I think it’s interesting to see how far we’ve jumped just in that short amount of time.

Do you remember when you first bought something off of eBay?
My mom was really big into eBay! [Laughs.] I didn’t use eBay myself; I was just young enough to not have an account or anything. But my mom was super into it. She had a little section in this antique shop in South Carolina, and she would buy all of these vintage clothes. They would be like tapestry almost, hand-sewn. She had the most uninteresting portion of that antique shop to me, but it’s what she loved. So I remember eBay was a really big thing in our household for a long time.

Britt Robertson as Sophia in ‘Girlboss’ (Photo: Netflix)

Girlboss uses San Francisco very well. Was it fun to get to know that city through the show?
We spent two or three weeks there, just exclusively doing exteriors. There’s one episode where we go on a tour of San Francisco, so Sophia can be inspired by the city. It’s changed so much in the last 10 years as well, with the rise of the technology companies. That whole part of San Francisco has been taken over. The real Sofia speaks to that a lot now; she says that she doesn’t even recognize the city. I think it was important for to present the city as she remembers it. It’s probably very nostalgic for her.

The first scene of the series finds Sophia stuck on one of the city’s famous hilly streets where her car stalls out just as a trolley is approaching. It’s a fun way to begin the show. What do you remember about shooting that particular sequence?
That was funny scene actually, because the day before shooting it, I had torn my groin muscle! I had to run the length of the Golden Gate Bridge [for another scene] a couple of days before that, and I’m really out of shape, so I tore something. Then, for another scene, I had to run down a hill in ginormous heels, and all of a sudden I felt this gnarly sharp pain. We had to wrap filming that day a little bit early. So it was a big deal: How was I going to shoot this scene where I had to literally be pushing a car up a hill? And we were only going to have one day to film it because they had to shut down the street and bring in a trolley.

Robertson’s Golden Gate Bridge run in ‘Girlboss’ (Photo: Netflix)

I rested the day before, and then while we were shooting, I had all this tape holding me together. The grips did a lot of the heavy lifting: I wasn’t pushing the car most of the time, although sometimes I did. It’s such a cool shot, and a great way to start the show. It gives you an essence of how this woman is. I remember that, towards the end, we had one shot left where I had to push the car, and I just felt this sharp pain go through my body. I broke out into tears and collapsed. I felt like such a loser: I couldn’t sustain just that one last shot! But, we got it and it looks good, so I’m happy with it.

Robertson pushing her broken-down car in ‘Girlboss’ (Photo: Netflix)

RuPaul and Norm McDonald have supporting roles on the show as Sophia’s neighbor and boss, respectively. What was it like to work with them?
So fun! I love RuPaul. He’s such a sweetheart, and just the coolest dude. There are so many genuine moments in the show where he’s legitimately cracking me up. He had a tough time learning the lines, but he didn’t even need to because he’s just that good. He could say anything, and it would be funny. We had so many cool people on the show. Ru’s there, Norm’s there. In between takes, Ru would be doing dirty charades for everyone, and Norm would be putting on a stand-up routine. It was really fun just to have those guys around, and watching them enjoy themselves as much as we were enjoying them.

RuPaul as Sophia’s neighbor and Britt Robertson as Sophia in ‘Girlboss’ (Photo: Netflix)

Charlize Theron is an executive producer on the series. Was she on set often?
She was super involved, especially early on. Once we got going, she was really sweet and let me do my thing. That would have been crazy stressful if she was there everyday. I would have been like, “Britt, I think you kinda suck today.” [Laughs.] Early on, she was at every single one of my rehearsals and had a lot of notes. She really helped guide me to find the fictional Sophia, who was tricky to capture. This isn’t an autobiography, but there were things I wanted to bring to life that were important.

Britt Robertson and Charlize Theron at Netflix’s ‘Girlboss’ premiere after party (Photo: Eric Charbonneau/Invision for Netflix/AP Images)

What do you hope viewers take away from Girlboss?
I hope they’ll get a fresh take on what it’s like to be a human being. What’s special about Sophia’s story is that she was unsuccessful at a lot of things in life. She was not thriving in school, and she couldn’t get or keep a job. She had a lot of great qualities, but she sucked a lot. And she didn’t care — she dared to suck! I think that was a big lesson I learned, not to be afraid of failure. We try to be the best at what we do, being the best isn’t always the most important thing. It’s about trying and not feeling defeated when things don’t come naturally.

Girlboss premieres Friday, April 21 on Netflix.

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Here are the official Lyrics and tracklist of crack up by Fleet foxes exclusively 

After a six-year break during which frontman Robin Pecknold vanished to the Washington woods then reappeared as a college student in New York, Fleet Foxes return with a fresh sense of purpose. Expanding on the harmony-driven sound of their first two albums, Crack-Up boasts both pretty, straightforward folk tunes (“Naiads, Cassadies,” “Fool’s Errand”) and sprawling, suite-like explorations (“Third of May / Odaigahara,” “I Am All That I Need / Arroyo Seco / Thumbprint Scar”) that are at once comforting and quietly avant-garde. It’s a balance that allows the band’s natural sweetness—and wild ambition—to shine.

Review coming tonight 

There will always being those
who say you are too young and delicate
to make anything happen for yourself.
They don’t see the part of you that smolders.
Don’t let their doubting drown out the sound
of your own heartbeat.
—  Clementine von Radics, For Teenage Girls With Wild Ambition and Trembling Hearts (spoken word performance)
try maximizing your potential

I am a female millennial studying political science at a seemingly very liberal institution. The ideals of feminism are so carelessly debated through the workings of my own life that my perception of what it means to truly be a feminist has become skewed and distorted. I struggle with the definition of feminism and what it looks like in practice.

The Women’s March on Washington, and the similar marches around the world, that occurred last Friday left me in complete perplexity. I am still perplexed. I can’t seem to deduce from their protests what they are truly fighting for. I was even more dumbfounded when I discovered a woman’s group in Washington advocating for their pro-life position was removed from a list of the March’s supporters. Apparently, you are only free to voice your opinion if it is the right opinion. Here again we see the hypocrisy of the left. The left praises diversity in race, gender, sexuality, but denounces diversity of opinion.    

There are those who love to tell me that as a Conservative I cannot also identify as a feminist. After what played out last Friday, I’m not sure I’m too upset by this statement.

I do not like the modern day form of feminism. I do not like this general perception of victimhood based on gender. I do not like the excuses, the complaints, the invalidated judgments. If you’re a modern day feminist apparently you have to be pro-choice.  Apparently clothes are optional, and “free the nipple” is a statement of feminine empowerment. Men are seemingly the enemy, and to protest this would make you the likes of a traitor, maybe even a misogynist. Those who choose motherhood over a career are suddenly labeled regressive. Those who choose careless sexual exploration and then documentation are exalted.

This should not be feminism. These women should not be labeled true feminists.

You know who is a real feminist? My father. My father the conservative, my father the realist, my father the traditionalist, he is a feminist.

My father, the man who pushed me to be better than my male counterparts, and who truly believed I could be better than my male counterparts, he is a feminist. My father, the man who expected me to excel in academics and accepted nothing less, now he is a feminist. My father, the man who supported my wild professional ambitions, he is a feminist. My father, the man who refused to allow me to be defined by my gender and by societal stereotypes, he is a feminist. My father, the man who worked his entire life alongside my mother to provide greater opportunities for his two daughters, he is a feminist.

When did feminism become about wildly exposing one’s body, instead of maximizing one’s potential through education, athletics, or the arts? When did feminism become an attack on society, instead of a practice of nourishment and growth for young women? When did women stop believing they were enough, and instead begin pointing the finger of blame at those who they presume to be the chosen successful ones?

Feminism must be better than this is if it is to survive. Women must be better than this if they wish to be successful. To the women who spent their Friday out protesting, I ask of you this. Go to work, go to school, better yourself through the acquirement of knowledge. Make yourself an asset in the workplace. Work to become the best version of you. This is how we as a gender progress. This is how humanity progresses. This is how we as a gender make strides in the size of our income. This is how we as a gender earn respect. Standing in the road on a Friday with a vulgar sign, that displays vulgar language, accomplishes none of this, and it might even in fact, regress your beloved feminist effort.

anonymous asked:

any favourite poems?

For Teenage Girls With Wild Ambition and Trembling Hearts

by Clementine von Radics

When you are 13 years old,
the heat will be turned up too high
and the stars will not be in your favor.
You will hide behind a bookcase
with your family and everything left behind.
You will pour an ocean into a diary.
When they find you, you will be nothing
but a spark above a burning bush,
still, tell them
Despite everything, I really believe people are good at heart.

When you are 14,
a voice will call you to greatness.
When the doubters call you crazy, do not listen.
They don’t know the sound
of their own God’s whisper. Use your armor,
use your sword, use your two good hands.
Do not let their doubting
drown out the sound of your own heartbeat.
You are the Maid of Untamed Patriotism.
Born to lead armies into victory and unite a nation
like a broken heart.

When you are 15, you will be punished
for learning too proudly. A man
will climb onto your school bus and insist
your sisters name you enemy.
When you do not hide,
he will point his gun at your temple
and fire three times. Three years later,
in an ocean of words, with no apologies,
you will stand before the leaders of the world
and tell them your country is burning.

When you are 16 years old,
you will invent science fiction.
The story of a man named Frankenstein
and his creation. Soon after you will learn
that little girls with big ideas are more terrifying
than monsters, but don’t worry.
You will be remembered long after
they have put down their torches.

When you are 17 years old,
you will strike out Babe Ruth and Lou Gehrig
one right after the other.
Men will be afraid of the lightening
in your fingertips. A few days later
you will be fired from the major leagues
because “Girls are too delicate to play baseball”

You will turn 18 with a baby on your back
leading Lewis and Clark
across North America.

You will turn 18
and become queen of the Nile.

You will turn 18
and bring justice to journalism.

You are now 18, standing on the precipice,
trembling before your own greatness.

This is your call to leap.

There will always being those
who say you are too young and delicate
to make anything happen for yourself.
They don’t see the part of you that smolders.
Don’t let their doubting drown out the sound
of your own heartbeat.

You are the first drop of a hurricane.
Your bravery builds beyond you. You are needed
by all the little girls still living in secret,
writing oceans made of monsters and
throwing like lightening.

You don’t need to grow up to find greatness.
You are stronger than the world has ever believed you to be.
The world laid out before you to set on fire.
All you have to do
is burn.

signs as oscar wilde quotes
  • Aries: "Our ambition should be to rule ourselves, the true kingdom for each one of us; and true progress is to know more, and be more, and to do more"
  • Taurus: "Always forgive your enemies; nothing annoys them as much"
  • Gemini: "The suspense is terrible. I hope it will last"
  • Cancer: "Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead"
  • Leo: "To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all"
  • Virgo: "I have the simplest tastes. I am always satisfied with the best"
  • Libra: "Be yourself; everyone else is already taken"
  • Scorpio: "Never love anyone who treats you like you're ordinary"
  • Sagittarius: "Never love someone for their looks, or their clothes, or their fancy car, but because they sing a song only you can hear"
  • Capricorn: "The world is a stage and the play is badly cast"
  • Aquarius: "I am so clever sometimes I don't understand a single word of what I am saying"
  • Pisces: "With freedom, books, flowers, and the moon, who could not be happy?"
She was a wild combination of absolute ambition and bad fortune, an exotic mixture of an unyielding determination with a history of utter disappointments.
she makes you wonder how she could contain so many contradictions yet still be so sure, how she could tell the saddest story yet while doing so make you laugh so hard you no longer feel your jaw, how she could be so scarred yet be so beautiful, impossibly beautiful.
You see the chemistry of people is quite very similar to the chemistry of elements, some of these when put together mix and become one while others just don’t. As for me, I guess I got completely dissolved in her, to the last bit of my soul.
—  @h.h.tss