Postcard from EE
In October of 2009, Elizabeth Ellen wrote one of the best postcards to Wigleaf I’ve ever read. Have you read it? No? Okay. Here it is.
Do you ever get so lonely that you feel like you’re the only person alive on earth but one day you look across the river and see another person standing there and for a second you’re elated because you’re not alone after all but then that person makes it clear they’re never going to cross the river to you and in addition, they’ll be angry with you if you try to cross the river to them, so every day your heart aches more and more with loneliness and you sit on the bank of the river and think about crossing it but don’t because being rejected by the only other person alive on earth would be more than you could handle and so you sit and remain within your loneliness staring at the river and you try not to stare at the person on the other side of it but when the other person’s not looking sometimes you do because in addition to being the only other person alive on earth they are also the most beautiful person you have ever seen and you don’t just think this because they’re the only other person alive on earth, you are sure you would think this even if there were millions of other people still alive on earth, and one day you can’t bear your loneliness anymore and you put one toe in the river and the next day you put your foot in and the day after that you’re up to your ankle and slowly, day by day, you go a bit deeper until one day you’re neck deep and treading water toward the other side and thinking the whole time, “Please accept me, please accept me,” and half of you is hoping you’ll drown before you make it to the other side and the other half is hoping that the person on the other side was bluffing about being angry with you if you crossed the river to them but you keep going and keep thinking, “Please accept me, please accept me,” because now the pain of your loneliness outweighs the pain that would follow being rejected by the only other person alive on earth?