why

Septiceye Sam Lamp

Okay so we have these old eyeball lamp Halloween decoration thingies.

And this one got kinda beat up so my mom went to throw it away but then I thought “hey I can totally paint over this and make a Jacksepticeye decoration!“

So I took it and painted over it like a boss:

And it came out pretty good! It’s not perfect, but it looks pretty legit from these angles.

The paint I used was pretty thin, so you can see some of the veins that were there before, which I thought was pretty convenient.

But THEN I was digging around my junk and found THIS:

This tiny little flashlight, which is smaller than my pinky, was something I got a few years ago.

This sucker has a green light, so it doesn’t disturb animals. So of course I turned it on, and put it inside the eye to see how it would look.

And it looks pretty cool! It brings out some lighter shades in the iris. It’s kinda messy in some areas, but I personally like it.

Now I wonder what it will look like when I-

OH MY GOD WHAT THE FROG

THIS IS LEGIT TERRIFYING WHAT

GUYS I THINK I MADE AN ANTISEPTICEYE LAMP

ANTISEPTICEYE IN DISGUISE, EVERYBODY

But, Why?

I’m getting more into understand why things are the way they are, instead of plowing through to the getting on with the job. It’s a change for me, but I think it’s necessary for my healing process. Understanding and accepting is a step in getting on with the job that I’ve always been stubborn and ignored as not doing enough. Hahaha look where that got me.

Since my brain doesn’t seem to want to rock spreads right now, what we’ve got here is the Why technique. 

Shuffle like you mean it while concentrating on the issue you need more in depth insight on.

Asking why? on your issue, draw a card. Note down your answer. 

Then ask why? on the answer, then draw a card. Note down that answer.

Lather, rinse, repeat until you feel uncomfortable. This isn’t so much an intuition thing as it is an emotional awareness thing. I would feel this discomfort in my chest and my shoulders. Go until your spot starts to contract and feel yucky. That is the answer you have to spend time with. 

It’s time to journal your heart out, cry a bit, then drink a tall glass of water before passing out to the Gilmore Girls (the original series, wth was up with the reunion ending??)