I’m having a really hard time staying alive right now I don’t know why it’s just everything around me seems so difficult and I can’t handle it but I should be able to do so and I hate that I hate myself for that, just go to the fucking work, just go to uni, why is it so hard, why can’t you handle it and my mind is just constantly screaming at me and I don’t know what to do I’m drowning and suffocating and I feel so lost and alone even though I know I’m not I just want to die please let me die already
Ahhhh, you had to go right for the most difficult question! ^^;
Okay, so I usually list about 5 books in answer to this question: Anne of Green Gables by LM Montgomery, Persuasion and Pride and Prejudice, both by Jane Austen, Possession by AS Byatt, and Gaudy Night by Dorothy L Sayers. Sometimes I throw A Little Princess by Frances Hodgson Burnett onto that list too.
But if you twist my arm and force me to pick just one, I’ll have to go with Anne of Green Gables. I really can’t exaggerate the impact that book (along with other books in the series) has had on my life. I was a lonely and very imaginative girl when I first met Anne Shirley, and I saw myself reflected in her. She helped me understand my need to tell stories and escape into other worlds. She made it okay to be a little different, to be a little out of sync with the people around me who live their lives firmly grounded in reality. She is my favorite fictional character, and I suspect she always will be.
Twitter commissions from few months ago and gifts for friends I think I never really posted anywhere! You might see the sudden slight change in the style - I started working with Photoshop instead of SAI and was mostly trying things out. I still am, but it’s started to feel like I might be finally getting the hang of the program again!
Pre-Reaper Reyes being a good person who cares about his people and is a brother(/possibly father) figure to young Jesse is SO important to me, particularly because it’s pretty damn clear that Blackwatch did all the dirty work Overwatch didn’t want to be associated with. And let me tell you how bored I am by the concept that in order to be willing to get your hands dirty you must be a fundamentally horrible person.
Gabriel Reyes was a good man, given a shit job he didn’t want, running black ops that the UN and Overwatch were too pretty and pristine to be associated with - and he got shit done.
If nothing else, he and Blackwatch at the very least extended a hand to a lost, probably angry seventeen-year-old kid with a talent for killing who would have gone to maximum security and come out a hardened monster and gave him the chance, instead, to be a hero. To do something good and real in the world.
So sure, I guess, make Reyes a monster all you want, I just think that’s boring as hell.