why-is-it-so-difficult

I’m having a really hard time staying alive right now I don’t know why it’s just everything around me seems so difficult and I can’t handle it but I should be able to do so and I hate that I hate myself for that, just go to the fucking work, just go to uni, why is it so hard, why can’t you handle it and my mind is just constantly screaming at me and I don’t know what to do I’m drowning and suffocating and I feel so lost and alone even though I know I’m not I just want to die please let me die already

kibuto  asked:

♦ What’s your absolute favorite book and why?

Ahhhh, you had to go right for the most difficult question! ^^;

Okay, so I usually list about 5 books in answer to this question: Anne of Green Gables by LM Montgomery, Persuasion and Pride and Prejudice, both by Jane Austen, Possession by AS Byatt, and Gaudy Night by Dorothy L Sayers. Sometimes I throw A Little Princess by Frances Hodgson Burnett onto that list too. 

But if you twist my arm and force me to pick just one, I’ll have to go with Anne of Green Gables. I really can’t exaggerate the impact that book (along with other books in the series) has had on my life. I was a lonely and very imaginative girl when I first met Anne Shirley, and I saw myself reflected in her. She helped me understand my need to tell stories and escape into other worlds. She made it  okay to be a little different, to be a little out of sync with the people around me who live their lives firmly grounded in reality. She is my favorite fictional character, and I suspect she always will be.

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Twitter commissions from few months ago and gifts for friends I think I never really posted anywhere! You might see the sudden slight change in the style - I started working with Photoshop instead of SAI and was mostly trying things out. I still am, but it’s started to feel like I might be finally getting the hang of the program again!

Characters belong to their respective owners~

  • steve:you wrote about me
  • bucky:I don't know what you're talking about
  • steve:you pulled me out of the river
  • bucky:idk why I did that
  • steve:you nearly killed tony because he hurt me. you actually roared like an angry pigeon or something
  • bucky:I don't like him
  • steve:you tried to pull me behind the shield when I was covering you with it
  • bucky:I didn't mean to do that
  • steve:you remembered my shoes and the hotdogs but not that girls name
  • bucky:I have memory problems that's all
  • steve:you left our dates because I ran off, didn't even apologize
  • bucky:your date would've wondered where you went, I found you for her
  • steve:you lied and told me you only knew me because of the smithsonian because you wanted to protect me, to make me go
  • bucky:blame the brochure
  • steve:you made me share an apartment with you
  • bucky:I needed someone to do the dishes
  • steve:you kept my picture
  • bucky:memory problems remember?
  • steve:you didn't like it when I kissed sharon, I can tell your fake smile from your real one
  • bucky:you were wasting valuable time
  • steve:you put yourself back into cryo so I'd stop being reckless and not become a criminal just to keep you
  • bucky:I was tired
  • steve:you made a vow, told me you'd be with me until death
  • bucky:idk why I did that
  • steve:you interrupted my moment with peggy because you were jealous
  • bucky:you deserved applause and attention for your bravery
  • steve:you fell from the train because you were protecting me
  • bucky:wasn't my smartest move
  • steve:you gave me heart eyes at the bar in '43
  • bucky:I was drunk
  • steve:we shared money and everything else like...a couple
  • bucky:it was convenient
  • steve:you're in love with me
  • bucky:yes
  • steve:what
  • bucky:what

Pre-Reaper Reyes being a good person who cares about his people and is a brother(/possibly father) figure to young Jesse is SO important to me, particularly because it’s pretty damn clear that Blackwatch did all the dirty work Overwatch didn’t want to be associated with. And let me tell you how bored I am by the concept that in order to be willing to get your hands dirty you must be a fundamentally horrible person.

Gabriel Reyes was a good man, given a shit job he didn’t want, running black ops that the UN and Overwatch were too pretty and pristine to be associated with - and he got shit done.

If nothing else, he and Blackwatch at the very least extended a hand to a lost, probably angry seventeen-year-old kid with a talent for killing who would have gone to maximum security and come out a hardened monster and gave him the chance, instead, to be a hero. To do something good and real in the world.

So sure, I guess, make Reyes a monster all you want, I just think that’s boring as hell.