why-did-i-just-think-of-this

So for the longest time I’ve wanted to know why Calum sang Invisible by himself.

Like what was going on when they were recording the song?? Did they all agree that the song would sound better if Ashton or Calum sang it because they have some pretty soft sounding voices??? Or did Calum decide hey I wanna sing this song by myself??

If he did why?? Is he telling us something? Is that his way of telling us he feels invisible?? Cause if so that’s really sad and it breaks my heart. But it also got me thinking. Does he feel that way cause there are people in this fandom and outside of the fandom that make him feel like that or is it because he doesn’t get the recognition and credit that he deserves?? If that is so, then I wanna take this time to give him some credit.

Calum, you deserve all the credit in the world and I just wanna thank you for being the one to sing Invisible because the song already means a lot to me but the fact that you sing it makes it that much more special to me.

Your bass playing is amazing and while sometimes it can’t be heard in the song it’s still phenomenal. The other night I was listening to Disconnected Removed Vocals and I heard the bass clearly then and I’m truly amazed. You never seem to fail me and always exceed my expectations.

I wanna thank you for still being so quite and shy in interviews. It’s very refreshing because I’m so quite and shy I don’t talk unless I feel like I should say something. So thank you for not changing that about you.

And this one is definitely the most important to me. Thank you for writing my number one favourite song.
Disconnected. Thank you. That song has gotten me through a lot of shit since its release. When I’m mad, sad, upset, happy, lonely, Invisible, unwanted, unloved, when I’m feeling anything that is the song I put on. That is my go to song. And when I hear that song I get the biggest smile on my face and it feels like a weight has been lifted of my chest. So Calum, thank you. Thank you for being you. Thank you for writing songs. Thank you for playing the bass. Thank you for your smile. Thank you for Disconnected. Thank you for everything. Thank you.

anonymous asked:

aww man if youre still looking for prompts, i would love to see the first chapter of if we bite from nursey's point of view? like, what exactly was he thinking when he brought up blowjobs to dex etc? that would be amazing!

DID YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE THIS PROMPT. BC I LOVE THIS PROMPT.

He’s not sure why he says it.

It might be the stress, or the way that studying Shakespeare makes him think about sex more than usual, or the fact that he’s scatterbrained and tired and that makes him lose his filter, but–

“God,” Nursey mumbles, mostly into Dex’s bedspread. “I’m so tense right now. I just need to suck a dick, you know?”

Dex chokes on his Red Bull and starts coughing, bending over his desk. He’s totally red, and Nursey’s not sure if it’s from what he said or the fact that he can’t breathe, but he snickers as he gets up and smacks him on the back a few times. “Jesus, Poindexter,” he laughs. “Chill.”

You chill,” Dex chokes out. “What the shit, man, you can’t just say that.”

Nursey blinks at him, all innocence, just to be a dick. He and Dex are friends now, but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t like riling him up. “Say what?”

Dex rolls his eyes, then puts on his Derek Voice, which he usually reserves for terrible reenactments of stories where Nursey’s done something embarrassing. “‘I just need to suck a dick,’ bro? Really?”

Satisfied that Dex is breathing again, since he’s chirping, Nursey flops back onto Dex’s bed. “Hey, we’ve all got our stress relief.”

Dex’s cheeks go pink. Nursey refuses to find this attractive. “Yeah, but like…Don’t you mean, uh, have someone suck yours?”

Oh. That’s what this is about. Nursey raises an eyebrow at him pointedly. “No,” he says. “I said what I meant.”

Dex flushes redder, mutters something about how he doesn’t think that could be relaxing, and Nursey snorts, chirps him gently. They go back and forth like that a bit, Dex getting redder and redder but still asking, not dropping it, and finally, Nursey gives up. “You really wanna know?”

Dex’s throat works as he swallows, and he shrugs. “Good to know how your d-man ticks, right?”

There’s something under his words that Nursey can’t really place, and the room feels warmer than it did before, the weird tension that’s always hovered between them thicker, tighter. Nursey licks his lips and closes his book. “Yeah, okay.” He sits up, hesitating slightly as he thinks through what he wants to say. He knows how he feels when he’s going down on someone, but he’s never had to put into words to another person before.

The closest he’s ever come is putting it on paper, but even that has just been snippets of sensation, and those poems have never seen the light of day.

“I guess it’s about turning my brain off,” he says slowly, carefully. “Y’know, you’ve just got an objective that you’re going for, and you don’t have to think about it. And it’s a lot of sensation, so there’s that, too.” He smiles, thinking a little absently of his favorite parts. “Hard to think too much when your mouth is full and someone’s got their hands in your hair and–”

“Okay, I get it,” Dex says quickly, cutting him off.

Nursey grins. “What,” he teases. “C’mon, you don’t get the same thing eating pussy?”

He knows Dex has had at least one long-term girlfriend, so it’s not out of the realm of possibility that he’s done oral–he hopes he has, at least, Jesus, he’s an asshole but he should at least be a gentleman in bed–but Dex flushes again. “Not exactly,” he says. “I was definitely still, uh, thinking.”

Huh. Nursey shrugs. “Maybe it’s just my thing, then.” Dex still looks uncomfortable, though, and honestly, he sort of is, too–this is more than they’ve ever talked about sex, just the two of them, and it’s sort of weird. And not just because the way Dex keeps looking at him when he talks is making him half-hard in his jeans. He’s grateful for the notebooks in his lap. He changes the subject to something safer. “I mean, it’s no Finer Arts of Maplewood Sanding, but–”

The tension breaks as Dex rolls his eyes. “I swear to God, bro–”

They manage another hour or so of work before Nursey has to give up again, too stressed and annoyed with his essay to keep trying to make his points flow together the way he wants them to. He closes his laptop and gets up. Dex asks if he wants to get dinner, but Nursey turns him gently down–he’s too jittery to eat, and he needs something to calm him down before he can do anything else. He’ll text Lardo first, see if he can get a joint off her; if not, he’ll try one of Sadie’s art friends–

“Or,” Dex blurts out, as Nursey’s halfway out the door.

Nursey stops. Slowly, hesitantly, he turns. Dex is staring at him, upright and rigid in his desk chair, looking a little bit like he’s not sure saying something was a good idea, but like he still has more to say. Nursey raises his eyebrows. “Uh,” he says. “Or what?”

Dex stares at him for another moment, deer-in-the-headlights, and then he seems to force himself to relax, leaning back in his chair, all casual. “I mean,” he says, letting his legs fall open slightly. Nursey does not let his gaze flicker down. He doesn’t. “I’ve got a dick?”

Nursey’s brain does the thought equivalent of a record scratch. He stares. His brain plays the Mac OXS startup music. Chimes. He stares. Dex looks back.

“Are you fucking with me right now,” he says finally, “or are you serious?”

“Serious?” Dex says. It sounds like he’s guessing. Nursey frowns at him, and Dex flushes, backpedaling, talking quickly. “I mean, y’know. Giving blowjobs relaxes you. Getting blowjobs relaxes me. Seems like a win-win?”

He’s rambling by the end, and all Nursey can do is keep staring at him, his mouth open slightly. He blinks a little, and swallows. “I thought you were straight,” he says.

Dex shrugs his shoulders. “Maybe,” he says, and Nursey thinks, wildly, maybe???, but then Dex gestures at Nursey, encompassing his whole body, which…what? “But I’m not fucking blind.”

And it’s Nursey’s turn to flush a little, his cheeks warming. Because he’s used to compliments, yeah, used to people looking at him, but for some reason it feels different, coming from Dex. He’s not really sure why. Not really sure he wants to think about why.

He takes a breath. “If you’re fucking with me, this is a seriously dick move, even for you,” he says. “Like, grade-A asshole move. You know that, right?”

Dex nods, raising his hands, as if in surrender. “Genuine fucking offer, I swear.”

Offer. Like he’s doing Nursey a favor, letting him suck his dick. Like it’s a nice thing to do, letting Nursey get his mouth on him, see what he tastes like, feels like, see if he flushes all the way down his body when he’s turned on–

Fuck. He’s really going to do this. Nursey schools his face to calm. “Yeah, alright,” he says easily, smiling, and closing the door properly. “Chill.”

Dex looks almost as startled as Nursey feels, and for a second, Nursey thinks he is going to pull a “just kidding!”, but he doesn’t. He lets Nursey chirp him about the fact that he and his suitemates are computer nerds who never get laid. He takes off his jeans. They talk about condoms and STIs, because assholes or not, they’re not idiots.

And then Dex is sitting down on the edge of his bed in his boxers and t-shirt, his cheeks flushed, the outline of a semi visible through the thin cotton of his underwear, his eyes fixed on Nursey. Nursey watches his throat move as he swallows. “You wanna?”

He pats the bed next to him, clearly expecting Nursey to blow him from there, and Nursey hesitates. That’s the piece of this that he didn’t mention, but that’s okay. Dex’ll figure it out soon enough.

“Nope,” he says. Nursey smiles, making sure he holds Dex’s gaze, steady and unbreaking, and, slowly, he sinks to his knees.

“And that’s why I’m here, isn’t it? Did you make me just so you wouldn’t have to deal with all your mistakes?!”

Holy fuck.

This line just bowled me the fuck over.

I… I had never even considered this line of thinking. And hearing it put so bluntly struck me to my core. Holy shit. What an immensely powerful line. What an immensely tragic mindset for Steven to have.

wtf is with ppl thinking they can ask me, a stranger, to be friends  and expecting me to respond ?? this isnt tinder or okcupid, i have never once posted looking for friendship - and if i ignore your weird ass message “can we be friends” along with your list of reasons why u think we should be friends - then just take a hint …i dont even understand how anybody thinks they could be entitled to anybody responding to “can we be friends??” i dont care if we live right next door , i already dont want to hang out with you if youre the type of person who thinks they can start some kind of friendship by asking me that and then youre going to get mad that i did not respond ….  also you have literally ignored posts i have said i dont have the energy to put into relationships really right now and that im trying to work as much as possible to get money to live my life as a fucking trans person !! like !!! wat the fuck ppl !! respect my space/ my life

anonymous asked:

what are some other family-instilled values (by which I take it you mean sort of "traditional" values?) that you see Phil as subscribing to? Or did you say that mostly because he's obviously still so close to his family, so we can presume his values might align with theirs? If anything I always thought the Lesters seemed pretty progressive. I guess now I'm not sure why I think that but maybe because Martyn is older & he's been dating C for yrs with seemingly no pressure for them to get married

It’s that he’s close to his family, yes, but more so than just close - he highly prioritizes spending time with them as a family unit, to the point where he left Dan alone to do the radio show so he wouldn’t be missing a Florida vacation with them a few years back. He often repeats things his mother says without any sense of questioning them or thinking independently about them. He’s adopted superstition as a family trait, and makes his content with his family watching in mind which implies to me that their approval and not offending them means a lot to him even though the reality is that he’s a thirty year old man and has no real world obligation to keep his content at parentally-approval levels. 

To the point about them being progressive: they might adapt their attitudes to the lifestyles of their children but that doesn’t mean being progressive comes naturally to them or that they led with a progressive example when Phil and Martyn were younger. It was just a few years ago that Phil and his mum did that video together and she legitimately thought the most embarrassing moment of his childhood was when he, as a toddler, put on a hat meant for a little girl. And Phil also reacted as though that were completely and totally an embarrassing thing for him to have done. That kind of heavily gendered thinking doesn’t shout progressive to me. 

anonymous asked:

Those Bernie Bros are going to cost Democrats the midterms and then the Election in 2020.

Imo midterms are different from national elections, so I don’t think they will have the same impact in 2017-2018 like they did in 2016. Barring some unusual events, I think democrats staying home like we often do during midterms is still why we would lose in 2018, and 2020 is too far for me to be concerned about right now (& tbh no energy for it after we JUST got through 2016).

I’m also in the belief that the Bros are fast losing credibility and popularity, esp with the rise of Indivisible groups. As I mentioned before in my state, their group is not exactly taking off and the Indivisible groups and other progressive grassroots are thriving. And not all bernie supporters are Bros, a good number of Bernie supporters are working together with obama-Hillary supporters in indivisible groups. Case in point, I was in an indivisible meeting when the news of who won dnc Chair broke, it was clear some were happy and some were disappointed by who won, but that literally lasted 10 seconds and we moved on discussing our agenda.

That said, let’s just take a look at what happened in Delaware yesterday, the election that really mattered. Stephanie Hansen did not just win but won by a huge margin. She won coz democrats turned out. Joe biden campaigned for her. Daily Kos raised lots of money for her campaign, so did flippable and Indivisible groups, who did not just donate but also volunteered to gotv.

Our Revolution or Bernie did not endorse Hansen, didn’t raise money for her campaign, & basically did nothing to help her win. They were solely focused on Keith Ellison, who imo didn’t win the dnc race coz of their actions. Intercept and The Young Turks were just wanking about democrats and did nothing to help get democrats elected. As someone else put it, their goal is not progressivism, it’s destructive nihilism.

I don’t want to underestimate them, coz we’ve seen what they did in 2016, but let’s also not overestimate them coz post-elections, they’ve been more bark than bite, and I think we learned to not be intimidated by them or think that we can appease them by always giving in to them.

I do however think they can make an impact in our ability to take back the senate with their let’s primary everyone but Bernie mindset right now. Coz if their candidate loses in the primaries, they will inevitably act up and cry establishment. in 2018 it will be great to sweep all races, but if people are talking about impeachment then we need the House, and if we’re talking about stopping GOP congress and trump policies being passed and implemented in our states, then we need to win more governorships and state legislatures. Realistically, if we can just stop GOP from gaining more seats so they won’t have 60 votes or the 54 (?) to call for a constitutional convention, I’d take that if it means we get control of the house and local governments. If we want to win in 2020 and future elections winning state and local governments this year and next year is crucial.

Introverts At Parties (Social Anxiey)
  • Friend Billy: Hey, wanna come to a friend’s party? It’s gonna be really cooool!
  • Introvert (in head) : I’d rather be at home just eating a bag of chips and watching netflix but since you’re my friend and I don't want you to think I am an anti-social weirdo I'll act like I want to go....
  • Introvert: yeah sure :)
  • *goes to party*
  • Introvert, in head: nonononono.. why did i come to this? I don't know anyone here. *anxiety* ok, ok. just calm down. Let's just find a space were no one will talk to me and just chill there. Ok? OK.... THERE'S SOMEONE COMING. OH NOOO. WHAT DO I DO? HE LOOKES INTIMIDATING, I DON'T KNOW HIMMMMMMMM HE--
  • Extrovert: Hey, so are you new here? I haven't seen you before...
  • Introvert: Yeah. Billy's my friend, he invited me here.
  • Extrovert: Oh cool, Billy is so nice. Well, nice talking to you, cya :)
  • Introvert: bye...
  • Introvert in head: Ok that wasn't that bad. I'm overreacting, parties are cool, I really just need to calm dow- THERE'S SOMEONE COMING HELP!!!!!1!
  • *cycle repeats infinitely*

Little Jake was out last night after a very dissociated evening… I’ve already said to Gaz do prepare for him to be around again tonight :( I just have that same feeling I did yesterday… it’s so embarrassing, but at least my partner keeps on being wonderful with him/me/us

I’ve learned a lot of reflection about myself/selves while I’ve been on this course, so I think that’s why he’s a little shaken up

But I need to say a massive thank you to @tizzyrainbow for making him his own play dough - Gaz said it really helped him to ground from flashbacks last night (he was doing his screamy-crying thing apparently :() so that was a very big help 💕

I’m feeling a little tired now, but at least I know I can do this 💪🏻💪🏻

the 100 as things my boyfriend has said to me

clarke: she soaked her hair in blood, it suits her really nicely.

bellamy: i kicked my dog by accident, i deserve to die.

raven: you’re really agressive. what about gender equality and all that?

monty: are you the mysterious box of mickey mouse? because i didn’t know you had that in you.

jasper: i swear to god, if i try to kill myself tonight the bullet will probably get stuck inside of the gun.

murphy: i was right there, almost dying, and no one did a fucking thing. i mean, i wasn’t dying, i just had a flat tire, but same thing.

octavia: you should teach me how to fucking swear in swedish. it’s gonna come in handy.

lexa: my teachers think i’m gay and i don’t know why.

finn: you told me you were going to shoot me, wasn’t i supposed to defend myself? okay. sorry.

ok so I had my college orientation a couple of days ago and honestly??? college aus let me down??? why did no incredibly handsome and kinda bad boy lookin guy show up five minutes late and sit in the only empty seat in the room which just so happened to be next me and introduce himself as jung hoseok???
overall am feeling v betrayed and lied to

anonymous asked:

If Daryl loved Carol, he wouldn't have mourned Beth's death so bad. He would have been happy that Carol was back but he shut her out because he doesn't love her, he loved Beth. Kirkman said so, so did Gimple. He never loved Carol, Carol is just his friend that he loves and cares for but he was in love with beth. Even Norman said so. Why are you going against the writers and stars

First off, being in love with someone doesn’t mean that your friends don’t matter anymore. Being in love with someone doesn’t mean that you aren’t going to mourn a friend’s death. I think you’re also forgetting the fact that they almost got Beth back and instead, watched her get shot in the head right in front of them. Daryl has a habit of carrying around guilt with him and I believe a lot of that mourning was feeling guilty, upset over losing a friend the same way he’d be if Glenn or Rick died. And Glenn has died now unfortanetly and Daryl cried. Daryl’s a damn mess. His mourning of Beth is no different than his mourning of Glenn.

Daryl didn’t shut Carol out. Do you not remember the scene where they went off in the forest, searching for water and she told Daryl that he needs to let himself feel it and he allowed her to kiss his forehead? He WAS happy that Carol was back, the way he ran to her in No Sanctuary and held her, lifting her off the ground, laying his head on her shoulder like a puppy dog, crying.

I don’t know what world you live in but Kirkman said that Daryl wasn’t in love with Beth. It wasn’t some great romance that didn’t happen because she died. He loved Beth as much as he loved Sophia for example. It wasn’t romantic.
Scott Gimple said “ I’m not entertaining that ” when asked about romance between Daryl and Beth.
Look these things up. I would copy and paste them but you would likely say I wrote it myself, so go look them up and read/watch the interviews. Because nobody supported a Daryl/Beth romance.

What’s creepy is that people supported a 17 year old being in a relationship with a 40 year old man but those same people are disgusted and can’t possibly believe the romance between that same 40 year old man and a woman who’s 3 years older than him. That’s backwards, creepy, hypocritical and frankly, disturbing.

Daryl would mourn Carol’s death awfully. He CRIES when he’s reunited with her. Did you not see their reunion scene in episode 10? He was devestated. He looked at her with such pain and confusion. Just at her LEAVING. He’d be a god damn mess if he were to lose Carol permanently.

I don’t think we’re watching the same show.

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“Neo Queen Serenity looks better with blonde hair so idgaf”

TO YOU. She looks better TO YOU. And regardless it does not matter because what looks good to you because canon is canon, THIS right here is my problem with 90s anime elitists; they can’t grasp the fucking concept that Crystal is NOT SUPPOSED TO BE SIMILAR TO THE OLD ANIME. It’s supposed to be FOLLOWING THE MANGA, and in the manga, NQS canonically has sliver/white hair. There is no just reason as to why NQS had silver in the second season of Crystal then magically went back to blonde. What, the queen of earth suddenly decided to dye her hair? I think the fuck not.

Edit: I left out this: Neo Queen Serenity is supposed to have silver hair like her mother did. Not only does it show maturity but it also differentiates her former self as Sailor Moon from her current queen form.
Why couldn’t he just feel the same?
Why did the universe have to be so cruel to let me fall for someone who can never feel the same?
The torture of having such strong feelings for someone who you barely mean anything to.
And to think that I was so careful as to who I fell for cause I thought that what they felt would actually last.
I wish all my feelings towards him ended on the very first good bye.
Then I wouldn’t have spent years feeling so stupid and hating myself because I can’t control how much this means to me.
I wish I had moved on then, like they did.
At least the situation would’ve been fair.
The fact that this has been one-sided from that day aches my soul just thinking about it.
When will this feeling of unrequitedness end?
—  I’m so tired
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Several days later, while Brennan and Sevella were on watch…..

Brennan: “It will be time to move on soon, I think. We have all the information we can get from the ruins nearby. And according to the messages we got from some of them, I think we will have better luck finding these ‘trials’ further inland.”

Sevella: “Yes, I’m sure you’re right. I am just weary of being away from the ship. Although, I am not sure why. It’s not as if anyone on it will step foot on the island. But still, it is a comfort to have it here.”

Brennan: “We will be careful. And we do have some idea of whe-”

Sevella: “Hold on a second. Did you hear that?”

Brennan: “Yes. It’s probably just Alira on another one of her midnight walks. But I’ll go check and see.”

anonymous asked:

Theory: I think that something happened with Jughead's dad and that why he's running off. I think everyone looks worried because they just found out that Jughead is homeless. They feel guilty and worried and go looking for him. That's why betty is in front of everyone, she spends so much time with Jughead and didn't even know. She feels bad and needs to find him. Do you that's a possibility?

I think that could definitely be a possibility, i did see a spoiler of jughead at a phone booth In his homecoming clothes, so Theres a possibility he’s talking to his mother which is really cool. Also the spoiler of Bughead and Alice and fam walking through the park looks like it comes after homecoming so that’s definitely a positive because there all smiling.

anonymous asked:

I'd like to know why and when did the "clever mouth" thing started, because I've recently read one of those ""Dale Pike"" fics and it's mentioned in there and it was writen back in 2016 but I've not seen the clever mouth thing in the fandon for that long. I am going crazy. Maybe I am mistaken.

well i just searched a bit on my blog and tbh i never heard about that fic before and i might be wrong about this but jsfdjslkfkjs i think it was either lilla or marcel or me or kinda all of us starting the clever mouth thing?? djkskj like i might be wrong here but i think we started using it after this one night when we kept talking about the casebook and like there were things about sherlock’s mouth and it was nasty and a messz as usual

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This is suitably dramatic and everything but our earlier discussion about His Dark Materials is giving me flashbacks about DUST and every pun I ever thought of in between now and then. 

Creepiest thing to ever have spontaneously ever grow out of your eye: this. 

Please tell me that’s just Spirit Spider Webs that only Watanuki can see. I DON’T THINK I COULD HANDLE IT OTHERWISE. 

anonymous asked:

Thank you so much! I saw the tweet Ben specifically stated that he'll release the hug video if 1d win the Brit and he even tagged the other guy (Gregg I think?) honestly they're such assholes

i just like………. if you knew a hug did not even exist why did you say that (i mean i know why it was emotionally manipulative but still.)