why do i even do the name thing at the end

It sounds kind of silly (to put it mildly) as an adult, but I really did start into school totally unprepared to recognize and deal with sexism, racism, or ableism. Just to name a few things it didn’t take me too long to end up on the sharp end of.

I just had no clue why people were acting shitty for a long time. Especially since it was rarely as blatant as “girls don’t do X”. I thought I was suddenly terrible, with no other way to account for all the negative reactions.

And I really had not learned a lot of the things some adults obviously expected that everyone had already learned about gender, etc. I got treated as purposely rebellious a lot, when I had no clue what was even being expected in that setting.

The kinds of adults who got worked up about that sort of thing just were not into explaining what you were supposed to be doing wrong, either. Just reacting punitively. I don’t know if they could have even explained why they were getting so angry and hostile, in a lot of cases. Because Everybody Knows, right? :/

I actually wasn’t prepared to deal with a lot of things. I imagine at least partly because my family figured I would pick things up and figure them out on my own. Especially with a pretty strong emphasis on learning through observation.

There are some things I had to get much better at learning through observation over the years.

That did eventually happen. But some more explanations all around might have helped that learning happen sooner and honestly less abusively.

So yeah, I definitely support the idea of preparing kids so they at least know what outside behavoral expectations they’re liable to run up against, and have some clue how to cope with that. Also that they’re not necessarily a bad person or doing anything harmfully wrong, just because an adult gets upset at them.

Sometimes there really is no good reason for it, and certainly nothing that you can really help. Sometimes people are just assholes, and it’s not really even about you.

It can be a hard road if you are not prepared for some of this stuff.

The voices keep taunting me, repeating my name. They keep saying things that I don’t understand. Are their words true or false? I try to seek help, but the doctors only laugh. They don’t know how to fix me. Do they know, do they know, about the voices in my thoughts? Do they know, do they know, that I’m constantly in fear?

When I shout, yell, and scream for the voices to stop, people stare at me strangely. They murmur things to their friends, and they start smirking at me. Why is it that no one likes me? Do they know, do they know, what goes on inside my head? Do they know, do they know, that every day my mind whispers to me, “You aren’t safe here.”

And as I run through a maze in my head, trying so desperately to get away from the taunting, no one’s at the other end to save me. When I awaken from my nightmares, I am shaking with goosebumps running up and down my arm. My family only shakes their heads, telling me how I should be stronger. Do they know, do they know, that their little girl is broken? Do they know, do they know, that they’re not helping at all?

I realize that no one understands all my troubles, so I carry my suitcase and pack all my things. The house is still quiet, but my mind doesn’t take rest. Words, words, so many of them. So many jumbled up phrases and sentences. So many thoughts, too many ideas. I run, slamming the door behind me, tears streaming down my face. My breath is caught up in little clouds and I’m too scared to look back. I just want the voices out of my head; I just want them to stop.

And a million miles away from home, I finally realize. Nobody knows, nobody knows, of these shattered voices in my head. Nobody knows, nobody knows, that they’ve filled me with dread.

—  pkmn_georgia (instagram)

Why do bad things happen to good people? I will never understand it. It’s not even stupid shit it’s real world shit like being diagnosed with a disease that changes your life the way you live and losing everything around you. Even your education isn’t even happening your at college but the school refuses to tutor you. Who in gods name does that. Why. It’s sad too when half of your family is on their last string and you live too far and too busy with school to speak to them and pretty soon it’s too late. It’s just tough. Life is constantly kicking my ass. I’d do anything to get rid of it. At least I have love. But I dont even get to be physically with my love. The distance isn’t bad except when your suffering. I just wanna know when this is going to end. I don’t want the answer to be time or it’ll get better I want a specific solution there’s always a solution or so it seems.

anonymous asked:

I love spending my time admiring art and reading. But I always end up questioning life, like why are we put on this earth just to work and earn money and then die? I feel different than most, I have no dream job, I have no big plans. I just don't want to waste my life doing something mundane. I want to spend it doing what I want and not worry about how much money I have or don't have. I just want to be free from society. I just feel a bit disconnected from everyone. I just, I don't even know...

Elisabeth??

ALSO EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY! I worry abouut these things too, but worrying won’t do any good - just don’t stress and have fun ! 🔅

send me descriptions of yourself and I’ll guess what your name is!!

itsgalaxyy asked:

Hey

send me a ”hey” and i’ll do this:

1. First impression: too pretty for me ahh
2. Truth is: you think you’re not but also u know you are!!! and also youre just a really sweet n funny girl n idk why ppl assume the things they do
3. How old do you look: ur age lmao 
4. Have you ever made me laugh: we insynced laughed today so yes
5. Have you ever made me mad: nope
6. Best feature: ur hips!! do not even fight me on this
7. Have I ever had a crush on you: nope
8. You’re my: practically a bff tbh
9. Name in my phone: lucia~
10. Should you post this too? yeaaaaa

????

i don’t know what this is but I got tagged by mantispidae to do my name in song titles + other questions???? idk

my name in song titles 

Ain’t No Mountain High Enough-Marvin Gaye & Tammi Terrell
Not A Bad Thing-Justin Timberlake
No Diggity-Blackstreet & Dr. Dre
Immortals-Fall Out Boy
Exitlude-The Killers

why is this my url?
because some GIANT NERD dared me to & then quit tumblr before they could hold up their end of the deal (i’m looking @ you simon)

what’s my middle name?
ceit

who would u be as a fictional character

a cat

top 3 fandoms
1. captain america/marvel in general i guess
2. music
3. studyblr

why do you like blue hell
there are some super cool people that i really enjoy talking to + there is a lot of really cool creative inspiration going around and i am A Fan of creative shit okay like don’t even question it if it’s creative i’m gonna support it 100%

i tag everyone else that wants to do this because i feel weird tagging people in things????? idk mirandandnina should do this but she’s not gonna see that i tagged her in something lmao BUT if u want to do it just say i tagged u

 A Couple Reasons Why You Probably Shouldn’t Own a Pair of McMacular

When I meet people for the first time I try not to ask them “So what do you do?” for a few reasons:

  1. A lot of people aren’t dying to talk about what they “do” as if what they do only means work.
  2. They frequently get asked that question.
  3. The other person will politely respond with the same question.

One of the few uncomfortable things about selling silk-lined pants is addressing the price tag. As a 24 year-old guy I have a fair number of 24 year-old friends. Most people my age don’t have the kind of money to spend $237 (before tax) on a pair of pants.

But the price of these pants used to be an even more uncomfortable subject of discussion.

Once upon a time a pair of McMaculars would cost you a hell of a lot more. They were previously sold at a high-end menswear store by the name of Sam Malouf (great guy, great store). They sold well there. People who shopped there could afford the finer things in life that well over 99.9% of people couldn’t.

During that time when people would ask me what I did the conversation would often go something like this:

Me: “I started up a local pants company. They’re lined with silk so that you can have a good time without feeling cold.”

Them: “So cool! I’ll have to buy a pair,” or “I’ll have to buy my boyfriend a pair!”

That’s when I sheepishly smile because I have a pretty good idea of what’s coming next. Please don’t ask what I think you’re going to, I think to myself.

Them: “So how much are they?”

This is when I begin to feel terrible because they have no idea what’s about to hit them.

Me: “They’re more expensive than most pants. Pretty expensive — ”

Them: “Let me guess. 200?!”

Oh, no. I wish you didn’t say that. Assumptive guesses are the worst.

Me: “Believe it or not, they’re $350.”

Them: “Oh wow! Really?!” …Let’s not forget that 10 seconds prior to that they thought they were absolutely buying a pair.

I felt bad about that. Now you can pre-order them for $237.

Even Kanye West feels bad about selling expensive things. I swear. He gave an interview where he expressed how badly he wished that everybody could afford to own a pair of his new Adidas Yeezy Boost shoes, and tried explaining why it’s not that easy. (I’ll post the link below).

I feel the exact same way you do, Mr. West. It’s a terrible feeling.

As of this morning I’ve decided to make a promo-code for anybody who wants a pair of McMacular but can’t afford them. It’s ‘McMacular50.’ It’ll take 50 dollars off of your purchase. Anybody can use the code. It’s just sort of an honest policy. I’d certainly be grateful if you paid full price as they’re expensive to make.

I won’t get too into justifying why McMaculars are expensive but here’s the gist of it: they’re made in San Francisco and they’re lined with silk. The outside fabric is soft, nice, and expensive as well. They’re exceptionally comfortable.

But price isn’t the only barrier to owning a pair.

You should dry clean them. In fact, if you’re going to wash them then we won’t sell them to you.

That might sound pretentious, but if there’s one thing I’ve learned it’s that it’s better to be honest than polite. If dry cleaning is an absolute no I completely understand. No worries. I wish I could help you out there but I can’t. You shouldn’t microwave eggs and you shouldn’t wash silk.

If you want to check out the Kanye West video I referred to here it is (begins around 1:30 into it): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wZVKKJbEsdc

If you’d like to learn a little bit more about where and why the pants are made in San Francisco or why they’re expensive feel free to take a gander at this article I wrote called, The Underground World of Locally Made Pants.

Casey

Felt obligated to do this I'm so sorry

TEN FACTS
► Name ➔ Karma
► Birth place ➔ Cleveland
► Hair color ➔ Brown
► Age ➔ 22 almost 23!
► Eye Color ➔ Blue
► Birthday ➔ October 21
► Gender ➔ Female
► Lefty or Righty ➔ Righty
► Single or taken? ➔ Single
► Happy? ➔sumtimez

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE 
► Are you in love ➔ not anymore
► Do you believe in love at first sight ➔ nah
► Who ended your last relationship ➔ i don’t even remember anymore
► Have you ever broken someone’s heart ➔ i think so and i’m not cool with it at all
► Are you afraid of commitments ➔ not with the right person
► Have you hugged someone within the last week? ➔ uhm yes i believe so 
► Have you ever had a secret admirer ➔ not that I know of
► Have you ever broken your own heart? ➔ how do you break your own heart? why would anyone do that
► Do you usually spend Valentine’s Day alone? ➔ haha omg yes why
► Short or long-term relationships? ➔ no point in short term

TEN CHOICES
► Love or lust ➔ love or both idk
► Lemonade or iced tea ➔ lemonade
► Cats or Dogs ➔ maybe cats but idk bc I love them both a lot
► A few best friends or many regular friends ➔ a couple good ones 
► Television or internet ➔ interwebs
► Pepsi or Coke ➔ coke 
► Wild night out or romantic night in ➔ wild night out usually 
► Day or night ➔ night
► Text or Call ➔ text
► Make-up or au naturel? ➔ both are cool

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
► Been caught sneaking out? ➔ maybe I honestly don’t remember 
► Fallen down/up the stairs? ➔ of course
► Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? ➔ mhm
► Prank called a store? ➔ probably hahhh
► Skipped school? ➔ yes
► Wanted to disappear? ➔ I think so 
► Spent all your money? ➔ ugh yes 
► Met a celebrity? ➔ yes
► Been really ill? ➔ no not really 
► Gotten high? ➔ yessssSs

TEN PREFERENCES 
► Smile or eyes ➔ eyes
► Light or dark hair ➔ brown or darker
► Shorter or taller ➔ tall boiz
► Intelligence or attraction ➔ both are important but attraction (sorry)
► Hook-up or relationship ➔ idk relationship I think 
► Mac or PC? ➔ PC because I know how to use it lmao 
► Chapstick or lipstick? ➔ CHAPSTICK
► City or country? ➔ city 
► Driving or walking? ➔ both are cool

LASTS
► Last phone call? ➔ Salem’s pediatrician 
► Last song you listened to? ➔ mr me too by the clipse
► Last thing you ate? ➔ chow mein 
► Last thing you drank? ➔ water
► Last place you were? ➔ home?
► Last kiss? ➔ Salem 
► Last picture taken? ➔ of me? Yesterday
► Last outfit? ➔ shorts and a t shirt
► Last purchase? ➔ uhhhh a beer lol
► Last argument/fight? ➔ baby daddy drama

anonymous asked:

17., 18., and 21.

17:  Why did they take up the title of Inquisitor? Because they had to or because they wanted to?

It’s mainly because she wanted to (though as far as the game goes I’m pretty sure you have to take on the role). Haven’s destruction was a blow for her, personally. She wouldn’t have been able to just stand by without doing everything in her power to help make things right. Even if they hadn’t named her Inquisitor she would have done whatever she could to help out. It’s just the kind of person she is.

18:  What will they do after they defeat Corypheus?

Oh god. Do you have 500 years for me to spout nonsense? I’m actually neck deep in a post-Corypheus headcanon. I’ve got 39+ pages in a notebook regarding her life after his defeat. I’m trash and have an obsession with babies and happy endings. I posted about my Dad!Cullen headcanon a while back on my Tumblr. Lil’ noodle babies running around and wreaking havoc on Skyhold.

Coryhpheus may have fallen but there’s still a ton of shit left to do so she’ll be sticking with the Inquisition. She’s hoping that at some point she’ll at least get to move out of Skyhold. She’s a bit sick of the Frostbacks.

21:  How did they decorate Skyhold? What does their throne look like?

Shit, it would be easier if I had screenshots. I might have to come back to this one. I think she has the Andrastian chantry throne set up at the moment?

Oh and she’s got the Orlesian Bed III and the Frostback windows in her quarters. As for upgrades she built the training grounds instead of the infirmary or w/e. I haven’t actually gotten to upgrading the other two yet. I’ve got to go claim some more quarries tonight.

~Headcanon’s with Georgiane Trevelyan

artemisprose asked:

they should have done a Life on Mars film.

Ehhh, an interesting notion, but I’m not really inclined to agree.

TV show was the perfect format for it, because it gave them time to flesh things out (even if they didnt always stay in character)

I could see maybe a movie (maybe a TV movie) for the finale, since the finale was so horribly rushed and ruthlessly run through a meat processor to fit TV length. (not that it was a good ending anyway, but the rush CERTAINLY didn’t help it)

Or maybe a movie for a one-off, like a Christmas episode (which they actually considered doing). I could see them doing something centered around the IRA bombing of Victoria Station in September of ‘73 (Sam knowing about it and maybe trying to prevent it or at least get as many people out of there as possible, people being suspicious about how he knew about it, blah blah blah)

Or maybe an AU scenario, something that’s established to be separate from the canon, like a crossover for fun or something. (my soul longs for the ridiculous lom/bttf crossover that will never be… u nu )

But JS wouldn’t have done it anyway because of his weird role-oriented ADD (just a guess, no evidence), so it’s all just fun daydreaming, really. ¯\(ツ)/¯

Alright,

So my idea is this week getting to know you TKO family. You will be paried up with someone that you may not talk to at all or barely talk to and for two day will talk to them, get to know them and maybe figure out why you haven’t spoken to one another. The first pairing I’m going to do myself then after the two I will pair you with someone you wanted to get to know. Hopefully we can start tomorrow evening. During the day I know everyone will barely be on due to school and work ooc. I encourage that you guys do this on the dash if you are not working or at school ooc then there should be no reason for you to be off the dash. At the end you will do a moodbaord of gifs or picture of things you learned about that person and write a small description about. Yall can submit me two names one male and one female. If I get the same name more than twice I switching it up. Yall have until tomorrow at 3 to send me names, reblog this to so the people who ain’t on can see it.

I’m gonna take a break til Monday but I wanna say this everybody in the rp gotta do better including myself. The admins worked hard on this and I know none of yall want this to end. We’re suppose to be a family but we don’t act like it, we gotta start, all these secret relationships gotta stop the admins even said those were invalid until yall start doing dates on the dash if you afraid to do it on the dash then do a damn group date. Half yall worrying bout the wrong thing and do little to none work as your position if you couldn’t do it then why pick it? Everyone gotta come out the cut if you aren’t busy ooc then why the fuck you in the cut? There’s so much you could be doing but yall don’t do it. I could say names and tell you what I’m sure everybody else sees but I’m really trying with this nice thing. Another thing is yall have people yall wanna know better but haven’t made an effort it shouldn’t have to take me pairing yall up to do that.If you can go in this person’s inbox then you damn sure can go into that person’s inbox it’s not hard yall just choose not too. Basically do better, try to talk to the new people, try to stay out of the cut, if you have connections here interact with them plot with one another, and listen to the admins, and lets stop the shading as the admins said we’re too old for it and lets be truthful after awhile it does get annoying and boring. But like I said Monday I’ll be abck

9 things & mutuals!

Tagged by the wonderful sokkaspetboomerang

1) Write your name in song titles:

E - Eat at Home (Paul McCartney)  

V - Violet Rays (Smashing Pumpkins) 

E - Ephemeral (Insomnium) 

L - Lemuria (Therion) 

I - Into the Night (Santana) 

N - Never Trust A Man With Egg On His Face (Adam and The Ants) 

A - A Pirates Life For Me (Pirates of the Caribbean) 

2) Why did you choose your URL?

Because I run a recipe blog where I post food stuff from the avatar universe.

3) What’s your middle name?

A secret. 

4) If you could be a fictional/fairytale being, what would you be?

The Kraken.  

5) Favorite colours?

Black, red and green. 

6) Favorite song at the moment?

Satsuki Kiryuin Theme from Kill la Kill. I don’t know why, but for some reason it really inspires me to write fanfiction. 

7) Top 4 fandoms?

Avatar the Last Airbender, the orchestra one, gaming and fandomless fandoms. 

8) Why do you enjoy Tumblr?

Lots of stuff to do here.  

9) Tag 9 of your mutuals

If you’re up for it, no pressure: 
symbolismandquotes lookingoodsusu avataruncanon norstrus sophgoph-the-nerd themoonslayer and anyone who wants to join in! 

Okay, let’s see what Nepeta is up to.

Well, that’s kind of adorable. Feferi and Sollux is canon (or was, at least), and Kanaya and Rose is pretty plausible (at least until Kanaya died).  I can get behind that.  Tavros and Dave, though… no fucking way. It’s better than Tavros and Vriska, but Dave is way too acerbic to deal with Tavros on a regular basis; the poor guy would go nuts. Also why the hell does Nepeta pair them up? Has she even ever talked to Dave?

Listen, shipping fictional characters can be fun, but when you do that shit with real people it just becomes creepy.

Okay, Karkat and Gamzee doing the diamond thing whose name I can’t remember makes sense, but I’m pretty sure that if anybody was going to keep anybody else from going off the deep end, that ship has sailed. In the sense that it’s too fucking late.

Terezi and Vriska hating each other? Yup.

Jade mediating between past and future Karkat? I’m pretty sure that’s actually happening.

So she knows WV and John are connected some-

What the FUCK is that behind the boxes?

Okay, that’s just weird.  Seriously if you have a crush on someone drawing a giant mural of yourself making out with them is not a normal thing to do AUTHOR WHO DREW HIMSELF MAKING OUT WITH RUFIO.  Seriously.

I’m sure this won’t result in you stumbling right into the murderer… Nope.

mrshornybadger asked:

Oh look it's me again (are you surprised by now?) "You are the popular sport kid in school and I admire you so I apply to play in your team but end up embarrassing myself because I don’t even know the rules and am weak as hell AU" with Kimsters and EP ;D

This is actually the stupidest thing ever but I wrote too much of it to start over so ugh, here you go!

Esapekka has no idea why the hell he’s doing this. Actually, correction, he does know why he’s doing this, but it’s the stupidest thing he’s ever done in his life. The new school year has just began and it’s time to sign up for any extracurricular activities. And Esapekka has just signed his name on the sheet for the school’s hockey team.

He has never played hockey, or even skated before, so this can only go well. The reason he signed up is because of Kimi Raikkonen. Surprisingly quiet and subtle for a popular kid but, he was different, and the main scorer for the school’s hockey team. Esapekka never worked up the courage to go speak to him, although everyone said he’s not as standoffish as he seems to be, but that still didn’t help, at least this gave him an excuse to be near him.

Truth is, like most of the school, he has a massive crush on Kimi. His icy green eyes and blond hair and the tattoo’s on his arms that the school said was against the rules but Kimi went and got them anyways. He was effortlessly cool and so damn attractive. He was screwed from day one.

Keep reading

This is the cover of my new sci-fi novel that I’ve just launched on the crowd-funded publishing site, Inkshares.

It’s the story of two women, a bad-ass mech pilot named Aimee Westmorland (pictured on the cover above) and an out-of-her-depth teacher called Kendra Williams, and their adventures on the distant desert planet of Danelon IV.

If that sounds like your cup of tea then please spread the word and, if the mood should take you, pledge a pre-order at the link below 
https://www.inkshares.com/projects/the-salvager

Edit: Dammit, I was trying to like a comment made on a reblog and ended up liking my own post. Why is that a thing you can do and how do you even Tumblr?
Does this mean that when I didn’t “like” all my other posts it implies that I wasn’t that happy with them?

Edit 2:
Probably ought to mention - you can earn credit on the Inkshares site that means you could effectively get the book for free.
This is how you do it (copied directly from their website):
1. Endorsements: Earn $5 in credits the first time you recommend or excerpt content.
2. Referrals: Earn $15 in credits every time you refer a friend who backs or orders a book. You can refer a book after following a book or recommending a chapter on any book’s project page, from the order confirmation page, or clicking the referral link on your email receipt.
3. Discovering Best-sellers: Earn $15 in credits any time you back a book that goes on to sell over 2,000 copies. At 5,000 copies, you earn an additional $30

I do see the problem…in both pictures. Why should our first reactions be anger and blame when a student isn’t succeeding? I get that sometimes students simply refuse to do their best, and sometimes teachers just don’t teach…but there are 1000 other things that could explain why a student isn’t performing their best- learning disabilities, bullying, anxiety/depression, not eating/sleeping/taking care of their bodies the right way, needing glasses, stress from school/home, or being advanced and bored with the material…just to name a few. Perhaps if we could choose compassion as the first road and even (warning crazy radical idea) allow students the space to fail and try again if they really haven’t learned without it feeling like the end of the world….maybe wed have better results.

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zoe-xo-grace asked:

Cassie, Amber, Zoe (slurred words)

Cassie:

“I worry about her, like, all the fucking time. I’m not a person made for worry. It gives wrinkles and I don’t want to age prematurely. She’s so spunky and carefree and just plunges right into things! And I’m like- the fuck are you even doing, Cassandra? What are you doing? And she’ll get all annoyed that I’m ‘mum-ing’ her and it’s like newsflash, our mum is literally Satan and someone has to mum you before you end up in juvie and get us both deported.”

Amber:

“I love Amber. Her last name is Hart, and you wanna know why? Because it’s so easy to heart her. She’s so strong and assertive and cares about people. She reminds me a lot of me sometimes. Whether that’s a good thing or not is suuuper debatable. I could make a list as big as this entire planet with people who think it’s bad. But fuck them, I’m amazing. Where was I? Oh yeah. Amber. If my heart didn’t completely and totally belong to Adam–ugh, I love him so much–I think I could love her. Because she deserves love, you know? Seriously. I love her. I wanna kiss her cheeks.”

Zoe:

“Zoe Lancaster is like… think of a bird, okay? You have the bird in your hands. And that’s it. And sometimes the bird will fly off and you’re just like, ‘Yes! Go bird.’ And the bird comes back and it’s all proud of itself. And I’m like, ugh. Bless you for coming back. LIKE THE ONE LITTLE TURTLE FROM THAT MOVIE ABOUT THE FISH! SHE’S LIKE THAT! SHE’S A TURTLE! Zoe is a turtle. Zoe Lancaster is my little turtle.”