why do i even do the name thing at the end

Do you really love me? Then awake me from my slumber and tell me: hold my  hand and let us pray together; place in my hand a Qur'an and let us read together. Remind me of our purpose and why we are here; talk to me about Jannah for hours on end. Advise me on what I should and shouldn’t do; tell me what is Halal and what is Haram. Wipe my tears and remind me that this Dunya is as temporary as the pain I feel now; comfort my old soul when I feel I can’t take it no more and tell me: nothing lasts forever. Tell me about Allah and His love for us; tell me stories of His Prophets and how we should aim to be like them. Mention my name always even if it’s at the very end of your du'as; think about our lives in Jannah and remind me of it also. Tell me: after patience, beautiful things await for us; help me to have Sunnah in my heart, Allah on my mind, Qur'an on my tongue and tears flowing from my eyes. If you really love me, take hold of my hand and take me to Jannah with you.
—  diaryofaniqaabi (via Instagram)

Trainee Love

A bit later

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7 | Part 8 Part 8.5| Part 9 | Part 10 Part 10.5 | Part 11 | Part 12 | Part 13 | Part 14 | Part 15 |

(a/n: well this is the end of it ^^ phuh it was long for a 1st series on this blog XD but i hope you liked the series, and i’d like to do more of these in the future and i hope i can, next on i try to post my random stupidity XD so be prepared bc bangtan’s coming :D okay now i’m just rambling bc i’m happy af i can’t even explain *-* [i found love XD okay i didn’t, but i found out his name] why do i share my random things on the net, probably no one reads these XD k byeeeeee :**  )

I was tagged by @freekicking & @halabellerin !! thank you, ily both sm 

Name: Jackie 

Star Sign: Sagittarius 

Height: 5ft 7 

Time right now: 11:02 AM 

Favourite music artist: Ariana Grande / Rihanna / Selena Gomez / Drake / Ed Sheeran / Nick Jonas (too fucking many bye) 

Song stuck in your head: Caroline by Amine 

Last movie you watched: This is the End 

Last TV show you watched: The Office (even though i’ve seen every episode at least 50 times) 

What are you wearing right now: PJs 

When did you create this blog: june of last year??? but i didnt officially make it a football blog until like late last year. i realized that all i post is football stuff so i just decided to make it one :) 

What kind of stuff do you post: Football mainly & other random things i like

Do you have any other blogs: nope 

Do you get asks regularly: nahh 

Why did you choose your URL: bc i love cristiano and he’s the k7ng and every king deserves a kingdom???  

Hogwarts House: Gryffindor 

Favourite color: Yellow

Average hours of sleep: 5-6 

Favorite characters: Michael Scott (The Office), Andy Dwyer (Parks and Rec) & Terry Bernadino (Reno 911), Bucky Barnes/Winter Soldier (Marvel)

How many blankets do you have: 2 

Dream job: I want to work behind the scenes on a show like Ellen or The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon 

Amount I follow: 300 

How many follow me: 395

i tag @karimbenzo @kingpique @rafinhoe @mrtslv & @hectorbellerinas 

(sorry if you’ve already been tagged)

why tf is there a village in devon called westward ho!? like srsly how do u even decide the ! should be a part of ur village name isnt there some sort of law preventing that like what if u need to put it at the end of a sentence like “ah yes I live in the lovely seaside village of Westward Ho!. thanks for asking.” like thats just weird. and how do pronounce it do u have to shout it? or is this a Dave!Yognau(gh)t thing, where u literally say “exclamation mark” out loud like “I AM DAVE EXCLAMATION MARK YOGNAU(GH)T AND I LIVE IN WESTWARD HO EXCLAMATION MARK!”

Wednesday Rumbling

Days like today frustrate me and I’m trying to figure out what specifically is happening. I’ve had to rumble a bit on why I get so frustrated–and if that’s even the best name for my emotion(s). It’s my first day off in a while and I’m feeling overwhelmed with stuff I want to do. Laundry. Play with Catherine. Read my books and magazines. Go to the grocery store. What’s for dinner?

Today I had thought about going to Knoxville to take some food to my sister. Kevin had several things to do that kept pushing my departure time later and later. I think when I end up doing things later in the day that stresses me. Earlier is better for me. When I get things done that I have to out of the way, that frees up the rest of the day to take on new projects, instead of just waiting around to do I wanted to do at some indeterminate time later. I strive to be very efficient with both my time and my driving routes. When I end up doing things that could be done in a more efficient way I get frustrated too. Even my library books stressed me out today. That is crazy. So lots of little things build up into a general feeling of “if I can’t do it perfectly then it isn’t worth doing and you should just scrap the whole day” This of course is ridiculous. I have tried to give myself grace for not getting stressed out.

I think a lot of subtle negative self talk is coming into play here. That I couldn’t handle life on my own, that I’m spoiled and couldn’t handle life if it were more difficult. That I don’t have enough time so I have to be super organized and efficient. That if I am or am not any of these things then I am a bad person. Which I KNOW isn’t true. I think my J-ness gets overgrown sometimes and needs to be pruned back sometimes. I know this is relatively mild anxiety about trivial things but I want to be more aware and think more critically about my negative emotions and get to the source of them so they don’t become a problem in the future. I still don’t know what to call the emotions I had today but anxiety and frustration and indecision are all in my perfectionism mix.


So, I was rolling along, happy with my words then bam! I don’t know how to gracefully transition into the next bit of dialog. Or even what the next bit of dialog should bloody be. So I am here to talk it out with you my bestest writing buddy!

What would you say to the serial killer you just banged, who is crazy and married about the continuation of your relationship? Given that he really really does love you… Then I guess he would say all those things to you, wouldn’t he?

Why in the name of all that is holy do I keep getting myself into this emotionally loaded conversations? I suck donkey balls at angst and yet this is like the third or fourth angst heavy scene I have thrown at myself. Damn it. And I just want this over. 

Okay Mere, you want it over, bloody focus then! How do you want this to end?

With a body on the table and the promise of many adventures to come.

What is in their way?

Mary (check)

Mycroft (check)

Madness (check)

Murder (check)

Wow, that was actually very, very useful. Thank you my Skull!

that’s one thing i could never understand as a kid… i was never sure about everything. i was great at sounding like i was, and i kept my second, third and fifteenth guesses to myself, but they haunted me all day. i did say in the second grade that i was going to be a writer, and sometimes it feels like i have committed to something that doesn’t fit me, and i can’t say why. 

i witnessed the “do as i say, not as i do” a lot, and found more comfort in the gray space between what people wanted me to think and the chaos of the open-ended. i found refuge in categories when needed, but often found myself floating out at the edge of fields, nameless as the part of nature that just is. 

being able to name things is a double-edged sword. you can master particularity, but naming highlights distance. even micrometers. it is not me. i am not it. we aren’t. 

it tortures me inside, bubbles up and collapses on itself, the surface of venus, the infinite loop of a solar prominence. like a boomerang, some of that energy is inevitably mine and mine alone. that’s the loneliness of art. i want you, i want everyone to have it all! every scar, every tear, every smile, every glint of light on the leaves of virgina oaks in the lazy afternoon. but you can’t be me. i can’t be you. 

but i would never have tried to communicate if i hadn’t noticed a difference. a distance. our lack of oneness makes this experience beautiful, but it can be our undoing. 

anonymous asked:

Your theories are always fun to read! Do you not think Julian is dr alchemy?

I think he likely is Doctor Alchemy, yes. Mostly because his name is Julian Albert, while Alchemy’s name in the comics is Albert Desmond. It’s just that I ended up really enjoying what he contributed to 3.02, so I wouldn’t mind if Flash broke the mold for once and didn’t do a song-and-dance regarding the identity of the big bad before eventually revealing it to be Barry’s latest mentor.

That being said, someone was watching Flash fight The Rival, and I feel pretty confident it was Julian:

This means that Julian at the very least suspects Barry is the Flash and has been checking up on him, probably in the hopes of #exposing him or something. Or more likely, Julian is Doctor Alchemy and he doesn’t even know why he’s there.

Because an important thing to note about Doctor Alchemy is that in the comics he suffers from Dissociative Identity Disorder, which might explain why he is so focused on awakening people to their “true selves.” And it would explain how Julian can be a totally decent guy who just doesn’t trust Barry, and also … be the big bad of the season, lol.

you wanted a closure. you wanted to stop. you wanted an ending. but then you keep coming back to talk and tell me all the things you love to watch and i dont understand why you keep coming back when you wanted to stop in the first place. why why why why do you put me through all this? why do you assume that i am okay? i am tired of feeling trapped i dont know what to do and i keep holding myself back. and you dont seem to understand it hurts every atom in my body to just even hear your name s. z

I don’t know why people say what they say about me and do the things they do to me. I’m just a cool, considerate, sweet person and I don’t hurt anyone. I’m always making sure people straight. I could be dead broke and still put someone else before me. If anyone needs someone to talk to I’m always here. If they’re crying I’m always the one to wipe their tears. People throw dirt on my name and don’t even have reasonable expectations as to why. I love everyone and that’s my problem because I’m always getting hurt in the end

I was tagged by @lord-of-the-blackened-sun post info about me, thanks mate! Stay awesome.

  • Name: Tom
  • Age: 21
  • Occupation: Student/Research assistant
  • What do you like to do for fun? Kickboxing, MMA, Grappling, playing (bass)guitar, reading, ocassionally drawing as wel. 
  • Why you created a tumblr? My former girlfriend showed it to me and pushed me to have one as well. At first I was rather hesitant because we broke up shortly after. Anyhoo, here I still am, which basically means she was right (as usual)
  • How you describe yourself? Busy 24/7, kind, humble.
  • Your strengths: Depends on the situation around me and my personal situation, there has never been one thing that is my particular strenght.
  • Your weaknesses: Overthinking, loads and loads of overthinking. Crossing my personal boundaries too much and ending up in an even worse place.
  • Name an album that you listened recently: “In the wee small hours’ by Sinatra. That kinda mood.
  • An album that you NOT recommend and why: If there’s something I wouldn’t recommend, I won’t listen it in the first place. 
  • Fav bands/artists: Buckle up for a ride… Frank Sinatra, Chet Baker, Tony Bennett, Dizzy Gilespie, Kovacs, GUNSHIP, Kyteman, Linkin Park, Five finger death punch, Gorillaz, Melanie Martinez (I know they are not the same, my music taste just variates strongly depending on my mood)
  • Fav albums and why they are favs: “In the wee small hours” by Sinatra because the feelings are so pure. “GUNSHIP” by GUNSHIP, because their music is fucken amazing. That 80′s vibe is so present. “Hybrid Theory” by Linkin Park, because I’m a huge LP fan and this is by far their best.
  • Name 5 tumblr that you like: @headlesssamurai, @warrior-gentleman, @a-gentleman-thoughts, @military-life, @little-dose-of-inspiration
  • Selfie(optional): I won’t do that to you, eternal blindness is not something people usually like.

Thanks for the tag man!

there are a lot of things that piss me off about the idea that alec wouldn’t end up as the head of the institute but what that bugs me the most is that when magnus gave him that whole speech about following his heart, what was in alec’s heart was staying at the institute, running the institute, restoring his name as a shadowhunter after he had just realized his entire world wasn’t what he thought it was. the way that he chose to do it was flawed but he proposed to lydia because if he did so the institute would still be in his hands. he wanted to protect people, wanted to be a part of this greater cause, despite how built on lies a lot of it was and he thought if he could just lead the institute in whatever way was possible he could turn things around and get them back to where they needed to be. literally this is what he wants, this is his thing, why would you take that from him

Today felt weird. I felt throw up sick all day, it was raining and gloomy, I actually cleaned a few whole rooms, then I came home and didn’t study for the four very hard tests tomorrow morning at school. i’m exausted but can’t sleep, I feel as if i’ve accepted my shitty life and i just want it to stop and be over. Why can’t I have my anime fairy tail adventure with things that really matter going on? Also, why am I this shy now and closed off from the world. I have so much fucking homework and studying to do yet I lay in my bed and stress about it so I can’t sleep, but then instead of doing the work I end up watching movies or shows. That makes me stress worse so I can’t even get up early in the morning to study. I need to change my life around. Also I only have about $8 left to my name and am in real trouble. I can’t even get gas to go to the bank to get the void check so I can bloody get paid. I’m such a screw up. I just want my fairy tail adventure to come true, and I know I’m being stupid for wishing fiction to come true. It’s just that those episodes make me feel like theres stuff left in the world to look foreward to, like friendship and adventure. Yet despite all this, my life no longer has any happy and exciting things going on, nor do I feel like my friends, really like me. I’ve always felt like such a bother. I know I’m pushing everyone away and becoming even more alone but I can’t help it. Maybe it’s depression but I feel like it’s just the harsh reality of the world. None of this superficial shit actually matters, yet I can’t find what really matters, or hold onto it. Family matters, friends?, love matters (yet I feel unlovable) hope matters?, dreaming matters? I don’t understand. I’m looking for a purpose but I can’t find one. Maybe I’m just a downer, but I just want something more fufilling in my life. I know I’m young yet but still. 18 years already gone by and I’ve achieved nothing worthwhile. I’m disgraceful.

whoopsiedaisiedoo  asked:

Eiffel/Kepler definitely happened while everyone else was busy during need to know and they ended their whatever it was after all things considered Jacobi and Eiffel formed their club days later Hera attends all the meetings so she's the secretary Jacobi appoints Maxwell treasurer "why do you need a treasurer I didn't even date him?" "Not the point" Minkowski + Lovelace read transcripts of the meetings Lovelace can out dick-joke anyone and attends a meeting for the sole purpose of doing so

o m g 

all of these boys are so bad for each other let them have happiness (aka fulfilling relationships and space sex, you hear me jacoffel???)

anonymous asked:

What's your least favorite Sonic game that you've played?

Thanks for this question, I’ll answer them below and also a little bit of why I chose just them!

Sonic Adventure - when i’m either stuck at a level or at a boss I got so pissed about it and I was like “fuck this” even though I played them through in the end lol

Sonic Unleashed - I think some of the levels are annoying and I hate the last boss battle and sometimes it makes it just dreadful to play, I just don’t get the hype about it like everyone else do

but don’t think I hate or dislike these games because I DO NOT! I really love several things about these games, it can be everything from the scenery, graphics, dialogues, cut scenes you name it. It’s Sonic and I fucking love him and both games have a place inside my heart, it’s just that they are not in the same place as other games are 💖💖


Patient: “Doctor” Wayfaring, do you have a…ummm…supervising doctor over you?

Wayfaring: Mmm… no. It’s just me.

Patient: So how does that even work?  Are you an actual doctor? An MD? Or when will you be one?


 I’ve been an MD for four years already.

Patient: REALLY?! Then why do you have PA behind your name?

Wayfaring: I don’t. 


Yeah you do.

Wayfaring: *Shows her prescription pad and white coat with “MD” behind her name*. Nope. MD.

Patient: I could have sworn I saw “PA” on your sign.

Wayfaring: My name isn’t on the sign yet. And we don’t have any PAs. Maybe you saw my nurse practitioner’s name.

Patient: Hmmmmmm….. no. It was you. Where did you go to medical school? Where are you from? How did you end up here? **Continues quizzing me on side effects of his medications and things he heard on Lawyer commercials on TV**

Wayfaring: **Shuts all the questions down. Answers them ALL.**



Final Fantasy 7: Dirge Of Cerberus sentence starters ( p2 )
  • “We meet again”
  • “Answer me this: do you know why you even exist?”
  • "Just as I thought”
  • “You are ignorant to your own destiny”
  • “Enough games [ insert name ]”
  • “You can’t run!”
  • “You shouldn’t leave those things lying around”
  • “Oh, dear”
  • “I’m counting on you”
  • “Have you come to check up on me?”
  • “Though I can’t imagine what help they might be, if any at all”
  • “Just remember – I am so sorry”
  • “I.. I saw you again”
  • “No, it was my fault”
  • “If you managed to survive that wound, I’ll make sure you don’t survive the next one”
  • “No matter – the end is upon us”
  • “Is it true?”
  • “Is what true?”
  • “It’s true”
  • “Why are you so surprised?”
  • “I don’t know what you’re implying”
  • “We know what we’re doing”
  • “You are the last person to have any word in this”
  • “If you have something to say, say it”
  • “Are you sure this is what you really?”
  • “Am I SURE? Am I SURE? If this only concerns me, then YES, I’m sure!”
  • “How are you feeling?”
  • “You were a fool to let your enemy live. Now I’m going to kil you”
  • “I have to admit, I wasn’t myself back there”
  • “I’ve had time to recover”
  • “I’m not letting you get away — not this time”
  • “I don’t recall needing your permission to do anything”
  • “How about it? You wanna try your luck?”
  • “Why do you stand in my way?”
  • “I had to protect myself; you were trying to kill me”
  • “You’re no longer required”
  • “It makes me sick to even think of you as a member”
  • “But now, we no longer need it”
  • “Your fate has been decided; it is time for you to die”
  • “Why are you so surprised?”
  • “I’m sorry, I was only gonna rest my eyes for a minute..”
  • “Well, I have to admit, it is quite comfortable”
  • “Care to join me?”
Hindi/Urdu Challenge
  • Hindi/Urdu Challenge
  • by Nanhi

i decided to do it again lmao (i changed rooms towards the end thats why it suddenly sounds so different haha)

lotapani and tum-hi-ho-taco-bell thank you for the tag!

also @ the people i tag feel free to speak in your mother tongue even if its not hindi/urdu <3

my questions are:

1. Your name and username
2. Where you’re from in South Asia (specifically where in that country as well)
3. Say the following phrases:
- Chandu ke chacha ne chandu ki chachi ko chandni-chowk mein chaandi ki chammach se chatni chatai.
- Pakke ped par paka papita paka ped ya paka papita pake ped ko pakde pinku pinku pakde paka papita
- Khadak Singh ke khadakane se khadakati hain khidkiyan, khidkiyon ke khadakane se khadakata hai Khadak Singh.
4. What do you call your parents?
5. What do you call your grandparents?
6. How do you take your chai and how often?
7. Favorite chaat?
8. Favorite halwa?
9. Gol gappay or Pani Puri?
10. Chai or Cha?
11. Lengha or Sharara?
12. Choli or Blouse?
13. Bhangra or Garba?
14. Ha ya Na?: Fruit Chaat, Falooda, Achaar, Kulfi, Jalebi, Imli
15. Do you think you have an accent when you speak Hindi/Urdu?
16. Say any THREE curses your parents use on you! 
17.  Say a Bollywood movie dialogue

isse karne mein bara maza aaya (this was a lot of fun)

i tag deenasthussain momnaaa hypnotized-so-mesmerized trishathebrown disahara tulsatea wisdomofpearls rishtaywaliaunty zaidi-uncle shoegazing-hopeful goldthot browngirl pennazhagi chandigarhwaliye mangojuicequeen icapturedbeauty chettinadchutney dilkishehnaai sargoshiyan bombay-ki-barish halalgrl rimjhimbristi samosacentral prayatnaxxx shreeracha awarapann sadiaafzal fakedeepsamosa queensquidd pakistaniamreekani softle jahanpanah khubaani ziddi-armaan sarasaangi chillichicken namastayyyye sloth-vader vivalamas crawled amarjaan anday-waala-burger and anybody else who wants to do it!

(also if you want to hear this challenge in my indian accent then HERE IT IS haha)

ok abhi jao bye

as soon as someone says that they do not ship a certain pairing and why, part of the fandom defends said pairing to death, and even bully people for not liking the thing, or calls them names. “arrogant. trash. rude. bitch. dumb. you need to shut the fuck up, you ignorant slut”. people do not measure how far they can go with insults when it comes to dealing with real people, with real feelings. if you are a fictional character, in a fictional world, you must be protected at all costs, even if you’re wrong. but if you are a real person, with a real story to tell, with real problems, with real, daily struggles, who the fuck cares? let’s insult people, ignore the fact that they have feelings, too, and make them feel bad about themselves. at the end of the day, we will always be praised for not being afraid of expressing our opinion, even if by doing that we say names, call names and hurt people. it’s all about dragging them anyway.