honestly i relate so much to that quote “we accept the love we think we deserve”. like it’s so true?? i feel so uncomfortable when someone loves me. i wanna run away when someone shows too much interest. i feel so unworthy of love. i think all i want is to be loved, but i feel so bad when someone actually does love me. on the other hand, when someone i love treats me like shit i think it’s what i deserve. i only ever fall in love with the impossible.
What I’ve come to realise is that we crave the feeling of being loved, we crave attention and we need someone, anyone who we can give ourselves too. It’s a sad and destructive flaw but it’s also the one thing that drives us.