why we need explorers

They say they hate it, but I think they love it.
—  Robert Singer on fans not liking bad character decisions but watching still after the fact (via SDCC 2016: https://youtu.be/P4RV-CeBdUs)
Fight back! Why we need angry girls in YA
Real young adults need to see fictional ones self-destructing or fighting back because it’s ok to be angry.

I posted an article yesterday about reader’s seeing certain emotions more negatively in female characters than male, and one of those is anger. So I’ve found an article that explores why female anger shouldn’t be judged.

“We need stressed-out, angry teenage girls in YA fiction to mirror real life. We need to send out the Dahlian message to our angry girl readers: you are not alone.”

Anger is a reasonable and natural emotion for any gender, so it makes no sense for it to be looked at more negatively in female characters.

“Real young adults need to see fictional ones self-destructing or fighting back because it’s ok to be angry at the world’s injustices. It’s ok to shout and scream and cry. I think it’s ok to want revenge too. Natural, even.”

So don’t judge female character’s more harshly for being angry, or any similar emotion. There’s plenty to be angry about for all genders, so why are only females not allowed?

***SPOILERS: Bucky/Stucky in CACW #9***

I need to talk about the post credits scene. But to get there, we need to explore a little why Bucky chose to stay away from Steve for these past 2 years, because it’s fundamental to understand his mindset and decision.

Part of the reason is of course, his lack of memories, Steve got through his programming but Bucky needed to remember himself too. He needs to re learn basic things like when to sleep, eat, how to talk and ask for things, how to function like a human being again. When the collection of facts he reunited about himself finally starts to bring emotions with them, he still doesn’t go to Steve, he probably thought he was too broken to be someone that Steve would want again, not the same person Steve knew and would remember from before the war. He could never be James Buchanan Barnes again, not after everything that was done to him, not after everything that he’s done. He even express this feeling with

“I don’t know if I’m worth all this to you”.

If he still was sure he was James Barnes, he wouldn’t doubt how much he’s worth to Steve. His doubt comes from a place of  identity, of knowing for sure he’ll never be that to Steve again and fearing that he isn’t enough now to be worthy of Steve losing everything else for him. 

But the biggest reason that kept him away from Steve is that deep down he always knew he could be used again to hurt others, to hurt Steve.

“It always ends in a fight” and “I knew this would happen. Everything Hydra put inside me is still there”.

This is his biggest fear, to become a weapon again, kill again, hurt Steve again.

And Bucky obviously feels immense guilt for every person he killed while in Hydra’s control. He says to Tony

“I remember all of them”.

Every waking moment he tortures himself with the memory of murdering innocent people in cold blood, his nightmares must be horrible, so he keeps his distance from Steve, he knows his presence in his life will put Steve at risk also with the government and his friends, he knows all this, he remembers how reckless Steve is. And he thinks how Steve is good, he is so good, he shouldn’t have to deal with the tainted mess that he has become.

And how tragic is that all these fears become reality as soon as Steve steps back in his life? And after all that happened, it’s with this panic of being controlled again, of not having his agency and not being able to make his own choices and ending up hurting even more people and hurting Steve again that he makes the decision to go back to cryo, until people can be safe again, until he can feel safe again in his own body and mind. Because Bucky is a hero, of course he’d put others first than himself. The conflict in the movie doesn’t allow Bucky time to save somebody and remind people what his nature truly is and that he is redeemable. So when he puts himself last thinking first in Steve’s safety and others’ well being, he shows to those who insist in seeing him as a villain how noble he is and how he deserves to be seen as a hero. 

As Sebastian explained, Bucky has no reason to stay alive, he’d kill himself just to end all the pain and fear. But he can’t do that to Steve. So he chooses to go back to cryo until they find a way to remove the programming from his brain. Bucky is willing to face his trauma and go back to cryofreeze for Steve, because if was up to him, he would just put a bullet in his head. Steve is what is keeping him alive.

It’s clear that they talked about this before, because Steve checks one more time if Bucky is sure about his choice. The moment for protests already passed and were ignored, but still Steve checks once more, hoping for a different answer this time. When Bucky smiles, self deprecating and made up mind, Steve nods but he looks dead inside, he has no genuine reaction and his facial expressions only show how tired he is and how he gave up.

Steve spent all this time fighting the whole world for his selfish reasons, all to get Bucky back, to simply have to let him go now because it’s what Bucky wants. And he can be selfish with everybody else but he can’t be selfish with Bucky. It kills him, but he gives in for Bucky.  


Why We Need Explorers - Professor Brian Cox @ TED

In tough economic times, our exploratory science programs – from space probes to the LHC – are first to suffer budget cuts. Brian Cox explains how curiosity-driven science pays for itself, powering innovation and a profound appreciation of our existence.