why must it end tho

Last episode of the Franchise.

Laughed.  Cried.  Laughed.  Then cried.  Then laughed a whole lot @ the end.  That end was just… :]

The beginning with the woofleball.  BAHAHAHA.  “ARE YOU SERIOUS."  & the 10 collarbone dl.

With Tim… I was crying.  Because I was so reminded of 2008 & 2009, where Tim literally carried the team.  Completely.  Everything fell on his shoulders.  & I just started sobbing because I can’t imagine how much pressure it is on him - especially with his father’s philosophy of "It’s not what you’ve done for them; it’s what you’ve done for them lately.”

& then the personal journies I sobbed even more.  Panda coming back, bouncing back, getting healthy & kicking nice.  Belt coming up, being in limbo, but then summoning the strenght to succeed & then being embraced.  & the scene when he was originally called up… you can’t NOT choke up.  Vogelsong.  I love this man to death.  I haven’t watched ONE of his starts completely, mind you… because I jinx the fuck out of him.  But I am so proud of him.  Just… yeah.  & Zeet.  I have so much respect for you.  I know I hated you in 07 & 08… but now that I’ve gotten to know you, gotten to know your mind & how you take things so personally & how you go out there with your all & how fucked up it is sometimes… I love you so much.  & I am sorry things didn’t play out this year.  Oh & DeRosa… injuries injuries injuries.  I went to the game when you started to shine.  I hope you get some more chances.  I hope to hell you do.

& then the end… hopefully we can pull some wins out.  I honestly am not that positive.  I’m looking to 2012… because @ least that’s certain.  &… I don’t want to be heartbroken by expecting too much.  I’m realistic.  Right now, things don’t look too good.  But they may change.  I’m still keeping a relatively open mind.  But I’m not going to be delusional & say we’re going to automatically repeat.  That’s just daft.

CONSTELLATION BUZZ @ THE END.  & HUFF CUSSING OUT THE ASS CLOWN & EVERYONE WITH F-BOMBS & LAUGHING.

Oh & I love Brian Wilson.  You have no idea how HARD I LOLED @ THE PANCAKE EXISTENTIAL CRISIS HE HAD: “NO!  THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE!!!!"  SO HARD.  & his laughing is adorable.  Fucking adorable.  Damn I love this man.  Fucking hell.

WHAT IS THIS - A STAR CONVEYOR BELT?  BAHAHJAKJALKJA.

Oh & during the show my mom stated her opinion of Timmy’s right forearm: GOD, IT’S HUGE.

I uttered: THAT’S WHAT SHE SAID.

Yep.