bc of BPD I have this awful fear of abandonment whether real or perceived and so a lot of times when I tell people to leave me alone and they do for an extended period of time I go into Panic Mode and think that they’re abandoning me and I just Split More and 1) lash out bc they’re leaving me or 2) put up a protective barrier or 3) both! at the same time!
I dreamt I was at The Snakehole Lounge(I knew watching 3 episodes of P&R before bed was a good idea) and I was getting drunk with Aziz Ansari and Kristen Wiig while Craig Ferguson danced on top of the bar to Baby Got Back by Sir Mix-Alot. And then all of a sudden I was in a tattoo shop and I got ‘I love Batman’ tattooed on my ass and Joseph Gordon-Levitt was the tattoo artist but for some reason he talked like Tony the Tiger. After that I think dream me fell asleep, how very Inception I know, and when I woke up I was sleep next to a naked Chris Evans in a hammock in Central Park. And that’s all I remember. BEST. DREAM. EVER