why is this happening

INTP trying to go to bed
  • INTP: alright INTP nice job today, you actually got all your work done and it's only 10pm! time to treat yourself and go to bed and get some extra sleep. we all know you could use it
  • brain: wow look at this cool cat video why don't you watch it
  • INTP: pfft sure it's only a minute why not
  • INTP: okay now that I've watched this cat video let's go to bed
  • brain: no go write a story, you've had that idea for one for a while
  • INTP: hm writing does help me relax before bed
  • INTP: *spends three hours writing* dang that took a while, time to sleep
  • brain: but wait look at these theories of time isn't wikipedia amazing
  • INTP: ok now that i've had an existential crisis let me go to bed
  • INTP: please
  • brain: no
  • INTP: why
  • INTP: it's right there
  • INTP: i can just walk over to it and lay down and close my eyes
  • brain: ughhhuguhgu too much work :/
  • INTP: it's literally two feet away i could be asleep in five minutes
  • brain: oooorrrr...you could watch this hillary clinton remix
  • INTP: please let me sleep
  • brain: the ten hour version
  • Me: *has missed the last few Gotham episodes, has been absent from Tumblr*
  • Me: *checks the Nygmobblepot tag in hopes of some conflict resolution for some of the stuff that happened in the last episode I saw at best, Ed still being mad at worst*
  • Tumblr: DOCKS MEME DOCKS MEME doCKSMEME DOcKSMeME D O C K S M E M E DOCKS DOCKS MEME MEME HELL MMMWHATCHA SAY docks MEME
Introspection into Vex'ahlia

Vex'ahlia doesn’t hate Scanlan. Not for wanting to be a father to his daughter. Because she knows what it’s like to discover someone important and realizing you weren’t there for all their milestones in life. (She tries not to think about missing Velora’s first words, her first steps). Because she is not broken. At least not anymore. Now she has family to hold her together (she tries to forget Keyleth’s words of how “family always leaves").

Vex'ahlia doesn’t hate Kaylie for stealing walking away with Scanlan. Doesn’t envy her chance at connecting with someone so closed off to everyone else. Because Vex is not unwanted even as she heard Scanlan walk away from Vox Machina without hesitation. (She stomps down the familiar feeling of abandonment, similar to the time she and Vax snuck out of Syngorn and realized days later that Sildor did not even try to find them). Because Kaylie deserves a chance at getting a father. (She pretends not to hear the voice whispering how Kaylie is representing what Vex could have had.)

Vex'ahlia does hate the blond in front of her, Targaryen or whatever his name is. Because he carries himself with the same sense of self importance found in the entitled elf children who constantly bullied her brother. “It is not selfish,” she thinks to herself, “to take 50,000 gold from someone who can obviously afford it. (She does not acknowledge how her fingers are not just tingling with the desire to take but to hurt.) Because he hides behind lives of others. “It is not cruel to look down on a coward.” (She allows herself to project all her frustrations onto someone who does not matter.)

And when Vex notices the black, rotting spots growing on Fenthras the next time she pulls it out, well… She just saved the world, she can afford not to forgive the unfairness of life right now.

MY BRAIN IS MELTING

THE VOICE ACTORS FOR THESE MOTHERFUCKERS

ARE ALSO VOICES FOR THESE MOTHERFUCKERS

AND THE VOICE ACTORS FOR THESE FUCKING IDIOTS

ARE THESE IDIOTS

HELP ME I’M DYING

I am scared for all the minorities in the US right now, especially for the ones who can’t hide it because it’s in our natural physical appearance. Regardless of who wins, it won’t be safe tonight (and maybe even for days to come).

Please stay indoors. Please stay safe.

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Hi you may know me as @studywithinspo. it’s brian, my account got terminated or something I’m still trying to figure it out. I’m in contact with tumblr and i’m just waiting for a response. So here is what I’m up too for the time being, and hopefully soon i can get back to my account. Have a good day 🌿