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Hit Korean boy band BTS is ready to take over Anaheim

Rap Monster, one of the seven guys in the South Korean boy band BTS, says it was only at the end of 2016 that he and the others realized how huge their band had become around the world.

“Somebody in the company sent me a message: ‘You got No. 26 on Billboard OMG congratulations,’” says Mr. Monster, the 22-year-old rapper born Kim Nam-joon, by phone from Chicago where BTS was set to play on Thursday before hitting Honda Center for a pair of sold-out shows on Saturday and Sunday.

“At first I thought, 'Ha ha, your humor isn’t really very good,’” says Rap Monster, the leader of the group and its primary songwriter. “We didn’t believe it.”

But as more messages started to ping onto their phones he says the BTS boys realized it was no joke: Their sophomore album, “Wings,” entered the Billboard 200 chart at No. 26 after its October release, making it the highest chart position for any K-pop act – not to mention one that sings primarily in Korean – and offering a bit of foreshadowing for Billboard naming the record the best K-pop album of the year.

Since then things have only gotten sunnier for Rap Monster, Jin, Suga, J-Hope, Jimin, V and Jungkook. In February, “Wings” was re-released in a new edition as “You’ll Never Walk Alone,” and the combined editions have since sold nearly 1.5 million copies worldwide. Music videos for “Spring Day” and “Not Today” were released a week apart last month as well and exploded on YouTube where they’ve currently racked up 59.2 million and 60.1 million views respectively.

“When we heard that and really got that, I was saying, 'OK, this is going to be a whole other world,’” Rap Monster says of the significance of the Billboard chart success and all that followed. “And I feel like we should do something more, and dream something more.”

This past week they’ve taken a step toward something more, playing their first headlining and sold-out arena dates in the United States, after previously having mostly played on multi-artist billings at KCON conventions held here.

“So many people just to see BTS was really an honor,” Rap Monster says of the opening pair of shows at the Prudential Center in Newark, N.J. “It feels dreamy these days.”

Not, mind you, that it’s been anything like an overnight success or an easy road for him and the other BTS members.

He grew up a top student in his school who loved American rappers such as Eminem and Nas, performing even as he attended high school and eventually catching the attention of BTS future manager Bang Si-hyuk at BigHit Entertainment in South Korea. And though he says he gave up on music when he was 16, lacking confidence in where he was headed, he says Bang encouraged him to stay strong, believe in himself, and sign on as the first to join BTS, even though at the time he wasn’t sure who or what it would end up incorporating.

“I was not aware of the other members,” Rap Monster says. “But I like the company and I respect them. And he promised to me, 'I will make you do your music and get big someday, so please believe me.’

"So I believed him.”

The other six members soon were selected, each of them bringing different talents on the mic or on stage. Songs were developed by Rap Monster and the other members, with a team of producers working to craft the best music from the raw material, the melodies and beats, that they created.

“Our chemistry is different from other groups,” Rap Monster says. “Everyone has their own points and characteristics. If I’m a bad dancer, a good dancer teaches me. If I’m a good songwriter, I help the others with a good melody.”

We ask the obvious question: Are you a bad dancer?

He laughs and answers: “Yes, I’m a bad dancer.”

Their music is different from a lot of K-pop acts that have made ripples on the American airwaves. They’re not popular because of the novelty aspect of their songs – think “Gangnam Style” by Psy from a few years back. And they’re not quite as bubblegum as a group such as Girls Generation or as eclectic as the synthpop of f(x), the first Korean band to play the South By Southwest festival.

Instead, BTS often aims for that sweet spot where R&B and rap get together, the kind of stuff Justin Bieber might be doing if he sang in Korean and there were six Bieber variations with fashionable hair and eclectic yet unified fashion choices.

“BTS music sounds like it’s from America,” Rap Monster says. “We decide to always watch the trends and watch what’s going on over the world. America’s the No. 1 market in the world so that’s why people in America prefer us.”

As for communicating through the language divide, Rap Monster says that’s partly handled by the group’s wildly enthusiastic social media following: “Fans translate our lyrics and interviews,” he says of a following that has landed them at the top of Billboard’s Social 50 list for a total of 17 weeks since “Wings” dropped in October. “They’re able to say, 'OK, BTS is talking about us and our lives.’”

And it’s partly addressed through lyrical subjects that express the common hopes and dreams and fears and worries of any teenager or young adult in any country.

“Our lyrics are mostly Korean but we always talk about the young people’s lives and their minds,” Rap Monster says. “There’s something similar between every young person in the world, in America or in Korea. We share something together even if we use different languages or live so far.”

American fans are also the savviest music lovers in the world, Rap Monster says, which made heading out on this brief headlining tour a little bit intimidating at first.

“We actually were scared of performing in America as a solo act,” he says. “Their playlists are the best in the world. I was really nervous for them.

"But after we were on stage our fear disappeared. They’re like everybody, they’re like friends. Singing along all of the lyrics even through the raps. They know how to play, the rhythms and the dances.”

An aside here to share our favorite piece of Rap Monster trivia. You might be wondering whether he spoke through a translator. He did not. His excellent English skills were polished in the classroom but also at home through what he refers to as “a Korean mothers syndrome.”

“'Friends’ was really famous for the mothers in Korea for English education,” Rap Monster says of the hit American sitcom from the '90s. “It was kind of like a syndrome. Korean mothers make their kids watch 'Friends’ even when they were eating food or playing.

"I think it really helped. It has like 10 seasons, I think, and I watched it like more than five times through the 10 seasons. They use the gestures and expressions, like, Americans use, right? I think that naturally teaches me how to speak or how to make a gesture when you try to express some emotions.

"Thank you, 'Friends,’” he says, laughing. “God bless 'Friends’!”

Rap Monster recently collaborated with the American rapper Wale on the song “Change,” which like some of BTS’ other songs – and unlike most K-pop – touches on politics and societal issues. He says he’d loved Wale’s music for a few years when the opportunity to do the song came along last year “like a miracle, like a dream come true.

"The song has already come out and we shot a music video together, but still sometimes I lie in my bed and think, 'Did I really do something with him?’” Rap Monster says.

He knows that boy groups from Backstreet Boys and 'N Sync to the Jonas Brothers and One Direction tend to have a finite lifespan before members get restless to move on solo projects, acting gigs and other opportunities. But he thinks the variety of interests and musical genres that individual BTS members have can be handled on the side or even within the group, and BTS itself can carry on.

So while Rap Monster says he’d love to collaborate with Drake or Miguel one day, Suga feels the same way about Kanye West and Flume. Jungkook seems more inclined toward pop R&B – his dream musical partners would include Bieber or Charlie Puth. V is a little bit old school, having mentioned Norah Jones and the Fugees as on his wish list. Rap Monster ticks off the rest of the band: Jimin digs Chris Brown, J-Hope is into the similarly initialed J. Cole, and Jin is a fan of old-school showman Bruno Mars.

“I always tell them that every time we have hits under the name of BTS we shine the best when we are a team,” Rap Monster says. “I know all the seven members, they love music, and I know their No. 1 wish is for us to perform and make music and sing and dance.

"Maybe someday someone will want to be on a television show or be an actor,” he says. “I just hope they know all of the popularity and fame and money is from the name of our team. That’s not one person, everybody contributes to the team.

"Nobody knows the future. I just hope it can last as long as possible.”

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Highlights from Talks Machina (Episode 99)
  • New set!
  • Jon Heder’s coming back next week!
  • Sam had no plan B if the Fate die hadn’t worked out.
  • Sam thinks of it as poor planning on his part that Taryon didn’t talk to Vex ahead of time about thinking of leaving.
  • Ashley thinks it’s funny that people consider Pike to be the mom friend of the group. She thinks of Pike as “the little weirdo of the group”, but watching back bits and pieces, she can sort of see where people are getting it. Laura points out that the party all winds up tattling on each other to her in the process of getting her caught up.
  • Everyone is Sam:


  • Sam was surprised by everyone’s reactions - everyone was super happy and excited during the break, and then things shifted once they got back into character.
  • Ashley was surprised at how mad Pike was. She found herself trying to be nice but couldn’t, and realized Grog was in the same boat. Laura, on the other hand, thought Vex was gonna be more angry. Vex is also in the mode of “be really pleasant and say all the right things so he doesn’t go away again”.
  • Vex’s check noticed that his shadow was smaller.
  • Sam didn’t know this was going to happen when it did; Matt managed the timing, although they’d worked out some possible details beforehand. Jon Heder was legitimately never supposed to say “The Meat Man”, which gave the game away too soon, but it worked out perfectly for his character.
  • Scanlan disguised himself as a defense mechanism.
  • If they hadn’t recognized Scanlan, he wouldn’t have come back after delivering that info—that was their one shot.
  • A theory is floated that this was all a way for Sam to get twice as much fanart as everyone else. “Yes. No, it’s super dickish, I’m sorry.” Sam resolves to stop being the surprise guy in the next campaign.
  • Everyone tries to get Laura to spill the beans on what Vex was being mysterious about, but she refuses.
  • Travis refused to come on the show to talk about it this week; he’ll talk about it later, but not yet.
  • Laura isn’t sure yet whether Vex is gonna pull out the hat again.
  • Laura is very amused that Vax didn’t catch on to Vex having a secret. Sam: “Do you think he was being deliberately obtuse?” Laura: “No, I think it’s like Larkin.” If he’d pushed, she probably would’ve explained.
  • Pike mostly punched Lionel because Grog wouldn’t walk away from a fight, and she could tell how hurt he was.
  • Re: episode 100: “be there on time.”

Talks Machina: Dark Edition (with more lights than before)

  • Sam wins the roll for hosting and has some trouble adjusting. “What am I looking at? There’s just a teleprompter with a light flashing next to the word ‘Brian’.” “Skipping all of the good questions and just going to the weird ones…” “To Liam… oh, he’s not here.”
  • Asked why he decided to bring Scanlan down a darker path: “Scanlan started dying and it started messing with his head.”
  • Vex currently has zero gold.
  • Everyone reminisces about how they met Taliesin and how nice he is.
  • Advice to give themselves if they could go back to episode one. Ashley: “I would tell myself to not get a job so I could keep playing the game.”
  • Sam has two apps on his phone that make t-shirts instantly. The last shirt was made while showing Matt how the app worked.
Why G.C.F in Tokyo is the Jikook Holy Grail (Analysis)

Before reading this go ahead and re-watch G.C.F in Tokyo one more time, here’s the link so you don’t have any troubles: G.C.F in Tokyo (정국&지민)

Here is my first post on the matter that I recommend you read if you haven’t yet: Troye Sivan, GCF, Snoring during VLIVEs, and Jikook being inseparable…

I will need to add the usual disclaimer before I start so here it is:

WARNING ahead of time that I will be talking about Jikook/Kookmin possibly being in a romantic relationship so if for some reason that isn’t your cup of tea don’t read any further. Another thing: THIS IS ALL 100% SPECULATION NOTHING THAT I SAY AM I CLAIMING TO BE THE TRUTH. Nothing I say is meant to be offensive or am I in anyway trying to label these boys, this is a simply opening a discussion to different possibilities.

Now without further adieu… let’s begin. 

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7 times they noticed. (1/7)

(bc I need to make up for the langst I posted last night so here’s so comfort and a little bit of hurt. This is just Shiro’s, the other ones will be up soon. The only warning is a depiction of a panic attack.)


1. Lance winced as Shiro cut into him with words like he was expertly wielding Keith’s bayard. He would’ve found it funny how dad-like he was being, except: a) probably would cause Shiro to bail him out more, and b) it wasn’t very funny at all.

“Don’t you see how childish you’re being! This isn’t just serious, this is a matter of life or death, and your antics cannot get in the way. At the end of the day, do you want to be responsible for someone’s death?” The question sent a wave of nausea through Lance, and he was almost pulled off his feet by a wave of static that clouded his mind as something inside his chest burst. He grabbed his chest in alarm. His breathing was quickening. His chest was on fire. Oh god. Oh god. He curled inwards. Trying to protect himself.

“…” He tried to speak but no words came out, just harsh breaths as he lent against the wall, staring upwards through tears at Shiro who was frozen in fear.

“…Lance? Oh. Um… fuck.” If Lance was in any state of mind, he would have never let Shiro go for swearing in front of him, but as it was, it made Lance’s breath speed up. Shiro approached him like he would a possible hostile alien, slowly and with his hands outstretched. “Okay, Lance, if you can, put your arms around me and follow my breaths. Is that okay?” His voice was low and non-threatening, and in response Lance nodded slowly. His hands shaking as Shiro sat next to him, putting his hand on Lance’s arm. Shiro started taking audible, slow breaths. Lance winced as this effort made his breathing uneven, alternating from barely controlled slow breaths to shaky shallow ones.

“Thanks.” He choked out. Shiro shook his head.

“Don’t talk, just focus on the breathing.” Lance had enough humour to roll his eyes at him, and melodramatically breathed in and breathed out, causing Shiro to laugh, before his smile melted into a concerned frown.  “I’m so sorry Lance.”

“Don’t be. You’re right, of course.” Lance looked down, not willing to meet Shiro’s eyes.

“Just because you were goofing off doesn’t mean I should have said that. It was way out of line. I just –” Shiro trailed off.

“I’m scared too.” Lance responded quietly. “I know. I know that this is a life-or-death thing, but I just can’t think about it. I’m not like you, or Keith, or Allura. I have to distract myself. If I think about for one second someone else dying on my account I just –” Lance’s breath started to quicken again, and Shiro stopped him, beginning the audible intakes and exhales of breath once more. Lance found his voice again. “You’re good at that. Unsurprisingly.”

“Well, thank Coran actually.” Shiro smiled as Lance scoffed. “No really, apparently they’re quite common for Alteans as well as humans. I still get them occasionally, but they were really bad when, you know…” Shiro trailed off before gathering his thoughts once more. “Listen. Are you alright?”

Lance laughed nervously.

“Yeah, of course buddy, don’t worry about it.” He patted Shiro’s arm, got up from the ground and started to walk away when he felt Shiro’s metal arm on his shoulder.

“Really. We all deal with trauma differently, and I’m worried. These coping mechanisms are all fine and good until they start hurting you and other people.” Shiro was staring down at him and Lance shrunk under his worry. Of course Shiro was worried about the others.

“I’m really sorry I’ve been a pain.” He laughed, rubbing the back of his head in a mockery of sheepishness. “I’ve been distracted but don’t worry, to quote our lord Efron, I’ll get my head in the game.” Shiro’s frown did not disappear. “Seriously, dude, don’t worry.” Lance smiled.

“Just, if you need to talk, please do. Whatever problems you have are important, not just for the team’s performance, but for your health as well. Okay? And if you can’t talk to me, talk to Hunk, or Pidge, or even Keith.” Shiro insisted, gesturing emphatically as Lance rolled his eyes. “Please.”

Lance’s face softened, his mask melting away.

“I’m just so scared. What if I never see my family again?” His already tear-filled eyes began brimming once more. “And I’m so scared that I’ll mess up everything, I mean, how the hell can I compare to you guys? Keith’s an amazing combatant, Coran and Allura are the best at strategies, you’re a great leader, Hunk’s an awesome engineer, and Pidge is just a genius!” Shiro stared at Lance as tears spilled down his cheeks.

“I’m so sorry I didn’t notice.” He pulled his hands over his face. “God, and I’m supposed to be the leader.” Shiro straightened up, looking at Lance. “I can’t express how sorry I am. I forget, I suppose, that you’re children. But know we’re all terrified; and know that we couldn’t do it without you. Because your joking does help, Lance, it breaks the mood and reminds us why we’re fighting - for our humanity. You’re important.”

Lance stood in shock. He wiped the tears off his face.

“Gosh Shiro, you’re such an old man!” He started laughing.

Shiro crossed his arms and stared at Lance. His frown didn’t reach his eyes.

“Come on you youngin, we’ve got training to do.” He walked out of the room, shaking his head. Lance smiled. Maybe things were alright, even if he was just saying it to pacify him. Still. It counted.

perhaps.


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(nb as of 6/4/17: Hunk is up (along with the Shiro and Pidge ones) others will follow! Edited to flow better, thanks to the anon who mentioned it.)

(nb as of 7/4/17: Coran is up!)

(17/4/17: Allura is posted!)

(this is platonic btw please do not tag as shance or anything similar.)

It’s Difficult (WTLYBF) - 3

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“Wait, you’re serious? You actually said that?!” you ask Jungkook, who was walking next to you. He nods, laughing along loudly with you. You told him about Tae, and now you two were talking about your dumb crushes and embarrassing moments around them. Jungkook knew about your crush on Taehyung, so he felt bad and tried to cheer you up: He succeeded at that because all that was on your mind were the stories you could tell him about your past crushes. “What about you? What’s something weird you’ve said to your crush?” Jungkook asks you, giving you his adorable bunny smile. “I told him he had nice legs as a joke..yeah, it’s fair to say he lost the little interest he had in me.” You both giggle about your short story, Jungkook saying something about how weird you were. “Hey, are you hungry? There’s a small restaurant nearby.” You nod and follow Jungkook to where the restaurant was. Once you entered, the smell of the delicious food went through your nostrils. You couldn’t wait to eat. Your thoughts were interrupted by nearby laughter that sounded familiar. Turning, you see Taehyung and Jiyeon sitting across from each other, laughing and holding hands on top of the table. They looked cute together. It made you feel sad again, knowing your best friend was meant to be with the guy you really liked. A hand fell to your shoulder, giving it a soft squeeze. Jungkook’s eyes reflected sympathy, a soft smile on his features. You smile back and follow him to the table. When you sit down, a sweet waitress comes over and starts you with a drink. Once she leaves, Jungkook begins to talk to you. As rude as it seemed, you ignore him and think to yourself.

Why was the universe against me? All your life people have said Jiyeon was the prettier friend, and you never minded until now. Her perfect self won Taehyung over without even knowing it. You began to feel insecure. Not only that, but a small envy towards your own friend. All because of Taehyung. But the more you thought about it, it wasn’t just that. There were more reasons. Jiyeon was a good friend, but she had her bad times. Times where a bitchy side would come out. Maybe guys like that. Nonetheless, you loved her company. Hopefully she treats him right, which you had no doubt about, and hopefully he doesn’t break her heart. You were so caught up in your thoughts you didn’t notice the waitress come back for your drinks.

“Y/N, you good?” You nodded and smiled at the waitress in apology, bowing your head slightly. You ordered the same as Jungkook, the older lady smiling at you two. “Are you two a couple? You’re very cute.” Tae and I would get mistaken for a couple a lot. Jungkook was about to deny but you shook your head at him. “Couple discount,” you mouthed, making him ‘oh’ and smirk. “Yeah, we’ve been steady for a few weeks.” He grabs your hand from across the table and gives it a squeeze. “That’s sweet, young love. Would you like a couple discount?” You two look at each other and smile cheekily. “Sure.” She nods and smiles once again before leaving, entering the kitchen. After you’re sure she’s gone, you two laugh. “You’re smart.” You flip your hair jokingly, “I know.” It then hit you that Jungkook was still holding your hand. You chose not to say anything, liking the feeling of warmth. Instead, you lifted your other hand and intertwined it with his. Jungkook didn’t mind and just smiled, laughing. “Are you hitting on me?” You let out a fart noise, “you wish.” He pretends to cry, making an ugly face that made you laugh loudly.

Minutes into your conversation, a figure appears between the both of you. You thought it was the waitress, but it was someone else. Taehyung. “Oh, hi.” you say, a bit awkwardly. “Hey.” he responds, putting on a tight forced smile. Was he mad? If he was, you were beyond confused. He was with his girlfriend, having a good time. And he also knew you were hanging out with Kookie today. After your awkward greetings, nothing else was said. “I wasn’t aware you and Kook were a thing.” Taehyung mutters. “Oh- we’re actually not. It’s all just for a couple discount.” He nods, looking away before looking directly at you again. “Well you sure do seem like a couple.” “Well, that’s a good thing. It’s more convincing.” Jungkook blurts. He had this look of annoyance in his eyes, but you weren’t sure why. His jaw seemed sharper, so he must’ve been clenching it. You gave his hand a reassuring squeeze, sending him a sad smile when he turned to look at you. “Okay then. I’ll be leaving, bye.” You say a goodbye too and watch him leave. Jiyeon waited for him at the exit, looping her arm with Tae’s once he was in her reach. You watched as they left, Jiyeon pecking Tae’s cheek as inaudible words came out of his mouth.

“Here’s your food, enjoy.” You and Jungkook thank the waitress, letting each other go to eat properly. The food was delicious, your mouth watering at the taste. “God, how come you never showed me this place?” You ask, taking another bite. “You were always with Taehyung so I never had the chance.” You nod, looking down. “B-But today I had the opportunity so I took you here. It’s good isn’t it?” His answer was immediate, seconds after his first comment. You found that weird, and not only that but his stutter. You shrug it off. “Yeah, delicious. This should be our hangout spot.” Looking up, you see Jungkook nodding. After you both finish, you go up to pay, making sure to leave a tip. “Is it just me or is it colder?” you ask once you’re outside, pulling your sweater’s sleeves more up to your hands. “No, it is colder.” Jungkook responds. You huddle together, shoulder to shoulder. There was a bit of heat, but anything helped really. “Kookie?” He hums in response. “Thanks for agreeing to hang out. I made up a lie about us having plans to avoid Tae. Fake, I know; but I can’t keep myself together if we’re together, it makes me think that all we’ll ever be is friends.” you explain. “It’s no problem. Just text me whenever you need me.” You nod and hug his arm. “You’re the best.” Jungkook laughs. “I know.”

»part 3 for y'all, earlier than I thought I’d upload it haha. my phone is at 11% wow, I spent around an hour or two to write and edit so it’s good for you guys 💕thanks for enjoying this series and taking time to read it. part 4? ;)«

part 1 part 2 part 4 part 5 Part 6 Part 7 (JK Ending) Part 7 (Tae Ending)

hulahoopingingthesand  asked:

Can you rec any Sterek fics with insecure Stiles? I seem to be in the mood for them. Thanks!

This rec list is all over the place, with canon compliant fics, AUs, A/B/O dynamics, everything! Hope you enjoy!

INSECURE STILES

We Prefer Good Love to Gold by i_am_girlfriday

This week on Millionaire Matchmaker: Supernatural Edition - Derek Hale, a thirty-year-old millionaire venture capitalist and beta werewolf, finally gives into his sisters’ pressures to start dating again and reluctantly agrees to use the services of a supernatural matchmaker. Stiles Stilinski, at age twenty-five, just sold his start-up to Google for undisclosed millions, and ends up on a reality dating show when his true alpha best friend tries to help him get over his broken heart.

The last thing anyone expects is for the two eligible bachelors to fall in love with each other behind the scenes.


Worst Case Scenario by SpiritsFlame

Stiles is good at compartmentalizing bad news. It’s partly a learned behaviour, and partly because of his well practiced coping technique. It may not be the most emotionally healthy thing to do, but it gets him through the day.


He Blinded Me With Library Science by mklutz

Stiles blinks. “Right, the reading room. Do you have your, uh …library card?” he asks. He’s never been able to make that sound normal and not vaguely dirty when he actually means wand.


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Thot Thoughts: Behind the Scenes

Note: From now on I’m going to use the phrase “honey relationships” to differentiate spoiled girlfriend relationships from SB/SD relationships - just for the sake of clarity. I’ll also be using the phrase “honey boyfriend” to differentiate spoiling boyfriends from sugar daddies.

One of the biggest differences between a sugar relationship and a honey relationship is the time that you are “behind the scenes.” What I mean by that is the real time and effort that we expend looking fabulous, maintaining our appearance and health, and doing the personal things we need to do to keep our minds and emotions right. 

As a sugar baby, the time you spend with an SD tends to be limited. Sure, you may have a night out - but how much time do you spend getting ready for it? A few hours doing your hair and makeup, all of the exercise and careful eating you do beforehand to maintain your physique, the careful shopping to find the perfect outfits, shoes, lingerie. It’s a lot!

What an SD sees is your final product: opening night. He doesn’t see what’s behind the curtain. 

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A honey boyfriend has more access to you, and therefore he’s going to see a lot more of those behind the scenes moments. This can cause problems! It can ruin the mystique and excitement. It can take away your magic as the prize that he’s worked so hard to attain. 

So what’s a girl to do when you live with your honey boyfriend or you spend so much time together that him seeing you behind the scenes is inevitable?

How to Make Behind the Scenes an Intimate Experience

1. Channel your inner glamorous goddess. Find yourself some beautiful dressing gowns/robes (on his dime of course)! I personally love kimono style robes because I think they’re flattering on everyone and since they’re floor length, you can literally be completely naked underneath and if you need to run out and grab the newspaper or change the laundry, at least you will look damn good doing it. 

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2. Lounge in style. Girls, I do not know of nor have I ever seen a single woman who did not look bomb in yoga pants and a slouchy, off the shoulder top. Get rid of your ratty around-the-house clothes and get some flattering, sensual lounge clothing. My go-to is The Limited - I really like their Lounge collection. Some athletic wear that’s more designed for yoga and pilates is also great for just hanging around the house, but the booty is poppin’ and your shape is lookin’ lit. 

3. Create a beautiful space where the magic happens. I have a vanity with my perfume, makeup, hair products, and a few pretty little tchotchkes to add decor (an expensive masquerade mask from a fetish event we attended, a small ring and bracelet holder, etc.) Play some sensual music while you get ready - jazz, classical piano, R&B, whatever your jams are. When you sit down to do your makeup and hair, your honey now sees you as not only a beautiful woman, but someone who has let him into your most intimate moments. 

4. Cut the ditz crap when you’re choosing an outfit. Every man I have ever dated has communicated to me the annoyance and frustration of dealing with my indecision in choosing outfits. It’s the equivalent of being in midtown traffic - start, stop, start, stop. Once you choose an outfit, stick to it! 

5. Make your health regimen Insta-worthy. This one requires some commitment, but try not to look crazy when you go to the gym if you know your honey is going to see you before, during or after. Yes, we know you’re there to sweat. But throwing on a pair of diamond studs and just making sure your hair is slicked back so you don’t have those random alfalfa frizzies doesn’t take much time. Having cute activewear is easier than ever because so many companies are entering the market. Some of my favorite coordinated activewear sets are from Old Navy! Just like you’d coordinate your bag and shoes to go to dinner, it doesn’t take much to just make sure your sneakers and headband are the same color - and it makes a huge difference. You go from “average attractive girl at gym” to “sugar baby at gym still looking fly as fuck.”

5. Some things should still remain behind-the-behind-the-scenes. Your bowel movements, hair removal methods, menstrual activities, pimple popping (don’t do it but if you do), face masks, foul smelling hair treatments all need to happen when he’s not around or behind closed doors. Nothing kills the fantasy of a dazzling sugar baby like the stench of a recently blown up bathroom - put that Febreze or Lysol spray within reach at all times. 

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You may need to get creative with when these things happen, but trust me - it’s worth it. As for menstrual activities - I have been using Thinx for several months now and my life has changed infinitely for the better. If you have a light to medium menstrual flow like me, you probably won’t even need to buy tampons or pads anymore! I haven’t for at least six months. 

6. Limit the negative self-talk. You wouldn’t air your insecurities to your sugar daddy. Why? Because you are marketing yourself as someone valuable and worthy of investment. You don’t draw attention to flaws. The tendency and the habit is to share those feelings with your honey, but try to nip that as much as possible. When you harp on that little bit of tummy fat, those stretch marks, and other “flaws” of your physicality, you draw his attention to them. He may not even have noticed them until you pointed them out! Case in point: I am very insecure about my teeth. I have a crooked smile and I always have. I said this in passing once to an ex-boyfriend who was shocked “I never really noticed, I guess I just like that your smile is different.” Mind you, after I brought it up, several times he asked me if I would consider getting braces. He got the boot for other reasons, but you see what I’m saying.

7. Give yourself ample time to get ready and avoid the manic panic. We all know stress is contagious. If you know it takes you two hours to get ready, give yourself two and a half if you can! That way you are relaxing, your man is watching this beautiful transformation, and you’re not running through your house like a bat out of hell trying to get your life together.


*edited because damn I really can’t count lmfao

" if David Bowie hasn't slept with Styles yet, then he doesn't resemble Jagger.” VERY LONG THREAD of parallels

Alright if you want it so badly… You really wanna go there…

You really want me to give you the dirt…

NOT SAYING THEY ARE SPOT ON DOPPELGANGERS 

btw

Any Rolling Stones fans, please don’t take this the wrong way, i will not say one is better than the other. This is just for us to celebrate their similarities. And as the song goes “ Mick Jagger could be Harry’s dad. Vas Happenin’ mum? Vas Happenin’ Mick? “

Exhibit a)

Them laughing together sure is something.

Awe cuddling and relaxing. Nice!

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written confessions

in which Vernon confesses  to you through an essay

masterlist 

Originally posted by sneezes

  • ok ok so vernon
  • is in love with you 
  • like that kind of love where you just want to spend all your nights screaming along to harry styles songsmith and eating pizza with kind of love 
  • you’re in his mandatory English class and it’s honors cause ur a real smart b in this shit 
  • and you’re a fucking legend in your college for being real good with writing and once you had to peer edit each other’s papers and he took it back to his dorm expecting to be bored af cause he doesn’t think the rumors are true and is ready to make small comments and he literally cries instead
  • like wow??? you literally moved him with your paper???
  • and Vernon wants to be a rapper and move people with his words and he’s just blown away with how you’ve managed to move him to tears with your paper 
  • he takes his time commenting back your paper and even adds a lil gold star star from his sticker collection cause he’s so stoked 
  • but when he gives your paper back to you you mention the star and he gets rlly embarrassed and starts apologizing and turning all red but you just smile at him 
  • and it takes his breath away 
  • and then you point at the paper you handed back to him and his has a gold star too
  • “i have a sticker collection” you tell him proudly before turning back to your paper and reading his comments 
  • and fuck, Vernon is a goner 
  • he tries to talk you from then on
  • but you always seem uninterested, you’re polite, but kind of hard to talk to 
  • legend says you don’t want friends, only want to write 
  • he’s disappointed by this and is about to give up when one day you catch him scribbling some lyrics in his notebook when he’s suppose to be paying attention in class wHoops
  • he tried to cover them up , embarrassed cause a mofo legend is reading his crappy song lyrics but you stop him
  • “those are some nice lyrics, you’re very talented” you tell him, smiling that cute smile of yours
  • and he swoons and he’s so fucking happy like he’s in cloud nine for the rest of the day 
  • the next time he sees you it only intensifies when you sit next to him and slide a leather journal to him
  • he’s confused at first but then you smile at him with encouragement 
  • “you should keep your lyrics somewhere you can go back to, always keep your talented where you can find it” 
  • at first he tells you it’s fine, but you tell him it’s fine, it’s an odd journal you never used  
  • but it still has a brand new tag sticker and it smells new 
  • but he’s just so happy that you thought of him he doesn’t even bother to stop you 
  • because you think he’s talented 
  • no one ever had told him he’s really talented and it’s worth being kept and after that you guys talk about lyrics and become rlly close
  • until….
  • he sees you it’s in the hallways and he’s so exicted he waves at you and it’s only heightened when you wave back at him 
  • but his smile drops when he sees a boy with you and you turn back to the boy and smile such a bright smile it kills him
  • he stops looking at you after that because he’s hurt and it’s not your fault but he’s really disappointed
  • you catch him writing in his notebook instead of the journal you gave him and he started using and although he’s been avoiding you and you try to give him distance you ask why why 
  • and he snaps at you
  • “because i didn’t want that damn journal in the first place”
  • and his anger is replaced with self-loathing when he sees your face drop
  • but before he can explain himself, you turn around and as soon as the class is dismissed you bolt out of there 
  • vroom VRoom bitches i just got my heart broken 
  • anyways he tries texting you to apologize but you just say it’s ok and that u need to work on your essay so kindly plz leave me alone
  • he’s really disappointed 
  • but then realized 
  • he loved you and there’s no way he can just continue to mess shit up
  • so he decides to rewrite his assignment on what the best thing about college has been for him
  • and he writes it on falling in love 
  • with you
  • he’s so nervous when he prints it out and he asks you to peer edit with him
  • he tells you he wants to do it the peer editing together so he can see ur reaction
  • so y'all head to his dorm 
  • and he’s sweating and all red as you start reading 
  • he watched as your face goes from “ah words” to “oH fUCk whAt?!”
  • he starts panicking and tries to tear the paper from your hands but you pull back 
  • “READ MY PAPER”
  • “WHaT?”
  • “READ MY PAPER”
  • so he does, hands shaking cause he just confessed his undying love for you but you still want him to peer edit your paper before saying anything like what the fuck 
  • but fuck
  • your paper is about falling in love with a boy who has a sticker collection and is a genius at rapping 
  • and he’s crying 
  • and you’re crying 
  • and then he kisses you 
  • and it’s perfect 
  • the end

teasdays  asked:

Hi please PLEASE talk to me abt the socioeconomic state of japan in bnh verse I am SO interested to hear ur thoughts? I'm a poli theory major and let me tell u im a SLUT for fic that deal w the political/social repercussions of fictional happenings

sure thing! 

disclaimer: i only just graduated high school so i’m pulling all of this out of my ass one semester of macroeconomics i took in senior year. feel free to add onto or correct any of this 

edit: if anyone wants to use this for reference when writing boku no hero japan, feel free! i’d appreciate any credit, but it’s not necessary. 

what really got me thinking about the socioeconomic state of boku no hero japan was probably the difference between orudera junior high (bakugou and izuku’s school) vs. yuuei, both of which are in the same city, musutafu. orudera junior high gives off the feeling of a school that’s a bit run down; not terrible enough that it obstructs the kids’ education, but enough that you think the school probably can’t afford to keep it in good repair. 

here’s a screenshot of bakugou and izuku’s classroom:

and then here’s izuku’s desk, which has details indicating that it’s in slight disrepair: 

if you go back through the chapters and look at the setting at yuuei, it’s spic-n-span. just super clean and well-kept. it’s an entire world of difference… so already there is this huge disparity between the junior high school in izuku’s neighborhood, and yuuei, which is a 40 minute subway ride away (chapter 3).

makes sense that yuuei would be so nice and expensive if it’s the most prestigious hero academy in the country, right? but there’s more details too, like this brief exchange between bakugou & iida right at the very beginning: 

bakugou’s resentful comment about iida being an “elite” really only makes sense to me in the context of economic disparity. let’s infer that soumei junior high is better funded, better equipped, better everything in general. of course bakugou will resent iida for that, especially coming from the more ill-maintained orudera junior high. the difference in their economic status is already apparent. 

this isn’t even going into the difference between yaoyorozu’s incredibly rich status vs the rest of the class vs uraraka, who has decided to become a hero because she wants the financial security, and who also lives in an apartment by herself and skips meals to save on money. so even within the class itself there’s a huuuge difference in economic status. 

you could just think of it as the individual circumstances of the characters, but i think it’s more of a systematic problem – see, again, the difference in infrastructure quality between the different schools (the public school is not doing so great but yuuei is doing fantastic). maybe the city is poor, or maybe all of its funds go towards repairing the constant property damage from villain attacks, or maybe there’s just some areas they don’t care to maintain. either way: just by traversing different parts of the city you’ll probably see big differences in how well the neighborhoods are kept. 

and now, for a different question: if this is the golden age of peace, why are there still so many villain fights? 

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The Greatest Sin of the "The Last Airbender"

This has been in my drafts since forever, so I’m just going to post it. 

Ok, Lake Logai, there is no movie in Ba Sing Se, blah blah blah…

Now that we have that out of the way…

While watching the movie that doesn’t really exist, I realized something. I don’t think the worst part of the movie is the shitty ass bending, the terrible action sequences, the bad editing, or the racebending. Sure, those are all pretty terrible and atrocious, and you can talk at length about how all those things suck, but there is one crime that overshadows all of these bad decisions, a crime so terrible that not even doing everything else right could save it. Ladies and gentlemen, the biggest crime of “The Last Airbender,” is that it lacks agency and nuance. 

People just do things to get from point A, to point B, and you barely feel anything for the characters. Aang’s a whiny, emotionless little shit (wow, I can’t believe I just said that); Sokka is emotionless, humorless, and incredibly monotone (well, movie!Katara and movie!Aang are too but that’s besides the point); Katara is fucking annoying, and too busy narrating to actually have character; Iroh is way too serious; and while Zuko at least had the brooding part down, you don’t really feel bad for him the way you do for show Zuko.

And, as far as agency goes, the movie is completely lacking in it. I don’t want to sound like a dumbass here, but it’s exactly like watching a historical documentary that does nothing to show you why people did the things they did and why things happened. It just says “here are a few interesting facts, watch as I completely butcher everything by sucking the soul out of all your favorite characters.” 

Everything seems to revolve around this emotionless world savior that ran away not because he was a 12 year old kid burdened by the responsibility of being the Avatar, but because he couldn’t have a family. And when he does come back, he’s barely trying to struggle with the consequences of his actions, and everyone begins to rally to his flag on the spot. Why? In the show, at least, they tried to say “hey, look, your actions have consequence,” “hey, we’re not going to rise up just because you’re the Avatar." 

That’s what made the show so special. It showed consequence, it showed that these people had lives and identities. But somehow, M. Night Shyamalan managed to suck all that from the movie.

The writing is also, of course, terrible, way too wordy, and filled with needless narration and exposition. People just randomly say things without paying attention to their surroundings. What’s the deal? 

At the same time, a bit of the writing could work, but Shyamalan ruins it by dropping lines at the worst time possible (”This was their practice area,” “The Firelord’s son.” I DON’T FUCKING CARE!). 

That, and I don’t want to say "in the show” again, but when Shyamalan does use the lines from the show, or something similar to those lines he:

  1. Gives those lines to different characters which doesn’t make sense and robs the original characters of possible character development.
    1. Example: Iroh getting Aang’s lines about balance. 
  2. Makes characters stupid by asking stupid ass questions
    1. I’m looking at you, Yue.
  3. Robs characters of their own agency and motive. 
    1. For example, instead of Yue choosing to sacrifice herself because she feels like it’s her duty, she needs Iroh to tell her to do it. 
    2. Prior to that, instead of Aang showing off how spiritually enlightened he is, his lines about the Moon and Ocean spirits bringing balance to everyone is given to Iroh. Which, although it make sense for him to say, still robs Aang of possible character development.Granted, he had little character to begin with.
    3. Aang getting Katara’s “Imprisoned” speech

It’s strange to watch this, and then see an interview that was made prior to this movie’s creation where Shyamalan sounds enthusiastic and knowledgeable about this world. What happened, Shyamalan? Apparently a lot of the changes were out of Shyamalan’s control, but I don’t really buy it due to how terrible this movie was. The writing, and timing was still awful.

That, and after watching enough of Nostalgia Critic’s M. Night reviews, you start to see a consistent pattern. 

And I just want to point out that, if you watch the behind the scenes stuff, Noah Ringer does actually act like he could have been a good Aang. 

So, what happened? I know he has never acted before, but still.Bad direction? 

But, back on the topic of agency, there were just a lot of opportunities to have characters develop, interact, and grow. But instead everyone’s a stick in the mud. Take this deleted scene for example:

Ignoring the fact that there’s no bending for whatever reason (even though Yue already sacrificed herself), this would have been a great time for Aang to drop his “but I’m just one kid” line. Technically, it wouldn’t add much because, as I said, Aang’s character in this movie is basically cardboard, but at least it would give us the sense that he had doubts.

 And, on top of that, all that, you have Katara seeing that Sokka is upset by Yue’s death (and the collar-grab was very out-of-character but that’s besides the point), and ignoring his feelings, before managing to calm him down by simply telling him to stop.

God, damn, people, show some emotion.

In the mean time, if you haven’t already, feel free to watch the Nostalgia Critic’s review of “The Last Airbender.”:

Looks™ by Even

lets start off with mr. hot and movie star even, just casually sitting there with his feet propped up on the table like nbd and don’t be fooled, he actually is this flawless 

imma just take a moment to now mention joint-tucked-behind-my-ear even, its crucial to show how extra even really is

and just for the aesthetic, imma add the oh so famous remake of the talk show host scene where even is a literal movie star figure and he just HAS to bring out the shades because he’s that guy

we got some lounging!even w his hood up, no shoes, chilling on the floor action going on. theres more hoodie up action coming up, stay tuned 

now this is just put in here because even is just so effortlessly beautiful but this is even tryna act cool and collected but secretly his heart is beating super fast

now for one of my personal favorites, the time where even got us ALL shook with his extra ass self, with the whole jean jacket shoulder thing going on. honestly, he’s too extra, why is he like dis

LETS NOT LET THIS MASTERPIECE BE FORGOTTEN 

next we got wet hair and wet body and wet shirt and just WET even with his shoulders just there being all broad and hot and ugh wow what a look (shook)

hey we got another example of this hood up cute look by even. what a puppy. what a lil baby. isaks lil baby. so cute wow, PLUS he’s wearing our favorite shirt thats been passed around

now we got “hey we just had a magical day which included lots of great conversations and cuddling and i slept over but i snuck out in the morning and haven’t spoken to you in like 2 days but hey im back and imma fuck around and hook up with sonja in 2 days but i look good” look. honestly what even is that scarf

another personal favorite, frat boy, super chill and laid back even. honestly, ill be very offended if i don’t see this kind of guy in frat parties next year when im off at university. that is all.

ok now my heart is breaking at this one but here is “i just broke your heart and my own heart but im just going to watch over you by a distance and hope you’re out and sneak drawings into your locker and pocket and ill still love and wait for you and maybe purposely run into you in the shop” look

heres a lil sad puppy whose terribly in love and just wants to b loved and saved in return and is sorry for leaving but is also really horny and wants to fuck

and now we got even being the flawless being that he is and rocking the whole white shirt thing with isaks grey sweatpants. “mr. cooking in the kitchen the morning after. mr. i didn’t leave this time, im here, i love you. mr. I LOVE GABRIELLE. mr. say im the man of your dreams” look with his signature lil hair piece flopping on his forehead

self explanatory. we can’t forget even’s pale ass getting mAC DONAldSS

bringing back another personal fav: the look where even is terrified and super in love but he’s also really ill and just needs someone to save him and be there for him. protect this boy at all costs please

here we have cuddly and sleepy and ill even but not to worry! isak is there for him, saving him right back. how adorable is he

this look is actual proof that even bech naesheim is the literal sun and he’s very beautiful and deserves all the love and support from the world. isaks grey sweatpants are making a comeback!!! and also the reused hoodie

and to finish off with another one of my favorites, the happy!even look. so cute and happy and disgustingly in love with his lover and its the perfect look to finish off the season and hopefully that look was proof he’s season 4 main LMAO IM OUT

masterpost of all the plant books i own

this is all the plant books i own minus some suuuper vintage ones that dont matter so imma just gonna. put the casual books up top and all the others under the cut

there are many. my interests are diverse. be warned

FOR PEOPLE CASUALLY INTERESTED IN HAVING A GOOD PLANT TIME

The Plant Messiah - Carlos Magdalena

Reaching for the Sun - John King

Brilliant Green: The surprising History and Science of Plant Intelligence (Kindle Edition) - Stefano Mancuso and Alessandra Viola

In Praise of Plants - Francis Halle

The Hidden Life of Trees: What they Feel, How they Communicate (Kindle Edition) - Peter Wohlleben

Botany for Dummies (Kindle Edition) - Rene Fester Kratz

Lab Girl - Hope Jahren. This was given to me by my dad because he heard it was about a female botanist and her fun botany adventures but I haven’t read it yet because it’s currently popular and I’m petty and an edgy stubborn teen that must Avoid Popular Things™. that being said its supposed to be really good so putting it here out of the admittance that it’s probably really good and I should read it

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                         she loves me → sentence starters

slightly edited in some cases to work for rp purposes.
feel free to change phrasing or pronouns to fit your muse(s)!

  • ❝ How are you this beautiful day? Isn’t this a beautiful morning? ❞
  • ❝ I have no more energy whatsoever. ❞
  • ❝ Well, then marry me, and I’ll quit my job. ❞
  • ❝ Do you know you’ve never looked more exquisite? ❞
  • ❝ Champagne might be nice with hot hors d'oeuvres! ❞
  • ❝ What have I forgotten? I know there was something else . ❞
  • ❝ I’m a terrible dancer. ❞
  • ❝ No more candy, my dear. ❞
  • ❝ I do hope you’ve forgiven me about our little misunderstanding last night. ❞
  • ❝ I just can’t bear it when we quarrel. Can you, darling? Truthfully? ❞
  • ❝ By the way, have you read “War and Peace?” ❞
  • ❝ Ah, congratulations. You’re on time today. ❞
  • ❝ You see, when two people like each other very much… ❞
  • ❝ They like each other VERY much? Well, don’t you think we should tell them? ❞
  • ❝ I’ll be warmly waiting for our date. ❞
  • ❝ It’s early in the morning and our date is not till eight o'clock tonight. And yet already I can see what a nightmare this whole day will be. ❞
  • ❝ I haven’t slept a wink. ❞
  • ❝ I feel a combination of depression and elation. ❞
  • ❝ Three more minutes, two more seconds, ten more hours to go! ❞
  • ❝ She may not be very smitten and my hopes, perhaps may all collapse.❞
  • ❝ I know I’ll drop the silverware but will I spill the water or the wine? ❞
  • ❝ More and more I’m breathing less and less! ❞
  • ❝ I might propose tonight. ❞
  • ❝ You belong to a Lonely Hearts Club? ❞
  • ❝ I’ve never done that sort of thing before. ❞
  • ❝ You haven’t even asked for a photograph?! ❞
  • ❝ I don’t know his name or what he looks like. ❞
  • ❝ He’s gentle and kind and soft-spoken. ❞
  • ❝ Good luck with your books! ❞
  • ❝ I am speaking of sex, dear. ❞
  • ❝ Where’s my pride? Swallowed long ago. ❞
  • ❝ I’m a coward with a wife and children to support. ❞
  • ❝ Do not lose your job! ❞
  • ❝ I never wished you harm–ever! You’ve got to believe that. ❞
  • ❝ I sincerely hope you marry a very nice man and have many children. ❞
  • ❝ Do keep in touch. ❞
  • ❝ Will he like me when we meet? ❞
  • ❝ There’s more to me than I may always show. ❞
  • ❝ There’s a world of love waiting to warm you. ❞
  • ❝ It’s insanity for me to worry so I’ll try not to. ❞
  • ❝ How I envy you each evening when work is through, for I have only me to be with while you have you. ❞
  • ❝ I resolve not to be so stupid. ❞
  • ❝ Will you keep Monday night open for me, darling? ❞
  • ❝ I resolve to not play these games.❞
  • ❝ I resolve not to be so trusting. ❞
  • ❝ Whatever I’ve got up here, it’s up here rusting. ❞
  • ❝ My feminine intuition is a joke. ❞
  • ❝ Come what may, I will not be this girl one more day . ❞
  • ❝ My usual brush with love is far from painless. ❞
  • ❝ I wanna know why I never meet their mothers. ❞
  • ❝ I must stop thinking with my skin. ❞
  • ❝ We try to preserve a romantic atmosphere. ❞
  • ❝ What more noble calling is there than ours? ❞
  • ❝ At the count of five, I’ll scream! ❞
  • ❝ Don’t forget I’ve had some wine and nothing to eat since noon. ❞
  • ❝ You are easily the most insensitive man/woman/person alive. ❞
  • ❝ Are you trying to ruin me, lady? ❞
  • ❝ How dare you speak to a lady that way? ❞
  • ❝ No wonder I feel so depressed. ❞
  • ❝ I make believe nothing is wrong. ❞
  • ❝ It looks like your friend didn’t get here. ❞
  • ❝ Why break someone in when I’m already broken? ❞
  • ❝ It’s very appealing to us men. ❞
  • ❝ Where’s my other shoe? Help me find my other shoe! Don’t just stand there like that, where’s my shoe? ❞
  • ❝ Come help me pick a sweater. ❞
  • ❝ You’re sick and you ought to lie down! ❞
  • ❝ Where’d you put my shoe? That’s a sneaky thing to do! You don’t want me to go do you? ❞
  • ❝ Is it very cold? Yes, you told me it was cold. Tell me what kind of dress should I wear? ❞
  • ❝  Hahaha see? There is nothing wrong with me! I am going, you can’t stop me! ❞
  • ❝ Stop it now! Please drop me! Put me down! ❞
  • ❝ I am so sorry about last night. It was a nightmare in every way. ❞
  • ❝ Ice cream. He/she/they/you brought me ice cream! ❞
  • ❝ He was so friendly. That isn’t like him. ❞
  • ❝ I never guessing that you were fat…ooh! ❞
  • ❝ Last night I was so nasty! ❞
  • ❝ Right before my eyes a man that I despise has turned into a man I like! ❞
  • ❝ I didn’t like her, I couldn’t stand her. ❞
  • ❝ She loves me! ❞
  • ❝ I love it – Knowing that she loves me. ❞
  • ❝ She loves me! True, she doesn’t show it. How could she when she doesn’t know it. ❞
  • ❝ Yesterday she loathed me, now today she likes me. ❞
  • ❝ My teeth ache from the urge to touch her/him/them/you. ❞
  • ❝ It won’t be long now before my love discovers that she and I are lovers! ❞
  • ❝ I love her. ❞
  • ❝ I’m trembling. What the hell does that mean? ❞
  • ❝ I didn’t know what to do or where to go. ❞
  • ❝ I don’t mean to intrude, but I was just wondering, are you need of some help? ❞
  • ❝ Suddenly I can see the magic of books! ❞
  • ❝ I have to admit in the back of my mind I was praying he wouldn’t get fresh. ❞
  • ❝ He read to me all night long. ❞
  • ❝ It’s hard to believe how truly domestic and happily hopeful I feel. ❞
  • ❝ Unlike someone else, someone I dimly recall, I know he’ll only have eyes for me. ❞
  • ❝ You’ve been kind, loyal, and so generous. ❞
  • ❝ You mustn’t waste a precious moment over me. ❞
  • ❝ Just remember when you’re lonely or sad, there’s a hollow in my pillow for you. ❞
  • ❝ It’s been grand knowing you. ❞
  • ❝ They can go to hell. ❞
  • ❝ I was thinking, maybe a cup of coffee on the way? ❞
  • ❝ I am the person who always waits until it’s much too late. ❞
  • ❝ How will we ever do our Christmas shopping? ❞
  • ❝ It’s really true then. ❞
  • ❝ I couldn’t wait another day. ❞ 

(ML season 2 EP 4) Befana episode recap + comments

FIRST OF ALL AHHHHH IT WAS MARI’S BRITHDAY.

Tikki gave her like a yin/yang charm? That she spit out (cute XD) possibly a tooth? But marinette made it into a necklace after.

THEN HER GRANDMA COMES IN WOO WHAT A CUTE GRANDMA SHE IS AND ALSO A BADASS BUT SO CUTEEEEE

ALSO Marinette should appreciate her 😭ditching her Grandma to go to her “surprise” party (she played detective and knew it was coming) (also not entirely ditched she did tell her grandma about the party and sigh it was a very bittersweet thing that made me appreciate my grandparents more.)

(SIDE NOTE: ALSO MARI AND PEOPLE WHI GET AKUMATIZED WHAT IS THIS OH MY??? WHY DOES MARI SEEM TOBE THE CAUSE OF SOME?)

OKAY SO THEN GRANNY GETS AKUMATIZED AND LIKE SHE GETS SABINE OVER HER OWN SON WHICH I FOUND RATHER HILARIOUS BUT DAMN

Then you have Adrien transforming into Chat AND MARI CALLING OUT TO CHAT BC SHE NEEDED HELP AND FINALLY CHAT HELPING AND CARRYING (PRINCESS/BRIDAL STYLE CARRY, NOT LIKE WHAT WE GOT IN SEASON 1) HER AS FAR AWAY AS POSSIBLE AND THEN PROCEEDING TO GREET HER A HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEFORE HE LEAVES HER LIKE YOU S M OOTH ASF BOIIII

Then you have the battle and Hawkmoth seemingly thrown off by Befana’s comment pretty hilarious tbh

***edit side note: CHAT WAS ALSO WORRIED THAT BEFANA WOULD REACH MARINETTE ON THE EIFFEL TOWER AND WENT AFTER HER BEFORE SHE COULD GET TO HER GRANDAUGHTER LIKE CUTEEEE AND THEN LADYBUG A L M O S T REVEALING HER IDENTITY BECAUSE OF HOW WORRIED HE WAS ABOUT IT***

Then everything goes back to normal AND WE GO BACK TO THE PARTY THIS TIME ITS THE EVENING

Mari makes up with her granny good girl ❤️😭

THEN YOU HAVE THE WHOLE CLASS SINGING HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND HER PARENTS BRING OUT THE CAKE THEY MADE AND LIKE KIM AND IVAN LITERALLY LIFT HER BY THE ARMS TO HELP BLOW HER CANDLE LIKE W HAT SWEETIES AAAAA

Then you finally have Adrien giving his gift again (bc it was destroyed in the battle and fixed after she put everything back to mormal) AN D WHAT IS I N THE F R EA K I NG BOX!?!?!?!

A LUCKY C H A R M HE MADE BECAUSE SHE GAVE/LENT HIM HER LUCKY CHARM IN SEASON ONE LIKE OH MY GOD GUYS I SCREAMED THE LUCKY CHARM WAS ANSWERED AND HE MADE ONE(?) MAYBE BOUGHT(?) BUT I’LL STICK WITH MADE ONE FOR HER TOO LIKE AAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! MATCHING LUCKY CHARM BRACELETS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA IM D E A D.

Then at the end Marinette and Tikki talk and she coos over the lucky charm bracelet Adrien got her and Tikki was like all cute and Emily when she saw Marinette made her present into a necklace AAA

THEN -OH B O I- THEN THE SCENE CUTS TO ADRIEN LIKE BY A TREE ALONE STARING SO FONDLY AT THE LUCKY CHARM BRACELET SHE GAVE HIM IN SEASON 1 LIKE B O I I SWEAR YOU LIKE HER ALREADY BUT YOU JUST DON’T KNOW IT YET AAAAA

Overall this episode was again squeals and just amazing and I’m so proud of Astruc and his team for bringing us even more quality and amazing content this season. BLESS YOU THOMAS AND TEAM FOR ALL YOU’RE HARD WORK AT MAKING EVERYONES HEARTS RACE AND SQUEAL WITH JOY. THANK YOU FOR ALL THIS CONTENT I STAY UP LATE FORRRR

anonymous asked:

okay, so... I've been seeing a lot of drama between you and attackfish, especially regarding Ursa. I've always mostly ignored it since my opinion on Ursa is just neutral, but I finally decided, maybe I should figure out an opinion since these two seem so adamant about theirs. I read through a few of attackfish's posts on Ursa, and they're quite lengthy and essay-like, which... kind of makes them less appealling to read but are more informative. So, where can I find posts about Ursa from your?

Hi, anon. I don’t know what drama you’re referring to?? There was nothing happened apart from disagreement regarding an opinion and that’s all. This happens a lot in fandom discourse :) .I usually try to stay away pointless arguments, so thank you for this ask.

So here’s the thing, my opinion: I’m going to give you the benefit of the doubt whether Ursa was bad or good mother within the context of the show (and other sources), with grounded evidences. I’m just going to explain my perspective, in the hopes that you’ll understand where I (and possibly, other people who share my opinion) am coming from. It’s a long post, I just found my can’t shut up lol, so heads up. [this is written with the help of @dienli and @seyaryminamoto]



Claim: “Ursa was sweet and good mother, and she’s not at fault for how Azula turn out to be.”

# First Part:

Her “evidence” of Ursa giving Azula attention is actually contradicting on its own.

Young Zuko: I don’t care. I don’t want to play with you!

Young Azula: We are brother and sister. It’s important for us to spend time together! Don’t you think so, Mom? [Shoots her mother an innocent smile.]

Ursa [Places her hands on Zuko’s shoulder.]: Yes, darling, I think it’s a good idea to play with your sister. [Ruffles his hair.] Go on now, just for a little while.

Ursa being happy about her children playing together does not in fact reinforce any beliefs that she was good to Azula, especially since she doesn’t even address her daughter in that conversation where Azula is asking her mom for something that way WOULD yield approval from her, which is why Azula is doing it. Ursa ONLY speaks to Zuko. Calls HIM darling, and encourages HIM to play, without ever acknowledging that Azula is behaving better than Zuko in any regards, or suggesting she has ever even used terms of endearment to talk to Azula the way she does with Zuko.

This “evidence” also does nothing to convince anyone that Ursa ever made any efforts to correct Azula’s bad behavior in a positive and proactive way. Where she taught Zuko not to attack turtleducks. Meanwhile, Ursa never teaches Azula not to behave destructively in any such proactive ways. She only scolds, she glares, she asks what’s wrong with her.

If her relationship with Zuko was remotely similar, she’d be caught talking just as poorly about her beloved son, but she isn’t.

The thing is: Ursa being nice mother to Zuko doesn’t mean nor prove anything that she was nice mother to Azula. She also seem to be more strict on Azula’s behavior and more lenient on Zuko’s.

What we have seen in all official sources regarding Ursa?

The show:


The comics:

(Wow look Ursa ignores Azula even when Azula doesn’t do shit)


The old official ATLA site:


Avatar Wiki:


Avatar The Last Airbender Sozin’s Comet “The Final Battle” Book:

(Later when Ursa said “No, I love you, Azula. I do.” Azula internally screamed, “Lier!” Then shattered the miror and cried deeply. Such nice memories out there!)


Bryke’s interview:

(When Bryke being asked “is Azula really evil” question, they immediately thought of why she is mean to her brother, and hold Ursa and their family responsible. They wouldn’t address something like “many unsolved issues” with her mother if their relationship was good and healthy. The FACT that Azula’s aggression was mainly direct toward her brother, isn’t that mean there’s problem within the family? Zuko also was having a similar attitude toward his sister that he shows to nobody else. But if you want to know why this was so destructive to Azula in a psychological sense read here)



Grey DeLisle on playing Azula: (Azula’s voice actress)

““Azula was so afraid that she won’t have people in her life, that she has to conquer everybody. She’s like, “I will threaten them into being my friends, they’re not going to be my friends because they want to, so I have to intimidate them into it. ” And I think it’s sad she has to do that, which, in turn, makes everybody hate her more. But you can see why she is so troubled and why she lashes out. I had a strange relationship with my own mom, so I completely relate to her wanting to get approval and how she turns that need into anger, and hurt. There’s just nothing like… a mother’s love is so important, if you don’t have that…it can mess with people. I cried during the last episode recording because I felt so much empathy for her and what she was going through…it hurt me to see her come to such a terrible end.” [source]


They all seem to agree on something, don’t they?

Literally, EXPLICITLY, stated that Ursa was playing favorites, that Zuko was her favorite child, that she gave so much love for while neglect her other child. And a lot of people can see this because IT’S CLEAR.


# Second Part:

It’s common for mothers to prefer boys anyway, and mothers in nobility to be strict with their daughters more than their sons. And as you can see Ursa was so feminine, non-bender, live in nobility, caring about running a passive, peaceful life but happened to have more or less a turbulent, Firebender, tomboy-ish daughter. Ironically, very much similar to Toph and her mother’s situation. But it was far worse in the Royal family, since there’s a special case horrible father, mother has other favorite child, and of course, Toph and Azula aren’t very alike.

Azula and Ursa:What happened?

Azula is someone who feel loved and accepted if you aknowledge her intelligence and achievements.

But no matter how much she tried, no matter how well she answered her questions, completed her training regimens, or did well at school her mother barely ever acknowledged it. Because honestly if Ursa was shown to ignore Azula in general along with her Firebending achievements, why would she give attention to her school achievements either (that were likey high). But Zuko seemed able to win her mother’s affections so readily, when he doesn’t ask her to nor do anything right as she does. Ursa was ignoring Azula because: a) was afraid that Zuko would feels useless and more inferior to his sister if she aknowledge her, the thing Ozai was shame and discarded him by, which is prove her favoritism in this regard. b) Azula was stronger, smarter, less dependent on her, favorite by her father. Ursa thought Azula doesn’t need her.

[Yes, Ozai started all this toxicity in the family. His attitude prove he didn’t marry to have kids, he married to have heirs.]

So, appeartly a very loving mother bathing one child with all love, attention and protection while the other, the younger one (so young actaully), is stand there watching them, receive nothing from that love. Constantly and daily for a vague reason. Ignoring her after she tried to please/impress her with her smarts and talents. So Azula had no idea what to do to impress her mother. Emulating Zuko’s behaviour wouldn’t work, because her mother would be amazed by Zuko but with Azula it would just be imitation of what Zuko did first, and Ozai doesn’t like Zuko and doesn’t want her to be like him. So what’s Azula’s conclusion? She turned into a trouble maker child. If Zuko is a good kid, and that’s the way he gets mom to pay attention to him, then I’m going to be a bad kid and maybe she’ll start paying attention to me too. She, consciously or unconsciously, does things to provoke her mother: throwing rocks at harmless turtle-ducks, destroying her puppets, tormenting her brother and burning flowers that grow in her mother’s garden (“it wasn’t as pretty as the others”) in attempts to gain her mother’s attention, which all sadly just backfired. Ursa was oblivious of Azula’s needs and feelings, and she was so neglectful of her.

When all her attempts failed, still getting neglected (and probably even more since Ursa thought she should behave her). Then she become psychologically damaged; feeling unloved and rejected, and shut down her emotions. She doesn’t even care when Ursa gone.

**And this is the damage that happened from Ursa’s part ALONE. I’m not counting Ozai in this yet.**

If Azula knew what would make her mother happy, she will do it, like how she does to please Ozai.

For all that their father was a harsh and unyielding man, but his demands were simple to puzzle out for Azula: excel in areas directly related to becoming a true royal of the Fire Nation. Firebending, political intrigue, military strategy, the works. Do those well, and you would earn his approval. Such things came easily to Azula, and every time she made a new breakthrough in her practice she earns his approval. It was a simple system, and it worked.

But Ursa was different.

Why? What did her mother want from her?

** For all Azula thought she can understand people, Ursa was the only one she can not understand.**

BUT

There was only ONE THING Azula knows would make her mother approve of her, and it is to be “nice sister to Zuko”. The only times Azula tried to act “nice” to please someone instead of her traditional ruthless fact-based self is with Ursa about Zuko “we’re brother and sister”, “I’m afraid of what would happen to Zuzu.” She did it twice in both the show and the comics, because she knows this way make Ursa accepts her. However, this technique of getting Ursa’s attention means “her mother would only be happy and approved of her as long as she was nice to Zuko”. It felt like Ursa was overlooking Azula’s own needs and feelings, that Ursa will give more love and protection to Zuko, her favorite, through Azula herself, in an extant of her own needs and feelings of getting close to her, as a person. This final blow make Azula feels frustrated and desperated. And finally, consciously or unconsciously, this had happened:

“Fine mother, then I’ll become bad sister!”

It’s a realistic aggressive respond of rebellion against Zuko and also, in secret, against her mother.

Azula becomes bad sister was a respond to the dysfunction between her and her mother.


If Ursa was a good mother, Azula’s relationship with Zuko would’ve been so much better.

If Ursa was a good mother, Azula would’ve been far less cruel and insecure and more stable emotionally.

If Ursa was a good mother, Azula’s relationship with Mai and Ty Les would’ve been so much better too.


Honestly, I find attackfish’s posts of “Ursa bears no responsibilities of Azula’s upbringing” aren’t nearly as “spot-on” as they wish it was, which is why a lot of people disagree with it.

And how they talk about child Azula being “abusive” (when she wasn’t) and that Ursa has no hand in such thing? Has no hand in her child corruption? That we’re all abusers for holding ADULTS responsible for the behavior of a child?

So there’s no connection between THESE constant, daily interactions that end up by Ursa scolds, glares, asks what is wrong with her, ignores, neglects or orders her to go to room

And THIS

Under this light everything makes sense. Yeah, make sense Azula was a bit happy. Why? So her mother would finally notice her and spend more time with her. (she warns him to leave, she doesn’t want him “died”. Further.)

You know who’s the responsible and the real abusive one during this area? Yes, she was Ursa.

Because she DID left psychosocial/mental damage on younge Azula after years of this treatment and biased affections during her childhood period, especially that Azula was trying so hard to get her mother’s attention or pleasing her. To put in simple again: Ursa loves Azula but she was so oblivious of her needs and feelings and was neglectful of her.


On other different note: Azula and Zuko are too different people at their personality core. Zuko’s very introverted feeler (Fi) while Azula is external thinker (Te) - access to the hard, pure external facts and takes actions upon them while suppresses her emotions in the progress because she aims to be perfectionist and effective). But that doesn’t mean one of them born better or more “good” than the other, this is just absurd.


# Third Part:

No one ever denied Ozai’s the one who shaped Azula into who she is, not as far as I can see. So I see no point of attackfish keeps insisting it to take the blame off Ursa and throw it onto Ozai (and Azula). People mostly seem conflicted about Ursa but make efforts to even write fics where they can get along. NO ONE writes anything remotely similar with Ozai. So it should be OBVIOUS that he’s being held responsible for most the toxicity in the royal family.

(but really, how would anyone expect better from a man who was raised the same way Zuko and Azula were, by a man who made him feel the way he makes Zuko feel?)

That’s why people go to Iroh and Ursa, because they are supposed to be BETTER PEOPLE. Because Iroh, the Dragon of the West, got out of Azulon’s and the Fire Nation’s influence and learned better. But neither one of them ever tried to reach out to Azula for good because she was “difficult”, and that’s a canon fact. People wish they’d done better is not absurd, it’s sensible.


Ursa even HURT ZUKO:

Young Zuko: I failed.

Ursa: No. I loved watching you. That’s who you are, Zuko. Someone who keeps fighting even though it’s hard.

Listen again: That’s who you are, Zuko. Someone who keeps fighting even though it’s hard.

In other words: Son, you’re indeed worthless, but I like how you’re struggling with it and try to become better and more useful.

Not, “there are a lot of other important skills for a prince of the Fire Nation to have.” Not “everyone excels at different things, Zuko.” Not "everyone learns at a different pace.“ Not "you and your sister are both important." 

The message that he’s someone who perseveres might ring truer if they were Earth Kingdom or Water Tribe, but in the Fire Nation palace, everything is pretty fucking brutally performance-based. In that environment, why would she just tell him it’s his identity to be bad, while reinforcing that his self-worth can just go ahead and hinge on his father’s approval. In Zuko’s mind at least.

That was so wrong thing to say!

She made Zuko even more envious of his sister, try to win, break her down, prove his strength, not only beacsue of his father’s influence but his mother’s stupid words as well.

Meanwhile, she doesn’t even acknowledge Azula at all, not with a single word or even a look, allowing her whole sense of identity hinges on the approval of an overly powerful, massively influential father figure (as the image Azula bulit of Ozai in her mind). Striving for flawlessness and setting high performance in her skills and bending.


Remember little!Azula’s comments about her father being a better choice as Fire Lord than Iroh or say Fire Lord Azulon got old and implying he should be replaced, or say how weak Iroh was for abandoning the front?

A lot of fans point to this as early evidence of her sociopathy, like she pulled these conclusions out of thin air. Far more likely I think, that she’s simply repeating what she heard from Ozai. It’s reasonable enough to assume that a man with twisted philology, full of hate and anger toward his family, egomaniac (with soon God-complex to develop when he become Fire Lord) would say such cruel, self-promoting things to the child he found promising and chose as his heir. These things came straight from her father; considering how much the man hates his family.

Azula running it past her mother and Zuko to confirm the validity of these opinions or impress them with how much she knows. But Ursa didn’t get it, kinda sad how badly that backfired, into comments like "What is wrong with that child?”


Now, why exactly are any of us supposed to drop to our knees and believe the assertions about Ursa being a “sweet” and “good” mother? Who has NO responsibility for Azula’s upbringing?


# Conclusion:

Of COURSE Zuko idolized his mother; he was always with her, depended on her, and she disappeared. Of COURSE he’s fixated on memories of her.

You either take Zuko’s biased, childish recollections as the Absolute Truth and presented Ursa as a great mom, totally blameless OR be more realistic about things.

In the show Ursa never, meant, to, be, a good, mother. Ever. And I think all of that was intentional.

Summary, Ursa was a bad mother because:

▪Failed to created balance. Which caused her favoritism.

▪Failed to be smarter, more sensitive or insightful toward her children which caused them to suffer.

▪ Failed to built a positive relationship between her and her daughter or the siblings’ relationship.

[IMPORTANT POINT AHEAD]

▪Failed to lessen the damage that caused by Ozai. She, in fact, made it worse.

- Ozai favorite Azula for her skills, so Ursa favorite Zuko with her love. By that she deepened the rift between her children, and completed the cycle by putting them against each other where rivaly, jealousy and insecurities started.

- Zuko and Azula had happy normal early childhood (small example) until “favorite child” game started. Ozai made Zuko grow apart from Azula. Ursa made Azula grow apart from Zuko.

- Ozai said Zuko was worthless, and Ursa told him this is true. basically failed to show/teach her son something else. Failed to see that Zuko’s true power is in unity not in his own personal skills; making Zuko believes he was inherently a person who struggle with worthlessness to be better, making her child embrace such vision of himself because *that who he was*. Which was fucked up.

- Ozai isolated Azula from the rest of the family, teaching her his own ideologies and ideals, and even you can count manipulation to make sure he would be the sole recipient of her affection and loyalty. But Ursa didn’t get it and behave just like the way I described above. Thus, Azula orients herself more and more towards her father, who doesn’t truly love neither his wife nor his children nor anyone else. Azula thought that her mother thinks she doesn’t deserve any love from her because she was a monster; making her child embrace such vision of herself, making it easier for her to commit cruelty, because *that who she was*. Which was not true.

Ursa had Ozai’s back without she realizing. Whenever he make negative impacts on her children, she complete the job by nailing it into their heads.

amazing, indeed…

In short,

jr4cats  asked:

would you explain a bit about the Deconstruction Of Toxic Masculinity in Guardians of the Galaxy

WOULD I yes i would babey!!!!!!!!!!!!!! last time i did this i got people in my askbox telling me i was crazy and wrong so lets hope that doesnt happen again lol, but anyways without further ado:

reasons why phil thinks guardians of the galaxy does a good job deconstructing toxic masculinity:

i mean, okay, first of all, we’re gonna have to define exactly what i mean by toxic masculinity, because that’s a very broad term. technically, if one really wanted to, the story and world of gotg is well-built and well-written enough that one could go in and really pick apart all the different potential nuances latent within it, in the context of exploring themes of toxic masculinity.

i am not going to do that here, because i need to go downstairs and do the dishes soon. what im going to do is 2 things:

1) a disclaimer: i at no point in this post am putting words into james gunn/the creators of the film’s mouths, or assuming that this was their intention. this is my interpretation of the film(s). 

2) the toxic masculinity im referring to here is a variety of things, but most notably (a) on a more superficial level, the pushed narrative that men must be aggressive, violent, and “tough” – that to show emotion or sentiment is weakness, and that to be openly emotionally vulnerable makes you ~less of a man~, and (b) on a slightly deeper level, a more glamorized version of toxic masculinity that promotes casual sexism thinly veiled by a suave, smooth-talking persona, an insidious layer of entitlement and arrogance that is deeply entrenched within a cultural idea of being a desirable Man, and a brand of charm, selfishness and self-importance that is historically romanticized in hollywood’s male heroes. 

hopefully that’s clear. now … onward 

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anonymous asked:

can you explain to me what happened between exo m?? who was the closest when they were all together and then what the heck went down between them after all the shit??? I'm new and confused and just want them all to get along :((

Okay so this definitely isn’t going to be the post you deserve, with links and videos and pictures and just general receipts because I have to get to old navy to spend my super cash so consider this a Sparknotes Edition of the History of Exo-M that is just completely based on my memory.

So I’ll start with debut even though it goes way before that. Exo-K and Exo-M were…a conundrum to a lot of people. 2 groups making the same albums and music videos but in different languages with different members. It didn’t go over well tbh. Not to mention, SM ONLY promoted Exo-K like…exclusively. They had opportunities galore while Exo-M was just…there. Not to mention Exo-K were very timid and awkward at the time, like if you watch their debut stages, they were smol and nervous.

And then, every so often. Exo-M would get an interview or a random performance in China. And they were the COMPLETE opposite. They would be like, “the member next to me is easily the handsomest man I have ever seen with my eyes, let me tell you about it for 10 minutes.” Like they were just a lot of fun and got along great.

It’s even SUPER hard to say who got along the best. Maybe Yixing and Luhan. They were actually Good Friends, even to this day, and not because they had to be. Luhan said he had a special chat or phonebook or something for his Real Friends from back home, but Yixing was still part of it. Tao and Kris were super close too. Tao would talk about how Kris would protect him from ghosts and stuff. Actually, Kris and Yixing were really close too. They were pretty open about how Kris would defend him against bullies during their trainee days (which I’m questioning the validity of now because in Yixing’s book he talked about getting sent home by SM for a while because he clocked another trainee in the face omg). But keep in mind, pre-2015 Yixing was a different guy entirely. He was ultra-Soft™ and was kinda the “mom” of the group and Kris was really wild about him. Xiuchen were very reserved back then. I know Min and Lu were close because of the same-ageness and they played soccer together, but they showed it more after the 2 groups “merged” sorta. Jongdae was very quiet and shy back then (it took awhile to get to Modern JD) and I think people didn’t know what to make of him because then he’d get on stage and unleash these MONSTER NOTES and wow but also he didn’t know where he was most of the time??? (He trained for 4 months and got thrown into Exo of all groups for God’s sake). He was closet to Min, obvs, but Yixing too, because he said he helped him the most with learning Chinese. (That’s why their 2 years of coldness was such a shock to everyone.)

Mama era, despite their lack of notoriety, was kinda the golden age for them. They were well-liked by the public (for the most part, Tao got a lot of hate), and won an award for most popular group and it was SO EMOTIONAL like they played a video to recognize everything they had been through in their rookie year and Yixing was BALLING and they were all so close.

Then it was all downhill from there. It’s not confirmed or anything, but it’s as close to fact as we’ll ever know that Kris decided that boyband life was not for him after Mama. It’s speculated that he just disappeared for a long time, that’s why the gap between Mama and Wolf was so long. When they came back, it was as 12, and they finally started to take off. The M members weren’t really the same towards him. Not cold, but not the same. Tao found a new leader to obsess over. But really, it was just a way to make Exo-M fizzle out because, surprise, SM did not know what the hell they were doing in that market. Thus began Exo’s rise with Growl, but the domino effect of Chinese members leaving.

In 2014, it spilled by a random source that Kris left the group. And SM was like uh no he didn’t? But then a few hours later, turned out Yes He Totally Did. And one week before their first tour! Exo were…pissed to say the least. Tao got online and posted a big rant post calling him a liar and a betrayer. Suho published a letter (though it was probably SM honestly) telling him to a) get back home b) apologize to them and c) apologize to the fans and Kris was like nah on all 3 counts. 

I’m not going to get into the particulars of him leaving because that’s a whole different story, but the response kinda spoke volumes on how the remaining members felt about him. They had a press conference and they were all dressed up and spoke about it and Jongdae dropped his iconic “The ground hardens after the rain” comment then they went on a Chinese variety show (super popular but the name escapes me rn) and talked about him and cried and yikes.

One thing that was noticed in retrospect is that Luhan didn’t show the same amount of emotional hurt as the others. Because you can guess who was next. But Luhan’s departure was a lot…smoother for sure. He looked bad, point blank. Everyone was very concerned about him, members and fans. Exo’s schedule was demanding a lot out of him and he couldn’t keep up. He was bleeding from his eyes on stage. He missed a ton of their tour dates. Then, he came back for the final show, and looking back, Exo knew 100%. Yixing and Jongdae were very very close to Luhan the entire show. Then he left and it was much less of a shock, still shocking, but less so. Yixing pretty much got on weibo within a day and said he still supports him and they’re brothers. Soon after, Luhan and Kris were spotted shaking hands, so Lu was and is on really good terms with everybody.

Fast forward. Exodus. The pathcodes were dropping. Everyone was excited. Tao was in one stage, and then he was not in anymore stages. He had severe leg injuries and SM did NOT care. A few months went by and people had no clue if he was in the group or not. Then came the letter from his dad. He cited that SM made him do stunts which got him badly hurt. Fair. But then Tao’s dad had to bring up how a CERTAIN CHINESE MEMBER got a studio in China while he didn’t. Bad. If new and improved Yixing ever talks to Tao again, I’d be surprised. So, with Tao out of Exo, he had to take back everything he said about Kris. Long story short, with tears and all, Kris did not care lmao.

So here we are today. SM still does not know how to have Chinese artists. Luhan’s pretty much cool with everyone. He and Tao see each other a lot. Yixing straight up does not care if he’s seen with Luhan or not lol. Zyx doesn’t extend the same kind of interest in Kris when they’re at public events. Your guess is as good as mine if they’re on good terms.

As for Min and JD, well, they’ve got each other. I have no idea if they keep in touch with the former members. I like to think they do. They were even kinda cold to Yixing for a long time, but I think even they’re sick of this Exo-K focus while calling it Exo nonsense. They’re starting to stick up for M and Yixing and good on them! So…that’s what you missed on glee.

So I saw TLJ for the second time yesterday, this time with my sisters.

They absolutely loved the movie: and this time around, with me thinking about and digesting everything, I actually really loved the movie this time around, since at first, I liked it, but I didn’t love it, and I wasn’t sure if it was going to worsen or get better after more viewings.

TLJ is divisive, which I expected, but I didn’t expect it to be *that* divisive. I do think it will be better received after IX comes out, though.

With this said, that movie is going to age very well. Sure, it’s far from perfect, but it’s going to become a textbook example of a Heroine’s Journey with all the big sexual awakening metaphors, while Finn and Rose’s plot has very universal themes about the Dog Eats Dog side of politics in the greater scheme of things that have always proven true throughout history, and that will sadly probably always stay around.

I did notice a few things this time around – there are some things I’m going to skip since I’m keeping them for the other parts of my very long TLJ review (one will be all about the Skywalker Drama with bonus Snoke and the other about Finn and Rose, and maybe I’ll squeeze the Resistance in as well), but I have other little details to add, notably about Reylo.

Also, there is no fucking way Ben won’t be redeemed and Reylo won’t be the endgame in some way or another. And if they make the stupid-ass decision of keeping it platonic (yes, it’s stupid-ass at this point, no one will convince me otherwise), it’s going to be one of the biggest wastes in the history of cinema. I’m not even exaggerating. But after TLJ and with all the overt sexual subtext going on, I’ll be mighty surprised if the Mouse House still has cold feet about Reylo. My prediction about it pre-TLJ was “Go big or go home”, and they definitely went big. With the second viewing, I’m pretty solid on that perspective.

I’m going to try and see it again next week, because that might be the last opportunity I get to see it before going back to class. 

  • Now that I know the plot to the movie, the editing feels a lot less choppy for me. It’s not so much how they’re placed, because I can understand why they’re placed the way they are, but the transition between scenes is not always smooth and sometimes, some scenes that should all be merged into a longer one get cut, which kind of breaks the overall feel. But I get that the reason is that TLJ is so multilayered and has so many things going on at once with a big cast that it’s hard to manage.
  • Hux’s facial expressions are absolutely hysterical. He’s become one of my favorite characters I love to hate. Also, Domhnall Gleeson is a phenomenal actor.
  • I wasn’t so sure after my first viewing, but now, I’m pretty certain Kylo thinks Leia died after the TIE Fighters bombing the Raddus’ bridge. It would make sense, considering she had a near death experience and was then comatose, so perhaps that made her unresponsive through the Force, which led Kylo to believe she was gone. Therefore, him wanting to burn the Resistance to the ground, while it’s not good at all, makes a lot of sense and becomes all the more heartbreaking: remember how Kylo was pissed at Finn in TFA? It’s partially because he views him as being responsible for bringing Han to him. That’s how Kylo is: he tends to lash out on the world and whoever he believes wronged him (and most of the time, it isn’t really justified), and TLJ pretty much showed why he’s the way he is. He hates the Resistance because, like the Rebellion and the New Republic, she chose to fight rather than to be present, and ultimately, that’s what caused her death. So him telling Rey to “let it burn” becomes all the more heartbreaking. What’s worse? When he picks up the golden dice in the Rebel base on Crait, I think it’s at that moment he realizes that woops, Mommy was alive all along and he fucked up. Big time.
  • Rose is still my favorite character in the entire movie. Fight me. 
  • Maz totally banged the Master Codebreaker. No one will convince me otherwise. 
  • Rey’s first time meditating with Luke? That was totally a metaphor for masturbation and her discovering her body. Sorry not sorry. It all ends with her seeing the hole on Ahch-To that’s supposedly the “Dark Side” and is basically a big metaphor for a vagina, and her gasp that sounds an awful lot like a gasp of pleasure while water comes out of the hole? IT’S FORCE MASTURBATION GUYS. DON’T LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT, BLAME RIAN. And of course, Luke is terrified because a) He’s a sixty-year-old virgin, and b) He’s the Father figure here, and he’s terrified not only of the Heroine becoming a woman by exploring her forbidden sexuality, but also of her Other Half who’s in the middle of a pretty ugly adolescent turmoil and can’t seem to truly go from boy to man.
  • And of course, straight after, we get some Force bond scenes with Kylo with off-the-charts UST/BST, where Kylo is peacocking around and looks every inch the Dangerous Dreamboat/Byronic Hero ready to seduce the Gothic Heroine, and Rey standing her own and matching his intensity is why the scenes don’t come out as predatory (same went with Han and Leia in ESB, though they went more for the old Hollywood screwball comedy approach).
  • Also, there should have been another Force bond scene between the third and the fourth. To refresh your memory, the third is when Kylo tells Rey what really happened between him and Luke at the Jedi Temple, and the fourth is the hand touching. The Mirror scene happens in between. Like, it works fine, but there was a little transition missing.
  • The fourth Force bond scene managed to be EVEN BETTER on second viewing? Like, Rey tells Kylo what happened in the Mirror scene, and you can feel her voice tearing up a bit. Meanwhile, not only Kylo is listening, but you can clearly see his eyes are glassy, and he looks like he’s about to cry as well. He sympathizes with her, and you just know he understands exactly how abandoned and lost she feels. “Don’t be afraid, I feel it too”, amirite?
  • First time, I didn’t notice Rey and Ben tearing up when they touch hands. I think I got all teary-eyed too, lol. I don’t think they only see each other’s future, but I think they also see each other as who they truly are. And that’s the moment where Rey falls in love with Ben.
  • I am… honestly not sure what exactly Rey saw, and what exactly Ben saw when they talk about each other’s future. At first, I thought they saw the two of them fighting against the Praetorian Guards, but I really don’t know at this point. I think it’s possible Rey saw that, but I think Ben saw something else. And if it’s the case… count me excited for IX. But Reylo is real, guys, and it’s endgame. 
  • Rey is at her prettiest whenever she’s around Kylo/Ben. Like, in the coffin/pod and in the elevator, her face is all lit up, and it makes her traits look very soft and sweet. Seriously, she totally spent hours in the shower and fussing around with her appearance before boarding the Supremacy, to the point it really feels like a teenage girl going on her first date, I’m not even kidding. Boy do I love couples who go and kill gross old humanoids and their guards on the first date.
  • I’m going to mention it in the Finnrose part of my review, but boy did they waste Gwendoline Christie.
  • The transition between “Rey gets her heart broken and leaves the Throne Room while Kylo’s unconscious” and “Rey shows up in the Millennium Falcon happily gunning at FO TIE fighters” is still kind of jarring, but not as much as the first time. I wonder at this point if she’s having pretty much the same “screw you” disposition Kylo’s having on the other side of the battle. But of course, for both of them, it fades away pretty quickly when they have to face reality again and realize that “Welp, we screwed up”. Kylo gets that realization when he sees Rey on the MF’s threshold via Force Bond while holding Han’s dice, and Rey at first is a mix of sadness, compassion/pity but also a fair amount of “You’re sleeping on the couch tonight”, but when she sees Finn caring for Rose later, I think it’s at that moment she’s starting to get inklings of “I may have made a mistake…”. I think she’s going to understand it fully only in IX, though. It won’t be as harsh of a realization as it’s going to be for Kylo, but still.
  • Hux is totally going to backstab Kylo at the first opportunity he gets. Just the smug look he gives Kylo just before he goes in the control room and finds Han’s dice, you can tell that Supreme Leader or not, he still considers himself far superior. So because of that, I really don’t think there’s going to be a big time jump between TLJ and IX.

I probably forgot a ton of little things, so next time I’m seeing the movie, I’m taking notes.