why do you do these things to my soul

50shadesofwheeze  asked:

Since I'm an angst junkie and want to Feel Things™, could you do 5? Also, congrats on 300!!!!

oh my god i feel this in my heart and soul because THRIVE on angst so let’s do this 

5: why do you hate me?


As the post mortem came to a close, Ryan all but ran out of the room. Shane sighed, feeling his heart sink with every step Ryan took. He stood, turning off the camera and took out the memory card, stashing it in his pocket until he could give it to one of the editors.

As much chemistry the two hosts had on the show, behind the scenes it was almost a complete radio silence from Ryan. Shane tried to be optimistic about it, Ryan probably just had stuff to do, but noticing the way Ryan couldn’t sit longer than five minutes alone with him, Shane knew it was something else.

He walked out of the room, dropping off the memory card with the editors, and went back to his desk. Ryan had already stationed himself in his desk, which of course had to be right next to Shane’s. He didn’t say anything as Shane sat down to do some work of his own.

It was easy to delve into the rhythm of working. He could focus on the little details of his projects and not the sinking feeling in his gut every time Ryan shifted farther and farther away from Shane. 

It was like this most days. Ryan desperately trying to get away and Shane feeling helpless about it. The daily routine, some might call it.

Finally, after a night of drinking and a morning with a particularly bad hangover, Shane had enough. He had accidentally brushed Ryan’s hand when he went to get a sticky note, and the other man pulled back as if he’d been burned.

“Why do you hate me?” Shane almost shouted, putting down the sticky note and turning to face Ryan. The normal smile on his face had disappeared and was replaced with a look of anger and desperation.

“I… I don’t hate you,” Ryan muttered, feeling awkward in the silence that followed Shane’s outburst.

“Then why can’t you stand to be touched by me or, god forbid, be alone with me.” Shane’s voice was filled with emotion, and he desperately wished he could calm down, but after months of ignoring the situation, he couldn’t hold back the waves of fear and anger and sadness that filled his chest..

“You just don’t understand,” Ryan whispered, standing from his chair.

Shane stood up quickly, blocking Ryan’s path. 

“You don’t get to leave in the middle of this. Not until I get an answer,” he said, mustering up all the force he could.

“I don’t owe you shit!” Ryan yelled, his body shaking, and Shane noticed the tears in his eyes. 

“At this point you kinda do!” he yelled back, feeling his own body start to collapse into itself.

“No I don’t! Leave me alone! I can’t tell you…. you just don’t understand anything Shane Madej!” Ryan pushed past Shane, leaving him stunned and confused. 

Shane looked around, blushing slightly under the gaze of his even more so confused coworkers. He closed out his computer and left, and if anyone noticed the tears in his eyes, well, that would just have to be addressed at another time.


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Best Lines From Each Hamilton Song

Alexander Hamilton: You could never back down, you never learned to take your - TIME

Aaron Burr, Sir: Talk Less. Smile More.

My Shot: I think ya pants look hot ;)

The Story of Tonight: Raise a glass to freedom…

Schuyler Sisters: You want a revolution? I want a revelation!

Farmer Refuted: Is he in Jersey?

You’ll Be Back: I will kill your friends and family… to remind you of, my, love DA DA DA D-

Right Hand Man: Burr! Sir? Close the door on your way out.

Winters Ball: If you could marry a sister, you’re rich son. Is it a question of if Burr, or which one?

Helpless: Laughing at my sister cause she wants to form a harem: I’m just saying if you really loved me you would share him. HA!

Satisfied: … He’d be mine. She would say “I’m fineshe’d be lying.

The Story of Tonight (Reprise): You are the worst, Burr

Wait For It: When they died they left no instructions, just a legacy to protect 

Stay Alive: I’m a general. WEEE!!

Ten Duel Commandents: Okay so we’re doing this

That Would Be Enough: And if this child shares a fraction of your smile, or a fragment of your mind, look out world, that would be enough.

Guns And Ships: No one has more resilience or matches my practical tactical BRILLIANCE.

History Has Its Eyes On You: You have no control who lives, who dies, who tells your story.

Yorktown (The World Turned Upside Down): Immigrants, we get the job done.

What Comes Next: Awesome. Wow.

Dear Theodosia: I’ll do whatever it takes. I’ll make a million mistakes.

Nonstop: Hamilton wrote THE OTHER FIFTY-ONE

What’d I Miss?: I guess I basically missed the late 80’s.

Cabinet Battle #1: Turn around, bend over, I’ll show you where my shoe fits.

Take a Break: You’ve written “My Dearest, Angelica…. “

Say No To This: That was my wife who you decided to- fuuu

The Room Where It Happens: The art of the compromise, hold your nose and close your eyes.

Schuyler Defeated: They don’t need to know me they don’t like you.

Cabinet Battle #2: You must be outta your GODDAMN MIND

Washington On Your Side: SOUTHERN MOTHERFUCKING DEMOCRATIC REPUBLICANS!!!

One Last Time: I’m sorry wha-?

I Know Him: They will tear each other into pieces, Jesus Christ this will be fun :D

Adams Administration: Siddown John YOU FAT MOTHER——

We Know: My god…

Hurricane: … We were sick and she was holding me, I couldn’t seem to die.

The Reynolds Pamphlet: You could never be satisfied, god I hope your satisfied.

Burn: You, you, you

Blow Us All Away: Everything is legal in New Jersey…

Stay Alive (Reprise): I know, you did everything just right.

It’s Quiet Uptown: Forgiveness. Can you imagine?

The Election of 1800: Well I’ll be damned…

Your Obedient Servant: Here’s an itemised list of thirty years of disagreements. Sweet Jesus

The World Was Wide Enough: America, you great unfinished symphony, you sent for me.

Who Lives, Who Dies, Who Tells Your Story: Oh I can’t wait to see you again, it’s only a matter of time.


Bonus Songs:

Congratulations: You know why Jefferson can do what he wants? He doesn’t dignify schoolyard taunts with a response

Dear Theodosia (Reprise): We bleed and fight for you, sometimes it seems that’s all we do.

Ten Things, One Thing (I genuinely can’t decide between these five so here you go):

- The sun is in my eyes. I am almost giddy as I watch it slowly rise over my New York City.

- I examine the gun that we shared. Philip never hurt a soul, he must have been so scared.

- I feel a sense of calm fill me, it’s not in his political interest to kill me.

- My Eliza is still asleep. I left her a letter, I could have written it better.

- They put us through our paces, we count to ten. God, I can’t wait to see her again.


Just a quick note to say I didn’t forget Tomorrow There’ll Be More of Us, I just decided against including it because, in Lin’s own words, it’s more of a scene than a song. Really it’s just the The Story of Tonight sung over some quite, uneventful dialouge (very poetic given the content of that dialouge) so I decided to just leave it out. Anyways thanks for reading my random post I guess? Bye bye

i’m not sure why, but the scene where lup and barry become liches always gave me like, a wedding vibe. an extremely quiet and small wedding, like they eloped and taako was the only one they wanted to bring along. 

it’d be funny if that’s actually how they got married too. Griffin says they probably don’t tell the rest of the crew about the lich thing for a few cycles even, so what if that’s like, a reoccurring thing with them. Lup and Barry making these monumental life choices off on their own and just not telling anyone until years later. 
It’s just 

Davenport: wait, what do you mean you became liches? Back on the magic world? That was three cycles ago! 

Lup: guys, has anyone seen my wedding ring, I took it off to cook and I can’t find it
Magnus: Lup, why do you have a wedding ring?
Lup: uh, me and barry got married like, six cycles ago, that’s why? Did we forget to tell you guys? 
Magnus: yes you forgot to tell us!

Lucretia: Taako, you’re not bothered at all that lup and barry go off and do these things on their own?
Taako: What do you mean on their own? You think I wasn’t there for my sister’s and best friend’s wedding? Or when they ripped their souls out of their still living bodies? what kind of person do you think i am?

South Node: Bad patterns

South Node is where we are comfortable so, sometimes we have a tendency to stay there with that traits and we don’t change.

South Node in 1st House: “I have myself, I don’t need other people, I can do everything by myself!”

South Node in 2nd House:“ I have what I need, I don’t need to share, why don’t other people share it as well or work as I did?”

South Node in 3rd House:“ I already know that, why do you think you’re smarter than me? Why should I explore when I have a great neighbourhood here?”

South Node in 4th House:“ I had a hard life already, why should I get even more tired and work harder? I don’t need to achieve anything else, I already have a foundation to fall in!”

South Node in 5th House:“ Why should I connect even more with people if I’m happy the way I am? Why can’t you let me have a little fun and enjoy life, why do I always have to care about how it will influence others lives?”

South Node in 6th House: “ Why can’t I help that person and do that job and fix that thing all at the same time? Why do I need to rest? I have energy! I’m not weak! Why do I need to get in touch with my soul if he’s not gonna help me with this?”

South Node in 7th house:“ Why do I have to focus on myself, can’t you see they need me, can’t you see that everybody needs me, I don’t have time for me! Why should I get to know me better if I’m not interacting with myself in the world?”

South Node in 8th House:“ Why should I keep something if it doesn’t have meaning? For my comfort? I don’t think so! Why do I need to stop taking things so deeply? Why do I need peace? I like living in chaos! I don’t need a quiet space and why should I appreciate things if they all end?”

South Node in 9th House:“ Why can’t I just learn about the whole world? Why do I need to focus on little things? Why do I need magazines and newspapers to know what’s happening? I can go and discover by myself! Why should I focus more on my environment? I’m a part of the whole world!”

South Node in 10th House:“ Why should I stop creating so much goals? Why should I focus on my soul too? I am fine and I need to achieve something to feel important! No, I can’t go home! I need to be important to the world!”

South Node in 11th House:“ Why do I need to focus on my life and the good things about her, when there is so much things happening in the world? No, I can’t turn the TV off, I need to know what’s happening in the world! No, I can’t go to the party because there are better things to do than enjoy that little party, the world is bigger than that!”

South Node in 12th House: Why do I need to focus more on reality when I created just the right world for me? Why do I need to serve others? They serve themselves! Do you need help? Oh, you have my soul here for you, take it, I don’t need it! Why should I work for that if nothing ever works for me?“

hamilton   /   starter sentences.

feel   free   to   change   the   pronouns   to   make   these   fit!

  • ’ this kid is insane, man! ’
  • ’ the world’s gonna know your name! ’
  • ’ what’s your name, man? ’
  • ’ there’s a million things i haven’t done. ’
  • ’ just you wait. ’
  • ’ in new york you can be a new man. ’
  • ’ you could never back down. ’
  • ’ you never learned to take your time. ’
  • ’ the world will never be the same. ’
  • ’ pardon me, are you [ name ], sir? ’
  • ’ i’m at your service, sir. ’
  • ’ i have been looking for you. ’
  • ’ i’m getting nervous. ‘
  • ‘ can i buy you a drink? ‘
  • ‘ while we’re talking, let me offer you some free advice. ‘
  • ‘ don’t let them know what you’re against or what you’re for. ‘
  • ‘ you can’t be serious. ‘
  • ‘ you want to get ahead? ‘
  • ‘ fools who run their mouths off wind up dead. ‘
  • ‘ what time is it? ‘
  • ‘ pour me another brew, son! ‘
  • ‘ to the revolution! ‘
  • ‘ good luck with that. ‘
  • ‘ what do you stall for? ‘
  • ‘ if you stand for nothing, [ name ], what’ll you fall for? ‘
  • ‘ who are you? ‘
  • ‘ i am not throwing away my shot. ‘
  • ‘ i’m young, scrappy, and hungry. ‘
  • ‘ with every word i drop knowledge. ‘
  • ‘ i’m a diamond in the rough, a shiny piece of coal. ‘
  • ‘ only nineteen, but my mind is older. ‘
  • ‘ i have learned to manage. ‘
  • ‘ the plan is to fan this spark into a flame. ‘
  • ‘ don’t be shocked when your history book mentions me. ‘
  • ‘ i will lay down my life if it sets us free. ‘
  • ‘ if you talk, you’re gonna get shot! ‘
  • ‘ i think your pants look hot. ‘
  • ‘ what are the odds the gods would put us all in one spot? ‘
  • ‘ oh, am i talkin’ too loud? ‘
  • ‘ i promise that i’ll make y'all proud. ‘
  • ‘ rise up. ‘
  • ‘ i imagine death so much it feels more like a memory. ‘
  • ‘ i never thought i’d live past twenty. ‘
  • ‘ this is not a moment, it’s the movement. ‘
  • ‘ we need to handle our financial situation. ‘
  • ‘ i may not live to see our glory. ‘
  • ‘ i will gladly join the fight. ‘
  • ‘ let’s have another round tonight. ‘
  • ‘ raise a glass to freedom. ‘
  • ‘ remind me what we’re looking for. ‘
  • ‘ i’m looking for a mind at work. ‘
  • ‘ there’s nothing like summer in the city. ‘
  • ‘ your perfume smells like your daddy’s got money. ‘
  • [ name ], you disgust me. ‘
  • ‘ you want a revolution? i want a revelation. ‘
  • ‘ chaos and bloodshed are not a solution. ‘
  • ‘ they’re playing a dangerous game. ‘
  • ‘ for shame, for shame! ‘
  • ‘ it’s hard to listen to you with a straight face. ‘
  • ‘ honestly, you shouldn’t even talk. ‘
  • ‘ my dog speaks more eloquently than thee. ‘
  • ‘ i’d rather be divisive than indecisive. ‘
  • ‘ you say the price of my love’s not a price that you’re willing to pay. ‘
  • ‘ why so sad? ‘
  • ‘ now you’re making me mad. ‘
  • ‘ you’ll be back. ‘
  • ‘ soon you’ll see. ‘
  • ‘ you’ll remember you belong to me. ‘
  • ‘ time will tell. ‘
  • ‘ i will send a fully armed battalion to remind you of my love. ‘
  • ‘ don’t change the subject. ‘
  • ‘ i’ll love you till my dying days. ‘
  • ‘ when you’re gone, i’ll go mad. ‘
  • ‘ i will kill your friends and family to remind you of my love. ‘
  • ‘ any hope of success is fleeting. ‘
  • ‘ i cannot be everywhere at once. ‘
  • ‘ i’m in dire need of assistance. ‘
  • ‘ close the door on your way out. ‘
  • ‘ have i done something wrong, sir? ‘
  • ‘ dying is easy, young man. living is harder. ‘
  • ‘ why are you telling me this? ‘
  • ‘ we are a powder keg about to explode. ‘
  • ‘ i have never been the type to try and grab the spotlight. ‘
  • ‘ where are you taking me? ‘
  • ‘ i’m about to change your life. ‘
  • ‘ this is not a game. ‘
  • ‘ you strike me as a woman who has never been satisfied. ‘
  • ‘ you’re like me. i’m never satisfied. ‘
  • ‘ i’ll see you on the other side of the war. ‘
  • ‘ love doesn’t discriminate. ‘
  • ‘ there are things that the homilies and hymns won’t teach ya. ‘
  • ‘ i am the one thing in life i can control. ‘
  • ‘ there’s only one way for us to win this. ‘
  • ‘ i’m sorry, is this not your speed?! ‘
  • ‘ can we agree that duels are dumb and immature? ‘
  • ‘ my name’s been through a lot, i can take it. ‘
  • ‘ i’m more than willing to die. ‘
  • ‘ look around at how lucky we are. ‘
  • ‘ how long have you known? ‘
  • ‘ you should have told me. ‘
  • ‘ i’m not sorry. ‘
  • ‘ look at where you started. ‘
  • ‘ the fact that you’re alive is a miracle. ‘
  • ‘ we don’t need a legacy. ‘
  • ‘ we don’t need money. ‘
  • ‘ no one has more resilience. ‘
  • ‘ i know that we can win. ‘
  • ‘ history has its eyes on you. ‘
  • ‘ immigrants: we get the job done. ‘
  • ‘ so what happens if we win? ‘
  • ‘ the world turned upside down. ‘
  • ‘ do you know how hard it is to lead? ‘
  • ‘ don’t come crawling back to me. ‘
  • ‘ you’re on your own. ‘
  • ‘ i’m dedicating everyday to you. ‘
  • ‘ domestic life was never quite my style. ‘
  • ‘ i’ll be around for you. ‘
  • ‘ i’ll do whatever it takes. ‘
  • ‘ i’ll make a million mistakes. ‘
  • ‘ i’ll make the world safe and sound for you. ‘
  • ‘ why do you assume you’re the smartest in the room? ‘
  • ‘ why do you write like you’re running out of time? ‘
  • ‘ why do you always say what you believe? ‘
  • ‘ it’s the middle of the night. ‘
  • ‘ is this a legal matter? ‘
  • ‘ you’re making a mistake. ‘
  • ‘ don’t forget to write. ‘
  • ‘ we have to win. ‘
  • ‘ i’ve come home to this? ‘
  • ‘ headfirst, into the abyss! ‘
  • ‘ let’s get to the bottom of this. ‘
  • ‘ so what did i miss? ‘
  • ‘ you wanna pull yourself together? ‘
  • ‘ take a break. ‘
  • ‘ i am on my way. ‘
  • ‘ i’ve got so much on my plate. ‘
  • ‘ it’s good to see your face. ‘
  • ‘ screw your courage to the sticking place. ‘
  • ‘ close your eyes and dream. ‘
  • ‘ there’s trouble in the air, you can smell it. ‘
  • ‘ i hadn’t slept in a week. ‘
  • ‘ i don’t know how to say no to this. ‘
  • ‘ i am ruined. ‘
  • ‘ nobody needs to know. ‘
  • ‘ we oughta give it a try. ‘
  • ‘ talk less. smile more. ‘
  • ‘ hate the sin, love the sinner. ‘
  • ‘ i’ve always considered you a friend. ‘
  • ‘ i swear your pride will be the death of us all. ‘
  • ‘ now is the time to stand! ‘
  • ‘ we’re too fragile to start another fight. ‘
  • ‘ have you an ounce of regret? ‘
  • ‘ ev'ry action has its equal, opposite reactions. ‘
  • ‘ it must be nice
. ‘
  • ‘ i wanna give you a word of warning. ‘
  • ‘ relax, have a drink with me. ‘
  • ‘ why do you have to say goodbye? ‘
  • ‘ i don’t have to tell you anything at all. ‘
  • ‘ do you promise not to tell another soul what you saw? ‘
  • ‘ are my answers to your satisfaction? ‘
  • ‘ rumors only grow. ‘
  • ‘ i wrote my way out of hell. ‘
  • ‘ overwhelm them with honesty. ‘
  • ‘ have you read this? ‘
  • ‘ i came as soon as i heard. ‘
  • ‘ i’m not here for you. ‘
  • ‘ you could never be satisfied. ‘
  • ‘ god, i hope you’re satisfied. ‘
  • ‘ that’s one less thing to worry about. ‘
  • ‘ you ever see somebody ruin their own life? ‘
  • ‘ i saved every letter you wrote me. ‘
  • ‘ i knew you were mine. ‘
  • ‘ you said you were mine. ‘
  • ‘ i thought were mine. ‘
  • ‘ you and your words flooded my senses. ‘
  • ‘ you built me palaces out of paragraphs. ‘
  • ‘ you have ruined our lives. ‘
  • ‘ i hope that you burn. ‘
  • ‘ they don’t exactly cover this subject in boarding school. ‘
  • ‘ stay alive. ‘
  • ‘ is he breathing? is he going to survive this? ‘
  • ‘ there is suffering too terrible to name. ‘
  • ‘ i never liked the quiet before. ‘
  • ‘ that never used to happen before. ‘
  • ‘ can you imagine? ‘
  • ‘ i know i don’t deserve you, [ name ]. ‘
  • ‘ is there anything you wouldn’t do? ‘
  • ‘ i’ll be damned! ‘
  • ‘ what if this bullet is my legacy? ‘
  • ‘ legacy. what is a legacy? ‘
  • ‘ i’m the villain in your history. ‘
  • ‘ who lives, who dies, who tells your story? ‘
Favourite Book of Mormon moments
  • the harmonising at the end of hello BOI fucc 
  • oh come on you guys
  • the two by two choreography 
  • ‘australia where the say, g’day
  • ‘every captain needs a mate’ ‘AYE AYE
  • ‘i’ll do something incredible, THAT BLOWS GOD’S FREAKIN’ MIND
  • that one ‘BUT MOSTLY ME’ in the middle where he just really fuckin goes for it boi i am deceased 
  • kevin’s face when he’s told what hasa diga means A+ comedy gold
  • Arnold like body popping to hasa diga before kevin drags him off to the side
  • ‘F you heavenly father? HOLY MOLY I SAID IT LIKE THIRTEEN TIMES
  • nabulungi just being so darn cute literally always
  • ‘my hetero side just won’ *bangs on chest*
  • the tapping and those fucking PINK VESTS
  • kevins confusion as to how the fuck am i wearing this vest and tap dancing ???
  • CRUSH IT! okay?
  • literally anything mckinley does 
  • ‘goodnight best friend’ ‘goodnight pal’
  • ‘maybe you should let me do the talking and you can stand and support me by saying oh wow and stuff like that’
  • the shitty jazz split at the start of all american prophet 
  • ‘wow! God says go to your back yard and start digging, that makes perfect sense!
  • ‘they’ll have to believe me just, … cause
  • actually basically the whole of all american prophet that song is my JAM
  • naba being a freakin angel singing 
  • ‘oh em GOSH you guys, i’m freaking out’
  • ‘look, we’ve all had the spooky hell dream people. I have it nightly
  • AFRICA IS NOTHING LIKE THE LION KING. I think that movie took a lot of artistic licence’
  • the fucking boy band mormon backing dancers in man up JESUS
  • ‘heavenly father, why do you let bad things happen? more to the point why do you let bad things happen to me?’ (fucking hell kevin)
  • when everyone comes together at the end of act 1 that is a B L E S S I N G 
  • ‘how do you know? christ never said nothin bout no clitoris’ ‘YES! YES HE DID!
  • hmm, up again making things you are
  • ‘YOU BROKE THE RULES ELDER! YOUR SOUL BELONGS TO ME NOW!’ ‘mickey?
  • SPOOKY MORMON HELL DREAM IS MY FUCKING LIFE LINE
  • honestly can you believe jesus calls kevin a dick and elder mckinley gives hitler a blowjob all in the same song, what a gem
  • oh, you had the hell dream didn’t you? was i in it?
  • oh kevin price you beautiful beautiful douchebag 
  • ‘i love these mormon stories. they’re so fucking weird and intricate’
  • every single innuendo in baptise me
  • ‘something incredible. you’ve done something incredible. i’ve never seen a rectum blockage of this kind’
  • the worst/best line in the whole show: ‘lets smile and laughrica
  • AFRICANS ARE AFRICANS BUT WE ARE A-*SLAMS HANDS ON THE FLOOR* FRICAAAAA
  • kevins coffee fuelled rant
  • ‘well well, if it isn’t super mormon. you’re really changing up Uganda aren’tcha?’
  • ‘of course you woke up YOU DRANK TWELVE CUPS OF COFFEE
  • why the HECK didn’t they put orlando on the cast recording i will fiGht 
  • ‘hi! my name is joseph smith and i’m going to fuck this baby!’ ‘WHAT
  • MCKINLEY’S FUCKING PINK SUITCASE
  • ‘you know what guys? fuck him
  • the A+++ character development in ‘we love to dance and shout, and let all our feelings out’ (mckinley my sweet child)
  • the ugandans as elders honestly
  • the book of arnold
  • THANK YOU GOD! MA HA BEI BU EEBOWAI!

Is no one going to talk about the scene at the end of Beauty and The Beast (2017) where everyone is turning into “antiques”? It starts with Lumiere crying over Plumettes motionless body & I’M SHOOK! GARDEROBE & CADENZA REACH FOR EACH OTHER FOR THE FIRST TIME IN FOREVER & THEN THEY SLOWLY FADE AWAY. & Then Mrs. Potts is looking for Chip & then she freezes & Chip almost crashes to the ground?!?!?! MY SOUL LEFT MY DAMN BODY!! And then Cogsworth says to Lumiere “It’s been an honor serving with you my friend?” WHAT THE HELL?!?! THAT WAS TRAUMATIZING!! DISNEY WHY DO YOU DO THESE THINGS WITH MY HEART; I FELT MY CHILDHOOD DIE!!

My Own Boy,

Your sonnet is quite lovely, and it is a marvel that those red-roseleaf lips of yours should be made no less for the madness of music and song than for the madness of kissing. Your slim gilt soul walks between passion and poetry. I know Hyacinthus, whom Apollo loved so madly, was you in Greek days. Why are you alone in London, and when do you go to Salisbury? Do go there to cool your hands in the grey twilight of Gothic things, and come here whenever you like. It is a lovely place and lacks only you; but go to Salisbury first.

Always, with undying love,

Yours, Oscar

—  Oscar Wilde to Lord Alfred Douglas
Yixing as your Boyfriend

Originally posted by kimjongah

Request: Heloo! Can you make Yixing as a boyfriend imagine? Thanks!

A/N: Here you are! I hope you enjoy and sorry for the wait~


- omfg send help

- he’s so god damn squishy

- l i t e r a l boyfriend material

- loves to show you off

- at least to the members

- but doesn’t just boast about your dashing good looks, your personality is what he loves to show off

- “look how caring and nice y/n is~”

- “they’re just the sweetest, aren’t they?”

- so many back hugs

- loves to just cook for you????

- not even just dinner or something

- he does meal-prepping for you so you always eat healthily

- “my baby always has to eat well.”

- so so so protective

- not in an uncomfortable way

- he just wants you to remember that you’re his

- and everyone else in the world

- buying you things

- all the things

- lots of couple items

- park dates

- movie dates

- any place he knows will make you smile

- whispering sweet nothings to you in Mandarin because he can

- teaching you little bits of Mandarin to communicate with his family

- lay is known for being a pretty forgetful person

- but he remembers every little damn detail about you

- your favorite ice cream flavor, shoe size, tickle spots etc.

- probs memorized your cycle if you have one

- please wear this boy’s clothing

- just do it oml he loves it

- although you have to accept the risks that come with it

- *wink wink*

- highkey really kinky honestly

- daddy af

- hickeys everywhere and refuses to let you hide them

- “let the world see you’re mine baby.”

- honestly when he’s horny he’s like a completely different person

- really loud in bed tho

- hmmmm okay moving on

- doing cute little couple things like building pillow forts and not leaving for 3 years

- trying to wake him up in the morning is literal hell

- but he’s so cute with his bedhead and everything that it doesn’t matter

- little unicorn gets so flustered whenever he sees you

- somehow you make his heart flutter without doing anything

- he’s just so in love

- a few cute pet names, but prefers to use your first name

- “it’s just the most amazing thing i’ve ever heard, why would i replace it?”

- ughsjkdfhlkajshfdf my bias wrecker is showing

- i’ll go now

 - just treat him and his beautiful soul right


-Admin Yeonie

Monster Rp starters

(This is for like monster people and Au’s, not something like a person so horrible they’ve become a monster)

“Hey you got your feathers all through my jacket again!”

“Did you just…eat that mouse…?”

“I just ate a mouse and I feel sick”

“Stop chasing your tail, your a grown (man/women/adult)”

“I know you love me but please let go of me, I can’t breathe”

“Jesus your a lot taller then I thought you were”

“Are you…making a nest? Why?”

“Do you need help putting your contact in?”

“What’s it like only having one eye?”

“So if your stomach has a mouth does that mean it eats too?”

“Your pointy ears are adorable”

“Please don’t steal my soul, I have class in like an hour and the soul stealing thing takes all day”

“Stop scratching the couch oh my god”

“Screw you I’m gonna scratch the couch if I want to”

“Please stop touching the light bulb, I know it’s pretty but you keep hurting yourself”

“Hey can you help me find my (body part)”

“Do you need help looking for (body part)”

“Hey I’ve lost my body! Help me look for it before it does something stupid!”

“Why are you eating catnip?”

“I just ate catnip and can’t feel my legs”

“Hey throw the toy I wanna catch it!”

“I don’t want to throw the toy…ugh fine give it here”

“I know it’s supposed to be cold today but the sun is out and if I go outside I’m probably going to catch on fire”

“I can make snow from my hands! Wanna see?!”

“Wow you can use magic?! Can you teach me!?”

“I know I’m not supposed to like a human, but I’ll make an exception because your cute”

“I just wanna tie you up in my web and cuddle you forever!”

“I need water, I’m getting dehydrated and I’m starting to smell like dead fish”

“I accidentally got slime all over your wall when I tried to kill a fly…I’m sorry”

“Hey it’s okay, it’s just a bit of slime”

“I accidentally set your clothes on fire when I was trying to fold them”

“Hey scratch my ear it’s itchy and you don’t have claws”

“I may or may not have got fur all over your couch when me and (random name) where playing”

“I accidentally broke your door and I’m sorry but maybe get a stronger door next time”

“This is the sixth door this month, stop slamming them please”

“Is it rude to ask if I could ride on you back?”

“What do you mean you want to ride me? I’m not a horse, well I mean, I’m not THAT kind of horse”

“How do you stop yourself from decaying? I mean, you are kinda dead after all”

“What’s it like having six tails?”

“Here, sit down and I’ll brush your wings”

“How did you get flees? Oh well time for a bath huh?”

“I wanna cuddle but I’m kinda scared I’ll crush you, so maybe you just sit in my lap and I hold you?”

“Hey I’m thirsty can I have some of your blood? Just to hold me off until we get home”

“Hey can you turn on the air conditioning? I know it’s like twenty degrees but I think I’m gonna melt”

“Hey pay attention to me! I want love!”

“I came here to get your soul but honestly I feel like if I take it, it’ll just Make me sad”

“Please take my Soul I’m so depressed”

“So I may or may not have accidentally broke my neck when I feel off the roof sooo, surprise! I’m a ghost now”

I brought my laptop into bed with me in an attempt to do work, but then ETD decided he wanted to hang out next to me and scroll 4chan on his phone (yes I know, obligatory 4chumblr ship mention here) and like I dunno about all of you, but I absolutely cannot write certain things when someone else is able to watch what I am doing, especially not when they just lean up into my space like “hey watcha doin” and I go through the seven stages of grief in three facial expressions

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why am I like this

Divide - as heard by me, Tumblr user live-laugh-ed.
  • Eraser: Coke will fuk u up. Don't do the drugs kidz.
  • Castle on the Hill: nostalgia is real. Growing up suckz, let's go watch a sunset dudes.
  • Dive: haha dive... more like dive right into that p*ssy. No really let's have the sex.
  • Shape of You: *gyrates hips into another dimension*
  • Perfect: darling just kiss (kill) me slow. no but really why am I single, where is my "dancing in the dark, barefoot on the grass"?
  • Galway Girl: I've got a huge Doritos & wine boner 4 u.
  • Happier: Man pain x 1000000
  • New Man: Ur new bf is a bleached a**hole
  • Heart Don't Break Around Here: (except mine) Why am I single? part 2.
  • What Do I Know?: Love is good, I think, maybe. who knows? I might be full of sh*t? But I'm sticking with it.
  • How Would You Feel(Paean): um this is getting repetitive but Why am I single? part 3. "How would you feel?" Dead, I feel dead inside.
  • Supermarket Flowers: *whispers softly* pls don't.
  • Barcelona: aye papi, mucho caliente daddy.
  • Bibia Be Ye Ye: *loses shoes* *loses keys* *throws up in cab* is this song about me?
  • Nancy Mulligan: Irish people doing Irish things and falling in Irish love.
  • Save Myself: save my soul from this pain.

okay so here’s the thing with all girl indie rp blogs. i’m about to rant a little. 
i’ve been roleplaying for quiet some time now. 5 years at least. had a few blogs here and there, always ended up leaving. why, you ask ?? because of the fact that all of my muses were females. i’ve tried roleplaying as guys so many times before ( never felt comfortable while doing so ) and have always recieved so much attention as soon as a male starter was posted. to get replies to my girls ?? fuck, i need to repost at least twice or simply hope there will be a good soul online who doesn’t actually mind replying to female starters ( bless you all who do, btw, you know who you are !! ) but damn !! why do girls get no damn attention ?? it makes me so sad. and here’s another thing; i hate doing long ass developed bios for my girls because i know barely anyone reads them. although i know exactly what i’d like them to be and their past and everything, i just don’t want to do them because they get ignored anyways and it freaking sucks. ugh. i’m almost a hundred percent positive i’m speaking on behalf of most all girl rp blogs on here. 

FEMALES DESERVE MORE ATTENTION. i’m sorry, but they do.

Should I Do The Thing? Tarot Spread

Most us have been there - sitting there, wondering “Should I do it? Should I do the thing?” (A lot of the time, it’s with your finger hovering over the send button, you know it…)

This is the spread to address that. It’s part fortune telling, giving you a bit of insight on what to expect from Doing The Thing, but it also digs deeper. I’d recommend choosing your Blunt Bestie Deck for this - the one that you trust to tell it like it is, no matter what. So, let’s get into this!

Card 1: Should I do it? This is as not as simple as it sounds! You might get a Nike-style JUST DO IT piece of encouragement, you might get a warning. Just know that this card miiiight not be the best to trust - it can sometimes pick up on your hopes or fears and reflect that back at you, if you’re REALLY invested in the situation. That’s why we’ve got some other cards to look at…

Card 2: Why do I ACTUALLY want to do this? This is the card that digs a bit deeper. You know the story you’ve told yourself about the Why, but this card is looking at the actual deep Soul Longing that is coming out. In my experience, when you feel something intensely, it’s often not just the current situation that you’re touching, it’s an echo of something deeper. Be willing to tell yourself the truth here.

Card 3: How do I address the true void? So you’ve dug right in, and figured out the True Why behind wanting to do the thing. This card is all about giving you your power back, This card shows you something that you can do to healthily address the deeper issue. Read this card through the lens of self-love & actionable advice. Maybe, just maybe, you’ll find that you can do the thing without being invested in any specific outcome - you’re doing it purely for yourself - or, maybe, you’ll find you don’t need to do it at all anymore.

I hope this spread helps to bring someone clarity! If you use it and want to chat about your results, feel free to tag me in your post or message me any time!

~Libra

29th of June, 1958.

That day not just a legend was born. That day the purest, most loving soul that ever walked this earth was born.

Michael Jackson, my idol since I have memory. I can’t put into words what this man means to me.
When people ask me why do I love him, I can’t give them an answer because there are so many things and it’s impossible to pick just one.

I can’t remember when I discovered Michael, it’s like he’s always been there. Like, I know him from the start. That’s what Michael is about. He’s there with you, all the time.
But what I do remember is the first time that I saw one of his concerts, I was 7 years old and my dad let me watch his concert from Wembley Stadium, from the Bad Tour.
As my dad has told me, I was trying to imitate all his dance moves while singing all the words to his songs with such a big smile on my face.
His music just gives me life.

Then as I got older, I started to know about the message that he wanted to spread all over the world, which is: LOVE each other.
This man tried to do everything that was on his hand to make the world a better place. He did so much for so many people, yet a lot of those people along with the press tried to bring him down with everything they could.
Yet he stayed strong and got through all of that shit and he continued loving people.

Every time Michael says: ‘I love you more!’ , to the fans it really brings me to tears because he loved us as much as we loved him. He was such an amazing human being, always taking care of us.
I’m really sorry that we couldn’t do more for you Michael. So, in behalf of mankind, I’m sorry.

Michael, I just want to let you know that I love you. I will ALWAYS love you. I want to thank you for everything you’ve done for me, everything you have taught me. Thanks to you I am a better person.

I love you so much King, happy birthday 💜

Do you think heaven cries
for all the soul she’s lost?
Do you think God noticed my absence?
Do you think he sleeps at night,
do you think he misses me?
I can carry a light in my heart,
They say pray to remain faithful
and claim all things happens in the arms of God.
If that be true, all the bad happened in the eyes of God,
and he watched us die.
If God so loved the world,
why are all the sick not cured,
why do people that prey on the young and weak exist?
I was a child,
he was a child,
she was a child.
We are threatened to bow at his feet,
told that if we do not believe
a hell awaits for us.
But it feels as though hell is on earth
and we are all on fire.