why do they have to be so attractive

I really really really need to work on starving myself because if i was attractive my life would be so much better. I wouldn’t hate being seen in public and i would have more of a chance at meeting guys and them actually liking me. As it is im too self conscious to hang out with anyone because i feel so ugly. I don’t even like going to the store cause I’m so ugly. If i was attractive maybe i would be able to have friends or a bf lmao or maybe dima wouldn’t treat me like shit. I just want to be skinny. And that’s part of the reason why I’ve been doing so many drugs is they help me starve myself but I’m killing my body in the process. Idk why I’m still making an effort. Wish i didn’t miss my therapist appointment

being gay is tough especially when it comes to relationships like??? straight people get to start so much earlier, and now im just starting to put myself out there at nineteen. i still have to go through my awkward dating phase and learn what it means to be in a relationship. a lot of gay ppl my age are going through the same thing, but we’re expected to be adults about it when we don’t know what the fuck we’re doing, which is why a lot of young gay people usually just end up having sexual relationships because that way we feel adult in our relationships and attraction when the truth is we are still just beginning and trying to figure things out for ourselves.

im a lesbian, and i know this, but because of there being so little representation of wlw (and when there is, half of the time it’s written by straight people who don’t know what they’re doing) I can’t imagine what a relationship with a woman is supposed to be like. I don’t know if how I feel attraction is genuine or a remnant of compulsory heterosexuality and heteronormativity. I don’t know if the relationship I’m imagining is healthy or a part of the heterosexual relationship dynamic that I’ve learned to know as the default. when you learn relationships are supposed to be one way, how else can you imagine them being??? when you’re a wlw who has never been in a relationship with another woman it’s hard to imagine having a girlfriend or a wife and when that happens it’s easy to doubt your attraction to women, and that’s scary.

dating when you’re gay is scary in more ways than being afraid to hold hands in public, it’s scary in being an adult going through this kind of stuff everyone else went through when they were 14. you feel so stuck behind and doubt yourself at every turn. straight people don’t get that.

why do people still have a hard time grasping like… even if it’s fictional, it has impact in the real world. step out of your fandom comfort zone and see how “ships” and supporting certain media influences things in the real world. i have seen and read so many cases with abusive people using abusive ships to groom unsuspecting ppl. normalizing adult/child ships gives pedophiles a fallback for their unhealthy attraction to minors. i’m not spewing fiction! this shit happens!

Phil’s Livestream // 2.9.17

He’s wearing his fox jumper

He’s going to draw out his birthday for as long as possibly

Dan got him a signed picture of David Boreanaz in the bath

Tb to that awful radiator photoshoot 

“It was very crotchy”

He doesn’t know how to smile with his eyes

In most photoshoots they want Dan to smile and Phil to do a funny face but that may change

They went to see Manchester by the Sea

The theater had footstools and some poor man kept falling over them

He ended up falling face first into Dan’s popcorn

“Why us? Why us?”

The Lesters attract weird people 

He had a list of movies he wanted to see before the Oscars

“I got to see about 4 snows”

“’You need to move out. I know!”

They had 3 more gas leaks that they had to get fixed

They are fine though dw

If there’s another leak they’d have to leave the house for a while so perhaps a holiday

Emu update

He hasn’t played Kingdom Hearts

“Why do people want to stick duct tape to fish?”

ASMR

He doesn’t like mouth noises

“Mouths man. They’re weird.”

His flowers are bloomed to the max

“Philly did something right”

They’re still loving Steven Universe 

He’s excited for Stranger Things season 2

He’s also watching Santa Clarita Diet 

He got a big new winter coat that’s black with a furry hood 

They got to feed meerkats with a girl named Zoe with Make A Wish

One of the meerkats was digging into his crotch because some food fell 

“If you’re ever bored just combine dogs and google it”

They also saw penguins, lions, and llamas at the zoo

He was singing Jingle Bells for like a week 

Presentation tips

“It’s time for your bath”

Sugar glider research 

More 8 ball answers

“I’ve had a lovely time chatting with you”

New Sims video soon

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MORE PHICHIT!!!

So yesterday one person asked me if I could provide a picture of the location in the background of my previous rant and I thought that’s a very good idea. So here it is the recent picture of the building I took this morning and the anime one for you guys to compare.

I have to take it from across the street because for the same angle means I have to stand in the streets, and I still want to continue watching my baby. You notice the bowling pin is gone due to the bowling alley going busted awhile back. So there you have it my new Phichit post.

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NOT!!!

YOU THINK THAT IS IT? THAT ONE LAME COMPARISON IS IN NEED OF ONE WHOLE NEW POST? SURE FIRST IT WAS ONLY GOING TO BE THAT BUT THEN I THINK HEY WHY NOT TAKE IT A STEP FURTHER? DO YOU KNOW WHY THEY DECIDE TO ANIMATE THAT BUILDING OUT OF ALL THE MORE MODERN AND ATTRACTIVE BUILDINGS AROUND HERE? THAT’S BECAUSE IN THERE ON THE TOP FLOOR MY FRIEND IS AN INDOOR ICE SKATING RINK. THE SAME RINK MY BABY FACETIME YURI FROM!!!

FUCKING

BOOM

YOUR WELCOME!!!

Also you know what I just realized? In the first episode he was pulling a travelling bag along which might means he just got back to Thailand from Detroit. And he’s walking to the right of the screen whICH IS TOWARDS MY HOUSE (or maybe to the bus stop right off screen but I want to keep it positive).

MY BABY IS SO NEARBY!!!

THE MORE I KNOW THE MORE I CAN’T!!!

compliment sentence starters.

’ you always know how to find that silver lining. ’
’ has anyone ever told you how beautiful you are? ’
’ you have the whitest teeth! you’ve got a hollywood smile! ’
’ you have the most beautiful eyes i’ve seen before. ’
’ i love your hair so much, it’s so pretty. ’
’ you have the best laugh in the universe. ’
’ you always dress so fabulous! you’ve got so much style! ’
’ you’re the best at anything and everything you do. ’
’ you are the smartest person i know! ’
’ sometimes i wonder why you’re my friend. ’
’ you’re the best friend anyone could ever ask for. ’
’ you always seem to have a solution for any problem. ’
’ you are the most attractive person i’ve had as a friend. ’
’ anything looks good on you! you’re perfect! ’
’ you always make the days a little brighter for people. ’
’ you’re like, really loved and adored, despite what you think. ’
’ anyone would be lucky to have you as a girl/boyfriend. ’
’ you’re going to make the best parent one day. ’
’ one day, you’re going to make someone so happy. ’
’ ever since i met you, i’d been the happiest i’ve ever been. ’
’ you are the perfect role model. ’
’ you deserve an award or something, you’re that great. ’
’ you did so good on that art work the other day! ’
’ that speech was phenomenal, left me speechless. ’
’ you’ve got an amazing face and i just want to stare at it all. ’
’ i could stare at you all day and never get tired. ’
’ you are the better looking out of the two of us. ’
’ you’re the smarter one out of the two of us. ’
’ you always smell so good. what perfume is that? ’
’ i’ll only get a make over, if you’re the one who does it. ’
’ i’d trust you with my life any day. ’
’ you have the biggest heart out of everyone i’ve ever met. ’
’ you are just the sweetest person ever. ’
’ you are so creative! i could never be that original. ’
’ your ideas are so beautiful and original, i love them. ’
’ you really do make a fantastic meal, the best i’ve ever had. ’
’ this is so delicious, oh my god, you’re amazing. ’
’ you do not need make up to look beautiful, you were blessed. ’
’ why does everything you buy fit you so well? ugh. ’
’ you give me so much inspiration. ’
’ you inspire me so much, i’ve always looked up to you. ’
  • someone: why do you like prince sidon so much?
  • what i think: he's a humanoid just far enough from looking human that you don't get the weird 'human face on animal' vibe but also close enough that a lot of his features are recognizable as well as aesthetically pleasing: big eyes, strong jaw, etc - which give him an odd enough appearance to make him interesting looking but not so much that it turns people off, and it all comes together to form an attractive anthropomorphic character. not to mention, he's very tall and well built, with big hands, broad shoulders, etc which is something that i intensely like. Add into that a positive, kind, endearing, sweet, exuberant, thoughtful, genuine, gentlemanly personality where it's obvious he cares deeply for his people and his friends, wants the best for everyone, and tries his hardest to make things work, and you basically got a combination for a 100/10 bombshell, regardless of the fact that he has fins. Like yeah, he's a shark dude but sometimes, just being attracted to plain ole humans gets a bit boring and i can get past the whole fish thing.
  • what i say: tol
Things that only SPN fandom can understand:
  • “Oh my Chuck!”
  • “Carry on my wayward soOOOOOon” means “somebody’s gonna die”
  • “Adam? Who the fuck is Ad- Ooooh, right!”
  • “It’s just a car!”: fandom screaming
  • “Why does everyone have to die!?”
  • Lucifer and Death are good guys
  • Metatron is not.
  • Don’t get stuck on tuesday
  • “How can Sam get wifi everywhere?”
  • “It’s funnier in enochian”
  • Dean is the pizzaman
  • There are a lot of ways to say “I love you”
  • Twist and Shout
  • “How can this cast be so fucking attractive!?”
  • God is bisexual
  • Thinking “I kinda miss the apocalypse”
  • “I can dig Elvis”: fandom heartbreak
  • “Bitch”, “Jerk”, “Idiot”, “Assbutt”.
  • Your social life ended with “Dad’s on a hunting trip, and he hasn’t been home in a few days”
  • “I usually suffer from insomnia” actually means “I usually spend the night reading Destiel fanfictions”
  • “Why do I still watch this show?”

gay men on tv: I’m gay, I’m attracted to men. I am the gayest person you will find out there. I am sooo gay.

lesbians on tv: I’m a lesbian.  I’m attracted to women. I am the gayest person you will find out there. I am sooo gay.

bisexuals on tv: It’s complicated. Why do we have to put labels on everything? If you have to label me, label me in love.

inconsistencies in mogai tingle that dont make sense:

  • why straight means being heteroromantic heterosexual so you can’t be straight and ace at the same time but also gay doesn’t mean “h*m*romantic h*m*sexual” because you can still be gay and ace
  • “allos dont know what it’s like to feel broken” actually as a lesbian i do, in fact, know what it’s like to “”feel broken””
  • “allosexual privilege” explain how people are privileged for feeling sexual attraction? how are, for example, black men privileged for sexual attraction when they have been oversexualized for their race? how are women, ESPECIALLY women of color, privileged for being sexually attracted to others when women’s sexuality (ESPECIALLY woc’s sexuality) has been used as a tool to continue to oppress them?
  • how there is a “spectrum” of sexual attraction on which there is a “normal” amount that society as a whole views as “socially acceptable” and how falling below that “normal” range makes one oppressed
  • how lesbians and gay men oppress others on the basis of sexual orientation
  • how children can be ace without sexualizing all other children
  • how the LGBT+ community’s history somehow doesn’t matter to the LGBT+ community today
  • how “the A ALWAYS stood for asexual :)”
  • how orientations can be about how often or under what circumstances someone feels attraction rather than to who
  • how calling cishet aces out on their homophobia is “aphobic”
  • how “aphobia” is even a coherent basis of oppression
  • how all the “”””evidence”””” of aphobia is always grounded on how much sex people have, but not having sex is neither an all-ace-encompassing experience NOR an ace-exclusive experience
  • how unless ur aroace ur “”allosomething”” which means shitting on allos means ur shitting on urself?? this gets me every time
  • David Jay
    • Just all of David Jay is a disaster how can y’all support the movement he started
  • how aces belong in the lgbt+ community despite it being filled with their “”””allosexual oppressors”””” but they don’t wanna make their own community to get away from the evil oppressive allos
    • actually this one makes sense it’s easier to steal lgbt+ people’s resources when you act like ur one of them even if ur a cishet
  • why microidentities surrounding people’s specific and intimate relationships to sex are appropriate to share with people who just wanted to know whether you date boys/girls/nb people

Anyway feel free to add ur own observations of things that dont make sense about cishet inclusionists!

GOT7 Reaction to their s/o or bff getting into a fight

Request: Okay so short story: I got into an actual fight defending a friend of mine (that I have a crush on wow) and I have a bruise on my jaw now. How would got7 react to a friend/crush/So getting into a fight w/ someone? Alternative: bts or got7 reaction to a protective s/o?

I DO NOT OWN THESE GIFS, I GOT THEM OFF OF GOOGLE. 

CREDIT TO THE PEOPLE WHO MADE THEM

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Texts From Last Night Sentence Starters

“Why the fuck is there a goat in the kitchen?”
“That cat I follow on Facebook beat cancer so we’re drinking tonight in celebration!”
“Someone who makes you cum so hard that you have an asthma attack is clearly your soulmate.”
“Okay I’m officially a Texan now, I banged a dude with cowboy boots.”
“I DO have hobbies! I drink. I drink more. I catfish men on Grindr with photos of guys who are less attractive than me. I listen to Lovecraftian podcasts. I’m very well-rounded.”
“Did you happen to find my bra? I’m pretty sure I still had it on before we left that bar…”
“We ate sushi in a hospital bed, then fucked in a bathroom while I wore a gown. Pretty sure she’s the one.”
“So the girl I met at the bar last night came home with me. Played with my puppy. And left.”
“I cannot handle Xanax… I just turned my computer on and I googled how to work YouTube.”
“I don’t need this shit right now. I just woke up covered in pistachios.”
“It was great.  Somehow, sleeping with her sister cured everything!”
“Fuck winter. I had to scrape my windshield, shoeless, after the walk of shame so I could go home.”
“He wanted me naked, so I got naked. You can’t hold that against me.”
“Should I get the rainbow boxer briefs?”
“As your boyfriend, this is a level of gay that even I can’t handle.”
“Yeah, I mean I’ll probably fuck him regardless but I’m trying to be a lady about it.”
“I swear to god, if you have sex in my bed one more time you’re gonna start paying rent!”
“Reminder- he’s a douche bag. A big one.”
“He took shrooms and didn’t want anyone to touch him. He kept saying he was a chip and he didn’t want to break.”
“We have a pile of chopped wood here that suggests we may have chopped down a tree of some sort.”
“I totally thought the tree was playing the guitar…”
“I feel like you’re the reason public nudity is illegal and generally frowned upon in society.”
“No longer is one of my lifelong dreams to ride in a kangaroo pouch. You have eternally ruined that for me. Thank you.”
“When I’m drunk I really like to hold dicks. Like, affectionately.”
“We found your brother, passed out, floating in our pool, with a bottle, on a blow up mattress. How did he mange to walk two blocks and get into our backyard?”
“He dated a girl who could do the damn splits on his dick like how do you compete with that?”

Don’t Deny It ~Freaky February~ (C.G)

Prompt: Carl gets jealous because he thinks you like Ron.

Pairing: Carl x Reader

Word Count: 455

Warning: None

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  • One half of the Killing Stalking Fandom: WOW! Sangwoo is so fucking hot he can murder me all he wants and he can step on me him and Yoonbum are so cute together like I ship them so much
  • Other half of the Killing Stalking Fandom: What the fuck. Why are you guys shipping them together? And Sangwoo isn't hot he's a fucking crazy murderer who has Yoonbum trapped inside his house! This is so fucked up like who's attracted to a killer?
  • Me: I have conflicted feelings about this
Rant incoming

Okay okay so I have a friend..Let’s call her Janet. So Janet suddenly like BTS and Jimin. That’s great that Kpop is getting the recognition it deserves and spreading. The thing that bothered me is not too long ago she said things like ‘Kpop idols are gay. Why do they wear makeup? They look like girl’s? Shut up about your Chinese music?’

I think it’s so sad that 16 year olds have this mentality and think it’s okay. Why can’t people just appreciate music and culture for what it is? It’s Kpop so it’s different and unique which attracts so many fans. Why put it down because you don’t like it and others do?

If you’re one of these people, please stop. It’s annoying, unecessary and damn disrespectful. Those idols didn’t work their butts off just to he shat on by some ignorant teenagers.