why do so many thing happen today!

if you actually think ableism doesnt exist and is just some new tumblr buzzword, you seriously gotta get your head out of your ass and open your eyes.

the simple fact that, despite how awful ableism has been in the past, and how rampant and horrible it is today, and even after so many awful things that happen because of the constant ableism, there are still people who choose to believe it doesnt exist, who think the disabled dont go through as much as another group, or anything at all, shows how deeply embedded ableism is in this world.

why do you think you dont hear about this in history books? or in rallies? why do you think you need to literally search for stories about ableism? Because ableism is so bad that no one believes it exists so they dont include it in anything, even social justice movements that claim to fight for equality and be better than “the privileged” have a very VERY long and toxic history of ableism, a history that is still continued today, because no one calls out ableism in anything, because its so bad we dont think it exists.

so if you actually think ableism doesnt exist, congrats, youre proving that it does, because in order to believe such a serious form of discrimination is just some dorky internet trend made up by whiny teens, you have to ignore and erase every form of ableism ever.

in short, you have to be ableist to think ableism doesnt exist.

Admin Misha for Underappreciation Week!

Yeah, I was taking a quick hiatus from tumblr, but there’s bigger things happening here: today is Admin Misha’s birthday!!! Woo! 🎉🎈🎉🎈

Here’s some quick facts/things that I love about her/why she’s so amazing:

-she’s kind
-great listener
-so talented! She plays the piano and can sing!
-also acts
-honestly? She updates this blog more than I do when it comes to adding quotes and I’m grateful for it.
-helluvan artist
-appreciates the little things in life and sees beauty everywhere
-is thoughtful


Positive Pregnancy Affirmations

-You cannot steal tomorrow’s sorrow if something bad happens, you’re only stealing today’s joy by worrying.

-There’s no reason why I can’t have a healthy baby like so many women do every year.

-Today I am pregnant and I love my baby.

- I am pregnant until someone tells me otherwise.

- My past does not dictate my future. A previous m/c does not mean I will have another m/c.

-Just because something sad is happening to another poster, does not mean it will happen to you. We all know m/c and complications are not contagious!

- Hope does not make bad things happen" You cannot jinx your pregnancy by creating a ticker, getting excited, or telling someone. Live in the positive!

- There is nothing I can do to prevent a m/c from happening. Worrying yourself sick doesn’t prevent a m/c. And if (God forbid) it were to happen again, I know I will survive.

(saved these in january, if you wrote these let me know so i can take them down/give credit!)

I high key started crying like 5 minutes ago because I was thinking of what I would include if I were to give some sort of acceptance speech for like an Oscar or something. I realized how blessed I am and how grateful I am for so many things, and when I thought about my parents I was in tears because I was so grateful for everything they have done for me and my 2 siblings.

I also remembered about an amazing thing that happened today in Musical Theatre. We’re preparing for a drama competition in my state (which is why the acceptance speech thing popped up in my head), and I had to do my 2 monologues in front of my class (which was sorta small that day). After I had done my monologues (that was the first time I had done those monologues in front of people before and it went so well), I got so much praise and I was so happy that I started squealing and shuffling my feet. I was like beaming with joy and I could hear little “aww"s in the group.

They kept saying how proud they were at far I had come, because I am usually nervous about this time of stuff and usually I can’t perform in front of people without shaking. They really noticed this and they were super proud of me and that just made me almost cry, and I feel such a large connection with them all. I’m just so happy that I’m a part of this program, even if the teacher isn’t that great.

It’s like almost 2am and I’m just rambling at this point. I’m literally so grateful for everything that I have been able to do and that I have this opportunity to possibly win an award for performing monologues in front of judges.

Reflections, 18.01.16:

Hello~ I’m sorry I didn’t update on the weekends. I was too busy. But I re-organized this blog and I’m pretty proud of the navigation page because I coded it myself!! What do you think?

Anyway, today was a pretty short day in school for which I’m grateful because so many things happened!

First I got back BOTH my Math and Chem re-exam papers, and let me tell you, my reactions couldn’t have been more different. Although I studied rly hard for Math I got an S grade?? But with the minimal effort I put into Chem I passed?? Why??

Sigh this means I need to keep breaking my back for Math. :/

I also finished reading up on Math: Recurrence Relations + completed the tutorial so I’m ready for my teacher to go through it with it now. After P&C I’ll be done with revising my J1 topics, yeahh~

Now I’ll go study up for the Chem Quiz tomorrow. Periodic Table, here I come.


- Group II - Read up

- Periodic Table - Notes