why do i stan this guy

Hold Me (Part 7) Richie x Reader

Originally posted by wyattswolfs

Author’s note: I know its been awhile since I’ve posted anything and this is kinda short I guess. I don’t know but I hope you guys enjoy it! Let me know what I should do with this. I kinda wanna end it soon but I don’t know what direction to take it. 

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Readers pov:

“Why do I always fuck everything up?” I sighed.

“No you don’t.” Bev answered.

“Stan and Richie have been avoiding me like the plague all week.” I mumbled. “I know I hurt Richie. But what the hell is Stan’s problem?”

I knew she had some idea of what he problem was. It’s like he snapped. One second he was fine and the next you would’ve thought I told him I hated him or something.

“I think you should talk to him.” Bev replied.

“Like that will help.” I scoffed. “I hurt everyone I talk to. If I were you, I’d get a head start before I hurt you too.”

“Stop it Y/N.” Bev said sternly. “I want you to go to Stan’s house right now and talk to him.”

“What am I supposed to say?” I questioned. “I’m sorry but I don’t know what I’m sorry for?”

“Are you really that blind?”

“What are you talking about?” I glared at Bev.

“Stan has had the biggest crush on you for years.”

“What? No. No he doesn’t.”

“Oh come on Y/N. Just think about everything he’s said and done.”

“Alright I get it.” I sighed. “But what do I do? Everything is just a fucking mess.”

“Talk to them, tell them the truth, apologize if you feel like you should. Patch things up.”

I thought long and hard about what Bev said. How could I be so blind? Is my head really that far up my ass that I didn’t see the little things Stan would do or say? And Richie. I hated myself for what I put Richie through, he doesn’t deserve the bullshit I’ve been putting him through lately.

Honestly, my biggest problem is apologizing. I always apologize for everything to the point my friends yell at me about it which leads me to more apologizing. Mike would tease and say I could fall flat on my face and apologize to whoever asked if I was okay, but it was true.


“Hi Mrs. Uris, is Stan home?” I asked politely.

“He’s up in his room, you can go on up.” She smiled.

“Thank you Mrs. Uris.”

I hesitated before knocking on his bedroom door.

“Come in.” He groaned.

“It’s me.” I said, closing the door behind me.

“What are you doing here?” Stan questioned, sitting up.

“Because you’re my friend and something was wrong when you left my house.” I answered.

“Is that all I’ll ever be?” He muttered under his breath.

“Stan, look at me.” He hesitantly looked up from his hands as I sat across from him. “You deserve someone better than me, you’re an amazing person and you deserve someone equally as amazing to cherish you.”

His eyes looked down again.

“Hey.” I said softly. “Come on, look at me.”

My hands cupped his cheeks, bringing his eyes to mine.

“I mean it you know.”

Suddenly Stan’s lips crashed onto mine. I put my hand on his chest, pushing him away from me.

“Shit. Im sorry.” He panicked.  “I don’t know why I did that.”

The kiss left me a bit breathless, but I felt guilty, as if I was cheating on Richie.

“It’s just a kiss Stan.” I sighed. “But I think this should stay between us and I mean it.”

Stan nodded in agreement with his cheeks still pink.


My heart pounded through my chest as I knocked on the door. I silently hoped and prayed he answered the door and not his parents.

“What do you want?” He questioned, clearing not happy to see me.

“I want to fix things between us.” I sighed looking down at my feet.

Richie hesitated. “I guess you could come in.”

He sat on his bed, as I stood there awkwardly before sitting on the chair from his desk.

“So?” He questioned impatiently.

“I’m sorry. I wasn’t trying to hurt you, I thought it would be better for you if I didn’t say anything. I just figured I shouldn’t add more to your plate.” I trailed off, looking anywhere but at him.

“What made you talk to Stan before me?”

“I was so sick of keeping it all bottled up. I figured maybe I’d feel better.” I answered. “I regret everything I’ve been doing lately, I just hurt everyone around me. I feel like I’m drowning in my mistakes.”

“Just promise you’ll come to me when there is problem?” He asked.

“I promise.”

“Now get over here. I’ve missed you.” Richie smiled.

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anonymous asked:

prompt list request; 8 or 17

I’ll do 8 for reddie! Thanks for requesting!

8. “Why are you so jealous?”

Eddie was lonely. He earnestly admitted it. After coming out as gay he felt as though he were being avoided by the majority of the human race, like he had the plague and any association would infect them. Eddie didn’t understand why this was. He was just a guy who loved other guys and that doesn’t change a single thing about his personality. 

Of course his friends stuck with him, they were his friends of course, but he wished for something more than friends. He loved the losers with all his heart but he didn’t want to just be limited to them. 

Eddie Kaspbrak wanted something more than friendship as well. He wanted a loving boyfriend more than anything in the world. He was a simple boy, he wanted love and he was nearly willing to do anything for it. He would change everything about himself if it meant finding love, he didn’t know that love was waiting right in front of him if he had just opened his eyes to see the clearly infatuated Richie Tozier who’s eyes never left the hypochondriac. Richie Tozier who, as a raging bisexual, had been crushing on Eddie for months. Eddie too had feelings for the loud-mouthed friend of his but did not know Richie was interested in boys, much less, him.

The short asthmatic boy formulated a plan with Richie’s help. He would get a fake id and sneak into one of the few gay bars that existed with Richie in an attempt to get a date that wasn’t going to spit in his face and refer to him as a slur that stabbed Eddie’s heart with each time it was thrown at him, which was unfortunately quite often.

Richie was hesitant to help Eddie with this plan, he loved Eddie’s personality and behavior and this just seemed so out of character and it scared Richie. He was also terrified of what would happen if Eddie actual got a date. He was unsure if he would be able to look Eddie Kaspbrak in the eye knowing that he were loving someone other than Richie. It was selfish, yet Richie wanted nothing more than to feel the tenderness of Eddie’s lips against his, the heat radiating from the smaller boys body as they lie beside each other, the softness of Eddie’s clean and smooth hands grasping onto Richie’s rougher calloused ones. 

Deep down Eddie knew he desired to run his hands lovingly through Richie’s knotty hair, to taste the slight linger of nicotine on the taller boys lips, to rest his head softly against the trashmouth’s chest listening to the thumps of his heartbeat and the even breaths that would be sure to be heard and felt. But Eddie believed he stood no chance, so he would push those thoughts to the back of his mind and find someone who would be willing to have him.

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Best Comedic Moments of IT (2017)
  • “Best feeling ever!” “Really? Try tickling your pickle for the first time”
  • New kid on the block Ben listening to New Kids on the Block (And making references to their songs and hanging up a poster that he tries to hide)
  • Bill trying to come up with a lie to Eddie’s mom about where they’re going and he goes “I got a new uhhhhh” and then Richie jumps in “A new croquet set!" 
  • Eddie going to kiss his mom goodbye and Richie going "Do you want one from me too Mrs. K?” as Eddie pushes him out the door
  • Pennywise calling Ben “Egg boy”
  • When they found Betty Ripson’s shoe in the sewers and Richie goes “How do you think Betty feels? Running around these tunnels with only one freaking shoe” while hopping up and down with one foot in the air 
  • “It’s in my second fanny pack” “Why do you have two fanny packs?!" 
  • When Eddie is dressing Ben’s cuts from Henry and Richie goes "You have to suck the wound before you apply the bandage, this is 101!” and Eddie just flat out replies “You don’t know what you’re talking about”
  • “The list is longer than my wang!” “That’s not saying much” Stan freaking roasting Richie 
  • The beautiful aesthetic shot of Bev jumping off the cliff with this soft pretty music playing in the background as Richie screams “WHAT THE FUCK”
  • Ben asking if they want to see more of his research about the missing kids and the history of Derry and Eddie violently shaking his head 
  • “Derry started as a beaver trapping camp” “Still is AM I RIGHT BOYS?” Richie going for a high five and getting REJECTED 
  • When Richie is put on lookout outside Bev’s apartment and asks “What if her dad comes back?” and Stan is just DONE and goes “Do what you always do: Start talking!" 
  • "Trash the trashmouth!" 
  • "The sink went all Eddie’s mom’s vagina”
  • When they’re all talking about their experiences with IT and Richie goes “Wait can only virgins see this stuff? Is that why I’m not seeing this shit?" 
  • When the losers saw Mike’s bike and all ran to help immediately and Stan took the extra three seconds to kick his bike stand down 
  • Richie yelling "ROCK WAR” and immediately getting hit in the face 
  • Richie trying to steal and play the horn from the marching band guy in the background during a serious scene 
  • “I saw a leper…… It was like a walking infection”
  • When Stan brings up the woman that IT transformed into for him and Richie just goes “Is she hot?”
  • When Bill asked who wants to stay out of Neibolt House to keep watch and everyone raised their hands (“Fuck” -Richie) 
  • “Can’t believe I pulled the short straw. You guys are lucky we’re not measuring dicks" 
  • Pennywise saying "Beep beep Richie” immediately before attacking him 
  • 3 doors labeled “Very scary” “Scary” and “Not scary at all” with Bill and Richie looking directly at each other before running to “Not scary at all”
  • After Eddie broke his arm and Richie went “I’m gonna snap it back into place!” and Eddie just yelled “Do not fucking touch me!”
  • “Who invited Molly Ringwald?”
  • When Richie yelled that Ben was leaking Hamburger Helper
  • “See that guy I’m hitting? I’m pretending it’s you” Richie while playing the arcade game when Bill came to talk to him after their fight 
  • When Eddie went to confront his mom about his meds being placebos “THEY’RE GAZEBOS! THEY’RE BULLSHIT!”
  • Richie trying to break the bottle against the railing so he has a weapon but then the entire thing just shattered
  • Pennywise’s weirdass dance 
  • “And now I’m gonna have to kill this fucking clown!” END MY LIFE BEST MOMENT OF THE MOVIE
  • “I know what I’m doing for my summer experience essay” Richie right after the final confrontation with IT

The Signs as Richie being an iconic little shit in the movie

Taurus: Who invited Molly Ringwald into the group?

Aries: Go blow your dad, you mullet wearing asshole!

Gemini: Can only virgins see this? Is that why I’m not seeing this shit?

Cancer: you punched me , made me walk through shitty water, dragged me through a crack house, and now…I’m gonna have to kill this clown. Welcome to the Losers Club, Asshole!

Leo: I’ll show you a staff infection!

Virgo: *yelling WHAT THE FUCK off screen*

Libra: This motherfucker is leaking hamburger helper!

Scorpio: I can’t believe I drew the short straw. You guys are lucky we’re not measuring dicks

Sagittarius: *to Stan* was she hot?

Capricorn: do you use the same bathroom as your mother? Then you probably have crabs

Aquarius: *to Beverly* more than what you showed us yesterday at the quarry?

Pisces: No, nothing cool about this at all…Oh, this is cool! Wait, no, no it’s not


you need to watch the full video, trust me

mike: ….so let me get this straight. you say you, richie tozier, are a free man?

richie: yep

bill: a c-casanova?

richie: that is correct

stan: a fuckboy supreme?

richie: right on.

mike: …and eddie knows about this?

richie: listen fellas, eddie knows what the deal is. he knows that he’s not the only one to have my heart. he knows i’m a free spirit, but that boy is still so whipped for me.

eddie: -walks over- hey guys

richie: -clings to eddie- i love you so much eddie you are my reason for breathing there is no other for me and i could never look at another. you and only you have my heart.



stan: ….fake ass bitch

I started laughing when i saw this.
I think it’s from the movie ‘the room’

question: do any of you guys like pewds?


Writing Prompts

Send me your requests HERE with your prompt choice and ship / character of choice! (Please no more than 4) and also add your own request merged into it if you want??

  1. “Give me your jacket, I’m freezing.”
  2. “These shoes were made to kick you in the ass!”
  3. “Are you okay?”                                                                                          “I don’t know how to answer that.”
  4. “It’s no big deal, its just a few scratches.”
  5. “I’m so cute, I don’t see why you aren’t dating me.”
  6. “We made a deal and you’ll keep your end, one way or another.”
  7. “You look cute when you smile, you should do it more often.”
  8. “Why are you blushing?”
  9. “I’m always here and you just ignore me.”
  10. “I’ve worked my ass off to get you in this position.”
  11. “Grab my hand!”
  12. “No, listen to me.”
  13. “I don’t know if I can keep going like this.”
  14. “There’s no shame in taking a step back.”
  15. “I’ll kill you, you sick bastard. I’ll kill you, you’re a fucking monster who deserves to die.”
  16. “Is that… a dog?”                                                                                   “No, Its a fucking horse. Of course its a dog, dumbass.”
  17. “I walked here to you in the rain, this is how much I love you.”
  18. “You are quite the mystery, aren’t you?”
  19. “Let go of me!”                                                                                        “I’m barely touching you!!”
  20. “You’re so cute when you’re mad.”
  21. “Do you believe in love?”
  22. “Put me down!”
  23. “You’re so small, it’s adorable.”
  24. “Look, this isn’t a guilt-trip: I just genuinely want to know if you dislike me so I can stop bothering you.”
  25. “We can’t be friends anymore.”
  26. “Open your fucking eyes, it’s so obvious that I’m in love with you!”
  27. “Don’t you dare touch him/her.”
  28. “Please don’t be mad at me.”
  29. “Don’t do anything stupid, I’m gonna help you.”
  30. “They say less is more, but when have I lived by that?”
  31. “Hey, don’t touch anything. I don’t know how stable it all is.”
  32. “I hate how you’ve made me broken.”
  33. “I’m a screamer. Not sexually, just at life in general.”                                     “I can make that sexually.
  34. “This isn’t one of my more subtle plans, but considering how long it’s been since I ate or drank or slept, I think I’m doing pretty good.”
  35. “If I wanted you dead, this room would be a lot quieter.”
  36. “Do you ever shut up?”
  37. “You’re such an ass!”
    “But a fine looking one, yes?” 
  38. “You’re safe now, I’ve got you.”
  39. “Since when did you become a badass?”
  40. “I don’t know why, but I think I’m in love with you.”
  41. “Holy shit! You’re bleeding!”
  42. “I’d like to talk to you when you have your pants on, okay?”
  43. “If anyone could have saved me, it would have been you.”
  44. “Everyone has a breaking point.” 
  45. “I refuse to play along with this. No thank you, go away.”
  46. “What now?”                                                                                               “I don’t know, I didn’t think we’d live this long.”
  47. “They might not want you, but I understand you, and- well, I like who you are and I want you. Please don’t believe what they say.”
  48. “Are you done staring?”
  49. “Never let go.”
  50. “You broke your promise, you can’t come back from that.”
  51. “Hey, are you awake?”
  52. “I love how we all use affectionate pet names and flirt with one another. It’s nice, having such a close knit group of friends, you know?”        “Okay but have you considered: fuckpile.”
  53. “Stay here, I’m gonna go get help.”
  54. “Despite what you think, I can actually express emotions just like any other person.”
  55. “I’m so sorry-”                                                                                      “Then why would you do that to me?! You betrayed me!”
  56. “It happened again.”
  57. “I don’t like you, but for some reason you make me feel fuzzy.”
  58. “Can I kiss you?”
  59. “So what, you bitter piece of fuck? I’m nasty, lewd, I swear every third fucking word, and I am a better person than you. oh, that burns doesn’t it? That a shit like me is more moral and good and pure than you can ever be?”
  60. “Me? What about you?”
  61. “Oh shit, okay. I’m gonna toss you over my shoulder and book it okay, no way I’m trying to fight these fools. Don’t bleed out onto my back, ‘kay?”
  62. “I’ve been thinking about you. More specifically, where you fit in my future.”
  63. “I didn’t ever think I’d fall for someone like you.”
  64. “Stop fighting!”
  65. “Don’t ever talk to me ever again.”
  66. “Please, just give me a break. I’ve been so busy, trying so fucking hard- I’m doing the best I can. Please, please don’t ask more of me.”
  67. “I wish I could lovingly craft the words together to describe how angry you make me.”
  68. “Looks like we both have detention together.”
  69. “It was over when you said goodbye to me.”
  70. “I hate school and everyone in it.”                                                        “Even me?”                                                                                         “You’re an exception.”
  71. “Kiss me.”
    “No thank you- I don’t want your germs near me at all.”
  72. “Oh, fuck off you piece of shit. You think I care about you? That I give a damn about your feelings? Fuck off- I’m first in line for your head.”
  73. “Have sex with me.”
  74. “Please make me feel alive.”
  75. “You’re the only thing that is keeping me on this fucked up world.”
  76. “Even on the shittest days, you’re always there to brighten them.”
  77. “I love you just the way you are.”
  78. “Your stretch marks are like tiger stripes, it makes you look fucking badass.”
  79. “Stop asking me if I’m alright. My last answer was ‘annoyed’, why would it change any time soon?”
  80. “I will not leave you. No matter how hard it gets or how rough things are, I will always be here. I will not leave you.”
  81. “You are such a fucking cliché.”
  82. “Stay close to me.”
  83. “I can’t do everything!”
  84. “You’re art.”
    “But I’m nothing like your art.”
  85. “I think I owe you an apology.”
  86. “Have you seen- oh
  87. “Did you do that for me?”
  88. “That’s a weird way to say ‘I love you’.”
  89. “Are you happy?”                                                                                  “Yes, very.”                                                                                         “Good … that’s good. That makes me happy.”
  90. “Sorry to interrupt but you need to move your hands away from him/her before we have a problem.”
  91. “When I first met you, I thought nothing of you, now you mean everything to me.”
  92. “Please, I can’t live without you.”
  93. “Surprise!”
  94. “You told me it wasn’t my fault, so why are you blaming me now?”
  95. “Shut up!”                                                                                            “Make me.”
  96. “I’ll fucking kill him/her.”
  97. “Are you jealous?”
  98. “Are you flirting with me?”
  99. “You know me better than I know myself.”
  100. “What do you do when you realise you might not be the good guy?”

honestly i’m so tired of people treating makeup and fashion like they can’t be hobbies. like it’s all right for a guy to know every player on every sports team or every car model but when a girl knows every makeup brand or every hand bag on the market she’s a brainless superficial ditz. like it’s a hobby and it doesn’t inhibit us from knowing about politics or what’s going on in the world, so why do assholes care so much that we also know every lipstick shade mac has ever come out with???

“Why do you fangirl over older guys that play fictional characters?”

because I can.

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anonymous asked:

OKAY SO I just went through and read a bunch of your writing because I’m lame lmaooo but PROMPT IDEA: so Eddie gets a “secret admirer” that leaves him letters and gifts and stuff but whoever it is slowly turns into more of a stalker and they’re crazy and leaving threats in Eddie’s locker etc etc and Eddie refuses to tell the Losers club because he wants to handle it himself but they all find out anyways ( everyone being super protective *cough cough richie* over Eddie is my jam )

Okay first of all THANKS FOR READING MY STUFF you’re rad as fuck for that. Second, this is such a great prompt the losers being protective is???? amazing. Third, I am sorry I am a terrible human and this took so long for me to put out?????? I suck???? forgive me

Warnings: stalker is a stalker and makes threats and is creepy so please please please don’t read if you’ll be triggered by that behavior!!! 

This is just a little over 2.5k words

It started out innocently enough. In all honesty, Eddie was flattered. He’d gone to his locker one day after third period, and there was a note there, all folded neatly, that read “you’re adorable, Eddie Kaspbrak.” For about two weeks, he wanted to believe that his secret admirer that signed his notes as “your future boyfriend” was Richie. He was just waiting to ask him. He thought about it more and more as the notes kept coming: complimenting his clothes and hair and even his freckles.

His suspicions were solidified when he scratched up his knees at the quarry one day and he received a note the next morning telling him to be more careful when he swam with his friends. Only the losers had been there; it must be Richie! He planned to ask Richie about it after school when they biked home together (as always). However, a second note appeared in his locker after lunch.

“Stop spending so much time with Tozier. You’re starting to make me jealous, Eddie,” Eddie read in a whisper. He felt cold all of a sudden. None of his friends would write this. Richie certainly wouldn’t. He crumpled up the note and tossed it into the nearest trashcan, wanting to be rid of it. Holding it felt like holding a threat.

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@AFIFEST.@ITonyaMovie star Sebastian Stan joined the film’s post-screening Q&A tonight as a surprise guest! #AFIFEST

@AFIFES.@ITonyaMovie star Sebastian Stan, writer Steven Rogers and Craig Gillespie just before the post-screening Q&A. After Stan read for the part, Gillespie recalls, “@MargotRobbie and I were like, ‘He’s the guy.’” #AFIFEST

Safety in Numbers - Mitch Rapp

Author: @mf-despair-queen

Pairing: Mitch Rapp/Reader

Word Count: 6,746

Warnings: 18+, NSFW,  Dirty Talking, Oral (Female receiving), Cowgirl, mentions of being hurt, Protective Mitch

Notes: THIS IS A BELATED BIRTHDAY FIC FOR MY BABE @stilinski-stydia-obrien. She wanted some protective, fluffy smut Mitch. So here you go Shannon. I love you to pieces and I hope you enjoy this. It’s literally the soft, mushy side of Mitch you don’t see that often. 


“What the hell do you mean no?”

“I mean no. Do you want to hear it in Arabic? لا (la). How about German? Nein. Oh, how about the newest language we learned together? Portugese! Não. Do you get it now? No means no.”

“Why the hell not, Mitch?”

“Because I said so.”

In case you are wondering, this would be Mitch Rapp. Also known as your partner in crime. Also known as a complete dick bag at the moment.

“I hate you.”

“Love you too, sweetheart.”

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anonymous asked:

How they get together

I was thinking about this all day at college oh my gosh, I hope you like it

(Ps , if you guys don’t specify who you want the headcanons for I’ll just do reddie and stenbrough)

Reddie :

- They’re 15

- Eddie and Richie were destined to be together since they first saw each other, let’s be real

- Eddie isn’t a ‘first move’ kinda guy

- And Richie is god awful with feelings and how to act on them

- He acts on them as a child would, by teasing Eddie as a way of flirting and being touchy with him as much as possible (pinching his cheeks and hugging him playfully)

- So as an attempt to act on said feelings, he takes Eddie to the Barrens one day alone, to tell him

- However the ‘Eddie, I really like you…like more than a friend’ he wanted to say, comes out as 'Eddie, I like you but not as much as I like your mum’

- Eddie gets pretty angry ('why did you bring me all the way to the Barrens just to make fun of me’)

- Richie fucking hates himself for being so scared of his own feelings, so he goes to Bev for help

- He offers her a pack of cigarettes for advice so she knows it’s serious

- 'Woman up Tozier , you pussy’

- later that night (like 10pm) Richie climbs (falls) through Eddie’s window

- Eddie gets up, ready to quietly yell at him as to not wake his mother

- but before he can say anything, Richie grabs him and hugs him super tight to his chest, resting his chin on Eddie’s hair

- He whispers 'Don’t say anything, let me explain’ and Eddie nods so Richie tells him how he chickened out of actually telling him earlier

- Whilst Richie was explaining, Eddie pushed his face into his neck and wrapped his arms around Richie’s waist

- After Richie finishes talking, Eddie kisses his cheek and says 'you’re my boyfriend now’

- Richie doesn’t argue that at all


- They’re 17

- These boys are so cute omg, they’ve been crushing on each other for like 3 years

- They’re both so jealous of Richie and Eddie’s relationship

- one day Bill is hanging out with just Eddie and Richie and he’s like 'guys, stop being cute when the guy I like doesn’t like me back’

- and that has Richie Tozier listening for once, who is this boy? Do we know him? What’s he like? Where does he live? Is he hot? ('You’re pushing your luck, Tozier’ - Eddie)

- Bill is super embarrassed that he let it slip that he has a crush on a boy but he answers Richie’s endless questions non the less

- after, Richie is trying to put the pieces together like he’s solving a murder and Eddie just straight up says 'Its Stan, Richie don’t hurt yourself’

- and yeh, Bill can’t deny it’s Stan because he’s not good at lying at all

- 'N-noo…why w-would I have a crush on Stan…that’s c-cr-crazy you guys…I would n-never’

- and yeh, Richie may have told Stan the next day without permission and without telling Bill

- Then at the weekend Bill goes to keep Stan company

- Stan casually mentions that Richie said Bill likes him and that he knows it’s BS because it’s Richie who said it

- Bill thinks it’s now or never so admits that he likes Stan, turning ready to run if he gets rejected

- Stan grabs his arm and tells him the feelings mutual

- They kinda sit looking at each other awkwardly for a bit until Bill breaks the silence

- 'So…b-boyfriends?’ 'Sounds good’

Add more please - xo

stan is passively suicidal (stenbrough/reddie and slight stozier)//TW

trigger warning- mentions of self harm and suicide

-this might get sad beware

-so stan just kinda has a bleak outlook on life

-he likes his birds, his losers, his stuttering boyfriend and that’s about it

-he was really scared about embracing his religion for a long time and it was even worse when he realized he was, in fact, a homosexual

-stan has some mild anxiety and seems very high-strung to any old passerby

-but the losers know that he’s dead inside

-he just is kinda there, only half paying attention

-he’s a very crucial part of the group don’t get me wrong everybody loves and protects stan, but i think he just kinda goes along with everything

-he’s been making jokes about suicide since the start of junior high

-but once he gets into year 9 or around that time he gets diagnosed with depression

-and his parents aren’t exactly the best people to talk to about it because you know just pray it away

-there was one time where richie (who is also mildly depressed and wicked suicidal, but that’s a story for another time) had cut himself a bunch of times and ended up in the hospital for a few days

-and that’s when stan knew that, if he ever tried to kill himself, he would make sure to do it well

-he wouldn’t wake up, he wouldn’t be rescued, he would just die

-and he told that to everybody, not to make richie feel bad or guilty, just to let them all know not to even bother

-and you would think that this would bother bill the most but no, he and stan have had many similar talks late at night where stan explains what’s going on in his head

-but it’s eddie who takes it the hardest

-because eddie’s somebody is there you know?

-eddie’s somebody is hurting himself and breaking inside and nothing eddie’s doing to help is fixing it

-and now the same thing is happening to bill

-and bill is eddie’s best friend and stan is richie’s best friend and that makes the whole situation a thousand times worse

-so imagine that there’s this one time stan doesn’t show up to school

-and he hadn’t called or radioed any of the losers to let them know

-no one answered the door for bill when he came to pick him up that morning

-bill was worried as hell but he felt deep down that stanley was okay

-maybe he was just sick and his parents were at work

-it was just one day right?

-but then one day turned into three days

-and stan has gone full ghost

-bill still doesn’t feel like anything is seriously wrong but he hasn’t slept in a couple days anyway

-eventually he takes a day off of school because his heart literally can’t stand the feeling of being there without stan

-everyone’s tried knocking on the door but no one ever answers

-mike climbed up to stan’s window and peered in to find nobody

-on the fourth day of no stan richie’s fucking done

-eddie was taking it hard, worrying late at night until his chest physically hurt

-but take eddie’s pain and worrying and multiply it by a thousand and add in some suicidal tendencies, that’s what richie’s feeling

-according to eddie (because richie won’t talk to anyone but him) he hasn’t been sleeping or eating and he’s been biting his nails again, something he only does when he’s upset

-so eddie tells richie that they still haven’t heard anything about stan on that fourth night

-and he storms out of his own house and bikes to the uris residence

-eddie’s following close behind, panicking and shouting for him to slow down and think about what he’s doing

-he doesn’t want to entertain the thought that something bad had happened to stan, but if it did he didn’t want richie to be triggered by it

-richie throws his bike down and storms up to the front door, he gets the key out from under the ceramic frog in the front yard and goes in ready to fight someone

-stan’s sitting in his bed with all the curtains drawn, sipping hot chocolate out of a mug shaped like a bird

-he has dark circles around his eyes like he hasn’t slept but that was really all he was doing

-richie had seen this sight before, in stan and in himself

-but no matter what, they always call to let the others know

-“what the fuck, stanley?”

-stan’s confused as to how richie got in the house but he’s not surprised that he showed up

-they’re best friends and you can’t keep shit from your best friend

-“you don’t answer the phone, you’re never in your room when we look through your window, you don’t come to school, and here you are sipping fucking hot chocolate like you’re on vacation”

-“you guys look through my window?”

-“not the point, stan!”

-eddie comes in all out of breath a few minutes later and hears richie shouting

-“richie, it’s not a big deal. i just haven’t been feeling good these past couple days. it happens”

-“and that means you can’t answer the fucking telephone?”

-eddie’s already in the other room calling bill and filling him on what’s happening

-at this point it’s almost a shouting match

-richie’s doing most of the shouting though

-stan is now standing to face his bespectacled friend

-“richie why are you getting so mad? you get sick like this too! you have days you can’t get out of bed and i don’t break into your house and yell at you for it!”

-“because, stanley! i at least let eddie know when i’m down, you left fucking bill in the dark for days! you can’t just disappear for days and not let anyone know if you’re okay! how were we supposed to know you were alive?”


-richie’s almost in tears now, gripping stan’s biceps and shaking him lightly

-normally stan would’ve pulled himself away, he’s a lot stronger than richie

-but he saw the look in his friend’s eyes and he knew that richie was seriously hurt

-“we wouldn’t have known whether you were alive or dead because your fucking parents are god knows where, you need to let us know! let me know! i’m your best friend you whore, you have to talk to me!”?

-“i’m sorry rich”

-richie shakes his head, moving to the far corner of the room

-“richie, i’m sorry. i’ll call next time.”

-richie nods as he sucks in his lip and tries really hard not to cry

-“i’m okay.”

-stan pulls richie into the biggest hug of his life, rubbing the smaller boy’s back as he shakes

-“don’t you even try to fucking leave me, uris. you die, i’ll fucking kill you.”

-“i won’t if you won’t, trashmouth”

-eddie eventually comes into the room and takes richie from him, taking over in consoling the sobbing boy

-richie loves stan okay its canon

-all he wants is for him to be alive and okay


-bill eventually comes over and they all cuddle and watch a movie or something like that

-bev and ben welcome stan with open arms at school the next day

-stan uris feels loved and appreciated and that’s all i want