why do i not have a boyfriend

Fake Date

/sorry if this sucks/

Shawn please, I will never ask for another favor in my life!“ you begged.

"No (Y/N), I don’t want to lie to your whole family,”

“It’s not my whole family, just the family that will actually show up,” one of your cousins is getting married next week and now that you are getting older your family expects you to bring a date. “Plus I already told them I was bringing a date and that the date was my boyfriend,” you confessed looking down at the ground.

“And why exactly did you say that?” Shawn stood there crossing his arms.

“Oh do i have the greatest reason, if I said I didn’t have a date, my aunt would have asked if I was a lesbian for the thousandth time this year,” Shawn looked at you and raised his left brow, “which I’m not. Then when I deny my ‘lesbian status’ she will try to set me up with one of her friends sons. Then sh-”

“Okay, okay, I’ll go with you!” he shouted.

“YAY! Thank you, thank you, thank you!” you ran and jumped on Shawn, wrapping your feet around his waist, nuzzling your nose into his neck. Shawn wrapped one arm around your body and the other hand holding your body up. He kept you in his arms and rocked side to side. “Oookay you can put me down now.”

“Oh, right,” he said as he put me down.


“What a lovely couple you two make,” one of your aunts commented. This was just about the fifteenth time you’ve heard that since the reception started. “Well I better go back to my table.”

“You’re doing a good job convincing my family,” you say as you nudge his arm

“Thanks, did I tell you that you look beautiful tonight?” Shawn asked making you blush.

“Oh please Shawn you don’t have to say that, you’re not my real date for the night.”

“Okay so I can’t compliment you? And I am serious, you look gorgeous, you always do,” he assured you.

Towards the end of the night the two of you were forced onto the dance floor. As the night went on the DJ began to play slow songs so you and Shawn decided that it was time to go sit down.

“I don’t think so! You two get back on the dance floor!” your aunt demanded.

You groaned grabbing Shawn by the hand and dragged him back on the floor knowing you wouldn’t win against your aunt. Shawn pulled you in to his chest and held you close as you two danced to the music.

“(Y/N), I’m really glad you convinced me to come tonight, I’m having an amazing time with an amazing girl,” you rested your head on his chest and wrapped your arms around his body. “Maybe one day we’ll be at one of these, but for you and me.”

You picked your head up and looked at
him. “You mean like a wedding?”

“Yeah, but not 'a’ wedding, hopefully it will be 'our’ wedding,” you blushed again, not sure whether he was serious and had thought about this before or just caught up in the moment.

“You really mean that?” you asked glaring into his lovely brown eyes.

“I really do, I love you (Y/N), I have for a while, in a soulmate way and a bestfriend way, I have for a while actually, sorry if it sounds corny,” he confessed looking down at you.

“Why did you never say anything before?”

“Well I was afraid it would make you feel uncomfortable if I had told you sooner,” your brain felt like it was about to explode. You had no clue that he felt anything like this for you. If anything you were happy, relieved if anything.

“I’m really glad you decided to say it, I love you too Shawn,” you two danced the rest of the night away in each other’s arms.

anonymous asked:

What if Yoriko was saved from the execution. Yoriko and Touka reunite ofcourse, but what if their's a Kaneki and Yoriko talk where they talk about Touka. Yoriko asks about him why liking Touka and apologize that she made her bff eat human food then Kaneki reaveals about the time where Yoriko gave Touka food and mistaken Kaneki as her boyfriend ( which ironically, present time, she's right. ) that Touka ate the food she prepared for her. Sorry for bad english, but what do you expect at the talk?

uhh yes, i would really like to have a kaneki/yoriko conversation, Yoriko can also tell him how sad Touka was when he left, and how she was always missing him, it can help Kaneki to understand Touka’s feelings for him from a different perspective, i also want a Hide/Touka talk if ever returns again, i think both are so important for the development of Touka and Kaneki 

Okay, it’s been like a few days since I’ve wrote a headcannon lmao. CRIES. I don’t know why it feels like awhile honestly. Maybe I’m just busy looking around for jobs atm. Anyway, I’ll write a random one for other characters I like. :] I’ll get the inbox later too. Keep sending some! I’d love to write for everyone. So this is one of some relationship headcanons for other classes, cause I only got the 1-A characters here. NEED NEW CHARACTERS.


  • Neito is one feisty and sassy boyfriend to have honestly. He acts very arrogant and he would do A L O T of smack talking/judging others.(Especially the 1-A class, lmao?) He doesn’t have a filter, what’s a filter? You would have to be very tolerant around him, whether if youre are shy or just as equal to him.
  • However, he does have a soft side towards you. He would be very considerate of your thoughts and feelings. If he accidentally said something to upset you, he probably would apologize and take you to some restaurants that he usually eats at or just do anything to make you feel happy again.
  • He would give them a lot of kisses on your head/forehead. It’s just a sign that he really adores you, even though he can be quite arrogant at times.
  • He think he’s always right tho, so he might get a little upset if you’re not on his side but he can’t control/manipulate you being on his side. So he’ll just respect your perspectives. He needs to work on that more.
  • A VERY jealous boyfriend. He doesn’t want anyone touching or anyone taking of all your attention. He wants to be the only one to have the affection from you, he knows he can be a little selfish but you’re his and his only. Especially not from anyone from 1-A…. yeah.


  • She’s like a motherly/sisterly type of girlfriend to have, which is weird but you know that has its advantages. She would do the cooking most of the time and doesn’t really care if she is the only one doing it. Or chores sometimes.
  • She doesn’t get angry a lot, but whenever you both fight/disagree on something, she will discuss it like adults. She won’t yell or anything like that, she’ll calmly say whatever she has to say without being too cold about it. She thinks it’s reasonable to discuss issues by talking calmly. So good for her.
  • Kendou will try her best just to spend some quality time with you. Even if she has work, she will always come back home and watch some tv while snuggling you. She’s worried if she doesn’t have time for you as much anymore.
  • Enjoys being the big spoon in cuddles. Just having you in her arms is enough for her to fall asleep.


  • He will cuddles the crap out of you whenever you’re both in bed, he’s either the big spoon or the small spoon. He likes nuzzling your chest if he’s the small spoon. Or he likes burying his face in your neck and nuzzle it too. He doesn’t mind being either of them.(He’s too beautiful, i love ikeman Shindou.)
  • He also likes surprising you by wrapping his arms around you from behind or blowing into your ears, teasing. He just likes surprising you a lot.
  • Pinches or squashes your cheeks a lot too. He dun care.
  • Just because he’s sinister in a way, he will beat anyone who tries to hurt you. I don’t think he really cares as long as he settles a bit of vengeance for you and only for you. Your safety and happiness is one of his top priority, aside from being a Hero.
  • He likes taking you out and bring you somewhere fun or simply just to eat. You’re his (insert title here) and you deserve his affection, he will spoil you whether you like it or not. All the gifts.


  • He will also spoil you a lot, but if you convince him that he shouldn’t spoil you a lot then he will obliged to it.
  • He’s a great listener. Whenever you’re having a really bad day and just want to rant about it, he doesn’t really mind listening to you vent. He will give advices on what to do afterwards. But. Actually, he just doesn’t mind listening to you talk whether it’d be your day or whatever.
  • Doesn’t ever, EVER forget your birthday, anniversaries, etc. He wants to share all the moments with you and you’re just really special to him, so of course he won’t ever forget something so important.
  • He randomly says, “I love you so very much” out of the blue sometimes.
  • Enjoys holding your hands, even in public. He doesn’t ever want to let you go or let you out of his sight. Sure his quirk is accepted by everyone now, but he’s afraid of being denied again.

anonymous asked:

I just wonder how she will be in the public in the future... I wonder who she blames... probably the fans, just that we weren't the ones pulling her panties down in public or taking the pics. I couldn't care less for her boring tweets, but my heart really says goodbye to the Gillian I grew to love. It's been a year since it kind of started, since she started to change, and now with a big bang, it feels she is gone for sure.

I really hope she doesn’t blame the fans. If she wants to blame someone then blame that asshole of a boyfriend of hers who showed a big amount of disrespect toward her while being at a public place.

I’ve tried to explain away her change with the work she’d been doing and with the charities she supports, that she really needed to have a more serious image to talk about feminism and child trafficking, that’s why her team took over her SM accounts. I thought we had to say goodbye to her funny personality, but then the Webby’s happened, where we got to see her all giggly and happy once again, and I thought that everything is right in the world, she hadn’t change, and her and David are still together. But I guess it was just the usual David effect he has on her every time they’re together. And when she is not with him she plays this serious actress and feminist role. But this vacation in Italy and those horrible pics really ruined that image for her too.

Yeri + princess

Originally posted by omyseulgi

Yeri sighed and leaned on your shoulder. “(y/n), I’m really really craving an iced americano right now.”

You kept scrolling through your social media. “Cool,” you replied. 

Yeri pouted. “Did you hear what I said?”

You nodded. “You want an iced americano.”

Yeri grabbed your phone and stepped away from you. You groaned and tried to get it back. 

“Yerim give me my phone back.”

She shook her head. “Not until you get me an iced americano.”

You sighed. “Can’t you get one of the assistants to do it?”

“Why have an assistant do it when I have my lovely (girlfriend/boyfriend) here who loves me so much that they’d love to go get me a coffee,” she said with a smug look on her face. 

You crossed your arms against your chest. “Yeri I’m not your servant.”

Yeri rolled her eyes. “You know a good (boy/girl)friend would get me a coffee, that’s all I’m saying.”

You threw your hands up, giving in. “Fine, but give me my phone back.”

Reluctantly, she gave you your phone back. Then she kissed your cheek. “Thank you.”

You rolled your eyes and went to get her her coffee. 

A while later you returned and handed her the iced americano. She thanked you and took a sip. Yeri smiled. 

“Mmm, it tastes amazing.”

Seeing her so happy made you soften. You smiled back. “Anything for my princess Yerim,” you said and pinched her cheek. 

She frowned. “It was cute until you pinched my cheek jagi.”

anonymous asked:

Why do so many people think Ezra is A.D.? We literally watched this person drive off into the sunset, and everyone plus their boyfriends are still in Rosewood sooooo? With the information we have an A.D. (Name possibly standing for Atticus Defender or whatever, and is AVENGING Cece's death) the only person looking red handed is Lucas. All of the stuff we're finding out fits with the information we've been getting about Lucas.

I think AD driving into the sunset was more of a sentimental “closing”. Also we don’t know if AD was actually leaving Rosewood, for all we know AD could’ve been bring stuff to his/her lair then driving back into town and acting completely normal. But yes I have a feeling we could be looking at Lucas, why bring up he knew Charles then just drop it when he says so. Lucas is so sketchy, he also has and probably always will.

anonymous asked:

Do you think Tom and/or Harrison would be ok having a rabbit as a pet? I know they both have dogs, but I'm just curious as to whether or not they'd be cool with having other animals besides dogs as pets.

I mean idk them personally so I wouldn’t really know. But I’m sure they love all animals so why not a rabbit? Of course I’m not so sure their dogs might like the little creature. My friend’s rabbit was attacked by her boyfriend’s dog so…

I don’t know why you guys keep freaking out over these pap pics of Gillian. She went on vacation with her boyfriend and got a little frisky. Are you people really that prudish?! I know most of you have done WORSE in public. Hell, the other day I went skinny dipping in a pool that was in a backyard without a fence. Anybody could have just walked up in the dark and saw us (and we weren’t just swimming either). Granted, I’m 23 and supposed to do stupid shit, but that’s not the point! Geez you people need to get off Tumblr and live a little. Sometimes the thrill of getting caught is really fun. I will never judge a woman who is getting laid (especially somebody as gorgeous as Gillian). Maybe she wanted the pictures to get out. Maybe she didn’t. Maybe she did but didn’t want it to go this far. Shit happens.

What bothers me the most about the “friendzone” interpretation of Snape, it’s not the mischaracterisation of Snape himself, but the complete lack of understanding what a “friendzone” guy is.

Do you think a friendzoned guy would accept the refusal, yet still be envolved in the well-being of the girl, endanger his life trying to save hers, and then watch over her kid until his very end? Nope, the friendzoned guy would have whined, used his pain to touch another girl, got rejected 4546th times until his tragedy becomes the consistency of rejection and not a particular rejection itself, and after her death, would have passed by her ravaged house, rise his fedora, said out loud “this is what you get when you marry assholes” and at the pub he’d have sighed deeply with his boys wondering : “why do women always prefer to get killed by Dark Lords instead of dating Nice Guys” and all the boys would have nodded because it happened to four of them so that’s the proof, women just prefer get killed in wars, how strange yet fascinating creatures, so mysterious, so killable. 



T: Halla! Hey there!
I: First time on the red carpet together, how is it?
H: Very nice.
T: Unbelievably nice.
H: We haven’t gotten the chance to talk about how it is yet.
T: No..
H: But we’re smiling and having fun.
T: We’ll philosophize around it a bit afterwards, but right now there’s lots of stuff, lot’s of interviews, lots of picture, but that’s…
H: Lots of impulses.
T: That’s life.
I: You’re nominated tonight, how do you think it’ll go?
H: Impossible to say.
T: We’re taking a chance on..
H: We’re thankful for all the support we’ve received.
T: It’s just nice being here and being nominated. That’s a huge honour. And I’m taking a chance on zero prizes, so if it’s one I’ll be like “Yes!” and if it’s two I’ll be like “Woah!!”.
I: How have you prepared for tonight?
T: We’ve just..
H: Does it look like we’re prepared? Uh, very little. Uh, we’ve prepared for the show.
T: Yeah. Woke up really fucking early.
H: Meditated a little, had a shower.. Got up a little early today.
I: But you’ve become mega-celebrities very fast because of SKAM, how has all the attention been this past year?
H: What is there to say..
T: No, what is there to say.. I’ve said this before, but it’s overwhelming, very unexpected, on my part, to be a part of something like this, but that’s life now, so I’ll handle it.
I: Do you think your acting career is going to continue?
T: That it..?
I: Your acting career. Is it going to continue after SKAM?
T: Yes, I’ll keep doing that for as long as I can.
H: That’s why these questions are so hard because we do it for the acting and the joy of the scenes we have together, so becoming a celebrity is just about how you handle your daily life. Not about what happens, because being a celebrity is not as much fun as one would think.
I: But you act as boyfriends on screen, how is your relationship become in real life?
H: Really great friends.
T: Good buddies.
H: Good buddies.

The signs as song lyrics I've written

Never been in a fight but I want to fight
Fight a bitch at night
The dark is cool
Fuck school
Wanna destroy everything
Including you

Just woke up messy hair
Attitude I don’t care
Should i even get up and start the day
Does it matter if i do shit anyway

Thought, thought, thought,
I thought if I thought a lot
Maybe my thoughts could learn to stop
I feel my brain beginning to rot
They are so fucking loud
All around
Up and down
I’m starting to look like a fucking clown

What am I feeling right now?
I feel like a drifting cloud
Full of storm water
Today rain is all I’ve got to offer
What’s wrong with me?
Changing tides like the sea
I can be a deadly storm
A catastrophe
Or calm and cool, my bottom lurking with things unseen

I love the way you fuck me 
Baby this is how you want me, thirsty 
I beg love me love me 
Love me more than i love you 
At night i feel so ugly

But not you, youre alive not dead
I hear all the voices that go on it your head
They never calm but you find peace in them
Taking their words of wisdom
They sing inside your lovely mind
You hum along, intertwined

I’m sitting in front of the man of my dreams
Love his dick, give me that cream
His face is amazing, it makes me want to sing
His voice is as lovely spring

Sometimes I think I see god
But then I open my eyes and it’s the same shit all around
Breath in the toxins of a cigarette
It’s all I got sometimes, wanna drown out the sound
Talk to a few and that’s fun
But real quick im done

If I could see your soul, I’m sure it’d be a work of art
Like a painting on a canvas, painted by the heart
You know you’re a masterpiece
A genius in disguise
I wish I could see what you see through your eyes

If there’s one last thing
I gotta sing
it’s that there’s no possibly
Just possible I am the unstoppable
Incomparable hear these words and know it’s me
I do not go unseen
(This one’s written by my boyfriend)

I’m so tired everyday
I want life to be so extraordinary that more than half the time I wouldnt know what to feel or say
Wheres my burning passion?
Melancholy, my minds gray.
Why care when you feel useless why give a fuck, this world is strange

You got me and you got me down for you and you only
Baby, look at me, I want you to be the one to own me
Devil or angel, you’re my sweet, lovely baby.
Tell me angel, have you looked in a mirror lately?

‘She cried over you. She cried for days.’

'I know.’

'Then why didn’t you reach out to her? Why didn’t you give her the closure she needs?’

'Because I’m hurting too,’ he shouted. 'Because I’m afraid that if I see her crying in front of me, I’ll apologize and beg for her back! But I can’t do that.’ His gaze dropped. 'I can’t hurt her anymore than I already have.’

—  J.H.

I know you’re all waiting for content from the guidebooks, and I’ve admittedly been extremely slow with my translations. I’m going to be honest, I don’t think I’ll be finishing them any time soon- I’ve been working on translating another project, as well as my usual art and writing, and a cosplay I’ve got a month to make, and all in all the FMA guidebooks somehow wound up low on my priority list.

But I don’t want to just leave you guys hanging, so I’ll share what I’ve learned so far:

  • Den (The Rockbells’ dog) is named after Arakawa’s own dog, Densuke. Densuke in turn is named after Densuke melons, Hokkaido’s famous and extremely expensive black watermelons.
  • The Mustang vs. Lust fight was completely planned out since the beginning of the series, even to the point of taking into consideration the part where Roy’s gloves get soaked, so that’s why Arakawa made Havoc a smoker (so he could have a lighter on hand for Roy to borrow). Also, since that was going to be the Colonel’s shining moment, Arakawa intentionally downplayed him a bit in the early phases of the series.
  • The Maria Ross incident was also planned since Hughes’ death.
  • Barry the Chopper was originally intended to die at lab 5. But Arakawa really enjoyed drawing him, and as she thought about that, she realized that he could be useful for the later arcs with the military characters. Thus he wound up being the first character to survive longer than originally intended.
  • The reason Barry wants to chop up Lust so badly is because she resembles his wife.
  • Arakawa hates drawing scenes of people crying, since they make her feel sad too, but she doesn’t mind if it’s happy tears.
  • One of the important differences between Mustang and Bradley, which Arakawa tried to emphasize, is that Bradley has no problem casually throwing away any of his pawns, while Mustang never throws anyone away no matter what.
  • Arakawa sometimes uses lighting effects to give the illusion of tears on Al’s armor.
  • Arakawa is thankful for Winry, who can act as a buffering agent because she’s able to understand both Ed and Al’s feelings very well. Arakawa thinks the boys ought to talk to her more instead of shutting her out.
  • Winry’s reaction to meeting Truth (during the Fullmetal Honesty Hour: Truth-kun’s Room segment): “Hold on, Ed, why is this guy naked? And he’s saying stuff I really don’t get. Just what kind of weird friends do you guys have, anyway?”
  • Winry prefers guys who are taller than her because she thinks when she gets married, having a tall husband would look really nice in the wedding photos. Also because she saw a movie where the heroine stood on her tiptoes to kiss her tall boyfriend goodbye, and Winry thought it looked cool.

dokurochrome  asked:

Yurio gets drunk for the first time and he just goes on twitter and rambles about how he really likes Victuuri actually.

Twitter Rambles

Yuri Plisetsky @yuri-plisetsky 
I wish I had @v-nikiforov hair when it was long. It was so pretty.

Yuri Plisetsky @yuri-plisetsky 
You don’t understand, his hair was so pretty. I cried when @v-nikiforov cut it.

Yuri Plisetsky @yuri-plisetsky 
Do not get me started on @yuurikatsuki

Yuri Plisetsky @yuri-plisetsky
@yuurikatsuki is prettier than @v-nikiforov. There I said it.

Yuri Plisetsky @yuri-plisetsky 
I mean, @yuurikatsuki can go from cute and dorky to sex symbol in like seconds

Christophe Giacometti @christophe-gc
Sounds like someone has a crush @yuri-plisetsky 

Yuri Plisetsky @yuri-plisetsky 
What gibberish are you sprouting @christophe-gc?

Yuri Plisetsky @yuri-plisetsky 
I sometimes wonder who has better legs between @christophe-gc or @v-nikiforov

Phichit Chulanont @phichit+chu
And who wins? @yuri-plisetsky 

Yuri Plisetsky @yuri-plisetsky 
It was @v-nikiforov until I saw you in shorts @phichit+chu  

Phichit Chulanont @phichit+chu
Did you just flirt with me @yuri-plisetsky?

Yuri Plisetsky @yuri-plisetsky 
No @phichit+chu, I didn’t flirt with you. My boyfriend would kill me.

Yuri Plisetsky @yuri-plisetsky 
I have the best boyfriend ever.

Christophe Giacometti @christophe-gc 
Please do tell us about your boyfriend @yuri-plisetsky 

Yuri Plisetsky @yuri-plisetsky 
But you know him @christophe-gc

Christophe Giacometti @christophe-gc
I do? @yuri-plisetsky 

Yuri Plisetsky @yuri-plisetsky 
Yeah @otabek-altin 

Victor Nikiforov @v-nikiforov
WHO IS DATING MY SON!? @yuri-plisetsky 

Yuuri Katsuki @yuurikatsuki 
Is no one else concern as to why @yuri-plisetsky is suddenly being so honest.

Yuri Plisetsky @yuri-plisetsky 
Yura decided to have a few drinks tonight. Please disregard everything that he said.

Victor Nikiforov @v-nikiforov 

Yuuri Katsuki @yuurikatsuki 
Thank you for looking after him @otabek-altin @yuri-plisetsky 

Yuri groaned as he shifts around in bed, his tongue tasting like cardboard and his head pounding.

“I told you not to drink,” a voice said, causing him to groan.

“Too loud,” he mumbled while attempting to drag the blankets over his head, only to find them pinned down by something.

He huffed as he shifted around until he found a warm spot that had clearly been taken up by his boyfriend not moments ago.

“Yura,” his boyfriends voice rang out as he was nudged. “I have water and painkillers.”

He groaned, refusing to sit up.

“You said some horrible things on twitter,” he slowly cracked an eye open to see Otabek Altin standing above him with a glass of water. He sighed as he shifted into an upright position and accepted the water and tablets handed to him.

“How bad?” he croaked out after finishing the whole glass of water in an attempt to get the cardboard taste out of his mouth. Instead of answering, his phone appeared in front of his face.

“You tell me,” he huffed while taking the phone and quickly set to work opening the twitter app and groaning at all the horrible confessions he made the night before.

“Let’s run away,” he mumbled as he was joined on the bed by his boyfriend.

“If that is what you want,” Otabek said while wrapping him up in a hug.

“Better than dealing with the lovesick couple.” Yuri mumbled as he settled into Otabek’s side for a few more hours’ sleep. Hopefully his headache would be gone by then.

Twitter War AU

pll characters in 7b
  • aria: to a or not to a that is the question *puts on black hoodie* *fucks every a task up*
  • emily: ALISON! no wait PAIGE! no wait ALISON (again)! no wait PAIGE! OH SHIT ALI'S PREGNANT AND I'M THE DAD i mean MOM! WHAT'S GOING ON?!
  • hanna: *does sleuthy things with caleb* something about babies
  • spencer: *sluts it up with marco* *begins to hate marco* wait where's toby
  • alison: i'm pregnant but you have to have sex to get pregnant. fuck this is a lose-lose situation for me here
  • caleb: *pretends spaleb never happened* look at me being detective boyfriend of the year PLEASE FORGIVE ME FANDOM *is not forgiven*
  • paige: if you love something you gotta set it free *breathes a sigh of relief after dodging a messy ass bullet*
  • ezra: nicole? aria. nicole? no aria. fuck it all. cake? yes, cake. wedding cake. i'm engaged to aria. so i pick aria. #loveiswherethecakeis
  • lucas: so i used to be a nerd but now i'm a rich nerd please love me *still loves hanna* *pray for lucas*
  • marco: i love you spencer jk i h8 u u did the murder
  • mary: i'm trying to communicate with my daughter *never actually goes to speak to her daughter*
  • sydney: *is made to be somewhat relevant again at the request of NOBODY but the writers* *is vehemently hated by fandom*
  • wren: *shows up for two seconds and adds nothing to the plot even though everyone misses him* bye now mate

yall: as someone who has been ~professionally diagnosed~ with borderline personality disorder, its NOT manipulative to have a fp. this goes for everyone who has bpd: self dx or pro, psychotherapy or no, u cannot control the way u react to situations bc lemme explain something about bpd:

(if it helps, this is literally confirmed by the hospital that treats me and my psychiatrist):

borderline personality disorder is formed by one’s upbringing, by trauma or by a series of traumatic events,, ur brain develops differently than a normal person’s because ur constantly on the defensive! this is why we have the black/white thinking, why we are impulsive, why we have a lot of anxiety all the time, why we’re so exhausted ,, our brains are on constant DEFENSE mode and its not something we can turn off: we can only deal with the symptoms (i.e take medication for the anxiety, treat impulsivity, etc). people with bpd have a VERY hard time molding into a societal “healthy” behavior because since we are constantly on defense mode, our instincts differ from a normal person’s.

now about the fp (favorite person(s), if u dont know): people with borderline personality disorder tend to idealize and imprint on a person or a small group of people they admire, because they crave validation and they feel like they Die without it. (im using they to make it easier, but I HAVE BEEN DIAGNOSED AND AM BEING TREATED FOR BPD). a lot of borderlines do not tell their fp(s) they are their fp, but it does not change the fact that its still a process that goes on internally and that they do have emotional dependance on people, characters, etc (note: a fp can be a tv personality, a book protagonist, an anime character etc. the fp doesnt have to physically exist to be a fp).

all this being said, it is factually incorrect to say that having a fp is inherently abusive, not to mention extremely harmful to the people who ate trying to manage their bpd and have fp(s), telling them that imprinting on a person is abusive when a lot of borderlines experience abuse from multiple sources can in fact cause an immense amount of guilt and self hatred that could cause a borderline to hurt themselves and/or isolate themselves from the people they love out of fear they’re being abusive. THAT IS NOT PRODUCTIVE.

having a fp, imprinting on someone, being emotionally dependent on an individual is NOT abusive or manipulative. a person with bpd is not Bad for having a fp(s). i chose to tell my boyfriend he’s my fp, but that’s just me. call me abusive all you like. in my humble onion, and this is also the opinion of a lot of professionals, it is GOOD to tell the people close to you about your symptoms and why you act the way you do, so they can be more understanding when you act impulsively or erratically and they cant fully comprehend why you are acting that way, because its not the way a healthy person would act.

like, should i apologize to juliette from the shatter me books for being my fp and am i being manipulative to a character because i imprinted on them? that’s plain ridiculous and you should feel ashamed for ever perpetuating the idea that an uncontrollable symptom of borderline personality disorder is inherently abusive because that means that you are calling my PERSONALITY abusive, something that i cannot control or cure with any amount of psychotherapy and medication, and therefore you yourself are being abusive. funny how that works, huh?

We Are Young: Chapter 7

Throne of Glass High School AU

Summary: Senior Rowan Whitethorn is new to town. It doesn’t take him long to get use to a new school, make new friends, even join the local hockey team. But it also doesn’t take him long to meet sophomore and figure skater Aelin Galathynius. And it doesn’t take him long to realize one thing; he can’t stand her.

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“You sure you’re okay?” 

“Fuck off asking me that. Or I’ll slam your face into the lockers.”

Dorian held his hands up, weaving in and out of the students crowding the hallway. He wanted to push the subject more, to find out how he could help her even in the slightest way. But he knew Manon. She would actually throw him against the lockers if he asked her that question one more time.

Class has just ended, so the hallways were packed with students as they caught up with friends or made their way to their lockers. Manon and Dorian had just got out of French class themselves when he offered to walk her to her locker.

Truthfully, he was worried about her. He didn’t know what it was, but that was just something about Manon that seemed off. There was an underlying emotion that clouded her eyes, sometime Dorian couldn’t place. Plus, she was being… harsher than normal.

He had a feeling that something happened at the party, because something always happened at parties. But he knew Manon wasn’t going to let up anytime soon. The only way he was going to know what had happened was if she told him. And by the looks of it, that wasn’t going to happen any time soon.

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Greedy ( Jeff Atkins x Reader)

Request : Hiiii can you make a Jeff Adkins smut where he gets jealous because your talking to Zach? Idk lol if you want to😊

A/n: Hey yo was goodie  guys is your girl back with another smut this request was lowkey fun to write idk why but anyways thank you so much for over 500 reads on need a hand and 330+ followers I honestly feel like this was a shitty imagine because it was rushed because i have finals so I’m sorry if you don’t like it I promise not to suck so bad for the next one. Anyways if you’re waiting on the Jason imagine or the rest I’ll try to get them all in before next weekend key word try because finals have me pulling my hair out.

Warnings:Smut sin sin sin more sin just you know sin eating out , slight dominance coming from Jeff? jealousy you know the usual. Also they are juniors in this imagine so 

You and Jeff had never been the fighting type if you guys had a problem you would talk it out in a mature non-violent way. Lately things have changed Jeff wanted to argue with you about the littlest things. When you took to long to answer his messages because you were taking a shower or too busy doing homework. When you didn’t spend enough time with him. When you didn’t show up to his baseball practices. Little things that never bothered Jeff before now let’s not get it twisted you loved spending time with Jeff after all he is your boyfriend for a reason but lately you both have been so stressed and busy looking at colleges and preparing for the SATs that you guys had no time for each other. 

Junior year is a stressful year you both knew and understood each other or at least you thought you did out of nowhere Jeff started acting really possessive and weird towards you. You tried talking to him but he wouldn’t budge to tell you what’s been on his mind. You decided to go to his baseball practice since he was complaining the whole week that you hadn’t gone. It was Friday and honestly all you wanted to do was go home and sleep but you decided to come support your boyfriend. You were making your way towards the field when you spotted your friend Zach .

“Hey y/n” he said as he spotted you

“ oh hey Zach ” you said hugging him

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“Where are you going ?” He asked

“ I’m gonna go watch Jeff practice you know I have to support the boyfriend ” I say giggling

“ ah I’m heading there too I’m waiting for Bryce you want me to walk you ? ” he asks 

“ yea sure why not ” I say smiling

We walk together into the bleachers laughing at dumb jokes zach is making. When we reach the bleachers I look to the field and spot Jeff looking at me I smiled and wave but he just ignored me or maybe he didn’t see me. I shrug it off and take a seat in the bleachers watching the practice until is over. When the coach blows the whistle I run up to the field and hug Jeff he doesn’t return the hug instead he mutters and awkward hi. I give him a concerned look but he just shoves past me going to the locker rooms to change. I decided this needed to stop and I should talk to him. I start walking to the car deciding to wait for him there. A couple of minutes later Jeff comes in the car throwing his duffel bag on the back seat and putting the key in the ignition.

“ Are you coming over today? ” he asks not even looking at me

“ As a matter of facts yes I am there’s obviously something we need to talk about ” Waving my hands In front of me to emphasize my point.

“ I don’t know what you mean there’s nothing to talk about ” he says as he starts to drive to his house. I stay quiet for the rest of the ride.

When we arrived at his house he opened the door letting me in first Jeff might be mad at me and act like a dick sometime but he never looses his manners. I rush upstairs to his room throwing myself on his bed and letting out a frustrated groan. I feel the bed tip and he lays besides me. He grips my waist but I pull away from his hold.

“ what’s wrong babe ?” He says coming closer.

“ I should ask you the same thing since you decided to be a dick one second and then a sweetheart the next” I say standing up and going over to sit in his computer chair.

He start walking towards me he grabs a hold of my wrist and pulls me up pushing our bodies together. I try to get out his grip but it’s not very useful since he’s stronger than me. He pulls me towards the bed and throws me on it.

Pinning me down he starts kissing my collar bone and he whispers “ Do you want to know why I’ve been so moody lately ” he nibbles on my neck

“ Well I mean it’s not like I’ve been asking for the past 2 weeks now ” sarcasm dripping from my voice he might have me pinned down and it’s slowly turning me on but there’s always room for sarcasm.

He cups my face kissing me roughly “ you’ve been spending so much time with Zach the little giggles here and there , laughing at his jokes , hugging him ” he says with a husky tone. “ do you think I don’t notice oh sweetheart , baby girl you have a lot coming if you think you can play with me like that ” he says attacking my collar bone again.

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He sucks on my neck harshly marking me moan. He makes his way down my body slowly teasing me.  He suddenly rips my shirt and I gasp.

“OMG ARE YOU SERIOUS THAT SHIRT WAS TWELVE DOLLARS” I say looking at my now ripped shirt.Jeff only smirks and continues kissing down my body.He reaches the hem of my skirt and pulls it off in one swift movement.My heart beats faster as the heat between  my legs starts increasing.

He moves his hands trailing them up and down my bare legs admiring them.I had to admit that would be kind of cute if i wasn’t so eagered for his touch.

He comes back up kissing me passionately and pulls me up to unclasp my bra, He slides it down my hands and throws it across the room.He kisses down my bare stomach reaching the hem of my panties grabbing the elastic and letting it go so it emits a sound.

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He pulls my panties down slowly tormenting me and throws them across the room joining my bra.He starts kissing on my thighs and  I close my legs rubbing them together to create some friction Jeff smirks and pulls them apart coming closer to my core but not yet touching it.  I feel his breathing hit my spot and I shiver from anticipation.He suddenly licks a stripe parting my lips apart and a loud moan fall from my  mouth.

“Jeff stop teasing babe” I said whining

“Tell me what you want then” he says rising and eyebrow 

“ I want you to do something” I said whining again

“ and that something is “ he says moving his hand over my thighs 

“ I want you to fuck me with your mouth” I say frustrated “Is that what you wan- OH MY GOD” I couldn’t even finish my sentence he plunged his tongue into me cravingly exploring my insides like his life depended on it.

My hips bucked upward from the pleasure as moans escaped my mouth here and there.I grabbed onto his hair pulling it slightly and he moaned into my core making a waveof pleasure  run through my body, I felt on cloud nine with his mouth working wonder as he gripped my thighs forcefully trying to keep me steady.My eyes rolled back from the pleasure, I could hear myself gasping slowly every time he moved his tongue. He was writing words or maybe the alphabet at this point I couldn’t tell. His appetite didn’t seem to be satisfied every taste he had made him want more.

His greed, urgency and desire all came  together to form a combination I couldn’t explain.I felt myself coming closer as pure bliss kicked in a harmony of melodies falling from my mouth along with some curse words. Jeff plunging his tongue into me ,drawing patterns and pulling me closer all of that combined  pushed me to the edge and I felt a wave of rhapsody run through me I slowly rode out my high thrusting my hips upward as Jeff wiped me clean.

He stood up with a satisfied smirk wiping the corners of his mouth coming closer to my face .He kissed my forehead “ you “ he kissed my left cheek “ know” he kissed my right cheek “ I’m”  he kissed my chin “ greedy “ he kissed my lips passionately “ and that I hate sharing baby so why do you push me “ he says smirking. 

“ I don’t Mr.Atkins” I say in between pants 

He pulls me up by me hair and whispers “ you know you’re mine “

“ I’m all yours my greedy man” I say pulling him in for a kiss.

Having an Italian Boyfriend (with an Italian family)
  • <p> <b>Spain:</b> Roma we haven't eaten for nearly two days!!! Why don't I just make us some paella and-<p/><b>Romano:</b> Shut the fuck up Antonio. We are about to visit my Nonna and other relatives. Now, this is extremely dangerous so I want you to listen to me very carefully.<p/><b>Spain:</b> …<p/><b>Romano:</b> When the door opens, stay behind me at all times, and trust me, those two days are going to come in handy. And whatever you do, don't refuse the cooking or waste food!<p/><b>Romano:</b> *rings doorbell to house*<p/><b>Romano:</b> *breath in*<p/><b>Literally the entire house:</b> DO YOU WANT TO EAT?? COME EAT! GUESS WHAT TUA ZIA JUST MADE??? OI VUOI MANGIARE??? MIO DIO IS THAT MY LOVINO HE LOOKS SO SKINNY, COME EAT!!! WHAT YOU DON'T LIKE MY COOKING?? EAT! EAT!! *loud, incoherent, Italian screaming*<p/></p>