why do i gif these things when i know it's just going to make me sob

So, I really enjoyed writing this part, even if I didn’t know how to end it. If you want a soundtrack for this one, check out ‘Don’t Be Shy’ by Cat Stevens (Yusuf Islam). Play it towards the end. Thank you @sxnali for the request, @marveliskindacool for beta-reading, and @thegirlwiththeimpala for the compliment regarding the last chapter. Enjoy, my darlings!

Prompt[s]: Almost a Mistake is really cute so far, I love the twist at the beginning! Can’t wait for part 2!!!

I love soul mate aus and I love the new story!! 💕

‘Almost a Mistake’ (Part 2)

Part 1

“(Y/n)!” Steve yelled as he followed you down the corridor. “(Y/n), wait!”

Wanda had held nothing back as she explained everything that had happened from Pietro’s thoughts. Unfortunately, that included divulging the information that you’d looked at your Ink a long time ago. The embarrassment, and guilt set your feet in your motion, swinging your coat over your shoulder as you left. Steve had also wasted no time in following you.

“Would you just stop so we can talk about this?”
“And do what, Steve?” you snapped. “There is nothing to talk about. This is why I had the ribbon in the first place, so I could have control over my life.”
“It’s not my fault you looked at your ink so don’t punish me for it.”

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A Dream Come True ~ part 3

part two here!

My first attempt at a RPF! I love Norman, but am nowhere near an expert on him, like I am with Jeffrey. 😜 So excuse my writing of him.  Also, let’s pretend that Jeffrey and Norman are single, no SO’s, no ties.

Jeffrey Dean Morgan x Reader x Norman Reedus

Word count ~ 2800

Warnings- NSFW, includes double penetration

Tags~ @stileswolfi @magikat409 @jasoncrouse @nothin-after-79 @magpiegirl80  @omgitss0y @binegan @metal-xo @mypopculturediva @angelofthenite @hotfornegan @a-queen-and-her-throne @mwesterfeld1985


  As tired as I felt, my muscles like jello, I wanted more. Needed more. I hadn’t a clue what would come next, but was excited. And more than ready.

 I was now lying between both men, and I never felt more at home. Norman’s fingers stroking my hair. Jeffrey rubbing my arm softly. I could almost fall asleep. But my mind was still reeling with what was to come.

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OUR LITTLE FAMILY


(requested by @vanene20)

Kai Parker x Reader
word count : 4 462
summary : Kai finds Reader (who is pregnant) bleeding (way down there) in an alley after her boyfriend left her there.
note : I added a few things to the request + a slight plot change from TVD events. 
* gif by winifredwevansedits
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    “ ‘Tyler bit Stefan , we need you to siphon the werewolf bite.’  Sure Damon , I’ll help you — as if.” muttered Kai to himself , typing a message to his least favourite person of the Mystic Falls gang. “That’s going to happen…”
A sigh left his lips as he turned down the street stopping in his tracks just as he was about to click send. There was a very familiar smell in the air - blood , only not a stranger’s blood. The smell wasn’t coming from that street , it was coming from a few metres almost in the opposite direction and if it hadn’t been for the breeze blowing in that moment he probably would’ve missed it. Kai put his phone in his pocket and ran towards one of the small dark alleys. What he found there made his heart stop and turned his life upside down.
On the ground with her back against the building wall sat his best friend Y/N. Her eyes were a little unfocused and her hands were wrapped around her pregnant belly , rubbing her palms against it in slow circles. There were no visible wounds on her body but it was definitely her blood that had brought him to her. Kai could never mistake the scent.
    “Y/N ? Wh-whats happened ? Are you okay?”  said Kai kneeling on the ground next to his best friend. “Did someone hurt you ?”
Y/N didn’t answer him just looked up at him with a look of fear , terror and shock in her eyes , holding onto her pregnant belly with one of her hands and covering her mouth with the other trying to muffle the sobs, gripping on Kai’s forearm when pain cut through her stomach.
    “The baby -“
    “You are in shock.”
    “He ran.” she said , tears rolling down her cheeks. “He freaked out and bolted  –”
    “Who?”
    “J-Josh–”
    “What ?!” wondered Kai with a look of confusion and shock on his face. “Can you stand ? You know what –  I’ll carry you and take you to the hospital. Then I will go break your boyfriend.”
Kai couldn’t understand how her boyfriend would just leave — specially when something is wrong with their child. He was still new at emotions but was pretty sure that was not the right reaction in a situation like this. Her boyfriend hadn’t even called an ambulance or anything. What kind of a person does that ?!  Kai helped her up , looking around the alley - there was a car near by on the main street. His arms wrapped around Y/N and in a flash they got to the car.  A flick of his wrist later the doors opened and Kai helped her get onto the back seat.
    “I’m sure whoever this car belongs to wouldn’t mind us borrowing it right?” he laughed nervously , getting in the car placing his hands on the steering wheel muttering a spell to start the engine. “Alright , that’s it. It’s going to be fine Y/N. Everything is going to be fine. I’m not going to let anything happen to you or the tiny human inside you.”
Kai pulled down the street , glancing in all directions while his foot kept hitting the gas. Every time Y/N groaned in pain , he felt as if he was dying. It would’ve been easier to feed her vampire blood, but he had no idea how that would affect the baby. What if something happens to the child ? Over the past few months whenever they talked , she’d would always say how much this baby means to her. How it’s the best thing that has ever happened to her in her entire life. Kai knew if something happened she wouldn’t be able to survive the pain. His phone rang and he pulled it out of his pocket , seeing the caller ID - DAMON.
    “Damn it.” he muttered to himself , swiping his finger across the screen. “Damon , now its not a good time.”
    “Funny. Where are you? My brother is dying.”
    “Well , my pregnant best friend is dying right now. Guess for which one of those I care more. Call your friend in New Orleans.” said Kai ending the call.

Y/N semi laid on the back seat of the car , rubbing her pregnant belly with her hands. How can Josh just leave like this ?! When she had told him about the baby , he had been so excited. Talking to the unborn child saying how much he loves both of them and now all of the sudden in their biggest time of need - he bolts , ignoring her pleads not to leave her there alone. Who was the person she had been living with the past few months ? A tear rolled down her cheek , unable to feel the baby move inside her anymore. All of those months being happy and excited about her baby boy’s birth — and now if something happened to her child.
    “Kai ?”
    “Yes? Just hold on , we are almost there.” he said turning back towards her.
    “Kai listen — if it comes to this. Tell the doctors to save the child not me.”
    “What ? No ! Y/N -”
    “Promise me.” she insisted. “Please Kai — you know how much this baby means to me. If something happens to him , I wont be able to survive it. You will take care of him if I am gone. Promise me that you will.”
    “Nothing is going to happen to you or the baby. ” replied her best friend. “I am not losing you and you are not losing that child. I don’t care what I have to do or who I have to go through to make that happen okay.”
    “Promise me.
Kai glanced at the review mirror and sighed. No matter what he says Y/N  would keep insisting and he knew there was no talking her out of it. Kai knew why she was asking him to tell the doctors to save the child over her - it was because she loved the baby just as much as he loved her. He was going to do whatever he could to make sure nothing happens to either of them because for him there was no life without her. This brave human girl had been the only one to accept  him , to care and love him even though he had been turned into a monster by his own family. Y/N saw good in him since the first moment they met and what he feels for her was the strongest thing he has ever felt in his life and if Y/N died , he’d die too.
    “Y/N I – I can’t…”
The car took another turn and a few short moments later they were at the hospital’s parking lot. Kai vamp-ran inside getting one of the doctors who grabbed a few nurses on their way out. Carefully they moved Y/N onto a gurney and headed inside the hospital. Y/N held onto his hand refusing to let go, squeezing it tightly the closer they got to the operating room. Kai couldn’t take his eyes off her or make himself let go off her. Her heart was beating a little uneven and her eyes were filled with tears and a silent plea. There was no way he’d say no to her in that moment.
    “Promise me.”
    “I promise -” he said as the doctors took her into the operating room.  
Kai watched through the small windows on the doors for about a minute. He couldn’t possibly wait outside and leave her alone in there with a bunch of strangers. What if something happens to her and they lose her. No , he had to be there with her by her side no matter what. So he rushed inside grabbing the doctor’s shoulders , compelling him.
    “You will save them both, do you understand me ? You will do whatever is necessary to make that happen – and you are going to let me stay here with her.”
Kai walked over to where Y/N’s head was , carressing her face. They had already sedated her and her eyes had started to close as she drifted off.
    “It’s going to be okay Y/N. I’ll be here and I won’t let anything happen to you or the baby.” he smiled at her. What she had said to him in the car kept repeating on a loop in his head. ’You will take care of him if I am gone.’ Why would she ask him that if her boyfriend is the father ? It didn’t made sense to him or maybe his emotions were clouding his ability to think clearly in that moment. Kai knew one thing for sure - there was no way he’d lose her , not in that moment not ever and if it came to it - he was going to feed her vampire blood. It would be better having her hate him for the rest of his life for making that choice for her, than not having her in it at all.
Feelings. he thought. Why do they have to be so hard ?


Kai never left her side - not in the operating room while the doctors made the emergency c-section , and not after. He compelled the doctors to take priority in taking care of her baby and not let it out of their sights or any harm come to him. Damon had called , strangely not upset about Kai denying his request which the young heretic found a little odd but didn’t mind much. All he cared about right now was the girl he loved. He held her hand until she woke up almost an hour and a half later. When her eyes opened Kai felt a sense of relief like he had never knew existed.
    “Hey sweetheart.” he smiled. “How are you feeling ? Good ? Cuz if not , there would be a doctor loosing his head or heart. Or both.”
Y/N laughed , wincing in pain right after. “Wow , it hurts to laugh. T-the baby ? Is he okay ?”
Kai smiled at her. “He is at the baby ward and he is so tiny and huggable. They wouldn’t let me take him to the room with us though or the little one would’ve been here right now waiting with me for you to open your eyes. I didn’t want to object to their medical opinion — you would’ve killed me if I had.”
    “Never … I could never do that.” she said serious. “I’ll die without you in my life.”
Kai tilted his head a little trying to figure out what those words meant. Y/N was looking at him with wide eyes filled with happiness and –something else he couldn’t figure out in that moment. A small smile spread across her face and she placed her other hand over their hands , not taking her eyes off him. They gazed at each other for a few minutes before he spoke.
    “You know , a little vampire blood would speed up  your recovery -”
    “I know. I just don’t know how it would affect me feeding the baby afterwards.” she smiled at her best friend. “I am so happy you are here. Don’t know what I would do without you in my life.”
    “Yeah. Me too.” he smiled at her , brushing his fingers against her cheek. “Hey are you hungry ? I can go get you something to eat because that hospital food is just — yuck so disgusting. What do you want ? Tell me – I’ll run to China if I have to. Or Mexico. Just tell me.”
Y/N smiled , slightly wincing in pain as she pulled herself up in the bed a little.
    “Curly fries from the Grill ? But like – two servings ? No , three ? I’m starving.”
Kai laughed under his breath, leaning in to kiss her forehead. “You got it. I’ll be back in a jiffy.”
    “No one says ‘jiffy’ anymore.” she teased him , gripping his wrist before he had left. “Thank you – if it wasn’t for you —-” said Y/N gazing longingly in his eyes.
Kai smiled. “It’s what best friends do right. Get some rest and – fix your hair or you will scare the baby when they will bring him over in an hour. Apparently when you are born between the 7th and the 8th month there are a lot of tests to do , but don’t worry. He is healthy , I am 100% sure of it.”
    “Can’t you just poof my hair normal ?” she asked laughing.
    “This is not a Disney movie.” he laughed ,watching her run her fingers through her hair , trying not to laugh while attempting to fix her hair.
    “Are you sure ? Because you seem a lot like a handsome prince always coming to my rescue.”


After Kai left , Y/N spent a couple of minutes smiling to herself. Her son was born , he was already somewhere in the hospital and she couldn’t wait to see him. Kai was there with her , brightening up her world with his smile. Fate or destiny had intervened and he had found her. Y/N made a note to herself never to leave her phone in the car ever again. A sigh left her lips and placed her hands on her face thinking. The baby still had no name. Sure she and Josh had thought of names but that hadn’t been exactly his choice to make and there was no way she names the child a name her (now) ex-boyfriend had suggested.
    “Y/N ?”
Her hands dropped to her sides and her gaze locked on the surprise visitor. An avalanche of emotions came over her - the strongest one among them being anger. How dare he show up after everything?!
    “H-how are you? I - I’m sorry about … leaving you in that alley. I don’t know what came over me. I panicked.”  he sighed trying to take her hand , but she pulled away.
    “Get out.” she said as calmly as possibly , barely able to contain her anger and hurt. “Get out now or I swear I will find a way to break you.”
    “Y-you are mad. I deserve it , I know it but Luke is our son -”
    “My son and his name is not Luke.” she hissed.
    “I am his father ,you can’t deny me my rights.”
Y/N scoffed. “Watch me. Get out.” she said through gritted teeth , tears gathering in her eyelids. “You are not ev-”
In that moment the door opened and Kai walked in , holding a large paper bag in his hands, his eyes widening when he saw who was there. Y/N could see him visibly starting to shake from anger even though there was a smile on his face. Her best friend left the paper bag at the end of the bed turning towards her boyfriend with raging fire burning in his eyes.
    “Hey Kai. How are you ? Tha-”
Kai grabbed his shirt lifting him off the chair by it. He couldn’t control his anger even if he wanted in that moment. Josh , her boyfriend , someone who multiple times told her he loves her and would do anything for her – he had left her alone ,  not caring about her or the baby. And now he has the nerve to show up and act as if it he had any rights over Y/N’s child after that stunt he pulled?! Hell would freeze over before Kai lets that guy anywhere near his family.
    “Wh-what –”
    “Stop talking.” he compelled him , wrapping his hand around the guy’s neck lifting him off the ground. “How dare you show  your face here after what you did? You left her and the baby. And people call me a monster. God I’ve never felt this angry in my life. I can’t even decide what to do with you – should I rip your head off or break every bone in your body , heal you and do it all over again? Or maybe I should tear you apart limp from limp –”
    “Kai – Kai let him go.” said Y/N calmly.
    “No. No , Y/N. I am not going to let him go.” said Kai not turning around to look at her. He knew once their eyes meet he’d let go that idiot and there was no way he’d do that.“Because of him you almost died. Your child almost died. This idiot doesn’t deserve to get away.”
    “You are right. He is an idiot , an idiot who’s going to leave town today and never come back.” she continued calmly. Kai understood what she wanted but he just couldn’t let go off the grip. Josh was starting to turn blue-ish and Y/N was starting to get a little worried. However badly he had screwed up , he had realised his mistake. Too late but it had been something. “Kai , please do it for me.”
Y/N moved on the bed , reaching out to touch Kai’s other hand. The moment their hands met and their fingers intertwined he started to calm down a little and let her boyfriend down. He couldn’t believe after everything Y/N still cared about that idiot enough to save his life. Kai turned towards her.
    “What do you want him to know?”
    “Nothing. Compell him to forget he ever met me , to leave town for good and never come back.” she said calmly and Kai did just as she asked.
When Josh left Kai turned towards her and his anger had been replaced with so many emotions at once , somehow bringing tears in his eyes. A single one of them rolled down his cheek  and he sighed sitting on the bed next to her , reaching for her hand. Y/N’s kind heart had been the reason why he had fallen for her among so many other reasons.
    “I am going to take care of you. Both of you.” he said quietly , sitting on the bed. “You will never be alone. Never.”
    “Kai -”
    “I should’ve told you months ago , but when I got back you looked so happy with — and the baby showed up in the picture.” he said gazing longingly into her eyes. “You are so much more than my best friend Y/N. You are the best thing that has ever happened in my life and the reason why I didn’t promise you straight away I’d tell the doctors to save the baby over you is because  — I love you. I fell in love with you and now – I am going to take care of you and the little one as if he is my child.”
    “What if I told you he is your son?” she said smiling nervously.
    “W-what?”
    “Remember that party we went to at Whitmore before you got trapped in 1903?”
    “W-what about it?” he asked confused.
Y/N sighed. Two days before Damon and Bonnie had ditched Kai in 1903 she and her best friend had been at a party at Whitmore dancing , having fun and then they had had a moment on the dance floor and had kissed. After that he had taken her home to his apartment and things had happened. They had one night and a couple of weeks later Josh had asked her to be his girlfriend and she had said yes , mostly because Kai had been trapped with no way out. Or so everyone had thought.
    “I should’ve told you right when you got back.” she said looking at her hands. “I was already pregnant when Josh and we got together. I didn’t know it at first - he and I —-  we , you know and the next morning I got this morning sickness and then again and again and I went to the doctors - ”
    “Wow.”
    “When you got back I wanted to tell you but I wasn’t sure how you’d react and now — I’ve only made things worse. Practically destroyed our friendship. I know I should’ve told you months ago , I just — I didn’t know how.” said Y/N wiping a tear from her cheek.
Kai wiped his face with his hands trying to wrap his mind around the her words. Now it made sense to him why she had asked him to take care of the baby.  Could it even be true ? He was a human back then so technically it was possible. Part of him was angry for not telling him straight away , the other was strangely happy and understanding. How could she tell him when he had just massacred his entire family ? Y/N had been at the wedding when his coven had started to chant trying to save the future of the coven - the unborn children. His screwed up family had saved not only his sister’s twinsies but his unborn child as well. Kai wondered what his father would’ve done if he had known his least favourite son was about to become a parent.
    “Were you ever going to tell me about this?” he wondered.
    “Yes.” she said. “I tried so find a way to tell you so many times , I – Kai ? Where are you going?”
    “To the baby ward. I’ll be right back.” he smiled at her.
Kai practically ran to the baby ward, thoughts swarming in his head like crazy. There was a chance the child wasn’t his after all but he hoped and wanted what Y/N said to be true. All his life he hadn’t ever thought he’d want to be a father until this moment. A few moments later he was at the baby ward looking through the large glass window trying to find his son. He compelled one of the nurses to let him get in. Kai  walked through all the babies looking for Y/N’s son — his son and then he found him. Sleeping on his back with his arms on either side of his small head.  There was a way for him to find out if it’s true. Siphon or not siphon , if the baby was his he’ll feel it. Magic had its own signature and he knew the moment he touches the baby he’ll know for sure.
    “Hi , little one.” whispered Kai smiling , poking his finger in the little one’s hand. A moment later an almost white yellowish glow showed up from where he touched the baby and Kai jumped a step backwards. “Oh my God…”
Kai grinned seeing the little baby boy open his eyes , his blue eyes just like his. The baby yawned and giggled for a few seconds seeing his dad hovering over him. He was about to take the baby in his arms when another nurse walked inside , her eyes widening seeing him there.
    “You can’t be in -”
    “Forget I was here. Can I take my son to his mother ? Now ?” he asked smiling widely.Y/N glanced at the door every time there was someone passing by on the other side wondering what was taking Kai so long. Thinking maybe he had left her too ,but … No. Kai wasn’t like that. Not with her. They’ve had their fights and even then he never left. Just as she was about to push the button on her bed to call for a nurse and ask them to look for him at the baby ward  the door opened.
    “Look who is here.” said Kai smiling like never before , holding a little bundle of joy in his hands. Y/N’s eyes lit up when he shortened the distance between them and leaned in giving the baby boy to his mother , to see him for the first time. The young heretic wrapped his arm around her shoulder kissing her head gently unable to find the right words to say in that moment. Kai sat lightly on the bed unable to look away from his son for more than a second. Y/N glanced up at him , seeing her best friend smiling widely while playing with the baby.
    “I never thought I wanted to be a father.” he said suddenly. ‘Thats going to take some time to get used to. Our son is so beautiful , just like his mother but if you look into his eyes - there is this mischievous spark in them. He got that from me.“
    “O-our son?” her eyes widened. Kai hummed in response. “S-so you are not mad at me for not telling you sooner?”
    “How can I be mad when you have given me the best gift there is ? Y/N , I know – I know you probably don’t feel the same way about me , and that’s fine but I want to take care of you both. There is nothing you can say to stop me so don’t even try.”
    “Who said I don’t feel the same way about you or that I am going to stop you?” she smiled.


SIX AND A HALF YEARS LATER


     "I don’t want to go.“ said Jake. “Can’t I stay home?”
Kai knelt down to his son , pulling the zipper of his sweatshirt up , trying his shoes right after. His son was all grown up now , getting ready to go on his first day of school. At first the little boy had been super excited but the past few days he had been complaining how he will miss his mom and dad. Kai didn’t want to let him out of his sight either and planned on sneaking into the high school using a cloaking spell to make sure his son is alright his first day of school.
    “You say that now because you are nervous. I was nervous on my first day of school too.” his dad said smiling reassuringly.
Y/N placed her hand on his shoulder , kneeling down too.
   "You will love it there and then we will be asking you to stay home and play with us.“ she said brushing her fingers against Jake’s cheek , then whispered in Kai’s ear. “I love you.”
Kai turned towards Y/N with a smile on his face , taking her left hand playing with the ring on her finger. He still couldn’t believe how his life had turned out to be. Not once he had imagined there would be one person who loves him unconditionally, let alone two.
He had never expected he’ll ever love two people as much either. Y/N and Jake were his entire world and he would do whatever was necessary to protect them.
    “Will you come with me ?” asked Jake , playing with his fingers.
    “Of course. We will come with you every day.” said Kai smiling.
Jake took a step towards his dad , wrapping his small hands around his father’s neck while Kai pulled him closer , closing his eyes for a moment.
    “I love you daddy.” said little Jake.
    “I love you too , trouble.” replied Kai.
Y/N folded her hands on her chest starring at them.
    “What about me? I feel ignored.” she teased.
Kai started laughing , wrapping one arm around his wife hugging the two most important people in his life.
    “Ahh I love you both so much.” he said quietly.
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Lazy Saturdays and Eskimo Kisses (1/1 | 3,970 | Rated E) **

Even spends the weekend with Isak being cute and getting up to some shenanigans.

The aftermath (8/8 | 8,297 | Rated T) **

Since Skam is on hiatus till the 14th here’s my every day fanfiction of what I think Isak is going through after the events of Episode 5. It’ll cover all the 8 days until Skam comes back.

And if they taste the same, would you love again? (4/4 | 5,700 | Rated M) **

It’s like we are running our own private marathon yet we are lying there absolutely still apart from the breathing and my sobs that I just cant control. Because how can he not want this? How can he not feel whatever cosmic shit is happening when were together? I am so angry at him, I am so scared, and I haven’t got a fucking clue where we go from here, apart from that at this moment in time I don’t care. I just need him. I need him to tell me its alright, that he is mine, and that it was all a fucking mistake. But he doesn’t. Instead he just kisses me. And it’s fucking breathtaking.

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Unfaithful : Part 31

Summary :
In the Pre-apocalypse , you went to your aunt Lucille’s house in Virginia to spend the summer there, but you fell in love with her husband Negan .

**drama - romance - angst- smut - betrayal**

Pairing : Negan x Female Reader OC.

Dedicated to @negansmainwife

Warnings : so I won’t give spoilers, every chapter could contain mention of blood, death, gore, smut etc… not to mention Negan’s filthy mouth

Note:

This fic is about betrayal or adultery, call it what you want, please if you feel triggered about such thing don’t read. If not , you can be wether team y/n or team Lucille. LOL

Previous chapters :

https://negansslowlyburn.tumblr.com/post/159839481553/unfaithful

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Warnings : there’s blood and mention of rape in this chapter.
Didn’t check for misspellings too lmao 😂


“This is how I’m gonna leave this life! Beaten, raped and killed!”

Those words raced in your mind and repeated themselves over and over. Your whole life flashed before your eyes after Jack revealed his intention to rape and kill you.

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“Lost Love - Part 2″

Chibs Telford x Reader
(GIF isn’t mine)

***This could serve as the final part to this, or I could add one or two more. Let me know what you want in the comments!***
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He hadn’t yet told Clay and the others why you left, just that you had split, saying it was to keep the club safe. When he heard his phone ring, he picked it up, flipping it open and pressing it to his ear.
“Hello?” his voice called out, tired, beaten down, depressed.
“Hello?” he called put again as you listened, trying to form words but nothing came out.
“… (Y/N)?…” his voice cracked and you broke out into sobs on your side of the phone.
“(Y/N)!” he yelled into the phone with relief and exhaustion. “Lass where are you!?”
“I can’t tell you Filip.” you sniffled, “Stahl, she won’t settle for anything less than one of us or all of us in prison. Me, you, or the club. If she can’t press me then she has nothing. I can’t let it happen baby. I’m so sorry….” you trailed off.
“Lass we can figure it out, we always have. We can fin’ a way aroun’ it. I swear, (Y/N), come home, an’ I will make sure you don’ have to go to jail.” he pleaded with you, his voice quiet through the tears he cried.
“What about you? What about the club?”
“It isn’ your worry, lass. Come home.”
“I can’t…. I… I can’t Filip. I love you.”
“No! No (Y/N)  wait! Baby plea–”
You hung up the phone and threw it across the room, screaming as you cried. The one thing you wanted right now was the one thing you couldnt have… Your old man.



“(Y/N)!….. (Y/N)?!….” Chibs yelled before realizing you had ended the call. “FUCK!” he screamed, hurling the phone across the bar, narrowly missing the prospect as he threw himself down on a bar stool and pulled the bottle of whiskey to his mouth, gulping it down. Juice walked inside the clubhouse and Chibs hurriedly stood up, closing the distance between them and searching the younger man’s face for any sign of hope. Juice looked down, “She’s covering her tracks, man. She hasn’t used any of her cards since she left Charming and I haven’t been able to track her cell. I don’t think she’s using it.”
“Aye, she called me from a burner,” he sighed.
“You have no idea where she might be headed? Any family nearby? Any friends she wanted to visit? Anything…”
“All her family is here, in Charming, Stockton, Lodi… An’ before you say it, no I can’ just go askin’ them for help, they hate us…”
“Okay, what about–”
“Damn it, Juicey, I don’t know!” the Scottish man yelled, the alcohol making him more impatient than usual. He threw his whiskey glass against the wall behind the bar, sending it shattering into pieces.

Juice just lowered his head and sulked away, turning his head over his shoulder to speak to his brother, “I’ll keep looking…” he softly spoke, “…see what I can find.”



After spending a few nights in Lodi, trying to plan what you were going to do, you finally decided to leave California. You set off for Oregon, hoping the Sons would take a while to start searching beyond state lines. When you neared Ashland, you realized your gas light was on and you pulled into a Shell station, getting out and filling up, before setting back on your way.
After hours on the road you decided to stop for the night in Eugene, renting a room and settling in.


Juice busted through the clubhouse doors with his laptop in his hand.
“Where’s Chibs!?” he yelled at the prospect who was sitting, talking to Jax, and Clay.
“He’s in the bedroom in the back, what did you find?” Clay answered him, standing up.
“Three hours ago her card was swiped at a gas station just inside the Oregon state line. I hacked into some traffic cams and followed her car here,” He turned his screen around pointing to a spot on the map he had pulled up, “It’s a hotel in Eugene.”
“Shit. We gotta go get her,” Jax huffed, turning to his younger friend, “call Tig and the others, get em up here. Now. I’ll go get Chibs….”


Chibs stood in the shower, letting the hot water rush over him as he held the bottle to his lips. He couldn’t stand on his own and had to support himself with his hand against the shower wall. He had been living on a diet of Bourbon and Irish Whiskey for the last few days and he was so drunk, he didn’t notice his VP walking in.

“Chibs, we need to go.” Jax called to him from outside the shower. The older man ignored him.
“Chibs,” Jax spoke again, pulling back the shower curtain, “Lets go man. Juice found (Y/N).”

The mention of her name snapped him out of his stupor and he let the bottle slip from his hands.

“Come on. We need to go now before she realizes her mistake,” Jax urged him and he stepped out of the shower, suddenly his drunkenness had faded and he was on a warpath.


You woke up the next morning after a restless night. You weren’t used to sleeping without Filip beside you.
You crawled out of bed and walked to the bathroom, stepping in the shower and beginning to bathe when you felt panic set in…… you couldn’t remember going inside the convenience store to pay for your gas yesterday.
  
“Oh no…. Oh no no no no!” you wailed, stepping out of the shower and wrapping a towel around you before running into your room and pulling out your phone and powering it on. You needed to check your bank account to be sure you hadn’t out of habit swiped your card to pay for your fuel.

“Fuck fuck fuck… Come on!” you yelled at the phone as it took its time powering on.

You hurriedly logged into your banking account to find your fears realized as you heard the roaring of motorcycles outside.

MITCH MARNER —> ITS OVER?

requested: using the quote “so that’s it? it’s over?”

a/n: i love Mitch & I hate when I make hockey players look like bad guys for part of the story but just know that when I portray hockey players as bad people in my imagines, that does NOT mean they are bad people in real life, most of them are sweet beans just like mitch

warnings: abuse, rage, cuts (not suicidal, but could still trigger bc of the way I worded it)

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“i don’t wanna fucking hear it.” mitch screamed at you. “you’re not going anywhere.”

you sat on the floor, tears streaming down your face as you packed as many of your personal belongings as you can in your bag. you ignored mitch as you heard him throwing things in his kitchen and the sound of glass shattering. you stuffed t-shirts and shorts into your bag and took a glance at the picture sitting on the nightstand. your tears stopped as you grabbed the picture, threw it in your bag, and looked over your shoulder to make sure mitch didn’t see.

you picked up your bag and prepared to walk out the door until you felt a hand on your wrist and turned to see mitch, tears flooding his eyes. you stared into his beautiful eyes, remember the first time they caught your attention at the club in downtown toronto. those eyes had been so kind to you when you were unstable from all the alcohol you drank, and now here they are, making you want to do nothing more than to leave.

“so that’s it? it’s over?” mitch said, barely managing to let the words slip out of his mouth. you looked around the kitchen to see at least 5 glass cups shattered on the floor and the counter. you eyes wandered to mitch’s arms as you noticed deep cuts, blood all over his arms from the glasses he was throwing in the kitchen. you felt sympathy for a moment, until remembering this was his fault. he was the one he walked through the door after practice screaming at you because you hung out with willy the night before.

you looked back into him eyes, only to remember you lied about being with willy. you told him you were going to hang out with your friend megan, when you knew you were actually going to get drunk at the club with willy. nothing happened, but mitch was crazy jealous and protective and lying to him about willy was a mistake and you knew that. but he didn’t have the right to hit you or scream at you the way he did.

“goodbye marner.” you said as you shut the door behind you. you stopped for a second and put your ear up to the door to see if mitch said anything.

“fuck.” you heard him scream repeatedly, until those screams slowly started turning into sobs and the sounds of shattering glass appeared again. you slid down the door until you were sitting down, still listening in on mitch. he continued screaming and crying and breaking glasses until it went silent. and it wasn’t a ‘mitch finally calmed down’ silence, it was a ‘something happened and mitch is not okay’ silence. your breathing got shorter and heavier with every moment of silence. despite what happened, you were scared to death and finally opened the door and run inside.

“mitch?” you said, looking around for him. you stopped in awe, as you looked to see every glass cup in his cupboard was gone. he broke every glass. as you continued studying the kitchen you heard a small whimper from behind the counter, revealing mitch curled up in a ball, sobbing his heart out.

“mitch baby what happened.” you started crying at the sight of him. you flopped down next to him and pulled him into your arms as your eyes scanned his body up and down. there were three very large cuts on his face, one on his cheek, one on his lip, and one going from his eyebrow down to his nose. he had at least a dozen cuts on his arms and legs as well. he sat comfortably on your lap as he continued sobbing, unable to speak.

“babe, im here it okay.” you ran your fingers through his hair and stroking his un-cut cheek. “it’s okay, breathe baby it’s okay. everything will be okay.” you continued with these words, doing everything you could to comfort and calm him. he sat this way for about ten minutes until he finally looked up at you with bloodshot eyes. you stood up, leaning him against the wall, and grabbed a washcloth in which you ran under warm water. you say back down next to mitch as you carefully dabbed his cuts on his face, mitch wincing every time you touched him.

“why’d you come back?” he said, not looking up at you.

“i never left. i was outside the door listening to you when it went dead silence and it scared the shit out of me.” you weren’t going to lie to him. he nodded his head, as if he was unsure of why you did that.

“just leave.” he said. you stopped wiping his face and gave him a look of disgust.

“im sorry, what? just leave?” you scoffed.

“no, i mean. you almost left me. and it’s my fault. i fucking hit you y/n… i hurt you. im not good for you in any way, shape, or form. i. hit. you.” he seemed as if he was talking to himself, unable to believe what he had done. he looked up at you with his soft eyes. “i love you. but i promised myself i would never hurt you. and i nearly caused you to leave me. to walk out on me. y/n i can’t believe it. im sitting here in a pool of shattered glass and my own blood. for what? because you went to hang out with willy? and i did this?” he realized it. he was simply caught up in the spur of the moment and just lashed out. you couldn’t deny that he hurt you, bad in fact, but you were in love with him.

seeing what mitch had done to himself, you felt hurt for you. no matter what just happened, he was sobbing and destroyed his kitchen because of you. because he knew how much he hurt you and what he had done. maybe not forgivable yet, but understandable. and even if you couldn’t forgive him quite yet, you knew you eventually would, you loved him to much to lose him. although it was in a violent way, he showed he cared about you and what he did.

“mitch…” you started. “what you did- i need time to forgive you for that. but, i love you. and it scared the shit out of me when it went dead silent in here. we both messed up. but im always here for you and i love you mitch.” you felt him look up at you and give a sigh of relief. he pulled you in for a hug and squeezed you so tight, you thought you were going to pop.

       “you don’t have to stay with me just because im hurting. if you don’t want to stay, then please don’t. i want you to stay but if you’re not comfortable then you should leave.”

       “i want to stay mitch. i want to stay. nothing you could ever say or do to me would ever change that. i love you mitchell marner. i want to stay with you.” you pushed your lips against his as he started crying.

       he rested his forehead on yours and started whispering to you. “i love you so much.” he couldn’t contain his emotions. “i would never give you up for the world. you are my everything. i can’t explain to you how sorry i am for what i did and said. you deserve so much more than that. i want you to be happy. i will always love you y/n.” he said.

       “don’t worry mitch. everything will be okay. you are my everything too and there’s nothing in the world that could take you away from me. except for maybe tom cruise.” you both laughed. “there’s that smile.” you said, wiping his tears away. “let’s get you cleaned up okay? you’ve got cuts all over you babe.” he nodded as you helped him up and into the bathroom.

       no matter what happened, you and mitch would always be together. you would move past your problems and it would be you and mitch against the world. forever.

DREAM CATCHER


Kai Parker x Reader
word count
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summary : [after 6.22] Reader and Kai are best friends, though after the wedding Kai’s emotions towards her got heightened. One night, while he is on his way to her house, he hears her scream and …
#iSuckAtSummaries 😅
*gif by lightwoodxalec
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A lot of things changed for Kai after the wedding. He was no longer a siphon but a heretic – vampire/ witch hybrid. All his emotions were heightened, including the empathy he gained from his brother Luke during the merge. After the wedding fiasco, he was bombarded with emotions and a lot of guilt that kept him awake at night. There was an easy way out for him, being a vampire and all – he could shut off his humanity, but he didn’t want to do that. There was another emotion coursing through his veins, feeling more magnified than ever with each passing day. Kai didn’t fully understand it, but knew it was stronger than the guilt and was connected to one person and one person alone – Y/N, his best friend.
Before the merge, Y/N had been the one trying to convince her friends to give him the benefit of the doubt. Then after the merge she had helped him deal with all those emotions flooding his mind. Including staying awake all night with him sometimes, talking on the phone and later on – in person. Y/N had given him the chance everyone else denied him and for the first time in his life he had someone who truly cared about him. And for whom he cared about immensely.

* * *

Kai walked down the empty streets of Mystic Falls on his way to her house, feeling this unexplainable desire to see her be with her all the time, when a few hundred metres away from her house and heard screams. He didn’t even question who it was, recognising the voice as hers instantly. And he ran.
Her screams were coming from her (as usual) open bedroom window. It took him barely a second to push his feet off the ground with every ounce of strength he had and land on the soft carpet by the window with a muffled thud. The young heretic looked around, expecting to find someone or lots of someones in the room, but there was no one else besides Y/N, who was thrashing in her bed. Sweat drops covered her forehead, her blanket was pushed off almost to the ground and there were tears rolling down her cheeks while screams left her lips.
A sigh left his lips and he quickly made his way to her bed, grabbing her shoulders in attempt to wake her up. But whatever she was dreaming about had her completely trapped, so he did the next thing that popped into his head and closed his eyes sneaking into her dream.

He took a step between the trees, looking up at the sky. It was mid-day, by the looks of it. Not from too far away he heard sobs and quickly he made his way towards the sounds, seeing Y/N kneeling on the ground with blood covering her hands and torn up clothes. Her hair was messy with dried leafs stuck to it and tears were rolling down her cheeks. Next to her was a body, her friend Matt who was wearing his deputy uniform. Only it wasn’t just her friend Matt. Bonnie, Stefan, Caroline where there too, and even Damon who had pressed his hand on a wound on his neck which wasn’t healing. A werewolf bite. It looked like there had been a fight there – a couple of trees had fallen down and blood covered the ground around a dying camp fire.
   “You are
not dead. Matt , wake up !. You can’t be dead. No.” she cried.
   “But he
is.” groaned Damon. “And soon I will be too, thanks to you little wolf. Did you have to trigger your curse again right on a full moon ?”
   “I
never wanted this to happen. He came out of nowhere. I thought – ” she cried looking up. “Kai ? No, no you have to get out of here. I – I will hurt you or worse, kill you. Leave, please –”
Kai took a step towards her when he saw another version of him who did the same. Y/N looked at him with terror in her eyes and got up, slowly backing away from him. About half way to Damon she screamed in pain and dropped on one knee, then her shoulder cracked loudly, along with every other bone in her body while her eyes growled in brown with amber highlights. Y/N snarled at her best friend, her nails digging in the ground as the transformation deepened.
   “Y/N hey , its okay. I can help.” said dream-Kai talking another step towards her. “I
will help you control this. You might’ve triggered the curse again but it’s going to be okay. I will make sure that it is.”
   “What is happening to me ?” she thought out loud, groaning out in pain. “This is
not supposed to happen. The full moon is over. I can’t hurt anyone else, I … D-Damon , you have to kill me  —”
   “Lay a finger on her and I
will kill you.” warned dream-Kai, seeing Damon starting to get up. Meanwhile Y/N had already turned into a wolf and stepped towards dream-Kai, growling. “Y/N – It’s me. You don’t want to hurt me. Focus on my voice. Remember the first time you and I went camping ? It was the first weekend of July and it was so hot outside, even sleeping under the starts wasn’t helping – ”  Y/N took a step backwards, pawing at the ground whimpering. Dream-Kai took a slow a step towards her and the real Kai followed, placing his hand on dream-Kai’s shoulder taking his place. He took another step, then another until his hand reached her face.  “– and then I told you I could hear a river near by.“ he gave her a small smile, brushing his palm against her fur. “You made me chase you there and jumped into the water so suddenly, I was absolutely terrified I’d lose you when you didn’t emerge for a whole minute and a half. I haven’t felt like that since I saw you laying on the ground at the wedding –”
Y/N growled, tackling him on the ground. Kai looked into her eyes but instead of trying to fight her off he found a way to put his arms around her, gently stroking her fur while speaking softly. “You are having a nightmare. Wake up. This – It’s
not real , wake up. Y/N. Wake up.”

A short moment later, her eyes opened and immediately her arms wrapped tight around Kai, who pulled her towards him rubbing gentle circles on her back.  He had had his fair share of nightmares in the Prison World, whenever he actually got to sleep there and then afterwards, but it appeared her nightmare had affected her quite deeply. They had talked before and he knew triggering the curse again and hurting her friends were two of her biggest fears, though in the dream – what he had seen. That terror in her eyes when he had shown up. It hadn’t been fear he’d hurt her, it hadn’t been fear one of her friends would hurt him. Y/N had been afraid she’d be the one who’d hurt him and she had been so terrified of it, she had asked her friend to kill her so that doesn’t happen.
   “It’s okay. It was just a bad dream. It wasn’t real.” he said in a soothing voice, listening to her heart rate slowly calm down. “You are awake and all your annoying friends are safe and sound, sleeping and probably snoring in their own beds right now  –”
Y/N pulled away and pinched her cheeks then his, just in case. Her dream had felt so real and this time it had been worse than before. Ever since coming back from the Other Side almost two years ago, nightmares tormented her pretty much every night. That night however not one, not two but three of her worst fears had come to haunt her and if it hadn’t been for Kai, she probably would’ve been trapped in the hellish dimension her subconscience created until morning.
   “Ouch.” he laughed, his laugh making her laugh. “No need for pinching, kicking or biting. I’m real. Sorry, I – I wanted to stop by and – you know, I can’t sleep. Anyways when I heard you scream I –  You scared the hell out of me. Do those happen often ?” Y/N nodded, unable to find her voice. “Why didn’t you tell me ?”
   “I –” she started, wiping away tears from her cheeks. “– I didn’t want to burden you. You already have so much to deal with. I didn’t want to add more to it.”
Kai sighed. “You should’ve told me. Best friends tell each other stuff like that, right ? Tell you what. If it’s okay with you – I will stay the night and every other night from now on, watching over you while you sleep.”
   “You’d d-do that ?”
Kai smiled, brushing his thumb against her cheek. “For you, I’d do anything… everything. Can I have a pillow ?”
   “Why ?“ she asked curious. “N-no. You are not sleeping on the comfy chair.”
   “No ?“ he said surprised and she moved over on the bed, motioning for him to slip under the covers with her. “Y-you’d let me sleep in your bed ? With – you ?” Y/N nodded, snuggling closer to him while his arms wrapped around her. “By the way, and don’t take this the wrong way – but you look really cute and fluffy as a wolf.”
   “Yeah – until I try to bite someone’s head off.” she said quietly. “You saw what happened in the dream. It has happened in real life. Almost every single full moon, I never want it to happen again. I – you have no idea what it is like, not having any control.”
   “It won’t happen again and if it does, I am 100% behind dream-me’s words.” he kissed her forehead. “I will help you find a way to control it. There are daylight rings that keep vampires from burning in the sun, I am pretty sure I can figure out something to help you control it.”
   “I’ll hurt you , or worse – kill you.”
   “You can’t hurt me. I can siphon the bite away and push you off me in a blink of an eye with magic.” he said reassuringly. “But that won’t happen because I will make sure you don’t trigger the curse and also – I will make sure nightmares never bother you again. I will be here chasing them away. Every night. Always.”

*            *            *

Midnight.
Kai turned down the dark street, finding himself in front of her house a moment later. There had been a storm earlier which had knocked out the power in all of Mystic Falls but he knew she would be waiting for him to come. Three months he had been going to her place every night, sneaking in through her window. Watching over her while she slept. The young heretic didn’t know how or when it had happened but he had fallen in love with the wolf girl. And now, he couldn’t imagine his life without her in it. Or without her smile or the way her eyes lit up every time he was around. Or the way she said his name. There was always warmth in her voice when she did and he didn’t mind her calling him ‘Malachai’. In fact, thanks to her and the way his name rolled off her lips, as if its the most beautiful word in the world, he actually started liking it. He loved every single thing about her, but most of all he loved listening to her heart beating while she slept in his arms.
Kai stopped under her window and looked up seeing it wide open, the curtains flapping with the breeze. He glanced at the square box in his hands and pushed his feet off the ground, landing right inside her bedroom. Even in the darkness he could see her curled up on her bed, facing the window and even though her eyes were closed, he knew she was awake.
    “Aren’t you afraid of being all alone in the dark with an open window from where anyone can enter ?” he said a little amused. “Like maybe a dangerous vampire/witch hybrid –”
Y/N opened her eyes and smiled at him. “I’d be more afraid if a dangerous vampire/witch hybrid didn’t enter my room through the window tonight.”
Kai laughed under his breath and shortened the distance between them in a split second. Her eyes glowed in the dim light and she scooted over on the bed, making space for him to sit next to her. He waved his hand and a couple candles around the room lit up, filling room in soft candle light and Y/N looked at him with awe again. No matter how many times he did that, it was always like this.
    “I am happy you are not asleep yet. I’d hate to wake you up.” he kissed her forehead, sitting on the bed next to her. “Last time things didn’t work out well for me. You almost hit me –”
   "I was having a nightmare.“
   “I know, I am messing with you.” he tapped her nose, reaching his other hand behind his back. “Hey um, I have a surprise for you. Ta-da.”
A moment later a medium large flat square box with a light blue bow found its way on her lap. Y/N shook it lightly while Kai watched her with anticipation in his eyes.
   “What is it ?“
   “Open it and you’ll find out.” he smiled, unable to tear his eyes away from her as she opened the box and took out her present. “D-do you like it ?”
   “A dream catcher ?” she smile, checking her present from every angle.
   “Yeah, you have been having nightmares and I just – I thought this might help. I know I spend most nights with you but this is for when I am not here to chase the nightmares away. Or more likely for when I am a little late –”
Y/N looked at her best friend and smiled. Since that night almost three months ago, Kai spent every single night watching over her. Sometimes he even sneaked into her dreams just to make sure there are no nightmares. Despite all the things her friends said about him, Y/N saw light in him. It was there, barely a flicker at first but the longer they spent together – the brighter it got and she fell in love with him and everything about him. Now she couldn’t imagine her life without him in it.
   “I love it. Thank you.” she smiled, kissing his cheek.
Kai smiled nervously. “It’s spelled, you should know that. I can use it to um – this is going to sound a bit creepy but I can watch over you that way. I have another one, just like this one in my apartment right now and whenever you want to speak to me or –”
Suddenly Y/N wrapped her arms around him tight, Kai doing the same. “Thank you. C-can I see you too ?”
   “Yeah, it works both ways.” he said taking the dream catcher from her hands. He lifted it in the air between them and spun it around twice to the left, stopping it right after. Y/N watched in complete awe as the circle in the middle turned into a looking glass of sorts. “See ? That’s my bedroom right now –”
   “Wow. This is so cool !”
   "I know. Only you can do that though. To the rest of the world is just an ordinary dream catcher.” he said, watching her hang her present on her nightstand lamp. “You don’t think its creepy ? That I can watch over you 24/7 now ?”
   “No. Not at all. I feel a lot safer that way and I absolutely love it. It’s kind of really pretty.” she winked at him, making him laugh. “You are the best, you know that right ?”
Kai smiled widely at her feeling his heart about to leap out of his chest. “There is something else though … another surprise.”
Y/N’s eyes lit up. “Another ? I didn’t get that many presents for my Christmas last year.” she laughed nervously. “Wh-where is it ?”
   “Right under your nose.” he smiled, tapping her nose. “Close your eyes – just for a second and don’t scream.”
   “Scream why would I – okay.” she closed her eyes, her heart beating faster than ever. Y/N waited for something to land in her hands or maybe some sound to give her a hint, but there was nothing. Instead, a moment later, Kai brushed his palm against her cheek and his lips gently touched hers. At first she was a little surprised, then she pulled him towards her, craving more. Butterflies fluttered in her stomach, spreading the feeling through her entire body waking up every fibre. Y/N tangled her fingers in his hair while he slowly backed her against the bed, deepening the kiss. It felt as if her heart was about to leap out of her chest, same as his and she couldn’t help but notice how somehow their hearts beat as one in that moment. Then too soon for her liking, he pulled away.
   “Wow.” he said out of breath, resting his forehead on hers. “I take it you liked my surprise ? Cuz I can feel your heart trying to push its way through , same as mine and –”
   “Was it … just one kiss ?”
   “D-do you want it to be just one ?“
   "No.” she smiled. “Kai , I –”
He pressed his finger on her lips, shushing her. “There is something I have to tell you. I should’ve told you before, but it was never the right time and … I didn’t know how, frankly.” he started, gazing into her eyes. “I know I am not the best person and I am so terrible at emotions, but this I know. And I know it because it is the most real, strongest feeling I have ever felt in my entire life.”
Y/N gazed into his eyes, feeling her heart thumping like crazy in her chest. Was he going to say what she thought he was going to say ?
   “It’s you. It has always been you, since the day we met.” he smiled. “I didn’t see it at first and… I can’t stop thinking about you, or dreaming about you. Or wanting to be with you every second of every day. Every time I close my eyes, you are all I see. Your smile, that sparkle in your eyes I love so much… You are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I – I love you, Y/N. I love you and even if you don’t love me back, I will still love you because I can’t imagine my life without you in it… and I love you. With everything that I have, I love you and I always will.”
   “Kai –”
   “And I know there is no way you’d feel the same way about me, because how could you, right ? I mean –”
   “Kai, I lo-”
   “– you are so pure, good and kind and I am the complete opposite –”
Y/N cupped his face and before he had had time to react, her lips smashed against his while she rolled on top of him in a split second without breaking the kiss. Kai’s hands found their way on her waist, moving up and down her back pulling her towards him while her crotch grounded against his, both of them moaning into the kiss and when she pulled away, he was completely breathless.
   “You never listen, do you?” she laughed a light laugh. “I love you. I love you and I can’t imagine my life without you. I can’t even imagine living a day without you. Or your constant talking. Or seeing the way your eyes glow, like they do right now. Or seeing your smile, capable of brightening up the darkest of days and those dimples, I – ” she sighed, lightly biting her lip while gazing into his eyes. “I have loved you for months, but never said anything cuz … I wasn’t sure you feel the same way and I – I’ve been hurt so many times –”
   “I’d never hurt you.” he brushed his palm against her cheek. “I’d rather die than do that and if I ever do, I will probably rip my heart out.”
Y/N smiled at him. “There is only one way you can hurt me… and that’s by not being in my life.”
   “That will never happen.” he said serious. “I can’t be without you.”
   “I can’t be without you either.” she smiled, brushing her nose against his and he rolled on top of her, both of them laughing. Y/N hooked her hands around his neck, longingly gazing into his eyes while playing with the scruff on the back of his head. “Kiss me again.”
Kai smiled at her and his lips collided with hers, drowning her in a deep passionate kiss. He had never imagined how hearing her say ‘I love you’ would make him feel. How his heart would do all those weird flips and literally try and jump out of his chest and into her hands. All his life he had been longing for this. For someone who loves him and excepts him just the way he is. With all his flaws, taking the good with the bad and now he had that and so much more.
   “If you ever stop kissing me –” she said quietly. “– I will riot.”
Kai laughed under his breath. “I have no intentions on ever stopping, although –” he rolled onto the bed next to her, immediately pulling her into his arms. “It’s late and you have classes tomorrow, so.”
Y/N sighed and snuggled closer to him, placing her hand over his heart. There was no better lullaby for her than listening to his heart. “Hey um, I almost forgot.” she reached across him towards her night stand while he stroked her hair. “For you.”
Kai took a small box from her hands, shaking it near his ear. “What is it?”
   “Open it.” she pulled herself up , seeing his curious expression when he checked out his present.
   “A key ?”
   “Yeah.” she ran her fingers through her hair. “This is your home too and I know you like sneaking in but -”
   “Home.” he smiled, his eyes drifting for a long moment. “I almost forgot what that feels like. Being loved and wanted –”
   “You will always be loved and wanted. I will always love you and want you in my life –”
   “That’s all I want and all I will ever want. You, just you. Thank you.” smiled Kai. He left the box with the key on the nightstand and pulled her closer, tilting her chin up until their lips met in a gentle kiss. “I love you  –”
   "I love you too.”  she smiled at him. “So um, my handsome boyfriend –” she started and he looked at her with wide eyes and a smile on his face. “– will you come with me into my dreams tonight ? I don’t want to spend a moment without you.”
   “Is that even a question ?” he grinned. “Of course I am sneaking into your dream tonight. Where do you want us to go ?”
   “Surprise me.”
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Unfaithful : Part Twenty-Five

Summary :
In the Pre-apocalypse , you went to your aunt Lucille’s house in Virginia to spend the summer there, but you fell in love with her husband Negan .

**drama - romance - angst- smut - betrayal**

Pairing : Negan x Female Reader OC.

Dedicated to @negansmainwife

Warnings : so I won’t give spoilers, every chapter could contain mention of blood, death, gore, smut etc… not to mention Negan’s filthy mouth

Note:

This fic is about betrayal or adultery, call it what you want, please if you feel triggered about such thing don’t read. If not , you can be wether team y/n or team Lucille. LOL

Previous chapters :

https://negansslowlyburn.tumblr.com/post/159839481553/unfaithful

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“The FUCK you want now???”

Negan brushed past Lucille and stomped off to the hall , he halted and turned to face Lucille who gently closed the door to your room.
He angrily stroke his hair as he shot her a dirty look, impatiently waiting for her to speak.

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Misplaced Confusion

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Title: Misplaced Confusion

Pairing: Rossi x Reader

Word Count: 1,250

Warnings: angst

A/N: This was requested by @flufy07! I hope you guys enjoy this! Don’t worry, I’ll have a Spencer Reid fic coming out soon! Also I’ll try to get a Hotch fic out too! Feedback is welcomed and appreciated!

After a rough weekend you were called back into work.  There was no hiding the bruise on your cheek.  Even if you did try to hide it, your team would figure it out in a matter of minutes.  That was one of the risks you took working with profilers; there was nothing you could hide from them that they wouldn’t figure out.

You were already late because you had to talk to the person who was going to watch your cat for the next few days.  It was nice to be out of your home for the next few days.  Your breakup with your now ex-boyfriend, Daniel, didn’t exactly go well.  Granted, your job wasn’t necessarily refreshing, but it would keep your mind off of what happened.

When you walked into the room, you knew all of their eyes were on you.  If you could, you would run out of that room right then and there, but you didn’t.  Instead you sat down in your seat and patiently waited for someone to say something.  Maybe they could tell you didn’t want to talk about it right now.  

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FRENEMIES
                                       - Part II
Kai Parker x Reader

(Part I)
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Whatever Kai’s idea of fun was , it definitely wasn’t the same as Y/N’s. Not all the time at least. He was capable of being the most dangerous being one minute and the sweetest caring one the next. He’d stab her with a knife just to see how long it would take for the Prison World to heal her , or tie her up and practice his magic on her before making her dinner and telling her jokes to make her laugh.
Y/N’s first week with Kai had been rough. As much as she hated everything he was doing to her , a twisted part of her was actually starting to like him … up until the point he killed her again , when she hated him all over again.

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“Wakey wakey.” Kai’s voice woke her up.
She opened her eyes , turning towards him. Kai was laying on the bed next to her , his hands behind his head and his gaze fixed on her.
“Kai !” she pulled away startled. “I thought we talked about this…”
A few times the past few weeks he had sneaked into bed with her instead of going to sleep on the couch as they had discussed. They’d take turns each night but somehow he always ended up wherever she was sleeping. Sometimes she’d go to sleep on the couch and wake up in his bed with him starring at her. It was making her nervous because clearly he didn’t get the whole ‘boundaries’ thing…
“Yeah , we did but I don’t care much what you have to say and I was bored.” he said grinning. “Awh don’t look at me with those big eyes. I made you breakfast , you are going to love it ! Come on.”
Y/N sighed. There was no way to reason with him , if this kept on happening she’d rather spend eternity alone.


Later that day Kai left her alone for a few minutes and she used her chance to sneak out of the apartment and run out of the building.
When Kai came back to the living room and didn’t see her around something inside him broke. Using his vampire hearing he heard her running outside.
“Damn it.” he muttered and chased after her , catching up with Y/N in the town square. He raised his hand and she ran into an invisible wall knocking her a few steps backwards. “Life is so much easier with magic.” he laughed.
“What the hell ?” she asked , her hands hitting the boundary over and over. She hated it when he used his magic to do things like this , knowing there is nothing for her to do. Its like he was doing it on purpose.
He vamp sped towards her pinning her on the ground.
“Come on , sweetheart. You didn’t really think I’d let you go , did you ?” he said gripping her hand tightly , pulling her up.
He didn’t sound angry , he sounded hurt which completely took her off balance. She turned towards him , wanting to see his eyes but he wouldn’t look at her just kept pulling her with him towards his place.
“Kai … Let go of me.” she said out of breath. “You are hurting me.”
He didn’t seem to hear her at first , but then loosened the grip a little and she ran again , a moment later the world turned black.
“That’s about enough of this..” Kai said annoyed , flicking his wrist magically snapping her neck. He vamp-ran towards Y/N , catching her body before she fell on the ground , lifting her up and pulling her closer to his chest. “I hate how you make me do this to you again and again…” he sighed. “Oh well … maybe one more time won’t hurt.”

Kai carried her to his bedroom and let her down on his bed , stroking her cheek. “What am I going to do with you ?” he whispered.
He had been so terrified she’d leave pretty much since they had met and his worst fears had been confirmed more than once already. Y/N was the closest thing he had to a friend and he just couldn’t bring himself to let her go , the thought of her being gone hurt him for some reason.

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Y/N woke up from a sharp pain in her leg. She tried to move but couldn’t. Kai was using his magic to keep her pinned down. Her vision was blury as she opened her eyes and then another loud crack came followed by a really sharp pain in her other leg , sharper than before.
“W-what are you doing?” she asked accusingly trying to focus her eyes on him.
“Oh , don’t look at me like that sweetheart.” he said faking a pouty face. “You must’ve known this would happen. I told you not to run…or did you think there wouldn’t be consequences?” he said suddenly serious.
“Why are you doing this?” she hissed at him. Of course he’d do something like this…
“I told you sweetheart. You shouldn’t have ran…” he paused for a moment , slightly tilting his head. “Maybe if I break another bone , you’ll learn your lesson.”
“No , Kai , don’t ..” she said screaming out in pain again as another bone broke with a loud crack. Kai looked at her slightly amused , watching her squirm in pain for a few more minutes before healing her broken bones.
“I am getting better at this.” he said proudly. He lifted her body up and pulled her into a hug gently rubbing her back as she started sobbing. “Awh , don’t cry. I can do a lot of things but I don’t know how to make you stop crying.”
Kai felt something in him shift again listening to her sobs. He had hurt her multiple times the past few days including less than 5 minutes ago , yet she held on to him as if her life depended on it. Y/N tried to run away from him, it wasn’t as if she had given up yet , but something always pulled her back towards him.
“Stop doing things like these to me , maybe I will.” she said snuggling closer to him.
It was absolutely insane … he kept hurting her and kept comforting her after and she was letting him do both.
Earlier that day when Y/N had run off , he had felt as if air was being pulled out of his lungs. He didn’t want to spend eternity alone , that’s why he had chanced her , it’s why he had hurt her but now a part of him was starting to wonder maybe this was only pushing her away and at some point he’d actually end up losing her. Y/N looked so fragile in his hands and suddenly he found himself wanting to protect her , except he’d have to protect her from himself.

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The next two weeks were strangely calm. Kai acted super nice to her , refused to feed on her and payed so much attention to her , she was starting to get scared , more scared than when he was torturing her. This has been the longest he’s gone without hurting her. Sometimes she’d catch him looking at her with those beautiful blue eyes , he’d smirk at her and then look away or he’d just look away. Ka was acting weird and a few times she tried to ask him what was wrong , but he’d just say ‘nothing’ and change the subject.

Kai was sitting on the couch watching some movie on the DVD. His eyes had started to turn black the past few days and Y/N was starting to get worried. She finished her lunch (which Kai had made her) and sat for a while looking at him.
“Stop starring at me. Its annoying.” he snapped. Y/N sighed , last thing she needed was Kai getting annoyed at her , things never turned out well for her when that happened. The past few days Kai had shown her a side of him probably no one else had seen before and she kind of started to like him and ‘get ideas’. She turned her gaze away towards the window , it was annoyingly sunny as every other day. Part of her missed the rain , the snow … but in the Prison World the weather never changed. Y/N glanced at Kai who was now starring at her , watching her every move. She got up and walked towards him , sitting on his lap her legs on each side of him.
“What are you doing ?” he asked trying to push her off.
“You are hungry , Kai. I’m not stupid.” she removed her hair from her neck , pushing it away exposing her neck. Y/N could see his eyes flicker with hunger and the purple black veins under his eyes started to show , but a moment later they disappeared. Kai’s hands were on either side of her waist , unsure if he should push her away or not.
“I don’t … I don’t want to hurt you , Y/N.” he said , surprising her with his answer. Y/N hadn’t seen this coming , considering how much he seemed to enjoy hurting her the past few weeks. She slided her hand in his pocket and took out his pocket knife , opening it and making a small cut on her neck.
Kai could smell her blood before a single drop had shown on the surface. She watched as the purple / black veins under his eyes showed up again , his fangs coming out too.
“It’s OK Malachai. I want to.” Y/N said reassuringly. Kai glanced at her and she nodded. “Go for it.”
Kai sank his teeth into her neck , his hands pulling her closer to him as she threw her head back a bit , wincing at the pain. In all his times feeding on her , he had gotten better at it and now there was very little blood dripping down her neck. As he kept feeding his hands tugged at her shirt a bit , his fingers touching her skin , the cold of his rings sending shivers through her body. A few minutes later he pulled out , Y/N’s head feeling dizzy from the bloodloss. He wiped a few blood drops from her neckwound and pressed his hand against it muttering a spell. She felt warmth spread through her where Kai was touching her bare skin as the wound healed. Kai’s eyes were locked on hers , the beautiful blue / gray shade had returned and his eyes were glowing.
“See , that wasn’t so bad. Didn’t hurt as much …” she smiled at him , starting to get up but he wouldn’t let her. “Kai wha-”
Kai’s bloody lips smashed against her , his tongue going deep inside her mouth. The kiss was demanding , Y/N tried to pull away confused by what was happening , he didn’t let her. His hands on her waist were pulling her closer to him , making her grind against him and a moment later she let go. His touch felt like fire and she wanted more. His lips moved towards her neck , a low growl escaping from his throat.
“No … we can’t … we can’t do this.” Y/N said , pulling away and tossing herself on the couch next to him completely out of breath. She couldn’t wrap her mind around what had just happened. Kai leaned in , pressing her body onto the couch as his lips founding hers again. His eyes were black again , this time from a different kind of hunger. Kai slided his hand under her shirt pulling it up a little.
Y/N wasn’t sure what was happening in that moment , all she knew was his touch felt so good and she didn’t want to fight it.
“Sweet innocent Y/N…” Kai whispered to her , brushing her cheek , her eyes following his touch. He lifted her chin gently his eyes piercing into hers for a long moment before pulling away from her. Y/N’s heart was beating so fast and her breathing uneven , she got up quickly and ran into the bathroom , locking the door a resting her back against it sliding down towards the floor.

A few minutes passed in complete silence and then he knocked on the door , trying to open it.
“Y/N? I’m … I’m sorry , I don’t know what …” he started to say but didn’t seem able to finish his sentence.
Wow , Kai speechless ? That’s new. she thought. Usually he never shuts up and always had something to say.
Please open the door.”
Y/N hated how he made her feel , she hated him and liked him at the same time and what had happened earlier had her emotions completely mixed up. She could hear him sit by the door , waiting for her to come out which eventually she will have to. Part of her was wondering why he hadn’t knocked down the door yet…
About half an hour later she opened the door and found him sitting by the door just as she had expected. He got up in a flash , standing a few steps away from her. They locked eyes and for a moment none of them said a word.
“I’m not … I’m not going to do that again .. unless you want me to. I didn’t want to scare you or anything.” he said. Kai sounded so honest and Y/N couldn’t help but believe him.
Thing is , she hadn’t felt scared or anything like it. She felt confused and his answer , the way he was looking at her in that moment only added to her confusion.
“Why?” she asked simply. “Why would you … kiss me ? You don’t even like me. The only reason I’m here is because you don’t want to be alone.”
A look of hurt passed through Kai’s face , he reached for her hand and she took a step back. He sighed and looked at the ground.
“I … It will sound weird but , I care about you. I don’t know or understand why - you are so annoying …” he laughed nervously.
“You care about me?” Y/N asked thinking she had heard him wrong. Then she remembered how nice he has had been the past two weeks and before how even after he hurt her , he always found a way to comfort her. Maybe he was telling the truth.
“Yes. It’s annoying , all those feelings and everything.” he said. “And you are right. I don’t want to be alone. I’ve spent most of my life in isolation , Y/N. I don’t want to spend eternity by myself.” he reached for her hand again and this time she didn’t pull away. “You are the closest thing I’ve had to a friend … I don’t .. I don’t want to lose you.”
Y/N couldn’t take her eyes off him. What had happened to Kai ? He sounded and looked so different.
“You are not going to spend eternity alone , Malachai.” she said with a small smile. “Can we go out on a walk ? It’s stuffy in here …”
Kai smiled nervously. “Um yeah .. sure , whatever you want.” he said letting go of her hand , waiting for her to go.
She took a few steps towards the door , her hand holding onto the door knob for a moment before twisting it. Just as she was about to step outside , she turned towards him locking eyes with his , her breath getting caught in her throat.
“Catch me.” she said smiling and winking at him before running off down the stairs.
Kai laughed.
“Oh I will …” he said chasing after her a moment later.


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“I Don’t Love Him”  Part two

Part One

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“Loki, Loki!” You excitedly shouted through his chamber door. “LOKI!”

You couldn’t wait to tell him. You wouldn’t have to marry Thor.  You had spoken with Jane on the way to Loki and she told you that Odin wouldn’t force you to marry Thor as he had seen how much the Midgardian means to him.  You were beyond ecstatic. Words couldn’t begin to explain how overjoyed you were. You arrived at Loki’s chambers, ready for his inevitable giddiness when you told him the good news.  You knocked quickly on the door, practically bubbling with cheeriness.  

“Loki! Loki, it’s me. Open the door!” Silence.  More silence. You knocked again, confused by the lack of response.

“Go away (Y/N)” Loki barely whispered.  

“But Loki I-”

“I said GO AWAY! i don’t want to see you”  He said the last part much quieter but loud enough for you to hear.  Your heart sank once more at Loki’s words.  

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You were in your room now but you weren’t sad. You were angry.  You understood Loki’s devastation when you told him you were to marry Thor, but he wouldn’t even listen to you now.  You wanted to be with him but he wouldn’t even give you the time of day.  How could you want to be with someone who was being such an asshole to you.

It was nearing night now and you were ready to go to bed alone for another night running.  You missed having Loki with you. You needed him and hated him for making you feel like this.  

There was a knock at the door.  Your head shot up at the sound that interrupted your train of thought.

“Come in.” You said slightly hopeful that it would be Loki on the other side.  You were disappointed.  The brown haired Midgardian walked through the door so you were surprised to see that Thor wasn’t behind her.

“Hi, I’m Jane.” She said rather shyly, still standing in the doorway.  You smiled at her and motioned for her to come in.  

“I’m (Y/N). It’s so nice to finally be able to put a face to the woman Thor seems to like so much.”  Jane’s cheeks went red slightly at this.

“I just came to make sure that there wouldn’t be any resentment between us, after all, I’m the reason you couldn’t marry Thor.”  She looked up at you, a hint of fear in her eyes.  You laughed her off and she soon joined in.

“Don’t worry, I’m actually very relieved that we don’t need to marry.  I couldn’t be more thankful in fact.  I love Thor, of course, but he’s more of an annoying older brother. Don’t tell him i said that”  You smiled at her hoping not to make her feel more awkward than she looked.  Jane looked down then up at you as if contemplating whether or not to say something. Before long she made up her mind.

“Thor also told me about his brother, Loki i think his name is.”  You looked away from her as the pain in your chest grew.  

“Oh. Oh I’m so sorry I didn’t mean to-”

“It’s fine.” You muttered.  “What did he tell you about Loki?” You said slightly louder than before.

“He said that it should have been you two that got married, not you and Thor. He said that you were the real couple”  Jane said sympathetically.  You looked don and away from her and the words that cut through your soul.  You missed Loki so much.  

“Oh, sorry, i didn’t mean to make you feel uncomfortable”  she said noticing your discontent with the conversation.

“Did he say anything else?” You asked, not sure what you were hoping

“He said that Loki loved you” Jane said, watching your face for your reaction.  You weren’t sure how to feel.  Loki and you had never told each other that you loved one another.  You had never thought for a moment that he would have told Thor about his feelings before he told you.  

“You love him don’t you?” Questioned Jane.  You looked at her, slight anger on your face but not directed at her. You waited a few minutes before your answer poured from your mouth.

“I do yes” you started to laugh “Its stupid really. How could I love a man who won’t even talk to me, who has pushed me away that last few times I’ve tried to talk to him. How could i have fallen for such an asshole, for someone who has completely disregarded my existence for months.”  You initial laughter had turned into quiet sobbing.  Jane put her arm around you in an attempt of comfort.

“Sorry. Anyway how are things going with Thor? Have you met Frigga yet?” You asked trying to defuse the awkward tension.

“It’s okay (y/n), he knows you love him and he loves you back” You laughed at her.  

“No he doesn’t.” You were ready to send Jane away when-

“Actually, I do” came a voice from your door that you instantly recognised.  You looked up and saw an unkempt Loki gazing down at you with a smug looking Thor standing just behind him.  Loki looked like he hadn’t slept for weeks, but you hadn’t either.   You glared at the god, annoyed that after all he put you through he thought he could just come here and everything would be better.  You stood up and walked towards him, heat rising to your face.  You pushed the god back slightly before screaming:

“You asshole, I’ve been trying to talk to you for so long, why in all the seven realms did you ignore me for so long if you apparently love me”  Tears filled your eyes as they did with Loki.  You refused to cry right now though.   “Why do you think you can show up and everything would be better”

“Listen, (y/n), I heard what you said and i miss you too.  I’m sorry. I really am.” You were visibly seething now but could tell the God was trying.

“I think we should go Jane” Thor loudly whispered to his girlfriend.  You shot daggers at Thor as he was leaving, however, he pretended not to notice so you and Loki could get on with it.

“You can’t do this Loki. I told you i didn’t want to marry Thor and even asked for your help, but you just shut me out. What am I supposed to think?”  You stomped towards him and he met you near the middle.  You were really close, less than a rulers length apart.

“You should know that I love you.  (Y/N), I love you more than anyone has ever loved another living soul.  You are beautiful, smart, funny, caring, and no one I’ve ever met can compare to you.  I now know that the way i handled the situation was wrong, but Thor brought me here to say sorry, and i hope i have done at least that.  Know this, if you could forgive me, I shall spend the rest of my life trying to make it up to you. I love you.”  Loki looked up to you, the same way a lost puppy would and all of your anger at him faded.

Loki sighed, bowed his head down and went to walk back out of the door.  You grabbed his shoulder and pulled him close to you. So code that your lips were almost touching but not quite. Loki clearly wanted to lean in all the way but was determined to let you make the first move.

“I love you too”  You whispered. Before anyone could say another word, Loki swiftly connected your lips and pulled his body even closer to yours.  You wrapped your arms around his neck and held on so tight that you thought you’d never be able to let go.  Loki cloaked his arms around your back, pulling you as close to him as possible.  You were both starving for affection after being away from each other for so long.  Loki’s lips were chapped and his kisses were rough, you couldn’t care less, all you wanted was him.

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Title: Misunderstandings

Overview: Luke went to the movies with Ashton, leaving me alone with Calum for a while. I would never cheat on Luke, but, does he know that?

“No, Luke. You know I hate horror movies.”

My boyfriend was currently attempting to persuade me to see the new horror movie that had recently came out.

“C'mon Y/N, it would be great bonding time!” he went on.

“No. I am not going, you know they give me panic attacks. I just can’t do it.”

“Fine. But I really don’t want to go alone, any takers….?” he hopefully looked around at Ashton, and Michael.

“Nah, I’m going to get food” Michael simply stated before leaving the tour bus.

“I will go!” Ashton raised his hand as if he were sitting in a classroom at school.

“We have a taker!”

Calum slid open the mirror door that led to the area we were in, finally making an appearance, still wearing his pajamas.

“Good afternoon, Calum. Or I guess in your case, good morning. Ashton and I are going to see Sinister 2 at the movies, you in?”

“I’m too tired” Calum yawned as he walked over to the couch I was sitting on, and proceeded to plop down a foot away from me.

“Your loss, not ours” Luke grinned. “I will be back in two hours” he said to me with a smile.

“Have fun!” I yelled after them as they closed the mirrored door.

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I looked over at the sleepy Calum next to me. “You drink coffee, right? You look like you might need some” I laughed.

“Yes, please” he sleepily smiled.

I got off the couch and opened the door, which led to the rest of the tour bus, making my way to the kitchen. I poured myself a cup of coffee, along with one for Calum, and then made my way back to the couch on the other side of the bus.

“Thank you” Calum softly said as I handed him his cup.

I looked around and took a sip of my coffee, “well, it looks like it’s just us for a few hours.”

“Looks like it, do you wanna watch some TV?” Calum asked, gesturing to the tv in from of us.

“Sure, why not” I replied back.

Calum took hold of the remote and, after turning it on, started flipping through the channels.

I saw the title “The Breakfast Club”, as he was flipping and just about screamed.

“Go back! Go back go back oh my god!” I yelled while I excitedly slapped Calum’s arm.

“I don’t know if I should. I mean, there’s nothing in it for me” he playfully said, grinning at me.

“Calum, literally everyone loves this movie. Ya know what’s in it for you? Getting to see the movie, now go back to it!” I pleaded.

“Would you cuddle while watching it?” he asked. “I’m sleepy and I am craving cuddles” he said as he opened up his arms in front of him.

Calum is Luke’s best friend, I’m sure Luke wouldn’t mind. He knows I would never hurt him, at least not intentionally. Now, I’m not saying I would be disloyal to him, because I never would, I’m just stating that misunderstandings go about happening quite often.

“Yeah, okay” i smiled at him.

I inched closer to him and leaned my head on his shoulder.

“Now change it back” I slapped his arm gently once more.

“Alright, alright” he laughed as he flipped back to the movie, and leaned his head against mine.

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I don’t know when we fell asleep, but I awoke to an angry Luke.

“Y/N, Y/N, wake up!”

I slowly opened my eyes and rubbed my face.

“What’s going on?” I asked groggily, looking at Luke and Ashton who were standing in front of me

“You tell me” Luke spat.

I tilted my head out of confusion and looked beside me at Calum, who looked just as confused.

“Luke, what’s up?” Calum asked.

“How could you do this?” Luke asked me, ignoring Calum in the process.

“Do what?” I got up from the couch and stood in front of the angry, blonde haired, giant in front of me.

“Cheat on me!” he screamed.

Ashton then decided it was a good time to leave, he opened the mirrored doors and quickly left, probably happy to escape.

“When did I do that?” I laughed. “Is this a joke?”

“How could you possibly lie to my face? This isn’t a joke!”

“Luke, I-” I was cut off.

“How could you deny it when I literally saw you with Calum?!”

“Calum…? You mean the sleepy cuddly thing? Him and I just fell asleep, it’s nothing” I stated, looking down at Calum, who was still awkwardly sitting on the couch, not knowing what to do.

“Glad to know I mean nothing to you” he scoffed.

“What? I never said that! It’s not like we made out or anything. We. Just. Fell. Asleep. And it was totally by accident! He’s your best friend, and I’m your girlfriend, you should trust us! How could you possibly think that I would ever cheat on you?” I yelled, attempting to hold in the tears that were building up.

I know crying in this situation may seem silly, but I just can’t believe he would think I would do such a thing. Plus, he knows I hate when someone raises their voice at me, he knows how I cry so easily when it happens. And Luke means everything to me, why would I hurt him?

Without warning, Luke violently kicked the tour bus wall out of frustration, startling me.

That was it. That was my breaking point. The tears started flowing freely down my face. I tried so hard not to make any noise, since I hated people seeing me cry. I’m usually so good at silently crying, but right now it was all too much, I just couldn’t do it.

A “squeak” noise softly made its way from my mouth.

Luke immediately turned around.

He walked over to me and placed his hand worriedly on my arm.

“Y/N? Are you alright? Are you okay?”

“I didn’t do anything wrong, I swear I would never hurt you. I swear, Luke. I didn’t do anything, we just fell asleep” I sobbed.

He pulled me into a tight embrace, rubbing circles gently on my back.

“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. Shhhh, it’s okay, everything is fine. I believe you, shhh, it’s alright” he desperately said.

I nuzzled my head into his chest and slowly calmed myself down.

He pulled me away from him.

“I’m so sorry, I don’t know why I doubted you. I won’t do it again, alright?” he said as he pushed a strand of hair away from my face.

I nodded and half-smiled, my tear-stained cheeks glistening in the light from the windows.

He put his head on top of mine as I leaned into him, once again squishing my face into his chest.

Luke lifted his eyes from the floor and drifted to Calum.

“I’m sorry” he mouthed.

Calum lifted up both hands and formed two thumbs up signs, and mouthed back two simple words. Words that concluded that the events of tonight could be placed behind us, and be forgiven, “it’s alright”.

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Please Don’t (part two)

It means the world to me that y'all requested a part two to my new upcoming series ‘Please Don’t’! My heart can’t take the amount of sweetness I’m getting from y'all.
Love you guys!

So here you go, loves!

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“Y/N.” Dean breathed out.

“Dean?” You whispered. ____________________________________


“Y/N, there’s nothing going on here. You can go back to bed. Okay?” Sammy tried to telling her but all she could hear was Dean saying her name.
It just echoed in her mind and it felt as though the whole world just stopped moving and time stood still.

“Y/N-” Sam interrupted by you. “How long, Dean?” You spoke slowly. Dean still had his gorgeous green on you. Filled with pain and regret. “Y/N-” “HOW LONG, DAMMIT!?” You demanded to know. The room sat in silence.

“3 weeks. It’s been 3 weeks.” He finally said what you didn’t want to hear. He broke you.

And you both knew that those pieces can’t be put back the same way. Now. You were to deep in and to far out. Dean could see you slipping through his fingers. The one he loved with every fiber of his being, was now slipping through his fingers. All because of him.

Sam escorted the girl out while you walked back to the room you both shared. Dean watched you walk away only wishing he could run after you and apologize. But nothing would fix this. He broke you.

“Sam, I-I let me explain-” “WHAT CAN YOU POSSIBLY SAY THAT WOULD MAKE ALL THIS BETTER, DEAN?! WHAT?! That you’re sorry-that you didn’t mean it? It didn’t mean anything? What? Tell me.” Sam’s yelling only made Dean flinch. He didn’t know what to say.

“I-I just don’t love her anymore.” He said quietly. Sam looked shocked but he knew his brother all to well. He didn’t mean those words. Not a single god damn one.

“Wow. Really?” “Sam-” “No. Just forget it, Dean. I don’t care.” Dean looked down. Before Sam left the room he turned back to Dean. “You know, Dean. She loved you. And I mean really loved. And we both know that loving and giving herself to you completely was hard for her. Especially after her ex. You screwed her up. She would have taken a bullet for you any day and this is how you repay her? The worse part of it all? You spent years tearing down those walls she had and in a matter of seconds you broke them down. All for what? For the girl? Come on, Dean. You’re so much better than that.” Dean was just sitting there at the table drinking whiskey. Listening to every word Sam said. Because he was right. About all of it.

“All I know is that she loved you with everything she had and you loved her the same. So my question to you, Dean. Was it really all worth it? Hurting her? Because if that’s what you wanted to accomplish. Then congrats. You succeeded.” With that, Sam walked off and shut his door.

Dean sat there with his drink and thoughts.
You hurt her. That’s what you wanted, right? To push her away because you don’t love her. No! That’s not true. I’m completely in love with her. I’d do anything for her. Really? Yeah. Well, according to your last 3 weeks it doesn’t seem that way. You hurt her, Dean. You did. And for what? To get her to notice that you don’t want her here. No, wait that’s not what I wanted! Guess what? That’s what you did. You pushed her away by cheating on her. You lied to her. You messed her up in ways you can’t fix. So there you go. That’s what you wanted. No! No I didn’t want that! Then what? What exactly did you want Dean? I didn’t want to-To what? I just don’t want to hurt her. But you did! Wait, no! Yes, that’s what you did.

“NO!” Dean yelled at his own thoughts. He heard a gasp and looked up to see you standing at the door way. “Hey, baby-” “Don’t call me that.” You said with a stern face that had puffy red yes and tear stains all over your cheeks and shirt. “Sweetheart, listen I-” “Don’t call me that either, Dean.” You didn’t what to hear those words.
“Why?” He sounded so hurt. And it killed you. But he hurt you and it wasn’t fair. Everything hurt and hearing his voice was the worse part. “Because I know for a fact that you called that bitch those words too!” You yelled.
He looked down looking for the right words and that’s when his eyes trailed your body. From head to toe. Bags. His heart stopped and you could see that he noticed your duffel.

“Where are you going?” Panic set in. “Don’t worry about it.” you said. Dean stood up and stared not knowing whether to beg you or to let you leave. “Bab-Y/N wait.”
“This is what you wanted, right? To push me away.” You sniffed looking down. This was it. He either he told you everything and beg for forgiveness. To tell you that he did this to make you leave so you wouldn’t get hurt cause of him. To tell you that he was sorry for being so worthless and stupid.
This was the moment that would either break it or make it.

You both stood in the quietness that lied within the room. “This is what you wanted right?” almost whispering it. Trying to hide the hurt that lied within you.
“Yeah…” he spoke quietly. “Yeah, that’s what I wanted.” Again. Silence. You could feel his eyes on you but you couldn’t see the regret of his words. You had already put your hand on your face wiping the tears and trying to stop them from falling.
Dean had tears trickle down his eyes and onto his cheeks. You couldn’t look at him. It hurt to much.

Without looking at him, you spoke. “O-okay. Yeah I-I’m going.” Dean wanted you to look at him. It took every muscle in his body to not grab your arm and cup your beautiful face in his hands. It took absolutely everything he had to not pull you’re beautiful body into him and beg for your forgiveness. To beg for you to stay. To beg for you to love him again. But you didn’t look up. And it killed him.

It killed you.

You wanted to run up to him and cup his gorgeous jawbone and pull his face down to kiss his beautiful plump lips. The same lips that helped you through the times you felt your heart pound against your chest. The same lips that would kiss you tears away. The same lips that told you he loved you even if he didn’t speak those words. You wanted him to hold you again and whisper his apologies in your ear. You wanted him to stare into you’re eyes and kiss your lips softly as he whispered his love to yous. You wanted him to tell you he loved you and that you were his everything. You wanted him. All of him.

But it was to late. He didn’t want that with you. Thats what broke you. The fact that you gave him everything you had. You trusted him. You cared and loved him with every fucking fiber in your being but he didn’t want it. He didn’t want you. Because he didn’t love you.

He didn’t love you.

Dean wiped his tears from his cheeks, you still not noticing them, and watched all the secrets, self-hate, incesurities. He saw all the pieces he broke off of you to finally open up to him. He saw your heart cracking into thousands of pieces. He saw those walls he broke down. He saw you back to the old you. The old you that he rescued from your asshole of a boyfriend who had beaten you down. Who broke you and made you crawl into a shell.
Now it was him. He was the one who broke you. Even after he had said he would never hurt you. Even after all the promises he made to you and himself that he would always make you love yourself.

He saved you.
He loved you.
He loves you.

But it was too late.
It was all too late.

“Can I ask you something, Dean?” You said half way to the door. Still turned around. He turns his body and faces you. “Yeah.” He whispered. “Was it all a lie? I mean everything b-between us.” He saw you body trembling.
“You were just another one of my hook ups, y/n. Someone who was here when I couldn’t find someone better at a bar.” He sounded stern. God, he hated himself for this.
He couldn’t hear you sobbing. He could hear your heart pounding. “I’m sorry.” You finally spoke.

Never in a million years did you expect him to do this to you. It was exactly what you were afraid of happening getting into a relationship with him. But he made you feel things you’d never felt before. He made you feel alive. He made you feel beautiful. He made you feel wanted. Loved. Cared for. He made you feel incredible.

Now. Now you knew that all these years. All this time he told you were his girl. All this time he told you were everything he loved and more. You knew it was all a lie.

But to Dean it was real. To him you were his everything. But it was too late. You were gone and he couldn’t reach you.

Hearing you apologize had him in tears because you had no fault. You shouldn’t have been apologizing at all. He didn’t deserve you.
This was his punishment. He deserved to be hated by you. You deserved better.

Its been 4 hours since you’d left him alone. His only company was the 7th glass of whiskey he’d had and the stupid voices in his head telling him he fucked up. Even if he already knew.


Ring ring.


He picked up his phone that sat next to the bottle of Jack Daniels.

Your face lit up on his screen. The picture he took when you weren’t looking. It was a side photo. And you were smiling. That god damn smile he loved tasting. And your laugh. Dammit, your laugh was music to his ears. God, he missed you.

He picked up. Hope fled through his body. “Baby, listen-” he was cut off. “Is this Dean Winchester?” Dean sobered up fast. “Yes. Who the hell are you? Where’s y/n?” His heart started to pound against his chest. “Sir, I’m calling in regards of y/n. She’s been in a car accident and the paramedics are taking her to the St. Mary’s hospital.” The man said. “She’s losing blood!” Dean heard in the background.
“We’re losing her!” He heard someone yell as the phone call ended.

Dean’s heart sunk in.

He couldn’t breathe.

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WHEN SUMMER ENDS: A REFLECTION ON GRAVITY FALLS AND HOW IT HELPED ME

for @shmalexsmirsch, the GF Crew, and everyone else


I used to joke about how much of my journal, the one documenting my senior year of high school, is filled with Gravity Falls. Half way through the book, on a page marked for October 1st, I had written one small entry: “I really love Gravity Falls.” From there, page after page is filled with thoughts related to the show. I could imagine someone picking up my journal and trying to figure out why an eighteen year old girl was so consumed by a piece of children’s media. Why did she relate the plotline back to her own existential crisis, or why did she spend so much time plotting a fanfiction based in the same universe?

I’m not going to sit here and tell you that it’s because Gravity Falls is the greatest piece of work that has ever walked this planet. That’s not true. It’s a flawed story with its fair share of problems. But it’s a story that entered my life at the exact right time, and inevitably changed it for the long run.

Let’s scroll back a year.

I am eighteen years old, starting my senior year of high school. The summer had been stressful for me—a double mastectomy for my mother’s second round against breast cancer coupled with the looming shadows of the upcoming college applications. The ongoing existential crisis of my life, one based in a cocktail mixture of anxiety and insecurities, was raging on inside my head. At the time, writing was my only release. It gave me the escape I needed without having to resort to other unsafe means. I was wholly dedicated to writing and improving my art, but I also knew that writing wasn’t going to give me a stable career. That summer, while on a college tour, I made the firm decision to study international business. I could make a living while doing writing on the side. It seemed like it was going to be a fairly sweet deal.

Everything started to change over the course of one late September weekend.

My sister was heading back upstate for college, and my parents saw it fit to take a mini-vacation for themselves while they were at it. This left my twin brother and me alone from Friday morning until Monday evening. I didn’t have many plans that weekend. My AP Lit class had just finished reading Blindness by José Saramago, and I had to write a partnered essay about it. On Saturday morning, I sat at my kitchen table and wrote my half within two hours. It was quite a feat, if I do say so myself. However, any attempts of contacting my partner about her half resulted only in static. Frustrated, I sought for something to keep my mind occupied until she got back to me.

Sitting there in my kitchen, the glow of the sun illuminating the cherry stain of the table before dying in the dark slate flooring, I remembered seeing tumblr posts talking about the intricacies of a certain cartoon. I didn’t know much about it; it just suddenly appeared on my dash from nowhere. I knew nothing about the show, beyond the audience’s amazement of a priest-like character walking with triangular steps, but it seemed like a pleasant way to past time. Figuring out the name, I sat down and watching the first episode.

I can’t quite explain what watching the series for the first time was like. I knew within the first few minutes of the first episode that I was going to watch the whole thing, a decision I usually reserve until I had a better idea of the plot. This time, I didn’t need to make the logical decision. This time, it was like there was a new emotion in my chest, one that guided my actions. For the longest time, I never knew what to call this feeling. After having a year to think about it, I think I know what it is: nostalgia.

Fifth grade was not a good year for me. Neither was sixth grade, nor the entirety of junior high. Four years of my life was spent in the constant need of escapism. I hated the life I was living and I wanted out. During those years, I fantasized of discovering a different world. The locket hanging off my neck could take me to a different universe. One day, a group of mysterious vigilantes were going to recruit me to help them defeat an underground, paranormal villain that only I could defeat. I didn’t want to discover Hogwarts. I wanted to know that behind the curtains of the life I loathed was a fantastical universe where I was in control and I was the hero.

All of my daydreams aligned with the basic plot of Gravity Falls—Dipper, discontent with his life, one day discovers a journal that holds secrets of a hidden world just beyond his yard. Sure enough, he begins to discover monsters and mermaids and an evil only he can defeat.

The story of Dipper and Mabel was the perfect replication of my escapist wants. Twelve year old Mia would have loved to discover a journal in the backyard of her suburban Californian home. I was never a mystery solver, but the very prospect of discovering who the author of the journals is would be enough to convert me into a genuine Nancy Drew. Watching Gravity Falls is like seeing my childhood fantasies come to life right before my eyes. Considering the pressures of college applications and life decisions, it would be hard to find a reason why I wouldn’t love this cartoon so much.

I caught up with the season and a half show in under a weekend. Then, when my twin brother asked what I was so obsessed with, I sat down and watched it with him again. We talked during the episodes, occasionally pausing to laugh or discuss the mechanics. It was the first time in years that he and I shared a common interest.

I clearly remember an episode in the second season—number four, “Sock Opera”—that featured Dipper and Mabel slapping each other’s hands in a twin-exclusive hand shake. My own twin brother looked at me and asked “Why can’t we have a relationship like them?” A switch was flicked in the back of our heads and, in a way that mirror Gravity Falls’ main characters, we grew closer. We shared everything with each other, passing along jokes and television shows. Car rides previously spent in silence were now ten minute interludes about any topic that came to our heads. For the first time in our lives, my brother and I felt like actual twins.

Indeed, Gravity Falls has a mystical quality to it. The intrigue came from more than the ciphers littered throughout the end credits and backgrounds. It was the conscious knowledge that Alex Hirsch attended school not five blocks from my house, that there was a slight chance I may have ran into him. It was the discovery of McBean Parkway at the corner of Gideon’s fake check, and the similarities between Lazy Susan’s diner and our very own Saugus Café. I felt like I was living life alongside the show, that simply watching it gave my own existence its own flair of the fictional.

As October faded to November, and the deadline for college applications loomed closer, my life started a new shift. My schemes of pursuing international business suddenly didn’t seem as lovely as I previously thought. My mind kept on flitting back to the image of me hunched over in a cubicle, bags under eyes as I labored over dry financial reports. As I delved deeper into the world of contemporary Western animation, the more discontented I felt with the prospects of my future. I played around with the idea of taking an off year, or even joining the Peace Corps. Anything to delay a destiny made of dread.

My breaking point was the opening night of my play. I was an actress in it, and I was driving my underclassman friend to her house to wait out the hours before call time. I complained to her about my unfinished applications, sparking a conversation about my life plans. I strained enthusiasm for business, talking animatedly about economics and all the free time I would have to write. “I just can’t imagine myself doing something that wasn’t creative, you know?” I said with a laugh.

But after I dropped her off and drove away, I realized how true the words were. They bounced around my cranium, cracking bone and ricocheting their message in rapid spurts. I thought back to the creative minds of Alex Hirsch and Patrick McHale, trying to imagine what it would be like to have your stories out there for the world to see.

I remember this next part quite clearly—at three-thirty in the afternoon, two hours before call time, I sat in my car and waited for the light to change. I was at the intersection of Lyons and Peachland, my old therapy office somewhere behind me. The sun blared down at my skin from the left, blinding me as I broke down into an indescribable sob. For the first time in my life, I knew for sure what I wanted. I didn’t want to be a successful business woman, or any other profession. All I wanted to do was create. I wanted to tell stories.

That night, two weeks before UC applications were due, I changed my major from international business to film. I was going to write for television, maybe even cartoons if I was lucky. I knew what I wanted to do with my life and, for the first time ever, I had the conviction to pursue it. That spring, I was accepted to Emerson College as a Visual Media Arts major.

And life never stopped from there. For the next year, I was slowly peeled away from my adolescence and into the world of the adult. I graduated from high school. I held three jobs over the course of the summer. I turned nineteen. I moved cross-country for school. The cycle of time demanded that I grew up.

For the most part, I did.

I aged. I’ve learned more about myself in the past year than I have ever known before. I cannot say that I’m an adult. Through all of these changes in my life, I’ve clung to Gravity Falls as life-line of my youth. Dipper and Mabel became the symbols of the childhood I always wanted to have—one in which I was never bullied, where my family relationship never waned, one that I can look back upon and say that I was happy. In the year in which I was forced to transform into an adult, Gravity Falls allowed me to be a kid again. Once ever few weeks, I would get a twenty-minute episode in which I could be twelve and innocent and happy.

And, in a bizarre way, it helped me to grow-up. Dipper and Mabel grew up over the course of the summer, and I feel like I grew up with them. I remember watching the premiere of “A Tale of Two Stans” with my brother. We watched Stanford and Stanley face with the fork in the road of the childhood, knowing that I would soon be leaving California while he would be enrolled in community college. I remember listening to Brad Breeck’s theme song while I waited for my flight at the airport. In it, I found so much courage to start over my life in Boston from a show made for children.

That is why Gravity Falls is art. It has touched me in a way no other piece of media has. Alex Hirsch—I am sure that you or the rest of the GF team will never read this. But I will address this last part to you anyways:

I am in Boston, pursuing television because of you. My brother and I have a true relationship again because of you. I have the courage and determination to pursue my dream because of you. I want to give the kids and lost teenagers of the future the same hope you have given me. I want to one day shake your hand and tell you face to face everything that your show has done for me. I want to tell this to you as both your admirer and your equal in this industry.

Right now, it is two o’clock in the morning. I am completing the essay I first started back in September when the preview for “Dipper and Mabel vs the Future” was released. I am crying. I’m sobbing because I do not want this summer to end. I am afraid that once that final episode premieres, the remains of my childhood will be gone. I will have to turn my face to horizon and confront the fact that I am grown up.

I am terrified to face that future.

But this is not the way my world will end. I will not go out with a bang or a whisper. Once Gravity Falls is gone, I will live on different from when it first found me.

For that— Alex Hirsch, the GF Team, Dipper, Mabel, Stan, everyone else—thank you.

Thank you for everything.

Can you hear that? That’s the sound of me grossly sobbing in the distance wondering what the heck I did to deserve all you beautiful starlings! Really, I have no idea what brought all of you here but I am thankful for each and every one of you and so delighted to have you here! Shiro has honestly been a long overdue blessing for me && I couldn’t be more happy to be able to play him as much as I am able to write with all of you. I know I’m an angsty S.o.b straight from the pits of hell like 90% of the time, but just know, the pain I bring is only to make you feel~! I absolutely adore all of you and I am always so proud of each and every one of you. You all do so much and I am always delighted to read everything!

So THANK YOU!! For giving me the HONOUR of being allowed to read your writing && interact with you!

Special shout out to all the personal bagels that follow me but actually adhere to unspoken rules of not rebagelling my IC threads. <3 You guys so rad!

And absolute love to my non-mutuals! You guys are fantastic! <3

Now onto some special starlings that have made this experience truly wonderful. If you’re not listed here, please don’t fret! I love you guys so much alright!

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(Luke imagine with a dash of cutesy, cuddly, Calum)

Title: Misunderstandings

Overview: Luke went to the movies with Ashton, leaving me alone with Calum for a while. I would never cheat on Luke, but, does he know that?

“No, Luke. You know I hate horror movies.”

My boyfriend was currently attempting to persuade me to see the new horror movie that had recently came out.

“C'mon Y/N, it would be great bonding time!” he went on.

“No. I am not going, you know they give me panic attacks. I just can’t do it.”

“Fine. But I really don’t want to go alone, any takers….?” he hopefully looked around at Ashton, and Michael.

“Nah, I’m going to get food” Michael simply stated before leaving the tour bus.

“I will go!” Ashton raised his hand as if he were sitting in a classroom at school.

“We have a taker!”

Calum slid open the mirror door of the tour bus that led to the area we were in, finally making an appearance, and still wearing his pajamas.

“Good afternoon, Calum. Or I guess in your case, good morning. Ashton and I are going to see Sinister 2 at the movies, you in?”

“I’m too tired” Calum yawned as he walked over to the couch I was sitting on, and proceeded to plop down a foot away from me.

“Your loss, not ours” Luke grinned. “I will be back in two hours” he said to me with a smile.

“Have fun!” I yelled after them as they closed the mirrored door.

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I looked over at the sleepy Calum next to me. “You drink coffee, right? You look like you might need some” I laughed.

“Yes, please” he sleepily smiled.

I got off the couch and opened the door, which led to the rest of the tour bus, making my way to the kitchen. I poured myself a cup of coffee, along with one for Calum, and then made my way back to the couch on the other side of the bus.

“Thank you” Calum softly said as I handed him his cup.

I looked around and took a sip of my coffee, “well, it looks like it’s just us for a few hours.”

“Looks like it, do you wanna watch some TV?” Calum asked, gesturing to the tv in from of us.

“Sure, why not” I replied back.

Calum took hold of the remote and, after turning it on, started flipping through the channels.

I saw the title “The Breakfast Club”, as he was flipping and just about screamed.

“Go back! Go back go back oh my god!” I yelled while I excitedly slapped Calum’s arm.

“I don’t know if I should. I mean, there’s nothing in it for me” he playfully said, grinning at me.

“Calum, literally everyone loves this movie. Ya know what’s in it for you? Getting to see the movie, now go back to it!” I pleaded.

“Would you cuddle while watching it?” he asked. “I’m sleepy and I am craving cuddles” he said as he opened up his arms in front of him.

Calum is Luke’s best friend, I’m sure Luke wouldn’t mind. He knows I would never hurt him, at least not intentionally. Now, I’m not saying I would be disloyal to him, because I never would, I’m just stating that misunderstandings go about happening quite often.

“Yeah, okay” i smiled at him.

I inched closer to him and leaned my head on his shoulder.

“Now change it back” I slapped his arm gently once more.

“Alright, alright” he laughed as he flipped back to the movie, and leaned his head against mine.

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I don’t know when we fell asleep, but I awoke to an angry Luke.

“Y/N, Y/N, wake up!”

I slowly opened my eyes and rubbed my face.

“What’s going on?” I asked groggily, looking at Luke and Ashton who were standing in front of me

“You tell me” Luke spat.

I tilted my head out of confusion and looked beside me at Calum, who looked just as confused.

“Luke, what’s up?” Calum asked.

“How could you do this?” Luke asked me, ignoring Calum in the process.

“Do what?” I got up from the couch and stood in front of the angry, blonde haired, giant in front of me.

“Cheat on me!” he screamed.

Ashton then decided it was a good time to leave, he opened the mirrored doors and quickly left, probably happy to escape.

“When did I do that?” I laughed. “Is this a joke?”

“How could you possibly lie to my face? This isn’t a joke!”

“Luke, I-” I was cut off.

“How could you deny it when I literally saw you with Calum?!”

“Calum…? You mean the sleepy cuddly thing? Him and I just fell asleep, it’s nothing” I stated, looking down at Calum, who was still awkwardly sitting on the couch, not knowing what to do.

“Glad to know I mean nothing to you” he scoffed.

“What? I never said that! It’s not like we made out or anything. We. Just. Fell. Asleep. And it was totally by accident! He’s your best friend, and I’m your girlfriend, you should trust us! How could you possibly think that I would ever cheat on you?” I yelled, attempting to hold in the tears that were building up.

I know crying in this situation may seem silly, but I just can’t believe he would think I would do such a thing. Plus, he knows I hate when someone raises their voice at me, he knows how I cry so easily when it happens. And Luke means everything to me, why would I hurt him?

Without warning, Luke violently kicked the tour bus wall out of frustration, startling me.

That was it. That was my breaking point. The tears started flowing freely down my face. I tried so hard not to make any noise, since I hated people seeing me cry. I’m usually so good at silently crying, but right now it was all too much, I just couldn’t do it.

A “squeak” noise softly made its way from my mouth.

Luke immediately turned around.

He walked over to me and placed his hand worriedly on my arm.

“Y/N? Are you alright? Are you okay?”

“I didn’t do anything wrong, I swear I would never hurt you. I swear, Luke. I didn’t do anything, we just fell asleep” I sobbed.

He pulled me into a tight embrace, rubbing circles gently on my back.

“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. Shhhh, it’s okay, everything is fine. I believe you, shhh, it’s alright” he desperately said.

I nuzzled my head into his chest and slowly calmed myself down.

He pulled away, in order to look directly at me.

“I’m so sorry, I don’t know why I doubted you. I won’t do it again, alright?” he said as he pushed a strand of hair away from my face.

I nodded and half-smiled, my tear-stained cheeks glistening in the light from the windows.

He put his head on top of mine as I leaned into him, once again squishing my face into his chest.

Luke lifted his eyes from the floor and drifted to Calum.

“I’m sorry” he mouthed.

Calum lifted up both hands and formed two thumbs up signs, and mouthed back two simple words. Words that concluded that the events of tonight could be placed behind us, and be forgiven, “it’s alright”.

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@thing-you-do-with-that-thing This might be a long one…just so you know *hides face*


I thought it was going to be a great night.

Go to a bar. Find a decent guy to take back to the motel. But something worse happened. Not only did I find a great guy. I found my ex. And he was much of a douchebag as he had always been. 

Blue jeans. White t-shirt. Leather jacket. He was everything I had ever wanted. And at one point I did have it. 

But then everything changed. A werewolf happened and Sam and Dean came to the rescue. It should have been over and done with. I should have gone back to my normal life but…then again, who could?

And the fact that my rage to what that monster took away from me was too strong, even for me, was what sealed the deal. I followed Sam and Dean after that, determined to stop every hellish nightmare out there. 

And that’s exactly what I did. 

But down the line, all thoughts of him left me as I focused on someone else. 

Dean Winchester.

He was sweeter than my ex. A hell of a lot more humble than anyone I’ve ever met. And he was Dean fucking Winchester.

I had fallen in love with him, despite my own determination of not getting emotionally involved with anyone after my ex. There was far too much drama and I didn’t think I’d be strong enough to get my heart broken. Because Dean was Dean. And everyone wanted him. 

I wasn’t good enough for him.

So that is why I found myself inside the bar, hoping to scoop up some bastard to help me forget about that green eyed Winchester that I knew I couldn’t have. 

Damn me and my feelings.

But just as suspected, the one bastard that showed any kind of interest in me, had the attention span of a flea and within seconds, he was sweet talking the ear off a poor woman with too much to drink.

I sighed and slid off the stool, too fed up and too damn drank to stand in this dark and dirty place a second longer.

The moment I reached the motel room, I all but threw my heels across the room and flopped onto the bed, silent tears streaming down my face. 

Fuck all men. They’re such pricks.

The sound of the bathroom door opening stopped me in mid sob and I quickly turned my face away from the door, determined not to let anyone see me cry.

Of course, the one that happened to be walking out was none other than Dean. And he was no fool.

“Y/N? You okay?”

I waved a hand at him, hoping that it would be enough to get him to lay off. Hmm. Not a chance.

The bed sunk in and I felt his hand on my arm. 

“You sure?” came his gruff voice, unintentionally sending shivers running up and down my spine. “You want to talk about it?”

I huffed. It was either the alcohol talking or all this pent up frustration was finally getting to me. I couldn’t hold anything in much longer.

“You want to know what’s bothering me, Dean?” I half yelled, sitting up on the bed, not caring that in the process, my dress had slid up some, revealing my thighs to him.

Dean’s eyes flickered down to my exposed skin for a moment before focusing on my eyes instead. “Yeah, I do, actually.”

I licked my lips before rising from the bed and walking to the center of the room. “It’s every man in the entire bloody world.”

He arched an eyebrow but said nothing.

“I am so tired of getting pushed to the side by every man I come across. It’s like I’m not interesting enough. Like I’m the ugly duckling in a room full of fucking swans. I don’t get it. Is there something wrong with me?”

A few tears escaped my lips and I hastily wiped away at them. 

“Am I seriously that disgusting? Am I not worth anything to anybody?”

Dean was off the bed and across the room in no time. His hand came up and wiped the tears from my cheeks. It took me off guard, to be completely honest. My breath hitched and i watched as his eyes zeroed in on my lips and lingered there while his thumb ran a gentle line down my cheekbone and finally..ran it across my bottom lip.

“You’re worth everything, Sweetheart,” he muttered.

I sniffed. “I just want to be someone’s dream girl. Not a fucking nightmare.”

Dean let out a breathless chuckle. “You’re kidding me, right?”

I stared at him confusedly.

He scoffed. “Y/N, you are what keeps me grounded.”

Silence.

“You’re what keeps me wanting to keep fighting every damn day,” he continued, his voice getting deeper and rougher. “I could go on for days just thinking about you, Sweetheart. And in the nights when I can’t sleep, I think of you.”

I gasped.

Dean smiled, the crinkles by his eyes deepening, making my knees weaken. 

“You,” he muttered, licking his lips as he inched closer to me. “Are you the good dreams.” He closed the distance between us, pressing his lips against mine in a tender kiss.

I wrapped my arms around his neck just as he wrapped his around my waist, pulling me flush against him as his tongue slithered its way into my mouth, caressing mine.

I moaned into his mouth, loving the pure taste of him. This was actually happening. It wasn’t the alcohol. I wasn’t hallucinating. Dean Winchester was actually kissing me.

We pulled away after a moment, our breathing labored, our foreheads touching. Dean’s hands wandered over my body, his fingers dancing along the edges of my dress.

With silent permission, he slid the dress up and over my head, tossing it to the floor.

His mouth was on mine in an instant and without another word, he lifted me in his arms and carried me to the bed, his jaw set and determined.

This was going to be one hell of a night.