why do i feel like there's been more

anonymous asked:

im so confused is to why drag needs to be revolutionized like sasha says? its already revolutionary as an art form there's really no need or way to make it more revolutionary, i think she won't do anything important with the crown since she can't do anything with it. peppermint would've been a better choice out of the 2, shes actually in a community (black trans women) that actually been blacklashed for years in the place where they supposed to feel good in (lgbt), she could've done work.

ummm this tea!!!!!!!!!

Well, there seems to be discourse in our little fandom. It may be time to say some words…

One could always interrupt Ava’s Demon in two ways:

  • There are literal demons, the cast actually gets possessed by those said demons, together they must beast an untold evil named “Titan”  
  • The Demons are the casts mental illnesses, to say, their “Inner Demons”

Now, I may be in the minority here, but I personally think that in a single reading one can only interrupt the context of Ava’s Demon with one or the other type of readings. That’s not to say that either reading is wrong, it’s just that the symbolic nature doesn’t work out with the literal narrative. One could not, “pick and choose” which parts are metaphorical and not actually happening and whats happening in a literal sense. For example, You could not say Wrathia is Ava’s mental illness while also saying she has a literal drawer in her chest. Now, that doesn’t mean there isn’t a symbolic nature in the literal context of the story. The discoursed content in question is the supposed sexual nature between Wrathia and Ava. Do I think it’s meant to be sexual? No.

Do I understand why some people may think it’s sexual? Yes. While everyone is quick to say “Why it isn’t” let’s quickly make some marks on why you could think it is:

  • Fingers interlocked
  • Mouths and noses brushed up against each other
  • Both of their chest touching each other
  • Ava’s hand against Wrathia’s back, pulling her closer a dream like euphoria in the panels- a shot of reality- shot of Ava’s mind. It leaves the reader to see the situation as almost dreamy quality

A lot of those qualities would make a reader assume that it’s sexual. But here’s the case on why it isn’t:
Ava and Wrathia, while two different conscious, are indeed the same person. That was the whole point of the pact was for them to have the strength of two souls. Now, here’s my point on literal vs. symbolic and why it still works in the context of the literal story of Ava’s Demon. In the literal narrative, the pact made them the same person so that Ava could have the strength to defeat Titan. Wrathia gives Ava the power within the story, Ava is drunk on the power, hence being “In love with herself” This is shown in the recent panels. Ava, finally realizing what it meant to not feel helpless, is drunk on the power (Wrathia) that allowed her to feel that way.
The fusion of two bodies was also shown during the pact video.
It’s not sexual. It’s symbolic even from the literal reading of the story. I just wanted to make a case beyond “Wrathia isn’t literal and that’s why it’s okay”

Do I think people should romanticise Ava and Wrathia in the context of the story?
Hell no.
Wrathia is still Ava’s abuser so don’t go and make this something that it’s not.

This has been my two cents for the evening and I’ll be here all week to answer questions

literally all I’m saying is that why couldn’t the devs do something to Joseph’s ending like they did with Roberts ending. literally a “I’m still recovering from my divorce but thank you for being such a great friend” would have been better than “I’m going to try to stay in my marriage that is not good for me, my wife, or my children.”

tw- mentions of depression and selfharm

can we have less ‘Alec and Magnus have troubles and as a result Alec gets depressed and harms himself, and the Magnus realises the error of his ways because Alec is taking it so hard’ fics. They’re really emotionally manupulative and regardless of the set up in the fics they have Alec get out as the whumpy wounded party and Magnus as the insensitive immortal. Which is especially annoying as, regardless of how good his intentions are, Alec quite often is in the wrong. His lack of expirence in relationships is not an excuse for his frequent insensitivity, nor does this mean that his pain is somehow more valid. Just because he feels sad it doesn’t undercut the fact that Magnus often feels like his trust has been betrayed, again. 

Theres no actual resolving of their issues in these fics, just Magnus being made to feel guilty. Why do people always make him the offending party and Alec the soft sensative wounded one? I swear if i read one more breakup fic where Alec harms himself and Izzy and Jace call in Magnus to ‘fix him’ and Magnus just gushes apologies because Alec’s lost weight and is suicidal, i’m going to tear my hair out. 

It sells both of them short. Why do we always need Alec to be the victim, but we never let Magnus be the wronged one? And why can’t they actually talking about their problems, rather than guilt trip each other into bed

More resolution through communication, less because of self harm and guilt please.

EDIT: i’m not even talking in specific relation to the events 2x18. This has been a thing that been disturbing me about this fandom for years. I’m just expecting, as we had after 2x12 and page 511, there will be a large upswing in these type of fics.

Why don’t you love me?

Tell me, baby why don’t you love me? ♫

anonymous asked:

Tell me why do u like cyborg noodle bc i love her too and i want to love her even more

because she is a robot who has been canonically confirmed to not have an AI (cant think or feel) which leaves.. so much up to interpretation like u can make her as much of a bitch or edgy teen as u want because theres no rules also she’s literally seven years old and ripped

random songs starter sentences
  • ❝I waited for your reply here in the pouring rain.❞
  • ❝Nothing lasts forever.❞
  • ❝Our minds are troubled by the emptiness.❞
  • ❝Say you'll remember me.❞
  • ❝I know the hurt won't pass.❞
  • ❝The horses are coming.❞
  • ❝I know I let you down.❞
  • ❝Give me love like never before.❞
  • ❝Sometimes I wish you'd just shut up.❞
  • ❝I wish I was in love but I don't wanna cause any pain.❞
  • ❝What if the way we started made it something cursed from the start.❞
  • ❝I never meant to hurt you.❞
  • ❝There's a place downtown where the freaks all come around.❞
  • ❝I know I took the path that you would never want for me.❞
  • ❝I gave you hell through all the years.❞
  • ❝I'm just a slave unto the night.❞
  • ❝Lose your mind.❞
  • ❝I gotta change if I wanna keep you forever.❞
  • ❝I bet my life for you.❞
  • ❝Lose your clothes.❞
  • ❝Don't let them in.❞
  • ❝Remember when I told you that's the last you'll see of me?❞
  • ❝I promise that I'm gonna try.❞
  • ❝I let you down, didn't I?❞
  • ❝I'm not a saint.❞
  • ❝What if it only gets colder.❞
  • ❝Don't tell me you can't forgive me.❞
  • ❝I've had enough.❞
  • ❝I hate that I let you down.❞
  • ❝Do you ever think of me when you lie?❞
  • ❝Am I just a fool?❞
  • ❝If you had a heart I was hoping that you would show me some.❞
  • ❝Maybe I'm addicted to all the things you do.❞
  • ❝They say you don't know what you got 'til it's gone.❞
  • ❝Yes, I suppose.❞
  • ❝Does she/he know I've been in that bed before?❞
  • ❝I just want you to know that I did it all for you.❞
  • ❝You'll remain just afraid in the dark.❞
  • ❝All things go.❞
  • ❝What do I see in you?❞
  • ❝I'm ashamed to say that I'm not over you.❞
  • ❝Ten years ago, that's when you proposed.❞
  • ❝Am I just a silly girl/boy?❞
  • ❝Call me when you're not so busy just thinking of yourself.❞
  • ❝Life is a movie, but there will never be a sequel.❞
  • ❝The people are saying that you have been playing my heart.❞
  • ❝Don't yell at me.❞
  • ❝I just figured I was something that you couldn't replace.❞
  • ❝Get the fuck out.❞
  • ❝Together we'll mend your heart.❞
  • ❝They say that your darkest hour comes before your dawn.❞
  • ❝You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.❞
  • ❝You had me caught in every web that you weaved.❞
  • ❝Don't tell me listen to your song because it isn't the same.❞
  • ❝I hate that I made you think that the trust we had is broken.❞
  • ❝I need to just make up my mind.❞
  • ❝Good things come to those who wait.❞
  • ❝I'll never have a chance.❞
  • ❝Touch me, don't be sweet.❞
  • ❝It's been awhile but I still feel the same.❞
  • ❝I'm done feeling like a stranger to myself.❞
  • ❝Why you gotta be so rude?❞
  • ❝Life couldn't get much sweeter.❞
  • ❝There's no one in town.❞
  • ❝I'm best when I'm in love and I'm in love with you.❞
  • ❝If you were with me tonight, I'd sing to you just one more time.❞
  • ❝I'll give you all I got.❞
  • ❝Why we're always at each others throats?❞
  • ❝He/She hit me and it felt like a kiss.❞
  • ❝There's you in everything I do.❞
  • ❝Chasing after you is like a fairytale.❞
  • ❝Is there life on Mars?❞
  • ❝Don't let them see.❞
  • ❝One last time I need to be the one who takes you home.❞
  • ❝We're living different lives.❞
  • ❝I don't deserve it.❞
  • ❝How in hell did this shit happened?❞
  • ❝I know that this is my fault.❞
  • ❝You're turning me on.❞
  • ❝I don't wanna be without you.❞
  • ❝The ones that love me I tend to leave behind.❞
  • ❝I should've been more careful.❞
  • ❝I'll make it feel like the first time.❞
  • ❝All I really care is you wake up in my arms.❞
  • ❝No matter where I sleep, you are haunting me.❞
  • ❝When I get you moaning you know it's real.❞
  • ❝I feel like a failure.❞
  • ❝I am longing for your love.❞
  • ❝One more time, I promise after that I'll let you go.❞
  • ❝He/She'll never love you like I can.❞
  • ❝Stay with me a minute.❞
  • ❝I am drowning.❞
  • ❝I swear I'll make it worth it.❞
  • ❝Why can't I keep my fingers off you baby?❞
  • ❝It's hard to breathe.❞
  • ❝At least I'm being honest.❞
  • ❝I really loved you bad.❞
  • ❝I don't care if you got her/him in your heart.❞
  • ❝I was hoping you'd save me.❞
  • ❝I just can't believe that this is my life.❞
  • ❝No one said this would ever be easy, my love.❞
  • ❝Don't make me cry.❞
  • ❝They could never make me hate you.❞
  • ❝Let me kiss you in the pouring rain.❞
  • ❝I'm angry but I still love you.❞
  • ❝Let's go get high.❞
  • ❝I will never let you go.❞
  • ❝You like your girls'boys insane.❞
  • ❝We will be alright.❞
  • ❝Don't make me sad.❞
  • ❝I will be by your side when the impossible rises up.❞
  • ❝The past is in the past.❞
  • ❝He/She hurt me but it felt like true love.❞
  • ❝Don't let them know.❞
  • ❝I'm never going back.❞
  • ❝Don't tell me that I'm wrong.❞
  • ❝It's all fun and games 'til somebody falls in love.❞
  • ❝Be the good girl/boy you always have to be.❞
  • ❝I never meant to break your heart.❞
  • ❝Lately I've been waking up alone.❞
  • ❝I never wanted anything from you.❞
  • ❝I never meant to make you cry.❞
  • ❝Don't you place the blame on me.❞
  • ❝I just wanna hold you.❞
  • ❝What would you think of me now?❞
  • ❝You gotta hold on.❞
  • ❝I've been saving all my summers for you.❞
  • ❝I guess we are who we are.❞
  • ❝I never said thank you for that.❞
  • ❝All I want is the thaste that your lips allow.❞
  • ❝Did I take it too far?❞
  • ❝Don't you know I'm human too?❞
  • ❝You're still beautiful to me.❞
  • ❝I thought might get one more chance.❞

The one where you and 10k fight because you do something dangerous and then he ends up hurting you.

Requested by @stawmay12 and an anon. I combined the two because they were similar, I hope you guys like it.

There were tons of them. What was considered a small herd of z’s looked like a huge one to the group and they were also surrounding the whole truck.

“There’s too many!” Yells Addy.

“Just keep going! How many rounds do you guys have?” Asks Warren over all the noise.






“I only have 3.” She says before popping her clip back in. “Murphy a little help?”

“There’s too many I already tried.” He says from inside the truck.

The group was trying to fix the truck’s flat tire when a “small” herd of z’s approached them from the woods. Everyone was trapped and to top it off they were almost out of ammo.

You feel one of the z’s grab you from where you’re standing on the bed of the truck and you quickly pike it. You feel yourself growing irritated and tired. Things have gotten too dragged on.

“There’s no way we can kill this many z’s with 14 bullets.” You say. “If you guys want to move then we’re gonna have to do this manually.” You pull out your katana and jump on the hood of the car.

“Y/n are you kidding me? Get down before you hurt yourself.” 10k says.

As he tries to make his way through the crowded truck bed you look back at him and the others. “Cover me. If im not back in 30 minutes and you fix the tire you leave. And if not you still leave.” You slide down the window and hood before making a run for it.

A group of z’s follow you and separate from the truck.

“Y/n wait!”

“10k it’s too late she’s not coming back just cover her.” Vasquez tells him.

He shoots whatever he can. His heart racing as he sees you go off alone with 3 bullets and a katana. He just hoped you’d make it back safely.
The forest was your first instinct. You could outrun them. And you could climb if needed. You just needed the group to have a manageable amount of z’s to work with.

You look back. Maybe one or two are hot on your heels but the rest seem to be falling behind a bit. You stop for a second and with one swift and quick motion heads have been spilt in half.

You keep running. That’s all you needed to do, you just needed to run and so you did. You ran until you could hardly breathe and until you felt like your lungs were going to collapse.

You turn back and see that there’s
nothing behind you. You stop to catch your breath and decide to wait a few minutes before walking back.

You lean against a tree for a little as you wait for your legs to stop shaking and when they do you begin your journey back.

“I swear sometimes this group doesnt do anything. How are you going to wait for z’s to disappear when you’re just standing there looking at them. You cant just close your eyes and say abra cadabra and expect them to disappear.” You say to yourself, a little annoyed at the situation.

“Give her 5 more minutes.” 10k says.

“She said half an hour. It’s been 45 minutes.”

“I said give her 5 more minutes.” 10k snaps at Vasquez.

“Cut the kid a break and let him have 5 more minutes.” Doc says.

You trudge tiredly and walk for what seems miles. With all the running and now the long distance you have to walk back, you were exhausted, but that was when you saw it. The truck.

“What the hell.” You whisper.

You step out of the woods and 10k immediately runs up to you.

“You waited?” You ask.

“Of course I waited.” He hugs you before pushing you back.


“Are you out of your mind?” He says almost yelling. “Are you trying to get yourself killed. How many more times are you going to do stupid stuff.”

You stumble back. His words becoming like a slap across the face. Your shock is replaced with anger. “Oh I’m sorry, but if it weren’t for my stupid stuff we would still be crowded on that stupid bed praying that the z’s would just disappear.”

“How long before you realize that all these little stunts are going to get you killed?” He says fuming

The group grows silent immediately. No one has ever seen 10k this mad. Everyone is still and no one dares to even blink.

“One of these days you’re going to run off thinking you’ll be lucky but you won’t be. You’ll be dead. You’ll run off and everyone would have to run after you, dropping everything to tend to you. Just cause you do stupid stuff that’ll kill you doesn’t mean we have to do it for you.” Every word he just said seemed to be dripped in venom.

“I didnt ask you to look after me. I didn’t ask you to care about me. And in cause you haven’t noticed, Im doing this for the group, so that you guys can move forward. You think I care what happens to me?Please 10k, have someone give you a wake up call.” You cross your arms and glare at him.

“Okay fine. You want to go and get yourself killed that’s alright with me. See if I care. Im tired of holding your hand and by sound of it so are you. So dont count on me anymore.”

You grow from angry to sad and you can see that he regrets what he just said. “Y/n.” He says.

You walk away. “Y/n stop.” He says and grabs your arm.

“Don’t touch me!” You yell. “You want nothing to do with me, you’ve made that clear.”

He doesn’t let go. “Y/n” he says softly once more. You begin to try to pull your arm back.

“Let go!” And so he does. And when he does you fall back so hard that you hit your head on the concrete. The impact knocks you out almost immediately.

You begin to wake up. Your sense of hearing seems to be the first thing you get back and that’s when you hear it.

“Wake up baby. Please wake up. Please please. I’m so terribly sorry, don’t leave me please.” It’s 10k. His forehead seems to be pressed up against yours and he’s whispering a bunch of apologies.

“Any change?” You recognize Warren’s voice.

“None.” Says Addy.

“The kid’s a mess. He’s been like this for 3 days and has refused to eat multiple times.”

“We’re going to have to pike her.” Vasquez says. “She could turn and if not at least strap her down or something. Either way we need to keep moving, we’ve given her a enough time.”

“I for once agree with this thick headed imbecile.” Says Murphy.

“Alright that’s enough.” Warren speaks. “We need to settle this.”

You hear the sound of approaching footsteps. “10k.” She says softly.

He doesn’t move. He doesn’t react. He’s still whispering incoherent apologies.

“10k.” Warren tries again. “10k, we’re going to need to mercy her.”

You feel him remove his forehead from yours. You think he’s glaring at them.

“No.” He says. “Don’t you dare.”

“10k honey.” Addy says soothingly. “10k there’s been no change with her. Her pulse is still weak and she hasn’t moved.”

“There’s still a pulse.” He snaps. “Weak. But it’s still there. She’s a trooper and no one is touching her.”

“Listen 2k. I get you’re in love and all but we need to get this over with. We have stuff to do and places to be. We can’t put our lives on hold for you and an almost dead girl.”

He grabs something beside you so quick and you assume it’s a gun from the sound of what you thought was the safety. “I don’t have to take orders from anyone. Let alone you. And last I recalled we all put our lives on hold for you. You have no say, you’re just merchandise that’s getting dropped off.”

“10k.” Warren.

“No one touches her!” He shouts. “If you want to leave go ahead. But no one touches her or mercies her unless it comes to that.”

“It’s already come to that kid.” Doc says. “For all we know she could have brain damage.”

“I dont care. If you need to leave then just leave already you have my permission. Just stop hassling us.”

“Fine.” Warren sighs. “We leave tonight.”

You feel his hand grab yours and you try to squeeze it. You can’t, but you can wrap your fingers around his and so you do.

“Y/n?” He asks. “Y/n? Can you hear me.”

Your eyes flutter open. His blue eyes stare back at you. “Hey there.” You say hoarsely. The group snap their heads your way.

“Y/n!” He laughs. “Thank god you’re okay.”

You try to sit up. “No no. Baby relax tell me what you need.”

“Water.” You croak.

Addy rushes to hand 10k a water bottle. He tilts your head back with one hand and holds the bottle for you with another.

“Guys can we have some privacy.” You ask softly. They nod and smile at you before waiting elsewhere.

“Look.” You say. “About the things I said. I’m sorry.”

“Stop.” He says. “Stop. You have nothing to be sorry for. This is all my fault and I shouldnt have said any of that stuff. I was hurt and upset. You ran off and I didn’t know if you’d be back or not.”


“No y/n listen. You have been with us for so long. So so long. Ive loved you since the first day and I cant imagine just not having you around. I never know when you’ll be back or if you’ll even back. I cant risk loosing you, I’m always afraid for you and I hate myself for not being able to protect you all the time.”

“You said you loved me. You’ve never said that to me before.” You smile.

“No, but I’ve always known I do.”

“Look 10k. I get that I do stupid shit. I really know I do, but sometimes I just i don’t know. Sometimes I feel so useless around here, that doing that stuff is what makes me feel like I finally contributed.”

“You contribute all the time y/n. And besides there’s other things to help with you don’t have to risk your life for us.”

“You mean like you do for me and the others?”

He rubs his temples. “That’s different.”

“No. It’s not. You do it cause you love me and the group, right?” He nods. “Okay then I don’t see why I can’t keep you guys safe either.”

“You’re keeping me safe by leaving me alone. By putting yourself in danger.” He says.

“10k this world has always been filled with danger. Theres just more now. I never leave you alone, I’m always with you. Physically or not, I’m there. I get where you’re coming, but this is how I contribute and how I protect you. And also you not eating isn’t helping anyone.”

“Me not eating?”

“Mhm.” You look at him sternly. “I heard what doc said.”

“You heard all that?”

“Yes. And thank you. For you not. Giving me a chance.” He smiles and strokes your cheek with his thumb.

“Dont ever say I want nothing to do with you ever.” He leans down a presses a kiss to your forehead.

You reach up and sweep his hair to the side. You smile. “I love you too.”

anonymous asked:

No one can verify it as the fan who basically stalked his haunts in london for a week has deleted her tweets about it. I'm personally on the fence about puppygate, it could well have been his dog, or his sisters, or a friends. He doesnt have much work lined up that we know of, he's spending more time at home, it is possible he got a puppy. But I find it odd that no one else has witnessed this. 🤔

i’m very skeptical but i like the idea that it’s his sisters since happy newlyweds and all but yeah CAN WE JUST LET THE MAN LIVE PLS

25 sentence starters
  • "I was wondering if after all these years you'd like to meet."
  • "They say that time's supposed to heal ya, but I ain't done much healing."
  • "I'm in California dreaming about who we used to be."
  • "I've forgotten how it felt before the world fell at our feet."
  • "There's such a difference between us."
  • "I must have called a thousand times to tell you I'm sorry for everything that I've done."
  • "When I call you never seem to be home."
  • "At least I can say that I've tried to tell you I'm sorry for breaking your heart."
  • "It don't matter, it clearly doesn't tear you apart anymore."
  • "It's so typical of me to talk about myself, I'm sorry."
  • "I hope that you're well."
  • "Did you ever make it out of that town where nothing ever happened?"
  • "It's no secret that the both of us are running out of time."
  • "This was all you, none of it me."
  • "Send my love to your new lover."
  • "Treat her better."
  • "We've gotta let go of all of our ghosts."
  • "We both know we ain't kids no more."
  • "I'm giving you up."
  • "I've forgiven it all."
  • "I want every single piece of you."
  • "I want to teach you things you never knew, baby."
  • "I love the way your body moves."
  • "No one has me like you do, baby."
  • "Be delicate with my ego."
  • "Everybody loves the things you do."
  • "Everybody here is watching you."
  • "You're like a dream come true."
  • "If by chance you're here alone, can I have a moment before I go?"
  • "My God, this reminds me of when we were young."
  • "Let me photograph you in this light in case it is the last time."
  • "It was just like a movie."
  • "It was just like a song."
  • "Nobody told me that you'd be here."
  • "You still look like a movie."
  • "It's hard to admit that everything just takes me back to when you were there."
  • "A part of me keeps holding on, just in case it hasn't gone."
  • "I guess I still care... do you still care?"
  • "I remember all of the things that I thought I wanted to be."
  • "Every story has it's scars."
  • "No river is too wide or too deep for me to swim to you."
  • "If you're not the one for me, why do I hate the idea of being free?"
  • "If I'm not the one for you, you've gotta stop holding me the way you do."
  • "If I'm not the one for you, why have we been through what we have been through?"
  • "I want you to be my keeper, but not if you are so reckless."
  • "If you're gonna let me down, let me down gently."
  • "Don't pretend that you don't want me."
  • "What are you waiting for?"
  • "It ain't no life to live like you're on the run."
  • "Have I ever asked for much?"
  • "The only thing that I want is your love."
  • "Everybody tells me it's 'bout time that I moved on."
  • "I need to learn to lighten up and learn how to be young."
  • "My heart is a valley, it's so shallow."
  • "I'm scared to death if I let you in that you'll see I'm just a fake."
  • "Sometimes I feel lonely in the arms of your touch, but I know that's just me 'cause nothing ever is enough."
  • "I stain every heart that I use to heal the pain."
  • "I should probably tell you now before it's way too late, that I never meant to hurt you or lie straight to your face."
  • "Consider this my apology."
  • "Take your eyes off of me so I can leave, I'm far too ashamed to do it with you watching me."
  • "This is never ending, we have been here before."
  • "I can't stay this time cause I don't love you anymore."
  • "Don't come any closer."
  • "Don't try to change my mind."
  • "I'm being cruel to be kind."
  • "It feels like we're oceans apart."
  • "Maybe we're already defeated."
  • "You have given me something that I can't live without."
  • "I don't want to carry on like everything is fine."
  • "Please don't fall apart, I can't face your breaking heart."
  • "I'm trying to be brave."
  • "Stop asking me to stay."
  • "Everything changed me."
  • "I don't regret a thing."
  • "I want to live and not just survive."
  • "I don't think you can save me."
  • "I only wanted to have fun."
  • "Deep down I must have always known that this would be inevitable."
  • "I know I'm not the only one who regrets the things they've done."
  • "Sometimes I just feel it's only me who can't stand the reflection that they see."
  • "They can't look me in the eye, it's like they're scared of me."
  • "Sometimes I just feel it's only me who never became who they thought they'd be."
  • "That was a million years ago."
  • "Why don't we just play pretend, like we're not scared of what is coming next."
  • "If this is my last night with you, hold me like I'm more than just a friend."
  • "It matters how this ends, 'cause what if I never love again?"
  • "No one knows me like you do."
  • "Since you're the only one that matters, tell me who do I run to?"
  • "Let this be the way we remember us."
  • "I don't wanna be cruel or vicious, and I ain't asking for forgiveness."
  • "I find it funny that you're the only one I never looked for."
  • "I wasn't ready then, I'm ready now."
  • "You will only be eternally the one that I belong to."
  • "I've been looking for you, baby, in every face that I've ever known."
  • "There is something about the way you love me that finally feels like home."
  • "I have loved you all my life."
  • "I gave you everything you never gave me."
  • "There's too much that I haven't said."
  • "Did you find the note that I wrote?"
  • "Do you even know that I can't let go?"
  • "Why were you so cold? Let the truth be told."
  • "Tell me, was it all for the thrill?"
  • "The words don't come out right when you're right in front of me."
  • "Why do you love me?"
  • "I'm in deeper than I knew."
  • "How do you keep me coming back for more after all we've been through?"
  • "I can't decide if I should run and hide."
  • "I want you to love me."
  • "Where does the time go?"
  • "I spend every single moment daydreaming of you."
  • "I can't describe how I feel, it feels right."
  • "You have a place in my heart that will always be yours."
The types as thoughts I had while I was on my walk
  • ((I got lost for like 2 hours in my own neighborhood it was a mess but totally worth it))
  • ENFP: If i die out here, at least I'll be wearing my favorite pants.......but damn it they're going to get grass stains if I fall over.... god damn it..... I have to keep walking.....
  • INFP: That article we had to read for our Walking For Wellness final was wrong. I've been walking for hours and I feel even worse. Fuck you science.
  • ENTP: We're all just beings with potential. Like, right now, I have the potential to meet the love of my life, have a prosperous career, be a success story.....but eventually I'm either going to fulfill that potential or lose it and I have no control over that. Shit man when I die I hope I still have more potential than just firewood.....I want to have been someone but still be someone....you know? Why do I say you know when I'm internally monologue-ing? it's almost as if I have this idea that there's a constant audience......maybe there is...........eyes are everywhere man......
  • INTP: What exactly is the typical distance required for the doppler effect to work? Like...I could've swore that car was playing Chandelier by Sia but Sia had a baritone vocal range...that can't be....i was only like 20 feet away... was it a cover or am I just not up to date on pop music?
  • ESFP: *just the lyrics to Bye Bye Bye over and over again*
  • ISFP: I should delete my facebook...then I wouldn't be so stressed out all the time.....but then again what would i do with all of my shitposts.....
  • ESTP: Man this is like the third street I've ran across....like I'm sure if I waited the cars would probably clear out but I kind of like scaring the shit out of people. Plus I'm wearing white pants. They're like a fucking beacon in the fucking night. Maybe they think I'm like a banshee or something, like in that one Nancy Drew Computer game that scared the actual living shit out of me as a kid....
  • ISTP: *to internal monologue* just a sec, i gotta check under that park bench for some reason.....k what were u saying...
  • ESTJ: If i die the last text message I sent is going to be a combination of emojis that don't go together....my legacy
  • ISTJ: It's times like these I could potentially get murdered. Especially by that guy over there.....nah wait we're by a church. He wouldn't fucking dare. God is in our presence. I am both disappointed and appreciative of the fact that this bearded man with the cigarette is not going to kill me and I don't know how to feel about that feeling.
  • ESFJ: I'm gonna flirt with that guy in the donut store...maybe he'll buy me a donut......................................... never mind.....that was a shit idea and i know it......
  • ISFJ: Here I am again. At the Huge-Ass Spire That Serves No Purpose other than helping lost and confused boys like me find their way home. I think the only thing different about this situation is that I'M the one who's lost and I'm walking...maybe it's a rite of passage as a boy. To get lost in your own neighborhood and have to use the Spire as a guiding beacon. Jeez dude speaking of boys, they are the absolute Worst. I hate them.
  • ENTJ: 4 different people I know just offered to pick me up and give me a safe ride home but I'm gonna stick with it to the end and walk another 4 miles in pitch blackness. I'm an adult!(sorta) NO BABY STUFF.
  • INTJ: All of you fuckers need a lesson on how to properly mulch your fucking trees. Fuck you and your fucking mulch volcanos. Suffocating the fucking environment you fucks.
  • ENFJ: ....I wonder how many people blocked me on facebook
  • INFJ: Is this a personal crisis? Is this what a personal crisis is like? Why isn't anyone trying to stop me?...end this constant walking......is this what my life has become? This neverending walk towards NOTHiNG?

anonymous asked:

So why have all your posts been mostly depressing or sad?

Well it probably because I’m pretty fucked up.
What with the chronic depression crippling anxiety self worth issues and horrible habit if comparing myself to others, hating alot to do worth myself, still trying to quietly recover from poor life choices and bad habits and always feeling inferior or like I don’t matter
That probably it though theres alot more that makes me a fuck up but hey there are some big reasons
Anyone hope they don’t mess with you to much

do you ever shart some character reference sheets and then go absolutly over-kill ham about it so much you’re too embarrassed to post them

whats up with me

hey guys.. im going to come right out and say it.. I hate my job. It was fun at first but it has become a draining thing that I just kind of have to do and get it over with. I have a hard time submitting to authority because I would rather do things on my own for my self. 

So.. heres the plan.. I am going to be in your face until I can afford to quit. 

I feel like ive lost sight of what my main channel was all about, Doing things I found funny and not trying to pump out something three times a week in the hopes someone will watch it. So, you’re going to notice a decrease in videos on my main channel and an increase in videos on my second channel. Why? .. 

When I was in highschool I discovered the game halo 2 and fell instantly in love with FPS online mulitplayer games. I played that game EVERYDAY and every moment I got a chance. It opened the doors up to gaming for me. When I was four or five my grandmother bought me a sega which I still own and love playing, Gunstar heros, mortal kombat and even the lion king game. After years of playing that my mom bought me a gameboy colour and a nintendo 64 (typical child hood gaming story) I have to say my favourite games for the N64 were james bond as they had the local multiplayer with bots. (i was a kid who wasn’t allowed to have any friends over ever so the bots on james bond kept me company). 

Anyway I had to set gaming a side when I moved out to focus on college (HA) and making videos. Recently I downloaded steam and I have fallen in love again with gaming. So ive been having a ton of fun playing games over on my second channel with my friends and some of the subscribers who join my games. I want to keep doing that as its fun and easier for me to do while still having fun. Im working on doing a video EVERYDAY although its kind of hard im working at it. Soon hoping to have a video a day for the rest of time till i can’t do it anymore. 

The other part of this I really enjoy is doing live streams where I play games with you guys. Twitch is a wonderful site. Its been my favourite to live stream on so far. It is fairly simple, not too whorish in the way where you have to beg people to give you a thumbs up or give you tips or what ever. (yeah theres a donation button but its completely optional). 

As for my main channel, I want to actually put more work into the videos I upload there. I need to raise my own bar and stop settling for something I rushed to put out. 
If you’re wondering why I don’t do videos where I stand in front of my black screen and try and tell jokes, that would be because I have been doing stand up comedy and focusing most of my “joke writing” on that and it feels like its working a lot better for me. Im trying to not spread my self so thin and really enjoy creating videos again. So, prepare yourself for some skits that I feel are real quality videos. 

So I guess heres the deal.. As long as you guys keep giving me your support im going to keep pumping my self out there for you. Is that a deal? The less I need the job the more I can be there for you guys making videos and live streaming. 

thanks for listening! 
you guys are awesome. 

Kevin ffs

The whole episode Betty is trying to protect him and make sure he’s okay. Not because “oh he’s gay better make sure he hides it” but because THERES AN ACTUAL FUCKING KILLER ON THE LOOSE! Like geezus. She never put you down she just wants you to be safe, why must everyone think Bettys life is perfect. Especially after last season! The thing is everyone has been throwing Betty hits for two season and she fucking takes them. Do i agree with everything she does, no; but its better than literally trying to get fucking killed to feel something. I have heard people who self harm say the same thing. This isn’t about being gay this might be a lot more than that. That means he does need help. But if he does decide to continue down this path with a killer on the loose and he dies im not gonna be upset. I also dont think it was fair to him for Betty to tell his dad but fuck at that point i would have too. HIS SAFETY MEANS MORE THAN HER HAPPINESS! That is all. Sorry. Angry morning rant.

new years challenge
  • hey losers 2016 is almost upon us and all of us are still on here (kidding youre not losers), so that means a language new year challenge! feel free to follow it but if you do please tag it as #afny please thanks. this will be tagged as #AFNYORIGINAL for reference. if youre not advanced enough to do something, try to do as simple of a form as possible. if you cant think of a simple form, send me an ask. also, if you feel like it, include an english translation. i wanna read what youre saying (otherwise ill google translate it). and yes i kNOW this is like speutchlish's but they havent been very active lately but if theres a problem w me doing this what u do each day is following:
  • jan 1: what are your goals for 2016? answer in full sentences if you can
  • jan 2: what's your favorite holiday song? why? the more you can answer here, the better.
  • jan 3: translate said song into target language/native language if its in the target one/english if u can. otherwise just try and talk abt what it means, or how much u understand
  • jan 4: tell us abt your day
  • jan 5: do a random search on wikipedia (search special:random) and write about it.
  • jan 6: find one musical artist in a country of your target language and write 6 facts about them
  • jan 7: congrats! one week. talk about something youre really glad is over
  • jan 8: tell us abt ur day
  • jan 9: whats ur fave thing to do in winter?
  • jan 10: translate a song into target language/native language if its in the target one/english if u can. otherwise just try and talk abt what it means, or how much u understand
  • jan 11: What was the best thing that happened to you this weekend?
  • jan 12: what do you like to do?
  • jan 13: what music do you listen to?
  • jan 14: what are you looking forward to this weekend?
  • jan 15: write a poem
  • jan 16: talk abt ur day
  • jan 17: whats your happiest memory?
  • jan 18: (last one) translate a song
  • jan 19: whats your favorite poem?
  • jan 20: what is something youre dreading to do
  • jan 21: whats your favorite and least favorite part of your language?
  • jan 22: if you could go to one place, where?
  • jan 23: whats your biggest regret?
  • jan 24: make a list of vocab of the first ten things you see around you outside. be as specific as possible!
  • jan 25: write abt a hero
  • jan 26: write abt your day
  • jan 27: do a random search on wikipedia (search special:random) and write about it.
  • jan 28: whats the worst thing youve ever eaten? why? and what was the best?
  • jan 29: whats the weirdest dream youve ever had?
  • jan 30: free day! write about whatever you want, whether that be on this list that youve already done or something else. use your imagination! :)
  • jan 31: do you think youve improved? why or why not?


so people are already speculating that Sakura is using her chakra to heal Sarada’s eyes and that’s why she’s constantly passing out and everything. we also know that Sarada’s eyes are shown to be screwed up, too, like how Sasuke’s were before he switched them for Itachi’s:



so his blindness is something that has to be hereditary.

okay well i’m not an expert but I was thinking—what if Sakura has some of her chakra linked/put into Sarada’s glasses???

I mean we already know that Sakura is hella good at controlling her chakra and concentrating it into certain areas so that could explain why something so simple like glasses gives Sarada the ability to see while something like that couldn’t have helped Sasuke. That would also explain why the glasses have significance too and would a topic of discussion: 

and, if I’m remembering this correctly, ninjas have the ability to put their chakra into their weapons, right? also naruto and sasuke also had special arms made that work like their original ones, meaning that their new arms are able to withstand a lot of power. so if all that can happen, why not have a special pair of glasses made that can hold a bunch of chakra? after all, Sakura is the best medical-nin there is. plus, this could be the reason why someone as strong as Sakura is always fainting because a chuck of her chakra is literally missing or being shared with 24/7.

we’re then left with the mystery of why Sasuke hasn’t been around for so long. maybe he’s looking for a cure, idk, but i guess we’ll just have to wait and see.

like I said I’m only have a vague amount of knowledge of how chakra works so I could be totally off with this but if this is accurate in any way please feel free to build upon it!

((actually, add more details if you can because i feel like i’m not doing this idea any justice))


Marina and the Diamonds Inspired Make Up

I was feeling little crummy this morning about myself so I was like “I’m GOING TO DO THAT MAKE UP TEST I’VE BEEN DYING TO TRY."  I got to say, I really like this look on me, I’m pretty sure the hearts on the wrong side though. EITHER WAY, I really love her music and this is based more off of the "How to be a Heartbreaker” video and song. Hope you like it! <3

  • [Sitting down to dinner.]
  • Doctor Who: This is really yummy! Are there bananas in this?
  • Hannibal: In the glaze, yes.
  • Sherlock: *sniffs at contents of fork* Have they always done the cooking for us and we've just been eating the food this whole time?
  • Supernatural: Dude, stop bitching. There's going to be pie!
  • Sherlock: I've just never had lamb that tasted quite like this.
  • Hannibal: It's the combination of the marinade and the glaze.
  • Harry Potter: What kind of pie is it?
  • Hannibal: *smiles and pours more wine* It's a combination of sweet and savory. I hope you like it.
  • Sherlock: *steps on Supernatural's foot*
  • Supernatural: *answers with mouth full* What?
  • Sherlock: Why do I feel like I'm sitting in the middle of a crime scene?
  • Doctor Who: We really need to work on that paranoia of yours.
  • Hannibal: More salad anyone?