why do i do i continue to do this to myself

anonymous asked:

I just wanted to let you know how much I love your Voltron gem AU!!! It's fantastic, I can't wait to see more of the fusions!! :D

aaaaaaa!!! thank you!! i can’t wait to show them off (new sketchy club where i just showcase a bunch of voltron fusions and you put money on them…i’ll be rich) mind you i probably won’t get them done tonight seeing as just drawing that rose nearly killed me (then again who knows, i might end up doing a few?) you guys are giving such positive feedback?? i’m elated that you love them so much!! this is slowly going to take over my blog oh no what about the other aus!! save them!! i still have to develop them they’re all in the baby stage! (don’t worry i’ll put aside time to do witch au and…god right i really need to make the next part of lcdln it’s been a month *sweats* why am i so horrible at collabs i’m sorry haha) get hyped!

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Hello everyone! Hope you are having a good day! :) Today is a special day for me. Why? Because I reached 500 followers. I could never even imagine that. It’s so many people omg! I really.. Just can’t. Seriously, it made me cry. Some people could think “Pff, 500 followers, that’s nothing lol.” but for me, it is something. But I didn’t reached that all by myself. There were people, which very helped me with it. Their reblogs, likes, actually everything helped me reach it. I, of course, am very greatful for every reblogs, likes and messages, but from these people it still means a bit more for me, because they never forget to do it. They always at least notice my photos and that’s what I very much appreciate. I want to thank you for everything with this follow forever. You people are making me continue, you never let me stop to do what I like and with your support, I feel happy and I feel proud for my work. Thank you once again, I love you so much. ♥


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@ani-from-mars, @dr-harleen-quinzell, @ellies-quinn, @harleenfrancesqvinzel, @harleygabs, @harleyquinnesque, @harley-quinn-is-my-queen, @homicidalcircusboy, @jeromefuckyeah, @jokers-dream-car, @littleclownqueenofcrime, @murderous-manipulative-angel

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@quinn-of-coney-island​, @redrose549​, @reyns456​, @robbiequinns​, @roma-mars-amor​, @sdurivouxoxo​, @selinakylv​, @shakraesque​, @x-mars


These are the main people, the people I adore and watch the most. If I should tag every single person I like, I would be here for a very long time. I love every single person who follows me, don’t forget that, but this is simply a list of the most important people in my tumblr-history or whatever should I call it. :D 

Thank you all for making one of my dreams came true. :)

The Signs As Weird Stuff I Do
  • Aries:Valuing all my various band merch and music more than my own life
  • Taurus:Getting hungry at 1am
  • Gemini:Talking to myself in rambling monologues, regardless of whether people can hear me or not
  • Cancer:Having crushes on fictional characters and people (musicians) who are literally fifty years older than me
  • Leo:Giving my items of clothing names (at one point my glasses were John and my socks were called Kate)
  • Virgo:Doing assignments at the last minute and getting high marks for them
  • Libra:Anonymously leaving compliments and random messages on Tumblr blogs I like
  • Scorpio:Giving my laptop a hug
  • Sagittarius:Unashamedly dancing to songs in public
  • Capricorn:Saying “I’m going to stop doing that now, it's probably really annoying to everyone,” and then continuing to do it
  • Aquarius:Spending hours on Wikipedia reading about everything from serial killers to rock bands
  • Pisces:Speaking to inanimate objects and treating them as if they have feelings

The day I learned birds had hollow bones was the day I knew I wanted to be one. That’s not true. I have always wanted to be a bird. Who does not want to fly? What I have never understood is why I am so enamoured with the delicacy of it. Being able to fly means you must be easy to break. I think I am becoming an easy thing to break. One could argue that I am already broken.

I am usually the one arguing that I am already broken. Broken bird with hollow bones, a sound within in them finally let out, and the bird girl is empty and flightless at the edge. I am told to back away and be a penguin or a kiwi. I reply that I am broken. People do not like this analogy. I do not like being flightless.  

Fixing myself is not something I know how to do but I do it all the same. I refuse to be what I am. I refuse to be static. Evolution cannot touch me now - I select myself. A bird on the edge with misshapen wings. Fly or face the consequences. Hollow bones and a dark thought. A long way down. I will not know until I try.

—  212. Dead Birds // M.A.L.
Slash- F*cking B*tch

Requested by x

Originally posted by withereddelilah

“Why?” Slash asked when you told him you wanted to go out with him and the rest of GN'R after he mentioned it.

“What do you mean why?” You asked, not noticing the bite behind his words and continuing to get ready.

“Why do you want to go?” He asked in exasperation. “It’s probably just going to be us getting shitfaced and you always say you hate that.”

You shrugged. “I don’t know, it’s better than staying here all night by myself.”

“Whatever.” He said, rolling his eyes. “Hurry up.” He stood from the bed and went down stairs.

“How do I look?” You asked when you came down to meet him.

He already had out a bottle of Jack Daniels half gone on the counter. “Fine, let’s go.” He brushed past you and walked out the door. You furrowed her brows together but ignored his slightly strange behavior and followed him outside.

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“Hey! You made it! Oh, Y/N, I didn’t know you were coming.” Duff said  with a smile, already tipsy when you walked in.

You smiled back but Slash cut you off before you could say anything. “Yeah, neither did I.” He said harshly, walking over to the bar.

“What’s his problem?” Duff asked with a laugh.

“I’m not sure.” You answered, shrugging and going to sit beside Slash. “Babe?” He groaned. “Are you okay? Are you sick?” You reached over, trying to feel his forehead for a fever but he swatted your hand away quite roughly.

“Would you stop it? I come here to have some fun and get away from your nagging and whining but you just had to ruin it, didn’t you?” He finally snapped.

“W-What? But I thought you liked spending time with me?” You asked, feeling hurt by his words.

“Not all the fucking time, Y/N! God, I need a fucking break every once in a while!” He slammed his glass back on the bar and you were surprised it didn’t break.

“O-Oh.” You looked away, fiddling with your fingers in your lap. “I-I’m sorry you feel that way.”

“Great, here we go again.” He laughed sarcastically. “Now you’re upset and you want me to apologize. Well, sorry but I’m tired of being the one to say sorry all the fucking time. This is my place, my friends, my time to get away. You’re not supposed to come here. But just like everything else, you have to have it your way.” You sniffed, holding back tears. “Oh shut up bitch. I’m so tired of you crying so much.”

You shook your head and got up, quickly walking out of the bar, wiping your eyes. “Good job man.” Steven said.

“Shut up.” Slash turned away, going back to his drink.

“You didn’t have to be such a dick to her, ya know.” Axl chimed in.

“Yeah that was pretty harsh. She’s so good to you. How many times has she taken care of you while you were drunk or hungover? She deals with so much for you.” Duff reminded him.

Slash rolled his eyes and set his glass back down. “Fuck you guys.” He said after a moment’s silence, standing from the stool at the bar and heading outside.

You were standing against the car, still wiping your eyes, trying to regain you composure and decide whether or not to leave. You looked up when you heard the clicking of Slash’s cowboy boots on the pavement. “What? Still got more to get off your chest?” You snapped your voice wavy. “I’m sorry that I actually want to spend time with you. I’m sorry that I’m tired of sitting at home alone all day long while you’re out having fun. I’m sorry for trying to be a good girlfriend.”

“Stop that. That’s why I got so annoyed. I do like to spend time with you but honestly tell me that if we were always together, you’d start to get sick of me too. We need a break from each other.”

You sighed heavily. “Yeah, I guess you’re right.” You finally admitted.

“Let’s just go home and watch some movies for the rest of the night. I think the guys can handle one night without me.” He smiled, getting in the passengers seat. “You’d better drive.” You smiled and got in.

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You sat on the couch, curled up under a blanket against Slash as a movie you didn’t even know the name of played in the background. “Thank you for this.” you said quietly.

“You don’t have to thank me. I’m just trying to be a good boyfriend.” He smirked and kissed your nose.

I am going vegan for 2 weeks No hate only love and support!

Okay so please if you dont agree with what im doing, dont send me negative messages or tell me why i shouldnt do this. You can just ignore it cause i wont shove it down your throat.

I am going fully raw vegan for a minimum of 2 weeks (i might continue if i dont hate it) and im so nervous because i feel like i will get sick or something because it will be such a jump from what i eat now… I like having experiences so i just want to see what it is like. I always say i could never go full vegan so Im gonna prove myself wrong for two weeks. I am starting next wednesday and im both excited and afraid and if anyone on here is also raw vegan or even just vegan, if you had any tips that would be hella awesome.

I might post updates about how im doing so if you dont want to see my updates you can block #rawchallenge

Awesome Art August

… or Andrea is doing a creativity month!

This idea has been forming in my head for a while now. I always wanted to do a creativity month. And after I realized how great NaNoWriMo worked for me last year, why not do my own thing?

Any projects are welcome as long as they include creativity, be it writing or drawing or knitting. Just set your daily goal, and let’s get started!

I myself decided to work on my Kunoichi Squared-story in August. My daily goal are 500 words. As a bonus I want to revise one day of writing of the story I wrote last NaNoWriMo. And as a super bonus I’d continue crocheting the new blanket for my dog.

So, if you want to join, please drop me a message here on tumblr, and I’ll put you on my list. At the end of every day of August, send me a message with your daily progress and if you met or didn’t meet your goal. You don’t have to go for a bonus or even a super bonus if you don’t want to. That’s just something I’m doing myself. I’ll keep track of your progress, and at the end of the month I’m going to make a masterpost with all the lovely people who joined and mention on how many days they met their goal.

If you want to, you can send me pictures of your finished project (I’ll do a screenshot of the first page of my story and maybe one of the word count), and I’ll put that into the masterpost, too.

Of course, you can write about your daily progress or Awesome Art August on your tumblr, too. Please use the tag “awesome art august” for that.

So, you all, let’s be creative!

4evaq  asked:

Ok so, this is the first time that I've sent in a message but I've been read ACOWAS right from the start and it's amazing!!!!! I've been meaning to send you a message for AGES now but I haven't got onto it, I just read the last chapter though and I was at the doctors with my mum and I had to stop myself from either screaming, breaking down crying or just randomly ranting (I really need to stop reading ACOWAS in public)!!!

Continuation of my previous message (sorry it’s so long)- I’m sorry for my bad grammar and punctuation etc but IS RHYS GONNA DIE BECAUSE IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO THEM OMG THIS IS NOT FAIR!!!! ACOWAS is KILLING ME and holy crap its amazing but SERIOUSLY WHY DO YOU DO THISSSSS!!!!!!! Also what are we all supposed to do when you finish this!!??? I’m going to DIEEEE!!! 😭😭😭😭

Oh, hello! I have seen your notes for so long now and I’m so happy to hear from you! I’m so happy that you’re enjoying ACOWAS and it’s going to get really intense for a few chapters (please forgive me). But I promise the ending will be very satisfying!

anonymous asked:

you always almost trace everything you draw... why do you do that?

Because i have no arts education and coming up with original art compositions is quite challenging for me. 

This is not an excuse for me to continue doing that, so i am trying my best to stop. I am quite ashamed of doing that, actually.

In the past, digital tracing accounted for 90% of my works and now it’s around 10-20%. Trying to limit myself to only tracing memes that won’t be recognizable otherwise.

That Noragami tracing is half a year old btw.

I’m sorry. :(

I should probably take down the tracings, now that i’m capable of better things.

TAG

I was so bored today after I finish writing, so I decided to do my own tag. BTW! I loved reading all your answers! Thanks for doing it!

1. Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?


Why am I angry the first thing in the morning 😡 

 2. What were you doing at 11PM last night? 

 Creeping up on others by asking for thejr birthday 😏 

 3. How do you feel about school?


I don’t know why I asked this question- probably to piss myself off🙄 

4. I bet you kissed someone last night, right? 

If my little brother counts, then I kissed him 😖 

5. You can drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?
             

Coconut juice 😆 

6. Do you like hickeys? Giving or receiving?
 

Both…I wasn’t thinking about something dirty when I asked this question….😳 

7. Is there someone who continuously lets you down?


No. I am always the one letting myself down because I always get my hopes up, but gets disappointed in the end. Plus, when I finally trust people, they turn against me…so yeah. 😌 

8. Do you always answer your texts? 

Yeah. When I reply a minute late, I feel guilty because I don’t want them to think I don’t want to talk to them. 🙉
 

9. Last time you talked to one of your best friends? 

 I haven’t talk to her in a while since school ended like a month ago ☹️
 

10. Are you a silent or talkative person? 

That depends on how well I know you. If I’m comfortable with you, then you’ll have to put duck tape on my mouth to shut me up. But if I barely know you, I won’t say a single word. 🤐
 

11. Is anyone else in the room with you? 

YES! Three annoying brats who made blanket forts, and jumping on the bed and yelling really loud 😡😡😡😡😡😡
 

12. Do you cry easily? 

…um…no…but once my feelings get deeply hurt, I’ll be very pessimistic so…😀
 

13. What is your family like?
 

Loud, rude, disrespectful- especially my brothers, but at the end of the day, they’re still family so hehe..😁 

14. What was your last text message? 

“are you kimbap kidding me?!?!?!?” 
 

15. Most embarrassing moment? 

My friends came over one day after school. I was so stupid to wear my old pajamas just to play outside- don’t judge me. My friends and I were stretching by doing splits and since my pajamas was so old, my pant ripped, and I didn’t know. I got up and notice a couple guys staring at me. I was too oblivious I ask my friends why they were laughing. The boys walked away. Soon, my friend pointed out the fact that my pant ripped and they all laughed. They led me back inside by covering me so that no one could see my back. 


16. If you had to choose between your boyfriend and best friend in a matter of life and death, who would you save? 

 I want to kill myself for asking this question. UGH! I sat here hours thinking about any possible situation that would lead to this decision. 🙄
 

17. When’s the last time you fell? 

Probably last Monday where our team lost in a tug of war, and I fell right after hitting my forehead against a camera…don’t ask. I was bleeding for a minute. I’m cool. 😬
 

18. Tell me three things you hate to do the most. 

Sit down. This could take a while!

-Looking at people chewing their gum or food with their mouth open 🙄 like do you think you look attractive doing that? 

-Listening to people’s lecture over and over again! I heard you the first, second, and third time! Stop repeating it! 😡 

-People thinking I have no social life because I’m too introverted! 😖 


19. Do you regret waking up this morning? 

 Yes! I hate doing other people’s dishes every morning and cleaning after them. Almost everything is my fault! 😠
 

20. Do you curse around your parents? 

No! If I did, I have to sit at the dinner table, listening to a twenty minute pep talk or lecture. 😒😒🙄🙄🙄 

 21. Are you happy with where you live? 

Nope! Too many fake people here. Don’t compliment me unless you mean it. Don’t pretend to be a friend in time of your need and leave me after you feel okay😞 I’m so done with you fake people!
 

22. Words you can’t spell half of the time? 

 Definitely ! I have to use autocorrect to spell that for me. It’s always wrong! 😂
 

23. What were you doing last night at 12AM? 

Playing fights with my brother or else he won’t go to sleep 😄
 

24. Do you cook?


Yes. It turns out I’m the maid and the cook in my house, so if you ever come to my house for dinner, assume it’s my cooking. 😂🍝🍲🍳🍛🍘🍱  

25. Name four things that you wish you had. 

 Happiness - Job - Voltage men 😂 Good grades
 

26. Ever meet anyone you met on tumblr? 

Nope! Well…once…but I don’t think I’ll see her again ☹️
 

27. Name how many tumblr mates you’re closest to- do you want to meet them someday? 

 8-11…I feel like I know them pretty well and I trust them || ninety-five percent || enough to tell them my deepest stories and HELL YEAH! I WILL DEFINITELY SQUEEZE THEM TO DEATH BY HUGGING THEM 😆😆😆😆 I love you guys 😘😘😘😘


28. Think back to the last time you cried- is it now funny to you or still hurtful? 

 It’s still kind of hurtful…but eh…someday, I’ll become stronger and bigger anyways 😊😊😊


29. Are you fake around your fake friends? Or are you nice to everyone? 

Nope. I try to be nice to everyone because you can kill the fakeness was out of them with kindness. ☺️☺️☺️ (idk if fakeness is a word)


30. Your opinion about your life so far- is it good or bad? 

It’s like a roller coaster and I hate roller coasters. 🙄 

 31. Do you sometimes compete with your bf/gf’s ex? 

Once, but only because I didn’t realize I’m better than that 😀 

 32. What’s the most thoughtful thing your tumblr mate have done for you? 

They give me advice, listen (or read) to me, and make me feel appreciated/special/happy. That’s why I’ll repay them with a really tight hugs if I’ll ever meet them. 😆😆😆❤️❤️❤️ 

 33. Are you the Regina George at your school? If not, which of the Mean Girl’s character are you? 

I don’t even know the characters from Mean Girls, so why did I ask this? Uh…I’m Cady, I guess. I try to fit in and stuff. 🙄 

34. When’s the last time you got busted for lying? 

I can’t keep track of how many lies I have told 😂 

35. Don’t answer this if you already know it- just move on. What 8-letter word has one letter in it? 

Don’t worry if you didn’t know this. I had to look this up on google. 

36. What do you do when your mom ask you to talk to a relative you don’t know? 

I lock the door or pretend I’m sleeping.

37. Your saddest moment? 

In 5th grade, I won an art contest. Out of the 500 kids from my school, I was the only one selected and was told to receive an award downtown. My art teacher couldn’t take me there, but my uncle and older brother thought I was already there at the place where awards would be held, so they went there instead of picking me up from school. I ended up not going there and felt really bad. When I went home, Dad told me he was sorry for not being able to pick me up. Like I always do, I keep a smiley face and told him it was okay, but he saw right through me and said he sincerely apologized. I was heartbroken, because I never had my parents come to my school when I receive awards because I know they need to work, but that day, I got my hopes and I was really disappointed…so yeah…

38. The last time you had a birthday party. Was it fun or just plain boring?

The last time I had a birthday party was when I was five. My parents said we had to save money so they can’t throw me a party, and I understood. Grandpa called all our relatives and ended up throwing me a birthday party. This was the best because I fell asleep on his lap before the party was over. 

39. Are these questions uncreative and crappy? 

OMG! Yes! I will never ask questions like this again!

 40. Now you’re about to tag others, do you think they’ll do it?

That depends…

Tagging:

@the-fallen-otome-angel @bloody-geisha @elletxt @miyukushina @catchthespade @lonelyotomeplayer @tokyomilkshake @prettygirlx491 @otababaeisukesoryu @otomeden @gotta-love-voltage @geamini @lullabymobster @anime-and-randomness-with-lucy @animekasandra @voltagefangirl19 @is-it-kawaii @thetwitterpatedgirl @flawless-disney-princess @bumbleb1tch and whoever wants to do this… I can tag every of my followers but my fingers are about to break from typing too much.

30 QUESTIONS TAG!

so many tags today but im happy yas thx

I’ve been tagged by the v lit @taehyung-got-jams

1. let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?

im confused on why you’re confused of what im confused of

2. what were you doing at 11PM last night?

on tumblr or in the car back home lol and no i didnt drive my dad did im too young to drive lmao

3. how do you feel about 3AM?

3 am is the time when my idols arent active which means i should sleep

4. i bet you kissed someone last night, right?

nope why would i

5. you can drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?

waterr

6. do you like hickeys?

its alright

7. is there someone who continuously lets you down?

myself and some of my frinds

8. do you always answer your texts?

i always do cause i am free 90% of the time

9. last time you talked to one of your best friends?

2 weeks ago cause they’re on vaca

10. are you a silent or talkative person?

both tbh

11. is anyone else in the room with you?

nah everyone’s downstairs

12. do you cry easily?

not rlly i dont cry that easily unless im on my female monthly thing

13. what is your family like?

im close to my mom’s side

i have met my dad’s side but i dont know anyone’s name

14. what was your last text message?

josHUA HAS PINK HAIR!1!!!1! @le-roma

15. most embarrassing moment?

bye

16. if you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?

septum probably

17. honestly, what’s on your mind right now?

whats up on your mind stop frontin and tell me i i i want you baby i i i want you baby i i i want *mumbles korean*

18. where are you going on your next vacation?

i think im going to lombok in indonesia

19. where have you lived most of your life?

malaysia 

20. do you curse around your parents?

no cause my lil bro would say “mOM SHE CURSED” and then i would get a lecture sooooo

21. are you happy with where you live?

ye im gud

22. words you can’t spell half of the time?

uncontrollably i used auto-spell for that

23. what were you doing last night at 12 AM?

tumblr and was streaming aju nice

24. do you cook?

no i dont sadly

25. name four things that you wish you had!

minghao, chan, svt, bts

26. ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?

they probably live halfway across the world but ok

27. how is your hair?

its just no

28. think back to January 2007, were you single?

bro ive been single since i was outta my moms tumtum

29. are you nice to everyone?

i try to be funny and not to offend anyone so i hope i am aju nice

30. how do you feel about sea aquariums?

its so dark in aquariums omf

i’m tagging:

@le-roma bro change your url tq • @17caratcakes@woozichan@ftcoupss@vernonsloveletter@vernonsmacfullyloaded@bournivals

pls tag me in it!!! you dont have to do it or if you’ve done this before ^-^ thank yaaa

I finish my holiday tomorrow, which means that I will be accepting commissions from translation agencies I work for again. I hope that there won’t be too many because I do not like to make too many rejections. BTW, I’m not especially sought-after, but as a young employee I charge lower rates, so that is why I get quite a lot of commissions. Still, I guess that the quality of my work must be satisfying because it is is still not profitable if a translation is of low quality even at a lower rate, after all.

However, I do feel like my holiday continues because my parents left for their own holiday today and they are spending next week in the other side of the country. As such, I feel really, really free. I missed having house practically completely to myself for whole days (there’s also my brother, but we do not interact much and he goes to work). Today I’ve had coffee after 9:00 p.m. and a frozen pizza for supper. If my mum had seen me drinking coffee after 8:00 p.m., she would have chucked it away and made some remarks about eating too much pizza.

For the next week, there are only my rules at this house :)

I was tagged by @foundinabin thanks!! :>

1. Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? why can’t i be happy when there are reasons to be??
2. What were you doing at 11PM last night? watching deadpool wiht my siblings
3. How do you feel about 3AM? that’s when all the fun things happen (or the weird) anyhow, 3am is a good time to be awake
4. I bet you kissed someone last night, right? nope i didn’t
5. You can drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life? i’m so boring but water,, just regualr water
6. Do you like hickeys? never had one but i wouldn’t like to show it off to everyone
7. Is there someone who continuously lets you down? myself?
8. Do you always answer your texts? i want to say yeah but it depends, mostly yeah but sometimes i just need a break from everyone
9. Last time you talked to one of your best friends? a few minutes ago
10. Are you a silent or talkative person? a little bit of both but mostly silent i think
11. Is anyone else in the room with you? no

12. Do you cry easily? yes
13. What is your family like? hmm i don’t know, normal? my dad works a lot, my mom is very chill and its nice to spend time with her and my sinlings are little nerds who i love very much
14. What was your last text message? i sent my friend a link to my ao3 and he liked my fic so yayyy
15. Most embarrassing moment? i overanalyse everything i do so every time i leave the house i almost die of embarrasment
16. If you had to get a piercing (not ears)? i already have nose and lip piercings but i’d love to take angel bites!!
17. Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? i’m thinking of what i really want to do with my life (oh god) so yeah i’m a mess atm
18. Where are you going on your next vacation? hopefully to london or ireland
19. Where have you lived most of your life? in finland, in the middle of a forest in a house my dad built here when i was a little kiddo
20. Do you curse around your parents? sometimes yeah
21. Are you happy with where you live? yeah i like this place but i live in a different town during school and that place i hate
22. Words you can’t spell half the time? any long adjective tbh
23. What were you doing last night at 12 AM? watching zootopia (from deadpool to zootopia,,,,nnnice)
24. Do you cook? yes!! i like cooking
25. Name four things that you wish you had! ahhh idk… someone to share my anxious thoughts with? money would always be cool, also motivation to keep exercising
26. Ever met anyone you met on Tumblr? no
27. How is your hair? horrible. it’s fading back to my naural hair color and it’s not neatly cut anymore,, just a mess
28. Think back to January 2007, were you single? i was eight so yeah
29. Are you nice to everyone? i try to be
30. How do you feel about sea aquariums? kinda cool idk,, depends on how they treat the animals/fish there and what kind of facilities they have for them


I tag @heyyoucoolemo @emotionalxroadshow @th3roxy29 @plants-n-space @literallythelastusername @mlmurie

here fuck u

1:Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?
Anons

2. What were you doing at 11PM last night?
Sleeping lol

3. How do you feel about school?
its coo

4. I bet you kissed someone last night, right?
yes myself fuck u

5.You can drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?
Water
6. Do you like hickeys? Giving or receiving?
Why is this a question???

7. Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
YEAHHH
8. Do you always answer your texts?
NOOOOPPPE
9. Last time you talked to one of your best friends?
idk
10. Are you a silent or talkative person?
i do not shut the fuck up
11. Is anyone else in the room with you?
no
12. Do you cry easily?
maybe

Im not doing the rest cus im on mobile

Society of Inspiration
(the continuing mini-series)

As Rebecca / Violette Studios heals from a major surgery this weekend, I ve thought to myself many times how much heart is felt from her story. There is so much we can learn from her experiences & through her life’s successes. I want to ask you the reader a couple questions so you get the feel for exactly this topic.

Do you know how to be inspiring?
Do you ever wonder why some are more encouraging spirits then others?
Being a sweet pff, do you work closely with others to improve their game as well?

In my personal experience some of us tend to overlook the obvious, the exact thing we need, & it may be staring us in the face right now. As I leave you with your thoughts let us send well wishes to our friend as she heals!
#StayTuned for more #SocietyOfInspiration

I was tagged by @gambit-goat​ >:D<

1. What is the real reason you are confused right now?

How the fuck did i cut myself so bad

2. What were you doing at 11PM last night?

Being at a friends house, eating his food and messaging people to tell me a good comedy movie

3. How do you feel about 3AM?

“Why do i always wake up at 3 am, what’s wrong with me?”

4. I bet you kissed someone last night, right?

Happy for me, no, i did not.

5. You can drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life?

Water :)

^+1

6. Do you like hickeys?

I had 14 once, thank @tea-overdose

7. Is there someone who continuously lets you down?

Nah :D

8. Do you always answer your texts?

Yes, i always answer them as quickly as i can.

9. Last time you talked to one of your best friends?

Everyday

10. Are you a silent or talkative person?

Depends of my mood, sometimes i prefer to listen, sometimes i prefer to talk.

11. Is anyone else in the room with you?

Nope

12. Do you cry easily?

Depends on the situation :D

13. What is your family like?

It has it’s up’s and down’s, but it’s OK

14. What was your last text message?

“ Dude, i just cut myself and it’s blood spiling everywhere” 

Yes i took the time to text people that i’ve cut myself….

15. Most embarrassing moment?

When i’m nervous, i lose myself

16. If you had to get a piercing (not ears)?

Nothing

17. Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?

When will i see my GF, if i should sleep, what songs to spam my friends with

18. Where are you going on your next vacation?

I don’t have any plans this summer

19. Where have you lived most of your life ?

Romania

20. Do you curse around your parents?

Yes, but i try to restrain myself

21. Are you happy with where you live?

Yeah, to bad i have to search for a new room mate

22. Words you can’t spell half the time?

Erm…?

23. What were you doing last night at 12 AM?

Watching Wedding Ringer

24. Do you cook?
Sometimes

25. Name four things that you wish you had!

An electric guitar

My gf here

Driving license

More time to have fun

26. Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?

@tea-overdose

27. How is your hair?

Fabulous

28. Think back to January 2007; were you single?

Mhm

29. Are you nice to everyone?

Yes

30. How do you feel about sea aquariums?

I like them :D

I tag @carelessreaper, @tea-overdose, @chaosr-evolution, @exorcisingdaemons

It’s no surprise that I love to write about my life and everything that goes on in my mind, so if I’m being completely open and honest: I am not happy. I am nowhere close to being happy with the life I am living. I find myself crying more than not. I find myself wanting to sleep for days at a time. Sometimes the only time I spend outside is the time I spend running. Running is the closest I’ve been to happiness in a while, and I think that’s why I continue to do it. Some days I wake up at 10am. Some days I wake up at 4:45am. I’m to the point that I have no friends. It’s not my fault that I’m tired of being hurt. I have to go to college to get a degree to do something for the rest of my life. I don’t want to. I don’t want to have to decide what I want to do for the rest of my life while I’m still deciding if I want to live it. I guess life isn’t for everyone. I guess not everyone is suppose to have people that care about them. I am not happy. I never will be. And I can’t tell the people that are around me that I can’t breathe.

tagged by my angel @yieungjae

1. let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?

bambam getting hate and death threats and me wonderin why y’all doggin that angel instead of educating him but w/e lol

2. what were you doing at 11 PM last night?

playing w my got7 sims

3. how do you feel about 3 AM?

i strive to stay up that late every night but alas i’m a sleepy baby

4. i bet you kissed someone last night, right?

haven’t kissed anyone in general congrats u played urself

5. you can drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?

water

6. do you like hickeys?

haven’t given nor received yet

7. is there someone who continuously lets you down?

mysELF lmfao

8. do you always answer your texts

yes…but on time is a different story

9. last time you talked to one of your best friends?

just texted my dad

10. are you a silent or talkative person?

talkative 

11. is anyone else in the room with you?

nope

12. do you cry easily?

i tear up easily (i.e. seeing youngjae, cute videos) but never crying

13. what is your family like?

my parents raised me right, never teaching me hate or disrespect, but my grandparents + aunt are really racist and homophobic, so a mess basically

14. what was your last text message?

“yes sir” to my father

15. most embarrassing moment?

last year when i, a small white girl, yelled “INNIT” in a classroom and was so close to gettin myself beat up

16. if you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?

idk a nose piercing? that’s what all wannabe teenagers do.

17. honestly, what’s on your mind right now?

youngjae, my dog, deni, bambam, mark lee, everything

18. where are you going on your next vacation?

probably florida to see my grandmother

19. where have you lived most of your life?

lived in south carolina all my life

20. do you curse around your parents?

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

21. are you happy with where you live?

no

22. words you can’t spell half of the time?

beautiful (ik how to spell it but i write it too fast and spell beatuiful) and receive 

23. what were you doing last night at 12 AM?

sleeping

24. do you cook?

i want to

25. name four things that you wish you had

a job, chocolate milk, cheesecake, $$

26. ever meet anyone you met on tumblr?

no

27. how is your hair?

happy n healthy

28. think back to January 2007, were you single?

……………….i was 6

29. are you nice to everyone?

yes, except one person but that is a discussion for another time.

30. how do you feel about sea aquariums?

O T T E R S

tagging: @whyoungjae, @ethereal-youngjae, @imjacksonsgf, and @cutepimook

Life is hard as shit. But I’ve been through a lot and I know what it feels like to think you can’t do it. I have things to live for now too which helps, but here’s the thing: there are a lot of situations I have never been in; ones I am completely unprepared for. But I’ve been there. I’ve had my absolute worst fears come true a billion times. But I’m still here, I still wake up everyday and I live. Things will get scary, but I have complete confidence and trust in myself that I will get through it. It’s always been a dream of mine to be the person who has seen the absolute worst over and over, yet always steps forward. That’s what I’ve had to do my whole life, really starting in 5th grade. And I’ll only continue to take bigger steps…