why do i always have to freak out when new pics come out

anonymous asked:

Okay, serious talking now. What would be the worst point in each paladin to attack. We know about Lance's insecurities, but what else? What about the others? I want to read your opinion because you do awsome meta and character analysis.

???????? Wow, thank you ;A; And I’m not sure if I can answer this well for all paladins but I’ll try^^ [tl;dr at the end because this post has gotten really long]


Let’s start with Lance. Lance honestly has many points to attack, which is probably why this fandom is so focused on langst. It’s easy to create content for that because we have so much to work with:

1. his insecurities about his role on the team and in general

I already wrote a lot about it here (and also here a little), desperately trying to figure out how strong these insecurities are but there is no doubt that they exist^^ Surprisingly, they actually seem to be very strong, to the point that fandom only exaggerates them slightly. Lance is just pretty good at hiding them.

2. homesickness

Lance is homesick. Really homesick. He’s homesick to the point that he would leave a party to hang out alone and get lost in his memories:

He is also the one that references his life on Earth the most often. “I missed 14 days for a stomachache in 3rd grade that I never really had”, “That’s the tagline of 6 of my favorite movies” - those are little things, not very important in the overall picture but they prove that he thinks back to his past. 

3. fear of death/unnatural things that are dangerous

Lance isn’t afraid of aliens, that’s not what I mean with it - I’m talking about the episode Crystal Venom where the castle was trying to kill him. Here is an analysis on how deeply that episode really disturbed him. As for his fear of dying - he is the one that has been confronted with death the most of all the paladins (excluding Shiro - but Shiro has lost/repressed lots of his traumatic memories). Here’s proof:

S1E1. He thought Hunk had died in the explosion when they were trying to retrieve the yellow lion. S1E4. The explosion nearly killed him - “you would have died if Hunk and Coran hadn’t gotten a new crystal” (Pidge, S1E6). S1E9. He almost got sucked out of an airlock. S2E2. The snake monster thingy got free of the stone and Lance was in the direct line of fire.

He was the one screaming “we’re gonna die, we’re gonna die!!” in S2E5 when they had to hold the lenses for the wormhole maker. Lance is scared of death not despite but because he knows it the best of all of them. He almost died multiple times and he saw his friends almost dying multiple times (the Hunk thingy I included above, when he saved Coran from the explosion, when he thought he had to save Coran in “Crystal Venom”, when Pidge in the cube episode got shot down and didn’t reply to them). Look at his reaction vs the reaction of the other paladins when they thought Allura had died:

They are all shocked and disbelieving, meanwhile Lance:

He’s neither shocked nor disbelieving, he’s just hurt. One of his deepest fears became reality and there is nothing he could do about it.

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boyfriend! park woojin

y’all

I never knew the wanna one fandom was so desperate for park woojin writings LOL

hopefully you guys like it!!

  • at first it seemed like he was terrified of you bc he always tried to be as FAR away from you as possible but no he’s just an incredibly shy bean
  • after a few meetings ofc you two would become friends but honestly the bnw boys thought he was nEVER going to confess
  • donghyun wanted woojin to say it himself so that he and youngmin could have a proud parent moment but after like three months donghyun texted you and was like hey woojin loves you pls date him
  • afterwards donghyun went to woojin and put his hands on woojin’s shoulders and said “don’t freak out or scream but I told you-know-who that you like them and your date is tomorrow at six pm.”
  • woojin: collapses
  • he was sOOO nervous he spent the morning and afternoon wondering what to wear and how to act like “what drink should I order so I don’t seem too babyish? maybe they like babyish?” and he texted like nine of his friends for help but they all turned out to be either useless or useless
  • for example: hyeongseop told him to spark a conversation he should show you his dark past
  • woojin: blocked reported and deleted
  • he tries sO hard to make sure that you’re satisfied and freaks out when you seem the slightest bit inconvenienced like he caught you rubbing your arms and threw his jacket on you s o f a s t
  • it’s only six seconds after you smile and thank him that he erupts into a million shades of red and thinks he overdid it
  • whenever you call him by a pet name he gets embarrassed bc he’s not used to many displays of affection and half of him is like pls don’t do that and the other half is Y E S
  • he’s DEFINITELY not used to calling YOU pet names even though donghyun and hyeongseop tells him to every six hours
  • donghyun: COME ON JUST CALL THEM BABE ITS NOT THAT HARD
  • hyeongseop, after getting a new number: call them sexy lady like you did on that one stage LOL
  • he rly tried to call you babe at one point but he stuttered for a whole minute straight and so you just took pity and said it’s ok :’)))
  • he felt so bad man he was like I……promise to do it one day
  • you saw his photoshoot for innisfree and after screaming into ur pillow you were like “you’ve never made a single heart for me yet look at what you’re willing to do as an idol smH” and he felt so bad that he made a finger heart on the spot
  • and immediately fainted afterwards help him
  • is EXTREMELY protective of you it’s not an act of his to look cool or manly it’s just who he is
  • if someone ever so much as glances at you with weird eyes he scowls and holds you close
  • your heart goes doki doki every time and you almost want it to happen more often LOL
  • he refuses to let you walk home at a late hour no matter how much you insist on it 
  • you: woojin my place is literally across the street from here
  • woojin: but what if someone suddenly jumps out of a car and kidnaps you on the way????????
  • you: THATS LITERALLY NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN THERE AREN’T EVEN ANY CARS OUT HERE
  • he just really wants you to be safe because he would honestly never forgive himself if something happens to you :^(
  • also the bnw boys tease him about you like every other minute donghyun always wants the latest update LOL
  • donghyun: what stage are you guys on have you kissed yet
  • youngmin: did you guys……even hold hands yet
  • daehwi: lol hyung did you really get salty when hyeongseop saw a pic of them said they were cute LOL
  • they tease woojin during practice too bc it’s just hilarious to them and the instructor caught them fooling off and was like >:(( wtf are you guys doing why would you ask him if they kissed yet and before they could apologize  the instructor put a hand on woojin’s shoulder and said “listen if you two ever get in the mood and need protecti—”
  • donghyun: THROW HIM OUT THROW HIM OUT THROW HIM OUT THROW HIM OUT THROW HIM OUT
  • you always thought that woojin was just a shy shark tooth boy but when you saw him dance on stage he was just. like. a freaking hAMMERHEAD
  • you: your existence is a lie
  • woojin: ?????
  • woojin’s kisses are strangely….slow and intense because he finds it…….hard to break away as embarrassing as that sounds
  • you always feel so HOT after and you want to shove yourself into the refrigerator 
  • woojin himself wants to launch himself into the antarctic pls help him

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Texts Between Strangers

Note: female/woman ‘reader’


Hey, it was really nice meeting you last night. Maybe we can grab lunch tomorrow? This is Cisco btw.

The text pops up on your phone screen as you’re scrolling through social media. You’ve been lounging in bed on this rainy Saturday morning planning on doing absolutely nothing for the rest of the day but binge watch The Walking Dead and order thai take out later. You just stare at the text for a minute, blinking.

You definitely didn’t give your number to anyone last night because all you did yesterday was pull a double shift at Jitters because they’ve been short staffed lately. A long day at work usually left you looking a bit wrecked so you’re damn sure there wasn’t anyone slipping their digits your way either.

This person has the wrong number.

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anonymous asked:

OMGGG PLS DO THE RFA + MINOR TRIO BEING VAGUELY FAMILIAR TO MC PLSS :DDDD (soz for caps tis 3 am and I'm hyPD)

Anon…. Anon I got this message at 2pm. What time zone are you in?!

Also, writing this was a challenge for Saeyoung, Saeran, and Vanderwood, as… well, if you’ve played Saeyoung’s route, you know why.


Sorry this is going up so far behind schedule, I’ve been sleeping for almost two days solid and I woke up and couldn’t find my computer. Turns out my roommate borrowed it and forgot to give it back. But here it is.


Yoosung

  • MC played LOLOL
  • I mean, she was nowhere near the level of SuperYoosung, the #2 of the shooting star server, but she’d gone toe to toe with a dragon alone once
  • On more than one occasion, MC got the change to fight SuperYoosung in game, and every time, even though her level was lower and she always lost, MC kept getting closer to beating him
  • When MC found out SuperYoosung was her Yoosung, she nearly flipped, having chatted with him on an open forum more than once
  • He’s super excited too, though he thought she was a guy because she didn’t have an open mic, and thus didn’t talk to people online
  • After a few months of either playing with Yoosung or watching him play, MC or MasterCoordinator finally manages to beat SuperYoosung in front of his entire guild

Jaehee

  • MC was a barista at a cafe Jaehee frequented for a while
  • Because Jaehee came in often and MC had a little bit of a crush, she knew Jaehee’s order by heart
  • MC also attempted to leave cute messages on the cups and draw cute images in the foam
  • However, Jaehee was usually so busy or stressed, she either didn’t notice, or  thought it was a cute cafe aesthetic
  • It wasn’t until Jaehee and MC were actually working together and MC made her a cup of coffee with an image drawn in the phone did Jaehee connect the two
  • MC revealed that one time, in a truly desperate attempt to get Jaehee’s attention, she wrote her number in the foam, but it was missed completely
  • Jaehee’s embarrassed she didn’t notice sooner, apologizes, and is happy things ultimately worked out
  • The main reason Jaehee kept going back to that cafe was because of the cute barista, that just so happened to be MC

Zen

  • Well, I mean, MC is a casual fan of his
  • But they take the same train
  • Now, Zen doesn’t ride the train all the time, but when he does, they usually end up on the same one
  • More than once she’s taken a sneak pic of him
  • So, in his route, MC was on the train home from work, in a chat, and Zen posted a selfie of himself in the train
  • A quickly scan located him, and he moment she was off the train, she posted it with a little comment
  • “Hope to ride with you again soon~ 😘”
  • Zen freaks in excitement
  • He all but interrogates her about her travel schedule, but MC gives him nothing
  • After he meets her in person, he recognizes her, grins from ear to ear, and say, “I knew you were my type!”

Jumin

  • Well, ironically, she was already a party planner for the rich and famous
  • They met in passing, a tense business smile here, and brief chats about the weather there, so on
  • And needless to say, his father had hit on her, but she turned him down in an instant, stating professionalism, but the truth was, she was creeped out
  • So when she was thrown into the midst of planning an RFA party, she practically had the whole party planned in an instant more out of habit than anything else
  • Jaehee host? Pfft, MC could do it! Not like it’s anything new!
  • One thing MC would remark on for years to come was Jumin’s face when he realized that she was the woman he was speaking to in the chats
  • While she “stayed” with him over the next few days, he was impressed with her work ethic and her ability to plan an entire party from flower arrangements to table settings to music and guests all from her phone
  • If anything, watching her keep a cool head when things went horribly wrong and one thing happened after another, it made Jumin fall more in love with her
  • He genuinely regrets not getting to know her sooner

Saeyoung

  • Well, it took them a little while to recognize each other, but MC put the pieces together eventually
  • It turned out they grew up in the same neighborhood, going to the same church
  • MC had seen him a lot in passing, but had only spoken to him once or twice
  • MC didn’t know much about him, not even his name, she just knew that things were bad at home, he had a twin brother, and if he wasn’t with his twin, he was alone
  • A few times, she came over and gave him things like food, candy, and the like, in the hopes of coaxing a smile out of him, but they never came
  • Saeyoung didn’t immediately recognize her because (1) she had short hair back then, and (2) MC had changed a lot with puberty
  • And while Saeyoung doesn’t like talking about his past or his childhood, he likes that he has someone who was there and understands who is here for him

V

  • MC worked at a gallery as a glorified secretary for the curator
  • V had sold his pictures at the gallery and they’d spoken casually a few times, but he never knew her
  • However, being the polite guy he is, V always remembered her name
  • When they met again, he wasn’t sure until he saw her picture, and he continued to be friendly and polite
  • MC was the first to ask why he hadn’t released any new works lately, as she was a fan
  • When they did meet again, face to face, she openly admitted to him that she’d always harbored a small crush for him
  • The blush on his face was super cute

Saeran

  • Did you think he did his pink tipped hair alone?
  • I don’t think so
  • … okay, after a while he did, but not at first!
  • No, at first, Saeran had to go to a hair stylist
  • MC was new to being a stylist, but she did his hair with impeccable care
  • he found that having her do his hair was incredibly soothing, even if the environment was not
  • Until Saeran could learn to do his hair by himself, he went to MC to get his hair dyed and touched up whenever his roots started to show
  • Because of this, he was able to watch her and get an idea of the kind of person she was (namely that was naive enough to fall for her coworkers tricks from time to time)
  • So when he needed to find a person to plant into the RFA, MC immediately came to mind

Vanderwood

  • MC had once worked with the agency as a independent consultant
  • She didn’t know any details of their operations
  • All she did was consult on several projects
  • She was also legally gagged and threatened
  • One of the projects she worked on was with Vanderwood directly, but not for any long duration of time
  • And honestly, he didn’t remember her until she remembered him

anonymous asked:

hi im a new shawol!! what are some shinee inside jokes? i only know onew sangtae helP i dont get milk and etc

hi bebs WELCOME TO SHINEE WORLD, i’m your mom now. this got v long with loTS of links so i put it under a read more!
disclaimer: by no means a comprehensive list, i am but one human and i do not own any of the videos, credit is where credit is due!

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what to expect when you and tom are expecting

Part 5 of the White Dress series

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  • you are so happy when the test is positive and tom is away filming his new film so you hop on a plane as soon as possible and surprise him at his set 
  • he’s so haPPY to see you, he picks you up and spins you and kisses you
  • you don’t tell him right away, you wait until you go to dinner that night
  • “could i interest either of you in one of our specialty drinks?” the waiter asks you and tom shakes his head “we’ll just have a glass each of chardonnay please.” he always orders your drink for you. “a-actually i’ll just have an iced tea with lemon, thanks.”
  • “is everything okay love? you usually have a drink with dinner…”
  • “well, i just found out some very important news that-”
  • “yOU’RE KIDDING?! darling don’t be joking with me right now!”
  • “having a child is hardly something to joke about thomas.”
  • he gets sO excited and kisses you so much and he can’t stop smiling bc he’s going to be a dad!!!
  • “we should do one of those cute reveals for our families, you know what i’m talking about?”
  • you guys visit tom’s family in london a week later and you bring his parents gifts. they’re so excited to see you and are really surprised when you have gifts for them. you tell them to open them at the same time.
  • they’re matching tea cups that say “world’s greatest nana” and “world’s greatest grandpa” on them
  • it takes a minute for it to sink in but when they get it tHEY SCREAM THEY’re almost as haPpy as tom!
  • let’s not forget when you tell hARRISON. you invite him over to your house and the lights are dimmed and tom’s sitting in a huge leather chair on the opposite side of the wooden desk.
  • harrison is so confused bc tom has tessa on his lap and he’s caressing her and you’re sat on the couch in the corner of the room that he didn’t know you had.
  • “please have a seat.” tom says in a fake raspy voice, he has two cotton balls in his mouth.
  • “what is going on here? i feel like i’m about to be executed or something.”
  • “listen, harrison,” tom puts tessa on the ground and walks over to lean on the desk in front of harrison, “i’m gonna make you an offer you can’t refuse” harrison knows where this line is from, everyone has seen the godfather, but he has no idea why tom is doing this. “we want you, to be the godfather to our child, who should be around in about 8 months.”
  • you can’t help but smile when harrison jumps from his chair yelling “WHAT?! yOU GUYS ARE- oh my god no way!!! yes oF course i’ll be godfather are you crazy bro!” he pulls tom in for a huge hug and you can’t stop smiling bc you live for this bromance
  • you wait three months and decide to get a 3-d ultrasound to determine the baby’s sex early bc you and tom are dying to know and tom’s been keeping this secret from the media for long enough you told him that once you found out the sex of the baby he could tell the world 
  • he may or may not have researched a bunch to see how you could determine it early.
  • he holds your hand the whole time and you are so nervous, yet really excited.
  • its a bOY and tom is super happy and so are you and he just kisses you really softly and takes a picture of the screen he’s so excited for everyone to see him, the beautiful boy you created.
  • “what if we named him peter tony holland. before you get angry, hear me out, nobody will know we’re naming him after peter parker and tony stark. and besides peter is an adorable name, like peter rabbit, peter pan, peter parker, all lovable characters.”
  • “tom we’re not naming him after spider man and iron man.”
  • you post on your social media before tom is able to bc he’s driving you home.
  • you post a baby picture of tom and caption it “hope he ends up looking just like you ❤️”” and eVeryone gOES NUTS  
  • tom posts the picture from the ultrasound and captions it “like this post if you agree that his name should be peter tony holland”
  • you comment back “i would quicker name him rumpelstiltskin harrison holland before peter tony holland thanks”
  • robert comments “you promised to name your first born child after me remember thomas?”
  • “you promised him what?!” you yell at tom in disbelief
  • “i thought he’d forget about it, but i mean it was for good reason!”
  • “and what would that be?”
  • “i didn’t want him to tell anyone that he uh, he caught um,” then he mumbled incoherently
  • “he what tom?“ 
  • “he caught me taking a dick pic okay?!” he blurted out, “i freaked out and i may have said ‘please robert don’t say anything i’ll do anything! i’ll name my first born after you!’ and it was so in the moment i didn’t think about what would happen when we actually had kids." 
  • you end up talking to robert and you agree that your kid’s middle name should be robert, because when he comes over it’ll be hard to differentiate the two of them. (robert didn’t understand your reasons but went with it anyway bc he doesn’t like to admit it but he would do anything for you and tom) 
  • omg yOu catch him looking at kids rooms online
  • anD if you think your son ain’t gonna have a spider man room you’re wrong 
  • he take things from the set and puts it in his room 
  • you guys take a lamaze class bc tom wants to be rlly prepared 
  • you and tom search extensively for a good name for your boy, tom is stuck on peter, but you won’t have it 
  • "what about matthew?” tom asks one day 
  • “matthew robert holland…” you trail off and smile at him 
  • “i love it” you both say at the same time 
  • tom is always by your side no matter what and never lets you lift a finger, he’s so quick to help you off the couch or out of your clothes
  • he goes grocery shopping for you bc your shoes are too tight from your feet being so swollen. 
  • every time he hears you say “ooh” he rushes to your side to see if you’re okay, it’s usually just a kick but he wants to make sure. 
  • your little boy is late, it’s been two weeks since your due date but you still won’t pop, and you refuse to medically induce labor, so you try a bunch of home remedies but none of them work. 
  • “i read once that sex induces labor…” tom says one day, looking at you out of the corner of his eye while you sit on the couch. 
  • “help me up.” you say and he smiles and let’s just say the next morning your water broke 
  • tOM was freaking out and rushing to get everything into the car even though you already had a bag packed for the hospital. you were panting, contractions happening closer and closer together, tom called everyone from his car, his parents, your mom, harrison, robert, jacob, zendaya, chris, anthony, sebastian, everyone.
  • when you got to the hospital you got into your private room and people started piling in to congratulate you and you tried to smile through the pain of the contractions.
  • you are in active labor for hOURs and you keep asking the doctor how much longer, she reassures you that you should be starting your transition phase shortly 
  • your contractions are getting closer and closer and growing more intense, you yell at tom bc he got you into this mess and he’s just saying how good you’re doing and how wonderful you are.
  • “darling, you’re doing great, i love you so much.”
  • “okay it’s time to start pushing! can we just get dad in here, you all can wait in the lobby.” the doctor says as tom smiles widely at you, he pats you with the towel bc you’re sweating like crazy!
  • “ready, darling?” tom smiles and holds your hand, trying to keep you calm, he kisses your forehead softly and you give him a weak smile. 
  • “yOU’RE SO LUCKY I LOVE YOU THOMAS.”
  • two hours of pushing later, you hear your baby boy cry and you can’t help but cry, tom kisses you softly and he’s crying too.
  • “you did so great, love.”
  • “dad, do you want to come and cut the umbilical cord?” and tOm iS sO excited. he’s pretty much sobbing bc his little boy is laying on the counter and tom touches his hand and his baby grabs his finger as tight as he can, and now tom’s even mOre of a meSs.
  • after they clean him up they put him in your arms and tom looks at you both with the most love in the world and he’s just thinking about how he’d do anything to protect the two of you. 
  • “so how about another? a girl this time?” he just laughs little did you know a year and a half later all of this would happen again with a baby girl.
  • harrison is the first person other than you two to see him, they’re looking at the baby through the glass. “wow, man, you did that, you made that.”
  • “i know, it’s incredible”
Monsta X Kinks

Hyunwoo:

Sweet Play. Listen. Imagine Hyunwoo calling you princess and smiling at you while he stirs something in the kitchen or giving you a back hug while you’re working on something… Him just laying his head in your lap with a soft groan and looking up at you reading on your phone. You’re welcome. Those little Sweet interactions would make him so happy. In those moments he’d know you were his and he’d most likely want to let you know that as well.

Dominance. Hyunwoo is one dominant motherfucker. He’d get off on using his delicious muscles to hold your hands above your head as he pushes into you. Or if you’re in the kitchen making something and then he just comes in and bear hugs you before pulling you back into the other room. You’d be all “Hyunwoo, I’m making something~” And he’d say. “Not anymore.” And then y'all are getting sexy and I live for this shit. 

Room Play. Hotel. Bathroom. Living room. Kitchen. Sofa. Bedroom. Hallway. Where do you want it, baby girl? Hyunwoo will fuck you within every square inch of the house, rest assured doll face. He’d love the idea of having you in every room. It may even become a little bit like a game for him and then it won’t just be the house. I could see Hyunwoo wanting to have you everywhere so that no matter where he was he had something to think about. You. Naked. Moaning. Onto his honey shoulders. Your nails. On his back. And arms. I’ll go to hell now, don’t worry I know the way.

Hoseok:

Teasing. Not even like traditional teasing! Okay. Hoseok would like those little hints way too much. Like when you’re real needy and want him to touch you but you don’t know how to say it. He’d fucking love those times where your all red and trying to tell him what you want him to do. “What was that, baby?” He’d ask with a smile as you got more and more frustrated. If you snapped and just pushed him down he’d chuckle darkly and say “Okay okay..” before flipping you and giving you just what you wanted.

Orgasm Delay. Not necessarily denial. Just taking you to the limit of your orgasm before letting you go. Hoseok would use his lips his tongue his fingers, even toys. You know he is one adventurous man in the bed! He’d like the knowledge that he was able to get you there like that and the image of you shaking around and under him would do so much to him. You’d probably bite him out of frustration and he’d groan the sexiest groan you’d ever hear.

Voyeurism. Yea. This one is for sure into this shit. If Hoseok had a tape of you. With your sounds, have faith that it is the most watched thing on his phone. Hoseok would love the memories of what you two had done together but if he could see it, and relive it he’d love that even more. It doesn’t have to be a sexy tape though, Hoseok would love for you to send him dirty texts or nudes. He’d have a folder on his phone filled with all the pics and vids of you called Wifey.

Minhyuk:

Possession. You belong to Minhyuk and he’d want everyone to know that, in any why possible. Be it through holding hands, little kisses, you siting in his lap or even jealousy sex. I could really see him overstimulating you until you were screaming at you were his and only his. He wouldn’t do it to torment you, Minhyuk would never want to hurt you. He just wants to know that you only think of him and no matter who else looks at you, your eyes are on him.  

Little Kisses. Little kisses would be Minhyuks shit! That little peck in front of the door that leaves you both exhaling just after. Or the short sweet ones before bed, even in the middle of the night when you roll over and he lazily presses his lips on yours before you adjust on the pillow. But just like every other little kiss. One just isn’t enough for him. Something would grow inside of him when you kissed him quickly it would always make him crave more, and if he couldn’t put you against the wall because he had to go to work or something he would think about that short kiss all day until he could get back to you. Minhyuks lips would say everything as he pressed them against yours and you’d feel every second that he had thought of you.

Lip Biting. Bite your lip in front of Minhyuk. Do it. Do it and see what happens. I’ll tell you just so you can picture it. You’d be trying to put something together or play a game on your phone and your lip would curl before you pulled it in for a proper gnawing. When you look up, Minhyuk will be playing with his own lip and there will be something behind his eyes. Something tasty. He would not, could not, never will be able to keep his lips off of yours. I could see him saying things like “You know what that does to me, Y/N.” or  “Are trying to tease me, baby?” ?!?!MY FEELS!?! He would say these things and not be able to help his impulse as he closed whatever distance was between you two.

Jooheon: 

Daddy. This may come off a bit strange to some of you but as Daddy as Jooheon is, he’s not gonna want you to call him Daddy. Jooheon likes his name a lot and is gonna want that to come from your lips while he touches you. What Jooheon wants is that Daddy lifestyle. Calling you Kitten, punishing you, putting you down for bed, bathing you, reading you the new lyrics while you lay in his lap in a Babydoll and kitten ears. He’d get off on that shit so hard but Jooheon knows that Hyunwoo is Daddy and you don’t want him thinking about Hyunwoo when he’s with you. 

Watching You. Nothing weird. Just like, if you were getting ready for bed or maybe you just came out of the shower? If the door wasn’t all the way closed and Jooheon could peek in and watch you get dressed or undressed. He’d fucking love it! Or if you were fixing up a snack in the kitchen and he was just siting at the bar watching your figure sway to the music that he made. Looking at you in his arms while you breathe on his arm. Jooheon would like the moments where he could just watch you. You are his and he can look at you whenever he wants, that would get into his head. Jooheon would love to find different ways to show you how perfect you were for each other.

Touch. Contact is very important for Jooheon. Even if it’s something little like when one of his members are talking to you and he slips his hand onto your waist while he asks what you’re talking about. Or rolling over in the middle of the night just to hold you again. It’s sweet but it’s also fucking hot. I mean think about Jooheon not being able to handle when he wasn’t touching you in some way and what that means when he comes back from tour. akfgafg

Kihyun:

Cold Play. Imagine Kihyun with an ice cube in his mouth or hand and he’s just running it over your body all slow and your shaking for so many reasons under him or most like over him because I can see him loving to trail your body with ice as you ride or grind on him. I could see Kihyun reaching into the freezer while his eyes watch you with hunger and then he has the ice and pulls you away from the counter to lay you back onto the island. The ice in between his teeth while he pulls your clothes off and there’s just nothing you want to do to stop him. 

Grinding. Kihyun would love to watch you grind on him. Especially if he’s sitting up. This position could really let his hands roam around your body and he’d love that so much. He’d hiss though his teeth as his hand slowly pushed up your stomach to your chest while you rocked yourself closer and closer to release.

Surprises. Kihyun would love you surprising him with your sexuality. Like if you had a student kink and dressed up for the part or if you woke him up and immediately put him and yourself into another position. He’d love the constant thought of not knowing when you would surprise him with one of your kinks. So if you want to cuff him, do it baby. He’ll wake with a smile at the restraints and await your fantasy. 

Hyungwon:

Lips. Aside from Hyungwon being the freaking king of lips he’d really enjoy the feeling of your smaller ones pressed against his. I don’t mean like little pecks either. When you too are sexing each other it’ll be half sexy time and half make out session. Whenever he can press his lips on yours he will and you will love it! and don’t think that this kink of his means that your position play is limited. Not at all. He’s real tall and could twist just enough so that he can groan onto your lips. 

Holding. Hyungwon is the type of guy to put your hand in his pocket when you guys go on walks. He’s also the type to hold you while watching a movie and definitely while you guys talk about your days at night in bed. He does these things because he loves you and holding you will remind him that you are his and he is yours. That would be a huge turn on for Hyungwon. The fact that you are his and he can touch you and no one else can.

Moans. Getting away from that sugar shit, Hyungwon will go cray for your sounds. Anything that tells him he’s doing a good job. He’ll smirk at your sounds as he repeats the motion that gifted it to him. He’d love to watch your face as you started getting louder. “You like this, Y/N?” he’ll ask, loving the fact that he already knew the answer. Hyungwon is not the type to backtrack within pleasure though. Through the entire thing the amount that you shake will only grow until you finally come. So if you feel like your body is going crazy as he stretches you out with his perfect digits, wait till he gets inside you.

Changkyun:

Rough Sex. Changkyun would love to go hard and fast. His groans and grunts Jesus help me with this kids sounds would be getting louder and sharper and if you were loud. Girll~~ Changkyun would love the thought of making you scream. In every language you know, hit them all up. You screaming for him as he takes you at his favorite speed would be heaven to this Maknae. 

Thigh Riding. We probably already knew this, but I have to bring this one up. Changkyun would love just how vulnerable you looked when you ride his legs. Especially if he’s busying himself with a phone call or lyric sheets. Your soft moans that you push into his neck and shoulder would really give him a hard time but he’d love the power he had in this situation. 

Blow Jobs. The image of your hands on his shirt as you slowly go down onto your knees in front of him would have Changkyun groaning softly with need. He’d love the feeling of your mouth and your throat and even more than that, he’d live for the sounds of your little whines as he pulled your hair or thrusted into you. Don’t expect an apology either. He’d groan as you gaged around him with his hand in your hair and he’d softly pet your locks down as you started on him again. He wouldn’t want it to go too slowly but expect Changkyun to want to enjoy himself a bit. I also really see him using the images and memories of you sucking and petting him as a masturbatory favorite. When he’s in the hotel late at night and can’t sleep. That’s how he’ll think of you.

♡Study/Bujoblr introduction post♡

Hi! I’m new here, but I have absolutely fallen in love with this community so i’m introducing myself;

Few facts: 

  • My name’s Dóra!
  • 18 years old
  • Icelandic 
  • Gryffindor
  • Sagittarius
  • I’m studying acting and everything to do with the theatre and films.
  • Introvert with 3 cats
  • I’m finishing High School 
  • Total dork
  • Used to be a sick kid so I care (need to) about health. 

Courses:

  • Icelandic Literature History
  • Icelandic History
  • English Essay Work and Writing
  • Creative Writing
  • Devised Theatre
  • (One more might be added)

Interests:

  • I love knowledge in general and learning about the world but my main interests are history, biology, mythology and astronomy.
  • Greek mythology!!!
  • Drawing and painting
  • Writing!
  • Musicals and music that touches my soul!
  • Plants!
  • Bullet journaling
  • Annoying my friends
  • I watch waaaay too much youtube.
  • Anything to do with adventure! Indiana Jones, TinTin, Pirates of the Caribbean, Jurassic Park, Grimm, for example get me so pumped.
  • Stationary…. I have no control when it comes to stationary.

Originally posted by blindwire

Mental struggles:

  • Aspergers, ADHD, Depression, Anxiety.
  • I only found out earlier this year that I have Aspergers. I’m still learning and accepting the illness, but knowing why I am the way I am is so liberating.
  • My Aspergers includes extreme perfectionism that I’ve been trying to overcome.
  • I had to drop out of school twice due to overworking and stress.
  • I had always ignored my illnesses and never sought out help for them, but I’ve learned I can’t go on in life like that. I need to work with my brain in order to use it correctly.
  • I’ve grown a lot. I know more now, and my mental and physical health is my number 1 priority.

Goals:

  • To get back to good grades BUT with regard to my health.
  • Invest myself and get comfortable in my studies.
  • Enjoy life, take pictures, love myself, love others, be myself and proud.
  • Work on improving my skills
  • Accept and love my flaws
  • Be grateful and forgiving
  • Work hard (but not too hard!!)
  • Finish High School with flying colors and get into an acting school (wheesh good luck to me)
  • Work on me, for me.

Social:

Originally posted by keito-e

Some studyblrs that inspire me!:

  • @studyquill oh my god I love her stuff! I found her through youtube (amazing videos!) and through her I found the wondrous thing that is the studyblr community. God, I’m so thankful, I feel like I’ve found heaven. 
  • @phctcsynthesis you got me at studyblr and you got me again at plants. I freaking love you and your stuff, you’re one of my biggest inspirations!
  • @emmastudies has TONS of helpful stuff from printables to youtube video’s and is a beautiful blessing in my life
  • @thesmartstudies your masterposts are a lifesaver! and your stuff is amazing!
  • @studyrose i love you to pieces. THE TALENT and your videos!!! you’re so inspiring
  • @smoketexture your stuff is so pretty and cool! I love your bullet journal pics!
  • @fruit-studies so motivating! love your style!
  • @staestudy how. are. you. so. good!
  • @tbhstudying your stuff is so amazing!!
  • @revisoin your blog is so cute and aesthetic and great!
  • @kikkistudies so aesthetic! your posts make me so happy!
  • @hufflepuffsstudies one of the first studyblrs i followed! i absolutely fell in love!
  • @studying-zoo i’ve gotten so much inspiration from you, thank you!
The Joker x Reader - “Broken”

After you got shot in the head you were in a coma for a while. When you woke up you were quite broken and The Joker doesn’t like broken things. Getting rid of you seems like the perfect solution.

The Joker immediately turned when he heard the gunshot. You felt the sharp pain for a split second before you blacked out. J opened his mouth in disbelief, wanting to say something but for once he was speechless. He just stood there, stunned, watching Frost as he killed the security guard being heroic enough to attempt a small rebellion on his own.

“WHAT…THE FUCK??!!” The Joker’s voice finally echoed in the building while stomping towards you. Some of the hostages on the floor whimpered in fear, knowing that it won’t end well after what just happened.

“I thought you were watching everybody!” he pointed at his henchmen, mad as hell, kneeling so that he can turn you around. J saw the nasty bleeding head wound and he lost it:

“Kill everybody!! NOW!!!!” He lifted you and your arms went limp, hanging down on the sides of your body. “God dammit! Frost, let’s go, you drive!!” Blood started soaking his purple coat and he squeezed you closer to him, trying to wake you up.

“Hey, Princess, open your eyes! Open your eyes!“ No answer came and he took a deep breath, grinding his teeth, not even discerning the screams coming from the slaughter happening behind him.

He got in the back of the van with you and realized he wasn’t even wearing a shirt that night.

“Frost, give me your jacket!” he impatiently demanded and wrapped it around your head as soon as he got it. Jonny started driving and the Joker kept on wiping the blood off your face with his bare hands, not realizing he got all over his cheeks and hair too. “Baby doll, can you hear me? Don’t make Daddy mad; open your eyes, hm?”  he kept on trying to reason with you, nervously biting his lips.

“Where to, Boss?” Frost shouted, driving so fast he was afraid he will get unwanted attention, the last thing that was needed that night.

“Our doctor, Frosty, where else???!! “ The Joker snapped back at him, irritated about the question. “I don’t care who else we need to get, I want her fixed!… I don’t like…b-broken things…” he muttered the last words to himself, stammering with anxiety, still trying to clean you up.

*** You were in surgery for 10 hours. It was a clean wound, the bullet wasn’t inside: it pierced the left side of your head, above your ear, slightly under the skin surface which was very lucky but still created quite a lot of damage and brain hemorrhage. The best doctors that Gotham’s underworld uses were brought in to help you. J didn’t care about the money they asked or the supplies needed. What was he going to do with all his possessions if his Queen was dead?  It wouldn’t matter, it would be no fun.

The Joker was told there was no way to know when you will wake up or if there will be any nerve damage following your recovery. They didn’t have the courage to tell him you might never wake up. Afterwards, you were taken to the penthouse and one of the spare bedrooms was transformed into your own medical ward. The doctors took turns in coming and checking up on you, changing your bandages, updating your IV medications and the blood tests were coming back pretty good, except for the fact that you wouldn’t wake up.

Since J couldn’t sleep without you, he moved the bed in the master bedroom to your room, this way he could at least doze off for a few hours. All those beeping noises from those machines you were hooked at annoyed him to death but he learned to ignore them after a few days.

The Joker talked to you all the time, sometimes falling asleep waiting for an answer that never came. Most of the times he was answering for you.

* “Hey, Y/N, do you remember when you told me you were pregnant and I panicked, almost pushed you off the balcony? Lucky you told me you were joking before I did it, huh? “ and he started laughing maniacally, ending it with a deep growl, pleased at the memory. “Good times, Doll…”

* “Oh my God, I’m so bored!” He would roll his blue eyes in your face.” Would you wake up, Pumpkin? Let’s have some fun, I’ll take you for a ride. Wanna blow up something? Hmmm? Deal?” J cupped your face, caressing it with his thumbs until he got fed up with that too. “Jeez, Doll, why are you doing this to me?” he would finally rest his head on your tummy, pouting, not liking the fact that you were still like that after 3 weeks.

* “Princess, do you remember when I got angry and I shot you in the leg and you stabbed me? You were soooo pissed,” he snickered, kissing your hand. “We almost killed each other that day.” His crazy laughter filled the room again. “Ahhhh, good times, Doll…” he sighed, delighted at that treasured remembrance.

* J thought you need more tattoos, it was about time he gave you another one. He tattooed “Wake Up” all around your right hand wrist, like a bracelet, and a lot of “I love J” and “Sleepy Head” going up your arm just like bracelet charms . “You like it, Pumpkin?” he brought it closer to your face and when you didn’t react he just replied, proud of himself: “I think I did really good.”

* He pushed the girl he brought from the club inside and she was so scared she was shaking like a leaf.

“ Y/N, if you don’t wake up in 5 seconds, I’m getting a new girlfriend!” J shove her right on your bed. “ 5,4,3,2… 2 and a half…1…one and a half…Doll, come on!!!… Zero!”  Nothing. “Get the hell out of here!” he pushed the girl and she run out of the room so fast she almost fell when she opened the door. “Shit, that didn’t work,” he passed his fingers through his green hair, sulking. Another week went by.

* The Joker brought in a target matt and hanged it on the wall in front of you. He liked to place his gun in your hand, holding it with his, aim and shoot at the target. “Perfect, Y/N, this way you don’t lose practice. You’re such a good girl,” he would kiss your knuckles, smiling and then frowning when he realized you didn’t even know he was there.

* First time you opened your eyes was after 4 more weeks. It was late at night and J was on his laptop,still awake, looking at all the naughty pics you always sent him. He noticed the movement and jumped out of bed, not really believing you’re awake.

“Jesus, Princess, it was about time! I’m sooo horny,” he whispered in your ear and grinned when he noticed your chest going up and down in a silent, faint laughter.

“…My… poor… baby…” you barely uttered, struggling to reach his pale face and he purred, relieved, firmly holding your shaky fingers on his cheek since you couldn’t do it on your own. “…What…happened?…”

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At first, you had a really hard time using your left side of the body. You had bad days and good days. On your bad days you used one of J’s canes to walk around. He used to hide it and watch you struggle, scoffing:

“You don’t need a cane, Doll. Just walk, you’re fine!”

You held on to the wall, fighting really hard to keep your balance.

“I do need it, give it back!”

“Nope,” he simply stated, observing you from the couch until you got to your old room where he still kept the target matt so you can practice shooting again. It almost brought you to tears when you kept on missing; such an embarrassment for a skilled assassin. But it was so hard to control your left hand that kept on trembling. The Joker always sneaked to watch you since you kept the door opened and it made him uneasy to see you were so distressed. And it made him even tenser when he noticed he still liked his broken Doll.

First time you were able to have sex again after your recovery was… challenging. (And to be honest, many more times afterwards.)

He started complaining after 5 minutes :

“Christ, Y/N, your hand is twitching around my neck, it’s freaking me out! Stop it!” and he kissed you again, annoyed.

“Well, baby, I can’t control it, you know that! Especially when I get…excited,” you panted, adjusting your head on the pillow.

“Why are you excited?” J snickered. “Hey, keep your legs around my waist, you know I like it,” he moaned in your ear, kissing his way down your neck.

“I can’t, my left leg keeps on sliding down, I can’t even feel it anymore. I’m sorry, baby,” you arched your back, giggling, amused on how worked up he was about it.

“Can you get on your knees, Doll?”

“I doubt it,” you fakely sobbed, wanting him to shut up and make love to you.

“Can you get on top of me?”

A snarl coming from you gave him the answer.

“Can we do it against the wall?”

You slapped his side, aggravated.

“Jeez, woman, what can you do?!” You covered his mouth, impatient.

“I’m just gonna lay here, ok? That’s all I can offer for now. I’m…helpless so you can totally take advantage of me,” you winked, uncovering his lips so you can kiss him.

“Hmm, I never took advantage of a …ummm…incapacitated person before,” The Joker smirked, suddenly liking the idea.

“Good, because I thought you like challenges,” you laughed, content he is finally satisfied.

“Ohhh, Daddy never backs out from a challenge, Pumpkin,” he gave you that devilish look and pulled your hair while pinning your hands above your head. “This way you don’t freak me out with your twitchy hand.”

“Jerk…” you moaned, lifting your head so you can kiss his Jester tattoo.

“You wait until you see what Daddy has in store for you and then we’ll talk about it…yes?” he closed his eyes, enjoying feeling you again. It made him so ecstatic.

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After 3 more months you are better, but not fully recovered.

He tosses his gun on the floor and urges you to get it.

“Come on, Princess, be sexy for me. Bend over and grab that gun! I’ll pay you!” and he pushes the pile of hundred dollars from his desk on the floor.
“Are you serious?” you lift your gaze from your phone, not knowing if he meant it or not. You’ve been fighting a lot recently and his behavior towards you changed.

“Yes, do it,” he hums, putting the map aside and rolling away on his chair so he can see you better.

“ ‘Kaaayyyy,” you do as asked, and half way through your left leg gives out and you land on your knees.

“Wow, that’s pathetic!” he hisses, and you feel your face burning. “Seriously, I don’t even know why I keep you around: you’re crippled, you can’t kill for me, you’re not great in bed anymore and I’m sick of waiting for you to recover. As you are fully aware, I don’t like broken things, hence it’s time for you to go,” J barks at you and you just watch him, stunned.

“W-what are you talking about?! I’m so much better and I am getting better. I AM NOT crippled!” you almost yell, struggling to get on your feet, not understanding what’s going on.

“You’re useless, that’s what you are!” The Joker raises his voice, having a hard time controlling his temper. “I want you out of here!”

“Are you serious?!” you ask, furrowing your eyebrows, thinking about his cold behavior lately. That’s why, he’s just sick of you.   “After…all these years?”

He sarcastically grunts, crossing his arms on his chest:

“Is that supposed to mean anything to me?! OUT! Don’t make me repeat myself; you can stay tonight so you can sort out the things you want to take.”

“I…I don’t need anything, I have my own stuff,” you reply, backing out slowly, trying to swallow the lump in your throat and maintain your equilibrium.

“God, you’re soooo pitiful, still can’t control your body. How am I even supposed to be with someone like you?! The King of Gotham needs perfection, not trash.”

You gasp, feeling your heart beating faster and faster.

“I am the Queen of Gotham, with or without you, not trash!”  

“Used to be Queen, Doll, now look at you: just another lost cause. Don’t test my patience, get out of here.” He points out towards the elevator.  “ Awwww, are those tears? You never cry. I told you you’re pathetic and broken, this proves what I just said.”

You shake your head, turning around and limping towards the elevator, tripping on the carpet because your bad leg is misbehaving. You hear him laugh:
“Ha!Ha!Ha!Ha! So useless!”

You swallow your tears all the way down when your cell rings. You see it’s your informant and you answer right away:

“When Mister J is going to his “Savage” club tonight, it will be an ambush: Sully’s men; they’ll try to kill him. Pass the word.”

“Thank you, Axel,” you mumble, turning off your phone and placing back in your pocket.

I am not telling him anything, the jerk deserves anything coming his way! You decide as you reach the basement’s garage and the elevator’s door open. Let them kill him.

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First thing you do when you get to your apartment is wash away the neon green highlights from your bright red hair. It makes you feel better until the little thoughts pop in your mind: “Are you going to let them kill him?”, “Yes, I don’t care.” “But…it’s J.” “I really don’t care; his men can protect him if they can.” “But…it’s J.”

“Ughhhh,” you cover your face with the small pillow, attempting to erase any feelings you might have from your conscience. “But…it’s J…Come on, it’s J…” the idea keeps on repeating and echoing in your mind until you get up from the loveseat, exasperated.

“Shit, fine, I’m going, just shut the hell up!” you admonish yourself, looking in the mirror. “The asshole doesn’t deserve me…” you conclude, getting the duffle bag with your rifle out of the closet.

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You go and place yourself on the top of the tallest building, about half a mile away from “Savage”. You watch everything through the scope, but so far nothing out of place. Your left hand is shaky again and you put so much effort into controlling it you’re starting to sweat. “Not now, please” you reason with your weak side of the body, cracking your neck. Another two hours pass by and you finally see The Joker’s Lamborghini approaching followed by 3 SUV’s.

You wipe your forehead and concentrate more, looking around carefully as he parks and gets out of the car. Suddenly, you see the four men in black suits, wearing running shoes and you know it’s them: Sully’s men trademark attire. They approach from different angles and you wait until they are fairly close to the Joker and his henchmen. They noticed the assassins too and surrounded J, protecting him. He takes out his gun, waiting, and he watches as suddenly one by one they fall to the ground, their brains splattered on the concrete.

He lifts his eyes, searching the buildings around as his goons get him to his car so he can safely leave. Three more assassins start running towards his Lamborghini and you shot again, the last one collapsing right in front of the Joker’s car. He looks up, but he sure doesn’t have the right building you’re on top of. He knows it’s you and bites on his cheek, growling, taking off with his men before the cops show up.

You wipe your forehead, exhausted, resting your head on the trigger:

“I’m not pathetic and broken.”     Did you want to prove that to him or yourself? Probably both.

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J drove straight back to the penthouse, laying low for the rest of the night. He gets in bed, trying to sleep and can’t because you’re not there. He looks at your empty side of the bed and moves over, burring his face in your pillow-it smells like you. Another hour and he’s still awake, tossing and turning.

“I don’t like broken things,” he whispers, opening his eyes just to see your items scattered all over the bedroom since you didn’t take anything with you. It really makes uncomfortable realizing he feels the exact opposite of not liking you. Or so he believes.

“I really don’t like broken things,” he gets mad, exasperated, forcing himself not to think of anything.

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The sound of your cane hitting the wood floor startles you and you wake up, leaning over so you can reach and turn on the lamp. You see The Joker kicking it again, and again.

“Stupid piece of crap!” he shouts, his green hair all over his face.

“What are you doing here?!” you rub your eyes, not glad to see him at all. “Get out!”

He just comes over and yanks at your hand:

“Let’s go, Doll, you’re coming back, I can’t sleep without you.”

“Screw you!” you pull back, upset he broke into your apartment and has the nerve to act like nothing happened.

“Yes, you can do that too, you naughty girl, I know you can’t wait,” he tries to yank you away again.

The evil glare you give him makes him stop and he regains his posture, sighing:

“You’re coming back; you know I can’t sleep without you.”

“I don’t care!!!!” you cover your body with the blanket like it’s going to help any. He sees your watery eyes and decides to drop it.

“Fine, then I’ll sleep here.” He goes around the bed and gets under the blanket, scooting over so he can be close to you. “Now shut up, I have to sleep, I’m tired as hell!” He places his head on your pillow, waiting for you to get down and join him. You watch him with indignation, sniffling, and kick him:

“Get out of my apartment!”

The Joker ignores your behavior and decides to talk with his eyes closed:

“I don’t like broken things…”
“I’m not a broken thing you presumptuous …” you start your rant, getting ready to kick him again when he interrupts:

“…but you’re my favorite thing. Good, I thought that would shut you up,” he grins, forcefully pulling you in his arms as you struggle to escape. “Ahhhhh, I like it when you’re feisty. Queens are feisty…” he nuzzles in your hair for a few seconds then pecs your lips and holds you tighter. “Don’t think I didn’t notice your green highlights are gone. They’ll be back first thing in the morning, got it?”

“You can’t tell me what to do!” you try to make a comeback but he cuts you short again:

“The hell I can’t! Now shut up, I’m so worn out,” he gets your left leg around his waist and holds it, this way you’re glued to him. “There, I know you can’t hold it yourself.”

When you don’t answer he opens one eye and sees you stare at him with that hurt expression on your face that makes him uneasy.

“Stop it, Pumpkin, I really need to rest,” J kisses your forehead and you whimper, upset:

“You’re such a jerk.”

“Pffft,” he scoffs, “is that supposed to be news to me? Now zip it and I mean it,” he scolds you, annoyed.

“Jerk…” you faintly mumble before closing your eyes.

He just smiles, knowing he will finally be able to doze off.

Also read- MASTERLIST

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anonymous asked:

hey, do you mind if you do 707/Zen/Jumin/Vanderwood HC finding out that MC has business connection with them? in 707/Vanderwood's case, MC is missing secret agent who is now living with new identity. in Zen's case, MC is also musical actress. in Jumin's case, MC is daughter of CEO/Chairman of company that competes with C&R International. thanks

I don’t mind at all, I never would!!!! This sounds like tons of fun, I really hope that you’ll like it!!! Let’s begin!!!(ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧ ✧゚・: *ヽ(◕ヮ◕ヽ)

Zen

  • You weren’t the biggest musical actress, but it was still your job
  • You kinda found a way to keep it out of the picture when you first joined the RFA
  • But when you and Zen became a couple it was hard to hide
  • You lasted maybe three weeks
  • But getting Maria in the Sound of Music, well it’s kinda hard to hide that
  • You tell him one night, since rehearsals start tomorrow
  • You kinda put it off, but it’s inevitable so you gather up your courage and tell him
  • He looks at you for a minute
  • Then gives you a huge hug and the cutest “squee!” ever
  • “MC how come you never told me! That’s awesome!!!! I’m so proud of you, I mean it’s Maria!!! The Sound of Music!!! That’s such a  big deal!!!”
  • Now you guys are constantly practicing together
  • He likes the scene with the Captain and Maria
  • Constantly singing “Edelweiss”, “Sixteen going on Seventeen”, and “I must’ve done something good”
  • It’s such a romantic musical, and he loves it
  • Goes to your opening performance right in the front cheering you on
  • You are so grateful
  • Now he wants to do musicals with you
  • You’re super nervous about it, but agree
  • You get accepted
  • Now everyone in the RFA wants you to shut up with all your singing

Jumin

  • When you found out you immediately hushed up about yourself
  • You didn’t want Jumin to hate you, or feel indignant towards you
  • Being the daughter or C&R’s biggest rival
  • It would be awkward
  • But when Jumin learned your full name it was pretty obvious
  • You had left a letter from your aunt on the counter
  • And it passed his eye
  • When you got home he asked you why you didn’t tell him
  • You made a rushed and babbling reply, but he just smiled
  • Scooped you up
  • “Why didn’t you tell me? I wouldn’t judge you. Just because our companies are rivals doesn’t mean I have to hate you.”
  • You nod slowly, but still feel worried about what this means for the future of the companies
  • When your father begins to require you to stay around the company to learn the ropes more you feel torn between staying and leaving
  • You talk to Jumin and decide you’ll go there for three months, then come back until required again
  • During those three months you talk every day and facetime
  • He sends you cute pics of Elizabeth
  •  And when you have to tell your father and mother about it Jumin is very polite to them
  • They approve and you have never been so relieved
  • It’s a great day when you come home
  • Lots of cuddling that night
  • Elizabeth missed you too

707/Saeyoung

  • You were shocked when you saw who it was
  • And as nervous as the day you left
  • You knew there was no way he’d forget, and it freaked you out
  • You were always pretty cautious, but now you become insane about it
  • When you meet him again for the first time you’re sweating bullets
  • And when he ignores you, you get annoyed and flip him over your soldier
  • When he finally breaks his silence one of the first things you talk about is your past
  • “Are you going to tell anyone?” You asked nervously
  • “Why would I? You left for a reason, and I won’t let them drag you back into it.”
  • You practically cry with happiness
  • Saeyoung is very careful about his enemies
  • God knows what would happen if they found out
  • Sometimes when he’s having an extra hard time with a problem you help out
  • You are amazing at puzzles and coding
  • Sometimes he calls you by your birth name, but only when you two are alone
  • You think it’s weirdly romantic
  • Only he knows your real name

Vanderwood

  • They recognized you the minute you entered the room
  • And so did you
  • Seven knew, but he kinda ignored you, and didn’t bring it up, you were friends, and knew your boundaries
  • But you completely forgot about them
  • Their mouth kinda drops open and you go to make a dash for it
  • You almost make it to the door before they catch up to you
  • “Wait! Stop -”
  • “Don’t call me that!”
  • It takes a bit to calm you down
  • They give you a drink of water
  • You guys talk a lot
  • They agree to never call you your real name in public
  • Secretly keeps and eye on you
  • Becomes very protective of you
  • Accidentally says your name once when you to were watching a movie
  • They were half asleep, and by then you don’t mind
  • It takes you a while to get used to them enough to be comfortable with them, but when you do you become very open with them
  • They’re the only one who knows why you left
  • And they’re the only one who knows which cases you did and what you’ve seen
  • They’ll protect the information with their life
  • Like you will with the stuff they tell you

Hope you liked!! I hope you don’t mind I took you scenarios. Tell me if you do and I’ll rewrite it!!! Hope you like and so happy to do this. Have an amazing day with sparkles and rainbow llamas!!! (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧ ✧゚・: *ヽ(◕ヮ◕ヽ)

Rob’s Interview with Howard Stern. Highlights’ (my notes):

  • Howard Stern: I like it (Good Time) …you were fucking edgy!
  • HS: When you were doing Twilight, were you kind of worried that you will get stereotyped like, you will never get this kind of role? Like Good Time, I mean in Good Time you played this fucked up criminal

Rob: I never felt necessarily typecast in Twilight, it was pretty different from who I was as a person anyway. I was like, it was not my default…

  • HS: There are so many fucking jerk offs in Hollywood. They grew up, did a franchise, made millions etc…
  • Co-host : Did you walk away from it or did you lock in?  

Rob: You probably would have been sued (to walk away)

…. I enjoyed the whole process. So few people get an opportunity like that, for 5 or 6 years, it was crazy.

… not at the first one, not at all (regarding the craze and mania).

… I thought it (first Twilight) was going to be a little cool movie.

  • HS: It took 37 million to produce the 1st Twilight. You were 21 years old when you auditioned.

Rob:  I came in right at the last minute.

  • “If you could teach yourself to gag”  - the trick to get yourself to cry when acting. He said he was unsure about his own acting skills.
  • He had to take half a valium to reduce anxiety before Twilight audition
  • Before Rob was born, his mom worked as a broker for a modelling agency.
  • He started modelling at 12. Signed on at 13 when that was the start of the androgynous trend, when he has “pretty girl’s breast”.
  • At 15, his dad motivated him to join a drama club after speaking to some girls at a restaurant with him.
  • He got expelled from a private “arty” school for stealing porn in school uniform, and selling them to his classmates.  “ I got so cocky” and tried to take the whole rack of magazines and stuffed them in his backpack without zipping.
  • He tried to make up a lie, and was given a choice to either call the cops or his parents. “Every one of his friend snitched on me”.  He sold them for 20 pounds each. “I liked stealing things and lying”.

https://youtu.be/Snk6mGGKH4M to watch a short cilp about this porn enterprise. or at the end of this post.

  • He stopped stealing after that. “Went to a school that was way worse than me.”
  • He recalled the first thing he stole: Snapping candy bracelets.
  • Also liked stealing security tags in alarm clocks, “get high on it (stealing)”.
  • His big role before Twilight was Harry Porter, after which he got into a play but was fired 5 days before opening, without knowing the reason.
  • Rob said he looked like a mess at the 5th Harry Potter premiere red carpet, because he was eating In and Out all the time in LA.
  • He was looking sweaty and chubby, and was probably the reason why people wrote in to protest when he got the role of Edward based on those red carpet photos.
  • For playing Salvador Dali, he had to wax his whole body. For masturbation scenes, he wanted to really do it only if it came as a surprise to people (not at their suggestion).
  • Twilight series are teenage films, he felt that teenage romance should be serious, not smiley and happy.
  • Producer highlighted the smiles, he highlighted the frowns on the script. They felt that he has gone too miserable.

https://youtu.be/NrB28374Ggo to watch how he almost got kicked out for that.

On Twilight craze and Fame:

Rob:

  • Goes in waves, not being able to walk down the street is “pretty nuts”
  • No one is looking at you, and if they are looking, they are not seeing the same thing. 

HS: Is it fun or is it a headache?

Rob: “Both. It is definitely a ride, but I wouldn’t change a thing.”

“… I wasn’t ready for that kind of evaluation (the intensity while also dating your co-star).”

HS: Do you think it is inevitable, is it advisable to fall in love with you co-star? Good thing or a bad thing?

"On the first Twilight, it was very different. Later on, people noticed the difference, you upset many people, you suddenly have the power and you don’t know what it is.“

  • Rob did therapy years later *when the movies ended*, had to know that the previous life doesn’t exist anymore.
  • At 26. He was feeling secure up until the last one. “Impossible to think you will repeat yourself.”
  • He had a massive freak out at the first Twilight premiere. He was embarrassed by he interview he did, promoting it like an indie. He left and ran out and left the country. “I’m done” and stayed 6 months away.
  • He renegotiated after that.

About Good Time and filming in New York

  • “If you made yourself grimy enough, you can escape being noticed”
  • He would love to get caught doing that (sell porn) now
  • He is very, very happy about good reviews on Good Time
  • It is going to take him 10 years after the Twilight series, to come up with other movies. Meantime, he tried all different angles (of movies and acting).

About Superhero movies    

  • To do one, you have to sign up for 8 movies. He cannot do it, after 5 movies with Twilight.
  • Because it is a commitment to work with a huge machine.

About acting method, and learning accent.

  • Multi-impression. Everyone is from Queens. Very specific dialect. He picked it up by immersing himself with his co stars who are all from NYC.
  • Connie is, ”He’s just a narcissistic psychopath” instead everyone commented that “he loves his brother so much.”

About Fifty Shades of Grey

  • He hasn’t seen it.
  • “I know the writer of the book. Met her a Chateau Marmont, just as “a lady from England”. I was forcing her to tell me every one of her fantasies.”*laughs*
  • That role  “just needs to work out too much”
  • HS : Do you go to gym? “One week on, 3 months off”.

About dick, fights and endorsements

  • “Very hard to confront a guy who is trying to take a picture of your dick.”
  • Rob’s last major fight was when he was 18,19.
  • Rob was looking like a punk with a half-shaved head in Toronto at a bar. Met a guy who is half a foot taller, taking pic of him. *He smacked that guy*.
  • Turned down a multimillion dollar deal to be the face of Burberry. “How did you find that? That is crazy…” he asked HS
  • HS :Why accept endorsement deal with Dior?

Rob: “… I always tried to avoid from being put in a box. Burberry being kind of British, always known to not wanting to be known as British (keep it vague). Dior was less vague as British.”

About audition, music and relationships. ·        

  • He goes in audition as a character with an American accent
  • HS : Do you play music?  He could “fool people for about a minute and a half,” learned guitar from listening to Van Morrison. playing basic F, C, G, E chords, kind of have 8 little run..
  • HS: Song writer? “2 years to write a song.” 

HS: Well your fiancé is…

HS: “Well you’re engaged, right?”,

Rob: “Kind of…”*laughs*

HS: WHAT? You the “Secretive with relationship guy…protective”? …I never get that, I think part of the fun being with a woman is march around with her.

  • HS: The woman…you are with, FAQ?….“Yeah, she is amazing yeah…FKA Twigs…she is like super talented…Totally different one”.
  • HS: Do you call her like FKA?…”Call her…yeah Twigs basically. That was her nickname
  • HS: “I wonder if you’ll get married.” …*LAUGH*
  • HS: “It is hard decision for a guy like you. You can have anyone.”

Rob: “I don’t know about that…Not really.”

“…Being an actor, it ACTUALLY kind of narrows things down…  you get kind of paranoid. Most people may think they want a relationship with you. Then they realised, this is not what I want AT ALL. There is a big imbalance in the relationship.”

About trolls (online)

  • “They are professional trolls. Addicted to wanting to cause hurt and pain. Most difficult thing. They are faceless enemy. Nuts, random names. Different countries somewhere. Fake to them, real in your life.”
  • “Like you know there is one room in your house, where people talk nasty things about you. When you are down, you start listening to the whispers.”
  • (If you attack) you are feeding it. You feel less powerful, like attacking your reflection in the water. You’ll look crazy. 

About working with the Safdie Brothers and Academy award

~ See Josh’s instagram vidoe below. I couldn’t transcibe properly“ LOL

Rob : “Just do what I did…bla bla bla bla. *quick hand movements*

  • “I am just so happy that people liked it (Good Time).”
  • “ I just knew something was going on.”
  • “That is how I always try to get jobs basically. No one is going to know your taste better than you.”

Rob said “I will forgive you (the trolls)”, if they watch Good Time over and over again.

>>>The full interview was 1 hour. Talking about his “relationship” 5 minutes. The bulk of it was Twilight, auditioning, Good Time etc.

A post shared by JOSH SAFDIE (@booger_nose) on Jul 25, 2017 at 7:57am PDT


i didn’t and that just goes to show how reliable the info that is being passed around is. i’m not gonna link the post so i won’t direct anyone there but it’s a sub!soo url (no surprises here)

i can’t believe somebody has put that much effort into pulling stuff out of my blog to present it to people out of context to “prove” i’m a horrible person and to have an excuse to attack me and incite people to do the same and to intimidate others so that they won’t associate with me. and all because i talked about heteronormativity in kyungsoo fic.

“it’s a shame that even though topping or bottoming doesn’t have to be tied to personality or physical appearance a lot of people can’t accept that and you can’t even talk about it because it causes a riot. “

point proven.

a year ago some kaisoo shippers attacked me because of a stupid post, started a top vs bottom war in the tags, a big ksoo blog made a post about me and somebody sent me a message that said something like “we’re coming for you” and i didn’t think it would take them this long to come back, whoever that was.

so i saw a callout post for me with screencaps and they added one of my replies where an anon asked me what are my fave ships and i said smth like:
ksoo/animals, ksoo/kids
im ????? (if the joke wasn’t clear i meant to say i like kyungsoo interacting with animals, kids and i think i’ve even said i like him/food more than i like ships lmao i don’t even have an otp cause i don’t obsess over fictional relationships like that. i think i even said ksoo/himself once. i always change the answer when ppl ask me about my otp cause i don’t have one. and then they proceeded to interpret other posts related to children in a p*dophillic way.

and btw i don’t use “shipping” as romantic exclusively because humans are more complicated than that so that’s another thing to keep in mind in the future.

and on the topic of fiction they also posted some darker headcanons and posts about movies to demonstrate how i think kyungsoo is actually like that when i literally used the word headcanon which means it’s a personal interpretation separate from reality, hence the ‘head’ part of the word aka i don’t think it’s real it’s just in your head and you shouldn’t think so either but i guess some people don’t know how to read?)
this blog clearly says in the description there will be darker stuff in here. IF NOT from fic, fanart or headcanons, from kyungsoo’s own works:

and we will talk about them because what i intend to normalize in relation to dark fiction is not that these things are ok but that violent and dark thoughts like these are normal (ask anyone who’s got their head out of their ass, esp. a psychologist and you will see) they can be intrusive or nightmares or your own experiences, they can be things you’re afraid of and it’s ok to talk about them with someone who understands this, to analyze them, and to learn from them without fear of getting harassed (yes, you can learn from this stuff, believe it or not). because guess what? even your faves have their own inner world where dark things brew and are interested in this kind of fiction too! they might even want to play the most horrible characters themselves

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these are some of the warnings for the movies he mentioned:

taken from the chaser & i saw the devil parental guides.

and you know why they wanna do it? me neither but i would like to hear them talk about it without the fear of the public lashing out at them for interpreting a character. but what can you really expect from a public that freaks out over something as normal as an idol dating? who screams out “p*dophile” at the slightest chance (remember when ksoo had a kiss with a minor in pure love and they kissed through an umbrella and ppl still found a way to make him look bad he even regretted his answers?)

the post also added fics with undeage characters… did you know one of those fics is literally a response to all the fic out there that romanticizes that sort of relationship?  
(not linking the fic to protect the author but those who know the title can look it up)


kyungsoo himself, movie directors, fic authors and even simple bloggers like me trust kyungsoo to play a dislikable character precisely because we know he’s not like that and we believe in his potential to portray anything from a loving father to a serial killer.

i’ve always made it clear that the fic i post is not recs, they’re just fics i’ve read (i had the note for years on the fic list before i removed the page cause tumblr glitched and deleted my links and people still didn’t read it back then so meh)

nobody really knows how i feel about the fics if they don’t ask me. and nobody knows the intention of the authors either so i hope you can all think before you speak and have the common sense to ask before you jump to conclusions. not because you see a word that means something horrible attached to a fic or anything it means the person is a bad influence and should be avoided at all costs. be grateful that they had the decency to warn so you could avoid it if you don’t want to see it and they didn’t omit it out of fear or ignorance like a lot of r*pe-y and emotionally abusive fic w/o warnings that people share like it’s romance.

wtf this person also sexualized a post where an anon and i talked about kyungsoo having children and glaring at them so they wouldn’t hurt themselves….. jesus have these people not been around children before? they run around naked and knock things off all the damn time, i cant believe they used THIS post sdfggfdsdf idk if i should laugh or cry oh my god.

just because my blog has a url like this it doesn’t mean everything’s meant to be sexual ???? it’s like having a url that says “exosdigbick” and posting pictures of exo’s bicks and then a picture of exo smiling and then a pic of them holding their dogs. it doesn’t have to be related. i didn’t even choose the url myself, it was the other owner of the blog (it’s kinda like saying “food porn") and i kept it after she left because when those who don’t know it see it they can imagine there will be some sexual stuff in here, mostly fic links, anon fantasies and the occassional reblogged nsfw fanart. i only rarely talk about my own sexual fantasies cause it’s awkward. and i’m even afraid to joke because ppl will literally take anything to twist it against you.

im sorry but @ anyone who comes across my blog with preconceived ideas pls leave them at the door and come see for yourself if you want or stay out looking like a fool. this blog isn’t a typical shipper blog or a ficrec blog or wtvr you’re used to seeing around, this is a personal blog dedicated to some underrated concepts (and wtvr else kyungsoo stuff i feel like reblogging at the moment) by an LGBT+ person who’s tired of the world’s bullshit and just wants to do stuff in peace. people misunderstand my sexuality, my gender, my mental illnesses, my everything all the time and that’s mostly from people who’s supposed to know and care about me so some strangers on the internet misunderstanding yet another thing about me is nothing new.

callout post? u mean dedicated haters :\ it took me forever to find my own posts smh

anonymous asked:

hello there! i somehow managed to trap my character into smoking marijuana and idek know how lmaoo but do you have any writing tips on high to play a character while high on marijuana? thank you!

oH MY GOOSE ! I feel like I’ve waited my entire life for a question like this to happen. Homie, my homie. I have so many tips for you !! I’m gonna tell you everything i know, keep in mind i’m not like an expert but i have smoked for a while and i consider myself pretty knowledgeable but still, this is just my experience. pls forgive me if this doesn’t make too much sense sometimes it’s just hard to put an experience into words ya know ?

KNOW WHAT TF YOU’RE SMOKING !

there are two major strains of weed indica & sativa - there are also hybrids which is just a mix of the two. the kind of weed you’re smoking will 112% affect your high. indica’s tend to be more relaxing, they’re a total body high where as sativas are uplifting they’re more of a cerebral high they’re great for being creative ! most people tend to smoke indica’s at night and sativa’s during the day - me included. ( if you wanna know more about different strains & how they grow as well as their effects and benefits watch this video 

WAIT BUT WHAT ABOUT SATIVA EFFECTS !

  • alright listen when you’re playing a character that’s on a cerebral high you got know that there’s a lot of shit happening in your mind - whenever i smoke sativas i start thinking about every single thing i need to do and i write little to do lists for myself and notes for sober me. these are times when i can draw and write for hours on hours and not get bored of it. 
  • you don’t always feel a high in your body but your thoughts will wander all over the place, listening to music is 100 thousand times better and colors look so beautiful. that math homework you didn’t get before suddenly makes sense & you know exactly what you should write about for your english assignment. 
  • you feel a body high but it’s not as intense as with indica it’s more like a light buzzing the only way i can think to describe it is like you know when you put like a speaker on your chest and you feel the vibration it’s like that but it’s your own personal tune. 
  • a lot of times when i smoke sativa i think of really deep fake rational questions like can a vampire get high, i finally understand why that one friend i didn’t understand did this one thing they did, just random connections of things clicking in my mind. 
  • i also tend to just blurt out the first thing that comes through my mind without really thinking about it.  
  • munnnchies !! they’re apart of any high tbh the need to feed becomes very intense. 

DON’T FREAKING SKIP INDICA !

  • india highs are different in the sense that they’re an entire body high. i always feel sort of in a fog when i smoke indicas but my body feels so good like i don’t usually have any aches and pains - so so good if you’re on your period omg take a bath and smoke some indica then curl up with a heating pad & nap yas its amaze. 
  • keep in mind indicas are downers so they make you a bit more lazy and sometimes - depends on the person they can make you very very sleepy 
  • i don’t usually talk as much during these high in fact it’s kind of hard for me to focus on what’s happening long enough to respond to a convo even if i wanted to 
  • if i ever get anxious on weed it’s usually an indica, i tend to feel uneasy in a new situation or if i’m around people i don’t know too well so i defs wouldn’t recommend putting your muse in a social setting if they’re smoking indica especially not for the first time. i mean unless you want them to feel like a super awkward turtle, like the entire world is coming after them and that evERYONE knows that they’re high bc clearly it’s written on their forehead. 
  • can’t forget the munchies man, even as i’m laying in bed barely keeping my eyes open i’ll be stuffing an oreo in my mouth. 

HOW ARE YOU GETTING LIT 

there are a couple ways to smoke either you can roll roll a joint or a blunt ( you’d use papers for joints they’re legit just thin pieces of paper & swishers or backwoods or any other tobacco/cigar type wrap you use for blunts ) you can smoke out of a pipe of some sort ( pipes are legit what you’re thinking they are they’re tubes with a little bowl piece to burn the weed and another where you inhale - pipes can be made into cute little designs i had an adorable elephant pipe his name was fredrickson #ripfreddy. there are also bongs which are long tubular pipes ( not for beginners but you can google pics of how they work ) if you’re a real pro you can make a pipe or a bong outta anything really starbursts, apples, soda bottles, pens - damn near anything. there’s also vaping, sometimes you buy a big vape machine or a small pen and smoke straight thc. there are also dabs which is smoking tbh in it’s oil form but that’s for another post. hit me back if you wanna know about dabs i’ll explain it to ya ! 

WELL WHAT IF I DON’T EVEN WANNA SMOKE IT ?

good question ! if you don’t wanna smoke or if your lungs aren’t too hot or whatever the case may be don’t worry homie you can still be a bonafide stoner. that’s what edibles are for ! edibles are just what they sound like it’s edible marijuana, aka cookies, cakes, brownies, suckers, caramels, rice crispy treats you name it ! if you can bake it, you can put weed in it. all you do is bake the cannabis until it’s dry and crumbly and then mix in water oil and butter and voilA you’ve got canabutter. you can use this butter to bake legit anything you want but it’s usually very strong. like half a brownie will knock you on your ass. edibles are not for beginners although some people think it’s funny to sneak an unsuspecting babe an edible. 

WELL WHAT’S IT’S LIKE TO BE HIGH ON AN EDIBLE ? 

  • straight up edibles are not really like weed, they are but they’re not because they’re much, much, much more intense 
  • everything seems like such an amazing idea, adventures are usually a musT - pokemon go is an edible’s best friend i tell ya oH and puppies. play with a puppy when hella high it’ll change your life
  • honestly whenever i eat an edible i feel like i’m walking on a cloud legit nothing could ever get me down i’m so happy i could practically be funsine bear 
  • foOD IS MY BEST FRIEND. EDIBLES MAKE ME SO. HUNGRY. i get munchies whenever i smoke but an edible ? oh no if i’ve had one of those i can clear my entire fridge of food i feel famished 
  • i’m usually only super hype and up for about 4 hour as soon as i start to come down i come to a screeching halt *crying as i lay down in the sand* i wanna take a nap, im gonna take a nap right here. 
  • depending on how strong the edible is and how many i ate - dude if they’re hella good you cant even taste the weed and eat wAY too many and you go to sleep and wake up high it’s terrible but amazing. 

CAN’T FORGET THE COME DOWN ! 

lucky for your bae marijuana’s come down is pretty chill most of the time i just get very, very sleepy and sometimes you just gotta give into the sleep and when you wake up sometimes i’ll feel refreshed and so ready to tackle the day/night sometimes not so much. if i smoked a lot before i go to bed i’ll wake up very groggy and almost hungover. like bright lights suck ass and my brain takes a million and one years to finally start up. 

annnd yeah holy moly…….. this got hella long but yeah that’s all that’s coming to mind rn i hope this helps you out sugarbooger and if you have anymore questions hit me up i could talk about this all day. 

anonymous asked:

Hiii !!!can you make one of those posts that come in topics (idk how to explain OMG) about how would it be to date Hoshi and you are a really hardcore Shawol like he is(maybe more hehe)?I'm sorry this is not very clear but how things would be, like would he freak out with you when Taemin is doing a comeback? And stuff like this

Hi, and so sorry it took us a million years to do this! Hope you like it ;u; 💕I tried


  • you’d honestly probably meet at a Shinee concert
  • like, you’d be queuing for merch and he’d be standing behind you, but you don’t really notice him before you’ve gotten your merch, including each member’s poster, and hear an upset “Ah, Taemin’s poster just got sold out? Well, then…”
  • you look at the pile of posters you’re carrying and get closer to the guy, who looks at you with a quirked eyebrow as he’s still trying to figure out what to buy instead
  • “I can sell you Taemin’s poster,” you offer and laugh a little when his face lights up, and he makes sure you’re serious before just settling for some of the photo sets and other merchandise
  • while he gets you the money for the poster, you talk about Shinee and find out your seats are next to each other
  • and that if anything is what eventually leads to the two of you getting closer
  • there’s just something about listening to and watching Shinee perform Close the door, wave your light sticks slowly along to it and accidentally bump your hand into his
  • when that happens, both of you just smile at each other, but there’s also a jolt of electricity running through your bodies
  • and when the concert is over and you’re both already missing Shinee, he casually asks you, “When will we see again?”
  • his question would be sudden and you’d be surprised for a while, but eventually gather yourself enough to give him a date and you exchange numbers and all that
  • you only realize at home that he was, in fact, Kwon Soonyoung of Seventeen, and not just your casual Shinee fanboy
  • you’ve just realized that when your phone buzzes with a message
  • ‘I’m Kwon Soonyoung `u´ I look forward to talking more about Shinee with you!!’
  • after that you get a photo of the Taemin poster you had been kind enough to sell him, already put on the wall
  • ‘Oh, and thank you for this. I’ll treat you out for coffee for this!!’
  • you insist that it’s fine since he already paid for the poster, but he refuses to give up, and eventually you go out for coffee
  • and a few days later for another coffee
  • and then some dinner, lunch, and so on, and before long you both hold warm feelings towards each other
  • neither of you would forget the day you became an official couple
  • you were at a café and Shinee’s View was playing, and somewhere near the middle you were both just lost staring into each other’s eyes with small smiles playing on your lips
  • “Do you want to go out with me?”
  • you’d ask the question at the exact same time and burst out into laughter right afterwards
  • “I guess that answers the question,” you’d laugh, and Soonyoung agrees with a happy smile and slowly reaches for your hand
  • NOW to the present
  • dating Soonyoung in general would be a whole lot of fun, and when you add to that that the two of you are Shawols… it only gets more fun
  • you’d always try to go to concerts together, and whenever a new song comes out, you’re both very excited and spam each other about your feelings without a second thought
  • and that’s okay because you’re both so excited
  • there’d be lots of cuddles and having his arms around you, especially when you’re both relaxing
  • besides Carats and the other members, he’d get a lot of his strength and motivation from you, and would always feel a sense of healing whenever he’s with you
  • you’d also be one of the reasons he wants to be as cool as possible on stage, because he knows you’ll see it
  • THE CUTEST COUPLE PICS
  • like both in general he’d love taking photos with you, like the type that you see in cute moodboards and all, of you cuddling and doing things together
  • but also cute couple pics of you being the Shawols you are, holding your light sticks or albums etc when it’s near comeback/concert time
  • (great Shawol selca day material)
  • also lots of teasing
  • you know the loving kind where he’d poke your cheek or vice versa and tease you about something
  • somehow it almost always ends with cute, small kisses and both of you laughing
  • and jokes
  • you’d never get bored with him
  • some of that might be because due to his idol career you don’t exactly get to spend so much time together that you’d grow tired of each other
  • instead, the two of you value any and all time that you can spend together and keep in touch through your phones etc
  • but even so, he’s just very fun to be around and you play a big role in that, too
  • the first time he’d tell you he loves you would be during a Shinee-themed sleepover that you’ve spent just enjoying each other’s company, watching their concert DVDs and all that, and somewhere in the middle he just looks at you warmly and says, “I love you.”
  • when you turn to look at him he blushes and averts his gaze with a soft chuckle and mumbles, “I just wanted to put that out there.”
  • your heart would flutter because you’d felt that way for a while, too
  • also good morning and good night texts are a must
  • even if you’d have just had a disagreement, you’d be certain to get a “good night baby, I love you” message 
  • especially during promotion periods when you can barely see at all, Soonyoung would occasionally give you a surprise video call
  • as soon as you answer it, you’re met with his pouty face, and pretty close, too
  • “I missed you,” he mumbles, and when you smile at him, his pout turns into a smile, too
  • you’d talk for a while, about whatever comes to your minds, and eventually wish each other a good night
  • and since both of you are Shawols
  • all the inside jokes related to Shinee
  • and inside jokes in general, really - most Seventeen members feel like third wheels around the two of you, but you can’t help it, you just match that well
  • chances are you’d occasionally also dance together, try out some new moves and even come up with some for Seventeen
  • and when you both run out of inspiration…
  • “Wanna dance to Ring ding dong?”
  • “…Why not.”
  • so you do, and as always, it’s amazing and the two of you have a lot of fun
  • and eventually end up kissing against the mirror, both of you giggling
  • speaking of kisses, his would often be playful
  • as in, he’d love to just give you a light, quick kiss that leaves you wanting for more, which you’re unable to hide, and then kiss you properly, again and again
  • okay okay if you were both in a rush he wouldn’t do that and instead you’d get like one kiss worth of at least five kisses that never fails to make your heart flutter
  • other times he’d be very passionate and boy would those times be hot
  • also highkey the type to be making out with you and suddenly blurt out something like
  • “I’m going to marry you one day.”
  • or something of that kind
  • like if it’s not about how he wants to have enough children to form a soccer team, he definitely wants to let you know that he has high hopes for the two of you, as exaggeratedly as he puts it
  • and in case it seems too much for you he’ll always make sure that you understand that he’s not that serious
  • like he won’t push that kinds of commitment and seriousness onto your relationship if you don’t want to, or at least until you want to, but he does have hopes
  • …plus honestly in a lot of cases it’d be mostly just talk
  • but imagine him saying that he plans on marrying you, and when you just frown because it doesn’t seem like anything you want to do during the next xx years, he laughs and cups your cheeks
  • “I’m half-joking, Y/N, don’t look so troubled. Let’s go at our own pace and see where we end up, yeah?”
  • and so you’re good again
  • as often as possible, Soonyoung would love to go out with you, although he’d always have to disguise himself to a point
  • but it doesn’t bother you too much, not if that means you get to go to a restaurant with him or go to an amusement park together
  • not to forget that if there is Shinee, there will be you and Soonyoung
  • you’d always look forward to their comebacks together, and quite likely even do your best to watch their music videos etc as soon as they’re out and freak out together
  • some of the other members would probably join you, too, but a lot of them would just raise their eyebrows and be confused while the two of you watch Shinee’s, Taemin’s or Jonghyun’s newest music video 
  • “He looks so cool!!”
  • “Look at those dance moves! I’m getting chills!”
  • “I know! This is so good!”
  • …and if the others are ever wondering when any of the aforementioned have a comeback coming up, they realize that if one was, they would know
  • because whenever there’s news that they’d have a comeback, Soonyoung would dash to the nearest member and exclaim
  • “They’re having a comeback next month!!”
  • and you’d both gush about it all the way until the comeback happened, and even afterwards you’d keep up with the promotions as well as you could
  • the day he co-emceed with Key would’ve been a great day for him but also for you lmao 
  • you’d snuggle him the next time you saw each other and just mumble “You met Key… how amazing.”
  • he’d laugh and be very proud for a while, probably even boast about how amazing it was, but then…
  • “…It was so scary let me tell you, he’s just so cool.”
  • and you can only imagine - if Key looked cool on stage, you could only imagine what he must’ve been like when you’re right next to him
  • in short, you’d have a loving boyfriend, a best friend and a fellow Shawol in one package and it couldn’t get better than that
  • naturally it’s not always just smooth sailing, but it would be a happy, healthy relationship
  • and although it should be a given, some of your sweetest words to each other would be
  • “I love you more than I love Shinee.”

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pj-gingernuts  asked:

Nota, I have enjoyed your blog for a long time and respect your opinion, especially as a multi-shipper and respecter of many other opinions. What do you think Sherlock might have texted to Irene? I loved all of TLD but that one line. Sherlock casually texting someone? I struggle to think of what we are to suppose he writes to her since she can't pick up milk for the flat or meet him to get missile plans. Was Moffat off the rails here or is my imagination limited?

This is a delightful question, thank you!

I’ve thought about this quite a bit since TLD aired, and I haven’t come to any conclusive headcanon.  I don’t think I want to!  I don’t want a definitive answer, because it’s more fun to play around with the possibilities. 

But let’s look at what we know.

Whatever it was, I think we can be certain it wasn’t “casual”. Irene Adler is not someone one texts casually.  Did Sherlock occasionally try to make it *look* casual?  Haha, maybe.  I can just about see him spending 20 minutes trying to compose the perfect “off the cuff” text to her, one that will betray nothing of his feelings, one carefully calibrated to convey the impression that he really couldn’t give a toss about her.  Isn’t that what everyone does?

Though maybe it’s hard to maintain an air of studied indifference once you’ve flown to Karachi to save someone’s life. ;)

Of course, maybe there’s nothing more to it than what we already know.  Sherlock says, “Even I text. Her, I mean, The Woman.” But we knew this:

It’s possible that’s all he meant! Literally one text, telling her Happy New Year five years ago. In which case, what did it mean?  Looked at one way, it’s about as impersonal as you can get.  Anyone on earth could reasonably text “Happy New Year” to anyone else and not mean anything in particular by it except “It’s January 1st

And yet…  The context is that she has sent him 57 texts that he has ignored, then convinced him she was dead.  And then showed up again, texting him “I’m not dead, let’s have dinner.”

How does he respond to that?  He could have been angry, or dismissive, or hurt, or impressed.  But what he says is, “Happy New Year.”  What’s that mean?  I imagine Irene tied herself in knots trying to figure it out.  My best guess is it means: “I’m glad you’re alive.  I’m not angry, but I don’t trust you, so I’m being extremely cautious and have no intention of revealing anything more of myself than I have to.  But consider this an invitation to continue texting me.”

Frankly I think Sherlock was probably thrilled that New Year’s gave him an excuse to text her without having to come up with anything personal to say.  Have you ever tried to text someone you’re sort of interested in but don’t know well?  It’s excruciating!  I’m sure many of us have defaulted to conventional scripts like “Happy New Year” that allow us to say “I’m thinking of you, and want you to be thinking of me,” but without actually *saying* any of that. 

So maybe that’s it.

But Sherlock does say in TLD, “you know, sometimes.” Plural.  So let’s assume there’s more than just that one text.  What might these texts say?

Given that Irene is texting him on his birthday, I kind of like the idea that they have kept up this awkward, excessively formal and impersonal mode of texting-only-on-holidays-and-special-occasions because they’re both too terrified to express any actual emotion without a buffer of plausible deniability.  I can imagine that at some point in the past five years, Sherlock texted Irene on her birthday, and she wondered how he knew (I mean, she’s probably changed identities three times, so it might not be an easy thing to uncover.).  Of course, he was showing off his detective skills, so she had to respond by meeting his challenge and figuring out when his birthday was.  Maybe that’s the game they’re playing?  That could be fun.

But to me, the most intriguing part of Sherlock’s admission is that he says, “Bad idea; try not to."  Why exactly is it a bad idea?  Why does he try not to? 

I’ve sent a few "bad idea” texts myself, over the years, so I think I can conjure up some possibilities. ;)

– maybe it encourages her to text him more often, which distracts him from his work.

– maybe they’re sexting, which is enjoyable at the time but always kind of embarrassing in the light of day (especially if Sherlock is really bad at it).  

– maybe he feeds her clues from cases and asks her opinion (since she likes detective stories).  Maybe she responds to these overtures in a more frankly sexual way than he is comfortable with, leading to blushing at crime scenes, etc.

– maybe texting her makes her expect more out of him than he’s prepared to give, and he then has to spend five months blowing her off so she doesn’t think they’re “dating” or anything so commonplace.

– maybe his texting back freaks her out because she doesn’t want anything more than a light flirtation, and he gets hurt when she backs off.  

– I can totally imagine Irene as the kind of person who doesn’t respond to a text for months and months, until the sender has gone from intrigued to annoyed to frantic to humiliated to despairing to blocking the number (just let her *try* to text me), then surreptitiously unblocking it (because that was juvenile, I’m bigger than that), to finally deciding she’s never going to text again and he doesn’t even care because it’s not like he liked her anyway.  And that’s the moment when she texts back and starts the whole cycle over again.  Talk about a power play!  I can imagine Sherlock would *really* hate that, but not be able to resist it either.

– maybe Sherlock asks about work and she describes what she’s doing to her clients and that’s both interesting and alarming.  And distracting.

– maybe he occasionally asks for advice on personal matters (like, how can I suggest to my friend and his wife that I’d be up for a threesome?), and she responds with what might be good advice, but he’ll never know because he never takes it.

– maybe no matter what he texts, she invariably responds that he’s been a bad boy and could use a good thrashing, and he’s…  not at all sure if he should take her up on that.  

– maybe they text each other the same kind of banal, idly flirtatious chatter that we saw John exchange with Eurus, and it all simply drives him mad with frustration.

– maybe they reminisce about Moriarty, and what he meant to them both, and that dredges up uncomfortable feelings he’d rather not examine too closely.

– maybe they exchange n00ds.

– maybe they discuss philosophy and literature but it always devolves into an argument over some minor theoretical point, and neither of them is precisely sure what the hell they’re fighting about but it gets vicious really quickly because they’re both hate backing down. (that one might be borrowed pretty directly from my life, oops.)

– maybe he sent her a dick pic and she rated it against all her clients and well if that wasn’t humiliating! He will definitely not try that again.

Hmmmm I think that’s all I’ve got. Anyone else got any ideas?  

😊Age is Just A Number (Grayson x Reader)

Summary: Could you maybe do an imagine where y/n and Grayson like each other a lot and fans obviously see them flirting all the time and all over each other’s social media. But Y/N is about 3 years older then Grayson and some fans give her hate about it saying it’s “gross and weird” so they don’t date. And Y/N decides it would be best to leave Gray alone. But she’s still good friends with E. and he convinces them to be together so they go public in a video? And the fans end up shipping it? Thanks love ❤️

Warnings: None

A/N: I hope you guys enjoy this and remember requests are OPEN

Originally posted by curlymotherfuker

@Graysondolan: You’re so electric⚡️

@Graysondolan: Girl you’ve got my heart racing💕❤️😊

@Graysondolan: You’ve got my head spinning just wow you’re so 😍

I knew full well that these tweets were directed at me. Grayson and I had met at Coachella and we just hit it off. We both actually live in LA and we all, Ethan Gray and I, have hung out on numerous occasions. Grayson and I always flirted and I knew fans knew something was going on. Grayson has definitely direct messaged me plenty of times wanting to go on a date, but I always turn him down. It wasn’t that I didn’t like him, but he was 17. I’m 20. I’m a college student while he’s a youtuber with millions of fans. I couldn’t be that person. I didn’t want people to call me a cougar. I was currently sitting in my living room when my phone buzzed with a notification.

@Graysondolan: Let’s d8💐 @your_username I’ll pick you up tonight at 8 :)

@your_username: Alright as long as you’re buying ;)

@Graysondolan: Of course! My mother always told me to pay for a beautiful woman’s meal and that’s what I plan to do 😝

I just simply started laughing before realizing I needed to change. I ran up the stairs to my bedroom and threw on a maroon crop top with blue high waisted jeans. I grabbed my white vans and laced them on. I looked myself over once more in the mirror before walking downstairs to feeling my phone blowing up.

@Dolanfan1: OMG WHAT IS HAPPENING

@Dolanfan2: Isn’t she like 25? What a cougar lol Gray stick with women in your age range please.

@Dolanfan3: @your_username stealing the cradle are we?

Don’t get me wrong. Some fans were supportive and have been shipping this since day 1, but most of them were not. They were calling me a cradle robber, a cougar, child predator, basically anything to hurt me they said. I was worried this would happen. I sit on my couch as I read more tweets.

@Dolanfan1: Haha @your_username thinks she really has a chance? The only chance she has is getting thrown in jail…

@Dolanfan2: What trash. Stay away from him he’s too young for you! Predator!

I could feel tears welling up in my eyes. I knew this was a bad idea. I needed to cancel this now. I couldn’t do this. I then heard a knock at my door knowing full well it was Grayson ready for our date.

“Go away!” I choked out through tears.

“Y/N? Are you okay?” He asks through the door.

“Grayson please leave.” I begged still scrolling through twitter. I started to feel sick.

“Y/N if this is about what’s happening on twitter–” I cut him off.

“Grayson please! I don’t want to date you. Just please leave! It’s best if we don’t see each other either. Just please,” I started to choke again. “Forget about me.” I didn’t hear him say anything but I heard the faint sound of footsteps leaving my porch. I sat there and I was still scrolling through twitter. It was nothing more than what I read earlier. I was feeling sick to my stomach. I liked Grayson so much and I know he liked me a lot too. I knew this was for better though. I could focus on my education and he could focus on his YouTube.

I decided I needed to shower the day away. I threw my phone on the couch and I walked into the bathroom stripping my clothes off. I stepped in the shower to feel the hot water tingling my back. I rinsed my hair and scrubbed my body as I relaxed against the wall just thinking. I thought about Grayson. As much as it pained me I thought of us holding hands at the park and giggling. I thought of Ethan and Gray filming a YouTube videos while I did my best to mess them up or make them laugh. I thought of Grayson’s tweets and comments on my Instagram photos telling me how stunning I was. I could feel the cool tears roll down my cheeks as the now warm water patted against me.

“Y/N?” My thoughts were interrupted by a familiar voice. “Y/N where are you?” I recognized the deep voice as Ethan. What was he doing here?

“I’m in the shower! I’ll be out in a second.” I hollered as I washed the remaining soap off my body and dried myself off quickly. I threw on some sweats and a tank top while I wrapped my hair up in a towel. I hurried downstairs to see Ethan sitting on my couch. I had a feeling I knew why he was here. “Ethan go. It’s over.” I said softly wanting to cry again. Ethan then started laughing.

“Haha no it’s not. Grayson told me what happened and I saw the tweets. Look what you and Gray have is real. You may not see it but I do, and obviously the fans do too.” Ethan put his phone in his pocket and stood to his feet. “If they didn’t see it then they wouldn’t feel the need to hate. You need to understand that this happens to everyone. Yes you’re 20, but so what? Age is just a number. You and Grayson have something that I wish I could find. Some people never find what you two have. Don’t throw it all away over some haters.” Ethan says sounding sincere. Since Gray and I have had our thing Ethan and I have grown really close. I could actually say he was my best friend. “Give him another chance.” Ethan pleas.

“I think I can do that.” I said smiling to Ethan which he then tackled me into a hug.

“I’ll be back.” Eth then runs outside and is gone for a minute before coming back inside with a Gray behind him. I felt this huge sinking feeling when I saw him and I instantly felt awful for earlier.

“Gray I’m sorry. I’m so sorry about what I said.” I apologized but Gray just wrapped his arms around me and his lips landed on mine. I could feel a blush creeping on my face. He pulls away smiling.

“I don’t blame you but I promise with me no one will hurt you.” Grayson says and this time I hug him. I then see Ethan pull out his camera and angle it towards us.

“Let’s film a video! The fans always support it if we do it in a video.” Ethan says and I hide my face in Gray’s chest and I feel him chuckling. We sat down on my couch while E filmed.

“Hey you guys you’ve probably already noticed that this isn’t E sitting next to me. He’s behind the camera.” Grayson introduces and Ethan puts his hand infront if the camera and waves. “This is Y/N and she happens to be extremely special to me.” His hand grabs mine and I start blushing. He starts talking about who I am, how we met, why I was special, and so on. Ethan and I would crack up at how cheesy Gray was being and he would kiss my cheek throughout the video. “Peace!” We all screamed at the end of the video and I looked to Grayson.

“So about that date?” I asked which just made Grayson laugh.

“Well it’s almost 9 now so the reservations I made are cancelled.” He says and I frown.

“Let’s just order a pizza and watch something on Netflix?” I offered and he smiled.

“While you guys do that I’m going to edit this video and get it ready for Tuesday.” Ethan then leaves the room after we all share our goodbyes and thank yous. I snuggle into Grayson’s arm and wrap a blanket around us.

“Smile babe.” He says as he flashes his phone on us while he’s kissing my forehead and posts a pic of us on snap captioning ‘New Vid Tuesday :)’.

***

@Dolanfan1: @Graysondolan and @your_username are so freaking cute! #shipname

Dolanfan2: #dolantwinsnewvideo was so freaking cute with @your_username I just can’t get over how amazing they are ☺️❤️

Fans were overly supportive of Grayson and I’s relationship and I couldn’t thank them enough for being so supportive. It had been about a few days since Grayson and I put everything out in the open. Even though I still got some hate, many more fans were supportive that the haters were drowned out. I was currently lying with Grayson while we were attempting to nap but we just couldn’t get over that we were actually here right now. He gives my nose a kiss and runs his thumb across my cheek.

“Thanks for giving me a second chance babe. I couldn’t be happier.” He says smiling.

“Back at you. Sorry for overreacting before.” I said as he kisses my forehead.

“Don’t apologize. Just ignore the haters and remember even if you are older than me know that age is just a number. And you’re my number one.” He says being cheesy which makes me giggle and kiss him gently as I fall asleep in his arms.




Xx Thanks for the request :)

hisoka will kill leorio

Up until now, Hisoka’s role in Hunter has been pretty ambiguous - Being some kind of mentor to Gon more often than not. Knowing about the limitations Gon imposed on himself in order to defeat Neferpitou , how could it not be tempting for Hisoka to push Gon over the edge - giving Gon the highest possible level of resolve, making him into the perfect opponent? I mean in the scene with illumis conversation with killua

he was thinking about who to kill to get a bonus out of it first he said if alluka doesnt die but illumi does and he’s not hated by killua thene even if gon comes back he wont get any bonus so he thought that killing alluka and making killua hate him and killing killua to get illumi to hate him might be the best choice of action so he would have no problem killing someone to get 

a person to hate him and getting himself a bonus in their fight  and inspring someone to get stronger so why wouldnt he do that to gon kill someone gon cares about in order to get gon to hate him especially since he knows about what happened Neferpitou  and killing leorio would givve gon a reason to get stronger

and leorio and gon have a close relationship which has been shown to the hunters and hisoka would know about that and have seen that 

plus  its well known that leorio punched ging in the face because he didnt want to go visit gon

 . heck there is a theory that part of the reason why hisoka is killing members of the phantom troupe in order to give chrollo a reason  to get stronger 

he is killing to get excitement and inticipation “. He is ecstatic that Chrollo could turn out to be better than he could ever imagine. This is actually very important and more complex than it first appears, for as a chronic manipulator Hisoka prides himself as a master in reading people, and as one can deduce from past events, rated the spider organization as a whole as beneath The Zodiacs (think: why didn’t he pursue anyone else in the spider after Chrollo has been disabled and instead turned his attention to the Zodiacs in the election arc?) excluding Chrollo (and maybe Machi).This view could stem from two reasons: first, as an egotist himself, he feels that the family/friendly dynamics of the Spider makes for weak individuals. Some members of the Spider are relatively weak if working solo, reliance on backup and complementary powers makes them inflexible when someone gets the drop on them (this is proven with Machi’s quick defeat along with Shalnark and Kortopi’s quick demise), and thus uninteresting as opponents for duels; second, the Spider as a whole lacks something that almost all strong people in this world have in common “want”, and the will to achieve them in “life”, although seemingly hedonistic, their core belief was still derivative of their Meteor City origin, while they expanded their ideology from being “pariahs” who only retaliate to “bandits” who take what they can from others. Their will is still reactive rather than a primary urge to “want” (they want what was taken from them, rather than what they don’t have), evidence being that they usually steal things on a whim and then get bored with them soon later, and that everyone, including the leadership, place no value on their very lives and were ready to die anytime without regret.They as a group have gotten so far on resentments of those outsider their group and massive talents of their leadership and members, but they will always be at a disadvantage when fighting someone with pure intent like a true Hunter like Ging (the first rule of being a pro Hunter is that a Hunter must “Hunt” something) or Hisoka himself (anyone who read Steel Ball Run will know this as the concept of “dark will”). Chrollo, by all intents and purposes, should fit in to the mold of this lesser tier, so it makes sense for Hisoka’s early interest in fighting him as he believed back then Chrollo is already the strongest he can be due to him having seemingly no drive to get stronger. However, after fighting and losing to Chrollo’s new and improved abilities first hand, something clicked in Hisoka’s mind. He would simply have to force a reason out of Chrollo to make him give the fight of a lifetime, by pressing his berserk button through killing his true companions. Being the father to his men he is, Chrollo will advance his abilities beyond Hisoka’s wildest dreams, with the bonus that every time one is dead the next one will advance accordingly in power due to hatred stacking.”

and learning about what got gon to make te  condiiton the death of someone he admired he would want to get gon to hate him  by killing someone gon loves and it wouldnt be killua because he sees potential in killua to give him a good fight so he would want to save killua for later to give him a good fight.

so the best option is leorio given that hisoka would know about leorio and gons relationship from the scenes in the pic above and that ging doesnt realy care about gon ( so  Idoubt he would go after ging like how he wouldnt go after illumi to get killua angry ) so leorio would be the best option to hisoka 

and leorio is currently in the lower decks and if he is attacked word will not be able to get out to the upper depths and hisoka said that he will not let his target know 

plus gon has never experienced proper loss before so its only fiting that someone who is close to him dies so he can experience loss

and leorio is the best option since he is the only one of the main characters who doesnt have an arc currently 

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The Wings Tour - 19/03/2017 - São Paulo, Brasil

So I went to the BTS concert here in Brasil…. I was going to make a whole text about it and stuff but I decided that my own self freaking out to my friend on twitter right after I came back from the concert was a more accurate description of my experience over there. So I decided to just copy and paste everything I sent to her, with all the grammar mistakes, caps and misspelling:

“So first of all I’m dead… like come to my funeral tomorrow cause I’m fucking dead. 

Second of all it’s now almost four am, the concert ended about 22:30 and just now after I took a shower I managed to stop shaking and crying.  

Third of all my body hurts like I’ve been run over by a truck but it’s okay.

So let me tell you about the concert.

IT WAS THE BEST CONCERT EVER EVEN THO THE ORGANIZATION AND SOME PPL SUCKED BECAUSE THEY MADE IT PERFECT! EVERYTJING WAS SO BEAUTIFUL ALL THE STAHE PROPS ALL THEIR OUTFITS THEMAS A WHOLE AND EVEN IF SOMME PPL THERE WERE SHIT TJE CROWD WAS BEAUTIFUL TO BE SEEN

THEIR VOUCES ARE SO FUCKING AMAZING AND THEY ARE SO FUCKING PRETTY I CANT BELIEVE THEY ARE REAL

TAE AND HOBI WERE SO HYPED AND THE OTHERS SEEMED SO HAPPY TOO!!! THE CROWD SANG ALL THER SONGS BY ITS ENTIRETY EVEN CYPHER AND I WAS LIKE DAMN WE ARE THE SHIT LOL

I FUCKING LOST MYSELF ON BAPSAE AND CYPHER THO LIKE HOLY SHIT

THEIR SOLOS WERE SO BEAUTIFUL I CANT!! ONCE JOONIE SANG “I WISH I COULD LOVE MYSELF” WE SANG TO HIM “WE LOVE YOU” AND IT WAS BEAUTIFUL AND HE GOT SO MOVED HE BARELY COULD FINISH SINGING!!! IM EMOTIONAL STILL!! HOBI’S SOLO WAS EVERYTHING AND MORE BUT TAEHYUNG’S……. SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIT I CRIED! HIS VOICE IS HEAVENLY! HIS HIGHNOTE MADE LIFE WORTH LIVING I SWEAR TO YOU AND IM NOT OVERREACTING AT ALL! THETES NO ONE I LOVE MORE THAN KIM TAEHYUNG OMFG! HE IS PERFECT IN EVERY WAY AND SOMETIMES I EOULD JUST STOP ABD STARE AT HIM BECAUSE HE IS ETHEREAL ISTG  

OMG WHEN THEY SANG 2!3! I LOST MY SHIT! THEY SHOWED A LITTLE VIDEO BEFORE IT AND PERFORMED WINGS AND I WAS TEARING UP ON THE VIDEO ALREADY IM NOT JOKING! It was all about how them together are one and cute shit like that and I GOT SO EMOTIONAL!!! It was beautiful!! BUT ON 2!3! I CRIED! IT WAS BEAUTIFUL AND THAT SONG MEANS A LOT TO ME AND BLESS THEM!!

On the end of spring day that is the last song we sang the oh oh oh from the MV and they got so moved, like they were holding back tears or even crying and UGH I LOVE THEM SO FUCKING MUCH

KOOKIE PICKED THE BRAZILIAN FLAG ON THE END OF THE CONCERT AND RAN AROUND WITJ IT AND SHIT MY SON IS SO PRECIOUS”

Then I sent her some shitty pics with some captions such as: “Seokjin slaying my entire existence with awake like damn son”

And started to freak out again: “Then they started to talk in fUCKING PORTUGUESE LIKE PROS so I decided to record it” 

And then I send her the videos of the boys talking in portuguese (all the bold parts is me translating to her what they said in portuguese btw and i’ll link the videos I posted on my Instagram if anyone wants to see it), again with captions such as: He said that thanks to us he feels better LIKE OMG JIN YOU ARE THE ONE WHO MAKES US FEEL BETTER OMG I LOVE HIM” or “Hope to see you more times” “now im really happy” MY SON ITS TOO CUTE GOD BLESS HIM” about Jungkook and then: “The time passed too fast, I wish it didn’t end here” CAN YOU HEAR ME CRYING BECAUSE I BET YOI CAN!!! KIM TAEHYUNG WAMTS TO SEE ME DEAD I SWEAR! HIS PORTUGUESE IS SO CUTE HIM SAYING THAT IS MY NEW RELIGION GODDAMMIT I LOVE THE FUCK OUT OF HIM I’m okay I’m okay~~~” about Taehyung and I think you can all guess from me freaking out about him to her that he is my ultimate bias… and “Are you gonna miss us” NAH JOONIE WHY WOULD I- YES OF COURSE I WILL PLS DONT LEAVE ME” or “ “Brazil always leaves me with good memories” HE KILLED ME. HE JUST KILLED ME.” about Yoongi and then “I got emotional” ME TOO JIMINIE ME TOO” and to end with a huge bang: “You are our wings that’s why we can fly high, let’s fly higher together” HOSEOK ENDED ME WOTH THIS! HOW DARE HIM! HOW CAN HE EVEN KNOW HOW TO SAY SUCH THINGS IN PORTUGUESE DAMMIT I LOVE HIM SO MUCHHHHH”

You can all see from that mess that it was an amazing concert. The day after I woke up crying and I couldn’t stop crying because after the adrenaline kicked off, all my emotions exploded. I was completely wrecked.

I never loved any group or band as much as I love BTS. They really do mean everything to me and I never knew I could love a group this much because I loved some others in the past and my feelings fro them were big and deep but with BTS is a feeling that I can’t even begin to describe. I love each and every single one of them with all my heart and nothing makes me happier than knowing that I made them happy in this concert. 

It was nice to see that in the concert on the day after Namjoon changed his lyrics after we chanted “we love you” to him. Hear him singing “yes I do love myself” messed up with my emotions in a way I don’t know how to describe. I feel very lucky to have been part of the reason why this happened and I couldn’t be more proud of my fellow b-armys that made these two concerts unforgettable nights not only for BTS but for us armys as well. 

Now all my pics are shit because I couldn’t stop shaking but I’ll leave this one here because this one is probably the only one that is not shaken and it is my bias and my bias wrecker… plus Yoongi’s face is funny lol… <333

btw thanks @ochisu for hearing me freaking out about this, I love youuuuu.

anonymous asked:

Hi,I'm I don't really know how to ask this I'm very shy and awkward. But I'm kinda questioning my sexuality and I was wondering if you had any tips on how to help me figure out what I could be? Like if you don't mind sharing were you always lesbian or did you have like boys too then maybe experimented? I don't really know what to do and how to figure this out by myself.

Okay so basically my gay timeline, I’ve had my fair share of male friends but my highest comfort level was always with females. Right from the start, and I didn’t really know being gay was a thing, because I grew up in north Texas, with my southern baptist family, and no one ever talked about it. I knew that no one talked about girls kissing other girls but I thought about it and I thought that I wouldn’t mind kissing another girl (this was maybe from 5-8 years old), and then I moved from Texas to Tennessee (from conservative…. to more conservative…) when I was 9. About the time I started going on the internet, learning more about political issues, and mostly- learning about the existence of homosexual people. The words “q*eer”, “f*ggot”, “d*ke” were tossed around as insults and with them came the stigma that gay people were inherently bad.

By the time I was 10, the summer after 5th grade, I had my first boyfriend. With him, I had my first kiss. I was nervous, I didn’t really want it. And he told me when I hesitated that it “shouldn’t be this hard”. So I let him kiss me, and it felt wrong, but I was the first of my friends to have a boyfriend, and my first kiss. In all honesty I really liked the attention. I liked it so much that when he broke up with me, I was devastated. I mistook that devastation for heartbreak. By the time I started 6th grade, I started watching degrassi (Canadian high school soap-opera), in it, I was exposed to lesbians. Fiona Coyne, the questioning lesbian, quickly became my favourite character. I became HEAVILY invested in her to the point where I developed my first girl crush. It freaked me out. I stopped watching the show, I shoved my feelings in a box, in the closet, and by the end of 6th grade, I had my second boyfriend. We kissed once, also through coercion. I didn’t enjoy it, and the relationship ended because we both decided that we mistook feelings of friendship for romantic feelings.

By the middle of seventh grade my hetero-posing ass had my 3rd (and last) boyfriend. Mind you this was THE PEAK of my eating disorder and anxiety disorder, and the beginning of my depression. I was desperate for attention and for validation, and because of this, I thought I was in love. I wanted his attention constantly, and I was very upset when he wanted to do other things. Which ended the relationship because he couldn’t provide the kind of attention I was looking for.

So you know my history with boyfriends. What about the actual gay part? I’m getting to that. My best friend from the time I moved (at 9) to this point (12) had been my rock. But in 7th grade, after her father died, the nature of our friendship changed. She became more attached and craved someone to hug and cling to, and THIS is the kind of attention I was after. I quickly, without knowing it, developed a crush on her due to the attention and the validation and physical affection.

So when she started talking to one of her crushes, what did I do? Sabotage their relationship by convincing myself I had a crush on him and sending him nudes (that’s illegal kids don’t do that)? You betcha I did. This put a halt on the relationship, for whatever reason lol. After 3 months of no talking (and still not considering my feelings for my friend and why I was so adamant about needing to send a flat chested tit pic to this 5'1 fuck boy in the making) whatsoever, she decided to forgive me. I apologised, and we moved on. She ended up dating the guy and talking to him constantly, which pissed me off for reason that I couldn’t understand.

And then one day it hit me. I wanted her to pay that kind of attention to me. I wanted her to talk to me 24/7. But I didn’t like her at all noooo because in the good old state of Tennessee liking people of the same sex is BAD and people who do it are BAD. So no, not gay. Just wanted attention. But then, in February (2015) she landed herself in the psychiatric hospital after a very bad night. In my fear of losing her I realised I wanted a life with her and I loved her and couldn’t live without her. At this point I’m like, “oh. Oh fuck. Fuck fuck fuck” so again I put those feeling back in the box on the shelf in the closet of gaybie shame (to keep my feelings for Fiona Coyne company). Didn’t talk about. didn’t think about it. Because my friend was straight, right? Right??

WRONG!! Because this friend got drunk one night after her break up with 5'1-fuck-boy (we did bad things okay but that’s not the point) and she said to me “I love you baby” so I’m like???? Yo? What’s up?? Next morning, sober, she wrote it off as “a very maternal need to protect” me. Okay whatever, now I’m onto her. But I don’t say anything. I keep it to myself so I don’t embarrass her or push her to do something she’s not comfortable with. But I’ve got my proof that she’s Down With The Homo, so I’m like okay I can maybe take the Gay Feelings ™ out of the closet. And I process them, and what conclusion. Do I come to? Bisexual. Specifically, heteroflexible. A month later, I tell someone for the very first time. Another month later. (This is actually the same month daddy and I met but she didn’t know about any of this at the time 😚) The friend says to me “I need to tell you something” so I say “okay, I need to tell you something too” and she says “okay” and I say “I’m bisexual” and she says “ME TOO” and I’m rolling my eyes thinking yah old news. We date. We break up, turns out she’s manipulative and emotionally abusive and it’s not a perfect love story and she went back to dating guys and she got pregnant last year and has a new boyfriend every two weeks so that’s how she’s doing in case you’re curious.

I tried dating another girl, didn’t work, I was rebounding, she was immature, she cheated on me. Whatever, didn’t care. Hardly even liked her. And now I’m dating my daddy, third (and hopefully last) girlfriend. And since being with her and feeling how FUCKING GREAT!!! It feels to be with a girl, I wouldn’t go back to guys, of course, I like people not genders so maybe I’d consider it. But I’m primarily attracted to female *cough* anatomy, so it would take a lot of interest for me to pursue a relationship with anyone who isn’t female identifying, (down for all females not just cis ones but I do still have a big preference for female bodies)

Long (loooooong) story short. Always been gay, didn’t always know, do some experimenting, try both (all) sides, get a feel of what you’re into and don’t be afraid (and don’t keep yourself in the damn closet for a decade bc I didn’t make it sound as painful as it was but it really really was painful)