why did you even want this

violentmaiden  asked:

Don't know if you remember me but I once told you that I loved your art because its style was so unique and I could pick it out of a crowd anywhere and know it's yours. With that in mind I was wondering how did you develop your own style? I've started drawing again but I want to develop my style into something unique to myself. And since I've not seen a style like yours I assume you created it all on your own. Like how did you even go about it? Everytime I try it comes out all generic looking.

this is hard to explain. idk if you look at stock images for references, but thats a reason why it could be ‘generic’ looking. i dont use stock images as references. i usually take pictures of myself and draw from that. that way i get get the pose i want in my head actually out on paper/my computer. for a set “style” its just something to practice. it develops with time. ive been drawing for a whiiiiiile. it will show through the more you practice :)))

Sometimes I wonder why I even bother hoping anymore. You’ve proven irrefutably that you have no intentions of ever answering my letter. You’ve cast into doubt every single conversation I have ever had with you, every compliment and sweet word directed my way.

I’m left questioning everything you ever were to me and everything you claimed I was to you. Did you ever care about my happiness? Did you ever adore me? Was I actually precious to you? Or was I only ever good for sexting, someone you could easily manipulate the emotions of to get what you wanted?

I feel so naive, so fucking foolish. But I meant every word I ever said to you. It doesn’t matter what you think, it was real for me.

— 

Despite all of this, the largest part of me still loves you. And I hate myself and you and my stupid heart for this. I just want it to be over.

I no longer care about some imagined magical fucking reunion with you. This isn’t a fucking fairytale and there are no happy endings. I just want to know the truth. I think I deserve that much from you.

anonymous asked:

I want you to know that I had a semi-nightmare involving a lot of half-naked Angie and Yandere Saihara after seeing that post. I'm. So confused. Why did I have that dream. Why was Angie half-naked. Why did Saihara have teeth as sharp as a freaking alligator. These are the questions I will never have answers to.

the answer is that i… may have made an au on the words “half-naked angie” and “teeth as sharp as a freaking alligator”…

congrats, i guess we might have a cult au on our hands??? HaHA,,,,

also, saihara with sharp teeth..!! in my elusive, super serious style. he actually looks rlly good–

llooolll literally the fucking second i got home and walked through the door my mom was standing literally RIGHT BEHIND THE FUCKING DOOR like she was trying to jump scare me or some shit and she’s like “are you mad at me?” in this bitchy rude ass tone and i’m like “why is that the first thing you ask as soon as i get home?” and she proceeds to ScReAmM at me about all this shit about the fucking dumb ass stupid fucking christmas concert that she wants me to do and she’s like “did you get the music for it?” like bitch im not even in concert band this fucking semester also so many fucking dick-heads like you in concert band bulllied the shit out of me and SHE FUCKING KNOWS THIS im sorry but what kind of fucking mother would force and scream at their already fucking suicidal kid about something that involves them being around people that bullied them sm????? POBRBBALYCAUSE SHE IS A FUCKING BULLY AND SHE FUCKIN LVOES SEEING ME TOTRUTED I SEARW TO FUCKINGN GOD

and i told her i didn’t get it AND SHE STARTS SCREAMING EVEN MORE AND THIS FUCKING BITCH ASS BITCH OF A FUCKING “MOTHER” THREATENS TO TAKE AWAY MY LAPTOP. MY SCHOOL ISSUED LAPTOP. FOR FUCKING SCHOOL. MY SCHOOL ISSUED FUCKING LAPTOP I FUCKING NEED FOR HOMEWORK. AND IM LIKE BITCH NO YOU CANT EVEN JSUT FUCK OFF OH MY FUCKING LORD I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD IM GONNA FUCKING KILL MYSELF IF SHE EVER OPENS HER FUCKING MOUTH AROUND ME AGAIN I STFG

anonymous asked:

Did you hear about that "doing an album in english thing"?? What do you think about it?? And do you think that ARMY. s should not trend that tag?

boy was dumb. like, he went on about how he was a huge fan of bts but then demanded they release an english album. even saying that they do it in japanese so why not english. when that’s two different things. and like, both bts and army have expressed we don’t want nor need an english album. he had the chance to ask them ANYTHING. and he chose to ask that. nothing like my girl sabrina who tried her best to speak korean and told bts that they inspire her, she was a real one. good job wherever you are. and the hashtag is fine?? we’re letting bts know we’re okay with them staying just korean?? nothing wrong with that lolo. 

hooooo shit, so a buddy cop gig where peter is the wide eyed rookie fresh out of the academy who gets paired with wade, the veteran who’s done some time on both sides of the law and solves problems with his own unconventional charm, meaning he hits people very hard until they give him what he wants

it’s not a great tactic, but man does it fucking work when he wants information, he’s already got a goddamn reputation so why not use it, peter is fucking mortified when he first sees wade roughing up a guy

peter, the naive soul he is, writes up a report on his partner, but before he can even ask for a new one, wade is shoving the form in peter’s face and asking what kind of bullshit is this, and peter is like, u did bad thing therefore u gotta deal with the consequences

and wade is like, that sounds like bullshit, but alright, what’ll it take to get you to shut up, and peter takes it seriously and he’s like show me that you can change, and wade, after he finishes laughing, is like oh shit ur serious, ok fine but only bc ur hot

the longer this goes on the less wade wants to admit he feels better about what he does, the less he wants to admit that peter has been giving him real tips on how to deal with his aggression and anger issues in a healthy way, the less he wants to admit that people actually treat him with respect more and he’s had kids recognize him and say hi without trying to tag his car for beating up their parents, the less he wants to admit that peter genuinely makes his life better, like he even hates himself less now because he’s being forced to be less of a dick

so now that he can’t avoid dealing with his problems with power imbalances and violence, he’s drinking his feelings away

except peter doesn’t like it when he comes to work drunk, actually nobody does, but it’s peter that matters, he let a perp get away because he was too hungover to chase him, and peter saw

wade has a serious think about his life on top of a roof he didn’t remember climbing when he wakes up sometime past midnight, when he was little, he wanted to be a cop so he could be there when that kid called the cops on his abusive family, he was going to be the person that believed the kid and not the parents, so what exactly beat it out of him along the way, he only became a cop when he was getting close to being caught as a merc, and then cops were just fucking corrupt, he fit right in, that’s how he’s kept his job so long, ended up doing a stint in jail just to cover his chief’s ass, course he owed it to the guy for ah overlooking the shootout he totally caused when he saw an old “friend”

but peter doesn’t need to know any of that, in fact he should get out now before he get’s his little doe eyed face beaten to a pulp by whoever he pisses off next, and wade fucking tries to get him to leave, tells him to get out while he still can, before this career twists him up and leaves him broken

so maybe somewhere along the way peter got a soft spot for wade, who obviously should not be a cop, but hell he was trying, ever since peter told him to fucking shape up, he’s been trying, and god is it killing him, it’s almost hilarious how bad he is at dealing with life, if it weren’t so sad

peter is not actually a cop, he’s a reporter going undercover to get hard evidence on widespread corruption in the local police department, he’s actually shocked at how fucking easy it is, i mean they have body cameras for fucks sake, he just downloads all the crap that’s been going on at the end of every day before somebody can delete it, he’s got private conversations and pictures of the chief’s office, he walked into the chief talking with at least three local politicians in hushed tones, like you can’t be much more obvious

and when peter’s got enough, he’s ready to get the hell out of there, except he doesn’t want to throw wade under the bus, not when he’s the only person peter has seen trying to do the right thing, even if it is gradual for him, he shouldn’t be a cop, but he doesn’t deserve what’s coming next

so against his better judgement he takes wade aside and tells him to get the hell out now before shit hits the fan, and wade can take it one of two ways, he can listen to peter and run, he’s good at getting new identities, or he can take peter into custody and blame him for whatever the hell he wants so long as it keeps peter from doing what he said he’d do

but this is wade, there’s always a third option when it comes to wade wilson

I’m not even trying to be rude here…but why are the supernatural writers literally INCAPABLE of writing relationships that aren’t Sam and Dean?

Like they introduce new characters and it’s like the immediately panic when they realize they have to be original? and consider character growth? and make characters who aren’t Sam or Dean overcome conflict?

Here’s this new Castiel character and he’s really cool and– OH DID YOU WANT MORE? NAH FAM He’s off to do some other bullshit for 6 episodes at a time.

Holy shit, Mary Winchester has returned from the dead after 30+ years, time to have a thorough explanation of her return to humanity as she builds a relationship with her- NOPE. She’s going to fuck around with the people who tortured her son because why the fuck not. writing is hard.

Now we have this new bean, his name is Jack and he’s wrestling with the question of goodness and if he is tainted by the sins of his father. With the help of his newly returned Father figure Castiel he wil—-BITCH YOU THOUGHT. You want us to write MULTIPLE character interactions? Cas and Jack? Jack and Sam? Jack and Dean? Cas and Dean? Cas and Sam? I I tihnk the fuck not, instead we’re going to throw the whole ass kid away. *punts Jack into the sun*

Mei Stella (My Star)

Characters: Chae Hyungwon x Reader

Genre: Fluff, Humor, Smut

Word Count: 3.7k

This is dedicated to my shining star, Miki @djhyngwn for her birthday. Make sure you go tell her happy bday on the 30th. I hope you like it love <3333


It was cold, it was raining, and all you wanted to do was go home. It was your birthday and you had just worked the longest shift of your life. Why were you in customer service? Was it the pay? Ha that’s laughable. Did you even like people? Eh that was debatable, especially after today. But a job was a job and it helped pay the bills and gave you the independence you enjoyed. However, now as you were boarding a city bus for the 40 minute ride home, sandwiched between the lady with the screaming toddler and the creepy guy making eyes at you, you almost regretted not taking your boyfriend up on the offer for you to stay home and let him provide for you. You had indignantly told him that it wasn’t the 1950s and you were nobody’s housewife. Stupid stupid girl you thought to yourself now as the creepy guy continued to let his gaze roam your visage.

You visibly shiver and busy yourself by sending a text to your boyfriend to let him know that you would be home in about 20 minutes. Your poor boyfriend, he had planned to take you to dinner for your birthday and he seemed so excited about it this morning. You felt horrible when you called him on your break to tell him that someone had called out and you were being made to pull a double and that dinner would have to wait. So here it was 11pm when the bus comes to a halt at your stop. You sigh, relieved and grab your things to deboard.

Off the bus and finally free of the sketchy guy and screaming baby, you make your way the 2 blocks to your apartment building. Normally you take the stairs to the 3rd floor where your apartment is but after the day you’d had you opt to take the elevator. You had told your boyfriend not to wait up since you knew you would be late and so you tried to be as quiet as possible when you entered the apartment. Damn that electronic door chime as you successfully entered the access code. Hopefully he didn’t hear it you thought. In the middle of removing your shoes and coat and shaking the rain from your hair your ears were assaulted by a loud pop and you were blinded by light. You were completely startled, grasping at your chest as you look up to see - -

“Goddamnit Chae Hyungwon what in the ever loving -”

“Saeng-il Chugha !” he stood beaming in the doorway of the kitchen with a bottle of champagne - - the cause of the loud pop you now see as it bubbles up and out of the top.

“Bonne Fete!” he continued.

“Hau oli la hanau!”

“Bun Cumpleani!”

“Chae, I got it” you said as you finally calmed down enough to finish discarding your shoes and made your way toward him.

“Hang on, I have one more” he started as you sighed exasperatedly.

“Feliz Navidad!” he said with the cutest grin on his face. You

You couldn’t keep yourself from laughing. And in your exhausted, almost delirious state, the laughter was longer and harder than the situation probably called for but you couldn’t stop yourself.

“What?” he asked indignantly.

“It’s Feliz Cumpleaños you dweeb” you finally eeked out between giggles. You grabbed his cheek playfully, calling him cute in an almost patronizing manner.

“That is exactly what I just said” he huffed cutely and took a sip from the bottle of champagne. He skipped the glass since it was more for him than you. You weren’t really keen on alcohol or the taste.  Although, you’ll admit the way the remnants of it tasted on his mouth as he bent down to press his lush lips to yours.

“Happy Birthday, baby!” he said, setting the champagne bottle down to pull you into his chest. You melted in his embrace. Finally home and happy just to stay in Hyungwon’s arms for the rest of the night. He kissed the top of your head and smoothed a hand over your hair. “I have a surprise for you, baby. Come with me.”

“Mmmm, Wonnie I’m so tired. Today was awful. Can’t we just go to bed?” you whined.

“Trust me this will be worth it” he muttered as he held your hand and led you to the bathroom.

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SENTENCE STARTERS | FIRE EMBLEM: RADIANT DAWN

❝ Run away! Who knows what these brutes will do if they catch you! ❞
❝ This town is nothin’ but idiot kids and drooling graybeards. Steal everything you can! ❞
❝ What were you thinking, taking on these bandits alone? That’s beyond reckless. ❞ 
❝ I’m beginning to understand exactly how incompetent you all are! ❞
❝ This is our country… Why do we have to live in hiding, like prisoners in our own land? ❞
❝ I’ve never seen so much activity in this area before. Is there… something I should know?   ❞
❝ Your skills have improved, but you’re still new to fighting. Just focus on surviving. ❞
❝ I know you, and you have a way of getting what you want. ❞
❝ You’re as clever as they say, my dear. You even came alone. How brave of you. ❞
❝ Not to pry, but did you know you’re bleeding? You’ve got some blood on your sleeve there. ❞
❝ Well you’ve certainly grown up to be easy on the eyes! I believe I’m a little smitten. ❞
❝ How did you manage to sneak in this far without my help? ❞
❝ If you’re not up to it, don’t feel pressured to fight. We can handle the soldiers. ❞
❝ Are we gonna help, or just stand around all day twiddling our thumbs? ❞
❝ Enemies will use every method they have to destroy you. It is best that you be prepared. ❞
❝ I’m going to drown you and all of your hopes in these filthy waters! You’ve no escape! ❞ 
❝ If you really can work miracles, you’d best work one up for yourself now. ❞
❝ Did you think the likes of you could be a worthy opponent for me? Know your place. ❞ 
❝ Make your peace. This blow shall be your end. ❞
❝ My sword is not made for killing those who will not raise their weapons. ❞
❝ Stop your tongue, worm, or my knife will stop it for you. ❞
❝ What is more honorable than a death fraught with purpose? ❞
❝ The thought of draining the life from your body… It makes me tingle all over! ❞
❝ If we allow hatred to rule our hearts, we become prisoners of our past. ❞
❝ Do you have any idea who you’re dealing with here, reptile breath?!  ❞
❝ I never could decide if you were more greedy or more corrupt. Stupid was never out of the question, though. ❞
❝ Politics aren’t my strong suit, but I know you’re up to no good! ❞
❝ All I’ve ever desired is a country where war and hunger are unknown. ❞
❝ If we have no evidence, then I suppose we’ll have to dig some up. ❞
❝ The only thing your sniffing about will get you, is an abruptly shortened life span! ❞
❝ Greetings, General! My, you’re looking even more dashing and handsome than usual! ❞
❝ Strength without compassion does not a ruler make. ❞ 
❝ Always lost in your books! What have I said about watching your back?! ❞
❝ I’m amazed someone was desperate enough to make you a general… ❞
❝ My…What a stupid speech. ❞
❝ Come on, do it. It’s a clean shot. ❞
❝ Give me some time to myself. I’ll come up with a plan to get us through this mess. ❞
❝ I swear you’d hit on a tree if I dressed it in a skirt. Tell me I’m wrong! ❞
❝ I’d never have guessed there’d be such a pretty boy/girl around here! What a lucky day! ❞
❝ It’s like a dream come true! My hero, standing in front of me! ❞
❝ Well now…Shall we get on with our business? ❞ 
❝ If I have to knock you out to keep you out of this battle, then that’s what I’ll do. ❞
❝ Talk later, eat now. Sorry, but I gotta put something in my stomach and get some rest… ❞ 
❝ It looks to me like you’ve charmed your way into the most powerful position in this army. ❞
❝ If you are not worthy of fighting me, then you are only wasting my time. ❞
❝ Next time we meet, keep your blade drawn, and make sure you’ve said your prayers. ❞
❝ Ah, here comes the great strategist! Don’t be so shy. Come sit next to me! ❞
❝ Oh, you have no idea how happy you’ve made me! ❞
❝ It doesn’t matter who the enemy is. If there’s a way to avoid taking a life, that is the path I will choose.❞
❝ You do not look well. Should I send for something? Water, perhaps? ❞
❝ Oh, you are ever so serious! One of these days, I will catch you off guard. ❞
❝ Never question my orders again, or I’ll have you killed. Is that clear? ❞
❝ You’re standing in a pool of your own blood. Tell me the truth. It hurts to even stand, right? ❞
❝ My wounds…They’re nothing compared to what my people have suffered! ❞
❝ This weapon…I’m afraid it was crafted for better hands than mine. ❞
❝ I suppose when you have the brain of a gnat, these things take some time to sink in. ❞ 
❝ You have some serious guts, jumping into the middle of a battlefield all by yourself. ❞
❝ I thought I was the craziest around here, but it seems I have some serious competition! ❞ 
❝ One more syllable and I shall snap your neck. ❞
❝ Just remember: when this is all over, you’ll be getting one heck of a bill. ❞
❝ You look like you’re carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders. ❞
❝ I’m going to save my people. If the rest of the world paints me as a beast to be reviled and hated, so be it.  ❞
❝ I’m offering you a choice. Surrender now, or fight us and die. ❞
❝ What’s insane about a person fighting for their country? ❞
❝ Hey, you can’t go out and fight if you’re feeling sick! You should rest! ❞
❝ You’re the greatest! I’m so proud that you’re my teacher! ❞
❝ You get to live now. Once this is done, though, you’re a corpse. ❞
❝ War is a simple thing. What comes after, that is hard. ❞
❝ Diplomacy is a battle that I have never known how to fight. ❞
❝ For a beautiful woman like you, I’ll gladly offer my head. Of course you’ll have to bring me down to the ground first. ❞
❝ I wish you would stop looking into my soul. It’s very rude of you. ❞
❝ You’d carry the burden alone to protect your people? That’s very selfless of you. ❞ 
❝ You are a festering wound in the flesh of the world! ❞
❝ I remember when a trip like this would have exhausted you. I’m impressed at how well you’re handling it. ❞
❝ We all have to answer for our crimes one day. Today is that day for you. ❞
❝ Don’t you idealistic twits ever give up? ❞
❝ Look…Would you mind rejoining the enemy? ❞
❝ Looking for you is still like trying to find spilled ink at night. ❞
❝ I don’t think we even need to exchange names. I’ll just kill you and leave it at that. ❞
❝ So you won't object when I tear your lungs out here and now? ❞
❝ You’re smart, but you’re no good when it comes to your emotions. Come over here. ❞ 

save place || h.o.

pairing: harrison x reader

warnings: fluff, stress.

request: Hi! I don’t know if your requests are still open, but I have had a lot of stress and stuff to deal with lately, so I was wondering if you could write something with Harrison along the lines of you’re friends with him and come to his house crying and he wraps you in a hug and helps you calm down and it takes a romantic turn? Thank ya!

word count: 721

A/N: okay so you guys REQUESTS ARE OPEN TILL NOTED OTHERWISE OKAY, YOU CAN REQUEST ANYTHING YOU WANT EVEN PRIVATE BLURBS OR SOMETHING YOU KNOW. but this was a request and I thought maybe someone else wanted it too. it is short but enjoy.


You were feeling like you were about to burst open and die. Everything was piling up. Bad things were happening and you had a feeling everything was starting to be better soon but not soon enough. Bad karma. Why did you even deserve this bad karma? This stress, just dissolving your body and mind, taking over your thought when you wanted to sleep and even wake you up in the middle of the night with the worst nightmares you could even think of. You were tired of it, and sleep deprived, even though you got enough hours of sleep. Falling asleep on the bus and even in class, what you never did, was the last straw.

So you did what every sane person would do.

Go to your best friend’s house, and cry your heart out.

Harrison was your best friends since kinder garden. You two just hit it off right away since you were that young, so the most social beings ever. Even when you two grew up and had those puberty phases where you didn’t talk a lot, you two kept in touch and every time you two saw each other it was good. It was always good. So you got to his place, it’s around nine p.m. and you ring the doorbell. He lives in an apartment, so he had to answer with a buzzer so you could come up and even with a small ‘’it’s me.’’ he just knew, something was up.

He didn’t even hesitate when the white door opened for your eyes to pull you into a big hug, wrapping his warm arms around you and you started to almost crawl into him and let all the tears fall down onto his shirt. Messy crying. The puffy, red eyes and the even more red nose. Snot coming out of places you didn’t want to, mixing up with your tears and you couldn’t even keep a straight face and tell him what was wrong, but he didn’t care. He also had times he showed up like this, drained, exhausted. And this time it was you who showed up like crap, so he did what every best friend would do. Pour a drink and put on the tv and a warm blanket for the two of you, tissues at the ready if you started to crumble again.

‘’thank you for being here, Harris.’’ ‘’always, you know that.’’ He smiled softly, ruffling his hands through your hair before taking a sip of his drink. You two were watching Kung Fu Panda, and it was the part where Master Shifu knew that Po worked differently; hunting down food. You let out a small chuckle, and blew your nose empty in a tissue before throwing it on the coffee table.

‘’you know, that’s disgusting, just your boogers everywhere.’’ Harrison commented and scrunched his face up in fake-disgust before taking a hit to his head from your hand. You laughed, throwing another tissue in his direction and took your glass from the table. You took a small sip before placing it down again and laid your head still on his lap.

‘’Harris, do you think everything will be okay in the end?’’ you looked up at his face, him already looking down on you and his eyebrows shot up questioning your question. A famous quote was stuck in your head for the past several days, ‘’if it is not okay, it is not the end.’’ And it just didn’t go away, so you just had to ask it. One of the many thought, lingering in your mind. Harrison shifted a little bit and you lift your head, waiting for him to sit still again and place your head back on his lap.

‘’I think that’s true, and I also think it is what has been on your mind lately?’’ you sat up and looked at him, shaking your head and he smiled a bit. ‘’you don’t have to say it, you know. Everything will be okay, good and bad things have to keep themselves balanced. It will be just fine, just before you know it.’’ He tapped your nose and you smiled.

‘’That’s why I like you, Harrison.’’ You stated, before grabbing the cup again and taking a large gulp from it.

‘’that’s why I love you.’’ He said.

anonymous asked:

Hey, I just went through a bit of your blog today. I've been following you for some time, but lately haven't been able to look at all the blogs that I love. That includes yours. I wish that I did, because I love both your art and your personality. You're such a sweet and incredible person! Which is why I just wanted to ask you something. Are you alright?

Hey sweetheart c: Oh you are so nice I’m glad you enjoy my blog ;o; you are so adorable I’m touched ;v; You’re sweeter hun! x’3 And yes I’m alright thank you so much for asking! And even happy now that i read your adorable sweet words :’3 Thank you have a wonderful day sweetheart <3

H -

sometimes I believe you are my big love and my feelings for you will never change, no matter who I date or break up with. Sometimes I’m afraid I will never be free of you, that I always will feel best when I talk to you.

I just wanna be free of you. You don’t want me - in fact, you never did and that’s okay - so why can’t you let me go?

Do you need my attention and my love so much, even if you can’t give me something back? That’s egoistic and I desever better, so please please please just let me go.

You know I found someone who treats me well, who really loves me and I want to love him too, and really just him.

Stop flirting and playing with me, even if I kind of enjoy it, I can’t help it. It hurts. You can’t imagine how much it hurts.

not yours

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My husband can be a crotchety old man😡

Yesterday he was talking about going fishing with his buddy tonight. I told him about the bday party on Saturday. He got mad because i asked if he wanted to go, he said no. And then i was like well itd be nice of you did go because ill have all 3 kids. So he was like well why even ask if i want to go and not give me all the details if you clearly want me to go. Whatever.

Some friends of ours wanna have a holiday get together sometime around thanksgiving. (Ppl he works with, im friends with their wives). It has been a pain trying to pick a date so they decided why not just do a simple bring a croc pot dish tomorrow evening since we’re all available.

So i call to double check we dont have plans tomorrow evening and he’s like well we’re gonna fish tomorrow morning instead. And im like well what time in the morning cause the bday party starts at 10. He clearly forgot because he got bent out of shape again about having to go to a kids party and was mad he wont be able to go fishing since he doesnt want to have a time restraint on fishing. And then he was mad that were getting together in the evening because they used the term friendsgiving and he thinks it sounds so stupid. 😒😬

I cant even. You’re a parent, youre gonna have to go to parties (mind you he didnt go to the last 2 elijah was invited to because he “had to babysit”- our neice and nephew dont swim so no pool party and i wasnt gonna take them on a 1.5 hr rd trip to my cousins kid’s party). And i get these work people aren’t the buddies you typically hang out with, but im close withe their spouses.

At this point id rather him not go to either thing because he’s a debbie downer/negative Nancy. But i also want him there and i dont want to have to explain why he’s not there because i obviously cant just say he’s an antisocial asshole 🙄

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Why did I choose my url: Insomnium - In The Halls of Awaiting

Lucky number: 3, 9

Following: 132

I tag: @lideralene, @renee13-13, @arcusxx, @zaint-gab, @into-solitude :)

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just two guys….bonding… i can’t believe this is my first contribution to this amazing show…

I’m afraid to tell you that I miss you because I know you won’t say it back.
—  💜

Finally! I wasted more time than expected doing this trash. Now I need to sleep. I mean, I literally fell asleep over it several times. And the funniest part is that I don’t even like how it came out. At this point I don’t even know why I made it. I realized, awfuly late, that it wasn’t worth it to illustrate such a tiny HC in such a long thing. Three drawings could have been enough. Also, I’m sorry if you’re disappointed (and if you’re not, be sure I’m disappointed on myself) bc I’m sure you were expecting something better, but I said it was the trash I always do but bigger. Sorry for the bad quality, the bad english and the messy coloring. Oh, and forgive my horrible handwritting.

Some people seemed to like that HC I had about Scrooge’s reaction to the news about the triplets so I decided to illustrate it. I’m actually 99.9% sure Scrooge wouldn’t react like this. He would be all like “oh, so you had children. That means other three beaks to feed”. And very deep inside himself he would be happy and proud but he wouldn’t want anyone to know. But that’s why this is just fan trash, shhh. Anyways, I did it and it’s awful, so here it is.

Yeah. This doesn’t even have a context. It’s just… let’s call it a practice. Y'know, maybe Scrooge didn’t even meet HD&L because, you know, The Spear of Selene and I better shut up beacuse this can turn into angst. Anyways, I did it with love but I ruined it and I’m missing the sketch vertion. P.S. I know, poor Ludwig. I don’t want to be mean to him, he’s my other fave. Scrooge, stop being a miser and let him hold his nephews.

little reputation things™
  • *ahem*
  • BUMMM BUMM BUM BUMMMM BUMM BUMM KNEW HE WAS A KILLA
  • i i i i  see how this is gon go
  • “but if i’m a thief then he can join the heist”
  • baby let the games begin! let the games begin! ahAH AHHHHHHHH
  • GETTING .5 SECONDS INTO END GAME AND UNDERSTANDING WHY THE ALBUM IS CALLED REPUTATION
  • ahHHH and ya heard about me”
  • ed sheeran rapping on a taylor swift song
  • “i swear i don’t love the drama IT LOVES ME”
  • ed in the background of the last chorus: “be yoUR A TEAM NOW”
  • the string plucky things in the beginning of i did something bad
  • “if a man talks shit then i owe him nothing”
  • THEN WHY’S IT FEEL SO BANG BANG GOOD BANG BANG GOOD
  • “and i’d do it over and over and over again if iiiii could”
  • RAH DI DI DI DI DI DI DI DI DI DAHHHHH 
  • “they’re burning all the witches even if you aren’t one”
  • taylor apparently wanting to be set on fire
  • ((agreed))
  • the harmonies on this album filling my entire soul
  • “oHHH LORD SAVE ME MY DRUG IS MY BABY I’LL BE USING FOR THE REST OF MY LIIIIIIIIFE” aka the only prayer i’ll ever say again
  • i get so high OH… trip of my life OH
  • the way she sings “using for the rest of my life oHH OH OH OHHH” after the bridge damn son
  • “my reputation’s never been worse so he must like me for me”
  • taylor finally discovering alcohol
  • the way she says “coz i know that it’s delicate” so…. delicately
  • how delicate feels like a rain shower in a desert
  • :) i :) don’t :) like :) your :) little :) games :)
  • OH look what you made me do
  • “i don’t like your kingdom keys, they once belonged to me”
  • “i’m sorry the old taylor can’t come to the phone right now. why? oh! BECAUSE SHE’S DEAD” is singlehandedly the most iconic thing i have ever and will ever hear.
  • so it goes being chill and then the chORUS AND ALL THE PIECES FALL!!! RIGHT INTO PLACE!!!
  • ;) scratches ;) down ;) your ;) back ;) now ;)
  • o n e  t w o  t h r e e
  • how getaway car is the only song i ever want to hear ever again
  • WE NEVER HAD A SHOTGUN SHOT IN THE DARK
  • think about the place where you first met me
  • “there were sirens in the beat of your heart”
  • the way she says getaway
  • the chorus of this song feeling like driving down a highway with the windows rolled down in the middle of the night
  • GO! GO! GO!
  • being part of a heist, leaving money in a bag in a shady motel, stealing keys and getting tf out in her getaway car. zoom zoom bitch.
  • COS NOTHING GOOD STARTS IN A GETAWAY CAR
  • “all the boys in their expensive cars, the range rovers and jaguars never took me quite where you do” calvin harris WHOM
  • the drums in king of my heart are more important than my need to breathe
  • “your love is a secret i’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep”
  • ~up on the roof with a school girl crussshhhh drinking beer outta plastic cupsssss~
  • i’ll never let you goOOO
  • but we were dancing BASS DROP dancing with our hANDS TIED, HANDS TIED
  • “oh baby can we dance, through an avalanche?”
  • “swaying as the room burnt down, i’d hold you as the water rushes in” …. “so i punched a hole in the roof, let the flood carry away all my pictures” ….. h e c k
  • fiRST TIME FIRST TIIIIMEE OH 
  • how dress is literally an orgasm turned into a song and i’m… into it
  • take it oH OH OH OH OFFFF
  • “carve your name into my bedpost”
  • “but if i get burnt at least we were electrified”
  • wildest dreams who???
  • “and i woke up just in time, now i wake up by your side”
  • say my name and everything just stops -EVERYTHING STOPS-
  • THE ALARM BELLS IN THE BEGINNING OF NICE THINGS
  • ra’lin’ the chandilier
  • THIS IS WHY WE CAN’T HAVE NICE! THINGS! DAR!LIN!!!
  • AWaaaAaAaAaAaAaAaAaAaAaAAY
  • “and therein lies the issue, friends don’t try to trick you, get you on the phone and mind twist you”
  • the sound of shots being fired from every possible angle
  • if only you weren’t…. so shadyyyyy :)
  • they don’t care about the HE SAID SHE SAID
  • the way she says “and here’s to my baaabyyy
  • the organ?? piano???? during “and hereeee’s to youuu…” oh my god
  • CACKLE “I CAN’T EVEN SAY IT WITH A STRAIGHT FACE”
  • her voice at the end when she just says “nice things” 
  • her world crumbling around her and that’s just fine?? because of joe???? i wasn’t ready 
  • I’M THE ONE HE’S WALKING TOOOOOOO
  • “loves me like i’m brand new”
  • “all my flowers grew back as thorns” …. “all the flowers that we’d grown together died of thirst” again…. clean WHOM
  • I’M DOIN BETTER THAN I EVER WAASSSS
  • i’m laughing with my lover makin forts under covers trust him like a brother yeah you know i did one thing right
  • not because he owns me but cos he really knows me. which is more than they can say.
  • “you don’t need to save me, but would you run away with me?” “yes.” :’)
  • call it what you want is the lightest, softest pink sunrise seen from the window of a peaceful airplane in the early morning of a good day
  • how we went from pop anthems to??? i’m bawling in a sea of tissues on my bedroom floor at two in the morning and new year’s day is the most beautiful song i’ve ever heard??? 
  • it’s just a guitar and a piano and she’s harmonizing with herself
  • “don’t read the last page, but i stay”
  • “i want your midnights, and i’ll be cleaning up bottles with you on new year’s day”
  • “i can tell that it’s gonna be a long road” as in she knows that even if it’ll be a long road they’ll always be together don’t TOUCH me
  • hold on to the memories, they will hold onto you
  • hold on to the memories, they will hold onto you
  • hold on to the memories, they will hold onto you
  • and i will hold onto you
  • “please don’t ever become a stranger whose laugh i could recognize anywhere”
  • oh cool my heart’s shattered into a million pieces this is fine thanks
  • how there’s ten seconds of silence at the end of new year’s day because you bet your ass i need recovery time before the album starts over again and i gotta get back to boppin’
  • BUMMM BUMM BUMM BUMMMM BUMM BUMM KNEW HE WAS A KILLA 
  • ((they were not ready for it))
Thoughts about JM & JK’s trip:

Jimin’s edit showed how much he prized sharing simple things with Jungkook. They are always followed by bodyguards, managers, and fans so something as plain as walking in the streets or spending the night at an amusement park was very precious to start with but living it with someone he liked and lives the same circumstances as him, makes it more valuable. His edit made us recall how some people & circumstances can turn even the most basic things into the best situations in life just by charing them with us. Just by understanding our preferences and what we seek. 

His editing was very blurry and amateurish. Yet, he captured the happiness and fun they had better than many pros. But, you know why? because it was genuine. This is something Jimin wished to happen and it did. Again no one can win over Jimin’s strong ambition to achieve what he wants in life.

Meanwhile, Jungkook’s edit looked like he loved that trip only because Jimin was part of it. It seemed as if everything meaningfully existed just so Jimin will go there, be there, eat there. He was most of the times behind guarding or waiting for him. Indeed, His focus was centered around another person. Not even once he intended to show himself. Like saying: I had fun because Jimin had fun. The food tasted better because Jimin ate deliciously. This childish ride I would usually not pick was so amusing because Jimin’s expressions and reactions were priceless …  His edit made us recall how we can still find happiness in a dear one’s smile

His editing contrary to Jimin was skilfully made and precise. He thought about everything from the storyline, to the angles, not even forgetting about the song that will marry the clips together. Contrary to many who think Jungkook do not care. This short video undoubtedly became the proof no one can deny that he is not uncomfortable with his Hyung. He used to call himself selfish but looking at him today, this boy is more caring and kind than he thinks himself. 

 Jimin’s video HERE Jungkook’s video HERE