Helloooo :) I didn’t get to answer/comment your wonderful asks/feedback today, but I wanted you to know that I received them and I’m very thankful for them and I will answer them tomorrow, pinky-promise. At the end of the chapter I included a short talk about a few decisions I made for this chapter because I wanted my intentions to be clear, so feel free to read that too. Previous chapters.
Chapter 17: Look What You’ve Done
I heard the noise behind me before anything else but I couldn’t move, numb by shock, paralyzed, and then I felt him, felt he was there, not touching me but standing right behind me.
“Did- Did you follow me here?” I asked after I had swallowed the lump in my throat, but my voice came out fragile nonetheless.
“It’s a nice studio, I gotta admit, I wouldn’t refuse to dance here either. Is that a chandelier in the lobby? Really, really nice. Has to be expensive.” There was mockery in his words and even though he wasn’t even touching me, in that moment, I feared for my life.
“Did you follow me here?” I asked again because there was no way he could have known we were here, not when there were so many dance studios in New York, not when school wasn’t even over yet.
“I just wanna talk babe. We need to talk about this, that’s it.” His breath tickled my ear. His breath cut off my ear.
Dance is fun. It is my hobby. But more than that, it’s my passion.
Dance keeps me fit. It keeps my mind strong.
Dance can be difficult, but there is always a lesson to learn, always a positive benefit.
Dance brings people together. All races, all ages, all genders.
Dance brings me joy.
markballas | Always appreciated cooking but never been good at it. It’s
been a life long goal of mine to learn how to cook so I can put a home
made meal on the table for my wife and children some day. Today I got my
first lesson from one of the masters. It was so awesome to be the
student for a change and even more incredible to see someone thrive in
their comfort zone. Had an absolute blast and am so grateful for the
lesson. Monday is gonna be fun. #DWTS#teambutterballs
Got a callback for AU Rhythm Dance Troupe which is a hip hop dance group here at auburn! So happy! Whatever the turn out is I’m happy I at least got this far! Dance seriously is everything to me. I know I’m not the best, but there’s no greater release that I feel whenever I can express myself while performing. I really reallyyyy hope I get on the team but either way I’m beyond pleased with the experience.
This was inspired by the behind the scenes videos of Nates new video
It was just a normal day. You just got back home from lunch. You were currently living in LA. You changed into your swimsuit and headed out to the pool to relax and swim a little. You did some swimming but it seemed like your relaxing had to wait a little.
Your phone was going off with texts and notifications. Texts from your girlfriends. Text from Nate. Did someone make a rumor that you died or something? I mean sure you love the attention but what’s going on? You first answer the group chat with your girlfriends because they texted first, and they’re all going on about some girl giving Nate a lap dance. Why does this matter to you? Well, you’re his girlfriend so yeah some girl giving your boyfriend a lap dance is a little uh not okay??
You immediately get the worst feeling in your stomach and start internally freaking out. You go on Twitter to see what they’re talking about and you see snapchat videos of him during his music video filming. He told you about the music video and you knew it would involve an actress/dancer but the whole grinding, lap dance part, you didn’t get those details. All the tweets from the fans were helping either.
You then open your texts from Nate.
You weren’t mad at the fact that he had a girl grinding on him (oddly enough). It’s just acting. As a model, you have to act like you’re in love with other male models sometimes. It’s just a part of the job. You just wish he told you that he would have to get that close with her. The feeling of thinking he was cheating you and having everyone think that as well without you even knowing sucks. It just made everything complicated. So you needed some time to just distract yourself and disconnect from the world. You watched some movies, swam and then you went to sleep.
Finally you woke up. You woke up to a room filled with balloons and a trail of rose petals from your bed to the living. “Hello?” You yelled out. Nothing. You knew Nate was out of the state filming his video and it wasn’t your birthday or anything. You were confused. You slowly walk out to the living room and see a room filled with roses and a large teddy bear.
And then you see Nate. He has a bouquet of flowers, chocolate and a card in his hands. “Baby, I’m sorry. I should’ve given you all of the details. I know you’re understanding with my work and I took that for granted. I would be upset if you told me you had a photoshoot with a guy and left out the fact that you’d have to kiss or something. I don’t know what I was thinking. I wasn’t thinking at all actually. I-"
"Shhhh” you interrupted him. “You talk to much baby.” He smiles and pulls you in a tight embrace and kisses you. “I accept your apology but give me a warning next time. We both knew what we were getting into when we started dating and we have to be honest with each other to make this work” you said looking into his eyes. “I promise you, this won’t ever happen again. I love you and I don’t want to lose you.” He said seriously. You smiled and kissed him again.
So what did you guys think? I hope you liked it! I’m personally not bothered by nate’s choice. More than likely, she’s nothing but an actress/dancer paid to be in the video and that’s probably the most contact they’ll have which is how it works in the industry. It’s okay to be a little jealous but I don’t think less of him or anything like that :)
"Loving a band with all your heart is something you understand when it happens to you.One the surface,others can see it as a pretty obsession,but they’ll just never know the feeling of putting so much faith into a few people on the other side of the world.It’s hard to explain it to them,the listing to a song after song on repeat,the waits for new albums,the excitement and surreal sensation when you finally see them live.They don’t understand why the lyric booklets give you a sense of comfort,or why you have paste photos of them all over your bedroom walls.And they can’t understand why one dance could matter to you so much.And you think to yourself, ‘because they saved my life’ but you say nothing,they wouldn't understand."-Alex Gaskarth