why clamp why

this was gonna be for day 6 for trc month but i got very behind so now its just a draw of the whole family~

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Then can I choose a birthday for you?
Yours can be the same as mine,
April first!
Is that so?
So your birthday is the same as mine,
April first!
Happy Birthday! (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧
Sakura-hime, Syaoran, Tsubasa-hime and Tsubasa.

[6]

And it all comes TUMBLING DOWN 

TUMBLING DOWN 

TUMBLING DOWN

In which Fai has been utterly destroyed. 

Kurogane’s declaration has cut him so deeply to the core that he can’t even stand up anymore. 

He just collapses against the wall, so distraught that he doesn’t even care that he falls to the floor. 

And he laughs; the empty, hollow laugh of a broken man who is finally faced with the conflict he’s just spent years of his life trying to avoid. 

He needs to decide between the people he cares about and SOMETHING ELSE. 

And it’s a hard decision. 

It’s the hardest decision. 

It’s a decision he was deliberately avoiding, but now it’s here, and Kurogane won’t let him forget it anymore, and no matter what happens next it will be bad in some way. 

No matter which choice Fai makes, it’s going to be TERRIBLE for all of them. 

And just. To hammer it home a little further, Fai’s legs are once again crossed in the Hanged Man pose. 

Which still fits. Because it’s a polarising choice between two extreme opposites, and he needs to willingly surrender himself to the decision that he’s dedicated his entire personality to avoiding. 

And it’s heartbreaking.

The “death” for Fai in Outo was always great in the manga because we got to see the reactions of Syaoran and Kurogane to news that Fai had died so early on in the journey. Now of course he didn’t actually die, and readers likely caught on quickly that something wasn’t right (especially considering Syaoran is “killed” in the next chapter, further signaling that they wouldn’t really die).

But what gets to me now during that scene is we now know from (one of the new character guides had the interview I think, that chibiyuuto translated) that CLAMP intended to kill Fai off later on in the story for real. So having him die for fake in Outo near the beginning, would make it hurt more to just kill him for real closer to the end (which would have been their plan at this point when they wrote Outo). Great from a storytelling perspective because it would make fans wonder if he really survived, instilling greater shock when revealing he didn’t live the second time and break their hearts. But man, thankfully CLAMP didn’t actually do it, because Fai deserves to live and it would have been too sad for him to die for reals.

i tried doing lineart for the first time in, what, 4 years ? and its as hard as i remembered orz

i absolutely love fai and i could go on for hours abt how much i love tsubasa tbh

What I love in Tsubasa is that, unlike classic shônen shows where it begins with average protagonists who proceed to progressively gain power in order to make it through whatever is in their way, it starts with a team of the most powerful beings of the multi verse, only that they have to deal with very peculiar issues; lies, half truths, broken relationships, questions on existence, … And the list just keeps on growing until it crumbles from under their feet and they suddenly need to solve things once and for all. As a result, they are not stronger at the end (arguably, they are weaker.), but they are just… So free and lighter and full of love and trust, and I can’t admire Clamp enough for showing how gaining freedom and heart lightness and family love is just as challenging and as fulfilling as gaining the physical power to make your dreams true.

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"Despite all that, Kohane-chan is still happy to marry someone like you. You better take good care of her."
"Of course. But the one Tsuyuri cares about the most is you."

[3]

WHAT THE FUCK YOU GUYS