why cant more people be like you

anonymous asked:

Sis someboy really just came for me and tried to explain to me, a black woman, that reverse racism doesn't exist. Then they "claimed" to be black and said mlk wouldn't spread hate like that. Like mlk is literally probably rolling in his grave rn. Somebody teach these kids 😭

Argueing with white people about racism is tiresome,full stop, 

you be like: man….racism sucks

white person: So you HATE all white people???? that's why you’ll never be more than a filthy nigger to us

Black Canary Appreciation Post since y’all love to sleep on my girl so much
  •   Her Canary Cry is strong af. My girl can break things, shatter metal, kill aliens, rip almost anyone’s head off with it. 
  • “She possesses a incredible degree of control over her vocal cords. This enables her to mimic sounds and generate any sound she desires.“

  • "Canary Cry has been able to reach 300 decibels,which is enough to make a person’s ears start bleeding even if they’re not the target.

  • MARTIAL ARTS. She is one of the most skilled martial artists in DC. She is an expert at hand-to-hand combat. 
  • She is a very important member of Justice League. Even led it. 
  • In Young Justice, Black Canary provides counseling to the team after tragedies.
  • She offered training to the girls she (they) has rescued.
  • here she is, holding her own against some Amazons. (AMAZONS, PEOPLE.) 

  • And here she is kicking some *** because why not? 
  • She doesn’t take shit from anyone. And i mean ANYONE.
  • Remember when Superman&Batman&Wonder Woman had secret meetings and tried to lead the league behind her back? NAH-UH.
  • “In our line of work, asking a favor means asking someone to put their life on the line. Dinah Lance, The Black Canary, doesn’t even hesitate one moment.”
  • “Why should i fear you?” 

“Because i fight like a girl.”

To summarize, Dinah Lance is a very powerful, strong, caring, kind, badass, amazing, talented, smart woman who deserves to be loved and appreciated way more. 

Few words by & about the 'ungrateful' and 'arrogant' Harry Styles:

“It’s your birthday today? Gonna go get some tickets. Bring some friends.”

“If you cry, I’ll cry to”.

“Hi Scott, heard you were going through some stuff. Sorry about that. Stay strong”.

“They sang a song he wrote together, her fave… “If I could Fly”. It was such blessing for her to have this moment with him - and from what he shared, it was just as amazing for him”.

What’s the most amazing thing a fan has ever done for you? :
“For my birthday this year some fans gave money to a charity.”

“I’m thinking of you and sending you all the love in the world. That’s a lot of love”.

“Harry decided to go to the Lalela project all by himself and really impressed everyone there. He offered all the students concert tickets and spoke to them at length about their lives”.

“An unknown number I answered and for it to only be Harry Styles ringing from USA!! He wanted to do a FaceTime or video recording for Jessica”.

“Harry was one of the celebrities who donated to ‘Jeans for refugees’, signing the jeans with 'All the love, Harry”.

“Harry knows the name of every waiter and waitresses at Cafe Habana, he also gives them a hug every time he goes there”.

Harry Styles, after a brief pause when asked why the boobs on his mermaid tattoo were saggy - “Because everyone should love themselves, and they shouldn’t strive for perfection”.

“He was emphatic that he did not do this for publicity. He truly just wanted to meet Cam. I would not want anyone to get the wrong idea”.

“The hair and make-up team love him too because he’s very polite. One time he even made the effort to thank the catering department for making what he called ‘fantastic food’. He’s such a gent”.

“If I see someone acting like they’re something special it shocks me into not doing it even more. And I have seen a lot of people do it, both famous and non-famous. I don’t understand why you cant just be nice to people, whether you’re in the public eye or not.”

"He broke through the barrier to get to me and just hugged and hugged me and he calmed me down to the point where I could breathe again”.

“We just want to keep getting better and better for them”.

“What the fans have done for us is so important, and we have to keep giving them good music”.

“The manager of the restaurant just came up and told us that Harry Styles paid for us”.

“Harry Styles is a fucking angel I was stuck in the pap mob and he said ‘hold on and walk’ cause I tripped over”.

“He was so nice. Honestly, he walked up to me out of nowhere at Billboard awards, and no one does that”.

“Because that’s what Harry does; spreading the love, kindness and humor - to everyone”.

“We thank you with everything that we are. All the love, Harry”.

“To you who support us, in any way, thank you. We wouldn’t be here without you. You did this, and we thank you for having us. All the love”.

How people see the PJO and HoO Characters

Percy: Stupid, hot af, great fighter, cant be smart at all. Like idk why you keep forgetting this man is a heckin genius.

Annabeth: Bitchy gf. Only thing cool bout her is she’s smart. Eats textbooks. Serious 24/7 Boring. Like come on she’s hilarious and she’s a lot more than being percys girlfriend and shes not as annoying as yall say she is.

Grover: Literally people never talk about grover. The only time people talk bout Grover is to mention that noone talks bout him.

Bianca: Bitch for leaving Nico. Thats all i ever see. Like come on she’s great. She practically raised Nico and she left cuz she knew Nico would be taken care of. She was a child and she was robbed of most of her childhood. She just wanted to runaway and be a kid.

Nico: Depressed, emo, gaybaby, paler than the moon, stupid. Yall forget he’s italian? Even tho he is described as pale in some of the books, yall know that pale for italians is different. He had olive colored skin and still did even tho he was slightlt paler. Pale italians sorta look like brown eggs. Basically. Also he isnt just some depressed emo kid, he might’ve been depressed but theres no way in hell Nico di Angelo even knows what emo is. Also people who say he swears a lot are liars. He grew up Catholic in a proper Italian house and theres no way in hell Bianca would ever let him swear.

Jason: Superman, Percys best friend. Ate a stapler one time. Piper who? Jason’s lover is a brick. Most of thats true but again 👏dont👏forget👏bout👏grover👏

Piper: Bitchy. #tooglamtogiveadamn. Doesn’t deserve Jason. Everyone thinks that shes a useless daughter of Aphrodite with no real powers but she was real helpful and some badass stuff.

Leo: Small, annoying, 7th wheel, not worthy of being part of the 7. Like come on, Leo Valdez, McBadboy Supreme, is awesome. He built the Argo 2. He cheated death. He seems very attractive and i love him.

Hazel: Fake Bianca. You know what? Im too lazy to argue this one because i could rant for like 50 million yeard bout this one and people still would think it.

Frank: Canadian. Honestly noone talks bout frank at all. Hes lactose intolerant tho.

Reyna: Gay gay gay gay, lesbian, gay gay. #theyna is #life. Wheres her girlfriend? Rick Riordan its homophobic if you dont give her a girlfriend. God please shut up. Its not homophobic if reyna doesnt have a girl friend. Like come on. Reyna used to have a crush on Percy and Jason and has showed no signs of being a lesbian. And Rick said yall can interpret her as a lesbian but he never thought of her like that. And ya know it is his books.

Thalia: Gay gay, lesbian, gay. #theyna is #life. Shes a hunter of artemis, we learned in ToA that the hunters swear off all relationships so like sorry but she aint gonna date. Also shes done so many cool things and yall just protray her as Reynas girlfriend.

Will Solace: Who? He’s abusive to Nico. He’s like 30 years old. He “cured” Nicos depression by being his boyfriend and thats false. Okie dokie. 1st we’ve known Will since the first series. He freakin saved Annabeth. 2nd how the fuck is he abusive to Nico? Because they banter? Because he reminds him to eat and sleep and interact with people? Because he invades his personal bubble? Sorry guys but thats what boyfriends do. 3rd 👏they👏are👏the👏same👏age👏 rick even says that Nico and Will are both around 14/15 so like step up. And he didn’t cure Nicos depression. Depression isnt magically gone when you have a boyfriend. But having someone who loves you and cares for you and helps you through your depressive episodes can really boost your mental health. So like Will didn’t cure his depression but he sure as hell makes day to day living easier for Nico

Calypso: Percys jealous ex girlfriend. A bitch. Excuse me but percy and calypso didnt even date. And even tho they fight a bit, she and leo seem like they’re in a pretty good relationship


okay so i really need everyone to read this, its gonna be long but please this is really important. so recently we lost an angel, kim jonghyun. he killed himself, and it hurts a lot. there are people saying things like this is why the companys need to pay attention to the idols health more, because we don’t want this to happen again.. but when have they payed attention to the idols health in the first place. this is probably one of the reasons jonghyun killed himself, because he said the idol life wasn’t for him, he was being overworked, working hours a day, hardly getting payed and doing all this with depression. when you have depression while in a kpop group, you get payed less because you cant work as much, you have to take breaks and your “holding the group back” which is so fucking stupid..

ive been talking with a lot of people who like kpop but wont support it. and i always ask them why, you like it, but why cant you support it. and they all make a good point.. These big kpop entertainment companies like, SM, JYP, YG, Brave, Cube, and more are terrible companies. they overwork there idols to the point of exhaustion, to the point where there passing out multiple times in a day, in an hour. example Mark from nct, he hasn’t gotten a break, hes in every unit and is probably most likely overworked. these big companies are in a sense slave owners.. now don’t go hating on me now for saying that. I’m not saying they are but I’m saying in a sense they are modern day slave owners. for example, these idols are signing contracts to give up there life. they sign 5 to 10 to 15 to 20 years of there life to just be a kpop idol, and half the time, those 10 years that they signed away don’t even guarantee them an idol spot, that’s just training time. they have to work with no rest almost all day. not oh just 12 hours, no more like 18 hours sometimes if you want to get real extreme i could say some even work for 24 hours in a day. with no breaks. 

what are we doing about this? nothing, we’re doing NOTHING about this. yea we make hashtags, we do small petitions, we voice our concerns but are we actually doing anything about this. because you may be writing your name on the petition but then after that what do you go do, you go back to youtube, to listen to the latest song, probably owned by one of the top 3 big companies. which is totally disregarding this petition or whatever, because when you watch a video on youtube, you buy an album, you buy a poster, you go to a concert. your putting money, not in the idols pocket but in the companies pocket. we are all supporting this, and the people around me are smart, they aren’t supporting it because we are supporting slavery in a sense. you’ve probably seen the dark side of kpop, getting paid a dollar every 5 hours. even prostitution, which i didn’t know about until i saw the videos. 

if we all ALL of us, not just a few, went dark on kpop, boycotted kpop, i can bet that the entertainment companies would start treating the idols right. but it cant just be for a week, and it cant just be a few fans, we need the majority of people to do this. to pick a date where we will start, we will just stop everything, stop watching videos, stop buying albums, stop downloading music, and it could work.

if the companies weren’t getting out views our money and we voiced that we are done listening to kpop until our idols are for sure, showing us proof they are getting more money , and more rest, then we will join back in kpop. because if we continue to support this how many more idols are gonna die because they are overworked and depressed until we realize that this is wrong. its gonna get out there, people are gonna start realizing that it seriously is like slavery. and Americans are gonna find out and start saying your supporting this. because we are. 

we all just need to get together pick a date, where we just stop listening, i can bet you if we all did this in less then 2 months even probably less then a month they would start treating the idols better, but we ALL have to participate 

pick a date, and we will begin, we all need to do this if truly we want our idols to be better we will stand together and stop just stop go dark boycott kpop. it wil be hard but we can do it if we really want the idols to be better

just pick a date

please please PLEASE spread this around, don’t just like, reblog, and reblog, fuck if you agree with me fucking translate this to Korean, Spanish, Japanese, idfc, just get this out there, get people to know, we cant wait for another idol to die before we realize what we are supporting.

just reblog please..

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yall: as someone who has been ~professionally diagnosed~ with borderline personality disorder, its NOT manipulative to have a fp. this goes for everyone who has bpd: self dx or pro, psychotherapy or no, u cannot control the way u react to situations bc lemme explain something about bpd:

(if it helps, this is literally confirmed by the hospital that treats me and my psychiatrist):

borderline personality disorder is formed by one’s upbringing, by trauma or by a series of traumatic events,, ur brain develops differently than a normal person’s because ur constantly on the defensive! this is why we have the black/white thinking, why we are impulsive, why we have a lot of anxiety all the time, why we’re so exhausted ,, our brains are on constant DEFENSE mode and its not something we can turn off: we can only deal with the symptoms (i.e take medication for the anxiety, treat impulsivity, etc). people with bpd have a VERY hard time molding into a societal “healthy” behavior because since we are constantly on defense mode, our instincts differ from a normal person’s.

now about the fp (favorite person(s), if u dont know): people with borderline personality disorder tend to idealize and imprint on a person or a small group of people they admire, because they crave validation and they feel like they Die without it. (im using they to make it easier, but I HAVE BEEN DIAGNOSED AND AM BEING TREATED FOR BPD). a lot of borderlines do not tell their fp(s) they are their fp, but it does not change the fact that its still a process that goes on internally and that they do have emotional dependance on people, characters, etc (note: a fp can be a tv personality, a book protagonist, an anime character etc. the fp doesnt have to physically exist to be a fp).

all this being said, it is factually incorrect to say that having a fp is inherently abusive, not to mention extremely harmful to the people who are trying to manage their bpd and have fp(s), telling them that imprinting on a person is abusive when a lot of borderlines experience abuse from multiple sources can in fact cause an immense amount of guilt and self hatred that could cause a borderline to hurt themselves and/or isolate themselves from the people they love out of fear they’re being abusive. THAT IS NOT PRODUCTIVE.

having a fp, imprinting on someone, being emotionally dependent on an individual is NOT abusive or manipulative. a person with bpd is not Bad for having a fp(s). i chose to tell my boyfriend he’s my fp, but that’s just me. call me abusive all you like. in my humble onion, and this is also the opinion of a lot of professionals, it is GOOD to tell the people close to you about your symptoms and why you act the way you do, so they can be more understanding when you act impulsively or erratically and they cant fully comprehend why you are acting that way, because its not the way a healthy person would act.

like, should i apologize to juliette from the shatter me books for being my fp and am i being manipulative to a character because i imprinted on them? that’s plain ridiculous and you should feel ashamed for ever perpetuating the idea that an uncontrollable symptom of borderline personality disorder is inherently abusive because that means that you are calling my PERSONALITY abusive, something that i cannot control or cure with any amount of psychotherapy and medication, and therefore you yourself are being abusive. funny how that works, huh?

superbooprr  asked:

Why do you not want people reposting your art? I mean, I get it. People tend to steal and call it theirs. But Ive been wanting to repost some of your art for a long time. Im not trying to sound like Im hating, Im just a bit upset I cant repost even if I credit. I love your art and everything thaf you do Signe, I just wish I could show more people it.

I don’t want it reposted because if you want to repost it then that means I’ve already uploaded it so you could just as well reblog/retweet it directly from the source.
Another reason is that once people see it reposted (for instance on IG) they take that as consent to repost it themselves and thus the credit that, may or may not have been on it, gets lost in a sea of repost with stuff like “credit to whoever made this” on it, which doesn’t help the artist who originally drew it out at all. /:

BTS giving & receiving hickies

this is dedicated to my little Bambi, because she’s a whore and i feed her whoreness. Bambi ily<3


giving: 100% will mix hickies in with food play. will put whip cream on your neck, thighs, belly, wherever. he will suck, lick and bite until it was all gone. also likes to come up behind you and back hug you and just give you a hickie playfully. he likes to have fun in life but loves your moans even more. 

receiving: i feel like Jin is a switch and doesn’t really mind whose on top or bottom as long as you were both enjoying it. he’s the same with yoongi when it comes to hickies though, even though he prefers only his neck, he would still only want them when he wasn’t promoting or in winter. 


giving: he WILL mark your body until you were fully purple. your neck, breasts, and inner thighs are his f a v o r i t e s. will not stop until he though you were covered enough. i feel like yoongi is more on the classy, gentlemanly side (not that the others aren’t), and would prefer that you kept his marks for only the two of you to see.  

receiving: i personally think he would love getting them as much as giving them. i don’t know why but i feel like he has a biting kink in a way. probably would prefer to have bite marks on his pelvis, right above the crotch, the “V” area that guys have when they’re toned. that area, and on the neck but only in the winter or when he doesn’t need to be in the public eye. 


giving: everyone knew you were hobi’s. they could tell by the marks that were always on your neck. when they would begin to fade, hobi would replace them with even more. they would be hard to cover too. so no matter how hard you would try, they would always show threw any kind of makeup, or if you were covering it with a scarf, hobi would just take it off and “let the world see them”

receiving: jimin has said that hoseok and namjoon are the most perverted out of the group and i can see that. i bring this up because i don’t think Hobi would be into them. not too sure why and i cant put my finger on it but it just doesn’t seem like his cup of tea


giving: THIS! BOY! WILL! RUIN! YOU! hickies everywhere, even in places you wouldn’t think people would put hickies. it’s his marking, whenever you’re out in public, he makes sure AT LEAST O N E is visible, if not more if possible. 

receiving: just like many other fans, i do believe that Joon is a powerhouse in the bedroom. he likes to be the one in charge. but i also think that when he was tired and horny or just really any time when he let you have control he would love feeling your teeth on his skin. the little nips and bites would drive him crazy. but i don’t think he would be for real hickies, just little playful bites and whatnot.  


giving: he’s a very classic, old school guy. while you might be bound and gagged underneath him, he would stick to your neck more than anything. i also think he would want to show off your hickies while you’re out and about together, i think its because shorter guys seem to have a more dominating essence in a way. 

receiving: i don’t think jimin would like this. he seems like someone who would want to be very dominant as a partner and would think of his partner as someone very innocent that he does V E R Y dirty things to.


giving: BODY WORSHIP!!!! he loves your body and would be a little scared to ruin your precious skin at first. until you convince him otherwise, he would stick to a little meatier areas like the tummy and thighs, but then once hes more comfortable his mouth will A L W A Y S be attached to your collar bone.

receiving: in my mind tae would love to be pinned under you as you marked up his neck, in all honesty, its probably his favorite. but i also don’t think it would happen vary rarely because even though he seems like he needs a lot of attention, he would prefer to give you even more attention. 


giving: i think this would be a kink of his, but it was also something he was afraid to do to you. as much as he jokes around with the older boys, i think he is secretly caring and more so like Jin because he did raise him. But i think  you would really have to beg to get him to mark you up. mostly because he wanted to take care of you and would think of it as hurting you in a way. 

receiving: i think he would like receiving more than giving. this boy would be a M E S S about this. wouldn’t care if he was promoting or not, the makeup team will cover it. he’s very proud about it too.


‘  let me just make one thing clear… i have no clue what’s going on, ever, at any moment, at any point in time. who knows what’s going on? not me. not ever.  ’
‘  i would just like to publicly announce that i have no idea what i am doing  ’
‘  we came from the same star and we will come together again in the end  ’
‘  i have a ‘why am i like this’ moment at least five times a day  ’
‘  did i need it? no. did i buy it? yes.  ’
‘  the most dangerous game is resting your eyes after you turned off the alarm clock in the morning  ’
‘  petition for stars in the day time please???  ’
‘  i love it when i wake up and stretch and something cracks. makes me feel like a glo-stick  ’
‘  drop whatever you’re doing right now and climb a tree  ’
‘  the most fucked up part of adult life is how you can just decide to do things  ’
‘  i’m a person who wants to do lots of things trapped inside a body that wants to SLEEP at all times  ’
‘  i’m so tired but i’ll probably be awake until 3 am for no reason  ’
‘  time to kick my own ass. bitch had it coming for too long  ’
‘  honestly ‘thanks i hate it’ is one of the funniest phrases in the english language  ’
‘  do you ever wonder how many people have loved you and never told you?  ’
‘  the internets one true talent is making me sick of things i’ve never seen or read or heard  ’
‘  i’m permanently emotionally damaged but it’s chill, i’m chill  ’
‘  all cracker barrels are dimensionally linked. you could walk into a cracker barrel in georgia and walk out of one in arkansas and feel nothing  ’
‘  ‘you look different with makeup’????? you think i’m buying shit for hundreds of dollars to just keep looking like my ugly self … ok  ’
‘  why did the fray go off so hard in ‘how to save a life’?  ’
‘  anyone else bummed they have 2 sleep alone tonight and uh not in some1s arms  ’
‘  not to be too controversial but i like it when people are nice   ’
‘  the sun has no business tapping out at the tender hour of 5pm bitch i have depression  ’
‘  i forgot how fucking weird november is theres no afternoon its just night after 2pm  ’
‘  what time do you need me? i am unavailable whenever that time is  ’
‘  look i may have made a few typos and committed a few murders but nobody’s perfect okay  ’
‘  i guess at this point i should just consider dating myself  ’
‘  i’m aiming for the “she’s a badass and cute as hell but i wouldn’t touch her without asking” look  ’
‘  haha if you’re bored you could kiss me idk just sayin  ’
‘  i see you’re paying attention to someone who is not me. why is that.  ’
‘  80s music wont solve all my life’s problems but it certainly distracts me from them  ’
‘  i cant believe what walkie talkies are called  ’
‘  some people think life is like a rollercoaster but my life is more like one of those rides that spin really fast so you’re pinned to the wall and can’t do anything about it  ’
‘  hey girl do you want to make a fragile human connection in the vast and unfeeling infinity of a chaotic universe  ’
‘  all these fuckboys but who is the fuckfather  ’
‘  i love drunk me but i don’t trust her  ’
‘  do you have those people that you’d go anywhere with unconditionally, like they could say “lets go check out that dumpster” and you’d be like “im in”  ’
‘  nah sorry i cant go out tonight, i have plans to spiral into uncontrollable anxiety starting in the early evening and ending at roughly 3 am  ’
‘  me: queen of having had enough  ’
‘  she needs a hug (i’m she)  ’
‘  is it acceptable to start an essay with “listen here you little shit”?  ’
‘  90% of my day is me being nervous  ’
‘  cons: i’m an asshole. pros: i’m your asshole.  ’
‘  give me 10 reasons why i shouldn’t just turn into a slug right now  ’
‘  are we gonna fuckn hold hands tonight or what bitch  ’
‘  dear soulmate, where the fuck are you  ’
‘  i’m so easily revitalized by small, loving gestures  ’
‘  i dont know what im feeling but there is a lot of it  ’
‘  let’s be friends with benefits. the benefits? you get to be friends with me  ’
‘  you ever just sit back and think like… yo… i really don’t care  ’
‘  im surprised no one has ever punched me in the face  ’
‘  what if mike was short for micycle  ’
‘  hey fellow regular kids what’s up  ’
‘  if u ever called me pretty i love you. ur pretty too  ’
‘  do you ever just ‘there’s probably something medically wrong with me but i’m just gonna ignore it and hope i don’t die’?  ’
‘  why did we stop building castles? i feel like humanity might live to regret that  ’
‘  i’ll never be as lazy as whoever named the fireplace  ’
‘  i am so glad you exist, even if you exist so far away from me  ’
‘  i can hold a wet bar of soap better than a conversation  ’
‘  she is beauty, she is grace, she got her feelings hurt 42 times today  ’
‘  13 years of school and im still not sure if its ‘grey’ or ‘gray’  ’
‘  hope u like bad girls because i’m bad at everything  ’
‘  got a problem with me? kiss me on the lips dude  ’
‘  too many songs about love. not enough songs about sword fights  ’
‘  don’t talk to me or my 78 insecurities ever again  ’
‘  i just did a tarot reading… it said ur a bitch  ’
‘  a good substitute for love and fulfillment? a crunchwrap supreme from taco bell  ’
‘  i fucked up? idk what you’re referring to but probably  ’
‘  *in a high-pitched mocking voice* “are you okay?” what the fuck.  ’
‘  how do u just….. not believe in aliens  ’
‘  a coffee pot can be a coffee mug if you just don’t fucking care  ’
‘  “you’re up early!” jokes on you i didn’t sleep at all and am in between energized and dying  ’
‘  dont wanna sound like a slut but i really need a hug right now  ’
‘  casual fan? no sorry i only know how to invest my whole livelihood into something and spend every waking moment thinking about said thing  ’
‘  i have a dozen hearts swirling around my head irl like that isnt a filter its permanent  ’
‘  i worry about you even when you say you’re fine  ’
‘  i will never hurt you. i will always stick by your side. i will always try to make you smile  ’
‘  true love: having to hold back your adorable, violent girlfriend to keep her from straight up murdering a dude  ’
‘  cute date idea: be nice to me  ’
‘  im so jealous of people who know what they want to do with their future i dont even know what t.v show to watch next  ’
‘  me? clingy? yes please don’t leave me  ’
‘  hey….,.,.. no offense but,,. i want someone to love and cherish me  ’
‘  i need someone to lay in bed with me for hours  ’
‘  dark hannah montana….. show me the worst of both worlds  ’
‘  someone has to say it: come on eileen is a fucking banger like that shit snaps,, a bop for the century  ’
‘  roses are red, i’m going to bed  ’
‘  bless netflix for creating the skip intro button honestly  ’
‘  they call me… 7 Knives. because that’s how many knives it takes me to cook things because i keep puttin em in the fuckin sink without thinking about it  ’
‘  i wanna burry my face in someone’s chest right now til i fall asleep and wake up 4 hours later just to find i’m still in their arms  ’
‘  the internet has ruined me honestly i’m numb to everything. it could be the end of the world and i’d be like “tag urself i’m the acid rain”  ’
‘  lately i have been…….dying to be in love…,..and that’s the mood sadly  ’
‘  not to be ns fw but i’d cry if someone kissed me on the cheek  ’
‘  sexting? nah. i’m into spexting. spooky texting. ever seen a ghost? hmu.  ’
‘  not to sound cocky as shit but i’m a fucking good person with a big heart and i deserve a lot more than the shitty hand life has dealt me this far  ’
‘  i say i love you a lot because i do  ’
‘  i’m sorry. i can’t come to the phone right now? why? oh. cause i hate talking on the phone please text me instead.  ’
‘  low on self esteem, so u run on mac & cheese  ’
‘  who’s gonna come lay with me in bed and let me wrap my legs and arms around u like a small bear  ’
‘  youre a coward if youre not on the way to my house right now to give me a kiss  ’
‘  my personality is like 90% the song i’m currently listening to  ’
‘  the first step to any murder is to have fun and be yourself  ’
‘  no offense @ life but can i have a breath.. a break… some slack…  ’
‘  the best kind of alcohol is a lot  ’
‘  911 i hate to be “that guy” but i glued myself to the ceiling again  ’
‘  having “feelings” is ruining my reputation of being a heartless bitch  ’

im feeling so romantically frustrated aaa

Some Akielon side characters who deserve more love!

My thirst for more Kallias material is real, so fandom, please appreciate my struggling son. 

But seriously, if he were blond, he’d absolutely be Damen’s type (you know, layers upon layers of misdirection, but at the core willing to do anything to save the people they love. I want them to meet! I want him to reunite with Erasmus! I want to know what happened to him!)

BIRD LAW (for birds)

I’m required to do a (lengthy, publishable) paper for my Scholarly Writing law school course, and I just got clearance from my prof to do it on pigeons! Pigeons are completely unprotected by laws here in the US–there’s nothing regulating what you can and can’t do to a pidge

(Those birds aren’t pigeons. They’re my ringneck doves, Arson&Anarchy, and they’re here because I love them.)

Currently the plan is to do a brief overview on the history of pigeons (both generally and in the US specifically), debunk a few common misconceptions (”rats with wings” anybody?), then explain the position of modern pigeons, focusing on city ferals, fancy breeds, and meat birds. I’ll draw some comparisons to other domesticated animals like chickens and dogs, and how and why they’re similar.

 Then, because this is a law article, I’ll do some examples of laws that protect domesticated and feral animals, laws that regulate breeding, laws that protect other meat birds, and conclude with why there should be comparable laws for pidges. And maybe I’ll toss in some alternative conduct as well, like coop projects for city birds and more humane farming and breeding practices. I dunno, this is probably going to be a long paper. 

If anyone knows of someone (or IS someone) who has cite-able academic credentials in these areas–not just pigeons, but other domestic animals in a similar position–who would be willing to talk to me about these topics, please let me know! There doesn’t seem to be any law articles out there on pigeons, so this is a new topic, which means it’s very publishable. I’m also keeping an eye out on other publications (possibly non-legal) that might want an article like this. 

If you guys could help this post circulate, I’d really appreciate it! 

We’re Not Who We Used To Be (SOFT Mini Series)

A/N: So I have decided to make a series of scenarios based on specific lyrics from Harry’s songs which I’m so excited about because i’ve been writing all day. Some of them will be smutty, some wont, but ill put the warnings before hand. I want to thank a lot of you who have been supporting of me and my writing. If you have any lyrics requests please don’t hesitate to let me know. But I really hope you like this one, enjoy! -K

Warnings: N/A

Word Count: 4K

Pairing: Y/N and Harry


This week is the ARIA awards in Australia and Harry has been scheduled to perform. Because he has been on tour and constantly traveling I just think that he needs a few days off instead of going to an awards show. His manager Tommy had insisted on him declining the invitation to the show and have a non hectic couple of days, especially to spend time with me. But of course Harry being Harry he didn’t want to let anyone down and he decided that he wanted to go.

Harry always wanted me to come with him on tour, which is something I would be so happy to do. But my job is always my main priority. Through out our relationship, we had seen that we had been focusing too much on our carers, and neglecting our relationship. With both of our singing carers it was hard. But now with my tour over I’ve decided to take some time off to be with Harry and actually try to be here for him. Its his very first tour with just him and his band and of course he needed me to be there with him. Its not easy being on the stage by yourself, its very intimidating to say the least. But with me travelling with Harry I get to see and experience new things with him, and write new songs along the way. Knowing that Harry feels more at home with me being here for him, and knowing that I give him comfort when he sees me standing at the side singing along to his songs means everything to me. It just makes my heart swell at the thought.

“Babe, its either going to be the Gucci or the Alexander McQueen outfit, just pick one?” Harry came out of the hotels wardrobe with both his hands filled with these unusual coloured suits, with a puzzled look on his face, scrunched eyebrows waiting for my reply. “H you always go for Gucci so wear something different” I looked up at Harry, dragging my concentration from my novel in my hands to him then back to my book. “Okay sold” His cheeky grin spread across his face and put down the suits of the side of the bed, then making his way over to me. “Babe?” His hands sprung up to my book and pulled it away so my attention was on him. “H” I looked up and his face which still had the cheekiest grin on it. “Do you wanna grab something to eat?” “Yeah sure, I actually am quite hungry” “Okay cool” He knelt over me to grab the hotel phone to order in. I yanked the phone out of his hand and put it back to the server. “Do you not want anything?” The confusion setting into his face, I grabbed his chin to pull the smile back and I pushed my fingers into his dimples which I know he loved. “How about we go downstairs to the restaurant and eat? We can look cute and go out for a romantic meal?” “Sweetie I am so washed I cant be bothered going anywhere tonight” He pulled himself onto the side of the bed beside me with a sigh leaving his lips. “Harry its just for an hour or so, we haven’t had dinner together in a while” I looked back around at his face, still with a awkward look to it. “We had dinner yesterday” “Yeah, a salad in the dressing room” I sighed and pushed my body to lay on his chest with my arms wrapped around his waist facing him. “Im sorry it was just a thought, I know your really tired” “Im sorry baby ill make It up to you, when I have a day off we can do whatever you want, I promise” He pulled my forearms up so he could kiss me ever so gently on the lips then across my cheeks to my temples. “So do you want Chinese takeout or Indian?”

The next morning was the rehearsal for the awards show which was tonight, and as usual the preparation is crazy. People running around grabbing the lights, seating arrangements, the routine of the awards, scheduled performances, and of course the celebrities that are there to rehearse. I sat in one of the seats in the audience waiting for to watch Harry’s sound check for tonight when I seen him walking out with six people running after him. He immediately was looking for me in the room and his eyes landed straight on me. I gave a wave and made my way to the front of the stage where the cameras sit. “Hey baby girl” He crouched down kissing me and sat back up. “Hey H, you excited for tonight?” “Yeah I am, ill be fine once the performance is over and I get to sit beside you” I could feel my cheeks burning as if the lights were glaring down heat onto my skin. “I love the way I can still make you blush” “Shut up Harry and get up there” I giggled as I swatted at his shoe giving a smile his way. “Your going to be here right?” “Where else would I be?” He kissed my hand and got up to the band to organise the performance for tonight. “Y/N” I heard a shout from the left of me. I turn around and see Ella, or as most people know her, Lorde, came running to me and greeted me with a hug. “Oh my gosh hey girl no time no see” I screamed when we hugged for more than too long, but not seeing her for ages it made up for lost time. Me and Ella were really good friends when we first got into the industry. We are both signed on the same label and we kind of grew together. But over time obviously with our different lives and fame we kind of grew apart, but of course we still are good friends. “Congrats on the big tour chick” “Aw thank you, I’m just glad that I now have time to see and spend time with Harry, he’s having so much fun and I’m so happy to see him happy” I giggled at her. Her face didn’t rocipacate. “Are you happy though?” “Of course I am why wouldn’t I be?” She pulled her arm out, initiating to take a seat beside her. “Look Y/N I know when your not happy about something, is it Harry?” “No no its not Harry at all” “Then what is it?” I took a deep breath, and just let it out to her. “I don’t know, I just feel like recently we haven’t been as close as what we were before he released his music. Dont get me wrong we are still close, but I mean, I hate to say this, but- I kinda feel like we are growing apart a little” She looked down at my hands that were clawing down my jeans, which might as well have holes in them at this point. “If that’s the way you feel then maybe you should talk to him about it” “Yeah” I look over to Harry that was talking to one of the guitar players in the band, showing him the certain chords on the guitar he wanted played. Looking at him I know I couldn’t do it to him, not here and not when the whole tour is happening. It was crush him. “No, I cant bring it up now, its just, theres too much going on right now” “Well, I do think you need to talk eventually” My gaze went straight back to Lorde, which she had a sympathetic smile to it. She does have a point, but right now, it needs to be shot to the back of my head. My main concern right now s supporting Harry tonight. The chords from Kiwi came on and my full attention went straight to him with the music going straight through my body.

A few hours later I was finally finished hair and makeup when I hear him coming into the room with a few other people talking about the show tonight. I looked at Lou that was telling me a story about Lux and how she has started to take an interest in makeup. “And I said to her no yeh cant use nail polish for eyeshadow, I nearly had a heart attack then” Her accent strong like Harry’s always made me feel more comforted, I’m not sure why. Was probably the accent, which is stupid, but its always the small things for me. “Baby you look beautiful” Harry came over with food in hand and pushed a kiss to my head while Lou was still trying to perfect it. “Harold get away, glam squad here, no boys aloud innit” My face srunched up with laughter seeing Harry’s reaction. “Fine Im leaving, in a huff” He flicked his imaginary hair and walked off to the door. “As long as your huffs over in an hour to come back so I can do your hair you can huff to your hearts content pet” The laughter coming out of me was nearly the worst laugh in history, but the way they get along just makes you want to piss your pants. “You guys are so funny together Lou” “I mean its a pure comical show so yeh cant really get it anywhere else can yeh?” We both giggled and I got up to make my way into get changed.

When we were close to the red carpet of the ARIA’s I start to see Harry tense up a litte beside me, which made my hand glide up his thigh. “Hey youll be fine” “I know love, just not a huge fan of the red carpet bit” “I know, that’s what I’m here for, remember?” My eyes looked up into his nervous ones, reading him is so easy, you just know what he is feeling just by looking at him. “Just keep your eyes on me, right?” “Right” I felt a small kiss to my cheek as I looked back to the window of the car. I sometimes think to myself how can I make him feel better, he should be used to this kind of stuff. He has been doing it longer than what I have been. But then again everyone doesn’t like any of their job do they?

The night went smoothly, no humps or hiccups with the whole night. His performance was outstanding as normal, and on top of that he won best international artist which is amazing. He never gives himself credit for what he has done and want he can do. But then again when I think of myself being an artist I never think that I’m perfect. “I’m so glad to be home, well, back to the hotel I guess” He chuckled as I went to set my bag down on the kitchen table and he look off his blazer. “Babe I have to say, if that skirt was any shorter, I could of easily slipped inside of you when you were sitting on my lap after the show, fuck you looked so hot tonight” His hands automatically went straight to the back of my thighs and rubbed there way up underneath my skirt, clutching my bum. I quickly turned around so his hands couldn’t get where they wanted to. I knew where this was going. “Oh so you want to do it now?” His breathes got deeper as his eyes trailed around my body, eyeing me up like a piece of candy. “Of course, love, I just wanna bend you over this table” His ring covered hands found their spot again straight to my bum, clutching it in his palms, giving me a good squeeze. “Baby you torture me” His eyes reverted back to mine, trying to read me. I wasn’t really feeling the whole atmosphere. Since I talked to Lorde it really got me thinking about us and this whole ‘problem’ if that’s what I even wanna call it. I need to bring this up now before its too late. “Harry, every time I wanna have sex you say your too tired, now you want to?” “Well, yeah, why wouldn’t I?” His eyes gave out confusion that set to my lips then back to my eyes. “Look Harry, I really need to talk to you” I pulled his hands away from my bum and pushed him away to I could look at him properly. “Y/N, are you okay love?” He leaned on the chair that was sitting in front of him, waiting for me to make a coherent sentence that didn’t seem too stupid. How can I even start this conversation. “Harry, I feel like recently, this between us, well, they aren’t the way they used to be before” His face grew puzzled at my statement, never taking his eyes off of me. “I feel like somethings not right here, with us, is there something wrong with us?” “Of course there isn’t baby girl, I mean all couples kinda go through this I guess, but there is nothing wrong with us” He started to make his way back to me and I pulled myself back to the same distance that we were in before. I didn’t want him thinking that this conversation was over when it was just getting started. I didn’t want to brush off this conversation for the sake of not getting into a fight. I hate confrontation but this just needs to be said to him. “Harry I’m not happy. Im not happy that the fact that when I bring up something to do or something that I want to do that you always brush it off to the side and not make it a big deal. Like the few times that ive asked you to come with me and have a romantic meal or go for a walk, or even just to get coffee and spend some alone time together before you have a show. Look I know that you have the tour and I know that it can be stressful. But I’m here too, I know that I’m here for you to support you but I’m here, I need some Harry time to myself, and not with other people around shouting at you one million things.” His face just sat there, emotionless. He had no vibes coming from him, which is never a good thing when it comes to Harry. Not being able to ready him makes me think did I do the right thing and even bring this up?

“We do have alone time, when I come home from a show and we cuddle in bed with a dvd” “Harry that’s not spending time with someone, that’s just laying down before bed. We aren’t talking, we are just laying there until we fall asleep. That’s not being with each other” “Well in my eyes that counts for something” “Well in my eyes it doesn’t” The air in the room gets thicker and the tension starts to rise. “I feel like your not trying anymore H. I gave up my whole life to be here with you when I could have been at home right now” “Oh please, don’t give me this guilt bullshit” “I could have been writing songs for another album, and gee I don’t know, spending time with my family?” “So to get your own way in this fight you want to make me feel bad about you coming out here with me and throwing that back in my face?” “Oh so now its an arugment?” “Did you really think that this was going to be a good and smooth conversation Y/N?” His voice raised to a scary tone as he started to walk across to the other side of the kitchen. “I don’t know what you want me to do Y/N, just say to everyone ‘hey I wanna spend time with my girlfriend so I’m going to cancel a few shows here and there. Its not like that you know, I cant just take time off when I want it. This is my job. I am exhausted” “Harry I’m not asking you to give up tour dates for me, I’m asking you to make an hour just for us. Im not asking for a whole day. Even just a dinner, or something. But your not even trying, I feel like I’m the one that’s only trying here” I walked to the side of the sofa and sat down on it, looking down at my hands as the tears streamed down my face. “I feel as if you don’t love me anymore Harry” “What the fuck kind of statement is that? If I didn’t love you anymore, I wouldn’t care where you would go, I wouldn’t care if you were here or not, I wouldn’t give two fucks about you” My blood started to boil again and I got up to face his red complextion. “If you even fucking cared about me and our relationship we shouldn’t be even having this conversation. Im only asking for one fucking hour of your time, to actually spend time with your 4 year long girlfriend. Thats not a lot I’m asking here since your the one that’s asking for my full 24 hour time. You asked me to come with you not me” “And you said yes, you didn’t have to say yes, you could have easily said that you wanted to spend time with your family because I would have understood” “No Harry I wanted to come with you because I thought that it would have been an experience that I wouldn’t ever want to forget, to be with my boyfriend and to travel the world and see things that I didn’t see when I was alone” A small silence stilled as we took in what was said in the space of ten minutes. “I was thinking of the things that we could have been doing, as a couple. Making our relationship stronger” His face never left the ground, with his hands clasped around the sides of the marble designed island made me see that this was getting to him. I never thought that this conversation would have gotten this far. But it goes to show that he really didn’t think about it. I walked up to him and stood right in front of him and forced him to look at me. “How many times did you come out to see me when I was touring and you were away making your album?” “Dont pull this bullsh-“ “How many times did you come out to see me when I was touring and you were away making your album?” I repeated with a more stern tone to it. I needed to get him to see what was really going on, but it still wasn’t clicking. “Once” He mumbled with his face hung to the ground; keeping his face away from mine. “How many times?” I asked him to repeated it. “Once” His voice raised as he looked up at me. “Yeah, once out of 32 shows. That just proves my point, I’m done with this conversation” I started to walk away from him and he grabbed my arm with great force to stop me in my tracks. “Dont just walk away from this when you think your done, its not done here” “Right okay, lets keep fighting the same fight. If that’s what will get you to see it then please ill be happy to” I pulled my arms away from his grasp and folded my arms looking directly at him. “Y/N, if you really think that I don’t care, and brought you out here to waste your time, or just use you for comfort from home, then maybe you should leave and go home. Because to the quite honest with you, this attitude, is really getting on my last nerve” The attitude that was streaming from his body language was something I never thought I would see coming from him. He started to walk away into the kitchen when of course I followed him, with a lot more coming into mind. I wanted to make sure I didn’t forget anything that I had planned to say in my head. “I try so much for you Harry and your the one that throws it in my face. You really think that I’m giving you attitude? Yeah actually, maybe I am, because its the only way to get it through your thick skull that is whole thing is ruining our relationship” “Eh no actually Y/N because this whole relationship was fine until tonight” “You thought that it was a fine relationship” Once again a silence broke through the room waiting for someone to say something. I knew if I needed to explain more to him about us then it wasn’t even worth trying anymore. “Harry I shouldn’t have to explain to you if I’m happy. You should know that. You cant be this great guy int he public eye and then be a complete dick behind closed doors. Your either one person or the other, which is it? I fell in love with the nice charming guy that would do anything to be with me, and treat me with respect and treat me like no other guy would treat me. But that guy isn’t there anymore. I cant wait for him” I couldn’t keep my tears back looking at him. I was standing there pouring my heart out to him and he just stood there, facing me, watching me, looking right through me. Maybe I’m starting to break him. “I love you Harry. Not the guy that’s standing in front of me right now, but the guy that I met 4 years ago” I started to walk into the bedroom across the hall and slammed the door shut behind me. Thats when I broke, so hard. I held it in for so long trying to be strong to get everything out, and now that its out in the open, I kinda feel glad that I said it, but also regret it. Im thinking back to an hour ago and just thinking I should have just had sex with him and it would have been a good night. But it would ave just been me prolonging the enevitable.

Once I calmed myself down I decided to get myself back to our house in London to give us some space because at this point I think that’s all we need. I made sure that all of my stuff from travelling around was in my suitcase and zipped it up. I looked around the room and to Harry’s suitcase. Just knowing that I cant look for one of his graphic t shirts to wear to bed just made my heart break, but I know that doing this will help make him see that I’m serious about this.

I made my way down the halls trailing my suitcases at hand with the phone to my ear talking to the driver, and I seen Harry sitting on the sofa looking straight my direction. “Okay thank you, ill see you in 5” I hung up the phone and tried to ignore the fact that Harry was sitting watching me as I made my way to the door. “Y/N” He jumped up off of the sofa and hit his hand off of the door so I couldn’t open it. “Why are you doing this, why are you leaving?” “If you cant see that this is our main problem, I cant help you. We both need time to think about this” I grab the door handle and harry pulled it away. “Need time to think about what? Y/N we can talk about this and we can figure this out” His eyes began to fill up with tears. “Harry I cant sit here and pretend that everything’s okay when its not. I cant do this relationship if its one sided, its either we work 50/50 or I’m done” I pulled his hand away from the door handle and walked out the door with my suitcases. As I walk down the hallway I hear the faint noises of a scream and a loud smash coming from our room; hearing what this is doing to him just is breaking me into two, making me think that is this the right thing I’m doing. But what is breaking my heart each time I took a step, he wasn’t chasing me.

honestly if you arent asian or of that ethnicity and you aim to be part of that culture- in a way that you cant solidly answer “why ‘this specific country/language” thats where you need to stop yourself and ask if you are really interested in the culture or if you are fetishising it.

i feel like people dont say this enough or well i havent seen it at all. i feel like each ethnicity has two cultural groups within their many groups. one of them is appreciation for the culture, the foreigner’s culture where they do not force themselves into the culture but they are curious to learn more about it and appreciate it. then you have being that actual ethnicity culture where you grew up with the elements that made up your culture- but also the oppression that you face- and you know what is proper or not in your culture- you know what is considered sacred or not. the thing is appreciation culture cannot decide if its okay to do certain things. the culture that the foreigners culture tries to ‘appreciate’ can only go as far as well…. appreciating. but the culture that built itself, that someone else has grew up in, i feel like its kind of obvious that they would know when you are taking it too far that it crosses the line of trying to learn and marvel at another culture over to literally FORCING yourself into it? 

like you as a person who is not korean- why must you have your blog title korean? you may say that it has some sort of history to it- but the question still stands on “why korean”. that is the question we need to continuously ask ourselves. “why ‘this language or ethnicity” because essentially theres a difference between trying to learn about a culture and forcing yourself into the culture. its two very different things- and two different groups of people which some of you fail to understand. 

okay so you want to learn said language, do you want to learn because you love learning languages- you have a future where that language stems from or do you want to learn because it sounds nice, because it may give you a better chance to charm someone of that culture, or because you think its really cool (that language specifically, rather than thinking all languages are super cool). the thing is you cant expect to gain anything from appreciating someone elses culture. you cant expect that youre going to meet this wonderful specific-asian guy or girl- which is often to the problem, and also you cant expect people to take you in- or adopt you unless thats literally what happened (asian parents adopting a white kid) of the culture. you do not belong there. you are part of the appreciation culture. you will never actually be integrated into the culture because you did not grow up in it. 

so you want to join the asian entertainment industry yet you arent asian. why do you want to join? is it because theres a higher chance of success (doubtful and probably a lie to yourself) or because you want to meet people- be closer to things (essentially people you objectify) you find attractive- then you have to also ask yourself if you are trying to force yourself into a culture which does not belong to you. 

appreciation is a different culture. korean appreciation is different from korean culture. japanese appreciation is different from japanese culture. black appreciation is different from black culture. appreciation is a different culture from that culture. you cannot force yourself into another persons culture- especially without understanding that the people grew up understanding a type of oppression and racism you’ll never understand. you do not belong to that culture. you did not suffer the way that those who grew up in their culture. but you can appreciate culture- and that is as far as you’ll ever get. 

idk what this is besides mostly crack (canon) that @skamforfaen and i discussed abt some things vilde might say, and do once she eventually!! becomes comfy with her sexuality. 

  • isak and vilde!!! yes gay pals!!! they’re going to be like “that’s homophobic” whenever something minorly inconveniences them and laugh so hard and everyone else is just “?????”
  •  i can imagine vilde sayin that first with the squads and then everyone’s “ …???…” and then isak goes all mock serious and “didn’t u hear her??? that IS homophobic smh”
  • *water bottle falls down on the floor* “well, THAT’S homophobic”
  • *gets bad grade on a test* my teacher is homophobic”
  • imagine sometimes how it just slips out at the worst of times bc vilde suddenly gets really into lgbt history/negative stereotypes and suddenly becomes really educated and she just, thinks everything is homophobic and oppressive (is she wrong tho)
  • “can that server tell i kissed my gf today??? Is that why my meals late? This is blatant rude homophobia im going to talk to the manager!“ 
  • and eva’s there like “vilde, we just kissed 2 minutes ago.” - “i know that eva! but our food is late! she’s homophobic!”
  • “vilde, you cant blame everything on homophobia.” - “and why not eva???” - eva gives her a look. - “well, you might not see the blatant disregard heterosexuals shoot our way because we are a same-sex couple eva, but i do! would a straight girl have to wait 10 extra minutes for her salad if she was with a boy?? i don’t think so!”
  •  "vilde it was one time and she gave u a valid reason.“ - “well we’ll see abt next time hmm." 
  • next time ends up being 2 days later and this time vilde ends up with no cutlery. "see eva, what did i tell you? homophobia.”
  • one time vilde says “as a gay,,” in isak’s presence and he chokes on air
  • “vilde,,,, you cant just- you cant just say that!” 
  • “and why not, isak?”
  • “you- cant-you- just- you just cant!?”
  • "i don’t have a problem with it isak. i’m gay. you know,,,, the stigma attached to the label can be very dehumanizing and hurtful but the more we use it the more it becomes ours and the less people can hurt us with it bc there’s nothing wrong it, is there isak? i like girls and you like boys and people just have to accept that.”
  • just give me isak and vilde learning from each other and gradually becoming friends and supporting one another (even tho it takes time to get there, vilde is forever thankful that she’s got isak and vice versa tbh)
  • just imagine vilde getting all philosophical and progressive once shes really comfy with herself.
  • just imagine vilde, isak, even and eva bonding over their sexuality and forming a group within their group!
  • pls vilde would so join “skeiv ungdom” (lgbtqia+ youth group), she’d be the fucking LEADER of skeiv ungdom oslo and organize all these pre-games and parties and demonstrations .  
  • she’d make sure its the safest place for everyone and just like with her first kosegruppa meeting, she’d make everyone do exercises and get to know each other and have introductions and make sure people use each others correct pronouns. 
  • and sometimes they play games or talk about their experiences and also the joys of being gay and how it gets better and how these groups are supposed to create a supportive place to talk and relate to one another but to also have fun and Hope.
  • some days they talk about certain lgbt topics and they vote on which one to dicuss first. e.g. compulsory heterosexuality, coming out, links between being lgbt and mental health, support networks, history, icons, songs, etc. 
  • and sometimes new members come in so they do this thing where every week they introduce each other again by their name, sexuality (if they want) and something good they want to share with each other that happened to them in the last week
  • sometimes people who’ve been coming to the meetings from the beginning end up introducing themselves one day but for the first time, actually coming out as well. so the constant introductions give all the members the option to come out when they feel comfortable or sure, bc not everyone in the group is out or labels themselves.
  • even is definitely co-leader along with vilde, she asked him specifically bc she loves the way he talks to people and the two of them have had numerous educational and supportive talks and have become pretty close. 
  • even “you don’t think that’s a bit of a superficial generalization?” bech næsheim.
  • i bet vilde would bake sweet buns (boller, like she did for kosegruppa) and pride cupcakes for the meetings too.
  • now pride: she’d make everyone bring at least one thing to pride (they’d make a day of it at isak’s place and get everything ready there and leave together) but she’d make sure she bakes and has a hell of a fun time frosting with her friends and gf eva. the frosting would be rainbow ofc and everyone ends up leaving the house with frosting smeared on their cheeks, cue a lot of kisses from everyones significant other.
  • just. concept: proud lesbian vilde, along with her fellow gay isak, his pansexual boyfriend even and her bisexual gf eva!

Fun facts about two year olds: they like toys.

The unwrapping process is usually the most exciting. Most kids will play with the ribbons and/or paper, but two year olds have developed noticeable interests by this age. It’s not just lights and colors anymore, they typically have something that makes them more excited than other things, be it trains or trucks or dolls or even makeup/jewelry.

Gendered interests are usually parental influences, so a two year old boy would be just as comfortable playing with “girl’s toys” as a two year old girl would be with “boy’s toys.”

Two is a good age for puzzles, exploring artistic interests, musical toys, etc etc.

anonymous asked:

rfa+ Saeran going to pride for the first time with with MC?

A/N: HAPPY PRIDE MONTH MY GUYS! THOUGH IT’S ALMOST OVER? (For where I live anyway, pride month is June! I heard some places celebrate in May??) I STILL WANTED TO TRY AND GET THIS OUT BEFORE THE END OF THE MONTH AAA ~Admin 404


               -You didn’t even tell him what this parade was for

               -All you said was “Do you want to go to a parade with me”

               -And he was THERE

               -Parade? FUCK YEAH! Loves him some parades

               -Fried food, bright colours, fun booths, cute floats? Yes yes yes!

               -You decided to just wait until you brought him to tell him what the parade was actually for

               -Though when the two of you got there, and he noticed literally everything was rainbow, he kind of pieced two and two together…


               -Was actually really honoured that you wanted to go to something like this with him?? Like you’re loud and proud about your relationship and that makes him giggle

               -Seeing all of the insane outfits was definitely fun for him!


               -“MC… we… we don’t have to be naked or anything for this.. right?” No baby it’s okay


               -I know I said as red as could be, but that’s because you didn’t think he could get any redder. But oh, were you mistaken

               -He turned almost glowing red when he watched you just shoving the condoms in your pockets

               -“I’m not gonna just waste these, Yoosung, that’s rude” OH MY GOD MC DON’T TALK LIKE THAT OUT LOUD

               -Was disappointed that he didn’t get to dress up or anything like that so you found a group of nice people with some body paint and asked if they could do something for him!

               -Cutie walked around with a completely rainbow painted face (yours matching) and could not stop taking pictures

               -10/10 sent any and all photos to the group chat, always talking about how much he loved you and this parade!

*ZEN: Male!MC

               -“MC! It’s the pride parade!”

               -Oh no

               -You’d love to go with him, of course!

               -Your relationship is…. well it’s absolutely perfect to the two of you but there are still those who question it

               -His fans are practically split in half between completely idolizing your relationship, and the other half just wanted Zen for themselves

               -So you were pretty afraid to attend pride like that, so out in the open, so…exposed

               -But he was a-okay with it

               -He didn’t care what others have to say about the two of you???

               -Once the two of you actually got there though, it was a m a z i n g

               -People would recognize Zen left and right and they would be so excited that he even showed up!

               -But when they saw the two of you holding hands, they practically exploded (in a good way)

               -THEY WERE SO ECSTATIC!

               -Their favourite actor is part of the LBGT+ community and they are HYPED

               -People are coming up frequently to congratulate the two of you on your beautiful relationship

               -He even sang a few love songs up on a few stages, loving as the crowds went wild!

               -The one thing he couldn’t stand though, was all the hateful protesting

               -He tried to ignore it at first but as the day went on he couldn’t stop himself from walking over and yell back at them

               -To prove a point, he pulled you into a deep kiss- eliciting hundreds if not thousands of whistles and cheers from the crowd at the parade

               -You had to physically hold him back from fighting one protester though

*JAEHEE: Female!MC

               -“Jaehee! The pride parade’s coming up! We should go!”

               -P A N I C

               -She loves you and most definitely isn’t afraid to tell you that, but…

               -She is afraid of others hating her for it? She really dislikes confrontation

               -But you assure her that it’s a completely safe space! It’s full of allies and others celebrating same sex love!

               -Agrees to go along, and even dresses up to match you

               -The two of you have adorable shirts with unicorns on it that says “Squad goals”!

               -Embarrassed because she doesn’t use slang like that but the two of you just looked so cute!

               -And honestly? Seeing all of the happy couples expressing their love, the loud and proud people just enjoying their time, thousands of colours and confetti everywhere; she’s in love

               -Like?? It’s a place?? In public??? Where she can kiss you all she wants??

               -She does every now and then but she’s still embarrassed the poor bby

               -L o v e s the booths!

               -Thinks it’s important to support those in the LGBT+ community who create works of art!

               -Honestly bought like 20 pounds in books solely because they look amazing and are by up and coming LBGT+ writers (not to mention they all promised part of the proceeds go to charities!)

               -She’s part of the RFA she feels it’s like an unspoken duty of hers to do anything related to charities


               -Lowkey wants to set up a booth next year for your coffee shop

               -“It’s a good business investment, MC” “You just want to come to pride again next year, you don’t have to lie” “A GOOD! BUSINESS! INVESTMENT!”


               - ah yes

               - jumin han does gay

               - im soRRY I COULDNT RESIST

               -He was kind of against going to this parade

               -Not because it was for pride or anything but because he was just iffy about all the people

               -Does he really want to go and be surrounded by thousands of people, all of them bumping against him??

               -Well one look into your puppy dog eyes and the answer was yes, yes he did

               -You had to convince him to leave (most) of the body guards at home

               -There were a few that followed a moderate amount of distance behind but you caught them lowkey fawning over the two of you when he would give you a quick kiss on the nose or squeeze your hand

               -Honestly a few other couples would stop the two of you and tell you how cute the two of you were??

               -It would get Jumin so flustered and you were SO THANKFUL because wow look at my cutie he’s adorable

               -If any protesters even thought about something rude to you the bodyguards were there in an instant

               -You dragged Jumin along with you as you looked at each and every booth, placing the beaded necklaces they gave out around his neck

               -The funny part is, he just let you?? Like okay MC

               -At one point the necklaces stacked so high that you couldn’t see anything lower than his eyes

               -He didn’t want to disappoint you by taking them off so he left them until you noticed and laughed your ass off

               -Definitely took pictures before you distributed most of the necklaces among the two of you and the body guards

               -“MC, do you think Elizabeth would enjoy this rainbow collar?” “Juju that’s not for cats” “….Would you enjoy this collar?” JUMIN NOT IN PUBLIC

               -He saw some… interesting outfits, to say the least

               -“Commoners are very… odd, aren’t they?” that’s rude

               -Saw someone walking their partner on a leash

               -The moment you saw him side-eye you, you jabbed him in the ribs with your elbow, eliciting a slight grunt from him

               -“Don’t even think about it pretty boy”

               -To get back at him for even thinking about walking you on a leash, you poured a ton of glitter over his head while he was looking at some merchandise

               -Actually chased you through the large crowd, picking you up and spinning you before kissing you gently once he caught you

               -People cheered because wow look y'all are so cute together


               -You wanted to go in support of your friends!

               -But more than anything, you wanted to go and support your boyfriend!

               -He was pretty against going at first, because he was afraid of what people would think about him

               -It’s not like he advertises that he’s pansexual, so what would his friends think? Would they change their opinions of him?

               -“Saeyoung, you just love whoever you love, it’s not as if gender truly matters, right? So why would our friends be against who you are as a person?”

               -That’s what got him thinking- you completely support him… so why wouldn’t his friends be supportive?

               -After all, they are supportive of all his gender-swapped costumes….

               -You reminded him that he didn’t have to come out if he didn’t want to. A lot of people who are simply just Allies attend as well, no one would know how he fit into the community unless he told them

               -He had seen pictures of a few parades before, and he noticed all the insane costumes people wear

               -So of course?? He had to go all out?? If he had to go, he might as well, right?

               -Completely decked out in rainbow body glitter, boxers with hearts all over them, and you even helped him put temporary hair dye to make it rainbow!

               -Honestly he was in love the moment the two of you showed up??

               -So many people dressed up insanely without a care in the world, bright colours flying everywhere, people being loud and proud

               -His jaw honestly dropped at the sight of it all

               - Every time he saw a dog wearing a rainbow bandana he’s smacking your arm- you have bruises by the end of the day

               -He’s yelling, singing, laughing, and you haven’t seen him have this much fun in a while and you were absolutely loving watching him enjoy himself

               -“MC! Look! Look at how proud everyone is to just be themselves, isn’t it amazing?” he held your hands and looked down at them, “I wish I had the confidence to be like them. I don’t even know where to start!”

               -“Just do whatever makes you comfortable and go at your own pace! Hey, you’re in a parade full of strangers you probably won’t see again, why don’t you come out to someone? No one here is going to judge you!’

               -So he did! Actually, he did quite a few times! And he felt a m a z i n g

               -So good in fact, that he told you he was ready to tell his friends!

               -He spent the rest of his day at pride asking people how about their experiences with coming out, getting tips about the best way to do it, and getting nonstop support from tons of people! He felt so at home, the next week or so he was clinging to you, never knowing how to fully thank you

*V: Female!MC

               -THIS BOY LOVES LOVE

               -Any and all love is beautiful for him

               -So he’s super duper excited when you suggest going to pride!

               -SUPER ALLIES, MC AND JIHYUN!

               -Honestly, all of the happy people, bright colours, glitter, and especially all of the couples obviously in love make him S O E C S T A T I C

               -He brings a backpack full of brand new SD cards for his camera, and he 10/10 believes he’s gonna fill them all

               -He asks people in the most outgoing outfits if he can take their photo, and he giggles at all of the poses they do

               -Up close and personal to all of the floats to get pictures of every single detail

               -When he sees couples getting cozy, he asks to take photos to celebrate their love!

               - v that can get a lil creepy

               -Always offers to take a photo on their phone for them as well so he seems less crazy

               -He’s pretty sassy when he wants to be, if you didn’t already know

               -So when he sees protesters with such hateful signs, he takes it upon himself to fight back

               -He finds someone with extra signs and holds them up proudly!

               -When people shout out hateful things, he gently asks them why they think that

               -Always talking to them soft and gentle, which confuses the hell out of all of them because?? They’re trying to be hateful?? But this soft giant is talking to them so nicely???


               -It’s such a large difference in demeanor and even you’re thrown off guard

*SAERAN: Female!MC

               -He’s actually the one who asked you to go to pride with him??

               -In private, he told you that he might… have wanted to attend… to show support for his brother?

               -He’s really bad at showing he cares but he’s trying to do it bits at a time

               -But when Saeyoung brings it up he acts like he’s against it

               -“Why the fuck would I want to go to that, there’s going to be so many people there, I don’t want that”

               - but goes anyway

               -He didn’t want to really want to dress up, but you convinced him to at least let you paint a small rainbow flag on his cheek (though it did take several days to do the convincing)

               -He was really grumpy at first, being dragged to and fro either by you or his brother

               -Having to squeeze through half naked, loud, or already morning-drunk people

               -Started to really regret attending until he saw how much fun his brother was having?

               -He had never seen Saeyoung this relaxed in his life and he silently decided he could put up with all of it for him, just this once

               -The two of you enjoyed visiting all of the booths though

               -At every booth, you get a  couple of bead necklaces

               -Saeran put them all on. All of them. All of his, all of yours, all of Saeyoungs.

               -Completely covered in bead necklaces, and he l o v e s i t

               -If you ask for some to wear you just get this look from him- not a glare, but a kind of look that screams “don’t even think about it”

               -He also demanded ice cream as much as possible

               -You tried so hard to cut him off but he just didn’t. stop.

               -Saeran pls there are 47 ice cream wrappers in my pocket p l e a s e