why cant he just love me

casual Johnny sketches

Few words by & about the 'ungrateful' and 'arrogant' Harry Styles:

“It’s your birthday today? Gonna go get some tickets. Bring some friends.”

“If you cry, I’ll cry to”.

“Hi Scott, heard you were going through some stuff. Sorry about that. Stay strong”.

“They sang a song he wrote together, her fave… “If I could Fly”. It was such blessing for her to have this moment with him - and from what he shared, it was just as amazing for him”.

What’s the most amazing thing a fan has ever done for you? :
“For my birthday this year some fans gave money to a charity.”

“I’m thinking of you and sending you all the love in the world. That’s a lot of love”.

“Harry decided to go to the Lalela project all by himself and really impressed everyone there. He offered all the students concert tickets and spoke to them at length about their lives”.

“An unknown number I answered and for it to only be Harry Styles ringing from USA!! He wanted to do a FaceTime or video recording for Jessica”.

“Harry was one of the celebrities who donated to ‘Jeans for refugees’, signing the jeans with 'All the love, Harry”.

“Harry knows the name of every waiter and waitresses at Cafe Habana, he also gives them a hug every time he goes there”.

Harry Styles, after a brief pause when asked why the boobs on his mermaid tattoo were saggy - “Because everyone should love themselves, and they shouldn’t strive for perfection”.

“He was emphatic that he did not do this for publicity. He truly just wanted to meet Cam. I would not want anyone to get the wrong idea”.

“The hair and make-up team love him too because he’s very polite. One time he even made the effort to thank the catering department for making what he called ‘fantastic food’. He’s such a gent”.

“If I see someone acting like they’re something special it shocks me into not doing it even more. And I have seen a lot of people do it, both famous and non-famous. I don’t understand why you cant just be nice to people, whether you’re in the public eye or not.”

"He broke through the barrier to get to me and just hugged and hugged me and he calmed me down to the point where I could breathe again”.

“We just want to keep getting better and better for them”.

“What the fans have done for us is so important, and we have to keep giving them good music”.

“The manager of the restaurant just came up and told us that Harry Styles paid for us”.

“Harry Styles is a fucking angel I was stuck in the pap mob and he said ‘hold on and walk’ cause I tripped over”.

“He was so nice. Honestly, he walked up to me out of nowhere at Billboard awards, and no one does that”.

“Because that’s what Harry does; spreading the love, kindness and humor - to everyone”.

“We thank you with everything that we are. All the love, Harry”.

“To you who support us, in any way, thank you. We wouldn’t be here without you. You did this, and we thank you for having us. All the love”.

big mood was when griffin ALMOST described garfield the deals warlock and was like “have we never described him? is that why all the fanart is literally just garfield the cat? well i cant describe him now” which makes me think the whole time griffin has been talking abt just like. a normal ass guy. like a regular man named garfield. he wasnt originally a cat. we made him that way and griffin loves us too much to crush our hopes and dreams. i just want him to have a pam anderson body at the least

Guys help I’m emotional

So I wrote a thing- Its a Langst thing.

It isnt finished and its just in the ‘summarize’ stage but… I dont know if I should expand on it?

Read it under the cut if you wantttt

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Kou is by far my favorate character in this lot of vampires

in the heights au: everything is the same except sonny is actually invited to ninas dinner

anonymous asked:

magnus is crying because he found a tiny baby kitten on a mission, stuck it in his pocket, snuck it onto the moon, and now he's having to feed it kitten milk from a teeny tiny bottle. His hands are so big and the kitten is so small...

Lucretia never said no kittens on the moon….

  • Killing Stalking: I hope Sangwoo dies a painful death and Yoonbum gets the freedom he wants (and post traumatic psychological treatment)
  • Raising a Bat: THIS IS PLAYING WITH MY HEART SO MUCH WHY CANT THEY JUST COMMUNICATE DIRECTLY AND MAKE EVERYTHING SIMPLE WHY IS IT SO COMPLEX?!!!! Just be happy together for the love of god.
  • Royal Servant: Lucaon, dude, before I wish for your death better be nice with Kyon and Kyon pls stand up for yourself gdi (I'm still reading this for the side gays SIHAN X KARIS FTW)
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The fact that Ed sees the hateful comments uneducated people have made breaks my heart, he shouldn’t have to justify himself to anyone. This REALLY annoys me.. the fact that people cant be fucked to look up what loop pedal means, is sad. He doesn’t have backing tracks, he has two mics, one for singing, one for harmonising, he builds the beat up with his guitar, then records that and his voice on that loop; that’s why it takes a while to get into some songs, and if you watch his feet, that’s how he’s doing the loop, he shouldn’t have to tweet this and the fact that he’s seen all the negativity on twitter pisses me off, he’s finally come out of his shell, it’s just jealousy, I’d love to see them get up there and do it! They’re all thick as shit, don’t even know how to shave their pubes let alone use a loop pedal.

one direction's song titles
as sung by one direction
one direction's song titles

(an updated version of this post

what makes you beautiful / gotta be you / one thing / more than this / up all night / i wish / tell me a lie / taken / i want / everything about you / same mistakes / save you tonight / stole my heart / stand up / moments / another world / na na na / i should’ve kissed you / forever young / live while we’re young / kiss you / little things / cmon cmon / last first kiss / heart attack / rock me / change my mind / i would / over again / back for you / they dont know about us / summer love / shes not afraid / loved you first / nobody compares / still the one / truly madly deeply / magic / irresistible /one way or another / best song ever / story of my life / diana / midnight memories / you & i / dont forget where you belong / strong / happily / right now / little black dress / through the dark / something great / little white lies / better than words / why dont we go there / does he know / alive / half a heart / steal my girl / ready to run / where do broken hearts go / 18 / girl almighty / fools gold / night changes / no control / fireproof / spaces / stockholm syndrome / clouds / change your ticket / illusion / once in a lifetime / act my age / home / hey angel / drag me down / perfect / infinity / end of the day / if i could fly / long way down / never enough / olivia / what a feeling / love you goodbye / i want to write you a song / history / temporary fix / walking in the wind / wolves / am / just cant let her go

I find myself crying in my best friends bedroom at two am asking myself how the fuck I fell so deeply for a boy I never saw coming. I bite my nails to the quick and smile half heartedly but never for long. I feel dizzy upon standing on my feet and wipe my tears in public bathrooms, straightening my makeup so many times in one day I wonder why I bother putting it on anymore. It’s not like there’s anyone I have to look nice for, anyway. “Its either there or it isn’t,” you say. I lay in the bed I loved you in asking where I went wrong again, I can feel my heart pounding in my chest and every beat aches for your touch. My lips still taste like you and my fingertips still remember the firmness of your body against mine, when all we had to do was breathe and be together and move. Why cant everything be as simple as kissing is? Why can’t it all make as much sense? “It isn’t there,” you tell me. “I knew from the beginning it wasn’t there.” When I’m with you I find myself asking myself why the fuck I’m doing this, spilling my love over someone who will wipe it off of his clothes before he leaves again. “Just go,” I tell you, when all I want to do is pull you so close so you’ll stay. But you look down at me like you almost feel bad for me for falling in love with someone like you. Someone who is tall and beautiful and honest and completely uninterested in the idea of loving them in return. “Is that your girlfriend?” Someone asks you when we are together. “No,” you say too naturally, too loudly. I try not to flinch as I stare down at the dinner you got us, curling my toes against the truth I’ve been trying so desperately to be okay with. Maybe that means I don’t respect myself, that I’d give everything you want if you only asked for it. Because I felt as lonely as I did in the darkest times of my life when you held me. Still unloved. Still alone. Yet here with you. Every kiss I gave you was a question, every sigh that escaped my lips was a plea for you to please, please, give me something more than this. But you hugged me without your hands lingering on my body and by that time tomorrow you said I was never different to you. I was in grocery store on a Sunday afternoon wondering how the hell I’m going to get through today and tomorrow and the day after that without you, I was wandering through midday thinking about whose lips you’re kissing now. And I have dreams of ripping my own heart out of my chest as if the pain you left me was something that can be held. But it can only be felt. And feeling was something you were never good at. You didn’t seem to even care when you told me you felt nothing for me, as if shattering heartbeats like violin music gone shrill was clockwork instead of something girls cried over when their loved ones weren’t looking. “Where do you want to go from here?” You asked me, and it took everything in me not to say the only place I wanted to be in was your arms around me, where I could sleep soundly because I knew I was the only girl you wanted to hold. I wanted to be in a world that doesn’t exist and that is why I bury my face in my pillow at night and still shiver when the scent of you is on the wind.

-ap (9.17) this is what it feels like when you touch me and this is what it feels like when I love you

What is this that I see

oKAY OKAY…. I was about to make another reaction request when I saw these gorgeous gifs of Chae Pepe Hyungwon

Originally posted by zelowonho

are u tryin’ to kill me boii? deym 

Originally posted by kingpjms

boi, stahp it dis instant!! don’t stop pls huuhuhuh

Originally posted by wonhontology

look at that gorgeous smile of his help mah hart kennot handle too beautiful to handle hELP

Originally posted by monsta-x-cuties

HOW CAN HE EFFORTLESSLY LOOK SO DAMN GOOD HUHUHUHUHU 

Originally posted by mybabyoppa

just look at him lolololo pepe r u lost no? okay….

Originally posted by bb-zelo

dID U JUST? DON’T U ROTATE UR HIPS ON ME U U U PEPE NO. DON’T. STOP.

Originally posted by ghoulrebellion

look at him. just look at this perfection ;^;

Originally posted by wonhontology

another perfection. perfection everywhere

Originally posted by kittyminhyuk

boi, did i just get electrified by you? wait, waht? am i trying to make some cheesy pick up line?

Originally posted by changkyuh

he looks like a kid who’s planning to murder the lego he stepped on ;-; im so sorry….

Originally posted by daefsoul

hey baby, are you made of copper and tellurium? coz u’re so damn cute… wat? huh? who said that?

Originally posted by kihqun

he’s prettier than the flower… and he’s even prettier than me hELP

Originally posted by m-onstax

srsly…?? why…. hyungwon baby im sorry but please dont

Originally posted by jooheonbebe

hi to you too babe *wink wink*

Originally posted by the-awesome-cabbage

isn’t he the cutest? ;u;

Originally posted by crying-in-korean

just look at him eat <3 


me every single time that i see a picture of him:

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LISTEN HERES THE THING ABOUT CARLISLE JOINING THE VOLTURI THAT FUCKS ME UP THO: 

Caius is insecure in himself and his place in his coven, and Aro knows that, but out of the blue and after literally three-thousand years of being a coven that rules by Aro/Caius/Marcus/Sulpicia/Athenodora and only ever them, Aro just casually invites Carlisle, a vampire with no power or significant talent what so ever and just?? invites him to become this high-ranking coven member, that surpasses the role of a ‘guard’ entirely, and essentially places him on equal levels with the rest of the leaders. 

And then there’s Caius, who’s been fretting over something like this since day one, Caius who has no talent and powers that would otherwise give him a secure position in a coven that puts supernatural abilities over everything else, and the very same Caius that was probably absolutely convinced he was being replaced by Carlisle, and given all the circumstances why would he have reason to believe otherwise?

Black Butterflies

It’s been ages since I wrote drama or angst so here it is. Tell me what do you think about it.! Enjoy. Part 2

Word count :: 2037 


Lie. Every single word he told you was a lie. From the moment you noticed the changed in his sudden behavior you knew that were something going on off the track. But you never thought that it would create such a big mess, leading you both to the current situation.

You knew that marriage wasn’t easy. You knew that in this aspect of life you both were gonna have fights. In order to have attraction post positive and negative traits are required. So did marriage. In order to work properly there has to be fights and loves to make up for it. A few months into it, you both promised that you and Harry are never gonna  fight, you both swore to always have faith in each other, but somethings never go according to the plan. They turn out who the they’re suppose to be.

Love was nowhere found now. There were only fights and fights. Shouting and screaming that’s all you did. Sometimes your throat used to get sore because of that. You didn’t enjoyed going back to your house just to see your husband sprawled on the couch doing nothing anymore. It all started to bother you.


You hated Mondays. You weren’t being able to get enough rest on weekends due to Rose and Noah. Noah just started his school and he needed a lot of attention due to his homework. Though Harry was there to help but you were’t the only one who was being shouted at but your kids were also. When the first time Noah and Rose told you how Harry always was on his phone and when they asked him to help them with their homework, he yelled at them saying ‘Go ask your super mum for help’. Poor Noah started crying and since that day they both refused to lean upon Harry for anything. They were completely dependent upon you now. They even refused to have anything purchased from his money.

You heels were digging underneath your feet and your back was paining from the long day at work spent in giving presentation. Being the CEO of the firm wasn’t easy but you were proud of your position, at least it helped you to earn enough for you and your kids to eat and live peacefully.

You opened the door of your house and the every fist thing you saw was how very untidy it was. Harry wasn’t from the messy ones but he changed. Groaning you bent down and picked up the dirty socks which greeted you.

“Noah ! Rose!!” You called for your kids but got nothing in reply. The house was empty and quite and had a pin drop silence. The only thing which could be heard was of the typing sound that probably was coming from the living room where Harry laid on the couch. His eyes dug in his phone glistening the green color. God he was beautiful. Only if he knew how much Harry was hurting you.

There was a time when Harry feared hurting you. He couldn’t bear the tears in your eyes but now it seemed like he quite enjoyed doing that.

You cleared your throat grabbing his attention. His eyes moved from his phone to your direction and went back to the gadget. This hurt you. Everything he did hut you.

“Where are the kids?” You asked folding your arms around your chest.

“I sent them t’ your parent’s house” he replied still busy in typing.

“Why?”

“They were bugging meh” And this was enough to set you off verge. Without thinking any further, you straight away snatched the phone from his hand and slammed it down on the table breaking the tempered glass covered screen of it.

Harry shot up immediately. His face red from anger and you prepared yourself from the outcome of it.

“What the fuck are yeh doin??!!” he shouted picking up his phone.

“What important work were you doing Harry that made you sent our kids away from us!?” You yelled walking to him.

“Well if you would’ve taught your kids some manners” Seriously. Your kids. This time it punched you in the kids. He was a complete different man. It was okay till it all was till you but now it was for his kids as well. The poor little thing, always kept asking what’s wrong with their day, why doesn’t he loves them anymore. Noah always prayed to god to forgive them that made his father hate him. They cried for him every day. And Harry standing in front of you now eve neglected to cal his own kids his.

You cried as you fell on your knees with a loud thud. Harry’s face turned to you as he saw your trembling figure on the ground. Your sobs were loud and painful enough for him to realize what he’s done.

You could feel your heart being squeezed to death. The pain in your chest grew heavy with you’ve been carrying from months now. The faith you had, believed that one day everything will be okay seemed to be gone replaced by the dark reality of this illuminated house that had nothing but two stranger with memories inside it.

“Y/n…” Harry whispered kneeling down beside you. His cold hands coming in contact with you as you were being pulled to his chest. Instantly wrapping your arms around him after what felt like decades, you sobbed. Everything at that time made you cry. It was his skin, his scent, his soul.

“Why?” You cried.

“Why do you keep doing this?” You tightened your grip as harry rested his chin on the top of your head. Warm droplets of tears landing on your head. He was crying. Why was he crying when he was the one hurting you. Furious to get the answer you pulled away.

“You have no right to cry!” You roared standing up. Tears yet continued to fall.

“You aren’t the one hurting here, you aren’t the one being bombarded by their kids’ questions why daddy isn’t loving them anymore. Y-you aren’t the one getting broken day by day” You whispered the last part. And it was true. Everyday a little piece of you was gone. The pain was eating you alive. You heart was already crushed and the remaining was yet to be. All the butterflies were dead. They were killed by the only person who created them.

“Why are you standing dumb? Tell me!” You shouted.

“i CAN’T DO THIS ANYMORE” Harry yelled. You laughed sarcastically.

“I should be the one saying that. Why cant you do this anymore? Sick of me already. Bored ?” You asked huffing.

“Because i feel like I can’t love yeh anymore. It’s just too much for meh right now. What do ya think? This all isn’t hurting meh huh?”

“Then why’re you doing this? We can fix this mess Harry” You pleaded holding his hands.

“Yeh deserve better m’love” He said looking away holding his tears. His chin started to wobble and tears fell down his cheek. You stood on your toes to hug him. Harry squeezed your body to his hiding his face in the crook of your neck. His warm cheeks wetting your skin.

“I want you baby. No body else.” You cried

“i want yeh happy”

“I am happy with you! Look I am smiling” you cried trying to put a fake smile on your lips but failed miserably as the cries and whimpers took over. Shaking his head, Harry turned his back to you.

“I want a divorce.”

Divorce.

You felt air being sucked out of your lungs. After all this time, you thought he’d understand how you all are a family and how much you love him but he doesn’t seems to like that plan. But he liked to end and conclude the fight with an agreement of divorce.

Later that night you found yourself awake, eyes heavy and swollen with tears starring emotionless at the ceiling that had night glow moon and stars stickers on it. The bedroom still smelled the same as it used you during your childhood says. Walls had lots of memories printed on it that only you could see.

You blinked away the tears missing how happy you were being a kid. No drama, no pain. Just love and affection of your parents. You missed how they nurtured you and bought up so well. A whimpered left your mouth when you realized how unlucky Noah and Rose were. They wouldn’t get any of that. They won’t be able to have the fatherly love that you had when their own father refused to call them his. You muffled your cries putting a hand over your mouth as the memories started to hit.

“What do you think it is gonna be H?” You asked holding your bump admiring yourself in the mirror. You were going to find out the gender of the baby. The whole day Harry’s been excited and now he was getting ready to the doctor.

Smilingly, he walked to you and wrapped his arms around your waist putting his hands on top of your, his head resting on your shoulder as he placed a warm kiss on your cheeks.

“I think it’s a baby girl. Pretty and beautiful like her mummy” He said softly nuzzling his face in your neck. And for the fifth time that day you felt his warm tears on your skin.

“God gonna love the baby and yeh forever. I ain’t ever gonna leave yeh poppet.”

The pain was unbearable.

You eyes were tired of crying but the memories kept haunting you.

“God I’m scared” You said as you laid on the bed with your head on Harry’s chest.

“wha’s wrong peaches?” Harry asked, his chest vibrating under your ear with every word he spoke

“I’m scared of getting married” You said

“why?”

“because people always end up getting drifted away or falling out of love and ending up with a divorce. I cant bear the pain of getting a divorce.”

“Who said yeh’re gonna get a divorce huh? I’m never gonna leave yeh. Hear tha’? He said and you perched up a little so that you can have a sight of his lovely face.

“You think we’ll get married?”

“I know we will and i know we’ll make it to the end as well” He said and connected his mouth to yours.

Liar. He was a liar, his love was a lie.

All that time he promised to love you and cherish you forever was fake. He made promises just to break them. He promised to take care of his kids but what he actually did? Turned his back to them.

You couldn’t help but blame yourself for causing it. Maybe it was you because of him he got away. Maybe it was you who wasn’t there for him? But how could it be you when all you did was love him with all you have.

You closed your eyes tight to get rid of the haunting memories when you heard the door open and close and soon there was a little human cuddling to your side. You rolled on your back and found rose who immediately wrapped her arms around you and hide her face in your chest. Her wet tears strained pressed up against tightly your skin as she continued to sob.

“I-I don’t wanna a new mommy” she cried.

“new mommy” You asked slightly confused to as what the little girl was saying.

“Y-yesterday when I was playing in my room and went to kitchen for juice I-I saw a big gwirl like you kissing daddy” She cried at the end because she always knew that the only person Harry kissed that way was you and seeing him kissing some other woman who wasn’t you hurt her. You couldn’t feel anything that moment as numbness too over your half alive soul.

“Her name was Kristine.”

So it was Kristine who made it difficult. But if Harry was happy then why can’t you?

Going through my old files and found a bountiful array of narry gifs n such and decided they needed to be shared so here- have some narry, in no particular chronological order. And on a side note- the captions underneath are what I wrote as captions when I saved them to my computer, save for the first one. 

*this is a lockscreen obvs, not a gif- but v v cute and may or may not have made me cry*

harry’s smile is everything

ballroom dancing, followed by a complete disregard of the fact that there are young people in the audience. also. keep it in your pants. 

clingy harry

clingy niall

confirmed

confirmed pt 2

cute boyfriends dancing

more aggressive dancing

delicate hand holding

proper education

FETUSSSSS

almost kissed you guys almost

fist bump or peering at Dick who knows

flower sparkle dancing rainbow sunshine fairies

footie hugs

photoshoot romance and Fonding

im not saying they fucked after this concert but they totally fucked

i just love his hair i cant stop touching it at all hours of the day do you see how soft and floofy and-

i have a need for physical contact 24/7 so if I act clingy its because I am

haha kill me why don’t you

Harry is preggers w nialls head

i told you I love his hair

it’s jUST SO CURLY AND PER-

FOND ALERT FOND ALERT FOND ALERT FOND AL-

Major Case of Fond has been diagnosed

what is with the hip swaying. what are they laughing about. the world shall never know. 

he wasn’t really going for the hood u guys

cutest interview couple of the century yes thank you

ur very fluffy harold

Proclaiming Sexual Longing In Front of 50,000+ People

seranading

“If you had to kiss one person under the mistletoe…who would it be?” you, harold.

cutestest metro lion replacements ever

“mick jagger move” haha OR excuse to grind in public

i literally dont know where to start w this one like they miss eachother’s glances and they way harry looks at him like he’s his everything and the cute lil dimple like !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“nialls hugs are the best”

look how cute my bf was 

A Study In Dimples, by Niall Horan

Synchronized Boyfriends

what the fu- ohh he’s such a tease dammit- im gonna fuck him on this table later and then he’ll be sorry

DUDE HIS FINGERS WERE BRUSHING HIS BUTT AND HE LOOKS SO INTO IT AND HES LITERALLY GRINDING ON HIM

Something funny, boys?

my heart aches

i have…no words

How To Hug Your Cute Boyfriend: A Lesson by Harry Styles

its totally platonic, bro.

THERE YOU ARE I HAVENT SEEN YOU IN TWO HOURS

tickle monster

my butt Deserves to be taken a photograph of

SIGHTED: New Mating Dance Discovered

when will ur faves ever

youll need a chainsaw to cut through the sexual tension here

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww-

did he really have to? no. but this is his boyfriend and he will be Extra 

I Serenaded My Boyfriend But He Glanced Away How Rude of Him And Im Slightly Offended 

as;alkdghoa;lks’dlkjfd’salkjda;ghd;ladg

bIH???? kisspering is the only word appropriate

its canon. they’re having a kid. 

get a room.