why can't you just have feelings for me again

anyone else kinda terrified you’ll never be able to hold a job in the future because of your mental illness

Profound Sentence Meme
  • "People care about you, too, you know."
  • "What, and it's alright for you to save us, but never the other way around? Why not?"
  • "Don't you know how much you're loved?"
  • "You're trying to get yourself killed! Ever since it happened, you've been trying!"
  • "It's like you have a death wish."
  • "You're addicted to the adrenaline and sooner or later it will get someone killed. You, probably."
  • "What happened to you? Why are you like this?"
  • "This ISN'T okay."
  • "You can't keep treating yourself like this."
  • "I hear you crying sometimes, when you think nobody is listening."
  • "Do you know how sad you look sometimes?"
  • "What are you hiding from me? Just TELL me!"
  • "Something is eating you up from the inside. Something happened, or you've done something, or someone left. You need to share. Otherwise you're never going to feel okay again."
  • "Why are you like this?"
  • "Since when was doing THIS okay?"
  • "It's okay to talk to people."
  • "I'm not fragile, I'm not going to break if you talk to me about it. I'll listen and I'll care. That's it. I promise."
  • "You can't run away from this."
  • "I'm not going to leave you the moment you do something I disagree with."
  • "You're not secretly an irredeemably awful person!"
  • "What's going on with you?"

I’ll also admit that one of the reasons I’ve not been on tumblr as much lately is that all of the drama is getting to me. I love you all dearly but my anxiety has been worse lately and I can’t handle it. I applaud all the good and important discussions being had but I likely won’t contribute to a lot of it until I’m in a better frame of mind

Another great Submission for all you perverts...

I’m leaving work and walking to my car. I’m about to open my door when I’m pressed up against my car. Immediately there’s a hand over my mouth and an arm squeezing me, pinning my arms to my sides. I struggle, but he’s strong – far too strong for me to have a chance but that doesn’t stop me. His feet slide between mine and push them wide. He spins me around and I glance a van before something covers my eyes. I’m blindfolded, gagged, picked up, and placed in what I can only assume is the van. I can hear men talking as we drive somewhere. Their hands are under my shirt and up my skirt. I’m wet from the touches even though I don’t want to be. I struggle, but they slap me and pin me. One whispers in my ear to keep quiet and be a good girl. Suddenly we stop, and I hear the door slide open. It’s hot here, but I still can’t see. I’m dragged from the van and my shirt ripped open, exposing my naked breasts. My wrists are tied to something above my head, and I feel my skirt and panties forced off of me. I can hear them breathing as they circle me. A slap to my breasts, a pinch to my nipples, a hard spank on my ass all cause me to cry out. I’m whimpering as they call me their slut.
“You know you want this.”
“Go ahead and cry, slut”
“You don’t have any idea what I’m going to do to you. Just you wait.”

Then I’m lifted by fingers forced into me. My cunt is dripping. Why does my body want this? They laugh and mock me for my wet pussy, calling me a slut. I cry out as one of them thrusts deep his thick, hard cock into me. I feel my hands released from above. I gasp but choke as a cock fills my mouth. I can't​ see; I can’t breathe; I can only feel myself being used and thrust into over and over again. Finally I’m allowed a breath, but I breathe in wet and salty as cum covers my face. I can feel the tears and snot run down as another cock fills me and stretches my throat. My cunt is throbbing. I’m about to cum when he pulls out.
“You don’t get to cum, slut. Not yet. This isn’t for you. You are ours.”
I’m lowered onto a cock bigger than I’ve felt. Every thrust has my eyes rolling back. I know they would mock me if they could see how I wanted it – how I enjoyed it. I don’t know who this is, but his giant cock is driving me mad with pleasure. My cunt is throbbing and dripping. I can feel that I’m about to cum, but I suddenly fall back from that edge as I gag with cum running down my throat. Finally my mouth is empty. I’m covered in cum. I’m bent over, and I hear someone spit and then hot liquid run down my back and over my ass. I feel something hard against me, and then I scream as my ass is raped. I’m so full, I’m too full. My body betrays me, and I scream as I cum around two dicks.
I lose track of my body and my being. I can’t tell how many men are using me. I am only a toy for their enjoyment. Holes to be filled and fucked. I don’t want to love it, but my body tells me that I do. My pussy is wet, my nipples are hard, my back arches, and my throat releases moans when it isn’t being fucked. And I cum again…and again…and again…and again. So many, in fact, that they begin to run into each other and I’ve lost count.
I don’t know how long it goes on, but I slowly realize when it’s stopped. My body is too tired. I feel myself being lifted, feel the van move underneath me, and then finally the cold cement as I’m placed on the ground outside my car. I jerk as my keys are dropped on the ground an inch from my face, and I hear the van drive off. Naked still and covered in cum, I climb into my car.

An amazing submission. Thank you for your sick and twisted little fantasy.

From: @submittedrose


Incoming long post about Ezra Miller

If you don’t like Ezra Miller I’m sorry but have you seen him

Originally posted by stormborn

 why would you not like him

Originally posted by stormborn

 he’s precious

Originally posted by qetikc

but also very attractive

Originally posted by kar1na-a

and he’s so open about social problems and wants to raise awareness

Originally posted by blueskyandpudding

and don’t even get me started

Originally posted by andor-glenns

on his range

Originally posted by jackasstripes

as an actor

Originally posted by credencesbarebone

he was the saving feature of We Need To Talk About Kevin for me

Originally posted by cayya

and basically

Originally posted by newt-scamnders

i love my queer son Ezra Miller ok

  • Natsu: >.> Sooo... explain to me again why I can't date Juvia.
  • Juvia: Juvia would like to know as well. >.>
  • Erza: Because it messes up the whole chart, don't you see?! -_-* Juvia is smitten with Gray, who is obviously just playing hard to get. Then you have Lucy, who is CRAZY for you, Natsu! You're best friends, so you'll have a really good relationship when you come to grips with your feelings for her. *nods sagely*
  • Natsu: ... Erza, don't take it the wrong way, but that chart is crap. I don't even know where half the pairings on there come from. >.>
  • Juvia: And you're clearly leaving some things out... like Lyon's infatuation with me (where did he suddenly pick up an interest in Meldy, anyway?), Loke-san's flirtatious attitude with Lucy, Ichiya-san's obsession with you...
  • Erza: Don't even GO there. >.> Look, this is the final product, alright? Yes, all those people MIGHT have complicated the chart in the past, but everything's settled now, and we are ALL. HAPPY.
  • Natsu: Yeah, I'm happy with Juvia. >.> Look, Erza, you can't just go choosin' who's gonna be paired up with who. I don't like ya lockin' lips with Blueberry, but you don't see me whippin' up some weird-ass chart to break you two up.
  • Erza: o.o Wh-What?
  • Juvia: Juvia will always be grateful to Gray-sama for showing her the beauty of a cloudless sky, but Juvia has moved on because Gray-sama will not give Juvia the time of day. But Natsu-sama gives Juvia... everything... @.@
  • Natsu: And you'll always be important to me, Erza, but I can't take bein' in the friendzone anymore. So go on 'n keep your Blueberry, and I'll keep mine. Fair? ^__^
  • Erza: But... But... But...
  • Natsu: C'mon, Ju! Let's go have some... fun... ^_____^
  • Juvia: Punishment Game?! *__*
  • Natsu: Eh, why not? You been a bad girl, Ju-chan?
  • Juvia: *pout* Very, very bad, Natsu-sama. Juvia must be punished. Punish Juvia 'til she cums...? *puppy dog eyes*
  • Natsu: *wraps an arm around her shoulders* Alright, alright... C'mon, you naughty girl... ^__^ *leads her away from the redhead*
  • Juvia: ^__^
  • Erza: *watches the two leave with a wounded look; sniffles* Nat...su...?
  • Jellal: *shuffles up to her guiltily* Erza...? I need... comfort...
  • Erza: -_- Of course. What did you do this time...?
  • Jellal: I... I stepped on a tadpole...
  • Erza: ...
  • Jellal: It... It wiggled under my foot, and I killed it...! Oh, why?!
  • Erza: ... **What have I done...? Natsu, come back!!!** T_T

anonymous asked:

It's just.. so awful and crushing to go to a blog and search "asexual" and see positivity posts from 2/3 years ago and then see nasty jokes and mockery since 2016. Why can't these assholes just be decent fucking people?? Why do they have to post all these awful things that make me feel terrible about myself and terrified that someone is gonna abuse me (again) for being ace

“But decency is haaaard, I don’t wanna be a grown up and stop being cruel for no reason except to receive some kind of twisted gratification!!!!!”

(hugs if you want ‘em. <3)

100 fleetwood mac rp starters
  • **these are my favorite lyrics from my favorite people ❤ feel free to change pronouns, etc!~**
  • ~~~
  • 1. "And if you don't love me now, you will never love me again"
  • 2. "Said you'd give me light but you never told me about the fire"
  • 3. "I should have known from the start, I'd be the broken-hearted"
  • 4. "Why don't you tell me what's going on?"
  • 5. "Well, who am I to keep you down?"
  • 6. "So I try to say goodbye, my friend"
  • 7. "I haven't felt this way I feel since many a year ago"
  • 8. "Living through each empty night, a deadly calm inside"
  • 9. "Agony's torn at my heart too long"
  • 10. "Do you know how to pick up the pieces and go home?"
  • 11. "All I want is to see you smile, if it takes just a little while"
  • 12. "Not all the prayers in the world could save us"
  • 13. "Loving you isn't the right thing to do"
  • 14. "We will never forget tonight"
  • 15. "I keep my visions to myself"
  • 16. "I wake up but only to fall"
  • 17. "You'll never get away from the sound of the woman that loved you"
  • 18. "Was I such a fool?"
  • 19. "Why not think about times to come and not about the things that you've done"
  • 20. "Dreams unwind; love's a state of mind"
  • 21. "Well I've been afraid of changing 'cause I've built my life around you"
  • 22. "You don't know what it means to win"
  • 23. "I'm so afraid"
  • 24. "The stars must be my friends to shine for me"
  • 25. "Tell me why everything turned around"
  • 26. "I hope and if I pray it might work out someday"
  • 27. "I never did believe in the ways of magic, but I'm beginning to wonder why"
  • 28. "Never change, never stop"
  • 29. "I know I could have loved you, but you would not let me"
  • 30. "Did you say that she loved you?"
  • 31. "Time makes you bolder"
  • 32. "Thunder only happens when its raining"
  • 33. "So we make our choices when there is no choice"
  • 34. "How can you love me? I don't understand why"
  • 35. "But never have I been a blue calm sea; I have always been a storm"
  • 36. "I never did believe in miracles, but I've a feeling it's time to try"
  • 37. "Damn the dark, damn the light"
  • 38. "I wish that you were mine"
  • 39. "All your life you've never seen a woman taken by the wind"
  • 40. "Don't say that you love me! Just tell me that you want me!"
  • 41. "I loved you from the start"
  • 42. "And if I was a child, and the child was enough…"
  • 43. "To you, I'll give the world"
  • 44. "Can you hear me calling out your name?"
  • 45. "It's only right that you should play the way you feel it"
  • 46. "Why are you right when I'm so wrong?"
  • 47. "Can you tell me, was it worth it?"
  • 48. "Remembering what you had and what you lost"
  • 49. "But now you're here; can't believe that you're back again"
  • 50. "Don't break the spell"
  • 51. "Now I know I can't lose, as long as you follow"
  • 52. "I feel that when I'm with you, it's alright"
  • 53. "Have mercy, baby, on a poor girl like me"
  • 54. "There's a heartbeat and it never really died"
  • 55. "Just think what tomorrow will do"
  • 56. "She's a dragon"
  • 57. "If I could, baby, I'd give you my world "
  • 58. "You can take me to paradise; and then again you can be cold as ice"
  • 59. "How can I ever change things that I feel?"
  • 60. "And I have changed, oh but you, you remain ageless"
  • 61. "Don't stop thinking about tomorrow"
  • 62. "Is there anything left to save?"
  • 63. "Damn your love, damn your lies"
  • 64. "I'm not a child anymore; I'm tall enough to reach for the stars"
  • 65. "Drowning in the sea of love where everyone would love to drown"
  • 66. "'Cause if you use me again it'll be the end of me"
  • 67. "Sleep easy by my side"
  • 68. "…Loneliness like a heartbeat, drives you mad"
  • 69. "I'd go anywhere…ask me and I'm there"
  • 70. "And I can't walk away from you, baby, if I tried"
  • 71. "Never going back again"
  • 72. "Gimme just a chance"
  • 73. "Your eyes say yes but you don't say yes"
  • 74. "Rulers make bad lovers"
  • 75. "Lightening strikes maybe once, maybe twice"
  • 76. "Time cast a spell on you, but you won't forget me"
  • 77. "I'll be waiting for you if you ever wanna be there"
  • 78. "Maybe I'm wrong but who's to say what's right?"
  • 79. "You say you want your freedom"
  • 80. "And you reached out your hand to me"
  • 81. "You're the poet in my heart"
  • 82. "I'm so weak and you're so strong"
  • 83. "She is like a cat in the dark and then she is darkness"
  • 84. "I can live today, if you give me tomorrow"
  • 85. "Every night he will break your heart"
  • 86. "I love you…like never before"
  • 87. "When the rain washes you clean you'll know"
  • 88. "And I feel that when I'm with you, it's alright"
  • 89. "We better make it soon before you break my heart"
  • 90. "Did I ever really care that much?"
  • 91. "She was just a wish"
  • 92. "You know you make me cry"
  • 93. "Will you ever win?"
  • 94. "And I don't have to tell you you're the only one"
  • 95. "I'll follow you down 'till they the sound of my voice will haunt you"
  • 96. "Did she make you cry? Make you break down? Shatter your illusions of love?"
  • 97. "Can the child within my heart rise above?"
  • 98. "You can go your own way"
  • 99. "I can still hear you saying you would never break the chain"
  • 100. "Now you tell me that I'm crazy; that's nothing that I didn't know"
Yet another dark rp starter list
  • a few quotes, some straight from my brain, all possibly quite angsty
  • "I'm going to kill you now, I hope that's alright."
  • "Put the gun down!"
  • "You can't hurt someone who's already dead."
  • "I forget you."
  • "Don't say goodbye, I hate goodbyes."
  • "I can't believe I ever loved you."
  • "Shut up!"
  • "You've turned yourself into a monster!"
  • "I never wanted to hurt you."
  • "I can't stand the sight of you."
  • "Please, take whatever you want, just don't shoot them!"
  • "You traitor!"
  • "I should have expected this from you."
  • "How could you?"
  • "They're gone... I can't believe they're gone..."
  • "What the fuck did you do!?"
  • "We thought we were the good guys."
  • "What's the difference between a soldier and a monster?"
  • "I want their head on stick!"
  • "I can't believe you cheated on me!"
  • "Tell me why you did it."
  • "Just looking at you makes me feel sick."
  • "You're my prisoner now, and I'm never letting you go."
  • "If you scream I'll shoot."
  • "I don't want your money, I want revenge."
  • "It's your fault!"
  • "You're under arrest for first degree murder."
  • "We're going to die here aren't we?"
  • "This is going to hurt. A lot."
  • "I'm afraid it's terminal."
  • "You have 5 minutes to convince me not to kill you."
  • "You're no longer my child."
  • "The doctors say I only have a few more months."
  • "I know you've started drinking again."

stawberrymuffins  asked:

You Should Rest, If You Get More Insults, Just Ignore them. They can't control you. You've worked hardly, And all they give you is No Support, And rush you for what THEY want. If they want it, Why can't they do it themselves? Just get some rest. If something like this happens again, Just tell me and some of your supportive fans that don't rush you. I still love your videos/animations/drawings, I'm just worried.

It’s ok, u don’t have to worry. Sometimes I just feel like I can handle it and sometimes I feel very weak. The mood changes everytime. But I’m trying.. Always do. Since I know it will just keep coming more than before.

Steve and Bucky giving each other some sort of touch or kiss whenever one is leaving a room.

Steve sitting on the couch waiting to start up a movie, Bucky going to get some snacks from the kitchen, Bucky running his hand through Steves hair on the way past,

When Steve leaves on his morning run he wakes Bucky up with a kiss on the forehead I will be back in an hour at most is whispered into the birds nest that is Buckys bed head,

Bucky leaving the gym to take a shower and Steve getting a light punch in the shoulder,

They move past each other clearing rooms on a mission, they grasp arms,

Even getting up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom means a kiss to the temple,

Every time one leaves, they say everything through touch that they can’t bring themselves to say out loud; I’m scared you won’t be here when I get back // What if this is just a dream // I love you so, so much - probably too much // What if I never see you again? // goodbye.

But when they do come back its always accompanied with a smile and an I’m back, I’m here, it’s just me, Hello.

anonymous asked:

Well the amount of hate you send to maiko is kinda annoying. I understand that a lot of zutara hate is also being thrown but why can't we all just accept that some people ship zutara and that maiko is cannon.

It’s not hate. It’s meta. I’m analyzing a text and it’s implications and representation on society. If you don’t like that sort of content, you’re welcome to block me.

I don’t do hate. They do. “Zutara sux!!” Is hate. A 23 paragraph under a cut properly tagged essay on how a relationship portrays abuse in a media is meta.

I have gotten college credit for some of my material. It’s not hate.

Again, if you’re annoyed, feel free to blacklist my user name block me. I completely understand. I block tons of people. It makes the experience more refreshing.

why do people think bts is losing their “bts-ness” because this album sounds different? even if you prefer their older sound and this album isn’t your favorite, it’s still bts, and it feels like bts. why? because they explore new genres all the time. they explore new sounds. they experiment and aren’t afraid to branch out of their comfort zone. not to mention the lyrics themselves are very bts. just because it’s a different vibe and not your favorite doesn’t mean they’re losing their “bts-ness” whatever that means

Avenged Sevenfold {Sentence Starters}
  • "I'm scared. If I lose you... I'm not prepared.
  • "You made me this way. I am the product of your creation."
  • "Now I'm on my knees; forgive me please."
  • "I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me."
  • "A living nightmare, asleep but still aware."
  • "I wanted more for you. You can't go on this way."
  • "I came here for something and I'm not turning back."
  • "No one's innocent. So why do I feel bad?"
  • "I've been the wrong one time and time again."
  • "I don't want to leave you like this."
  • "I need this place to get away from you."
  • "I found you here, now please just stay for a while."
  • "You'll always have my support, in my heart."
  • "Nothing you say, and nothing you try, can change time."
  • "I don't want to see you in this place. Your kind is a disgrace."
  • "By the time you realize, you'll be dead too."
  • "I truly never thought it would really come to this."
  • "Never would I doubt you, but the truth kept smacking me in the face."
  • "We had something more than I can explain."
  • "I'll never feel alone again with you by my side."
  • "I tried to heal your broken heart with all that I could."
  • "You never stopped to think and you ripped us apart."
  • "I have so much to say, but you're so far away."
  • "So, this is the world you left behind."
  • "You've been there from the start for me."
  • "Don't take your aggression out on me!"
  • "So much time I've wasted, and I never thought it'd come to this."
  • "How many times have you taught and not conspired?"
  • "You'll die as you lived: in a flash of the blade."
  • "Why don't I have the finer things that others have?"
  • "I believe my sins have been forgiven."
  • "Please understand, I have to leave and carry on my own life."
  • "Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost."
  • "Give me a chance to be that person I wanna be."
  • "I won't be the victim, but the first to cast a stone."
  • "Nothing can take away the times and the memories we had."
  • "Don't walk in my direction. Turn the other way."

anonymous asked:

[feels alert] the last episode just made me think about dean carrying cas' body inside (cause you know he woudnt have let sam do it) and that thought kinda makes me wanna die oops

  • What I say: I'm fine.
  • What I mean: I want Nick and Jess back together and no more Reagan in sight.
  • What I truly mean: why the hell are Nick and Jess still not together I can't wait until September to have New Girl back and oh God please let Nick and Jess fall back into their old flirty/sexy dynamics until their sexual tension is so damn strong again that they just can't help it but rip each other clothes off and spend the remaining of the season making out like crazy and horizontally mamboing all. over. the. loft.

Imagine having a discussion with Jared

I take my shoes off as I walk into the living room, Jared is nowhere to be seen, so I immediately know that he’s in his studio. I walk there and only get my head through the door; for once, the room is pretty neat and Jared is concentrated reading something on his laptop. I leave the room quietly and walk into the kitchen to prepare dinner, I’ve been out all day and I’m pretty sure he hasn’t eaten anything.

I’m already finishing dinner when I feel Jared’s hands wrapping me from behind, he leaves a small kiss on my neck and I giggle when his beard tickles me.

“It smells nice” He whispers, and lets go of me to go to the fridge, “You had a nice day?”

“Busy, as always” I mumble, serving pasta on two plates, “Oh, by the way, before I forget, there’s this thing on Friday…”

“What thing?”

“Sarah, from work, it’s her birthday”

“I can’t on Friday, I gotta work with Emma, we’re planning tour dates and venues” He says while taking his plate on one hand and a bottle of water on the other.

“On Friday night?” I ask, narrowing my eyes.

“Yeah, sorry, babe” Jared apologizes, leaving a small kiss on my forehead, “I’ll eat in the studio, I haven’t finish work yet”

I don’t get to say anything, Jared disappears in a second through the hallway back to his studio and I’m left alone in the kitchen. I take my dinner to the living room, I sit in front of the tv and start eating without even turning it on.

Jared has always been a workaholic, so his attitude didn’t surprised me at all. I know I must be used to it by now, but it still hurt that his work came first almost a hundred percent of the time. I have this ghost boyfriend and after working for two years in the same place, they were starting to think I had a great imagination by creating this perfect boyfriend that never shows up for office parties and gatherings.

I’m happy with Jared, I’ve always been, but I just wanted a little attention. I wanted something more than a little chat during dinner, and a kiss before going to sleep, I wanted a real relationship, like the one we had when we first started.

I take my time to finish dinner, I get to rest for a few minutes before I stand to leave everything in the kitchen. When I walk into Jared’s office to get his plate, I notice he hasn’t eaten a thing.

“Do you want me to warm it up for you?” I ask him and he gives a little jump on his sit, surprised by my presence there.

“No, it’s alright, I wasn’t going to keep eaten anyway”

I don’t say a thing, take the dish and walk towards the kitchen. I save what he didn’t ate, and leave his plate with mine in the dishwasher. I lean on the cabinet and feel the tears starting to run all over my face. I was starting to feel like I was living with a stranger.

“Hey!” I hear Jared’s worried voice, his hands going straight to my face, “Are you crying because I didn’t ate your dinner? I’m sorry, it was delicious! I’m just.. not hungry”

“I’m ok, I’m just tired” I mumble avoiding his eyes, “I’ll go to sleep”

I manage to let go of his hands, but when I reach the door, his hand reaches my arm.


“I’m fine, just let me go to sleep, please”

“How long have we been dating?” He asks, I tilt my head in confusion, so he tries again, “Come on, How long?”

“Three years” I whisper, still confused.

“Three years, and you think I’m gonna believe that you are just tired?” Jared says crossing his arms.

I put my hands in my pockets, waiting for him to let me go again, but seeing that I’m not willing to answer, Jared uses his hand on my arm to pull me to him. His hand rubs my back, while the other goes to my head to caress my hair.

“I just want to sleep, I’m alright” I cry, again.

“I know you’re not, just talk to me” His hands making their way to my face, forcing me to look into his eyes. He’s more than worried and I can see it on how bright his eyes are, he’s scared. “Please” Jared implores me, watching the tears wetting his hands, “Babe…”

“I miss you” I sigh, and he finally breaks.

He’s not the type of guy that holds his emotions back, but every time he breaks, my heart aches. I start feeling goosebumps all over my body, with Jared walking away from me. But now that I’ve started letting all this go, I can’t just stop.

“I barely see you, it’s like you’re married to your work, which is good, I’ve always loved how committed you are, but… I can’t help but feel that I’m alone in this”

I don’t receive an answer, Jared is leaned on the kitchen island and all I can see is his back.

“Every day I get home and do my best to get to you, I know I will hardly ever understand all the stress that you go through with your work, but I just want… I want you to notice me”

“I notice you” He replies, still in the same position, “You know I do”

“Jared, come on! This week, just this week, how many times have you got in bed before 3 am?”

“I’ve been working…”

“Just answer the damn question!” I shout, letting all the pressure go off my chest.

“None” He answers, finally turning around to look at me.


His eyes are focused on the door and I see the tears falling freely from his eyes.

“You don’t stop, not even for five minutes, to just sit and talk to me, or eat dinner. Every night I go to bed alone and I can’t stand this solitude anymore”, I take a minute to breath, hoping to get any comment from him, but Jared stays silent, “You’re gonna leave for tour soon, and I’m gonna be alone again, we should be using this little time we have to spend it together”

His eyes are still on the door, maybe thinking of ways to escape this inevitable conversation, the tears keep running and I notice he’s started to bite his bottom lip.

“I’m not the only one to blame” He finally says, and I gasp when his eyes lay on me.

“Oh, so you think I don’t blame myself for everything that is happening? That I don’t spend all those hours alone in bed thinking that maybe it was something I did, or said? There are time when you don’t even touch me, Jared, and it hurts more than your absence and silence”

I know I probably look like shit right now, with my make up all over my face, red eyes and the face wet by the tears, and yet he still looks like a goddamn fallen angel with his contrite expression and tears.

“Do you still love me, Jared? Or we’re just doing this because it feels comfortable?”

His whole body posture and look on his face changes in less than a second from sad to furious, he even laughs for a second, his hands brushing his hair out of his eyes. When he acknowledges how surprised I am by his reaction he laughs again, one of his hands still on his hair.

“Oh, sorry, I thought you were joking” Jared teases, drying his face with his sleeve, “Seriously, I can’t believe you just said that”

“It’s just what I feel” I sob, “You can’t blame me for thinking something like that”

“Of course I can't” I try to focus on the floor so I don’t have to see how annoyed he is, “But it’s my work, you’ve always seen me like this, we’ve been together for three years, so why now? Is there something I need to know? Because I’m seriously lost”

Am I just going mad or is he really trying to imply that I cheated? I would never, ever do that.

I roll my eyes, starting to walk out of the kitchen, but I hear him shouting my name ordering me to come back.

“You started this, now we finish it!!”

I take a few seconds to rub my sleeves on my cheeks, trying to clean my face, but actually thinking that I messed everything up even more. When I return to the kitchen, I meet Jared’s eyes, filled with anger, arms crossed and lying on one of the counters. I feel a shiver down my spine and I fold my arms to recover myself.

“You want me to go on?” I ask him defensive, and once he nods I continue, “You sure?”

“It can’t get any worse”

“There’s no point of me being here, we moved together to actually be together, not to live like we are doing now”

“You’re done?” I nod, and wait for him to organize his ideas, “My turn then”

Jared sighs and starts talking.

“First of all, I’m hurt, how could you possible think that I don’t love you?!” He shouts, and the shivers come back to my body, “I fucking love you, we’ve had the most amazing three years together, we’ve visited all these wonderful places around the world, got through the most difficult situations, and after all this time, I love you the same way I’ve done since day one”

I feel the tears again and I can’t bear his eyes on mine anymore, so I choose to focus on my shoes, Jared sighs again and continues.

“I want everything to be perfect, I spend all my day talking with people, answering emails, organizing simple things that my stupid record label can’t manage and I don’t even realize how time flies around me” He pauses for a minute and I hear his footsteps getting closer to me, but he stops and stands watching me from a distance, “Do you think I like being all day fixing what other people messes up? I even feel guilty by giving that much work to Emma, she’s got to deal with the same shit that I’ve had to all these years and it’s not even her band, it’s mine, I decided to get into this”

Jared shuts a few seconds, waiting for me to make a comment, every time Emma’s name appears in our conversations I don’t react in a good way. I’ve never believed that nothing has happened between them. So Jared just waits for me to make a remarkable comment about how I don’t want to talk about his assistant, but I don’t say a word and he seems shocked.

“No comments on that? Anyway, I’m sure Emma’s topic will come out other time”, Jared shrugs and continues, “I’m tired, all I want is to stop working for a second and get in bed with you, but once I realize that, it’s too late, I can’t even hold my eyes open” Another step and I finally look at him, “I know you’re awake when I get in bed, I know that you stay awake to wait for me, and I’m sorry, you work all day too and…”

“Please, don’t compare my job to yours, you know I loose the fight there”

“I won’t. But, during this whole conversation, have you stopped to think how I must feel?” I nod, but he laughs, this time, I can feel the sadness, “I believe you, but I don’t think you can imagine how I feel with all this situation”

I stay quiet, looking at his bright eyes and I see a small smirk, his hands brush his hair and I notice the tears again.

“I can’t stand it sometimes, having to be all day in that studio” Jared shakes his head, starting to dry his tears again and I feel mine too, he ends up shrugging with a smile and his eyes avoiding mine, “I can’t blame you for all this, it’s all on me, but I can’t just leave my work”

“I know” I sob, “And I’m not gonna force you either”

“I’ll understand if you leave”

When I finally acknowledge what he’s saying, he’s already leaving the kitchen, still using one of his sleeves to dry the tears. My body reacts too late to follow him, and once I get to the studio I hear the click of the lock.


My breathing turns heavy and I feel my knees getting weak. I manage to get to our bedroom and I start crying, letting go all that my chest held on while talking to Jared. I know he can hear my sobbing and how I scream trying to control the tears, but he doesn’t comes to see me.

I’m not leaving him, how could I possibly leave the only person that makes me feel whole? We understand each other, and that’s why we got along so well. We could easily know what the other was feeling just by looking at our faces, but now, even though we were still able to do so, we were ignoring all that we felt.

I take off my clothes and lie in bed just in my underwear, I don’t have the will to get dressed. I spend hours thinking about our relationship, the good and the bad moments and how the whole conversation turned out.

The clock hits five and I haven’t slept a minute, I don’t know how I’m still crying, in silence this time. Small sobs come out from time to time, but I hold my sadness in complete silence. I hear the footsteps on the stairs, yet I don’t move. When Jared starts taking off his clothes I don’t turn to say a word, I just stay in the same position, waiting for him. He gets under the blankets and traces my naked shoulders with his shaking hands. Goose bumps make my body shiver and I start sobbing again.

“For a second…” He says, his voice a little brittle, “I really thought you were going to leave”

“You know I wouldn’t do that” I whisper, turning around to face him, “I love you, and nothing would change that, not even a life away from you”

Jared rests his forehead on mine, his hand tracing my arm and shoulder, while the other holds my face.

“I don’t deserve you” I hear him whisper, and I’m about to protest, but he silents me with his index finger on my lips, “But I love you, we love each other, and we’ll get through this, it’s no the first time we have difficulties”

“It’s the first time you let me leave you”

“You should”

“I won't”

“I know” Jared mumbles, pulling my body closer to him, “And you don’t know how fearful that makes me feel”

I can’t wait for the day when someone comes up to Maya and starts highkey flirting with her and idk maybe she goes on a date with him and maybe they have a relationship for a couple of episodes? And he’s nice to her bc she’s precious and deserves a relationship that actually works? And then Lucas has some kind of crisis, idk maybe something about his family and the only one he wants to talk to is Maya and so he comes to her house and they talk all night and then in the morning her boyfriend comes knocking on her door and she hides Lucas under her bed and he’s like Maya wtf are you doing but she just tells him to be quiet. So her boyfriend asks if she wants to go to school with him but she lies and says she’s going with Riley and he’s like …why haven’t you slept tonight what have you been doing bc he can see that she’s still wearing the same makeup and clothes as yesterday. And she just says she’s been studying and he doesn’t believe her but he doesn’t say anything. And after he leaves Lucas comes out and is like why do you even date him and Maya’s like ???because he’s nice and I like him??? But Lucas just stares at her and asks why did she hide him under the bed and why did they have a deep conversation all night and didn’t it mean anything to her? And she’s like what the hell yes we are friends, so of course it meant something to her. And Lucas is like do you feel the same way about your boyfriend like you did about me in Texas and Maya’s like why are you asking me this I thought we dropped all that?? And Lucas is like well then why did you feel like you had to hide me when your boyfriend came here? And Maya’s like OMG WILL YOU STOP. IDK WHY. And then she’s like Lucas do you still have feelings for me? And Lucas is like what no I thought you still had feelings for me? And Maya’s like wtf I have a boyfriend? And he raises his eyebrows “A boyfriend you just lied to?” And Maya just stares at him and tells him they’re late for school.
And in school they act all weird around each other and everyone’s just like are you guys ok?? And they try to act casual and she even tries to ha-hurr him, but she gets too close and he just stares at her and the tension is crazy, so later at Topanga’s, Maya’s boyfriend asks if she and Lucas have a history and Maya waves it off and says it was a long time ago. But the boyfriend’s like “is that why you hid him under your bed this morning?” And Maya’s all terrified and tries to ensure him they just talked because Lucas has had a rough time lately but her boyfriend just smiles and asks “then why did you lie about it?” And Maya just sits there and doesn’t know what to say and he just hugs her and says it’s ok, she’s the most amazing, yet scary girl he’s ever met and she’s gonna be hard to get over, but he’ll be alright. And then he walks out of there, past all of the friends who were sitting outside this whole time. And Zay’s like, bro, go talk to her and pushes Lucas inside. So Lucas sits down next to Maya and after a while he asks why she lied about them talking all night and she’s like idk why are you so curious. And he’s like because it feels like you still have feelings for me and Maya is like “don’t flatter yourself Ranger Rick” and he’s like WHY DO YOU KEEP CALLING ME NAMES MAYA I DON’– and then Maya just grabs his shirt and kisses him and omg I accidentally wrote Lucaya fanfiction again what is the matter with me

The Princess Diaries 2: The Royal Engagment Sentence Meme
  • "You have to write."
  • "I'm very proud of you."
  • "My mother surprised me by marrying my high school teacher."
  • "We're just friends now."
  • "It's the princess from America!"
  • "There was no course in Queen or How to Run a Country 101."
  • "Will I ever be ready?"
  • "I'm going to live in a beautiful palace like in a fairy tale and eventually sit on the throne and rule."
  • "Welcome home, Princess."
  • "The one downer in my fairy tale is I've never been in love."
  • "Maybe I'll meet my Prince Charming tonight."
  • "The eagle is flying."
  • "A queen is never late, everyone else is simply early."
  • "I hope they have string cheese."
  • "And you obviously don't speak English."
  • "Have you met the princess yet?"
  • "Is this an American custom?"
  • "I'll survive, Your Highness."
  • "Are you sure you don't want to exchange licenses and proof of insurance?"
  • "The swelling should help them fit better."
  • "Looks like they're trying to land a plane!"
  • "Woodland animals are a lovely thing to be compared to."
  • "I'm sorry I stepped on your foot."
  • "You can step on my foot anytime."
  • "If this were my party, we'd be kissing by now."
  • "No harm, no foul, no bruise."
  • "Please don't curtsy like that."
  • "How do you turn off the curtsies?"
  • "Can I explore a little bit?"
  • "Shut up!"
  • "We've never enforced that law!"
  • "She deserves the same right as any man!"
  • "How do they expect me to find love in thirty days?!"
  • "An arranged marriage is my only choice."
  • "I dream of love, not fondness."
  • "You don't have to be queen/king."
  • "Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear."
  • "I want to make a difference as a ruler."
  • "I'm doing a background check on____."
  • "I would gladly take a bullet for you."
  • "I offered to have them hung by their toes in our courtyard."
  • "Have you met him?"
  • "We will present ourselves with grace and poise."
  • "They always do that."
  • "I will personally get some ice for your foot."
  • "We danced and I flirted."
  • "I feel so stupid right now."
  • "This is your very own suite."
  • "This is so cool!"
  • "I have my own mall!"
  • "I just love to look at him/her."
  • "Right on!"
  • "Does this popcorn taste like pears?"
  • "You ever take those shades off?"
  • "Shall we have some tea?"
  • "Let them bond."
  • "Every marriage in my family for the past one hundred years has been arranged."
  • "Your task is to romance her/him."
  • "I was just admiring my ring."
  • "You know, he/she is so romantic!"
  • "I'm not here."
  • "It was more than a minute."
  • "Well aren't you just...crafty."
  • "Lie dance?"
  • "The point is that I'm onto you!"
  • "He/she was in a closet with him/her?"
  • "The wedding invitations have been sent out."
  • "I would kneel if it weren't for my knee replacement."
  • "We are learning the art of the fan."
  • "Are you sassing your grandma?!"
  • "A princess never chases a chicken."
  • "I can't ride sidesaddle."
  • "It's a wooden leg."
  • "That is impressively sneaky!"
  • "I don't like you."
  • "You shouldn't hide, it only makes them gossip more."
  • "What do you want?"
  • "I don't need this right now!"
  • "You never think about anyone but yourself."
  • "Can you let me be miserable and not make me feel worse about myself?"
  • "____ doesn't have boyfriends/girlfriends, they have dates."
  • "It's a shame you're not attracted to them."
  • "I didn't hear you mention love."
  • "You're so jealous."
  • "You can't just go around kissing people, particularly not engaged people!"
  • "You want to kiss again?"
  • "What's so confusing about a kiss?"
  • "Maybe I just like kissing you."
  • "Why don't you go under water and I'll count to a million?"
  • "Why do you talk like that?"
  • "Most of them are orphans, we take care of as many as possible."
  • "Would you like to be a prince/princess today?"
  • "They're letting the children join them, how charming."
  • "It's time for mattress surfing!"
  • "Darling, when they tell your story, they'll call your heart of gold your crowing glory."
  • "You've fallen in love with her/him."
  • "But you care for them."
  • "Are you sure I didn't burn you?"
  • "We can have tasty finger sandwiches together!"
  • "Could I see you one more time before I go?"
  • "I'll find a way."
  • "Have you been thinking about us?"
  • "You were the someone I wanted to spend the rest of my life with."
  • "They're throwing pebbles!"
  • "And I won't respond to that line, it's far too cheesy."
  • "This really is more romantic in the books."
  • "Tell me a secret."
  • "No one knows what's in your heart."
  • "I love I Love Lucy reruns."
  • "That's a fact, not a secret."
  • "The secret is...I still want to."
  • "We stayed out all night."
  • "Have a nice life!"
  • "I promise you nothing happened."
  • "I'm getting married today."
  • "Now, this is what I call a closet."
  • "Being married is about being yourself, with someone else."
  • "I look like a moose."
  • "He/she kind of does look like a poodle."
  • "Come and sweep him/her off their feet."
  • "I should have known!"
  • "Doesn't matter, I'll run."
  • "How am I supposed to herd sheep with a bike?"
  • "I'm a girl who loves black and is wearing pink."
  • "The maids know everything."
  • "Is this part of the plan?"
  • "I'm going to need a minute or two."
  • "Out of my way!"
  • "I can't do this!"
  • "Don't make the same mistakes I did."
  • "You can go in that church and get married or you can walk away."
  • "I won't be getting married today."
  • "Would you force them to do what you're trying to make me do?"
  • "I refuse to be king/queen."
  • "Just think how lovely he/she will look on our postage stamp."
  • "Stare them down."
  • "I like change."
  • "Just because I didn't get my fairy tale ending, doesn't mean you shouldn't."
  • "Put me down!"
  • "I'm in love with the king/queen-to-be and I'm inquiring if he/she loves me too."
  • "Do you have a chicken for my table?"
  • "I think I can hear you without a phone."
  • "I solemnly promise so to do."
Paramore Sentence Starters
  • "I don't even know myself at all, I thought I would be happy by now."
  • "It's just a spark but it's enough to keep me going."
  • "Every night i try my best to dream tomorrow makes it better."
  • "Well maybe I'm not perfect, at least I'm working on it!"
  • "Someday you're gonna be the only one you've got."
  • "Try to remember how it felt, to just make up your own steps."
  • "Once a whore you're nothing more I'm sorry, that'll never change."
  • "There's a million other girls/boys who do it just like, looking as innocent as possible to get to who."
  • "Why you wanna please the world, leave yourself to drop dead?"
  • "Why do I defend your ignorance?"
  • "Ignorance is your new best friend."
  • "It's not a war, no, it's not a rapture."
  • "I'm just a person, but you can't take it."
  • "Just fall in love with yourself."
  • "I watched his/her wildest dreams come true, not one of them involving you."
  • "Don't let me fall asleep, feeling empty again."
  • "I fear I might break, and I fear I can't take it."
  • "We're better off without you."
  • "I think we have an emergency."
  • "If you thought I'd bleed then you were wrong cause I won't stop holding on."
  • "I can't pretend that I don't see this."
  • "Remember cause I know we won't forget at all."
  • "This isn't what you wanted?"
  • "Well I'll still say that you shine brighter than anyone."
  • "Now I think we're taking this too far."
  • "I'll write you just to let you know that I'm alright."
  • "Forget the things we swore we meant."
  • "Maybe if my heart stops beating, it won't hurt this much."
  • "Please don't get me wrong, because I'll never let this go."
  • "I've hoped for change, but I still feel the same."
  • "Everybody knows that we can do this on our own."
  • "Explain to me this conspiracy against me."
  • "I need to know to whom do I owe."
  • "when we get home, I know we won't be home at all."
  • "So we stand here now and no one knows us at all."
  • "Stay with me, this is what I need, please?."
  • "This time I will be listening."
  • "I never wanted to say this, you never wanted to stay."
  • "So what did you think I would say?."
  • "That's what you get when you let your heart win."
  • "If I ever start this straight this heart will start a riot in me."
  • "Baby not a day goes by that I'm not into you."
  • "It's not a walk in the park to love each other."
  • "I'm a renegade it's in my blood."
  • "When I get there it won't be far enough."
  • "You were the greatest thing but now you're just a memory."
  • "Baby now you're one of us."
  • "Don't go crying to your mama cause you're on your own in the real world."
  • "There are darkened places deep in my heart."